it was good while it lasted.
coz everything isn't always how it seems.
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guy: totoo ba na bukas ang official balik-pasok?
zye: yep. ang alam ko..
guy: shucks.. nu gawa mo?
zye: d2 sa gateway. ndi natuloy vnight eh. sayang naman paalam ko. hehe.
guy: may pasok na ano ginagawa mo jan?
zye: wala lang. i dont wana stay at home.
[notice the plain text messages. haay.]
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zye: hmm. la na nga ako magawa. hehe. owel, what time pasok mo tom?
guy: 7am ikaw?
zye: 7?? ano class mo nun? ako 830..
[after a while]
guy: zye, thank you for being nice.ü hope we can be friends.. May kasalanan ako sa'yo..
zye: hmm. what is it?
guy: i lied. May bf ako nung ka-txt kta.. We just broke up.. I'm telling u this because i want to have a clear conscience when i meet him tom. And of course, i owe you an apology.
guy: this past few days.. away kami ng away.. ikaw yung nagpapagaan ng loob ko.. thank u for that.
[after a WHILE]
zye: ohh. hindi ako galit, or upset, weird. i dont even know how to react. anyway, bakit kayo mgmmet tom?
guy: i'll try na makipagbalikan. And mag-sorry.. lam mo ba ito ang pinakamalungkot na new year celeb ko? since last night hanggang knina nag-aargue kami. sobrang nakakadrain.
zye: ....so what was me?
guy: i really like you, zye. gusto kita maging friend. Un. i noticed kasi before hindi mo ako pinapansin.
guy: totoo lahat ng sinabi ko sayo except dun sa tanung na kung if i was in a realationship.
zye: ohh..ok..hmm. yeah, i guess i am nice.. too nice.. especially to those who are nice to me.. and those whom i like..so anyway, i wish u goodluck in ur relationship.. and yeah, we're friends. g'nyt!ü
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a tiny speck of happiness
a fading music
a spectacular moment of life
a flash of light
a fleeting glimpse of eternity
yet. it was good.
while it lasted.
..sigh. hahah. owel.
si uhm. "leira" ayun. kakatawag lang. alammo sinabi?
"uhmm.. pano ko ba toh sasabihin.. basta.. ingat ka palagi.. bye zye.. goodbye.. i love you.. bye zye *sniff* *sniff* bye.."
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ang ganda ng pasok ng new year. as in.
but then, hindi pa nga natatapos and january 1, wala na.
[yep, jan1 ng gabi nangyari both]
owel.
what goes around comes around
what goes up must come down
it's called karma baby.. and it goes around.
so ayun. karma! haha. coz i may have hurt "leira" so in turn, i got 'played' by *him*
so now. karma and i are even!
--> need to find some new papa! *LOL* =P
by the waay..
happy birthday!!
uhh. who else? whoever. hehe
posted at: Tuesday, January 3, 2006 10:39 p.m.
HaPpY nEw YeAr!! ^__^
whee.
kami nag-offer nung offertory. yey. haha!
kami ang new year family? LOL =P
tas meh special mention pa before mag-end yung mass.
kaya lang.. "thanks to joel and madel ramos and children"
wahaha. fiine. wala leeenngg..
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wahah. ginamit ko yung kissing gay couples as my friendster profile background.
bahala nang makita ng mga kapamilya ko. wahaha.
kebs! =P
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shoot. hindehh ko pa nagagawa yung formal labrep for chem! yahoo!
hucares?
basta. happy new year na laaaang!! =P
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meh Vnight ang org bukas. ^__^ ansaya!! wahah *can't wait* =)
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one and a half hours till 2006. :)
posted at: Saturday, December 31, 2005 10:30 p.m.
happiness is bliss.
^___^
kuya and i met up with my dad at shang kanina..
and dala niya yung dalawa pa niyang anak. haha. si zyrel and zyfrer.
yes, they're my half bros. wala laaaang.. ikot ikot.
kain. nood ng movie! and dahil mga bata kasama namin. yes, go for Exodus kami! haha
gaah. lang ibang nanonood! kami lang! as in we owned the moviehaus!
hahah. aliw! well.. owel.
pero, i couldv'e been happier if we'd rather watch Ako Legal wife.
[hopes of witnessing jc *ehem* de vera's topless scene. DEHH!! wahahah =P]
pero infairness. yeah. special effects ng pinoy movies are better na.
tipong yung special effects ng US movies 10 years ago? dehh. just kididn. hindi naman.
it's better talaga. pero. hindi pa rin. "ooohh wow"
anyway, after the movie uwi agad ehh.. pero i went to cubao instead.
as usual, drowned myself to DMX.
pero now.. with better results ;)
WAHAHHA. i got 1631 combos in one game.. and 1736 in the other. WAHAHAH =P
songs are:
1st game: happy hopper + chinese sumthing j thingy + mind parasite + madblast + afronova [didnt perfect happy hopper here though]
2nd game: funky modelling + chinese thingy j sumthing + happy hopper + mind parasite + afronova [ALMOST perfect! darnit. except for one thingy @ afronova. damn.]
well. so much for that. im satisfied with my dmx na.
i need to move on. hahaha. i saw this err..
