.*.Sakura no Hanabira.*.

A Ramble of B.S.

Weee... kekeke.

Friday, January 31, 2003

06:24 p.m.

Today when I got home I had to deal w/ brad and his selfishness while the phone man came to hook up our line and the DSL >>;;. Then meh n mum went to this house and looked around it. It is big Oo;. 2 bedroom, but it has this backroom that can be used for a room and the dinning room. (WOoo My own room! -I hope-). We got the house Oo; w/ the help of a deposit <<; and 2 weeks to get the first month. onleh 2 more weeks

Fuck a duck. Where are you? =/

Monday, January 27, 2003

06:48 p.m.

I tried to listen carefully to each song I had of Cloudie's and they just dunt fit him. The feeling just isn't strong enough xX. And now, since Brad is a fucker, mom decided to store our computers and not get the net. (Tho I dunt know if this change will last. My mom always changes her mind about the net). So I dunno what to do. I wont let Cloudie waste his money on phone cards 24/7. That just isn't fair. The world really just wants to break me down into lil bitty pieces huh. If my mom keeps up w/ this shyt she wont get a damn thing from us. -whines- I want to talk to you

Eeeeek

Monday, January 27, 2003

04:15 p.m.

Everything has to be out by tomorrow so we have to unhook the computers n shyt. I dunno when we will be out and when the phones will be cut off. I hope I can hear from Cloudie soon since he isn't on and if you read this I am sorry about yesterday. Brad is getting kicked out n I am wondering if my grandparents will take him in, but my dad had told me no before. I wondeh if mom will change her mind. I am going to go help her now. Lovehz, Lotss..

Eat me..eat me

Sunday, January 26, 2003

10:22 p.m.

I feel like Im being torn apart from the inside. Slowly being eaten by some odd "thing" thats inside of me. Killing my emotions.. I have all my thoughts back, but my thoughts mean my madness has returned.. those weird emotions that beckon me to death. I took a shower today and basicially put it on full blast, just so I could feel the sting. That way I know I am alive. I can feel things.. but I dunt -feel- them. It's like when you do the samething over and over again till you get so use to it you dunt think. And little things annoy me. Silence on the phone w/ Cloudie makes me want to scream till my lungs give out and bleed. Packing makes me want to claw at my face. Boredom makes me want to hurt people.. so I can watch them feel pain to satisfy myself. I'm becoming fucked up..

Kekek.. -twitches-

Sunday, January 26, 2003

07:11 p.m.

Today I had secretly planned to stay in bed all day and shower. I just dunt have the energy to concentrate on moving. But, having Heather and two of the people I truly hate waking me to go run around town in a golf cart wasn't exactly my idea of resting my tired mind. Cindy Barton and Ashley Alexander. These two I hate w/ raw passion n.n. And Heather brought them to my house.. MY ROOM. The onleh place I could run to to get away from their faces. We got along as we ran around town n stuff, me gritting my teeth all the way.. then went and got cappa from Hop n Sack. Heather and myself went to her house and watched a few movies. Bride of Chucky was on.. I hate that movie. Then Dolly Dearest and the end of Con Air O_o; I got to see Dirty Dancing XD. So, my day was filled. It was nice.. and I wrestled Heather and we talked about body fat. (Just some of the things girls do). When I came home my mother started bitching about how I bailed out. I asked her if I could go, she said yes. And then didn't call to get me home... She told me "Don't come home and start bitching" o_o She started when I walked through the door.. then went on and on. No sweat, though. I am easily letting things roll off my shoulders.

*_* -drools-

Saturday, January 25, 2003

08:21 p.m.

I -really- love Laurell K. Hamiltonz writting XD. It's... I dunno >_>;;. And this one part of the book was so nummy it had me jumping >D I will post the part when I have more tyme. -purrs n flicks her tail, licking her lips- I'd like to eat him, too >>?

Moving to the Promise Land

Saturday, January 25, 2003

05:52 p.m.

Well, we're moving. And we have 4 days to do it. Woohoo. And I was just getting started on my website =/. If you dun hear from me dunt fret. I shall beh back!

Nekkid Bunneh >D

Friday, January 24, 2003

01:22 p.m.

