Sunday, November 23, 2003 05:22 p.m.
virtual hibernation
Q:I understand you used to be afraid of the dark. What scares you now?
A:The fear that life may be meaningless.
my computer's screwed up again. it is old and frail. nearly dead. i think i should put it to sleep, spare it its misery, spare me the frustration. *pulls hair*
oh. happy hari raya
Sunday, December 21, 2003 12:22 a.m.
before sunrise
watched "before sunrise" yesterday...nice escapism..if only..hmm
i was on a train to paris..an old german couple were arguing loudly beside my seat so i moved to another seat and beside me was an ethan hawke lookalike..we have lunch together and had a simulating conversation.. he had to get off before me at vienna for a flight the next morning but we feel unsatisfied with our interrupted conversation..so he asked me to impulsively explore vienna for a night with him and we end up talkin bout our hopes and dreams and opinions and aspirations while spontaneously enjoying the sights and sounds and then when the morning comes we go our separate ways but decide to meet each other again in 6 months at the same place same time because exchanging addresses and phone numbers would be depressing because that'll just sorta fade off...hah..will meet again? will they? hmm
ive been bumming and watchin vcds although im fasting i think ive gained weight coz ive been snackin lots and lots..hmm..wait til school starts then i'll shed some grams off...
im bored so i made a banner..inspired by the poem in the movie..sorta...my 108 module came in handy..and adobe is pretty funn..weeeee
this was the poem from the movie..a man in the vienna streets told the couple that instead of them just giving him money, he would sell them words instead..he asked them to give him a word and he'll write a poem with the word in it and they can pay him whatever..they gave him the word "milkshake" and 5 minutes later he came up with this
Daydreamed illusion
Limousine eyelash
O baby with your pretty face
Dropped a tear in my wine glass
Look at those big eyes
See what you mean to me
Sweet cakes and milkshakes
I’m a disillusioned angel
I’m a fantasy parade
I want you to know what I think
Don’t want you to guess anymore
You have no idea where I came from
We have no idea where we’re going
Lodged in life
Like branches in the river
Flowing downstream
Caught in the current
I’ll carry you
You’ll carry me
That’s how it could be
Don’t you know me?
Don’t you know me by now?...
Sunday, November 16, 2003 02:29 a.m.
matrix will kill bill
what is up wit the matrix fever.what is up.can you tell me what is up?everywhere i see keanu in black shades.every ad i look at is matrix or matrix-ish.and no.dont ask me if i have seen the matrix.coz i havent.and no dont ask me why coz i just havent.so everyone's into the matrix.so.ok.ah huh.ok.fine. i dread to think what it'd be like when the third lotr comes.and then harry potter. arrrrgh. commercialism madness.helllp.
saw kill bill just now...the pirated dvd my bro got...oooo..its like bloody gory with limbs and heads chopped off and blood exaggeratedly gushing like uncontrollable full blown garden hoses everyone slippin on pools of blood on the floor uma thurman's yellow suit becomes mcdonald's-ish with lotsa red on it her hay-coloured hair suddenly maroon a lil bit..its all bloody baby bloody. i dont recommend it to kids and potential psycho killers. on the other hand, it was comic genius. ok maybe not genius. but only tarantino can be forgiven for pouring buckets of bloody violence on our faces.i guess. it was a fun movie.really.i would almost say that it was cool but i dont wanna pass off as a desensitized viewer of violence in the media.coz im not.really.im just not a matrix fanatic or lotr or harry potter or star wars.i am however an ethan hawke junkie formerly ben affleck groupie. and i am sleepy. *nods off*
Thursday, November 13, 2003 01:49 a.m.
i hate warm nights
hot...the living room is warmm..
had driving today...reverse parking was alright...pretty good actually except im a serial engine staller...argh
went to the library with liza..she wauz studyin for her advertising exam tomoro...g'luck!...we both hate books that have no blurbs
i need the air-cON
Tuesday, November 11, 2003 06:35 a.m.
morning pages
hmm i seldom blog in the morning..but i feel like it..am just surfing the net..enjoying the view outside smelling the indistinct fresh air...and i feel like waxing lyrical..'scuse me while i play verbal lego..*shrugs* *sniff*
Mornings
Mornings are when
Darkness smells of newness
Black shades slowly evolve to gray
When I should dream when I’m awake
The half shades of the fickle sky
Teases a welcoming ray of light
The early birds chirping breakfast songs
As the gracious silence hums along
I open my window
and it whispers me good morning
with fresh breath of natural zephyr
like the smell of a child fresh from the shower
mornings are when
I should dream
When I’m awake
Saturday, November 8, 2003 11:47 p.m.
O Deacon will u be my beacon
Oct 29, 1:16 PM (ET)
LOS ANGELES (AP) - Reese Witherspoon and Ryan Phillippe have a new co-star in their family: a baby boy.