dance-rev-like thingy sa new timezone sa gateway..
pa-X siya hindi pa-+. gets?
basta yung aapakan, tipong NE NW SE SW center. ayun.
i gotta try that. [even though i suxd @ dance rev haha =P]
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remember before na i was able to buy a few episodes of Queer as folk [na hindi pa magkakasunod! rawr.] in a garage sale?
wala lang. i watched them again. tas nabitin ako..
so i searched for the episode synopses[?] tas binasa ko lahat.
ohmeh. tapos na pala yung show. hanggang season 5. and ohmeh. ang ganda nung kwento!!! shitty. i liiiikke!!!!
wheee. binabasa ko pa lang tas ayun na ang rush of emotions agad. what more kapag napanood ko na? huhuhu. waaaaahhh
whoever's gonna give me the 5 seasons of that show, shiyaat. im gonna love you forever whoever you may be! =P
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and to continue the intriga with our text convo's.. =)
guy: ansaya mo katxt..ü ang sexy pa ng name mo. hehe ü
zye: LOL. ngexpire na load ko sa sun.. anyway.. uhmm, im happy kpag ktext kta.ü hehe.. whaa? pano naman naging sexy ang name ko? well, [secret] sounds very cute to me. hehe.ü
guy: ang sarap bigkasin ng name mo.ü hehe.Zyrone.ü lahat about you ay sexy for me. ndi bola un.ü ui, tom nlang tau magtxt ulit. kakahiya naman kung globe pa panttxt mo.
Nyt, zye!ü ilu! :-*
zye: ganun? gmm.. cge i'll hav to sleep na rin xe maaga p ko tom..ü pero b4 that, juz wanted to ask.. bakit ngayon lang? ..juz wonderin.. neway.. cge po.. nytnytz.ü sweetdreams ;-)
*animation -- handing out flowers*
guy: huh? anong bakit ngayon lang?
zye: i mean, bakit ngayon mo lang sinasabi sakin yung mga sinasabi mo ngayon? bakit hindi dati?
guy: ah.. eh ngaun lang ako naglakas loob? hehe.. Di mo kc ako pnpansin.. =P Cge na, hiya nako. Nyt, zye! *animation -- ecstatically jumpin'*
zye: gnun ba? hiya din xe ako sayo eh.. la lang.. ahehe..ü
Cge, nytnytz.ü *animation -- winkie winky haha*
~~~~
oh.. fyi. in our phone [sony] the ";-)" and ":-*" become smileys talaga..
and we have these "animations" talaga na kyutee. haha. ^__^
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music: only you - sam milby. wahaha =P
mood: happy-hopper. hehe ^__^
thought: this time, im really serious about this. =)
need: siya lang ok na ko. *ay! inlahb! haha! ;)
posted at: Saturday, December 31, 2005 12:29 a.m.
anata mo suteki desu.
our tagaytay family trip suxd! umulan kasi. huhu
my cousins and i played a little bit of soccer.
[yes, i play soccer. it was my first sport yah know. hahaha =P]
(but im not good at it. LOL. maybe i could've if only...)
anywayss.. ayun.. we camped at picnic grove(?) as in camped.
complete with tents. haha! but umalis kami after lunch kasi lumalakas na yung ambon..
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hmm. wheeee ^__^
some text convos:
zye: totoo ba yung sa [secret] na kiss?
guy: ung kiss? yung sa cheek mo, oo. pero ung sa lips, ndi. sayang nga e.. hehe. daming tao kc dat tym. ndi namin napaalis otherwise, ki-niss kita haha..
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zye: nakahanap ka na ba nung [secret]?
guy: hindi pa eh. maybe pag-uwi na lang ng tito ko papabili ako sa duty free. alam mo, i find u sexy nung gamit mo ung scent na un. ü uy zye, dont get offended ah. Parang ang sarap mo i-hug nung gamit mo ung scent na yun. hehe.
zye: ahaha. bakit naman ako ma-ooffend?ü why didn't you? *LOL* [some comments on perfume]
guy: Pinigilan ko lng sarili ko nun. hehe. dami tao e.. konti lang nakakaalam. discrete kc ako if u knw what i mean.. Hehe. Di ka pa inaantok?..
zye: hmm. na-sense ko. ehehe. ndi pa po. i usually sleep late. as in very late.
guy: e kasi di ko tinatago when you're around.. [secret] lang kasi tayo mostly nagkikita.
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guy: enough about [somebody na pinag-usapan namin]. anyway.. ilan na bf mo?
zye: [secret] pero.. [secret] kaw?
guy: [secret] ü alam mo ba naging bf ko yung [secret]
zye: whaat?! seriously?? interesting. hmm. currently ano meron?
guy: yeah seriously. ngayon wala. that's why im searching. gusto ko magaling magvolleyball tapos may pink shirt and mabango. ü may mairereto ka ba?
zye: ehe. magaling magvolley + pink shirt + mabango? *ehem* ..wala eh. hehe
[seriously, i think that's me. wahahaha =P hey! volley? *doi* pink shirt+mabango? i was wearing my pink shirt and the scent he's telling he found sexy at the same time.. and i think that's the last time i saw him..]
