Well. Whatever works. :p I don't think I'll be doing a whole lot to ring in the New Year. I'm content to see it in in my own quiet little way. I feel really good about this one, though. Things are looking up and I'm determined to make 2003 an even better year than 2002.

In other news, I just sorted the mail here at work and found three journals completely soaked with rain water. Nothing icks me out quite like wet magazine paper. Ew.

Anyway, have a good New Year everyone and best of luck for the next 365.

Monday, December 30, 2002 09:13 a.m.
I took my last pill yesterday, and I'm hurting right now. x.x

Speaking of, I think I'm going to drop a class I have scheduled for next semester. My doctor fussed at me for taking so many hours last semester and he fussed even more when he found out I was doing it again this coming semester. I guess my stomach will never heal if I keep doing stuff to get it all churned up.

So, I think I'll drop Photography. Doctor's orders. It would have been my most stressful class anyway. That way I can at least focus on other classes. And other non-class things. I'm determined to make this semester as enjoyable as the last one was stressful. Of course, now I'll only have one studio course... but maybe i can put all my energy into that and make some really good stuff. The rest of my classes are core stuff that I really need to get out of the way.

LeAnna got Animal Crossing for Christmas. I got to start a character and all. She's so cute. I haven't gotten to play much at all, but I'll probably be hooked on it whenever we get back to school. LeAnna and I will be fighting over it. >.> At least I'll have The Sims for my computer soon. I'll have to burn a whole lot of mp3s and DivX anime... my HD is painfully small.

I had the weirdest dream the other night. It's not what happened that was weird. It was pretty normal for one of my dreams... but it was strangely emotionally charged. I woke up feeling really weird. Now I'm wondering if my subconcious is trying to tell me how I really feel about the person/thing/situation I dreamed about. Either that or I'm crazy. And I'm sure that made a whole lot of sense. >.>

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Friday, December 27, 2002 02:51 p.m.
So, I'm sitting here reading Small Stories and one in particular sounded very familiar to me. I was "the artist" in my class too. I wasn't terribly good, though. But good enough I guess. (I still don't think I'm terribly good. Especially not after looking at Derek Kirk's stuff.)

Anyway, a lot of the stuff he talks about in that comic happened to me in high school. Everyone would talk about how famous I was going to be (I won't be. Today artists don't get "famous" at all.) and then I was always drawing stuff for people.

But, I remember senior year... everyone wanted me to draw in their yearbooks, as usual. This year it was all the guys in my Physics and Computer App classes wanting "one of those hot anime chicks." A lot of these guys I considered my friends and I was happy to oblige. Jon, Craig, Martin... they all left my long messages in my yearbooks telling me to keep in touch and all. (I did for a while, but time and distance got in the way. The way things go, you know. No matter how much you like a person, if they aren't there... you both forget.)

There was one guy who I'd known for a while and we'd had polite conversation and all.. but nothing too friendly. He asked me to draw a hot chick in his yearbook too. He was very specific about what he wanted and watched over my shoulder as I drew during the off period between classes. The bell rang before I even got to initial the drawing, much less write a little message like I did with all the other yearbooks. He said he'd catch me later and get me to write something. He never did. He saw me plenty of times, but never bothered. I realized then that that had happened a lot. All the kids from the really popular crowd always wanted something drawn, and I'd get my hopes up... thinking that maybe we'd strike up some sort of friendship. But as soon as they got their drawing, I went back to not existing.

Anyway. I'm not whining or anything. I didn't fit in with those people in the first place, and I don't think my life is any worse for not being in their crowd. But, I just thought it was interesting that it's happened to other people. I didn't even think about it, but I imagine that's what high school was like for every shy kid who could draw. These days I don't draw as much anymore. And I only draw for my friends. Either that, or I demand payment. :p

Strangely enough, thinking about this has actually made me nostalgic.

Friday, December 27, 2002 10:43 a.m.
I'm sitting here at work, freezing my butt off. I don't know if they even have the heat on. I wish I had brought my gloves. It's hard to type and keep your hands in your coat pockets. My nose is all runny now and it's making me sleepy. This is miserable.

I get to go to J's for lunch in about thirty minutes, though. Hurrah. :o I love J's. I want some crab fingers. Rrrar! I dunno if I want a po' boy or a baked potato, though. Maybe I'll just get two orders of crab fingers.

Anyway. I ramble. Because I'm hungry.

Last night LeAnna and I were going to go see Chamber of Secrets. I've seen it before, but she's just now been bitten by the Potter Bug so she wanted to catch it before it left the theaters. It was only playing as a matinee in Gulfport, and I couldn't make it because of work. So she calls Bay St. Louis and finds out that it's playing at 6:Something there. So... we wander to the Bay to discover that it's not playing there at all. We felt so deceived. LeAnna was disappointed. She's in love with Ron Weasley.