I'm changing my layout to a premade one (Already made.. meaning -not- by me) b/c this one is soooo cute and nekkid XDD.So it completely fits the whole "NekkidFork" idea <<; I am reading the The Lunatic Cafe' by the great Laurell K. Hamilton . The book is so/so. The main character is Anita Blake and she is telling the story. There isn't any sex in the book T.T which disappointed me? XD But thats alright, it is still good.. and Jean-Claude seems so sexy *-*. "Ma, petite" Kekeke.. -cackles evily-. Also, I am working on a personal website. I've had like ... 3 or 4 and got rid of all of them. The first one was great til I destoryed it over 2 assholes e.e. Bad memories. But anyways, yea.

^__^ Tag Board!!!

Thursday, January 23, 2003

10:41 a.m.

My TAGBOARD!!! is back >>;. I should work on a Shout Box but I am lazy. Btw, Happy-Belated 7 Anv~y, Cloudie @@ Another month... >> Now I just hope I can live through my Feb. 14th curse oo; Lovehz

,ashdkjsdffb

Wednesday, January 22, 2003

09:48 a.m.

Im tired. Just plain out fuckin' tired. My family sucks. I suck. fuck it, everybody sucks. Im done trying

Maybeh..

Wednesday, January 22, 2003

12:52 a.m.

Maybe Im crazy. Maybe I wont have a relationship w/ Anyone. Maybeh I am fooling myself. Maybe all men think about is sex. Maybeh they just think about sex 50% of the tyme. Maybeh I just dunt have a sex drive anymore. Maybeh I am just too afraid that I will get too comfortable w/ him. Maybeh if I get too comfortable I will feel like I am livin in a fantasy land. Maybeh I know I could love him so much that I run away. Maybeh I know he could love me so much that I run away. Maybeh I dunt want to accept anything that is good for me. Maybeh I know that if he just touched me I'd be his forever.. Maybeh I just want him -here- =/

Why?

Monday, January 20, 2003

11:08 p.m.

Why am I breathing. I am just some selfish bitch.. Im just here so My mom wont die.. I am just this and that. I'm going to die any where I go. Everyone will abuse me. Bang Bang I'm dead. Why should I give a fuck? Bang Bang I'm Dead.. No one gets me.. Bang Bang I'm Dead. I'll be dead before anyone can save me. Bang Bang I'm Dead. It's always about everbody else and not me. Bang Bang I'm dead. I gave up hope at my dads for my mom. Bang Bang I'm Dead. I accept death when I said "I'll give it another shot" Bang Bang I'm Dead. All they do is kill me. Bang bang I'm dead. Look at how pathetic I am? Bang Bang I'm dead..

To die w/ blood.. or to die without heart..

Monday, January 20, 2003

10:25 p.m.

My brother told me "You'll die either way, Jess" Meaning I'd die here, or at my dads. So why the fuck am I even breathing? I accept the fact I am going to die emotionally, and there isn't a damn thing anyone can do about it. People dunt change. Just let me die in peace..

Ooow

Sunday, January 19, 2003

02:06 p.m.

I repierced my 2nd holes and they hurt. I called my dad and he told me to stay where I am and if I dunt wanna go home just call him and he will come pick me up. I dunno. If I go live w/ him I wont see Cloudie anymore unless he calls me over there.. and if he calls me I can't be sure I will get the call @___@. I dunt wanna live w/ my mom.. but Im not sure about my dad. I dunt plan on staying here longer. Help??? I tried to email him, but it didn't work

could this be.. my last update?

Sunday, January 19, 2003

10:20 a.m.

HAHAh.. I dunt think so O_o. Anyways. Last night I got into a fight w/ my mom. I tried to wake her up to ask her if me n mai were suppose to go to the store for her. She jumped my shyt so I left telling her I wasnt going. Then she grounded me for 3 days and yelled at me to get off the phone. Once I was off I went into the living room. She was glaring at me and I just looked at her. Then She called me a slutty whore and I picked up the closet thing to me, which was hair dye, and I threw it at her. She dodged, almost, and it hit the wall and busted. The dye went everywhere. The wall.. the couch.. the floor. She started yelling and raving >_> and I got grounded for 3 weeks. Then 6 months. She started crying and told me I better get a job to pay for it. I told her "If you wouldn't have dodged you wouldn't be in this mess". Then when I was on Brads comp, trying to talk to Cloudie, she busted down the door. So I decided to leave to Heather's before we actually started fist fighting. She grabbed me on my way out and we ended up punching and kicking each other.. or was that just me. I told her I was going to go live w/ my dad. She said "He lives in a trailer outside of his parents house! And you want -that-?" I told her she was headed there herself @@. Then when Heather and Brad came home from the store they took me to Amyz house. Thats where I am at currently. I have no idea where I am going from here. My mom supposedly is going to Dallas/is already there. I feel bad for my puppies and I dunt wanna burden Amyz parents. I hope I dunt lose Cloudie.. I dunno what I am going to do. I am such a wreck but I am trying not to show it here, since I am at Amyz house and her b/f is here. I wish I didn't feel so in the way. Anyways Lovehz, Everyone

Saturday, January 18, 2003

06:03 a.m.