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guy: kewl.ü matutulog nako. maaga kc ako alis tom.. Txt ulit tayo ah!ü I like you, zye. Nyt! :-*
and after like.. 15 or 20 minutes..[sorry, natulala at natuwa eh. haha =P]
zye: kk.ü uhmm, goodnite.ü sweet dreams.. >:D< anata mo suteki desu.ü find that out. hehe =P tc&GB.ü
need i say more?
im just. happy. as in. happy.
wahaahha. potek. kinikiliiiiiig ako!!!!!!!!!!
^__________^ nyahihihiihihi =P
it's gonna be a HAPPY new year indeed!!!! üüüüü
music: L.O.V.E. - ashlee simpson
mood: kinikilliiiiiig! pota.
thought: omg! he likes me! anata mo suketi desu! haha
need: i dont know. nothing? hahaha. just.. nuthin..
posted at: Wednesday, December 28, 2005 03:04 a.m.
bummer.
im currently not liking (not hating) my dad..
we were supposed to meet today at shang but then when kuya and i are about to go there, he texted "wag na lang. sa new year na lang"
whadda?!?! rarr!! well.. fine fine fine..
part of it is our fault.. he was callin' kasi but kuya and i were having lunch.. when i saw his messages, i tried to reply but i ran out of load (due to the "merry christmas" text brigade haha=P)
i asked kuya to text him.. but then, kuya texted his other number which he doesn't use anymore..
gaaah. whatever. this will pass as long as he gives me cash on new year. WAHAAH!!
potek. mukhang peraaaaa! acckk!! >___<
so.. dahil nakabihis na ako and all.. i just decided to make gala @ araneta..
whomaaahhyygasshh! daming tao sa cineplex!! x__X apparently, mabenta mga MMFF films ngayon.. sold out halos lahat!!
well.. except for "Terrorist" nyexx..
i got nothing better to do so i just spent my day playing.. DMX. wahaha
darn darn darn. i had this one game wherein i already have 850 combo's..
i think that's the chinese thingy title+happy hopper then the third song's dynamte rave. ACK! i failed.
i still can't get dynamite rave. im having a hard time!!
ohwell..
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i just sang my heart out when i got home.
and im proud of SOME of my scores. hahaha
gretest love of all - 95
anak - 95
half of my heart will go on - 95 [di ko na abot after nung haf ehh. mwahaha
i luv magic sing. nyeahaha
^___^
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now my feet+legs are killing me
my arms hurt.
my shoulders are strained.
but amazingly my throat doesn't hurt. yey.
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we're goin to tagaytay tomorrow! wala lang..
just to spend time together. naxxx. wahaha =P
kuya's gonna bring ate kae (her gf) gaahh..
i wish i could bring someone too..
(someone i could call my own.)
ops ops ops! im not gonna go senti again.. yoko na..
hirap pala pag nagpakasenti ako. wahaha
[2 nights of cryin + 2 days of sad senselessness nyahah)
so that's it..
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i hope everybody had a nice christmas ^__^
music: it's christmas all over the world tonight.
mood: kinda sad. pero fulfilled. ewan. it's hard to describe :P
thought: i will be happy.. i SHOULD be.. some time.. some..
need: somebody to call my own (and bring to our family trips hahahha)
^__^
posted at: Sunday, December 25, 2005 11:51 p.m.
because i was tagged
by Datu
Go to 17th post. Find 39th word. Discuss. Tag 2 (or more).
(i looked at my pitas posts and not at my lj coz my lj is.. nuthin. haha)
albert yeah.. as in albert the abum the soccer the band person the 06.
wahaha. i was criticizing discussing the prom stuff! hehe =P
i tag.. err. whoever..
posted at: Sunday, December 25, 2005 10:09 p.m.
it's christmas.
waaah. woke up at around 5pm! wahaha >__<
gift wrapped some remaining gifts..
ate some snacks..
played with jek and jazyel..
went to mass at 10pm<
the usual stuff.. haha
pero shiyyaaaaaaat.
NoChE BueNa!! was really "buena" haha ^__^
syiiit. steeaaaaak. =P~ hahaha ü
yum! hello cholesterol! >__<
got only a couple of gifts from mah family.. well what do i expect?
hugo energise perfume + cash from mom
cash from step dad
belt from kuya
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but yah know whaT? it wasn't that sad anyway..
i dont know why but for some reason i was happy =)
maybe it's because of the cash.. wahahhaha j/k =P
naaahh.
i feel happy coz my family is happy.
kuya and i are startin to get close..
and oh! tomorrow, we're going to our dad.
wahahha. more cash!! >:) dehhh =P
as if i can spend them.. ack! im supposed to put them all in the bank. pfft!
haha. owel. hope you guys also had a nice christmas ^__^
*mmmwahhhh*
posted at: SUnday, December 25, 2005 01:44 a.m.
sa huling simbang gabi.
nahuli ako.
mabagal akong pumasok sa simbahan at hinahanap ang tayo niya.
hinahanap ang nakapamaywang, kamay sa loob ng jacket.
wala. wala pa. ako'y tumayo at naghintay. huli ka rin pala.
pagsulyap ko bago basahin ang banal na aklat.
nakita kita. may limang hakbang sa may likuran.