I also go to see Will's new car last night. It's a shiny new silver 2003 Eclipse. Very sexy. He needs to take me for a ride in it sometime. Because of the lack of Harry Potter, we ended up at the arcade with Will. As per usual. It was packed. A lot of the usual crowd was there.

And then there was a bunch of annoying people. As well as Mr. Camo Pants and Eminem. There was a group of girls who jumped around on the DDR pad and squealed til the song failed. LeAnna and I are going to try that sometime. There was also a guy who did a little Will-style freestyling. Will was not flattered, but I think he'll be alright as long as no one steals his Nori Nori Nori routine. :p

I spent most of my time playing Soul Calibur II. I was working on my Ivy conquest character, Laurel. I've become so much better with her. I can make her do all kinds of pretty moves. I think she was up to Platinum Apprentice when I left her. Rocket (my Cassandra), on the other hand, does better without me I think. I just can't play her as well as I used to. I just need more practice, I think. I know a lot of her moves... I just need to work on using them better. She's managing to stay a Gold (sometimes Platinum) Soldier of the Cerberus. x.x I've lost interest in my Xianghua, though. Poor thing. I started a Raphael character too.. but that was mostly me just futzing around.

I'm rambling again. Are you still awake?

I've been meaning to do some drawing during the break. I need it desperately. I suck. :/ I need to buy a binder so I can go back to collecting reference photos. I'm so lazy.

I'm also so cold and hungry. I think I'm going to go and find a warm place.

Bai.

I WAS A GIFTED CHILD
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Unfortunately, I didn't grow up to be a terribly gifted adult. And this photo disturbs me. >.>

Thursday, December 26, 2002 10:03 a.m.
Background Noise: Diana Krall - I've Got You Under My Skin

Now, just because I feel like being silly, here's my last entry translated into Jive.

Rrrah'! Christmas be ova'. , dig dis:o

I had some badass one. Ya' know? Lots o' eats an' presents an' sucka's. Da bomb! I dun did pretty well dis yaih'. Word to yo' mama. I gots Da "Once Upon some Time in China" D-V-fuckin'-D boxset (down low, Mmmm. Jet Li.) *hargle* an' Jackie Chan's "Legend o' Drunken Masta'". An' I gots deuce Cds, System o' some Waaay down an' Diana Krall. One 'estreme t' da damn otha'. >. Slap mah 'fro!> I final-like gots some xerox o' Robert Jordan's Winta's Heart, but I is plum now startin' from da beginnin' wit' da damn Wheel o' Time series. Aaaand... whut else.. I gots some nifty Spida'-nigga' book an' da damn Sims Crib Party an' Hot Date 'espansion pax. Yay! I need t' wait until Sims Deluxe be relaised 4 Macintosh b4 I kin play, though. Fuckin' A! Caint wait. >.> An' final-like, I gots da "Illustrata' 10 Wow! Book" an' Mars volume 7.

Whew.

Mah dad gots some digital camera. He be been playin' wit' it all day. I might post some kinda' pictures an' stuff once he downloads them off da camera. , dig dis:D

Oh, in case yo' ass aint got seen... I is wo'm food". Which be 24/7 fun.

System o' Some Waaaaay Down and Spida'-nigga'. Don't get much better than that.

see who you are here

Ah! Claudia was always my favorite. :D

Wednesday, December 25, 2002 09:29 p.m.
Background Noise: System of a Down - Chick N' Stu

Rrrar! Christmas is over. :o

I had a good one. Lots of food and presents and people. I did pretty well this year. I got The "Once Upon a Time in China" DVD boxset (Mmmm. Jet Li.) *hargle* and Jackie Chan's "Legend of Drunken Master". And I got two CDs, System of a Down and Diana Krall. One extreme to the other. >.> I finally got a copy of Robert Jordan's Winter's Heart, but I'm just now starting from the beginning with the Wheel of Time series. Aaaand... what else.. I got a nifty Spiderman book and the Sims House Party and Hot Date expansion packs. Yay! I need to wait until Sims Deluxe is released for Macintosh before I can play, though. Can't wait. >.> And finally, I got the "Illustrator 10 Wow! Book" and Mars volume 7.

Whew.

My dad got a digital camera. He's been playing with it all day. I might post some pictures and stuff once he downloads them off the camera. :D

Oh, in case you haven't seen... I'm dead". Which is always fun.

