Saturday, January 31, 2004 11:42 p.m.
the remedy is the experience
I am too sleepy to write something original..so im gonna quote jason mraz.
"I. say. the. tragedy. is. how. you’re. gonna. spend.
the rest of your nights with the lights on
So. shine. the. light. on. all. of. your. friends...
coz it all amounts to nothing in the end.."
I...I won't...worry my life away...
Friday, January 30, 2004 01:02 a.m.
there's just too much that time cannot erase...
I didn't mean to say that my beliefs are shapeless, I meant to say that my opinions are permeable
It just doesn't stop raining. It's like something is trying to wash the world to rid some kinda stubborn stain..(although its only been raining every day in singapore)..but ya..thats how it kinda feels now..I love the patterns of rain droplets on my tinted glass window..I feel protected and blessed under my blankets as the elements outside are refused entry into my private space.
i'm foreseeing busy weeks ahead...i dunno if its the reverse effects of pms but i feel fine..as in im liking the busy-ness..makes me appreciate my private moments with my thoughts more..makes me appreciate time much more..makes me appreciate people a lil bit more..because the more that we push something away the more it comes to us
Thursday, January 29, 2004 12:13 a.m.
hello, hows the weather...
i had a cup of mochacinno and a can of nescafe..im so awake right now i cannot blink..o hello..i have homework i left for the last minute.hello.
its beeeen rainin every day...and im freezin in joy..im only happy when it rayens..yeayeayea..but im not happy when its complicated..nonono..spanish lesson is extended til a lil later than 8.30 to make up for those lessons we missed and going to miss..ahh..but its fun enough so tis okay..por ejemplo, we play bingo and hangman..muy bien..now i have a practical reason for wanting a latin dude..all i want..is a good conversation..any amigos latinos out there..lets talk hah..
ok homework, hello, homework, hola
Wednesday, January 28, 2004 12:15 a.m.
thank god for air bags
just got home from the gala premiere for "torque"..its a "fast and furious" meets "2 fast 2 furious" movie..hahah..a classmate had free passes...so i thought..o well..so he drove us all there..to great world..but then missed an exit..we ended up at newton..little india...everywhere except great world city which was our destination...hahah..but in the end we got there anyway..at around 8:50...we thought we were late but nope...after a few minutes when we came they had the irritatingly loud lion dance thingy to welcome the 2 stars of the movie through the red carpet...i've no idea who they were...nobody went groupie over them anyway..hahah..i think one of the 'stars' was takin pictures of the lion dance..then..then ..i met one of my colleagues..and asked why he was there..and it turns out that this old woman was at the store earlier..he took her orders and she suggested that he go to the premiere with her coz her fren couldnt make it...this collegue is a young boy...and the woman is an old woman...so its like weiirrddd...and im like..why'd u say yes?!? u doochbag..and he said he wanted to watch the movie...he asked if he could sit with us..my friends and i..coz he was scared..hahah...fatal attraction...so i just sat beside him at the theatre..there were 7 other pple with me..and the row at the side had only 7 seats..so yea i thought i might as well accompany the poor guy..so my classmates occupied the row behind..and then the movie..
its cheesy lame..its bullshit..its testosterone driven..fast cars nice bikes big boobs hard punches drink beer sorta movie with a lame plot..hahah but seriously it may be worth watching just to laugh at the cliches..i've a feelin the actor, martin andersen or henderson.. may be embarrassed by the movie coz before the movie began he said "this is a very tongue-in-cheek popcorn movie. enjoy." hahah..o well..just glad i didnt have to pay fer it..they prolly borrowed some footage frm fast and furious...then there were the cheesy lame one-liners
cheesy lame one-liner #1: (after getting the car overturned while driving stupidly uncoolly recklessly) junkie cop dude says "thank god for air bags."
cheesy lame one-liner #2: (catfight between 2 female bikers on bikes)
biker goth chick with fake piercings: "You messed with the wrong tits"
biker blonde 'coz they just HAD to have a blonde chick: (after bringing down biker goth chick with fake piercings):(close up on actress' face)
"Looks like You did, BITch."
me: chuckle chuckle snort snort
ah huh...and ice cube didnt act..he rapped throughout the entire movie..muahah..every line was delivered with a rapper's panache...he deserves a razzies' razzies..amazing..hahah..it was bullshit but it was fun bullshit la...o ya..and i think i saw jean danker holding hands with daniel ong..i think..but yea..whatever..
