i figured i should revive old passion(s?) this long hols....hmmmmmmm..*thinks hard*....i've always wanted to try inline hockey..i can do the inline part but the hockey bit is sorta almost non-existent..altho i played a lil floorball early last semester and learnt a coupla tricks from the captain, jamie..(aini, remember the fake and the flicks and whatever they're called?)..so..yea..aaaand..i wanna excercise..fun exercise..dont wanna jog..jogging's boring..sooo..maybe hip hop dance lessons..yan lets!..aaand..i need to revive my passion for reading and writing..aaaaand eating..oh no need..the passion for eating has always been around..hmmmmm...wanna travel..with friends..not family..altho i've never travelled with friends cept to sentosa..hehah..o ya..and vietnam..but vietnam was a school trip..so my parents were cool bout that..i wonder how they'd feel about me travelling with friends..i know my mom would prolly say "ur a girl, not good for girls to be in another country without adult supervision(or something like that)..to which i'd reply.."but i AM an adult! i can supervise myself!" to which she'd reply "no la..cannot cannot..not safe..what if guys kacau you and all" to which i'd say "nobody's gonna kacau me laaaa...and i can take care of myself!" to which she'd reply "no la cannot, dont want, no need, why you need to travel with your friends? we're gonna travel also what..no need la..dont waste money".. to which i'd slam the door and blast the music and sulk all day...heh..yea im so psychic bout our mother-daughter r/ship...[for the record, im 19 going on 20(omigod! going on 20?!?)].my brother just flew to miami for another shooting job..im so green im a hulk right now..
and im pretty broke..only have bout a hundred bucks until my pay comes in the middle of this month..work starts tomorrow..and the telephone survey thingy starts monday..so hopefully by the end of the month i'll be gettin some..moolah..and reviving some old passions that requires monetary fuel..
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from seventeen magazine
Crazy Diet 1: THe cabbage soup diet
stomached by: diane sawyer, sarah michelle gellar
what cabbage?
The cabbage soup diet is a 7-day diet plan concentrating on one food item per day, for example, 8 bananas on wednesday, 6 tomatoes on friday, and 1 day all-you-can-eat-to-you-heart's-content of beef, beef and more beef, as long as you eat the soup at least once a day. The fundamental guiding principle: Eat as much as you want whenever you want at any time of the day of...cabbage soup of course.
blegh..cabbage soup? never heard of it mang..i'd love to look like sarah michelle gellar (besides the height)..but im so anti-diet you have no idea how pro-eating i am (except on cabbage soup, i'd be anti-eating on that)..besides, smg said,"It's crazy for people to try to be as thin as we are. We have personal trainers and personal chefs. It's our job to look this way."
so all u 17-yr-old sarah michelle gellar wannabes take heed...ask ur mom to pay for a personal chef and get your dad to hire a personal trainer..and we're allll set to rule the material world..yeeeeeha.
Tuesday, May 4, 2004 08:09 p.m.
i dont wanna get bitter i dont wanna feel fine i just wanna get old before i die
trip to the dentist...its bad...i may have to get a root canal treatment(gasp)..which is super expensive and painful or..have the tooth extracted!..if theres pain..i have to make a choice, the dentist said..argh..i hope theres no pain..my first ever medical dilemma..although im glad its just a choice about a tooth and not a tumor...
rented some vcds and borrowed some magazines to occupy myself..starting work sometime this week and gonna do the telephone survery interview next week..aint my life a carnival?
went to bugis yesterday with liz..hoping to shop..but it was disappointing..didnt get anything..we went to coffee bean to get a drink..met my ex-manager..he said i looked fatter..asshole..he said my face looked rounder..muahah..hmmmm...its been a year and i've been happier since so i guess i'll translate that to happy fats....so we left for commonwealth coz liz had tuition there and i wanted to get a new md remote control (but the shop was closed)got a call from yan along the way asking to come chill at oph..so scooted down to oph on 105 from c'wealth...had a bunch of laughs with yan, shrek and vincent..had caramel steamed milk..and more laughs...and crappy banter..and more laughs..heh. yes my life is a carnival.
i need some money and then i'll get a pair of blades and then i'll shed some fats..baby fats..heh.
