Whose life is it, anyway?

Saturday, July 22, 2006
I'll eat the lotus and peyote

I came. I conquered. And if it doesn't end up mine, then at least I could say I've tried?
Yea, there's a higher being/working that I trust more than my own instincts, which isn't necessarily a good thing. I need to learn to draw the line between giving in and giving up, is all I'm saying. (and very soon because time is running out. It always is and always will be.)

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I might be on the 10pm news this weekend on CNA (not sure if it's saturday or sunday). If you want to catch me, just, y'know, Don't Blink. And 'scuse my hair, omegawd, I shoulda combed it goddamnit. Oh wait, what the heck, Blink away anyway and while you're at it, shut your eyes for a coupla seconds why doncha. haha
Tamil Murasu ran an article on our Nepal trip on Thursday. Ummm...someone help translate?!

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Y'know what, Shaz lucky_ger84 got to see death cab for cutie live in brissy. I am one helluva jealous friend. I told her I wouldn't speak to her (for 18 seconds). But she bought me a dcfc t-shirt. So it's all good now. We're speaking to each other. Hehah.

One day, I will be in the same room as ben gibbard...One Fine Day. (and one day, I will eat krispy kreme donuts...say maybe next week, do they have krispy kreme in gold coast???)

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Current song on loop (thnx Y diddy for umm...putting it into my computer):

I never thought of this as funny
It speaks another world to me
I wanna be your easter bunny
I wanna be your christmas tree

I'll strip the world that you must live in
Of all its godforsaken greed
I'll ply the tar out of your feathers
I'll pluck the thorns out of your feet...

I heard thom yorke sing the first paragraph of this song once, gawd it was fucken beautiful 'coz he has a gentler voice than stipe.

sigh. (Yea, it's that time of the month. ha. 'scuse me while I indulge in my dose of sappiness.)

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I was just making conversation with an acquaintance recently, I asked "hey how's things"...and he said in a disappointed manner, that "things have been constant", as if it was the worst thing...which kinda irked me because..

I, for one, love it when things in my life seem constant

He should learn to appreciate that there hasn't been any nasty unpredictables that has jumped out to bite him in the ass.

So "constant" is good, my friend.
But of course, progress is better...and hopefully I will have that answer next time I ask you again..

twisted frequencies @ 12:27 a.m.

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Thursday, July 20, 2006
the eraser

twisted frequencies @ 01:16 a.m.

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Monday, July 17, 2006
the unbearable lightness of boring

In theatres now..

"cool, available and addictive"...hoho

Coming soon...(I hope)

"You're gonna be wondering in 20 years..why didn't I do something exciting with my life..."

zach braff! casey affleck! *jumps hops skips*
Watch with me lehh..

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I had the weirdest dream last night/this morning. It was a mix of tragedy, pain, love, humor and..get this..animation(!).

It was the first time the tragic scenery in my dreams turned into animation. I swear I don't remember ever dreaming in cartoons. This was the second half of the dream: I was in a car with the survivors of this plane crash I just escaped from and from a distance I see a huge wave of tsunami coming towards us and while I was singing dashboard's "don't wait", the waves came mercilessly and everyone was too light-hearted for my liking on the situation and then the car we were in suddenly just tumbled down into this valley and that's when the view and everything turned into animation, the brown soil and blue sea were in water colour and I started to feel ok 'coz if I was in an animation, that means I couldn't die, no?

ODD. I knowwww.

Once when I was little and my uncle asked what I'd wanna be when I grow up, I said I wanted to be a cartoon character...'coz they never die. You see no matter how many bazookas go off in Wild E Coyote's face, no matter how many TNTs he self-imploded, Road Runner could never kill him. And so I aspired to become eternalized in drawings someday. 'Coz I'd probably be as invincible. haha. And then I wanted to be a lawyer...but that's another story...

So anyhow...y'know what, my strawberry Snapple cap says: "Mosquitoes are attracted to people who've recently eaten bananas."
When was the last time you had a good drink and suddenly felt so smart?

It's 3pm and I'm just gonna head to the kitchen...for breakfast.

Don't you just hate me?

This has been a post full of oddities.
(But when has it not?)

twisted frequencies @ 03:12 p.m.

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Sunday, July 16, 2006
...and suddenly you're deep enough

Was listening to Sade's "By your side" earlier, and it's been awhile since a song has made me feel so calm. Like I could literally feel my heart rate dropping to a relaxed pace...

Sometimes people come to me burdened with problems I wish I had the answers to help solve but oftentimes I don't. I wish I could do a Sade..Have this sort of superhuman power where I'll just sing and lull him/her to peace coz some problems have no resolve. You just need a certain dose of calm to overcome it and move on. hoho..but then again I could always just tell them to listen to sade. hehah

"..when you're on the outside baby and you can't get in..I will show you..you're so much better than you know..."

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I like Timbaland...his beats are (in hiphop speak) - "the illest"...but I don't like what he's done to Nelly Furtado. Bring back this old (Whoa!) Nelly!!

nelly furtado feat. steve vai (on guitar) - like a bird (2002)

On the other hand, I like what Timbaland's done with JT with SexyBack. Love it.

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Oh and y'know the world has proven yet again to me how small it is...although I can't decide if it's the world or just simply this bloody country that I live in.

Anyhoo, this time a random question crossed my mind, do I have enough faith in fate?

I think love is the grandest of all illusions...and it's worth getting hypnotized by it over and over again. But what happens when the pendulum stops?

dashboard confessional - don't wait

"I hear your warnings but we both know...
I'm gonna look at it again."

twisted frequencies @ 01:39 a.m.

