smiiile...tho your heart is aching
smiiile...even tho its breaking
when there are clouds in the sky
you'll get by
if you smile through your fear and sorrow
smiiile...and maybe tomorrow
you'll see the sun come shining through....
if i could have a superhuman power it would be the power to fast forward all soaps on tv...you'd love me!
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it was in the news the last few weeks...channel newsasia was showing this story about a japanese cult group wearing protective suits looking frantic fleeing in a white van..this group warned that the world will end on May 15th...i was like.."noooooooooooo...its payday!!"...ahahah..i guess the van was for them to go hiding...not from the end of the world but from severe embarrasment...
or maybe...
the world has ended and we're all living in the matrix!...
or maybe buffy saved the world again...
Friday, May 16, 2003 01:26 a.m.
got meself a 7250...wahooo
was eye-ing 7210...but the dealer said its phased out after nokia found it had technical problems...and the price was almost the same as 7250...so i just thought i might as well buy the latest if i wanted to buy at all...so yeaaa...still getting used to this phone..its aight
Monday, May 12, 2003 11:55 p.m.
"Looooooove...so many people use your name in vain
looooove, those who have faith in you sometimes go astrayyy...yeay
loooove, through all the ups and downs the joys and her-urts...
looooove, for better or worse i still will choose you first"
c'mon sing it wit me...
havent blogged for awhile...i dunno why...been workin too much...breaking my back for people who don't appreciate favors...i hate myself when i can't say "no"...somebody train meeeeee(to be a bigger bitch than i am)...i'm fickled...no weak...ok fickled and weak...i'd plan something and tell myself i have to stick to it...but a teenie weenie unpredictable thing can occur and i'd turn 180 degrees on my plans...and get disoriented..like an ant with its antannae suddenly cut off while walking automatic to its sure destination with eyes closed...suddenly there's a maze to figure out...i have to quit very very soon...and i have to figure that out...i wish some things were as simple as it sounds...ok its not thaaaat tough...its just an irritating knot..
sunday was nice...mothers day but didnt get my mom anything..yet..i dunno if im gonna..not that i dont wanna..i just dont have anything tangibly perfect in mind to give..
was at my aunt's place...slept over from saturday...sunday was a big big deal for my grandma coz she led my aunts to my youngest uncle's gf's place to lay out a proposal to the family...i wish i was at the house to see the "proceedings" but my grandma said its only for adults..haii..so yea...my aunts said my grandma was a cool cat..all eyes were on her as she laid out her "i come with the intention to wed my son to your daughter...the dowry will be blah blah blah" speech...she was excited the night before...she couldnt sleep...at the end of it she said the things she planned to say all went out the window once she was there....hahah...good ol' grandma...but shes happy..my aunts said the family was cool...they'd accept whats offered..and they were just "officiallising" what my uncle and his gf had planned...an engagement in June and a wedding in a years' time...woooo...modern times modern ways ...my uncle's 28..so i guess that'd pretty much be a perfect time to settle down...so congrats to him and his future wife...
after the "proceedings" we went to cafe venezia for a surprise mother's day dinner for my grandma...it was truly my grandma's day...she got a huge bouquet of flowers and a mother's day card with a picture of her when she was wayyy younger and wearing sunglasses...hahah...she was going "when did i ever wear sunglasses?!?!"...she didnt bring her specs..so i read the really sweet messages and funny poems her children wrote for her...hahah..funky aunts aunts and uncles ...not all my aunts and uncles were there..well not all can be there..but seeing my grandma so happy...that was really nice...warm fuzzy feeling..you know like how you'd feel when you hear reuben sing a blues ballad..
now whats left that i need is a solitary vacation by the caribbean sipping fruit punch
either that or just sleep
Friday, April 25, 2003 09:50 p.m.
sars here sars there...yada yada yada quarantine...yada..sacrifices..medical staff..yada yada...check temperatures...yada..be responsible..yada yada yadaaaaaaaaaaaa...its not about being ignorant but hearing news about nothing but sars is just...like...i dunno..so claustrophobic...eagh...
