What else? Hmm.. I think i'm depressed. Depression. My heart is literally depressed? Or issit my mind? How do 'they' come out with the word 'depression' for this case, anyway? Yeah. Maybe i should seek help to cure my depression, so that i can have a normal and happier life, as said in the advertisement that flashes in TCS 5 every now and then. Sheesh! How about tellng Singaporeans that the cost of living here is going down instead of going up. Or making sure that students are actually afraid of death rather than failing their exams and pushes them to the very edge of comitting suicide which is also closely known as death.

I learnt something. I learnt that as i grow older, i will tend to be a little forgetful and somehow a little silly. Which is almost true, as i had observed a few of our senior citizen, ranging from age 50 and above. And at this point of period (menopause), i learn that in future, i should just keep my mouth shut or better still think really, really thorougly first, before i say anything. Because, when you are old, you are suppose to be wiser not a whiner. And accusing people might be a bad habit.

Well, life. Strange. I need to sleep now. Very very slee...

murne 11:19 p.m.
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And today, there were a group of Vietnamese customers trying to bargain with us. We politely said that it is now selling at a fixed price. And they were laughing and talking an octave higher than normal people do. They went like "Sop chop! Sop chop!" "Dis-kawn! Dis-kawn!" "Cham sek!". I am just hentam-ing. But it sounded almost like that and u can try imagine the scenario. And they also went like "sik doler!" which suppose to be six dollars, "tu-elf! tu-elf!" meaning "twelve", "tank! tank!" and as u can guess "ten". I was like... ishk!... kepala gue pusing! Repot banget!! Waduh! NEXT!

I got a new Pc game. Sims 2! It is, of course, much more advanced and the animation was much better. I was ngotot-ing the game the whole day and night the day before yesterday. So cool! I am going to be a game geek one day if i don't control myself. He He!

I want to watch Samara! But everybody seems to be busy when I'm not! Aiyo! And vice versa. Easiest way to catch up with the latest and spicy news is via Msn Messenger. Itu pun kalau senang nak login. Yennadey!! Nak call pakai handphone, kena pikir 2 kali. Nak sep duit lah konon. Tapi bila bill sampai kat letter box, koyak kan envelope tak senonoh, digit kat sebelah money sign lebih dari yang diingini. Yennadey.. Nasib.

murne 01:07 a.m.
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My body is exhausted and i can feel and hear my bones cracking rhythmically here and there. My right shoulder is making my right arm numb sometimes. well, just once.

Sleep is not catching up with me, -this words are always in my head-
Say 'Nighty night' and kiss me,
Just hold me tight and tell me you miss me,
While i'm alone and blue as can be,
Dream a little dream of me.

I got me, myself and I - helzie have to complete his army days - I'm waiting for the moment when i get to count the days in 5, 4, 3, 2...

By right i should be asleep now, by left im here typing this entry. Indecisive is my middle name. I don't even know what I want. So what? At least, i'm not the one with the husband not working. I can't make out my own decision. Yapping on it won't make much difference, right. But people have known me for my indecisiveness, so, why do i need to change? I won't be me. Right? How unexciting life will be.

murne 11:46 p.m.
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