"If I told you a secret
You won't tell a soul
Will you hold it
And keep it..alive
'Coz its burning a hole
And I can't get to sleep
And I can't live alone in this life..."
R&J on tv now...been awhile...all that memorizing of lines for the "O"s...hahah...o i am fortune's fooooooooool..
all those ominous forebodings and what nots...haii..memories..
i wish i could rent a room in baz luhrmann's head for about a week.
grandma wondered how we make tall buildings with such honest wonder...love my grandma...
..this new headphone totally blocks out the sound outside..i cant hear myself typing..only the music playing..
yea sometimes i cant hear myself typing..only the music playing...only the music playing..and its playing right now...SHHhhhh..
standing in front of you
they fade into the wall
and leave behind nothing
nothing at all
and no i don't understand
how they forget
and some will just pass us by
and take what they can get
and no i dont understand
how weightless they must be
without feeling
grasping with fingernails
as they tear through your skin
leaving no signs of pain
no wounds to mend
and no i dont understand
how they forget
and some will just pass us by
and take what they can get
and no i dont understand how weightless they can be
without feeling
without feeling
without feeling
met them mamasitas after school...went to oph...met shaz, sharm, yan...ate sticky bun...sipped some mango raspberry dunno what frap shaz customized...then mai joined..then chill...then went sakae...then walked....and walked...and im tired now...and sleepy and shit...and ya..my right eye is red...like..cool...coz i've never had like red eyes before man...like..wooo...shaz and yan should like shut up..like...stop talking like that guy..like stop it yall...hah..and i should like...stop typing..like..a bimbo..
like..you wanna know a secret?
my belly itches right now and its gonna rain tonight
yup. i wanna marry a chef. a good-looking chef. jamie oliver kinda chef. rich enough to cook me anything i want kinda chef. manly chef. hooowah chef. are you a chef? just fill the form and join the queue thanx. haha.
i've a 1000 word essay to do...
have only written the cover page...
and the intro...
cursor blinking blinking..
mind goes blank blank...
distracted again by everything else..
"oh well, its only a thousand word essay" i say again..
and then its 11.20 pm ...
CSI on TV...
TV right beside my PC...
more distraction...
buffy later at 12..season finale..cannot miss
more distractions...
"oh well, its only a thousand word essay" i say again"...
melissa hyak is reading the news in mandarin! on channelnewsasia!...some mandarin speaking campaign thingy..ahah...i need to learn mandarin man...its like..everywhere..
report...doing report now..but distracted by the tv..by the internet..by icq..etc...im easily "distractable"..
slept a looong 3 hr nap just now...whoa..had driving after school at 12...parallel parking sux..and i havent even learnt vertical...he was tough on me..coz i dont turn the steering wheel fast enough...ok will practise that with a plate or something...plastic plates...and me and the clutch dont get along very well..aye..2 and half hours of school and 2 hrs of driving equals 3 hours nap..days like these i feel...lifeless
finished the project...stayed up til 4 am on sunday night/monday morning...wow..i think i broke my own record...hmm..theres still an essay due this thursday..a presentation next wednesday and a persuasive speech next thursday...core blimey! more records to break
am having sore throat..dunno why..chocolates?
was at NYP on Sunday morning..to receive my bursary award from ntwu..national transport workers union..got 1500..weee..but my mom only gave me 100 cash..said the rest is for my driving lessons...dang...
anyways..ya...i was like the first of the first first to go up on stage and get the check thingy from some minister called lim something heng..hahah..aight..been so long since i did that..going up on stage crap..but yea..i didnt trip so yay..
ok emmies started...its boring but ah..heck...wheres tom welling
Friday, September 19, 2003 11:29 p.m.
ex-haus-ted
met my "posse" today after school...after quite awhile...sorry dropped your jaws with my haircut..hahah..i feel bloated..ate chicken at lido and then ate some chicken again at kfc...aaaargh...
yan went off early for capollera..wooo...flip your cartwheels girl!...
congratulations to shaz for being "proposed" to...remind your man where his wallet is, lady..haha..
sharm...cya sometime at NIE..weee..whoever's left in s'pore will celebrate your b'day next yr dont worry
mai...beware of sharm's vicious hip hop stare
shrek..mudd...hii...u lovebirds..
i sound like im writing a will...speaking of wills..projects due on monday...hafta kick my engine to 5th gear this weekend..or else..im dead or somethin like that...meeting liza to go library tomorrow...gotta chop chop double up...ok..on ur mark...get set...goooo
to sleep first
I swung the huge pendulum and stood in its way, it hit me hard,
would you like to choose your embarrassment?
Is there such a thing as a cool embarrassment?
im getting forgetful...i'd go to the kitchen and then forget the purpose of my visit...i'd go to my room during the ads on tv, turn on my lights and then wondered why im there...twilight zone...ting ting ting ting...
saw an old man, an old ah pek at the mrt wearing a shirt that says "violently cute!" hmmm...define.."violently"..ok no define "cute"...ok no define "ah pek"..haah
Wednesday, September 17, 2003 01:02 a.m.
i hate roller-coaster rides i didnt pay for
i hate unprecedented 180 degree turns
i hate being tested on my patience
i hate losing control
i hate short hours when you need time
i hate long hours when you want out
i hate being someone i'm not..or am i
i hate not knowing myself
i hate hating my parents sometimes
i hate blaming myself
i love my life
goodnight to all this
cheers
and with the sandman's wine
i toast to a new day
that comes empty
with forgotten thoughts
Tuesday, September 16, 2003 01:08 p.m.
omigosh...you have no ideaaaa..how liberating it is to finallly have the internet up and running now...and i have my PC back...songs still intact...my uncle managed to fix it..weeeeee...i just hope i dont get that letter of warning
to stop downloading or whatever...but ahhh...finalllly..wooohoohoo...
am at my grandma's place...using my uncle's laptop...im not gonna get into my "still waiting for my own laptop" whining...but i think i just did but yea whatever..it took me an hour to set this thing up (my uncle's at work i think) so i can use the net...something with the phone line thingy and ahh whatever...i have listed the things that needs to be done before school re-opens or when school starts and have scared myself enough to want to do it..argh..the horror!..yes i am in the course of my choice yes i should be enjoying what im doing but heck i know that that doesnt mean its gonna be a hunky-dory breezy ride..ok enough self-pitying...im trying..to at least start some parts of some assignment...(which explains why i went all the way to my grandma's house..and surfing the net and blogging and all..yup!)but progress is currently at 20km/h...still rubbing in the dark for the gear stick to move up to 3rd gear...
oh had driving lesson this morning...hmmm..improving? yes...
picked up the basic skills yet? hell no...
why cant cars be like go-carts or bumper cars or those make-believe cars in the arcade...just the accelerator, brake and steering wheel...no clutch no gears no traffic lights no inconsiderate insensitive drivers...why why why...
and the burning questions keep on burning...
Thursday, September 4, 2003 12:34 p.m.
searching for a topic for my informative speech i have to give next next wk...hmmm...i wanna talk about music..but its only a 6 minute speech so have to be very specific...so how...music therapy? music in movies? history of rock music? how to make a hit song? how how how...maybe i should have a poll..ok maybe i wont talk about music...i have a feeling someone else is gonna talk about music...hmmm...hmmm...stomachache
hey the gig was cool...yes there were moshings and body-surfings...a gig is not a gig without those...so ya..good job u guys...the children are emancipated! big-up big-up to the organisers!