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Monday, December 23, 2002 10:40 a.m.
Background Music: Utada Hikaru - Automatic -album edit-

Ah! I love Utada Hikaru. I might have to break down and buy her latest album. :d

Nya, it's been forever since I updated this thing. Not a whole heck of a lot has happened.

Mostly Christmas stuff. I've already gotten some neat presents. Will gave me the fourth Trigun DVD. Yay! Just what I wanted. :o I haven't watched it yet, LeAnna said I couldn't watch it without her. Maybe next time we're watching movies at Will's place we'll see it. Drew and Lisa got me the network adaptor for my PS2. Which is so very awesome. *_* I can't wait to get back to school to test it out. I can play Frequency online. *_*

I've been to the doctor more times this break than I care for. I've had chronic heartburn for ages now, and he ended up doing an endoscopy, I think it's called. They put a camera down my throat, basically. >.> The actual test wasn't that bad. I was out for most of it. Getting the IV was the bad part. It took them four tries to get it to work. I got all woozy and nearly passed out at one point. >.> Now I'm getting bruises all over the back of my hands. Anyway, all the doctor found was a bunch of inflamation. He said it looked like it was beginning to heal, so that's good.

Unfortunately, I was miserable all weekend. I had heartburn so bad Saturday I couldn't get much of anything done. :/ Sunday was better. I was fine all morning while I was at the arcade with LeAnna, Will, Pat, and Harry... but after we had lunch I was feeling icky again. It's no fun.

Speaking of lunch, I'm starving right now. I've got at least another hour before I eat, though. Blah.

Well. That was a boring entry. I'll try harder next time. -_-

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Tuesday, December 10, 2002 11:23 p.m.
Background Noise: Queens of the Stone Age - No One Knows

You know, the quickest way to make yourself feel lonely is to make two of the people most important to you angry. It wasn't really intentional, but I still feel like a heel. I'm sure things will be better in a while. They're good people... important to me for a reason. *nod*

Pat isn't mad though. Just confused. Poor guy. And he has a new LJ. Apparently he's just one of many of the people I know who are have a really tough semester. Seems like everything's crashing down on everyone this month.

This has been possibly my toughest semester yet, not only with school, but with personal things and other stuff. Still pales in comparison to stuff everyone else is going through. I'm making myself worse, though... I get terrible heartburn and breakouts when I'm stressed and I make it worse by eating bad. Bleah. I'm turning myself into a fat little troll.

Anyway, this past weekend was fun. We had a little suprise going away party for Jen. Will even drove up to make an appearance. He also neglected sleep and food and had me all worried when he got all clammy and shaky at the end of the day Saturday. Silly boy. Anyway, the best part was seeing how suprised Jen was, especially when she opened her shiny new GameCube. I got to play a little bit of Animal Crossing... it is soooo very cute. And soooo very addicting. *_*

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Friday, December 6, 2002 11:06 p.m.
Background Noise: Jennifer Lopez - Jenny from the Block

I'm done with classes for this semester. Yay. :D Now I gotta get ready for finals.

My grandma, aunt and uncle, and Aris-chan are all caught in that nasty snow storm out North Carolina way. Aris-chan's at his grandma's house, but my relatives are stuck with no power or heat. :/ Hope the weather straightens up soon.

The other day, Max posted on the DDR Forums about a dream he had that involved most of the Mississippi DDR players. In short, Max went to McDonald's to play DDR, Will was behind the counter until a loin-clothed Pat proceeded to beat him with a chair. Then Des came buy carrying a Yoda-sized Julian in her backpack. And then from out of nowhere comes naked Jeff singing YMCA.

I only tell you this because it's necessary to understand the flash animation Julian made. I don't think I've ever laughed so hard.

I bought the first Harry Potter book today. I'm weak. ._. I won't be reading tonight, though. I rented Tony Hawk 4. :D Hoo-wooty. Here I come, Bam

I really want some KFC popcorn chicken. Rrrroar.

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Sunday, December 1, 2002 10:26 p.m.
Background Noise: Aqua Teen Hunger Force

Send some prayers or good karma Jen's way. Her grandma is sick. I know how she feels. :/

I got an e-mail a few days ago from a Mr. Kong, but I was unable to reply to the e-mail address given. If he'd like to catch me on AIM (the name is NyankoRocket) or whatever, that'd be cool.

I drove back to school from home today... I was a little too sleepy. I probably should have stopped more often. LeAnna was following me and she swears I was doing 60 mph the whole way. But I had my cruise control set to 75 mph. One of our speedometers is messed up.

I smell mac n' cheese and it's making me hungry.

Meatwad is so cute.

I'm a Ravenclaw!

Oooh. Nifty.