Thursday, April 24, 2003 09:52 p.m.
some flying bird shit missed me by about 3 inches today
if u were aiming for my head, ha! *sticks out tongue* try again!
eh waitwaitwait... on second thoughts...no dooon't.. try someone else you toiletless flying poop dropping creatures...someone like...uhhh...you know...ahhh..you can smell their stinky heads from miles up in the sky..thats what a toilet smells like...
speaking of toilets..(how did i end up speaking abt toilets again?!)...my parents bought a new toilet seat...the last one was cracked on one side...the crack always pinched my butt...(i know im irresistable but still!)...so thank god they bought a new one...this one's too nice tho...too nice to sit on and...you know...use..but at least no more pinching..
the virus is spreadiiing...how??
(ok back to happy thoughts..) this wk has been cool..worked with an attachment manager from forum and one from taka...they were a breath of fresh air..*breathes in*..there was this butch...whom i didnt get the "honor" of working with...she..i mean he..i mean she..ahh..s/he has a funky name to go along with her/his gender...ok so he is actually a she...but she calls her/himself brian...brian suzie...eek...talk about oxymorons...its like..they put the name in bracket on her/his punch card...i thought her/his name is brianna or something...but its actually something else..something very malay and girly...and...uhh..forgettable...i guess thats why there was an alias of "brian suzie"...now try to forget that..ha!
ok thats like a very superficial thing that im blabbing too long about...but i have nothing deep to say...not to others but myself anyway...
ok if u find that arrogant..slap me once..if u find that cool..slap me twice..
*ow* *ow* ...haw haw
i swear ...i don't drink...'cept coffee
Wednesday, April 23, 2003 09:37 p.m.
beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee - yotch .
life's not a bitch...people are...
Sunday, April 20, 2003 02:52 p.m.
i'm on a spending roll...have still got 500+..i shouldnt use it all up...am going shopping with liz later at 4...if i wanna get all the clothes that i want i'd prolly spend around 200 dollars...hmm...then i really shouldnt spend until i get my next pay...which seems like eons to come...it'd be worth the wait tho...coz i've been workin like mad...over times and double pay for public holiday..hmm..think i'll change my phone when i get my next pay..but i still dont know what phone i want..hmm..i think after that i'll end up with just 300+...am thinking of quitting mid-may...or maybe end of may...so i could earn another 400+...i must at least have 500+ in my bank...coz less looks pathetic..haha..ok too many numbers...am getting dizzy...wanna go shoppinggg..should i buy a mask?
ciao!
Thursday, April 17, 2003 11:06 p.m.
bought an md player...finally...woo hoo hoo...playin wit it..
Monday, April 14, 2003 10:01 p.m.
Tonight
when the clock strikes 12
the drums will roll...
the guitar will go..."jeng jeng jeng..."
a loud sound in my head will go...
KAChiNG!!
Payyyyyyyyrollllllll!!!!
*chants*
spend spend spend spend spend spend spend spend
spend spend spend spend spend spend spend spend spend spend
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they told me "S" visited on saturday, I wasnt working...like homer simpson I went "DOPe!!"...trying to supress my disappointment...they dont know...
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it was only me and another manager...the 2 of us ran the store from 10-3 when another attachment manager came...omigoodness...some people who cannot keep their word shouldnt work at all when schedules involve other people and other peoples' time and energy...can you live with yourself if you compromise other people's time and energy for your own irresponsibility? some people can...its so fuckin sad and it tires me out...hah..and all the bullshit excuses they pull...its comic
there was an asshole of a customer today...asshole with a thousand "S-es"...arrogant caucasian who expects us to bow at his feet...he can kiss my ass and my asshole while at it...haha..ok relak relak...