Monday, May 3, 2004 12:54 a.m.
maddie
i dreamt about my crush(my ultimate crush) last night and i offered to give him english tuition..coz his english seemed atrocious..but that didnt deter me from having a mad mad crush on him...muahahah..bad english turns me off..but the english i saw in my dreams were like..aargh..atrociouss..but still..it was one of those..omigod this feels so real kinda dream..i dreamt that i told everyone bout this..pple who knew bout my crush and all..and i woke up disappointed..muahahah..its a pathetic obsession i tell you...liza showed me an article bout him a couple of weeks ago..and farz was reading it..and we were havin quite a laugh reading it...if there wasnt a droolsome picture..they'd have no idea why i had a crush on that guy....i wonder what would've happened if i had decided to pick one of those days where he walks pass me(yea PASS not WITH..sad eh) while i was waiting for my friend for a ride to school (this was like..so long ago..secondary school days)..if i had picked one of those days and decided to talk to him..hmmmmmmmmmmmmm...maybe i would've ended up giving him english tuition? argh..dang..but then again..nahhh..hes not my type..character-wise..(i heard)..but looks-wise..totally my type..im shallow like that.
Saturday, May 1, 2004 12:04 a.m.
where my spice girls at.
had a pleasant day today...a pleasant foodist class outing...went to thai express, had the killer tom yum soup and the revitalizing avocado milkshake and chulalongkorn's favourite dish..but thats not enough..the cloud nine was at haagen daaz when we had ice cream fondue and ice cream..gahhhh..it made me foget i even sat for an exam earlier today...bloatedly great..
my parents bought a new luggage..the one where you wheel them around...they bought a big one and got a small one free and i get the small one! weeeeee..we're holidayin baybeeee..in june..
i miss my spice girlsss...hey mamasitas..chill soon?
ainiiii - almost done right? almost? almost? *puts on an s-league cheerleader uniform and pom-poms* "go go go! exams suck! holidays rock! ur almost done g'luck g'luck g'luck!" ...and thats for cat too..coz when i put on an s-league uniform, i'd better be cheering for more than one person..
mai - i know ur busy wit all ur hot kids and all..muahah..but shammon..havent seen ya fer awhile..lets go on a caffeine high..
sharm - *in a ricola ad sorta calling* "wheeerrrre are youuuuu??" are u ok? coping? c'mon lets rant bout it..i can be ur punching bag..or we could just drink our sorrows away..drink coffee that is..
shrek and yan - lets go boogie! lets go cheong! lets go shimmy all night long!...but wait ah..lemme earn some money first and do a lil shopping
liza - my personal shopping assistant..can u hear the retail gods calling?
shaz - miss ya girl...take care and shop til u drop in aussie land..no guilt..when u got good places and great prices let your purse dance to the shopping tune..yeahhhhh
fart - yea ur part of the spice girls too..u just gotta shake it to the left..shake it to the right..ahhh..with more passion..ahhh...yes..thaaaats it..
c'mon peeps..im freed from the shackles of academic imprisonment..and i wanna share my freedom and love..muahahah..o ya and i need you guys to shut my crap too.
Thursday, April 29, 2004 11:36 p.m.
..it's like pronouncing "catalysm" for the word "catholicism"
tomorrow's my last paper..just a one-hour paper and it only weighs 30% to the overall grade...so for the past 5 hours or so i've been online and watching tv..and i love adam brody...gahhh..adam adam adam adam..i wish we could do dinner and a movie...can we can we?
