Monday, March 27, 2006

last week recap ..

I should say, last thursday was my worst day then I' was losing grip. But when I was in the edge of my fury and almost fell into the temptation of losing faith , I was experiencing GOD's amazing kindness . I was asking a question to GOD and I was given a direct answer at once through the Bible. I won't rattle on , or this gonna be like some ministry web. I just want to say when you're in trouble when you think no one can help and there's no one you can rely on , there's always GOD there , watching , knowing you and never leave you alone.

After experiencing God's warm kindness , I was motivated to go to the Benny Hinn KKR at Ancol. Honestly I don't believe him. *no offense please* , I have his vcd from a friend long long time ago , but never interested of watching it. I just want to worship GOD by going there. I went with my boss' aunt. Since it's so crowded I couldn't find my brother who already there since noon ... satelindo & telkomsel all dead even the signal was full , the stbs maybe overloaded. But I was not onto it, so I just half-heartedly following. At 8.30 pm we left before any miracle happened there.

Today I search in the net , and found so many controversy about him. There's one thing that I don't like . Before he started his praying and healing , he asking for collect money first. It's just like 'you must pay first if you want to be healed'
Actually I already prepared the money, but seemed the ushers kept missed me .. I was about to call the ushers .. but then I thought .. there's over 100 thousands people there , if everyone give Rp 10.000 , it already 1 billion .. so they already get so many .. so .. I rather gave the money as a tip to the shuttle bus driver who work in stress passing the crowded parked street.

On friday also , Finally I get my Best of KAT-TUN CD , it's not delivered directly to my office but must pick it up at the post office which so far away, Thanks God , one of the boys offering to get it for me. From all KAT-TUN's new songs , only REAL FACE ; ONE on ONE ; RHODESIA & BUTTERFLY are special , and the rest are STANDARD.
Why not put FREEZE ; SEITEN no HEKIREKI ; LE' CIEL and even ORIGINAL BLUE in the album ?????

on saturday I could manage to show up at IJ gath , but only for one and half hour , since I still had the workers waiting at home fixing my kitchen and I've to work in the weekend , leaving home since morning ... I was so damn tired. I already asleep at 8 pm ..

Going to Mangdu on sunday checking some dvds but nothing make me interested , just bought SYRIANA & MUNICH dvd as Ridwan's recommendation.

And ... this was few days ago .. I was about to leave the office gate , since it was so crowded jammed , I have to wait our SATPAM to stop some cars so I can pass crossing the street then while I was waiting ... I saw 2 men walking ... and they were holding hands ... *sumpeh gw mau ketawa nge-liatnya* .. yang di gandeng tuh cuma jari kelingking dan jari manis cowo satu nya lagi ..... gile masih terang benderang dan di pinggir jalan yang macet total gitu .. cuex juga tuh cowo berdua gandengan.tangan.... terus di dekat Carefour Taman Palem .... ada banci-banci pada mejeng ...yaah ampuuun baru magrib .. si "mbak"2 ini udah pada mejeng ... mana make-up nya tebel banget .....
Kemaren waktu ke KKR Benny Hinn , pas naek shuttle bus nya , di sebelah gw duduk cowo cakep .. dan temen nya berdiri , mereka lagi bahas film "BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN" . ..tapi mereka belon nonton ..baru cerita2 aja ....uuhh padahal gw udah mau nimbrung aja tuhhh ngasih rekomendasi ...... he..he...

i left my shelter at 03:43 p.m.

Thursday, March 23, 2006

sebagian besar temen2 pasti berasa gw sekarang jarang dateng gath , jarang sms, jarang imel. Termasuk jarang nonton johnnys stuffs. Tapi tidak berarti , gw gak minat ama fandomworld *temporarily* kayak gini , terus gw gak mau maen or communicate ama kalian. Belakangan ini gw bener2 lagi sibuk dan gak sempet. Dan jujur aja kalo udah gini, gw sama sekali gak mood . Setiap malam setelah pulang kerja , gw gak pernah nonton apapun, karena semuanya sama sekali gak menggugah minat. Bahkan smua KAT-TUN debut things plus PV nya pun gak membuat gw excited. Biasa2 aja gitu. * liat PV REAL FACE juga cuma 1x doang setelah gw donlot !! , oohh sekali lagi di Cavana waktu pas makan2 itu , tapi gak liat full cuma sebagian2 * ......
Sekarang ini lagi di uber2 kerjaan dan masalah yang gak ada habis2nya. Justru di saat lagi sibuk di urusan kerjaan, selalu aja ada masalah. Dari ortu sakit, urusan rumah yang mesti dibenerin, karena rumah yang di belakang rumah lagi dibangun dan sangat mengganggu dan bikin dapur gw bocor.

Sometimes gw envying temen2 lain gak perlu mikirin other things except school dan fandomworld ^0^ sumpeeh gw ngiri banget deh. *come on ...wake up !! I'm not teenagers anymore !!*
Mungkin juga gw yang salah gaul , temen2 di IJ rata2 10-15 tahun lebih muda , jadi masalah mereka tentu beda ama gw. Mungkin kalo maen sama yang seumur gw , gw bisa berasa kalo masalah gw sebenarnya lebih sedikit .. at least I should be grateful that I'm not married. Kalo married ...hhh... pasti lebih ribet lagi...

semoga nanti di bulan April semuanya bisa berjalan normal kembali karena deadline nya di akhir maret. Then I'm back to myself again. Saat ini gw aja sebel dengan diri gw sendiri. Jadi judes, cepet marah dan bete-an banget.
Tgl 30-31 libur lagi , semoga aja semuanya bisa selesai sebelum tgl 30. Jadi gw bisa libur tenang di long wiken depan. Semoga ..... *but....you know you can't expect something too much .. udah plan sesuatu dengan baik tapi bisa ada aja hal menyebalkan yang terjadi dan merusak semuanya .. you know ... life is unpredictable ....*

ps : minna.. *yg udah ngetag* , you're right !!! blog nya gak perlu di close down, at least lewat blog ini gw bisa communicate dan tau kabar kabari kalian ... thanks gals .. luv you all.

i left my shelter at 02:40 p.m.