I dunt know whats wrong w/ me.. but I know something is

Toki*Meca *__*

Saturday, January 18, 2003

12:47 a.m.

I couldn't help it. I had to bring Toki*Meca up <_<;. Cloudie is suppose to call me, but I didn't realize I had the phone off the hook, so I hope he hurries up. I am getting sleepy @__@. Rough day today.

Eeeeeep.. x.x guilty

Friday, January 17, 2003

11:17 p.m.

Lately, my life has been a wild ride Xx. Cameron gropped my ass.. I went to Duncan w/ Heather.. I felt bad for leaving her.. and e.e I think I opened up to a few 2 people <_<. Some did not like it.. the others did.

<<; La...

Thursday, January 16, 2003

03:14 p.m.

I spent the night w/ my Heather yesterday, and I froze today at school. Thats about all. Bye

Home from school! Early...

Wednesday, January 15, 2003

02:48 p.m.

I called my momma to pick meh up because I didnt wanna be in school for 7th hour. Tonight I am going to church w/ Heather if she is allowed. Also, on the way home I was eating the inside of this pecan roll and Heather said "It looks like you're sucking on a dick" << then she added more info about the nuts. Anyways, thats about all. We might goto Dallas soon so I can see Lewwwwwwwwwie!

Heatherrrrrr

Tuesday, January 14, 2003

08:48 p.m.

Me n heather were talking about piercings n tattoos while I was at her house after we woke up. At school I lost a terrible bet I swore I could win >_>;;. I can't wait for my new layout. I have a new friend to add, too. Damnit, I love myself. oo;

Hahah Oo; **

Monday, January 13, 2003

07:28 p.m.

So I am working on my next layout. It's gonna be simple Xx;. I have this cute lil sneak preview of it under my Navi. It says "Peeeeek" if you can't see it ^____^. Also, I changed what it said on my Tagboard O_o;. My mom said Cloudie could come down if my Gramehz let me stay at her house. Of course she will say yes. Anyways.. I wondeh where we will move to.

Imood and my Next Layout. (Toki*Meca-Ver.5.0)

Monday, January 13, 2003

12:30 a.m.

Todays discussion: Imood. Yes, I change it every so often when my mood -really- changes. You can click on it and look at the picture and my person mood change where I leave a comment. I will be updating info on my Toki*Meca layout. That layout wont be out till a week or more 'cause I have been changing too much and all my info hasn't been updated. (Like my Archive.. old blog layouts.. and Perfect/Impefect information. Also, I added more on Erks/Likes.. more on the likes side. I added dates this tyme, but the old ones wont be dated because I really can't remember and no sense in adding false dates). Besdies Imood and my layout I feared tonight my mother would take away the only thing I have left to talk to Cloudie w/. Then I'd be really fucked up in the head.. anyways, after our convo on the phone I seemed to fight with my mom and had this brief suicidal thought of "If I downed them this feeling would be gone" HAHAH, yea.. right. Thats how it started last tyme. Then we went to Love's and got Cappa.. French Vanilla *-*.. some Italian Dunking Cookies which were.. uhh odd. I heard Mariah Carey on the radio (They fucked up the song !!!). Her and Madona are my idol and always have been >_>... dunt ask. Then I heard one of my other songs " When the world keeps spinning round blah blah I wouldn't change a thing blah blah you and I wouldn't change a thing" That reminded me of when I told Trevor, " Though I may complain a lot, I wouldn't change a thing about my life".. and I still wouldn't besides the fact I live in Comanche and Cloudie lives in CANADA!!! Last but not least my mom lost her Ebay account and she said when she gets her income taxes we will probably move. I just hope that wont break connections w/ Cloudie. Besides that Lovehz~!

HAHHHHHHHHH LMAO!!!!!@ Brad

Sunday, January 12, 2003

02:19 p.m.