The "Legally Blonde" actress gave birth to Deacon Phillippe in a Los Angeles area hospital on Oct. 23, her spokeswoman said Tuesday.
"The family is very happy and doing well," said publicist Nanci Ryder.
Witherspoon, 27, and Phillippe, 29, also have a 4-year-old daughter, Ava. They were wed in 1999.
The couple appeared together in "Cruel Intentions."
Witherspoon's other movies include "Election" and "Sweet Home Alabama," and Phillippe starred in "Gosford Park" and "I Know What You Did Last Summer."
Friday, November 7, 2003 10:20 p.m.
ok correction we didnt go venezia...we went to swensen's..good ol' swensen's who tried to trick us out of the free main course that a birthday person was entitled to..they had some promotion..and theres the free earthquake and fun photo print thingy for b'day pple...there were like so many people who had their birthdays...and there were so many earthquakes with a teenie weenie candle given out..they prolly were making losses..to give free birthday treats at this time of the year is mad...half the people in the world are born during this time man...i think..so yea..o ya...happy biiirthdayyyy ainiiiiiiii...hope u enjoyed the fish n chips, the earthquake and the fun photo thingy and us..hehah..weeeeooo
i shall watch tv now...and figure out the whole survivor complications and twists and turns and shit..o by the way..did i mention..ive finished my examsss..its like weeeeeeeeeee...i can just bumm...and watch tv and watch tv and watch tv...ah huh..woooooooooo
Friday, November 7, 2003 03:49 p.m.
TGIF
its friday!! its friday!! fr fr fr friiiiiiiidayyyyyyy!!
i feel like i just escaped from prison...ahh..freeee..ok now, on to doing whatever..
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i hate onions...onions are not vegetables onions are not food..onions are like accidentally edible hybrids of a plant and a ..uhh..a thing...
ok offf...offf to meet the mummysitas...i will not use the word mamasitas again...breaking fast at cafe venezia...i am already planning my menu..haha..ta.
*skips off*
Sunday, November 2, 2003 11:16 p.m.
i want a magic remote...
i dunno why...im very distracted...its like i wanna do everything else besides study...someone's put a curse on me..or somethin..hah..but wuhtever..im not giving this my best shot..but nevertheless i am afraid of not doing well..stupid contradictions are a waste of my tiiiiiime...so tell me whyyyyyy am i still entertaining these thoughts...because i cannot brush it aside..because..i feeel like theres more to life than just exams..haha..NOt! i think i have maximized the mugger in me during my "A"s...ah huh..that must be it..i just dont have the energy to mug anymore..i wanna fast forward to fridayyyyyyyy..u watch me...i will fast forwarddd the weekkk...free me from this guilty misery...*looks for the magic remote control*
Friday, October 31, 2003 09:51 p.m.
imsorryicantbeperfect
its ok to disappoint myself.i think.
sometimes my mirror
is just
a 4 sided frame
sometimes my anger
is just
my happiness under strain
sometimes its hard
to just
wallow away
sometimes empty minutes
can just
drive me insane
sometimes i love it
when there's
too much to take
sometimes i'm happy
to help
myself break
did i grow up according to plan? it seems so..it only seems so..but then again i dont believe in plans..dont believe in plans at all..
Thursday, October 30, 2003 11:24 p.m.
all i wanna do...
i've never heard anyone come out of an exam hall and say "f@#$, that was bloody easy!"..and mean it...its either "damn, that was hard"..."i think im wrong eh"..or..
if the paper was ok then they'd say.."hmm, i think not bad ah"..."quite ok right?"..its never just plain straight.."easy man."..without the "i think" and the "quite"...hah..but i guess an exam is not an exam if everybody comes out sayin that...ok i dont think the paper today qualifies as an "easy man."...but im not gonna say..damn it was hard..either...i dunno...it was ok...i dunno..am i making sense? ok whatever...its just..what im tryin to say is i just dont like to "tragify" the irreversible..it was done and thats all i know...i dont wanna say i shoulda done this i shoulda done that...ok?..ok...1 down 4 more to go..
peace out.
Monday, October 27, 2003 01:37 a.m.
shemizzle wefizzle dooweezee gesheegle
this is from my text, "communication: theories and applications" ...from a chapter on interviewing theory and principles....a paragraph reads:
Cultural norms affect the appropriateness of questions and the underlying meaning of words and phrases. A question that is appropriate to ask in the context of one culture might be totally inappropriate in another. Those who have learnt English as a second language may be unfamiliar with many U.S idiomatic(i am so tempted to type 'idiotic' here intead)phrases. The question, "What type of people rub you the wrong way?" may elicit some bewilderment and perhaps even embarrasment, especially if followed with "How do you feel about starting from the bottom?". muahahah....redmond is a funny guy.
now im just wonderin if i translated that to malay..like literally..it'd go somethin like this(in my own 'capalang' translation) :
adakah sesiapa yang meraba-raba anda dengan cara yang salah? apakah perasaan kamu jika kita mula dari bawah?
muahahah...wooo...kinkAy...reow..
