Thursday, July 31, 2003 01:05 p.m.
So yeah. Been to the dentist two days in a row now. Got a temporary crown yesterday, and this morning they made the impression for the permanent one. I get to go back one last time for my real crown on the 12th. I'll also be going back to Columbus that evening. Feh. That day's going to suck.
I was all hyped to go to Hattiesburg with Will tomorrow. Took off a day of work and everything, but that fell through. Which really sucks. Now I have to decide whether to come to work tomorrow or take the day off anyway. I probably shouldn't... I'd just sleep all day. Bleah.
I want to go do something this weekend that IS NOT the Grand.
I finally drew one of those ideas in my head yesterday. I'm pretty happy with the way it turned out. Very happy, in fact. I pieced it together using several photos so at least it's not an exact copy of something.
Now, one of two things is going to happen with this drawing. One, I'll go home this afternoon, look at it again, and decide that it really wasn't that good after all and start over. Or two, I'll start coloring and decide that I'm doing a horrible job and give up.
I'm just in that kinda mood right now.
Guh.. I just really want to go home...
Sunday, July 27, 2003 10:24 p.m.
Yeah yeah. I said I'd write yesterday, but I didn't.
Anyway. Let's talk about my weekend. Friday, as usual, I went to the arcade. Played much DDR. Got lots of exercise. LeAnna beat up some little kids. Yay.
I am infuriated though. I was TRICKED into cheating on my diet at Wendy's on Friday evening. I ordered a Diet Coke... and was halfway through it when I realized it was a regular Coke. Grr. It's okay, though. I lost a pound over the weekend, so I'm still on track.
That brings up another issue. I weigh myself way too often. You're only supposed to get on the scale once a week... well, I've been jumping on there twice a day. >.> Your weight fluctuates constantly during the day... so doing what I'm doing now is only going to frustrate me. x.x It's a habit I'll have to break.
Yesterday I went into Gulfport with the folks. I bought a new scanner, which I like very much so far. I also got a couple new pairs of jeans. One of them is a size smaller than I wear now. That's one of my little goals I'm heading for now, dropping a jeans size. So these new jeans are my motivation. Of course, once I get into those, I'll only have one pair of jeans that fit. D'oh.
Yesterday was also the Blogathon. Jen and Aris-chan both participated and made it through all twenty-four hours. Woot! I only sponsored Jen this year, though. >.> Maybe I'll have a little more cash to spread around next year. I think I also wouldn't mind participating myself. I've got a few charities in mind. It would be fun. :D
Today I spent the afternoon scrubbing out the bathroom. Bleah. I hate doing that. I also got to finish the self portrait I was threatening to do. Voila. It doesn't look exactly like me... But close enough I think. Nya. I looked so angsty in the photo I took of myself for it, but my mom told me it made me look artsy. I would really like to title this one "A Portrait of the Artist as an Existentially Angsty Young Woman" but Deviant Art has a dumb character limit.
Work tomorrow. ;.; But Iv'e only got two weeks left. And two and a half weeks til I move back to Columbus. Summer's almost over already. :/
Saturday, July 26, 2003 12:22 a.m.
Just thought I'd share some words of wisdom from my Xplo-sama:
"You take your punk, and your beer, and you jump around, and when someone's like "wtf?" you punch them in the face because they're a fucking pussy, whoever it is."
Smart guy.
I'll write a real entry tomorrow.
Thursday, July 24, 2003 06:06 p.m.
I'm in a very chipper mood today for some reason. I was cranky and nasty last night. I was all set to start coloring the self-portrait I drew... but my scanner decided to die on me. I wasn't happy. I found a replacement. It's pretty much the same that I have now, only it looks a little more streamlined.
I was all prepared to show off the pictures of my newly redecorated room, but I can't get this stupid ftp client to work. Rrrar. I'll figure something out later.
I've lost fifteen pounds so far. Just ten more and I'll reach my first goal. Woot. I'm hoping to lose fifty pounds before Christmas. We'll see if that happens or not. >.>
Tuesday, July 22, 2003 08:52 a.m.
I failed to observe my Xplo-sama's birthday. ;.; I'm not worthy!
But fear not, for I bring good tidings of great joy. I've been informed that Xplomas will last a week this year. There is still time to make your pilgrimage and offer your gifts of money, video games, and virgin sacrifice.
Being the one true teacher and defender of the Word of Xplo (which is usually "Gnuh?"), it is now my duty to find some way to make up for my mistake.
Pray, lest he should decide to rain down his fury on us all.
Monday, July 21, 2003 12:45 p.m.
I hate having my car taken from me. It's like losing my legs. :/ I'm stranded at home, depending on the kindness of others. I wish I lived somewhere where you could survive on public transportation.