u see it goes something like this...this white guy came in with a long face and orders a breakfast set(a breakfast set usually comes with brewed coffee or tea)..but he changes it to a cappucino..so that means u have to pay more..and he also ordered orange juice...i gave him the orange juice and he said i didnt shake the bottle coz there weren't those fibres in 'em..so i gave him a new one..a shaken one...then he asked why does he have to pay more than he usually does...he went to republic plaza yesterday and they charged him wayy less..i called my manager to confirm it..and i wasnt wrong..he was just kickin up a fuss..my manager said she'll call republic plaza to confirm...she did and they said they were closed yesterday..then my manager told that to him..and he said.."yea i went there..on saturday"...my manager asked him several times before that,"so u're confirming that you went to republic plaza YESTERDAY, right?" several times...so then he changed the topic..he said the egg is too raw, "this is not how i have my egg"...(its supposed to be like that..half-boiled egg)...he said something about "oh its not my day huh"..(oh im SOrry...since your ancestors colonised our country 200 years ago, we have to repay your so-called arrogantly self-termed "white man's burden" by making every day YOUR freakin Day?!??!) ..so we made a new one for him..then he says "now my coffee is warm, its not hot anymore"...so we made another cappucino...with a million curses in all languages under our breaths...and then..yea...just shut him up..and curse that the guy will slip on a banana skin and fall into a manhole on his way to the airport where he will be diagnosed with SARS when he gets home...hahah...now read that and tell me you're not pissed?
Wednesday, April 9, 2003 10:47 p.m.
I think bad days make you appreciate the good ones even more
you can't have a perfect day...can you?
shit happens..I know that...and it sucks while it happens...but I guess at the end of the day if I can get over it..if I can still smile..if I can be assured that some people's opinions shouldn't faze me...then thats what counts - what I feel at the end of the day - ..then it'd mean that the day wasn't soo bad, not good, but not soo bad.. even when shit happens..
today was a good day...
Tuesday, April 8, 2003 10:28 p.m.
wind.face.choke.
tompang-ed the bike today...manager sent me home...worked overtime since 9.30 in the morning...coz this guy(who used to work in cb and is coming back,whom i havent met)..he couldnt come...and another guy..came bloody late...heesh...so yea..worked almost the whole day and then got a ride home...
can't say i lurrrve riding the bike...it was this big..fast bike..you know the kind that has turbo charged engine and performance enhancer and what nots...(coz the rider has no life, besides nursing his 2 beloved bikes)...so yea...it went fast...and i can't say that i enjoyed it...wind on my face thing is just..not my thing...ok yes..im a wuss..or maybe coz you know the wind blows really hard not only on your face but on your nose...and you forgot whether you've already breathed out..hah..ok so now how do i decline when he asks if i want a ride, without looking like a chicken?
ok gonna get pay next week...am gonna buy an md player..and am gonna change my handphone(its about bloody time)..and am gonna be broke..and will wait for next pay...and will shop for new clothes..and will quit soon after and we'll see where it goes from there...
ahhh...the plans we make in life...
..and things may not even go that way at all..
Thursday, April 3, 2003 10:02 p.m.
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Wednesday, April 2, 2003 09:51 p.m.
yay they're hiring 2 new workers...yay...im bored with the current ones...
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its funny how this chinese star..who'd just died...had his cds sold out immediately...maybe he faked his death to bring in sales...hah...ok shut up...now hes gonna haunt me..wait...i dont even know who he is..
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have you ever looked around ur surroundings then your glance catches someone else glancing at you...both of you hold each other's gaze 'coz neither wants to turn away immediately 'coz that would mean that one admits that one was looking at the other then you both turn away at the same time? have you? have you?...i have.. =)
Monday, March 31, 2003 09:33 p.m.
getting through the hours....
*Buurp*
my immediate reaction to "the hours" was just that - immediate. I was struck,magnetized and immediately went "brilliant!"...it kept me thinking...and the more i think the more i came to the conclusion that i could actually Not like this movie although i respect its power too much to hate it...still..there was something unsettling underneath the brilliance...
the film was so brilliant and persuasive - in portraying the notion that suicide can be a noble thing...i feel i shouldn't approach this idea with a closed mind..but as open as i'd like to be...it is harrowing..i feel i shouldn't want to be convinced..
yes..this is an age of homogenous films and storylines, trying to dare to be different, a movie has to be really daring and "the hours" has the cheek to be really daring. yes..art pushes the line,re-defines our perspectives, opens our minds...but some lines shouldnt be pushed..some perspectives are better off as it is and an overly open mind can be a pandora's box....should we let art take over us to the extent that we let it draw our own lines?
i believe i have a weakness...sometimes i let people draw my line and let them cross it as they like...i believe i should learn to form my own convictions...(i also believe i should watch the movie again to convince my own perspective)...as i said ..i admire the strength of the movie but i cannot praise its God-playing message..
i start to feel that hollywood is pushing the lines..OUR lines..(and people like me let our lines be crossed when it shouldnt be)...but thats what americans are known to do i guess..
there are certain things you may still questionably glorify...war maybe...
and then there are those you shouldn't...
suicide is one...