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

uhh kepikir untuk closing down this blog nihh. Abis maleeees banget apdet nya. My life is too boring to be told in here and I'm not so into the fandomworld anymore.

let's just make a short RECAP here :

For these past weeks gw tenggelam di kerjaan. Semoga akhir bulan ini bisa kelar tepat waktu. Kerjaan ini udah menyita hampir semua energy, pikiran dan perhatian. Capeee boo..

plus my mother was a kind of needing of my attention since I've been spending very less time with her lately. Thanks God she's fine now.

Reading and listened various books & music to refresh myself but never finished or liking any of them at all . *ciri2 khas orang stress* .

Suddenly losing interest in Johnnys fandomworld. Hopefully it's only temporary.

and birthday girls for this month :
MAYA on 5th , missed the purezento handing again ...
ENDAH today , I'm not gonna miss this again ... *hopefully*
TIA on 15th , uuh I missed your dokkiri ... ^___^
all the best to you ....

i left my shelter at 12:29 p.m.

Thursday, March 2, 2006

Random Talk ….

Last nite already put V6 Musicmind album’s dvd on the player, but by coincidence I'm switching the tv on, and Gwen Stefani on screen. Metro TV airing Sounds & Style. It’s so retro. There’s Duran Duran …. it’s been a long .. long.. time ... let’s say .. it’s even before Kame … *en Panda* was born .. I had become duran-duran’s fans ^0^ ..OMG I’m that old… ?????? and I’m still liking this group , still playing their greatest hits and always love my favorite songs ‘save a prayer’ & ‘rio’ .
I still keep John Taylor’s pics in my folder from highschool time. He’s 45 now but he’s still look good as ever. He’s another ugly duckling prototype like Kame .. from ugly boy to be one of the most good looking icons.
OMG Billy Idol still had the same hair style in these 20 years ??? It’s really Retro time for me …

I think I need to take some time cruising the mall , in and out cd & bookstores , seemed like it’s been ages from the last time I did it.
I’ve been pressed & stressed for these past months … the works and some other things .

Sometimes news on tv will make you even more stress for the never ending news of :
- bird flu , the government kept denying when this desease began .. and now when it become outbreak …..the birds/chickens slaughter-doom day begin .. ^__^
- people prostesting almost about everything. But sometimes they don’t even know what they are protesting for ?? they are just being used by some hidden tricky mastermind.
- nature disaster , flood, landslide , typhoon
- children molesting / pedophile / incest
- and the latest one , a children fight get in the court. I’ve seen the judge . I wish she could be so steel hard hearted , when she put the corruptors in jail. But I believe this happen because she didn’t get any bribe money from the boy’s family rather than being strictly to the law like she’s been boasting.

And when you watch infotainments … you just watching pers messing up celebrities’ private lives.

That’s why I hate watching TV .. and I read on the papers some TV channels breaking some rules.. like Spacetoon for airing on the wrong channel , for God sake , how many kids will cry if the they banned this cartoon tv ????

And I know this is not my business but when it came to my sight I just can’t stop my hatred .. *walaupun bukan suami gw yang di ganggu tapi benci banget liat nya*
Semula gw pikir sinetron tv ‘bawang merah & bawang putih’ it’s just only cerita rekaan yang kelewatan , karakter si bawang merah & nyokap nya itu cuma karangan si penulis skenario , dan gak mungkin di dunia nyata ada orang2 jahat spt itu .
Tapi ternyata gw SALAH BESAR . Di dunia nyata ada …. 1 perempuan umur 40 thn , anak nya 3 , yang paling tua kuliah tingkat 1, ini dia si bawang merah nya . Kalo perempuan yang jual diri karena kesulitan ekonomi , gw maklum dan gak pernah menganggap mereka perempuan murahan . Tapi perempuan yang punya suami naik mercy pula , masih mengganggu suami orang *nota bene jauh lebih kaya dari suaminya* ini baru perempuan murahan walaupun dia berusaha bergaya spt perempuan kelas tinggi . Kata orang sih ini udah profesi , udah berkali dia menggaet suami-suami orang yang kaya raya.
Dan si bawang merah nya , kalo butuh hp baru , compie baru bukan minta ama bapak nya yang naik mercy itu tapi minta sama TTM nyokap nya ini. Bisa yah kayak gitu ¿? Dan tadi barusan gw denger .. sengaja di depan TTM nyokap nya dia bilang “mami , uang kuliah aku belon di transfer loh ..” amit.. amit ..deh .. gw yakin anak perempuan ini juga bakal ikutin jejak nyokap nya itu …. U know like mother like daughter ….
Gw bingung anak orang kaya ... tapi koq kayak gitu …. Si bawang merah ini kuliah naek honda jazz boo .. jangan-jangan dari hasil jual diri juga … ^___^ sadiz yaah gw ..
Tapi emang udah muaaaaaak banget ama keluarga itu. Bapaknya si bawang merah juga asshole, emang sengaja aja meng karyakan anak istri nya untuk cari harta tambahan. Bego aja kalo gak tau bini nya selingkuh ama laki orang dan anak perempuan nya kayak gitu ….

i left my shelter at 03:44 p.m.