... shhh, I'm thinking... { Musogato version 4 }

Saturday, April 6, 2002
A lot has happened this week. I don't even know where to begin. I guess I'll start with the most important. My kitty, Gracie, was put to sleep either on Monday or Tuesday. I'm not sure when. Grace went missing on monday morning, and on Wednesday mid-morning we found out about her fate. She had managed to walk all the way up to the semi-main highway, and was hit by a car. Some lady found her laying in the middle of the road and took her to the vet. They [the lady and the vet lady] said that she was completely freaked out, and because they didn't know the full extent of her injuries, they put her asleep. Because Grace wasn't wearing a collar they didn't know who to call or who she belonged to. The only reason I know is because my Mom went to the pound on Wednesday to see if she was there. You see, Grace was blind, deaf, and a little... lost mentally. She's had a rough life. She was the black sheep in her liter and was abandoned by her mum, ate a poisoned rat when only a few months old, went into a coma for almost a week, when we moved to our present house she used to fall off the second floor onto the first floor. This eventually lead to her blindness; her eyes just hazed over -- it was like a bunch of white clouds just formed in her eyes. I'm not sure how she became deaf, but it was before she went blind. She lived in complete darkness and all she had was us. **shakes head** it's weird to think that she's really gone. I mean, she's been with us since I was a little kid. She's just always been there; meowing in the middle of the night 'cause she was lonely or walking in her little circles around a table to get exercise. **sighs** She would have been 10 years old this coming August .-_-.

I don't feel like writing anymore. I'll finish later.

Sayoonara, Gracie-chan. Sweet Dreams...
* Jade wrote the above at
03:41 a.m. *

Saturday, March 30, 2002
www.MUSOGATO.com

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I got it! I *finally* got it! My website! It's alive, ALIVE! And it's mine! Ah, spread the joy. ^_~ Go check it out! I demand you go and check it out!! :) Here's the link again. www.musogato.com Have fun! :)
* Jade wrote the above at
01:28 p.m. *

Sunday, March 17, 2002
Well, I really did it this time. Today my Mom's computer-- her pride and joy that contained all photographs, taxes, emails, and logs from the past three years-- came to a screeching halt as it got fried today. By the fault of mine, by someway or another. I was the last to use it, and it apparently went hay-wire five minutes or so after I left. I was trying to print a paper for english, and I wanted it to be in a special font. Even though the font was 'embedded' into the document, it didn't show up on Mom's computer. So I tried to instal the font, but it said that there either was no more room for more fonts, or the file was corrupted. Convinced that the file wasn't corrupted, I went and deleted a font that didn't seem very important, as there were dozens of other fonts that looked almost exactly like it. When my font wouldn't install after that, I went to the site I originally got it from and downloaded it, hoping that it would work if it came straight from the source. Well, it still didn't work, and Mom got royally pissed at me for deleting a font without her permission, so she threw me out of the office and told me to print my paper at school. Ten minutes later she comes into my room and tells me that her computer is dead, her voice kinda breaking as she told me.

And there you have it, once again I have somehow screwed everything up without even trying. Sheesh. I wonder how many times I've messed up something good. I'm sure someone out there is keeping track. Although I'm not sure if that's a good thing. Cheh, some Saint Patrick's Day this turned out to be.

On to other news, I uploaded two new poems at FanFiction.net. There's a link to your left, I'd appreciate it if ya went and read it, or at least reviewed it. One of them I wrote last month. It's kinda weird so I must have written in during the middle of the night. I write my more abstract and stuff-that-doesn't-really-relate-to-me pieces during the night. Sometimes I think my subconcience overreacts and that's the reason why I write all these angsty pieces about lost love and tragedy and so on. Oh well. The other poem is about remorse for things gone wrong. (gee, I wonder what inspired this one!)

You can tell which ones are new because they'll be the ones with zero reviews. **cries loudly** (hint hint, go read them!) 'Kay that's all for now. Ja ne
* Jade wrote the above at
10:22 p.m. *

Saturday, March 16, 2002
Mwa-ha-ha-ha, I stayed up till 3:40 am last night/this morning (o_O?) working on my website. I was checking the pages, rewriting some HTML scripts and stuff like that. I swear, I think I'm becoming an insomiac. Even though I only got a total of... 3 hours of sleep I'm not a bit tired. Although, I have been playing my music full blast for the past 2 days, so I'm sure that something to do with it. ^__^

I'm sooooooo glad that this is my final week of school before Spring Break. YAY! I can't wait to get my site online. I've been creating new layouts for my main site, but I'm not completely done yet. I would try to finish it this weekend, but since March 22 is the last day of the quarter and I'm not completely on top of all my homework and belated homework, I really should be working on that instead of my site. I've been doing my History all morning so I thought I deserved a break so that's why I'm here. I *really* want to start working on a new layout for one of my story/series, but if I do I won't finish my work today and there's no way in hell I'll do it on Sunday before 8pm. blecksville. :( Guess I should go then... ::sigh::
* Jade wrote the above at
02:03 p.m. *

Wednesday, March 13, 2002
Oh, and before I forget. My website/domain will be uploaded some time in two weeks. I have spring break from the 22nd to the 31st, and I'll be setting it up then. Yay! Also, I've been writing some new stuff that I think I'll be posting at FanFiction.net. Not sure just yet, but I'll have it figured out over the weekend and post it then. Too busy now avoiding homework and having fun on Neopets. Kya-ha-ha, having administration power is fun. ^__^ What? Of course its not going to my head! Well, at least not yet anyways.... XP
* Jade wrote the above at
04:30 p.m. *