..i don't need to explain why..
Sunday, March 30, 2003 09:05 p.m.
some people die to live
....if living suddenly just became something that you feel you just have to bear with...would it be cowardly that you submissively keep on bearing with it? or is it more cowardly if you had just chosen death instead? how do we live courageously then? how do we live? ...when if we choose to die...that choice can be convincingly justified?
what is right? to run away or to face life...when running away means to keep on living and to look at life in its face is to die..
my head was buzzing..."the hours" is haunting...it haunts your thoughts...and re-stitches your perspectives...
argh..work tomorrow...i keep thinking how things could have been so much better by far if the people i liked had stayed...but i know i can't have everything...and good things are sometimes illusions that don't last...
woops...im sounding too pretentiously philosophical...its just jargon...i just want to put my thoughts in a net...no matter how incoherent they may be...could be of some use..or muse..later...
Thursday, March 27, 2003 09:25 p.m.
i am looking...
does "trying" to look for inspiration make that inspiration, if found, artificial?
i cannot sit back and wait for my muse any longer...
Friday, March 21, 2003 11:25 p.m.
one foot in
both feet out
ok so the bitch is gone...thats cool but then...
now the nice manager has transferred and "S" has resigned...and this other nice malay guy is quitting...so...
i'd hate to take out the balance beam...
i predicted this last week would be hell...but it wasn't that bad...i can adapt if i wanted to...hmmmm...i just need things to look forward to...c'mon throw me some!
oh! i passed my final theory..wooopeee...my dad didn't tho...i feel bad fer him...heesh...saright...dont give up pak!
Tuesday, March 18, 2003 02:20 p.m.
it's like 10,000 spoons when all you need is a knife...
why can't guy A say the things that guy B said instead...
whyyy...because we're living in a world currently with a plague-like viral pneumonia
because we're living at a time where many are unemployed and unhappy
because we're living in a world where an unnecessary war is looming
because we're living in a world where there's no right decisions just powerful ones
because in these times it seems that every goddamn thing happens and we don't want it to...
lets just dance...c'mon everybody...swayyy
turn the music up....ok now to the left...ok to the right..thaaaats it..wooo
Monday, March 17, 2003 01:11 a.m.
behind your dark glasses you're something else..
Dear pitas,
when my manager called me at 5.30 and asked me where i am...and said that i was actually supposed to come to work..i just wanted to d.i.e...argh...i didnt skip work on purpose...i just seriously didn't know i was workin..so i had to force myself and head to work...the flipside would be that He could still be around (ok lets call this guy by the initial "S") ... i wasnt sure coz "S" could've finished at 5 or 6. so i reached at 7 with a long face...and he saw me and he said "i understand exactly how you feel"...and then the day was a breeze...ahhh...the manager didn't scold me...actually i'm realizing that he's being nice to me(the manager)...but thats not a strong enough reason to look forward to work...so did closing...damn it..i had to catch my last train home...and the manager said i could go first...
"S" was somewhere else doing something...i didnt manage a proper "hey good luck goodbye" kinda conversation with him and its his last day!...bloody hell...but im sure he'll visit the store some time...pleez visit pleez..gawd...do i sound desperate? am i naive? i dunno..i just..i like him...but he's someone else's...and i don't snatch..hahah..more like...i dunno how to....oh fuck it...i feel sick...have got work at 9am tomoro...i dont care..im comin late...
ps:am getting the hang of doing cashier...there are actually nice people out there..wow..thats like the greatest discovery since the real world slapped me in the face...
yours truly,
flipped.shaq.and.down
Sunday, March 16, 2003 03:19 p.m.