In other news, Will gets to go to the Warped Tour in Atlanta on Wednesday. He gets to see Rancid, AFI, and other Cool Guys and I'm an INSANELY JEALOUS kitty. I told him to bring me back a souvenier. A t-shirt, an autograph, Tim Armstrong... but I'm not expecting it. :p
You know, I love live music. It's kind of a rush, you know. But I never, ever get to go to any concerts because I can never find anyone to go with me. :/ I just can't bring myself to go to something like that alone. It's hardly as fun.
And then I have to deal with library patrons who feel the need to repeat themselves twenty times when I've already acknowledged what they've said... and smell so strongly of cigarette smoke it turns my stomach. How do people live with that smell. x.x
Now, if you'll excuse me, I'm going to go stomp around and fume.
Monday, July 21, 2003 10:14 a.m.
Same old ways won't make no difference
I'm so tired of work. I don't want to be here. There's not much left for me to do and I feel somewhat useless.
I'm not getting anything constructive done at home either. I've been pretty sick the past few days. Most of my Sunday was spent in bed. I was finally able to crawl out from under the covers around 2:00. Then I couldn't do much more that watch tv and play a computer game.
I'm getting really tired of being sick too. And sick of being tired. I need more exercise, but everytime I try to work up a sweat at DDR my stomach turns on me. I should start doing Pilates again. I could pop in that DVD after work everyday or something.
My diet is still going, but ever so slowly. I seriously need that exercise. I was hoping to have lost a litte more weight by now than I have. As it is, I'll be glad to have lost 25 pounds by the time school starts. I really, really want to drop a jeans size before then. Right now my shirts are fitting a little more losely. That's it. Nya. Maybe I'll be thinner by January.
Baby steps.
I'm getting to where I'm actually looking forward to school starting again. Up there at least, a lot of the time there's something to do or someone dragging me somewhere to do something.
My friends around here (the few that are still here, anyway) are all preoccupied with work and whatever else they've gotten themselves into. I guess I got too used to having lots of people around.
I used to be soooo much better at being on my own than I am now. People make you soft, you know. :p
Saturday, July 19, 2003 06:56 p.m.
I like the way her skin turned out. I think I'm getting okay at that. Her hair is really off and I don't like the clothes at all. I think for my next project I'll get away from fashion models and do something real. I might actually try a self-portait. I've never seriously done one.
I just need a photograph of myself first. I might have to resort to taking one with my dad's digital camera. But it's hard to take a photo of yourself. >.> I don't want anyone else to do it though. Cause I've got issues.
I want to go to New York City. Or Philadelphia, Boston, Baltimore... I'd settle for St. Louis, Chicago, or even Memphis right now.
Saturday, July 19, 2003 12:26 a.m.
So yeah. I've been spending money like crazy. I bought a camera. Woo. $100. Yay for eBay. I might have to get another lens. But at least I have the camera.
I went to the mall tonight. I got Transplants and Best of Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds at the record store. I am so cool. I finally found the BOB ROSS shirt in my size. Totally awesome. And I bought Mars #12. Yay. I looked for back to school Chelsea, but they didn't have her. They had Nolee, but no Chelsea. I think I'll get Madison before I get Nolee. Back to school Madison is ubernifty.
I still don't understand this.
I also went to the Grand for a little while. Lots of peoples there. Goofed around with the kooky arcade kids. My tummy started hurting so I came home.
I'm eating leftover chicken wings because for supper I had the crappiest salad (read: pile of shredded lettuce) I have ever eaten.
Wednesday, July 16, 2003 03:17 p.m.
I'd have to let all my AIM people know.. change my forum name... maybe new e-mail? My pitas site and my LJ would still stay the same.
I just dunno if an identity change is worth the hassle. Am I really a CrazyMoonDream or am I still the NyankoRocket? I mean, I've been the NyankoRocket for almost four years now, I believe.
Wow. Internet identity crisis. How lame am I?
Anyway. Thoughts?
Wednesday, July 16, 2003 09:16 a.m.
I've been looking online for cameras. It's hard to find something inexpensive that has what I need. Everything is automatic these days. I can never be sure if I'm getting manual f-stop and shutter speed settings. I just know I'm going to get the wrong thing. Rrrar.
I have to stop by Wal-Mart this evening. I need to get stuff for a going away lunch we're having tomorrow. I'm also going to look for a fall series My Scene Chelsea. Last time I was there, they had the new Back to School Madison, maybe they'll have Chelsea this time. I wish you could by the new fashions seperate from the dolls. I want Barbie's back to school and spring outfits, but I don't want to have to buy a new doll. Grr. If I don't have any luck today, I'm going to look in Toys-R-Us on Friday. I might look there anyway... I really want the cafe scene.