Saturday, October 25, 2003 02:39 p.m.
rotten rollerblades...renewed reminiscence
yesss...i woke up early this morning...not very very early..like bout 9...had some breakfast..set my mind up for some form of exercise..felt like rollerblading instead of jogging..its been eons since i last went blading...so i took my dusty skates put them on and in less than 2 seconds after i got up and whizzed about a one meter distance..my right skate fell apart...ah huh...it just FELL APART...like i dunno..rotten plastic? anyway..it was like..wtf?!?!...but it didnt happen when i was downstairs..happened right outside my doorstep..so that saved me some embarrassment although my mom saw it and laughed..and ya..i laughed and u'd laugh too if u saw it...muahah..it was like...sliiide..weeee..funny tap tap sounds and then PiAK!..muahah..so i had to throw them away...haiiii...thats the sad part...coz i've had those skates since i was in primary school...i remember rollerblading with my neighbour friend wit her lil sis in my old neighbourhood...we'd bring our bag of coins..go to 7-eleven to get the largest slurpee to share among us...we'd go to the coffee shop to get curry puffs and we'd sit by the playground to eat..sometimes we'd sit on the swing..all this while having our skates on..it was like a mini adventure and our skates were like our car..although going up and down the stairs were unprofessionally slow, putting our foot on each step slowly while clinging to the rails...we'd walk on grasses when we got too lazy to skate..showing off to other kids in the neighbourhood..making some friends who also skated in the neighbourhood...ahhh memories...i guess the tangible things in life will break and fade one day but what u remember them by u can still keep...weeeee
potential new year's resolution: buy new skates.
so yea...so i went jogging instead..one round around my neighbourhood and i stopped, partly coz i was out of breath, and mostly coz i realized that jogging is the most boring exercise...so i just walked while listenin to my md player and wished there was somewhere i could go dance...like a dancing studio with only justin timberlake..hahah..then..yea..whatever..
potential new year resolution: take up hip hop dancing sessions during the hols
Saturday, October 25, 2003 12:01 a.m.
Exhale. Another wasted breath.
the flow...will just go with the flow...I have come to the conclusion that I cannot study with the music on..I had the music on the whole day..its...a welcomed distraction..that I should not welcome anymore..if I want to get these theories and facts and figures and what nots in ma clunking headddddd...ah huh..
I have to start to go jogging tomorrow morning...if I don't, then I'll never go jogging ever...note to self: get your lazy flabby ass up and runnin!
I want a suede brown fedora hat
I want to hear britney's new single
I want to pass my exams
Wednesday, October 22, 2003 12:21 a.m.
Exhale. Another quiet night.
I saw a mud-coloured soft object dancing in the gentlest breeze this afternoon and thought it to be a beautiful bird just out of my eyesight’s reach. As I neared this object, then it got clearer and what it was was entirely not what it seemed. It was just a dead leave passively being blown by the wind, lying on the grass in an odd-shaped manner.My faraway view triggered my imagination. The sudden realization that it was not a beautiful bird left me disappointed – in myself. My imagination led me to foolish thoughts. Speculations can turn us into idiots sometimes...idiotsss
Tuesday, October 21, 2003 01:09 a.m.
automatic for the people
My uncle let me drive his Subaru Forrester out of the multi-storey carpark and to the shelter in front of my block, on sunday…it’s not a far distance….and I was maneuvering it painstakingly slowly out from about the 3rd level of the carpark…almost hit the wall while turning…but my uncle coolly told me stop as he pulled the handbrake and told me turn the wheel some more…I’m in lurrrrrrrrrrrrrve….
no not with my uncle u sicko…but with the auto functions of an auto car….i wish driving lessons and tests were on auto….ah well…lets look at the bright side…at least I’d know how to drive a manual AND an auto once I pass…yes lets say that again….once I pass…once I pass….at least I will get to drive…..once I pass….hahah…does repetition qualify as a prayer?
I wish I could have taken the forrester, as they say, ‘out for a spin’, it was smooooooth….its like…weeeeeeee…this thing is driving me instead….but yah….im not qualified yet….but Once I Pass….ah huh…yea…I’ll take it out for a spin and then some….but I am currently itching to drive an auto…that 500m drive was “weeeeeeeeeeee” but oh wilt thou leave me so unsatisfied?!….had driving lesson just now….on a MANUAL of course….ugh…’what satisfaction can thy have on that shitE?”
blaine is whack...but i still like him coz hes cute...so then maybe I'M whack...ah huh
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