ako'y napangiti. naisip ko lang. "sa wakas"
sa wakas ay mahahawakan kita. sa huling simbang gabi.
unti-unti akong humakbang palikod. maliit na maliit. pasimple.
bigla kitang nakita, humakbang papalapit, isa, dalawa, kalahati.
nagpasimple muli akong humakabng palikod.
isa na lang. isang hakbang na lang. ngunit kahit hindi ay ayos na.
kaya ko nang abutin ang kamay mo pagdating ng ama namin.
nagsimula ang pag-alay. lumipat ka. nagtabi tayo. masaya na ako.
ngunit hindi pa natatapos ang pag-alay, humakbang ka..
hakbang pa ulit. hakbang pa. lumakad.. pumunta sa may upuan.
sayang.
akala ko pa nama'y magiging masaya na ako.
kahit sa huling simbang gabi lang.
hinintay ko na lang ang komunyon upang muli ay sundan ka.
nakita kitang papunta sa pila. dali-dali akong sumunod.
sayang. may pumagitan pa. ahh, kasama mo pala.
may bata sa kabilang linya. hinatak ng kasama mo.
kasama niyo pala. dalawang pagitan. parang anlayo na.
pero hindi. pinauna mo silang dalawa. ngiti. ngiti lang.
sa huling simbang gabi ako'y umasa.
sa huling simbang gabi muntik na.
sa huling simbang gabi ako'y nabigo.
sa huling simbang gabi ako'y napangiti.
sa huling simbang gabi'y biglang lumamig..
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>>i guess it's gonna ba a lonely christmas for me..
not because i wasn't able to hold that cute guy's hand..
it's just that i feel incomplete.
*im just so lonely.. don't mind me.
posted at: Saturday, December 24, 2005 05:35 a.m.
never love.
the sun never shone again
the sea hadnt crashed waves yet
this place is nothing, but plain
it offers nothing but death
captured state
razed by hate
destroyed by fate
left without wait
never will it live again
neither will it be loved
all there would be is pain
even the gods sobbed
seized with haste
this ruptured chaste
hurt with an unending chase
my heart was that place
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>> im just lonely. don't mind me.
[anniv pala ngayon ng parents ko. and i didnt even greet them]
i am evil. ...and lonely.
posted at: Thursday, December 22, 2005 11:43 p.m.
this and that day.
waah. tapaovernight dapat kagabi..
sarap luto ni char. hehe ^__^
nood butterfly effect. [astounding brain fucker] waahaha
i was there. but not for the overnight. nyex.
supposedly nandun ako for that pero..
daisy had a block party and she was stranded at char's house.
so i had to come along.
..yeah right. haha.
well. fine! part of me really wanted to go with daisy.
[handa nga ako sa damit eh! wahah]
just to meet annnttt her blockmates.
and i did ^_^ well, some of them..
kay ana rod dang pen ren jes mike[?] kamyl[ana+kay's dormate]
and ayun.. we went to eastwood..
tas small world.. friend ni dang yung isa kong classmate nung elem.
who, apparently cannot recognize me. wahahaha
seryoso. i saw him look at me pero parang yung tingin na "ay may tao"
walang hint of recognition whatsoever. ahhaha
actually i wasn't sure kung siya nga yun [marvin odon]
but i asked dang and she said siya nga.. wala lang
heniwei.. we went to blue onion..
[thank you rod for the entrance/drink/tequila shot/ride ^__^]
weehee. her blockmates are f-u-n. ^__^
[kaya lang la si... haha]
and yung mga natira lang si ana kay rod dais camille ako
anyway. ayun. masaya naman =)
especially kay... drunk kay! =))
them: kay. stop drinking!
kay: why?
them: coz you're already drunk!
kay: oh okay.
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ana: kay. drink some water.
kay: stop making me drink water! im not a gold fish.
kay: don't you know that drinking too much water will make you look like a gold fish?
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*wapak* [kay slaps you at your back]
kay: picture!!!
us: your cam's battery is already dead.
kay: fuck my cam! it's not working.
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camille: kay! who's your crush? [guy's name] or [guy's name] or [guy's name]?
kay: my parents don't even know how to use the internet.
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haha. laughtrip.
after blue onion, we went to 7-11 to unwind for a while.
went to something fishy for breakfast [while dais and rod slept]
then went to rod's car. slept for 30 mins
went to ana's dorm.
tried to contact daisy's mom. [no answer]
fell asleep waiting for daisy's mom's reply.
woke up around.. 10am[?] rushed to char's house
~sorry guys! [we were supposed to go home @6am for ortigas day]
fixed ourselves.
went to ortigas for tapa-ortigas day [st francis/mega]
shopped. yey
was already able to buy my older brother a gift.
and also our helpers. hahaha
still have no gift for my parents.
ack.