Wednesday, March 13, 2002
KYAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!! Today ROCKS! ^___^ Well, actually, I was having a pretty rotten day up until 6th period in Biology (last class of the day). Why was it rotten? Well, it just was. BUT, in Biology we're doing this genetic engineering project, so we could use the laptops to do research. The laptops are small and silver, but they're no match to my be-u-ti-ful laptop. So anyway, before I started doing my research, I decided to check on Neopets. Well, guess what? I HAVE POWER! YAHOO! **raises arm and does giant V-for-Victory sign** ^__^ See, I'm apart of a guild, called the NeoInvestigators. I've been apart of the guild since like last May, and I was added to the Guild Council maybe around November last year. Even though I was apart of the all-mighty Council, I couldn't really do anything "Council-like" except edit the calendar and guild message board. **yawn** Well, in January the guild leader, Natalie, got in a bad car accident and we haven't heard from her since, meaning the guild came to a total stop. But mid February her cousin who also plays on Neopets, Renae, came to our guild and filled us in. So she's taking care of Natalie's account while she's healing. I mean, Nay has better things to worry about than some silly online community game. Natalie isn't facing anything fatal or anything, she's just having trouble feeling her legs. :( She's in physical therapy now, and is making progress. Renae tells us of her status every now and then, and we tell her to relax, focus on getting better, and that we send lots of good vibes her way. :)

So, now that you all are filled in, here's why I'm so slap-stick happy today. Because our guild leader is out, Renae thought that we should have a substitute leader take care of things. Renae won't do it because she has a big guild of her own to take care of, but she's willing to help out. Well, since right now there's about 120+ members and there are only 2 people who are actually active members, myself included, we decided to give us more Council power so we can take care of things on our own. So, YAY! I have power!!!!!! ~^______^~
* Jade wrote the above at
04:21 p.m. *

Thursday, March 7, 2002
LoL, this morning was funny. It was around 8:20 and the bus hadn't come yet, so me and a bunch of other kids at my stop decided to go find rides to school. I was walking back home, and there was this cute lil dog in the middle of the sidewalk. He was white with pink rings around his eyes, and a big brown splotch on his back. Okay, so he wasn't that cute and he wasn't that small. He also didn't seem very smart. Anyways, when I walked past him he started following me. It was kinda cute, 'cause he would run up a few feet ahead of me then wait for me and wag his tail. LoL! I never had a dog follow me home, let alone actually owning a dog, so this really made my day. It sorta reminded me of a true story I heard over at this site about a little girl who was walking home alone and some creepy guy was following her. She was really scared about it, so she prayed to God. A few minutes later a huge German Shephard came up to her and walked with her home, as if protecting her. After a while that creepy guy got the idea and stopped following the little girl. I know I can't really relate to this story since I live in a somewhat safe neighborhood, no creepy guy was anywhere in sight, and that doggie didn't seem to supply very much protecting power, but still. It was nice having that dog acompany me home. tee hee! *^_^*
* Jade wrote the above at
05:50 p.m. *

Tuesday, March 5, 2002
I'm feeling better today. Especially since someone finally reviewed my poem. YAY. I wonder though, were people just reading my work and not reviewing, or were they just totally ignoring my pleas for readers? Maybe I should get a stat-counter. Then I'll know how paranoid I really am. Not that I'm paranoid or anything. **glances over shoulder** -_=;

I've been listening to my NickleBack CD for the past two days straight. I swear, I LOVE that band. I'd go to every one of their conserts if I could afford the transportation and the tickets. Really, I would. Same for Life House. I love all of their songs. :)
* Jade wrote the above at
06:27 p.m. *

Monday, March 4, 2002
Why do I feel like I need to hide what I really think? I skimmed through all my old entries here at Pitas, and I'm very disappointed in myself. The point of me making an account here is so that I can type what I'm really thinking and not hold back. But every time I come to write the thought of someone I know reading this flashes through my head, so all I end up talking about is how my day was and my opinion on what ever happened. ARG! I HATE THAT! I've done what I did a few years ago: created two journals. One is for how I really think, and the other for how I want the world to view me. Why am I so damn afraid to express myself? I wrote a poem this afternoon on the bus ride home, but I'll probably not post it at FanFiction.net, or show it to anyone. It'll stay locked up in my notebook, never to see the light of day again unless I'm looking at it, someone else takes that notebook and reads it, or I create an alias and show it under that identity. GOD! Why am I acting like this?? I hate this. I'm so afraid of how people will treat me or act toward me if they knew what I really thought or wrote about, that I become inhibited and just nod my head at everything. **sobs**

I gotta go and... just gotta go. Maybe some air will do me good.
* Jade wrote the above at
05:53 p.m. *

Sunday, March 3, 2002
Well, this is my new layout! Hurray! Mmm-hmm, I like this one very much. There's some information on what I think this layout means, if you look to your right. Also, I'm sorry if this page doesn't all fit on your computer screen without needing to use the horizontal scrollbar. It looks great on my computer, but on my Mom's computer, (which, oddly, has the same resolution) it looked really spread out and not-too-good. Oh well. I warned ya.

Ugh, I think I'm coming down with a cold. My throat is all icky-yucky like, and I keep sneezing. >_< Bleh, I hate getting sick. Especially when you're not allowed to stay home from school. Double bleh. :(

I guess that's about it for now. I still need to do me History homework and brush up on my VHL genetic disorder knowledge. I gotta present my project for Biology on Tuesday. Hmm. Ja ne.
* Jade wrote the above at
05:33 p.m. *