I am working on my next layout which will be Toki*Meca!. Anyways, to the point of this post. This girl IMz my brother and sayz she knows Heather, goes to her school.. ect.. and if Brad is her sister. Of course he says yes, and then they start talking.. flirting.. so on so forth. Little does Brad know that this girl is fatter than FAT. I mean.. she is huge >_>. I would have warned him if I knew earlier but I didn't!! Now they're going to go meet at the bowling alley. My poor brother.. LMAO. HAHAHAH oo...

Mikeh-Puppeh *-*

Sunday, January 12, 2003

10:56 a.m.

MooMoo 'n' Mikeh-Puppeh are in the house.. >>; they have been chewing up trash again, in MY hallway and I refuse to clean it..even though my mom will end up making me. -Sighs- She is pissing me off. I have yet to do anything to her again and she is being a bitch to me. She did it last night when I was on the phone. I asked her to hand me my pillows and she said "You're really beginning to piss me off" I was all 'WTF' -.-;. I realize she is like.. stressed or something, but damnit stop taking it out on me. She is all sweet 'n' nice to Brad and Heather, but thats because they can run around town for her.. They do that because she doesn't like going outside. If she yelled at them they'd tell her to fuck off and do it herself, and I can't do that.. all I can do is say fuck off and get grounded n forced to clean..And since I can't do anything she has to be a bitch to me ~~;. Kekekek... If me getting the computer and having to talk to her gets me this, then I am not coming on. I really only come on to post in this thing and to talk to Cloudie, yet lately I have been going over my friends house.. so I dunno. I will come on to post, of course.. and say hi n bye to whoever is on.. If you call while I am at a friendz house I am sorreh =/ But this shyt is making me sick. "I cared too much and they didn't give a shit..." ugh.. perfect example. I am tired of my family. And -you- wonder why I feel alone..

Sleeeeeeeeet! And Mai actually cleaned O_o.

Saturday, January 11, 2003

09:53 p.m.

I didn't goto school Friday because well, my mom is suing the City of Comanche, or sometin, and she wanted us to stay home and plus I over slept because of the fight w/ my mom and staying on the phone w/ Cloudie. Then I went to Heather's house and spent the night w/ her. It was fun, and I didn't come home till 7:30.. then my mom was on the computer forever, till now. So I was all "Okaaaaay." and just decided to sit around in my room and listen to music. Also, I noticed Mai cleaned out the top of our closet. It was COMPLETELY covered. I was in shock because Mai actually cleaned something, and cleaned something THAT big. Hahaha.. Anyways. Thanx for the comments on my journal. I missed everyone.. and I will add my new friend soon >D. Also I added some things to Erks/Likes <_<;;;. Lovehz

Moneh Slave Monkeh Slave.. I'm not your Monkeh Slave~!

Thursday, January 9, 2003

03:18 p.m.

My mom is bitching about the dog being in the house. I didn't put him in the house. Guess who did? Her. He tore up everything in my room. And no, I had the door closed. I am not mad..nope, just gonna let that slide. But for her to ask me to do little things is stupid. "Turn off the light. Get me tea. Get me this..get me that" I have to get everything I want.. but she wants me to get it for her? I am not yer monkeh slave and if I have to get grounded over that I will.

Weee! Goes The Others Oo;

Wednesday, January 8, 2003

08:49 p.m.

I was watching The Others w/ Heather after we went to the store n such. I was at her house today. I dunno why, I guess I didn't feel like being home. (I missed my talking to Cloudie today, but I have all weekend, I suppose.) My tummeh hurts and I had those weird cup ramenz for my lil supper/snack.I hate Brad's chair. School is the same..dull.. and I suppose sometimes interesting. I dunno. I give up on Amyz sex and Chess' school.

x_x yuff. Parents suck.

Tuesday, January 7, 2003

03:29 p.m.

My mom thinx that if Cloudie comes down here I will end up in the same situation as Amy. "Even if you make out w/ a guy -that- age there will still be touching and you will turn him on to the point to where he will force you into something.". I dunno if those are the exact words, but it is close enough. I am on a chocolet crave x___x. Must have Reeses Peanut Butter Cupz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!. Xx Oiiii...... School was fun, tho

@@ Burrrrrrrrr...

Tuesday, January 7, 2003

07:46 a.m.