I'm a sick girl. ;.;
I need new CDs too. Hopefully the record store will be stocked with Transplants again. And I think I'm going to buy Poe's "Haunted". Or maybe they'll have some Sahara Hotnights.
Monday, July 14, 2003 08:34 p.m.
So, I'm done rolling charts for a while. Yay. Now to find something else to do at work.
Boredom boredom.
My tummy is feeling better. I dunno what was up last week. I ended up spending another weekend at home. I rented Gran Turismo 3 and played that. Finished a couple side thingies in Xenogears. Drew another picture that will get CGed very soon.
I also rented Frida, which I enjoyed very much. Lots of boobs in that picture. I enjoyed it for the story, though. Not the boobs. Anyway, I have a greater appreciation for Frida Kahlo (and Salma Hayek's boobs) but I'm still not superkeen on her art. I'm a bad female artist. We're all supposed to be deeply in love with Frida Kahlo.
I actually ended up with an even bigger change in attitude about Diego Rivera. I always assumed he was horrible to Frida all the time. According to the movie, though, while he was terrible about cheating on her, they were also very much in love and much of the time he was very good to her. So, sleeping with her sister aside, he wasn't that bad. And I like his art better.
I finally got around to watching the copy of The Animatrix I borrowed from Will. I only saw the first five shorts, but it was enough to give me nightmares. The robot Holocaust in The Second Renaissance Part I really disturbed me and the ending of Part II was even worse. I'll watch the rest tonight and never sleep again.
This week is going to go by so slowly. Weeks always go by slowly when you've got nothing in particular to look forward too. :/
So yeah, whatever.
Monday, July 14, 2003 10:07 a.m.
Everything I need to know about dating, I should have learned from Archie comics.
Really, now. Hear me out. Archie was caught in the middle of one of the most famous love triangles of all time. He was constantly torn between the rich, spoiled, Veronica Lodge and the sweet, girl-next-door, Betty Cooper. Veronica was pushy, bossy, and bratty. She was a bitch to poor Archie. Betty was incredibly sweet. She for him constantly and even repaired his old jalopy.
And who did Archie turn to every time? Veronica, of course. Betty bent over backward to please Archie, but it was Ronnie who had him tied around her little finger. And every time she'd drop him for the new guy he'd come crawling back.
So what does this tell me? I'm too damn nice. I've actually been told this by all the Veronicas I know. I've had my Archies mention how they liked their Veronicas because of how "bitchy" they are. I've seen Archie's eyes light up at the mention of a bitchy girl.
So, no matter how many favors I do, how many presents I give, how much sympathy I offer, or how many times I repair their jalopies, my Archies will always turn to the Veronica.
I understand completely how guys find aggressive girls attractive. Confidence is sexy. But what about the Betties? Betty wasn't a complete doormat and I like to think I'm not either, but obviously I lack the aggression and confidence to be a true bitch. I don't want to be mean to my Archie. I want to be nice to him and make him happy.
Should I change from a Betty to a Veronica or should I just learn to forget about my Archies and make do with Veronicas' left overs?
Just don't get me started on the Reggies of the world.
Friday, July 11, 2003 12:34 p.m.
I usually don't hurt this bad unless I get really anxious. My mom tells me I internalize all my anxiety, but I think if I didn't internalize what I do, I'd never stop complaining.
Anyway, I can't think of anything that I have to be anxious about. Or maybe I'm more anxious about something than I think. Or maybe my digestive system has finally decided to turn on me, once and for all.
Either way, it doesn't seem like anything is helping much. I'm out of Prevacid. Pepcid AC and Pepto Bismol aren't working. I've given up eating Tums like candy. I might have some Aciphex around somewhere. But it's probably too old. >.>
I just hope I'm feeling better by tonight. I really want to play Extreme. That's gonna be hard to do if my stomach won't let me stand up for very long... much less move around. x.x
Thursday, July 10, 2003 09:38 p.m.
Will doesn't seem to think that it would be a good idea for me to marry Johnny Depp. I just don't understand why not.
Well, I went to see Pirates of the Carribean last night with Will, Adam, and Jennifer. It was the most fun I've had at a movie in a while. I am all about some swordfights and swashbuckling. And Johnny Depp. I like Orlando Bloom okay, but it was all about CAPTAIN Jack Sparrow. I love a pirate with style.