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and now. suddenly, im in senti modes.
kasi naman. meh nang-iinggit jan ehh!! haha
darn.
hindi nga ganun kadali.
hindi pala siya basta basta pinupulot.
at mas lalong hindi ka basta basta pinupulot.
mahirap talaga ang pag-ibig.
acckk!! >__<
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why is life like this
you love you arent loved
you are loved but you dont love
this complex stupidity haunts me
cupid's arrow has not yet struck
in dreams and fantasies i will be stuck
i got nobody to love, nobody to fuck
oh mehn. right now, my life suck!!
lonely shepherd, lonely sheep
let me fall into a very deep sleep
never to wake until love comes by
never to love until the right one tries
music: Mr. Lonely. Wahaha >__<
mood: lonely.
thought: i am so lonely. i got nobody to call my own.
need: somebody to call my own.
posted at: Thursday, December 22, 2005 10:54 p.m.
simbang gabi.
araw-araw hinangad na ika'y makatabi
nangangarap na sa ama namin
ang iyong kamay ay mahawakan
na sa pagbibigay-tawad ay makatingin sa iyo at ngumiti
araw-araw sa simbang gabing iyon
ikaw'y pinagmasdan
sayang. malapit na sana kahapon
nagkadikit na ang ating mga balikat
nang ika'y sundan sa komunyon
nagtinginan na tayo sa aking pagsulyap
ngunit di pa rin tayo naghahawak
di pa rin tayo nag-uusap
hindi ko sasayangin ang hiling ko para sayo
ngunit sa susunod na simbang gabi
gigising at muling tutungo
muli kitang pagmamasdan.
muli kitang susundan.
muli kitang tatabihan.
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>> para kay cute guy sa simbahan tuwing simbang gabi. wahaha x__X
posted at: Wednesday, December 21, 2005 05:51 a.m.
with you.
i am but a fowl with flightless wings
i am but a colorless flower
i am but a wave crashing
i am but a cloudless sky
i am but a lifeless river
i am but a never ending fall
i am but a book, untouched and ancient
i am but a hard rock
i am but a crumbling stone
i am but the dying sunset
i am but the dawn which never came
i am but the cold darkness
i am but an unending drought
i am but a rainy summer
i am but a lonely child
i am but a lost soul
i am but blind, i am but deaf
i am but motionless
i am but senseless
i am pointless. i am useless.
i am but nothing now and then
not until i am with you again.
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>> para kay paolo mikael ^__^
posted at: Wednesday, December 21, 2005 02:26 a.m.
gawa niya daw.
you never knew what have you done
all she can say is that
her feelings are gone
when you need her explanation
nothing she can show but no emotion
they say if you fall seven times
stand up eight
but now you can only do is either to
or feel you still love her forever
hate never knew what have you done
all you know is that your love is undone
no matter haw hard you forget
the more reminisces you can get
wa ako ma-say.
*ouch* ? x__X
posted at: Sunday, December 18, 2005 05:24 p.m.
may kwento ako.
sa mall.
tumitingin.
namimili.
naghahanap.
naglalakad.
napahinto.
tumambay.
nakakita.
nakaramdam.
umalis.
nagpakipot.
hinabol.
sumulyap.
tumigil.
umupo.
nilapitan.
nilampasan.
nagkasenyasan.
lumabas.
sumunod.
ngumiti.
nagpakilala.
lumakad.
sumakay.
pinaandar.
nag-usap.
tumawa.
nag-ikot-ikot.
huminto.
bumaba.
kumain.
nagtitigan.
uminom.
ngumuya.
lumunok.
umalis.
umusad.
lumiko.
nag-usap.
nag-isip.
umintindi.
nagkapalagayan.
naghawak-kamay.
naglapit.
dumaplis.
naghalikan.
lumabas.
naglakad.
magkaakap.
umupo.
nagdampi.
nabasa.
kinagat.
umungol.
gumagalaw.
hinihimas.
naghahalikan.
naghahalikan.
naghahalikan.
tumigil.
naglakad.
pabalik.
nag-usap.
pinauwi.
hinatid.
nakarating.
nagtitigan.
naghalikan.
naghalikan.
hinimas.
hinawakan.
dinukot.
pinaglaruan.
nagpalitan.
nagsalitan.
isinubo.
nagsubuan.
dinilaan.
nagdilaan.
kinamay.
nagkamayan.
bumuhos.
lumabas.
nilabasan.
bumuhos.
nilabasan.
lumabas.
humalik.
nagpaalam.
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bahala na ang green minded!! nyahah ^__^ =P
psst! ikaw! oo IKAW. yun yung kwento ko. hehe =)
posted at: Saturday, December 17, 2005 11:48 p.m.
paint me.
wahoo.
im a henna tattoo addict.
ahaha =P
for the past three days tambay ako sa henna booth!!
wala lang. =P
1. half-angel half-demon. @ my lower back =P
2. yinyang flame-effect. @ my left wrist :)
3. an atom. (yes, nerdy i know!) @ my right ankle ^_^
posted at: Friday, December 16, 2005 01:16 a.m.
whaddapakishappenin
hantaagaaal na since i wrote my last entry!!!
*busy* eh. ahaha. YEAH RIGHT.
tamad lang talaga.
anyways..