I am freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeezing.!!!! Plus I dunt wanna goto school e.e I wanna snore. But I am going anyways. I got to talk to Cloudie last night for like 8 minutes ^^;;.. I didn't see the last 3 things he typed, tho. Ah wells x.x;. Lovehz

I can't draw!!!!!!!~!

Monday, January 6, 2003

03:22 p.m.

I got stuck in Art this 9 weeks. I am so totally going to flunk~!. I can't draw.. all I can do is a few famous stick people!!! Demmit, I can barely paint. Even my writting has gone sour!. I let Heather read them and she said it was Infatuation. She told me " I didn't know you felt that much for Cloudie" All I could do was smile and say, " Not even my writting can express such emotions. I am sure you know how that is. Especially with my writting being as sour as it is. I understand how everybody else likes it, but to me it just sounds like a journal entery. I -know- I am writting these things in a journal! But they aren't exactly real..in that sort of way. I can't explain it. They're suppose to be deep and moving.. they dunt touch me". She told me that they did her and everybody else.. and that she has the same problems with her writting. I just dunt feel anything anymore like I use to. I use to feel such strong emotions when I wrote, now I dunt. They're just thoughts that lack emotions. Only thing I could put emotion into was my writting about Cloudie..and the piece I wrote thinking as if I was in that position w/ him. -Sighs- If only life touched me like he did. Ah well..

Uggggggh

Monday, January 6, 2003

07:37 a.m.

My brother put a password on his IE or something. Thats okie >>; I know whut it is x.o;. I'm sooo tired and I have school, soon. I couldn't find that entery form and Cloudie is away -curses him-. I dunt know if I will be on or not today after school because I dunt know if Mai works or not. (Yes, we go back to the old ways because of school and how Mai works -mumbles a few bad thoughts-). Besides that I am okie, tho I hope I dunt get into too much trouble for not having my entery form u.u. (I pray it's at school. God, you love me..ne? *-*). Well thats about it.. Lovehz!

School sucks x_X

Sunday, January 5, 2003

09:55 p.m.

I have school tomorrow and this Science Fair entery form due tomorrow, too. So does Amy..and well, I sorta lost myne. Now I am praying it's at school but I will look here at the desk, soon. We're watching ShowTyme. I looove that movie >D. I miss Cloudie X_x.

Where are you..my writting? >.x

Friday, January 3, 2003

01:29 p.m.

I am jealous. Purely jealous.. I read your writting, Huffeh, and it was great *-*. I miss writting like that.. I am impatient and have no soul.. -claws at her face and pouts- when will my lust for -anything- come back..

Moooorning.

Friday, January 3, 2003

08:53 a.m.

Hmmm. I can't tell if I need more sleep or if I have overslept 'cause I feel my usual freaky high e_e. Brad didn't goto school today I am guessing. Well, I am freezing my ass off so I am going back to the bed. x_X. I'll probably just lay there till this feeling goes away.. and if I am sleeepy I will sleep.

x_X Oii@ Copz.

Thursday, January 2, 2003

05:53 p.m.

We're having problems w/ the cops again. Why us?

Ow...?

Thursday, January 2, 2003

02:51 p.m.

I wonder if you can OD on Midol.. I sure as hell feel like trying. If you find me pissy these next 2 weeks, I am sure you can guess why >D. Yes.. back away -growls- RAWR!! oo! I blame God for these problems x___x

Dreamers never sleep

Thursday, January 2, 2003

05:02 a.m.

I am feeling oddly alone e.e. I talked to Cloudie last night for a lil bit but thats it. Afterwards I stared about... It sucks being so close enough to hear him yet not close enough to touch XD. I'm gonna go crawl into bed, but I wont sleep.

Another icky day..

Tuesday, December 31, 2002

01:39 p.m.

I am so bored with life. Everyday I wake up and sit in this chair, dazing around. I hear very little noises and see very little light at times. I find myself pathetic. I am so bored with this, and yet I dunt seem to get up. What good does it do? I can't go anywhere. My house is full of people like this. They hate being out and if I could take myself out, I would. It seems odd just going outside to be outside. Yet, thats what I am going to do. Take a bath, get dressed..and go outside. o_o Maybe try to talk someone into going somewhere today. -Sighs- I hate the net.

Another night..

Monday, December 30, 2002

12:32 p.m.