so social psych today...i didnt immerse myself into the revision..havent "immersed" myself in any revision since the "A" levels really..i have lost my diving-into-papers skills..the pools are shallow now..anyway..what was i talkin bout..ah..social psych..so he puts out questions which arent really questions..coz you either know em or you dont..i scanned/read through the lecture notes as a method of revision..yes..so during the test..i could only recall vignettes of what i'd read..so its like the question asks for a movie and i could only give a trailer...but i could remember tho..its like an amnesiac having a mad forced flashback experience after a big knock on the head..although one or two or three theories..i really really couldnt recall..so you're like going..yea whatever...ya..me too..whatever eh
i dont think i pushed myself this exams..i dont think i've ever pushed myself so hard since..(yes here we go again)..the "A"s...maybe i feel since i've come this far..i dont have anything to lose...i dont have the competitive blood in me..but the reality is that it will always be a competition whether we like it or not..buttt.. there are more to life than good grades (one of em being the salary you're gonna get later in life - which, of course, in a way, depends on what grades ur getting now..but still.)i just believe that i shall go easy on myself and stay stable..yup..easy does it...there is no way im gonna miss an episode of buffy just coz i've a paper tomorrow..thats what i mean by being easy on myself..altho it remains to be seen if i'm biting my own tail on this one...stay tuned for a couple more semesters to see if i'll bite my tongue..
meantime....oh...i waxed lyrical...about what.. i dunno..so meantime im gonna figure out what im currently waxing lyrical about.
Monday, April 26, 2004 10:14 p.m.
between the soil and the clear blue sky...
I am currently putting this song on repeat...(heard it from the show "everwood")...because it pushes me to the verge of waxing lyrical..hmmmmm..
In the shadows of tall buildings
Of fallen angels on the ceilings
Oily feathers in bronze and concrete
Faded colors, pieces left incomplete
The line moves slowly past the electric fence
Across the borders between continents
In the cathedrals of New York and Rome
There is a feeling that you should just go home
And spend a lifetime finding out just where that is
In the shadows of tall buildings
The architecture is slowly peeling
Marble statues and glass dividers
Someone is watching all of the outsiders
The line moves slowly through the numbered gate
Past the mosaic of the head of state
In the cathedrals of New York and Rome
There is a feeling that you should just go home
And spend a lifetime finding out just where that is
In the shadows of tall buildings
Of open arches endlessly kneeling
Sonic landscapes echoing vistas
Someone is listening from a safe distance
The line moves slowly into a fading light
A final moment in the dead of night
In the cathedrals of New York and Rome
There is a feeling that you should just go home
And spend a lifetime finding out just where that is
"cathedrals" by Jump, Little Children
ok I know its talking bout cathedrals and all but its really not a religious song....I just love its melancholy-ness.........................
Saturday, April 24, 2004 05:33 p.m.
beatrix kiddo
wahoo..watched kill bill 2 last night after the paper-where-we-already-had-the-questions-to...life's good..but it can get better..
hmmmmmm...kill bill 2's good..i dont think i can compare it to the first one coz they're both really different..if you've watched the first one and then come to watch the second one thinking its gonna be like the first one but so much better..then you'll be disappointed...not that the second one's bad..you just have to come with an open mind...its more..ummmm...tender..more human..still funny..less gory..its a gentle closing really..from starting with a huge bang with the first one..pretty narrative..what i dont like is the lack of trademark tarantino "sequence-playing"..but its still good..chinese kung fu fighting against 70's soul funk music is alwayss goood...so....go watch it..even if you havent watched the first one..its ok..you'll still enjoy this...go go watch watch
***The above opinion is from a non-movie-reviewer..still reliable but if your opinion extremely differed, then she will not be held accountable for your financial loss on the movie ticket.booya!
Thursday, April 22, 2004 05:56 p.m.
chingety ching chingy
chingy sounds so nelly but he makes me groove and groovy is good..yeaaah baybeee...
the worst paper is done..so im quite upbeat..it was pretty screwed but im still upbeat..yes upbeat is the word..say it with me now...UPBEAT..shoobeedoo beedoop doop paap pap..ok i cant scat as well as scatgirl..
so its like i want a giant combo banana split ice cream alright..so right now i've got the bananas and one scoop of rocky road choc ice cream..so like after tomorrow's 104 paper, i'll get another scoop of sticky malt ice-cream...then after spanish paper on monday and 111 paper on tuesday, i'll get an endless zigzag of the hershey's chocolate topping..then after thursday's 115 paper, i'll have an overflow of caramel drizzle then after friday's 107 (the last paper) i'll have the last sprinkle of chopped peanuts..and on saturday is the cherry on top..and voila! by the end of the month i'll have my super giant combo of banana split ice cream..wooohoo...lets see it that way...exams are soooo sweet, no?
oh kill bill 2 is M18! woohooo..
awesome.