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astig yung Pagdadalaga ni Maximo Oliveros.
dati ko pa napanood pero ngayon lang ako magccomment.
hmmn. i like the plot. ang galing! =)
pero yung cinematography di pa gaano. well, malamang!
pero lam niyo ba, naiyak ako dun!
haha x__X well... I CAN RELATE EH!!!! hahahah =P
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meron na akong salamin na walang grado!! yehey!!
and..
i like the way i look with my glasses. :)
mukhang lalaki daw! ahahaha
well, that's to give *erhm* false hope for (yah know). hahaha x__X
*evil* >:P
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omg. omg. omg.
ayoko na mag-aral! ahaha
amfanget nung bio lec exam!! pak mam rrr!
tapos pati yung chem!! waaaahh. shiyaaat.
im gonna get a miserable grade this sem x__X
pwede bang PE na lang forever? CHK na to!!! haha
pero wala..ansaya talaga ng PE ko eh!!
kahit madalas wala si "inspiration" aah hell i care?
may fins naman eh. ahaha x__X *labo*
pero swear! i <3 fins! =D
kaya lang.. shiyaat. nangingitim ako. meh invisible trunks na ako!
(tanlines x__X)
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wahoooo!!! nakauwi na si monica!!!!!!!!!!!! ^___^
fun fun fun.
overnight dapat ngayon sa house niya kaya lang hindi ako nasabihan ng aming napakabait na kaibigan.
hmpf! ahaha. ayus lang. (.--)x -->gets ba? haha *mahirap eh*
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anyhooo..
nakakadisappoint ang oblation run yah know!
wala lang. nakakadisappoint eh.
di kasi ako binigyan ng rose. haay nakooh.
dehh!! hehe =P
err. ang konti kasi ehh.. wala lang.
basta, i expected "more" from it.
grabe yung hype about it tapos yun na yun?
i want more!!! ahahah x__X
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ack! ayus yung lantern parade..
parang.. fine arts parade. x_X
honestly, archi lang meh maayos na parol other than the FA floats ehh.
pero the best talaga yung fireworks display!!
hanep beta epsilon!!
ang yamaaan! that was about 7.5 minutes of fascinating fireworks!
haneeeep talaga!!! ang gandaah! (in ricky reyes tone?haha)
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naisip ko lang... kung may balak talaga ako magvarsity..
mas kakaririn ko na lang siguro ang pagiging PEP.
come to think of it, parang mas masarap yung "glory" and pride na maffeel ko kung UP PEP ako. wala lang..
pero shempre. i wont forget volley opkors.
feel ko lang magPEEP. magPEP. hehe =P
sana nga lang eh matuto pa ko ng mga incredible stunts at hindi yung pacartwheel-cartwheel-roundoff-backbend -chinesegetup-russian lang..
ahaha. waaaah. wala lang. ang astig talaga nila eh. idol! =P
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yung isang tao jan. nangiinggit!!!
kamusta na kayo? hehe =P
any progress? *LOL*
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whaaaa. ansama-sama ko..
si ariel kasi parang nawawala na talaga communication namin.
and that's coz of me.
kasi..
one night, we were talkin' sa cell..
blahblahblahblah..
tapos maya-maya bigla na lang nagbago mood niya tapos nagbreak down!
sabi niya pagod na pagod na raw siya..
di na raw niya alam kung kaya pa niya..
hindi niya raw ako maintindihan...
ano raw ba talaga ang gusto ko..
tapos ayun! umiiyak pa!
waaaah x___X
so my reaction sa kaniya:NVR.
my reaction deep inside: WHATDAHELL??!
hindi naman sa im that bitchy pero..
IF you're trying to "court" (emphasis on the quoutes) someone..
would you do that? i mean, amining hirap ka na at magmakaawa na lang or something?
hell NO! kahit pa ba talagang hindi mo na kaya if you really like the person you'll still go for it diba?
walang pa-awa effect! pa-cute lang nang pa-cute! hahaha!
pero diba??! rawr.
tapos he asked me kung ano raw ba siya sakin..
sabi ko.. "currently you are a friend"
tas dinagdagan ko pa..
kung nahihirapan ka na talaga sakin then i think maybe we should just start as friends
i mean.. ganun muna para walang ilangan or sumthin..
tapos pucha. umiyak nanaman ampotaah.
hindi ko alam kung mas bading pa siya sakin o talagang emotionally immature and unstable lang talaga siya eh..
pero shiyaat. ang hiraaap. ang hirap mong mahalin.
pramis. grow up mehn.
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charing! haha ^___^
music: Ulan - CueShe
mood: happy(monica) + disappointed(oble)
thought: whaddapak? stop it!
neeD: gifts!! money to buy gifts!! x___X
posted at: Thursday, December 15, 2005 11:46 p.m.
life
.. is really very unpredictable
hmm. i can now feel the pressure of acad stuff.
especially with chem!!! gaah! i can't understand what my prof has been blabbering since the last two meetings!!
with bio.. i think that i have already taken up the lesson [in HS] but i feel as if err, i don't understand it anymore..
and with math? ack. it's Rozano. nothing more to say.
i know that i really need to study (almost everyday) if i want to do good this sem but what have i been doing?
ahh. i'm reaunited with the internet and i still have volleyball =)
darn. i really need to focus and set priorities straight. [YEAH RIGHT.]
oh well.. i'll still try my best to study every night. and turn this evil computer only once, twice, thrice a week.. or maybe four times? ahahha.
as with volleyball.. heck! nothing should get in its way! haha =P
i joined the CS sportsfest Pa-SCI-klaban.
i played volleyball (ofcourse!) and cheering! :)
The IC's (institute of chem) volleyball team was strong pala..
they are the defending champions! they have this R.A. who was a CS varsity in his undergrad years and he was guud!
add him plus me plus kuya jeiel plus roland (kuya JL's friend) plus the ate's who had the will to win plus the IC support. YAHOO!