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Thursday, July 13, 2006
unphotographable...

panassizzlecracklepop

Justin Timberlake - SexyBack

Guess who's bringing sexy back...

I say Bring It All Back NOW

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It was my favourite classic sappy love song ever:
"My funny valentine"...and then someone had to do a rendition on Singapore Idol and butcher it. Crap. Now I've to decide on another favourite classic sappy love song. 'Coz "my funny valentine" is just not the same anymore. Everytime I hear it goes..."my funny valenthigh..." aaaaaaaaaaaaargh!

(Although I must say, constantine maroulis did quite a sleek rendition on American Idol once)

But still..I think there should be certain classics that these reality competitions shouldn't dare touch. hmph.
down with song-butchers!!!

twisted frequencies @ 10:42 p.m.

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Tuesday, July 11, 2006
nepal in pictures

Honey, I'm homely...

Am feeling real lethargic and my tummy's been the center of unco-operativeness since I got back. I suspect it's the airplane food. Too weak to blog. Enjoy the pictures.

by myazuresky

more pics here .

..and nicer pics from the team here.

twisted frequencies @ 08:37 p.m.

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Friday, July 7, 2006
namaste nepal

Am in a cyber cafe in the heart of Patan, we're staying in a place called "Third World Guest House" (I kid you not) at Patan Square...No TV, no air-con, no hot water in the morning but the view is marvellousssss and the food is good. It's been pretty hectic man...my blogging energy's been sapped. I've contributed to our team's blog which you can check out here.

Thanks for the birthday wishes...but I think Nepal's state of poverty is somehow more important than me turning 22. haha.

Oh did I mention...the guys are cute. Yay.

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ETA (6:44pm Nepali time):
yes Nepal works in a different timezone. went back to another cyber cafe, the computer here is better...it's not old school white, it's black and a wee bit more swanky..but connection's still slow. Yes shaz, harshi marley lied. hehah. Lotsa cyber cafes in touristy areas. The background music right now at the cyber cafe is gwyneth paltrow and some old geezer singing that cruisin' song. Very thankful that today is quite a relaxing day...the last 4 days have been very intensive. Straight after landing in Kathmandu, we headed to the Nepali Times office and met the head editor and went through a very intensive rundown of all our story ideas,next day we visited a community radio station and shot some footages and did some interviews,then wednesday had a spontaneous 5-hour trek inside a quarry village, Thursday we had an interview with a Nepali woman who plays the sharod - this funky traditional string instrument and then back to the radio station for more interviews, just this morning, we interviewed a Nepali social science expert. Geeeeez, suddenly hearing gwyneth sing "baby let's cruise" is a good enough form of relaxation for now.

Y'know what, I have never eaten so much vegetables and fish in my whole life (and they're actually good stuff). steady ah az.

twisted frequencies @ 10:18 a.m.

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Monday, July 3, 2006
ain't no mountain high, ain't no valley low....

Kathmandu awaits (to welcome me into my 22nd year on this earth? amongst other things...)

It's no wonder that I still get motion sickness 'coz I still can't get over how quickly time flies...

Thank you luvs, for...everything today. Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeehoooooo, I luv it I luv it I luv it.

I feel kinda tired. uninspired. I think it was the saturday late night. ah. It'll pass..

Hopefully the faraway fresh air in the other side of the continent will inspire me to be wordier in my next entry.

Happy manic monday.

twisted frequencies @ 12:39 a.m.

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Saturday, July 1, 2006
the wheel of possibility, however it may roll....

bloody hell.

It was at a U-turn, turning into Lornie road going towards the Corp.

Suddenly I accidentally hit the kerb or a nail or some metal or some really sharp stone around the construction area...I continued driving with this sinking feeling..literally. 'Coz the right side of the car felt so so wrong..like it was....sinking

Stopped somewhere and checked and hell...sink, sinking, sunk la. The back right tyre was absolutely busted.

There was a petrol station nearby so I made my way there just to be in the comfort of a place that could empathize fully with my problem (and of course get HELP)

I got my puppy dog eyes ready and played damsel in distress...and the...what do you call those guys? petrol attendant? helped me out.
..like really really helped me out.

There was this one nut that just wouldn't unscrew. Even after he was stepping on the spanner to twist it. Even after I've put not one foot, but both my feet on the spanner, putting my entire body weight on it, the nut would. not. budge or twist. And ...let's call him Mr Nan...was sweating profusely trying to get that final nut to twist for an entire hour...It drove us NUTSS!! (yes you saw that pun coming didn't you).

I called for a technician to come to settle the 'nutjob'. hoho. And he would've cost me $50++...But. Mr Nan was very persistent. He took an iron rod and god knows what he did it eventually came off. Poor thing, it made him so pe-NAT - malay for 'tired'(wow! a cross-language pun. ahah.). And so I cancelled the technician and saved some money. (although technically, if I didn't accidentally hit the "whatever-the-hell-it-was" I would've saved money. period. And then some...) - oh wait, I know what it was...it was a tangible *ahem* Tired piece of karma.

Wasn't sure how much to tip Mr Nan but ummm...I assure you, it was hefty enough. I hope.

Anyway, Thanks hazzizou. Take care of yo-self in *yawn* perth. I hear the flies are vicious in spring. heh. Won't see you when I come back...so cheers to the chocolates and all those bunggol, sheesha, gossip, nicknamed-boys, cacat, bacin news adventures we have weathered and gallivanted through. JAYsus, It's been hella fun.

Ok. I need to pack.

Daddy, sorry bout the tyre. It was the tyre! (ok there's sucha thing as too many puns az). Actually this black rimless spare tire looks kinda good know... Like a sexy scar on a handsome face.................hm? How do you like the s-car now?

twisted frequencies @ 02:04 a.m.

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