Wednesday, April 21, 2004 08:36 p.m.
(an ode to the national exam mania) ….this is the effect of unenthusiastic last minute studying
You can’t make me take these pills!…
I look in the mirror and I see the scream painting of edvard munch
In the background, on my speakers, blasts outkast’s “the way you move”…I turn away from the mirror only to face my scattered school notes and open textbook on my bed..suddenly I cannot spell ‘revissiion’ in my head
I close my eyes from that disgusting sight and dance in my mind to that oh-so-chillout song…and fall asleep…
I wake up 20 minutes later with a bitter taste in my mouth and “end of the road” by me first and the gimme gimmes was spinning its turn on my playlist. Wipe the drool off the edge of my lips, my throat still stings, I wash my face to face the books again…the crumpled and dog-eared papers whimpered, the air-con breathes loudly at full blast…me 1st and the GGs now screaming the song “tomorrow”…..”I’m stuck in a day that’s greyyy and lonnnely…..I stick out my chin and grin and sayyyy…the sun will come out tomorrow, tomorrow, so you gotta hang on ‘til tomorrowww, come what mayyyyyy………”
…….I disconnect the speakers.
Then kill off the air-con, give the finger to my books and go out for a walk.
..and that fuckin song jumps in my head like a hyperactive 2-year-old..”tomorrowww! tomorrow!! I love you tomorrow!”
I buy a cup of honey apple cider roibo tea and watch other patients deal with the examinations cancer..there’s this smell of books and papers in the air that’s worst than monoxide. Nobody notices the amount of hair we're all losing in this conspiracy chemotherapy...
I think I will check out of this treatment, thank you. I think I will deal without these medications. I think I’d die happy knowing I did.
Tomorrowww tomorrowww…….
……is my first paper….lets not break a leg….coz I’d still like to have the choice of walking away…don’t you? no? ok.
Monday, April 19, 2004 09:04 p.m.
spin spin sugar
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david beckham had an affair with me...it happened 3 years ago, I was young and I needed the money..I mean..the love..he kept saying "I know this is wrong, but i can't help it"...and I kept saying "what're u kidding?! this is as right as madonna and guy ritchie!..and its not like I can help it.." well hes a gentleman, so he doesnt kiss and tell..and I'm now a lady so I won't kiss and tell..altho I'd tell if you kiss me with half a million pounds in ur mouth..hehah..
ok that may be a lame joke..but i just can't help it..theres 3 women now..im not surprised if the numbers go up to 10..beckham seems to have major mojo..
oh u wanna know whats lame? horoscopes.
this is my horoscope today from the Streats newspaper
you're ready to turn away in disappointment (i dont need a lame horoscope to tell me im not gonna do well for my exams ok) the facts won't change, but the circumstances are forever shifting. (hmm, yea, so deep, as deep as saying "chickens come from eggs that come from chickens that come from eggs that come from chickens") victory may soon appear where none seemed possible (ok if this is a dig at my exams, it just contradicts the first sentence...see as lame as horoscopes are, I'd like to feel hopeful at positive messages..but when its contradictory, I just feel..tickled..at the horoscope's effort-ful attempt to make everyone an overnight believer in the stars..)
hear me sigh..im bumming..when im supposed to be studying...lets pretend the word "supposed" doesnt exist in the dictionary for now..i've an ulcer in my throat..its killing me..i can only drink lotsa water and psychologically make myself think it'll be better tomorrow..even if it doesnt..but it will..ugh..
"Opera is when a guy gets stabbed in the back and, instead of bleeding, he sings."
Ed Gardner.
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