We stopped by the book store before catching the show. I looked for the latest volume of Mars, but no luck. I did pick up my very own Atkins carb counter (Adam says I don't need to diet. Very sweet boy, but I wonder if he needs glasses or something) and Chuck Palahniuk's latest. It's a little non-fiction walk through Portland, Oregon. Verra, verra interesting so far. I think you Portlanders need to pick it up. You might walk a little more carefully down the street afterward. >.>
After the movie, we played Amplitude. I didn't lose as miserably as I used to. I didn't win all that much either. I thought I was going to take first place at one point there, but Adam pulled ahead and we tied. :o I can never get first on my own. Last time I tied with Will. ;.;
And if you're wondering, no... I didn't get to sleep at a decent hour. It was probably 2:30 AM before I got into bed (after smashing the hell out of my toe on it, it's STILL sore). Will said I would stay too long playing Amplitude. Should have listened to him. So yeah, I went to work this morning on two and a half hours of sleep (If you know me at all, you know I've had NAPS last longer than that).
And you know the first thing I did when I got there? That's right. SOMEONE ELSE'S JOB. Feh.
I got to leave early, though. Went to the dentist to get my root canalled tooth filled. I dozed off in the chair while waiting for the Novacaine to kick in. Speaking of, I ended up getting about twelve injections. No exaggeration. My face was numb for hours.
Didn't keep my tooth from hurting like crazy, though. I took a Lorcet and crawled into bed when I got home. I slept for a few hours. That was nice.
I also got a $300 scholarship for next year. It's only $150 a semester but it'll be a nice little addition to my stockpile. I have no clue why I got it. It just arrived out of the blue. Awesomeness.
I think I'm going to go play XENOGEARS. I've only got a month or so to finish it so I can finally get it back to Will before I leave for school. (Is summer already almost over? ;.; I'll have to hurry up and make the most of what's left...)
Someone tell me some mp3s I need to download. I'm at a loss.
Monday, July 7, 2003 06:26 p.m.
Anime Title Generator. Hee.
Well. The room is done. It still smells of paint fumes, but you get used to it. It looks realy swank, if I do say so myself. We did some rearranging so I've got a whole lot more space too. I can't believe that took all weekend. x.x My thighs are sore from all the squatting I did while painting. >.>
I'll upload a picture or two once I download them of the camera.
I think I would have rather painted another room than go back to work today. Grr. Not only were people annoying, I was bored out of my mind. I'm about to start counting down to my last day.
I bored. I need to draw something so I can color with my tablet again (Wheee!) I also need to get into this Harry Potter book sitting on my night stand.
I'm hungry.
That is all.
Friday, July 4, 2003 11:10 p.m.
I hear Barry White died today. There's a little less soul in the world today.
I also spent all day painting my room. My hands and arms are covered in red paint. :o It took us all day to clear out my room, take off a wallpaper border and start painting. Tomorrow we have to go to town and get more red paint. The red walls need at least another coat. Then I can start putting my room back together. I've got to sleep in the living room tonight.
You're so cool, baby. Oooh, how I wish I could dance. I'd really get your attention.
I finished my first tablet coloring job. Her name is Roxanne. Tell me what you think, because I really don't know what I think. I have a like/not like relationship with this woman.
The way you move is unmistakable. I'll see you in Ibiza, baby.
Background Noise: Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds - The Ship Song
Background Noise: Ash - Kung Fu
Background Noise: Nick Cave - Into My Arms
Background Noise: Elvis Costello - Veronica
I'm a heel. I'm a selfish little troll. I've spent too much time lately wallowing in my own little problems that I've neglected my duties as a priestess/prophetess. Due to nothing more than sheer lack of concious thinking, I've commited heresy.
A good day gets better. I tried to drive over to my mom's office for lunch... but guess what? My car won't start. Joy joy. I'm guessing it's just the battery, but what do I know? I think I need new tires too. ARGH.
Background Noise: Humming Sahara Hotnight's "Are You Happy Now?" to myself...
I'm out looking for a change
You like to play it safe
Well, it's a big mistake
You'd better learn it never pays
Well. I finished another coloring job on my tablet. http://www.deviantart.com/view/2461458 Yeah. Another drawing from the pages of Cosmo. It's just practice anyway, really.
Background Noise: SOAD vs. Wu Tang - Shame on a Nigga
Yeah. So I'm thinking about changing my screenname. It's already my new Yahoo! ID... "crazymoondream" It's from my favorite Sifl and Olly song, "Star Pilot" (Which I need an mp3 of if anyone has one to share...).
I'm at work... and I've got nothing to do. I'm incredibly bored. Want to go home nooooow. I've got a papercut on my palm that's about an inch long.
Background Noise: Sifl and Olly - United States of Whatever
I just realized something.
Ugh. I am not a happy kitty. My stomach has been giving me hell since Tuesday. Not only have I had raging heartburn, it's also been all tied up in knots. I don't know what's going on.
Background Noise: The Transplants - Down in Oakland
Background Noise: System of a Down - Deer Dance
Background Noise: DJ HMX and Plural - Cool Baby