Saturday, January 24, 2004 10:10 a.m.
chocolate or strawberry
i was at 7-11 yesterday and i saw a packet of MEN'S chocolate Pocky...huh? what the heck? is the usual pocky too feminine for men to be seen eating? what if women buys the Men's Pocky...will it taste different on our tongues?..maybe they should have Men's mocktails or..Men's strawberry cupcake...coz some things are just not manly unless its labelled so in black and white and chocolate...thats sad..
Thursday, January 22, 2004 09:26 p.m.
apels + oranjes
wahoo...i dont celebrate lunar new year but i got 2 hangbaos today nevertheless..one frm the work place..they gave us all 10 bucks..not bad..and then we were giving free oranges to customers..so i was giving a pair of oranges to this old couple and the woman gave me an hangbao..i was shocked..i was like "for me really? no joke?"..muahah..then my fren told me..if u give oranges to married pple they have to give ya a red packet...and inside that red packet was 6 bucks..woosh...double pay today plus 16 bucks in red packet collection even tho i dont celebrate chinese new year...not badd...i was gonna go on a racist rant coz i wanted to go shoppin yesterday and the shops closed early..so was pissed..but then again..hmmm..maybe not..i'll keep it to myself and among pple who share my sentiment..for the moment..
watched the last samurai yesterday with liz and her bro..it wasnt a good day..we were excited on goin for a sakae sushi buffet then realized they werent havin buffet on the eve of holiday..so we ate ala carte..and the food was slow and the computer screen thingy where u can usually place ur order wasnt working..and we were seated in a corner where its hard to get the workers to pass by..heesh..then after that..we were gonna go shopping but all the shops had their shutters halfway down..all closingg..heesh..so we watched a movie instead...it wasnt that bad..i'd give it a 3 out of 5..but its not like im a bonafide movie reviewer or anything...nevertheless..i give it 2 less stars coz 1) i thought some parts were overly cheesy..it was ok..almost made me cry..but its like they were tryin to win points with the japanese..it seemed like japs are so so loyal and brave and merciful..and ya..not that they're not..it just seemed so overdone.. and 2)coz tom cruise looks really old..yea he Is old..but..i dunno..its just that i used to be so obsessed with him and hes always looked young and good..hahah..until magnolia..o well..humans..superstars are human beings too..whose farts are not divinely perfumed..ah hmm...
Friday, December 19, 2003 02:38 p.m.
karmakarmakarmakarmakarma chameleonnn
my beliefs are shapeless
i just wanna eat a hot buttery waffle with really good rich ice cream
Saturday, January 17, 2004 11:13 p.m.
dont be so quick to.. walk away...
i have nothing against people who speak their mind, in fact i admire that trait...i respect the fact everyone has different approaches, different attitudes, beliefs, values to different things..thats what makes life colorful...but i believe that certain words shouldnt be said because even i myself can get hurt by what i may say...there are consequences to everything...yes life's short..we shdnt spend too much time on thinkin bout consequences but then life's even shorter for us to make too many impulsive mistakes that results in negative long term consequences...
this colleague of mine talked back to a customer at work today...i thought she was kinda out of line, given the circumstance..i dont live and breathe behind the principle of "the customers always right"...but given the circumstance, given the situation..i just thought my colleague was outta line..i didnt exactly tell her off..i just told her how she was being a lil extreme..and she said shes just like that..i told her she might get into trouble..and she said, "fuck it if i get into trouble..its my right"..hmmmmmmmmmmmm, is it..really? or maybe i just dont like aggravating situations..i dont like to be there when 2 pple are verbally lashing it out against each other..i'd be the silent referree..calling for peace..yesss..im that peace-loving boring person..i think i have a high level of tolerance but the bad thing is you dont know where i draw the line and worse, sometimes even i dont know it either..
