I'm downloading virus scanner because my sister (a little sister -- i hope this says it all) is using my computer and installing suspicious programs and I think they're like everywhere in this computer! =( And I already had a bad time with virus and it ruined my Christmas Eve which I spent all day trying to fix my computer -- which in the end I had to FORMAT!!! ;___; poor me. Hopefully, the damage this time isn't that big.

We have just received a special package -- and that included a cd writer! Weeh! At last. I know that probably for some it's not such a big deal. I don't care about them, I care about me - It is a big deal! *smiles* ^___^

I just had a long chat with some of my thesis-mates. Hehehe.. who could have thought that girls could occupy two-thirds of their time for just plain chitter-chatter. But I guess it's not the content of the "chat" that is remarkable but the fact that we're spending time together a.k.a. socializing. A lot of people have spent their time alone and based from experience -- it isn't healthy at all. It makes you think of "weird" things (which I will talk more about in a later date)

Just read Yuki's blog -- and it's kind of flattering that she read my "essay" even though it's terrible! It was a spur-in-the moment thing (no editing -- just plain typing). I just wrote and wrote about my ideas about nationalism and the feeling of "not-liking" one's own race. Here's a sort of sampler -- Many young people of my generation seem to think that moving to another country is better than staying here. I have the same feelings ... at times. But something inside me wants to evoke the feeling of belongness and of pride in one's heritage. Considering I come from a multi-national background (if one could call it that) -- I'm a mongrel of sorts. The idea of belonging to one country gives a sense of security especially if that country can protect you and answer your needs. Sometimes I'm not proud of who I am -- not proud of the status I was born with -- not proud to be born in this time -- not proud to be born in this gender ( at times) -- not proud to be born with "Weird" talents. *sighs* Maybe if I love my country... it would love me back. Maybe if I love myself... at least one person I know of truly loves me. But then again -- it isn't love *silence*.

*Glances upward* EHh?! ~.^ Hmmm... EHh?! :p

The new board looks RED! *no comment* Sure it's a nice and vibrant color but still -- RED all over?!?! *silence* Enough about that, let's talk about me *lol - I sound like Gaston from Beauty and the Beast*

I've been pretty up and down lately. I really shouldn't be taking the medication, my hormones are already "wild" enough as it is. But then again I need it. Sigh.

I got pretty annoyed with myself last night. I cried all night, in the restaurant, in the bar. I must have looked stupid in front of those people. But then again, a talent agent could have been watching -- who knows. *chuckles*.

Haven't watched anime lately. I have this strong craving to watch "Spirited Away". I heard it was nominated in the Academy Awards. Well, Hayao Miyazaki, and of course, the film deserve it!

That's all for now.

Hmmm... it seems like im a fairy --
What kind of fairy are you?
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*Yawn* I can't stop yawning! I've been yawning since I woke up! Oh well, it won't hinder me from world domination - bwahahahahaha! XD

The layout's different this time. I'm trying to go for a more mature theme. Kape (coffee)- with the dark earthy tones. I can't seem to get all the brown earth hues I want. Maybe next time.

I'm currently downloading age of mythology from microsoft. It has still quite a long way to go. *Yawn*

*Yawn* I tried "experimenting" with new ideas for websites but I can't seem to keep it all together. (Recalls embarrassing moment) *@_@*

I'm trying to get a new layout. I want a coffee design something more... earthy O_o I wonder where yuki is....