I spent the night with My Heather last night. We watched some TV then drifted into talking about sex, guys, and our family.. plus our friends and that current situation. For some reason I couldn't sleep, so even after Heather was asleep I kept talking out loud to myself. Finally I got some sleep but woke up with a terrible stomach ache, and while Heather was sleeping I called home, and then woke her up before I left telling her why I was leaving and for her to go back to bed. Then my mom got a flat tire and we had to get Mike to help us fix it x.o;. I am still confused about my life and my future. I have to have some sort of plan for myself and if I dunt I am completely lost.. I dunt know what I am doing, or what I am saying anymore. It's like I am here just to be here. Why does my life have no meaning, no excitment? Xx. My thoughts are too silent, but I still have too many.

x_______x;;;.

Sunday, December 29, 2002

03:39 a.m.

x__________________________________x. Dear God, Why must you torture me so? You send me someone I love more anything. Gee, I thank you dearly for that.. then you send me -him-. WHY!! must you send -him- to come to my door knocking with the invitation of temptation!!. Oii was I tempted ~~;;. It makes me so sick at my stomach now e.e. BUT!! you're lucky I came to my senses and turned away from that invitation, or you would have had me banging at your door with shit you didn't wanna hear =/. Was it a test? You know how I hate those. A lesson..? You know how I hate those too.. I turned away, yes.. but I feel horrible for even being tempted. And what about next time...? I am lonely, and then there -he- was >.x!!! He wasn't who I wanted to be there, you showed me that... but.. what about next time? What if I am too lonely to see straight. -Twitches-. Dun torture me so!!! I love somebody else... I hate My December by Linkin Park...

Deleted!

Saturday, December 28, 2002

11:32 a.m.

I deleted my old entery because I ended up realizing something, but I never admitt something twice. I am washing meh clothes *-*..and my bra ran away from me XD. -Still can't find the damn thing-. I wonder how Cloudie is doing o_o. I think he is at his mumz because he said something about it the daybefore yesterday, but I am still not for sure. I just hope that if he calls, he doesn't call when Brad is on the phone. Be meh luck thats what would happen x.o;. Ne-ways.. I am gonna go find something to do. -Probably plan out my vacation of the net..gotta have places to go!-

Kayz Break

Thursday, December 26, 2002

02:19 p.m.

"I need a break. I gotta get away from this place. All these faces n places, they just wont let me get back my pacing. I've lost all my senses, why haven't I gotten my wishes? I've been tainted and torn, I never asked to be born. I need a break.. I gotta get away from this place. All these lies inlined with the truth that went behind. I can't take it anymore, I gotta get away from this place."

Past/Present/Future

Thursday, December 26, 2002

01:00 p.m.

I keep thinking he misses the past(tho he denies it). I am sure he regrets doing -something- that made him lose her. He must have loved her a lot.. soo..yea. I hate feeling like I have to be more than she was, tho I don't even know her and I doubt that is possible. I am sure he will tell me not to worry about it and to relax x.x..and that I am wrong. I can't help it, thats just how girls think <.<;. -Sighs- I really dun mind him talking about her, it just gets to me at times. I will get over it tho, I always do o.o.

*-* My Shrine

Thursday, December 26, 2002

12:28 p.m.

My Neko-Lizzeh, who is the greatest person in the world!, decided to make me a shrine >D http://www.geocities.com/forksama/ is the url, tho I dunt feel like linking you to it so you can copy n paste =P. The layout is sooo nummeh! And just the other night Cloudie told me I was like Deedlit. <.<;

New Layout ^^..yet not complete

Thursday, December 26, 2002

11:30 a.m.

Yesh. here is my New layout, which I completely love. Tho it has a few mistakes because I havent put the updated html in it. I can't do that till I am on my Mumz comp. >> -ponders sneaking on now-. Anyways >D do ye like?

-rubs her eyes- Morning.

Thursday, December 26, 2002

10:50 a.m.

I did not sleep very well at all last night. I kept having this really long dream x.x. Actually it was like 2 dreams that ended up getting connected. It is waaay too confusing to type, but we ended up getting free!. Today is the day I change my layout.. tho I have to take screen shots of my old one. Also, I need to archive my posts so it wont end up lagging people. I still dunno how I feel about us but my thoughts have ended and I am just "relaxing" as my mum, Bez, and him told meh to do >>. Dunt you just hate how ironic life is b.b; Tyme to check up on meh friends. Bye Bye

Mixed emotions.