Thursday, January 15, 2004 01:20 a.m.
como se escribe "perfecto"?
ever caught urself in a moment and think how perfect it is...how everything seems to just be in place..and then the next moment..it isnt really that perfect..well it actually isnt really that perfect so when u catch urself in a perfect moment its just a milisecond of a daydream, a nanosecond of a fantasy...
had lecture at 2.30...was late..met that guy in my spanish class in the bus and he offered to sell this textbk for this module im taking (social org.) for half price...coolness..had spanish at 6.30..the 2.30 lecture ended at 3.30 so in between, went to meet narny, my ex-colleague frm cbtl for the long-awaited scv maxonline startup disc she helped me copy (shes an angel!)...finally after 354 years, i can access the internet from my laptop at home...it definitely beats using the old and coughing pc..wooo..spanish lesson got complicated today...i was foolishly contented with learning just the alphabets..hahah..wokay dokay..slumber time..speaking of slumber..had a weird experience in my sleep last night..i dunno how to describe it but it was really creepy..but..hmmm..maybe next time..(as in maybe next time i'll explain it here..coz im sure not hoping for it to happen again)
Sunday, December 14, 2003 12:20 a.m.
hey, thats my bike!
went to a friend's hall (with a coupla other pple) to watch a vcd...to kill time during the long break in between tutorial-less lectures...we watched "identity"...hmmmmmmm..he couldnt plug the laptop to the tv so we watched it on his laptop...interestingg movie..but i think i may need to watch it again...but its okay i guess..amidst homogeneous hollywood films, it'll get some credits for efforts in trying to be refreshing..altho i could watch foreign films if i wanted "refreshing"...i think we've 'myopied' ourselves with too much hollywood films...it eventually all ends up being almost always the same...which was why last wk i rented whatever title that sounded non-hollywood:
1)mira nair's monsoon wedding - nice..warm fuzzy feeling movie..very colorful indian culture..made me cry..or maybe i was so depressed over failing my driving test that day or maybe indian movies are just so so melodramatic..hmm
2)amorres perros (love's a bitch)...a mexican movie, ok this one's depressing..i watched it after watching 'amelie' and it immediately snapped me back to reality and how it bloody hell bites..def. not made for entertainment or escapism purposes
3)amelie..that french movie about this girl...ahh..vunderfool..one of the most optimistic movie ever..i'm gonna reccomend it to pple who are having unnecessarily sombre days..
4)ararat..a movie about the hush-hush maybe-it-happened-maybe-it-didnt-the-govt-wont-admit armenian genocide in turkey which happened in like 1915 i think...hmmmmmm...this movie was too maudlin for me..tooo..ummmm...its like..if u whine and cry too much about an injustice that happened to u..im not gonna sympathize much..i wouldnt like to think that im on turkey's side coz im muslim..but then..maybe i shd ask a non-muslim's opinion who've watched the movie..
just watched "reality bites" awhile ago..for like the 87th time...a friend wanted to borrow it..so i took it out..and it just compelled me to play it..so yea..
it may seem my new hobby is watching movies..hmmmmmmm..ya..ok...it beats collecting stamps..i shd appreciate these tutorial-less days...before the red sea wave hits..i'll still float but i may be a stooge navigator..*chants* dont procrastinate assignments dont procrastinate assignments dont procrastinate assignments dont procrastinate assignments dont procrastinate assignments dont procrastinate assignments dont procrastinate assignments dont procrastinate assignments dont procrastinate assignments dont procrastinate assignments dont procrastinate assignments
Monday, January 12, 2003 12:07 a.m.
no matter how they toss the dice...
first day of the term today...didnt dread it..coz i think like a friend said, theres no homework...so i gladly return to school..hahah...thank god for the module system..wooo..had a looooong 5 hr no-lesson gap..so went to watch a movie at jp wit some peeps...watched "paycheck"..it was like..omigod..ben..what were u thinking..uma..what were u thinking..john woo...what were u thinking..with these names u'd think u'd find some good stuff..but, honestly, ghetto-speaking, its second-hand dope yall..dont waste yer money..unless ben affleck on the big screen is eye candy..altho i prefer old single scruffy pre-j-lo-ed ben..o well..
