We, our section, were confronted with the same question during our first week in where our FCM (Family and Community Medicine) requires us to have a self-evaluation and answer a couple of question including the one stated above. Honestly, I did not take the assignment that seriously for some unknown reason that I actually cannot decipher until now. A week after, the deadline of the paper arrive. Some of my classmates are asked to share what they have written in their assignments. Good thing was I was not one of the randomly picked people. However, as my classmates narrate their answers I just realized that I should have had taken it seriously for that will be something that I can hold into as I go through med.

How do I envision myself 10 to 20 years from now?

I have been raised by my parents in such a way that in every new beginning that I will take in my life I should always be able to answer this with full conviction. This might probably be the reason why I immediately finish answering that question as soon as I did my assignment. But thinking about that again, how do I really envision myself 10 to 20 years from now? I think I know how to answer the question directly but I also think that I cannot tell it with full conviction. I cannot even convince myself that I will be such a person with a lot of karugtong after my name 10 years from now (e.g. M.D. FPPA, DPPA etc.)Furthermore, I do not even know if the specializations that I wanted to pursue after med proper do exist. Actually, the primary question is will my parents allow me to pursue such career knowing that they wanted me to marry before 28 (No…actually they just wanted to have a grand child but I think that’s implied also that I have to marry by then…) which I think I cannot manage to comply. 

    Going back to answering that simple question really stress me even though it is not much of a big deal. We are even done with that assignment and our professor might have finished reading all our essays (or novels for some) but yet I really do think I should figure that out as soon as possible… As much as I wanted to say that I’ll just live my life one day at a time it still do bother me for I think that deciphering the almost concrete answer to that question will help me organized the things that I must do to be able to reach that besides 10 to 20 years is not that long. I might regret not doing things that I should have done if I am still unable to envision myself by that time.

    Hay, probably the next time I’ll blog about ComMed I already know the answer with full certainty. As of now, I just know that I do enjoy what I am doing and I’ll forever be praying that I will have the same passion as long as forever.

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