IC held on to their crown. make that.. WE held on to OUR crown =)
champions pa rin! and the best part?
*ehem* MVP? ...you'rs truly. ^____^ mwahaha!
about the cheering competition. gash!! we really worked hard for it!
we practiced everynight for one week.. ate joyce conceptualized most of the dance. and for me, it was very very very guud =)
most of the dancers were from ChemSoc except for me and kuya melvin [5th yr na friend(?) ni ate joyce]
anyway, we really had costumes and nice dance steps.. but.. but.. but..
BUT. we only landed 2nd place. IC was also the defending champion for cheering.. our hypothesis? BIASED!! hahaha.
the judges kasi were just representatives of each department..
wala man lang pep na judge? argh. i bet! if the UP PEP squad judged that compet, we'll get 1st place no doubt about it!
*ahaha bitterness!!!!!* eh kasi naman!! IB won 1st place..
in fairness theirs was good.. but. still. i think we're better! ahaha x__X
maybe we would have accepted it if MBB won 1st place. for me, if it wasn't us, they deserved it more than anyone else. ahaha.
pero when i saw ate joyce's reaction when the hosts said "in 2nd place.. IC!!!"
ouch! i felt her pain! (ay ang drama!aahaha) but seriously, i know that it was hard for her..
it was hard for us paano pa kaya dun sa nagstand as leader namin diba? wala lang. masakit. malungkot.
when we got back to chemsoc tambayan, i made sure na i hugged her and thanked her for doing such a great job. she was great.
on a lighter note. OMG. nag-jazz pants ako!! ahaha =P and i looked sexy!! waahahahah =)) =))
oh.. and Ic wasn't also able to defend the over-all champion crown..
we just got third over-all.. congrats to MBB for winning it =)
so much for cs sportsfest.. ang saya pala makisalamuha with chemsoc.
haay. mag-apply kaya ako sakanila? hmmm...
lechugas! bakit ba ako nag-iingles? ahaha..
hirap na hirap na ako!! feeling ko andami pang wrong grammar jan..
ah hell! KEBS! bahala kayo.. heheh :P
kanina.. nag vnight ako.. and.. wala lang.. masaya as usual..
ako si PINK5.. ahaha.. kasi naka-pink ako.. at ang kuleet. kasi lahat sila pink5 ang tawag sakin..
amfanget ng depensa ko.. at ng service ko..
yung opensa? minsan maganda.. hehe..owel.. i've got lots of time to improve pa naman..
haaaay.. sana mag-summer na.. hehe. sa summer makikitrain siguro ako sa UP varsity.. wala lang..
actually gusto ko na sana makitrain ngayong 2nd sem kaya lang.. hectic ang sked! haha. sabi ko nga diba mag-aarala na ako?
si drea kasi eh nakitrain na... haay.. kakainggit.
konting panahon na lang.. uuwi na si monica!! ^__^
konting panahon na lang.. lantern parade na
konting panahon na lang.. oblation run na! ahaha
konting panahon na lang.. bakasyon nanaman
konting panahon na lang.. pasko na!
konting panahon na lang.. new year na
konting panahon na lang..
huy. gumalaw ka na! baka maubusan ka ng panahon :P
konting panahon na lang!
music: my hump - BEP
mood: masaya pero may sudden spurts of sadness
thought: cheering compet.. haaay. sayang..
need: time. syet. dame ko pang HW at la pa ko ginagawa!! x__X
posted at: Monday, November 28, 2005 01:58 a.m.
fourth commandment?
rawr.
ano nga ba ang fourth commandment?
honor your father and mother?
haaay.
buti na lang at alam ko pa rin ito..
at hindi pa naman ako mashadong nasisiraan ng bait para labagin ang batas na ito ni lord. haha
EH KASI NAMAN EH!!!
my mom just ruined my whole day!!
first up, when i woke up at around 10am, i had to hurry to get myself ready for a volleyball game at 11am.
hinatak kasi ako ni norman for Eng'g balibagan (vball tourney)
BUT NO!
inutusan pa ako ng mom ko na bumili ng cd na may kantang "Someone's Waiting For You"
may mother and daughter kyeme interpretative dance yata sila ni jazyel sa school ehh..
rawr. ako pa talaga inutusan! wala kasi naDL si kuya na song na yun..
ehh kamusta naman?
11am na naghahanap parin ako ng CD! x___X
nakabalik ako sa hauz 12 na..