Now I'm towing my car, there's a hole in the roof
My possessions are causing me suspicion but there's no proof
In the paper today tales of war and of waste
But I turn right over to the T.V. page
its 3pm and im waiting for mom to finish cooking spaghetti...
dragged my feet to work yesterday...wasn't that bad...the irritating short manager treated me ok...i just have to ignore his "not-meant-to-be-insulting-but-are-actually-insulting" unfunny jokes...give a fake smile and zone out...
did cashier..screwed up with second receipts for credit cards..but i didn't get any verbal bashing...thank god...did closing...one of the nice malay guys was around to make it tolerable...
checked my pay and its freakin measly coz they havent included my training pay...my classmates were sms-ing and complaining...heesh...this is child labor damn it...how long do we have to wait for the 150 bucks...seriously thats not much to ask is it? have got bbq on sunday but am working...dang...have got to find someone to exchange schedules with...argh
i'm not happy i'm not sad i'm just waiting for my spaghetti
Saturday, March 15, 2003 12:21 a.m.
...and they all fall down like toyyy soldiers...
i predict the next week will be hell at work...why? because he's quit! quitted! resigned! ciao! gone!...sunday's his last day...*wails* what else am i gonna look forward to??...
he explained to me bout why he didnt come the other day...im cool... its not like im gonna hate him for that...anyway..ya...hes found a better payin job...coz he needs money to go to la salle and stuff like that..he told me it wasnt about the place or the pple or the work...its just that the money is just aint enough....sigh
ok so not only that...my schedule is packed...
and the nice manager took his long annual leave and won't be around the whole of next week...
and i just learnt how to do cashier...and the credit card payments and points and shit and all that bullshit is just freakin annoyingly complicated...one customer summed it up well for me today she said.."its a complicated world we live in today.." haha...yea thanx for the tip ma'am..altho i would've preferred like a monetary kinda tip..
so if i screw up cashier i'll screw up big time...and we know nobody is "screw-free"...i'm done! i'm gonna hate work...and i predict i'm gonna wanna quit soon...wanna bet?
ok i'll give myself til mid-may...i'll say that i need to prepare for school yada yada yada...wanna go on vacation and resign! wooo...
the good thing out of all of this...my pay is in my bank as i'm typing this now...its 15th!...wooo...i'll know how much it is tomoro...kaching!(ok i should mute the "kaching!"...coz seriously...we're so not talking millions here)
other than that...its gonna be shit la shit...shiiiiiiiiiiit...hmph! god help me please
Thursday, March 13, 2003 10:37 p.m.
enjoyed good company after a long sleep...refreshing...
woke up to a phone call....liza called me and told me how her day was a mess and My day hasn't even started..(sorry i wasnt in bugis...and sorry bout ur day..)..
ok so late afternoon...me and the girls were "nip-napping" on cahaya side dishes...we had surprisingly friendly hospitality...hahah...cool...
then went for coffee after at starbucks...testing out my rivals..hahah...and checking out bryan...dishy guy with braces..woo
Thursday, March 13, 2003 01:15 a.m.
we close at 10pm and at 10.20pm, several customers still occupy the place with half full lattes waiting for their animated conversations to end...I guess going home would just be a reminder of how early they have to wake up tomorrow morning for work...
i hated the fact that we don't have a dishwasher...but washing dishes is not a bad thing to do....i get to zone out with my thoughts...just me and the porcelains...hahah
he was supposed to come today...would've closed together..but he didn't...and he didn't call..and we were stranded...and someone else had to come in the last minute to help out...*sigh*...i'm so disappointed in him...hahah..you know...to hold someone in a higher than average level of regards and then they suddenly prove they don't deserve to be perceived that way...heesh
Monday, March 10, 2003 08:45 p.m.
had final theory test today...went with my dad, who also took it...hmm..hope we both'll pass...
ok i kinda screwed up my registration...but its not totally screwed i just didnt follow instructions..hahah...now its gonna be troublesome..haiii...*grumbles*..dumbass
had a surprise today...my aunt gave me 200 bucks..woooo..i'll take it as a lil bit of an advanced pay..hahah...have got to put it in the bank before it goes zero...
Sunday, March 9, 2003 09:46 p.m.
