Wednesday, August 27, 2003
10:28 p.m.
Thank goodness its the last school day tmr.I swear im gonna die of exhaustion.Anyway,i feel pretty bad now cos i made my CCA teacher cry this afternoon.No elaboration but anyhow, we all agree that we cant make everyone happy right?
Tuesday, August 26, 2003
09:41 p.m.
Im having a chemistry test tmr.(obviously i havent finished studying,of course.)Well, supposed to stay in school to study till 9 with Yong Xue but i ended up abandoning him(wahaha).Sorry friend!
Well well, rehearsals are tmr.Whee.I think im gonna be laughed at for doing the modern ballet.No,thats not my choreography.Haha.
Its really strange to find myself liking him all over again when i have started to hate him.Im so...contradicting!
Anyhow,I have managed to get myself back in shape.Its definitely tough to have survived the tough times alone when your friends arent with you.But im glad ive managed to emerge stronger than what i have been yesterday.Thank you Shu Qin for being there for me:)<3 ya girl!
Oh yes.Hope the PPG will be able to meet up and unite this Saturday!!
Looking forward to see you girls,Michelle and Emily.;)
Saturday, August 23, 2003
11:25 p.m.
Argh.Cant believe i AM actually THAT stupid.Took the wrong bus this morning and i landed up in SengKang.WOW.And as a result,it took me more than an hr to reach school when i it usually takes me just..15 mins.THanKs.
Did i mention i fell down in school last week?Okie,in case u guys are unaware of it,yeah,i slipped and fell while smsing and going down the stairs in the canteen.Stop laughing u ppl out there!
Somehow i feel that this month wasnt any better.Pardon me but fcuk you to those out there who are so freaking irritating and insensitive.Am i petty?Maybe.
We cant please everyone can we?
And now,i officially declare that i am over that..eww...sickening guy?!Hahaa..nth new eh?Oh well!Moving on!more eye-candies on the waeeeeee...
Friday, August 22, 2003
11:56 p.m.
This week was an..emotional rollercoaster.Ive been so moody like never before.So you guys out there, watch out!Haha!Well,dont blame me,blame my hormones.
Yeah.Really hao xiang ni men.haha.I miss how we used to wait for each other after school.(well mostly mich and emily waiting..teehee!Dont blame me,blame my subject combinations!haha!)That seem like just..yesterday.
I think i need to change this layout..its rather..stale.Haha.
Oh,anyway!Im leading the whole school in the mass dance on ACES day!How cool!:)Watch me move!Hahaaaa..
I think i laughed too much in this entry..so emily wont be missing my hearty laughter hor?
HAHAHA!!
Thursday, August 14, 2003
10:54 p.m.
Significant other-
Stuck in school for quite a while due to the heavy rain.Somehow,the rain bought some peace to my mind.I sat at the bench and listened.The air was soothing.I stared into blankness once again and my mind was left drifting away.Then i felt like dancing in the rain.
Yesterday was fun.Stayed back in school to dance till 6 plus.The feeling was awesome.We got so high and we danced like nobody's business.I simply love this cca:)
Anyway, I reckon my Chemistry tutor realised i have this habit of dreaming in class.I was often caught staring into space and i would then snap back into reality when she calls my name.Remember Mich and Emily?Hai,really miss you all.Miss you all calling me zi4 bi4 zheng4.
So Yong Xue!Haha,time to get to work.Wake me up when im off in dreamland yea?(if you are reading this that is).
Sometimes i feel that noone in this school can really understand me.Life isnt good when your best friends arent with you.Theres no one to share your happiness and troubles with.I really have no idea.
Like what Michelle have said,i dont write these to seek attention.
Saturday, August 9, 2003
10:26 a.m.
Look at me
You may think you see
Who I really am
But you'll never know me
Every day
It's as if I play a part
Now I see
If I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now
In a world where I
Have to hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow
I will show the world
What's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection
Someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be
Free to fly
That burns with a need to know
The reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think, how we feel?
Must there be a secret me
I'm forced to hide?
I won't pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
Christina Aguilera-Reflections
Saturday, August 9, 2003
10:14 a.m.
gLassdolLs
Principal's pep talk was yesterday.Sadly,i wasn't motivated at all.In the end, i feared.There was nothing else i want to do.I feared getting retained, but i only hope i could turn back time to start all over again.
Xiao Qi said it's never too late for anything.
When will i get myself out of this complicated life?I thought i had managed to do so a few days ago.It was a lie.I deceived myself.I couldn't.
It hurts tremendously to wait for an answer that you probably won't get.It hurts to have a secret you deep within.It hurts to guess what in the world are you thinking.It hurts to conceal how i feel about you.It hurts to see someone liking somebody else.It just hurts..
Im not afraid of the consequences now.All i want to do now is to study,dance and study.I wouldn't want to think of you any longer.Its unfair.Really.
The worst thing a guy can do is to make a girl fall in love with him with no intention of catching her fall.
I know i can do it.Differences call for changes.I know i can,because i believe.
Pray,thats all i can do now.
Monday, August 4, 2003
04:20 p.m.
YoYO check it out!Its 4.30 pm and im at home updating my blog!Yes,im at HOME!WheEe!:)Haha..
Today was exceptionally great,i guess.:)In the morning i felt super recharged for no apparent reason.Haha..i listened really attentively for GP and bio lect, jotting down whatever that seemed impt to me.Weijie was kinda shocked,and well he asked why my brain was functioning so well today.Serene too.Surprised to see i have changed from a lazy bum to a nerd?I suppose!
I simply hate mood swings.I think i slipped silently into a super PMS state just a while ago without anyone noticing.But after a while i felt okay again.Im weird,but i cant disclose the reason why i was feeling in the dumps.
Overall,i find today a good start for a better future.Haha.OH WELL!
Leaving home for ballet class an hour later.I will work hard..yes!see you soon peeps!:)
Sunday, August 3, 2003
09:42 p.m.
BAbY bLuEs-
The weekends were fine.Im glad.But i cant help thinking about you.
Anyway,I have decided to quit CO.Argh,wadever the reason is.Haha.Stop corrupting my mind!
Oh well..its monday tmr..-_-..i will remember my resolutions..hopefully..
then || now