LECHE.
pero.. mejo naibsan naman ang panggagalaiti ko nang nalaman kong wala kaming PE (skindiving)
kasi, may scheduled vball game din ako (for CS sportsfest) na 1pm (sakto sa PE time)
so ayun! sobrang happy ako kasi makakalaro ako =)
kaya lang.. mejo disappointing ang aming kalaban! wahah
syete. service lang wala na.. [yahakk anyabang pero seriously.. they sux]
then after that, punta naman ako sa amorsolo court for vday.
kamusta naman ang araw ko na puro volleyball diba? ahaha
tapos eto na..
after ng vday, manonood dapat kami ng Exorcism of Emily Rose.
pero pagtext ko kay mudra na late ako uuwi..
zye: ma, late ako uuwi. nagkayayaan kasi kami ng orgmates ko na manood ng movie.. sa gateway lang naman
mudra: wala ka bang pasok bukas? bakit hindi sa saturday na lang kayo manood? wag na next time ka na lang sumama
zye: eh.. actually last week pa nagplan.. tapos. ganun din naman ehh. makakauwi ako mga 12.. eh ganung time din naman ako natutulog.
mudra: no no. may pasok ka pa bukas. better luck next time.
WHAAAAT????????????
lechax talaga.
ehhh... gustong-gusto ko manood eh!!
naka-set na mood+mind ko na manonood ehh.. but no..
lechax si mother! darn it.
sana kasama ko ngayon orgmates ko na tumitili kasi sumusuka ng dugo si emily rose diba?
owel.
dat is layp.
at least.. may consolation naman ako..
MAY INTERNET NA ULIT AKO!!!! YAHOOO!!!
pano?
it's still because of that "Someone's Waiting For You" na song..
kagabi kasi habang "nag-aaral" ng math..
mudra: mareresearch [yak da term!] mo ba yung song na "Someone's Waiting..?"
zye: ah madali lang.. lyrics lang ba?
mudra: hindi yung kanta talaga.
zye: eh pano naman kaya walang internet yung kompyuter!
mudra: edi sa office..
zye: gudlak naman.. ambagal-bagal nun eh.
mudra: si IC [my cuz] kasi hindi pa inaayos eh!
IC: bukas aayusin ko na.
voila! may internet na ulit ako! yehey!! ^___^
now for more chismax..
haay.
i feel so stupid. [as i always do!]
eh kasi naman ehh.
sa totoo lang.. i DID like him.. disturbing lang talaga kasi yung boses niya eh! hahaha!
and i so hate the way that he acts na as if parang kami na..
but aside from that.. i like him..
i SO like him. duhh. ang kyutkyut+hott niya eh. hahah!! =P
look o..
hmm. meh hawig kay kuya gabby o!! wala lang..
so ayun.. why do i feel stupid?
kasi nung ako yung hinahabol-habol niya, i think i really made him feel unnoticed.. huhuhu ansama-sama ko that i even regarded him as pathetic.
pero ngayon. shiyaat. ako na yung pathetic eh!
nung nakita ko na he changed his friendster name.. na-hurt ako! wahahah
kasi his friendster name incorporated his name and mine..
just think, about the alphabet.. hahaha.. kasi initials niya eh.. AA... at ako? ZZ..
wala lang.. aliw diba? pero ngayon.. iniba na niya..
but i still see that "i love you zzzzzzzzzzzzzz"
mwahaha. pero ngayon..
parang hinahanap-hanap ko yung self-pitying+pathetic+desperate text messages niya!!
shiyaaat! ahahha. ang labo ko naman..
owel.
just to share, mejo isinampal niya sa mukha ko ang kanta ni craig david..
For all the years that I’ve known you baby
I can’t figure out the reason why lately
you’ve been acting so cold (didn’t you say)
if there’s a problem we should work it out
so why you giving me the cold shoulder now
like you don’t want to talk to me girl (tell me)
okay I know I was late again
I made you mad and dinners thrown in (the bin)
but why you making this thing drag on so long (I wanna know)
I’m sick and tired of this silly game
don’t think that I’m the only one here to blame
it’s not me who’s been going round slamming doors
That’s when you turned and said to me
I don’t care babe who’s right or wrong
I just don’t love you no more
Rain outside my window pouring down
what now, you’re gone, my fault, I’m sorry
feeling like a fool cos I let you down
now it’s too late to turn it around
I’m sorry for the tears I’ve made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
you made it clear when you said
I just don’t love you no more
I know that I’ve made a few mistakes
but never thought things would turn out this way
doesn’t make sense to me now that you’re gone (I see it all so clearly)
me at the door with you in a state
giving my reasons but as you look away
I can see a tear roll down your face
That’s when you turned and said to me
I don’t care babe who’s right or wrong
I just don’t love you no more
Those simple words hit so hard
they turned my whole world upside down
girl you caught me completely off guard
on that night you said to me
I just don’t love you no more
Rain outside my window pouring down
what now, you’re gone, my fault, I’m sorry
feeling like a fool cos I let you down
now it’s too late to turn it around
I’m sorry for the tears I’ve made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don’t love you no more
*ouch-ness* lang talaga.. haaay nakooh...
dapat talaga hindi na muna iniisip ang mga lablyap-lablayp!
aral muna!! YAHAHA. YEAH right.
but owel. mukhang yun na nga ang kelangan kong gawin..
sheez.
music: Dont Love You No More (Im Sorry) - Craig David
mood: love lost?
thought: ewan ko ba kung bakit. ganun eh.
need: peace.
posted at: Wednesday, November 23, 2005 10:37 p.m.
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