By the start of 2005, there are three of us... Sharing happy moments- breakfast together, drinking coffee, attending org meetings, dance rehearsals and a lot more. A lot of good moments. OUR happy faces... I did not anticipate that those happy moments will end that fast. It was never made known to me that Aiz will also leave at the same time that I left you. If I just only knew...

I can still vividly recall that day in 2005 when you used to chide me of living in a dormitory. Yah. My fault. I thought I will never stay in a dormitory as soon as I left UPB however I really had a hard time traveling to and fro during the first months of my stay. That is why I HAVE to be in a dormitory again. But believe me... your words are like a two edged sword that strikes my chest. I was very shocked. I never expected your reactions.

Yes, it was in 2005 when I left all of my friends. The year when I left you- alone. But it was never my choice. I have had created a lot of plans for my future and all of them fade when I left. I was broken. How I wish you knew the depression that I felt every single day that I spent without you and Aiz. I pray every single day that my parents will allow me to travel back to Baguio just to share some time with you. I was even very eager to see you when I knew that you are at Manila last December. Actually, hearing you call my name AGAIN makes my heart jump. I very much miss that. I hope to hear that again... :blush:

In 2005, I left you with a promise. Sorry, but I think I can never fulfill that promise anymore. I know that you understand but it was hard for me to accept that I did break it. You know that I don't usually make promises that I will eventually break. But this one is different. I never intend to break it. It just happened.

Reminiscing has never been this hard for me. I never thought that looking back to the events that happened last 2005 will be this painful. I never even realized the impact that I did when I left. I was all coming back to me right now... Believe me, I never anticipated that those things will happen to you. It was as if I have a mirror right in front of me. A mirror that reflects everything – every event that had happened. And yes, I now know the feeling- the pain. I'M SORRY!

I know this is easier said than done but I'll make it up to you... SOON!

                                                                    ... Cause time will pass me by

                                                                    Maybe I'll never learn to smile

                                                                    But I know we'll make it through

                                                                    if you'll wait for me...

                                                                    Say you'll wait for me...