had spanish lesson today..wooo..im taking it as my general elective..altho its in the evening on monday and wednesday..but its spanish!..ale! ale! ale!..i've always wanted to learn spanish..alas! there was no enrique iglesias lookalike spanish tutor..it was more of a skinny arantxa sanchez vicario...(no actually maybe not..i couldnt name a spanish lookalike to this female tutor..tho her name's arantxa..so yea)...there were bout 15 pple in the class..more than half from china ..some frm m'sia..do u believe it? sheesh...and the pple frm china couldnt roll their tongue out pronounce the hard "r"...u have to go "RRRRRrrrrrrosa!" "enRRRRRRRrrrrrrique!"....and the pple from china..they go..."..." ummm...i dunno how to spell how it is when pple cannot vibrate their tongue..but u'd know what i mean..hahah...so spanish class ended at 8.30...then went home with this guy..whos frm my course..whos in the 2nd year..i thought he lives in the halls coz he was wearing t-shirt, shorts and a cap..and he has a semi-beard..which gave me the impression that hes a monk or something..altho a monk in shorts taking spanish lesson is a lil outta place..hahah..but hes a nice guy..said he took malay language last year as a general elective..so we talked bout languages, modules, and stuff..ah huh
hmmmmmmmm....i have a worry...i worry that i cannot cope..but thinkin bout it..maybe its not a worry...just an uncertainty...just like uncertainty that comes in a package with the best laid plans...then thinking bout it again..i should just put my feet out and swim the waters instead of just throwing pebbles to watch the slow ripples one at a time...ah huh...rolll wit it. thatsawatyagottado.
Monday, January 5, 2003 10:11 p.m.
nope.
nope. no driving license yet..coz i mounted the curb..would've passed if i didnt mount the curb..coz there was 14 demerits, o fuck, o well...
Monday, January 5, 2004 12:18 a.m.
rock enroll!
watched school of rock on saturday night wit 2 classmates..wooo..rawkin movie..jack black is a crazy ass comedian whos just sooo...crazy ass...and the kids were awesome...im inspired to play the guitar..altho ive given up god knows how many times on it..hahah..its okay..i'll just remember to stand with my legs wide..with a pout..with an exaggerated extended arm strum and wide eyed like a mental rock star..stick it to the man!
work has gone from tolerable to fun lately...coz i didnt have a manager or many managers hovering over me like a hog..over the past few days...wooo...if only non-managers ran the store..ah huh..if only i ran a store..not this..but my own...yea..that'd be one of my dreams..maybe not yet an ambition but a dream...to open a cafe...that..and to produce a critically-acclaimed drama series...hmmmmmmm...ok *snap back to reality(woop there goes gravity)* woop.
Saturday, January 3, 2004 05:30 p.m.
smoking cigarettes tonight
i find it cute when i see an old couple holding hands...provided that they've been married for like 50 years or something..
had a long long sleep last night..and if i were to recall my dreams there were a mixture of good dreams and nightmares..there was a sequence where i was fully aware that i was dreaming and was afraid that i wouldnt wake up..like my soul would linger lost away from my body..and then i could feel it coming back and it sorta jolted me...hmmmmmmm...i know weirdness is normal when it comes to dreams but is "disturbing weirdness" normal?
lets talk normalcy..hmmmm...i wanna buy a pair of blades..or skates..or whatever..speakin of which..went blading with aini and mai on new years day to east coast park..the two of them cycled tho...while i bladed..woooo..nice workout...i think we 'travelled' a loong way on wheels..been so long since i felt wheels under my feet..twas nice...until we had to go through a sandy path..then i turned into a drunken blader..hehah..hmmmm..after sweatin it out..we hung out in an air-conditioned cafe and then mai wanted to suntan so we sat for awhile at the beach..with the sun comin in and out..we watched (not in awe) some boys with fabio hair 'skimming' on the shore...seriously boys, find another worthwhile hobby..played around with mai's phone..recorded our voices where we screamed "pick up the phooonnne!!! pick it pick it!!"...and that could be mai's ringtone if she ever dares to set it that way..then long bus ride home..fell asleep..yesterday had work and then driving right after...was really2 tired..fell asleep at 9 right til 10 in the morning...with all those weird dreams...
Thursday, January 1, 2004 11:23 p.m.
blank page
yesyes..its a new year..yada yada yada...quiet reflections are in my head and some are hard to put in words..but i'll say this..that the last year felt as if i experienced two years in one...the first half was totally different than the 2nd...started school in the 2nd half of the year..the surreality of being in a uni and doing the course i've always dreamed of doing...the anticipation, nerves, non-schooling for the first half of the year seems like eons ago...so i met some pple...some in school, some at work...a few have been dear to me...most were just faded footprints in the sand that the sea of time washes away..but i feel like theres no dichotomy frm 2003 to 2004..i dont want to separate it...i just want it to flow on..because...somehowww..i feel the rhythm but i just dont know the dance..yet.
TidBitzz