Let's take a ride
on the countryside
asked my parents if they wanna go out today...went to suntec exhibition...got some pamphlets...asked a few questions...i have choices but we'll see...we ate at delifrance after that...and i was watching the girl steaming the milk...and how bloody slow she took to make the 3 drinks...hahah...ok now im starting to empathize waiting customers' frustrations...but i won't be very harsh coz i know the pressures of being behind the counter...
had a class on customer service on friday...its a difficult and troublesome sector, customer service...puts you in a humbling position with that king policy of "customer is boss" yada yada yada..."anything for you sir", "no problem ma'am", "anytime sir"...good ego deflation...i don't think i'll stay in this job for very long...save me some ego!
Friday, March 7, 2003 09:16 p.m.
.SURREAL.
i could pinch myself til i bleed...
i broke down and cried in front of my parents for the first time yesterday..tears of relief...of ultimate gratefulness...i've never had much conviction that what i want most could ever be within my reach...but it can i guess...
if i could wish for more than this...i wish that all of us had done well...i hate it that all circumstances cannot be as perfect as you want it to be...i know i may not be able to say much to make some of u feel better...u're prolly asking me to shut up right now...and so ..
yea ok...
i will..
Wednesday, March 5, 2003 11:28 a.m.
tomorrow
i remember countless times during the tortured schooling days, oh how we wished for the "A"s to be over in the blink of an eye...
...and it is...
*sings* tomorrow tomorrow, i love you tomorrow, you're always a day awayyy....bleargh..i shall just work and keep my mind off this...my mom's so cheery when she told me "results thursday!"...but you can never predict my mom's mood...
yesterday was a long and busy day...had coffee and tea class...it was ok...confusing and hard on my tongue...i've a sweet tooth..i can't appreciate coffee or tea without sugar..lotsa sugar..
so after that i had to help with closing coz the bitch decided not to turn up again...shes leaving!!..woo..she has issues with one of the managers...kumar..but i think hes the nicest among the 3...i came around 7.45-7.50 and forgot to punch in...but he wrote for me from 7.30 on my punch card...and he let me go at 11.30 so that i could catch the mrt home...
have got work later...i think the pple scheduled to work today are not the funnest but...haii...i just need to not think about tomoro...
'til tomoro then...
Tuesday, March 4, 2003 01:02 a.m.
what's so great about us human beings? when in the smallest of things we show our biggest weaknesses...
worked from 12-8 today...got to talk to him about "O" level results...just realised we're the same age...all this while he called me "sister" sometimes..as in older sister .not like "sista" sister..muahahah..at least i hope not..so anyways...hes got a girlfriend...but its not as if i wanna be his girlfriend...i just...look forward to work more if he's working...thats all..
after that went to airport...michelle's leavin for sydney..they're all leaving while they can...and i say..smart move...met seah lien,joyce,fiona,jiawen,val,charlene...havent seen val for so long..charlene too..we just talked and hung out for awhile...we all chipped in and gave michelle a bikini..hahah..joyce was organizing the outing..and she couldn't get nurdee..and she didnt join us...dang..wish she could've...so yea..its nice to catch up...i'll see em soon...right? can't wait ..there's more catching up to do..hope michelle will do fine in ozzie...ah..im sure she will...if u're not in s'pore u're doing fine..
Monday, March 3, 2003 12:35 a.m.
walking cracked
I try to believe that god doesn't give you more than one little piece of the story at once. You know, the story of your life. Otherwise your heart would crack wider than you could handle. He only cracks it enough so you can still walk, like someone wearing a cast.
But you've still got a crack running up your side, big enough for a sapling to grow out of. Only no one sees it. NOBODY sees it. Everybody thinks you're one whole piece, and so they treat you maybe not so gentle as they would if they could see that crack.
divine secrets of the ya-ya sisterhood...nice book...the kind that gives you a warm and fuzzy feeling...im taking ages to finish it tho...i'd read it in the train on my way to work...then come across a really sad event in the book and not be in the mood to work...hahah..yea once you're really immersed in fiction its hard to snap back to reality..
did closing yesterday and today...
yesterday...hmm...had one of those moments where i just feel like an invisible loser...but today it was good...i always tell myself that life will keep playing tricks on me...i just have to be strong enough to handle it well...but sometimes i'm just not..dang
Saturday, March 1, 2003 11:56 a.m.
there's a road long and winding....
whatcha gonna do when you grow up
its a question you thought you'd have plenty of time to think about before you seriously answer...
