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//Monday, October 25, 2004
//ulysses is lame

LOOK it's a homecoming pic with my boyfriend haha:

so i took this handwriting test thing at THIS SITE. thanks diana. and for the most part, it was true. well i bolded the stuff that was true.

For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Shawna has left lots of white space on the left side of the paper. Shawna fills up the rest of the page in a normal fashion. If this is true, then Shawna has a healthy relationship to the past and is ready to move on. The right side of the page represents the future and Shawna is ready and willing to get started living now and planning for the future. Shawna would like to leave the past behind and move on.

As you begin to study handwriting analysis, you will learn any loop indicates imagination. This lower loop indicates the amount of imagination Shawna has regarding sex and physical things. Her lower zone stroke is large, so her sexual imagination is large and open. Furthermore, because the loop has a triangle shape, this indicates a particular curiosity with certain aspects of sexuality. In a nutshell, Shawna is open to some very new ideas sexually and is willing to try anything once. I'd say Shawna is quite a dynamic and playful lover. Watch out world! [HMMM].

Shawna is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect her ego when she feels hurt. She pokes people harder than she gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time. pretty accurate..

Shawna is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. She needs to visualize the end of a project before she starts. she finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said she plans everything she is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Shawna basically feels good about herself. She has a positive self-esteem which contributes to her success. She feels she has the ability to achieve anything she sets her mind to. However, she sets her goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". She has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, she will not take great risks, as they relate to her goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, her self-perception is better than average. VERY true.

In reference to Shawna's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind.She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Shawna can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.

Shawna will be candid and direct when expressing her opinion. She will tell them what she thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want her opinion, don't ask for it! DEFINITELY true.

Shawna uses judgment to make decisions. She is ruled by her head, not her heart. She is a cool, collected person who is usually unexpressive emotionally. Some may see her as unemotional. She does have emotions but has no need to express them. She is withdrawn into herself and enjoys being alone. The circumstances when Shawna does express emotions include: extreme anger, extreme passion, and tremendous stress. If someone gets her mad enough to tell her off, she will not be sorry about it later. She puts a mark in her mind when someone angers her. She keeps track of these marks and when she hits that last mark she will let them know they have gone too far. She is ruled somewhat by self-interest. All her conclusions are made without outside emotional influence. She is very level-headed and will remain calm in an emergency situation. In a situation where other people might get hysterical, she has poise. Shawna will work more efficiently if given space and time to be alone. She would rather not be surrounded by people constantly. In a relationship, she will show her love by the things she does rather than by the things she says. Saying "I love you" is not a needed routine because she feels her mate should already know. The only exception to this is if she has logically concluded that it is best for her mate to hear her express her love verbally. Shawna is not subject to emotional appeals. If someone is selling a product to her, they will need to present only the facts. They should present them from a standpoint of her sound judgment. She will not be taken in by an emotional story about someone else. She will meet emergencies without getting hysterical and she will always ask "Is this best for me?" yup yup yup.. haha

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Shawna doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others. Shawna has a desire for attention. People around Shawna will notice this need. She may fulfill this need by a variety of ways depending on her own character. haha =) kinda.

wow if you read all that.. PROPS to you. this is mainly just for me though. ugh i have a GRIP of work to do. mainly the term paper that's due tomorrow. boo. alrighties then.. peeaces.
scribbled at 03:15 p.m.

//Monday, October 18, 2004
//stupid college apps.

hm. being productive makes me more motivated to do more work. haha maybe that's just me. wow so today i have no homework for walnut. soo i decided to start on my uc apps. i'm like.. 2/3 done. kinda.. i think. aCK. why can't UCLA have a journalism program? i duno.. i guess it used to matter so much for me to go to LA, but now that it's less than a year away, the desire has gotten less strong. it's good in a way, because it's doubtful that i'm even gonna get IN there. but i was talking to alice, and i guess i could major in humanities if the school i want to go to doesn't have journalism. this college stuff.. gosh. might just go to UCI because they have a journalism program. hRM.

so i was talking to sidra earlier. goshh.. parties everyday. i can't wait to get into college. i mean like.. i want to go through all of senior year still, but.. college. i'm excited!

oh yeah so i don't think i updated about LAST weekend yet, which was the ashlee simpson thing and mindy's birthday stuff at CLAIM JUMPER and SPEEDZONE. so yeah.. after SATs [which were freeeakn ridiculous], steph mindy & i went to brea for the ashlee thing. didn't get there till like 2, and we spent a good 30 mins trying to find a parking spot. but yeah. shopped a little. and saw ashlee.. even though we were WAY far. it smelled. and there were bitchass whores. but steph and mindy boosted me up. and i got some pics.. even though you can barely see her. she sounds good live, i duno what everyone was talking about. and DUDE there were so many teenyboppers who dressed like each other, like the punky look or those skirts and tank tops. good lord. anyway after the concert we shopped some more. then met up christi, diana, and kat at claim jumper. haha DAMN that was fun. lots of gas, laughs, etc etc etc. yay. then hopped to speedzone. kat totally crashed into my (and christi's) car. if she didn't.. i could've totally gotten first. BUT i did beat all you girls ;D boo ya. mini-golfed.. haha fun stuff. yup i don't remember what else happened that weekend.

THIS weekend.. friday night i went to helen and britni's birthday thing. haha it was pretty fun. haha freakn eric got scared when we watched thirteen ghosts. saturday and sunday was the english project thing. hahah man without christi, we just bum around and gossip and girl talk. christina and i were sexually abused HAHAh. guh-ross. so anyway. freakn mtsac english.. i have a 6-page term paper due next week. [think junior research paper]. the rough draft is due tomorrow. i have not started yet. rawwr.

hey you know what's weird. 99% of the people i know in high school have had some kind of drama with their friends. i honestly don't think i've ever had major drama (with anyone at school). freak haha now i've jinxed myself. but yeah. some people take crap too seriously and try to start shit. it's so stupid. ok yeah anyway that was random. and now i am going to do my workkkkk biatch.
scribbled at 07:18 p.m.