never thought it'd come this fast
went to surprise sharm at her school yesterday morning..we managed to get in..legally..with visitor passes and all...and then while wondering where da heck to look for her in the big school..there she was walking down from her classroom...then bam..surprise!...hahah...we got her good! although it wasnt a polished surprise...very spontaneous...but yea we caught her...caught her before she had to go accompany a class while the school goes to support the volleyball players playing in the finals or something...haii..so we had no time to sing and blow candles and stuff...just gave her the presents..enjoyed her surprised face...and wished her happy birthday...yeap..so Happy Birthday Sharm!!...no 29th? no problem....still celebratory...
so after that together with mai,shaz,shrik..had lunch at kfc then had ice cream at swensen's...and then had the talk about our futures...haiiiii...
there's so much possiblities in the uncertainties...our futures are uncertain (to an extent) and possibilities...whether they're good or bad..i dunno...i know we all have hopes and aspirations...and as long as we have that then it can only be good..(let's be optimistic!)
yea sure i have hopes and dreams...but i also have regrettable decisions...but heck you can only look forward right? whatever decisions i make later...i just hope i won't be easily persuaded again to go with the most practical solution....because i know what i want...it may not be the most practical of things...but i can't imagine doing anything else...so maybe this time I'm the one who'll have to persuade instead of being persuaded...i pray that god gives me the courage to back my own convictions (unselfishly)...
maybe i should be positive...even with this dread...i know im not gonna ace the "A"s...but whats the worst that can happen?..hmmm...the worst...is disappointing my parents...*gulp*
now what's worse than that...
Thursday, February 27, 2003 06:51 p.m.
certified fisher
1. Play
2.Make their day
3.Be There
4.Choose your attitude
had "fish!" programme today..yup..i'm now a certified fisher...the programme's sorta like a guiding principle to make the workplace more fun and improve customer service ('coz its no secret that cbtl's customer service pretty much sux..hahah)...it's called "fish" coz it was inspired from this fish market place in seattle called "pike place" where the fishmongers throw fishes to each other and basically have lotsa fun while working in a smelly and wet environment...they share their principles on how to make the work place a fun place..a place that you will actually look forward to coming to...
it was pretty fun..the programme...(no we didnt' throw fishes at each other)...we were divided into groups and accumulated points and did skits and stuff and its back to secondary school speech and drama class!..hahah..we had to do a skit/act out a situation where one of the fish principles apply...so i was acting as a difficult customer..and it was either my really good acting or just me...that made even the trainer wanna strangle me...muahahah..oh yea..i was a hellufa difficult customer...but u know its always easy to play the bitch..
our group accumulated the most points..and we got some lame-ass dog soft toy..wot? yea dog..eek..but it was pretty fun..feels like school...u know the occasional hours of school where you actually enjoy being a part of
after that had lunch with 3 other girls at bk tb...we just hung out and shared stories about our experiences at work so far...and whoa...there were endless stories...the other girls are gonna collect their "O"s results tomoro..wish them all luck...
earlier one other girl came up to me and asked..about jc stuff and like how shes still undecided to go to jc or poly..and she asked me around when in the month of march i started jc..(thats like totally history and i've no memory of exactly when whatsoever) ..she asked whether it was intense if she had missed the first 3 months..blah blah...seriously...i don't feel like "the wise one" being bombarded with these questions..hahah..i feel like my jc life has like looooong passed..and i dont have much good advice to give except to say "run to poly while you can"...hehehah..ya so dont ask me next time..
Wednesday, February 26, 2003 02:59 p.m.
question.
would I be happier if I had more money? if I had real money?
hell.yeah.
seah lien sent me a shocking sms last night...it sounded serious and it said something like.."please keep this to yourself..i'm getting engaged on the 29th of this month and i'm only inviting close friends..you are invited.."
i was like .."what the..." flabbergasted thrown off my seat...hehehah...and like lotsa things were running through my head..like whos the guy?? i haven't seen the girls for awhile now but i can't miss THAT much right?
yea well..i didn't miss that much...the joke suddenly whacked me on the face...on both cheeks..and i dunno whether it was relief that a dear friend is not growing up too fast or whether the realization of how gullibly dumb i can be sometimes...or maybe the disappointment that this isn't as big as i thought it'd be...i just laughed my ass off...like really laughed my ass off...
29th of this month..hahah...
she got me good
so i decided to throw the joke to pple i haven't seen in awhile...u know..so it'd seem just a tad bit believable..(just a tiny tad bit) ...so i sent it to aini and robin...muahahah...aini didnt get it at first...but then she did...but i really did caught her shocked..her reply was like "ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!" hehehah...and robin called me up on my phone...ahahah...damn i shoulda played along...but i just burst out laughing and he realized the joke..so we chatted for awhile..and he said he lost 19kg...whoa...thats alot man..maybe i should enlist sometime..nah..maybe not..remembering how PE sucks so much in jj...i'll exercise damn it ...but at my own time...i don't like a routine..i wanna do it without being forced....but i guess thats why i havent been exercising since school finished..hahah..
holland v called my outlet few days ago..said they found my notebook...so i went to get it yesterday...there's class tomorrow and friday...but "O" level results are out on friday so i dunno...i think they'll cancel..working on saturday and sunday...what the heck...its busyyy days..busy days ahead..
Tuesday, February 25, 2003 07:18 p.m.
What Justin Body Part
Are You?
You are Justin's lips, full of tenderness, but pouty and coy.
Sunday, February 23, 2003 05:31 p.m.
shape
I've always played it safe nothing's ever safe
Give me the courage to back my own convictions
Every decision I make I pay it back and more
Now turn the cards and let them fall to me
'Coz I don't need to play on with the hand that they have given me
I'll give it back 'coz it's not the way it has to be
And you can easily gamble your life away
Second after second
And a day by day
You play the game or you walk away
It's a new turn on a blue day
And a cool deal of life for me
And it's all good...
I know that the spades are the swords of a soldier
I know that the clubs are weapons of war
I know that diamonds mean money for this art
But that's not the shape of my heart...
lazying around on a lazy sunday afternoon is not such a bad hobby to have...
yesterday was a goddamn busy day at work...with only 3 people...omigod...thank god im not working today...it was a slam mosta the time...and i didnt even get to finish my break...so im really relishing this relaxing sunday off..to think there's so much going on out there while i laze at home...i don't wanna think about it...time off, time out, whatever..no stress..thats how sundays should be..
mmm....i smell 'teh susu'...tea time!
Saturday, February 22, 2003 12:21 p.m.
ev·a·nes·cent : tending to vanish like vapor, transient
if the only surest things are death and taxes, then there really isn't much to look forward to in life is there? but we wake up to each daybreak anyway full of hope of finding that something we're looking for but don't know what it is...maybe that's why we keep moving on..we keep hoping to find what we don't know we're looking for..
so im just chillin..listening to evanescence..this new rock band...that rocks...the daredevil soundtrack rocks..i hear...woo...can't wait for the movie to open..
going to work in an hour's time...
Friday, February 21, 2003 09:53 p.m.
crash into me
once there were 2 mice who fell into a bucket of cream..the first mice gave up and drowned...the second kept trying that it turned the milk into butter...
hahah...ok i shall strive to be the second mouse...but i can't even turn milk into proper steamed milk with nice foams...ahh...let alone butter?!
watched "catch me if you can" yesterday with mai and shaz...was supposed to work but anne called me and said she changed the schedule...so ..wooopeee..i was pretty tired after i got back from the movie..dunno why...watched american idol and then fell asleep at 9.30.
work today was ok...the first hour..there was like nothing to do..i dont really like this short manager..hahah..no not coz hes short..hes just irritating..
so after the first hour it was ok...coz he came(no no..im not referring to the manager)...and our schedule totally crashed...woop dee doo..
had some pretty fucked up customers today...grrrr..but whatever! for the all the fucked up ones there are the nice ones..an impatient ah pek who was ..impatiently waiting for his cappucinno..was going like "hello can u faster or not? taking so long.."...does he even know what cappucinno is made up of in the first place?...but then theres this woman who was watching me making her drink and she was going "aww that looks lovely thank you so much.." and ahh...i felt like my mistakes were worthwhile...hahah...life..sigh..life
Wednesday, February 19, 2003 10:55 p.m.
for the sake of an empty page...i think i archived my previous latest post today...heesh..
me pitas virgin...hahah
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