Rant Of Me
How Dan Feels:
Blog Of Dan...With A Rantish Element
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Bitchin...
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Saturday, July 26, 2003
09:02 p.m. |
Music: Evanescence - Surrender
Bitchin is right. I got a new computer. So 1300$ later, i hate a 2.6 Ghz computer with AMD Athlon XP, 512 mgs of DDR ram, 120 gigs of hard drive space, a DVD rom drive, a multimedia port thinger for expansion cards for things like camera, firewire port, USB of course. it's great. It has windows XP tho...which is ok i guess, just its not my favourite. I still like Windows ME better. Oh well. i just need to get a subwoofer for my speakers, then it's all good. But i love the thing. I can run almost everything in full resolution and the thing hasn't lagged yet.
Anywho, i was SUPPOSED to be playing an online gaem of WC III right now with Dan, but he's at the theatres. The only thing that bugs me about that, is that he never told me. He said he would call me after he had supper, but he never did. Well, i hope he's free tomorrow at least.
As well, i had Jen over last night. We watched Lord Of The Rings...unbelievably she had never seen the first or second LOTR movies. That's depressing. So that pretty much covered the whole movie watching evening, since we spent an hour at future shop trying to buy my computer. The evening was good. ^____^
Yes, some of you may think me truly insane to now have two computers, but i wish to assure you. I do NOT have two computers. I sold my old one to C for 650 dollars. She like, I like, and everybody happy. but strangely...i still half expect her to come in here asking if she can go on my computer =P. Well anyway, i'm off, lata all.
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Well, that was fun...
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Monday, July 21, 2003
01:22 p.m. |
Music: Three Doors Down - So I Need You
Can't say i didn't try. Talked to Mel a little. That went wonderfully well *twitch*. What can i say, i really don't think she likes me. Oh well. Figure she may have blocked me. w/e, that was just a temporary e-mail anyway, gonna clean it out tomorrow so i can let it delete itself. In the meantime i'm goin to mourne the loss of Dan to calgary for 3 days and in the meantime see if i can purchase a graphics card. I reallyreallyreally need a new one. But i also would really like a new motherboard...better processor. Those would be good things. Meh w/e, i'll go off now and have some fun...what i couldn't tell you.
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HAPPY ^______^
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Monday, July 21, 2003
12:18 p.m. |
Music: Evanescence - Eternal
Yeay, think i found a place to properly host my pictures and shit without having fucking linkin issues. For fucks sakes. Anyway, that's all i had to say. Buh bye.
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Sometimes...
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Sunday, July 20, 2003
04:25 p.m. |
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...one feels there needs to be explaining, because the first time around never suffices. So explain i may, feel i the need. yet i dont. Why? Does it matter? Do you care? Why are you here? Reading? Thinking? Caring (wether we admit or not)? So i ask you this. What really matters to you? Do you value life? Do value what it holds? The joys, the sorrows, and everything else? Do you value opinions? Turths? Lies? Circles of never-ending hate and deceit? Circles, perhaps, of love, joy, and giving? Many of these things go hand in hand with all that we have, yet many wish to have one without the other. These are the values of society, and their wishful eutopia. As well as the thoughts of many mortal men, who think upon these flaws.
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the memories...
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Friday, July 18, 2003
10:45 p.m. |
Music: Linkin Park - Riff Raff
The memories.....that has double meaning....back in the day when i still listened to Linkin Park regularily, and when Mel and i were still on good terms...well i'm back on linkin park, but seem to make no progress with the Mel situation. Since we never talk or see each other anymore. What did i lose fromt it? Honestly, i'd have to say not a hell of a lot. And i even got some linkin park lyrics to describe how i feel/think on it.
I've tried like you
To do everything you wanted too
This is the last time
I'll take the blame for the sake of being with you
Maybe someday I’ll be just like you
And Step on people like you do and
Run away the people I thought I knew
I remember back then who you were
That almost sums it up. Sometimes i tend to go back in my minds to the times when it was good. And i remember. The times, places memories...some of the talks, some of the notions, ideas, less than suitable hints. The tension, then i think of how it is now. And strangely enough, it feels right enough. I haven't seen Mel in weeks, i don't think of her more than once every week...usually. The memories are still there though. Like a sad reminder. Last i hear she still holds a grudge, that's ok, as long as her shit doesn't hit my fan again. I'm not going to put up with shit she throws around.
My life is slowly going back to what was once normal though. I'm on decent terms with all siblings, friends and family. More or less with the family. Times are tough sometimes with the parents, but we get by. I have a nice girlfriend, my parents like her, which is a perk, and life seems good without the schoolwork breathing down my neck. I mostly relax taking what comes my way. It is good. Reminds me of the Second Renaissance from the Animatirx, "And for a time, it was good..." That's almost the story of my life...because for a time everything is good....everything...even the past is good for a time. When one thinks on it in the right mindset. As good as the Mel thing was...i know we both hold blame in our argument, and as firmly that i believe that i am faultless, i know i am not. It's almost as bad as my not being racist but still telling racist jokes. Does it matter? Not particularily. At least not to me. It's similar to the Mel spiel. I am against what she does, but i dont mind her. Does it matter? Not particularily. I dont know if she thinks i hate her, and i dont know if she 'hates' me. But i certainly dont hate her, i haven't, and i wont...actually, it's more of a can't thing. I am mentally unable to hate anyone. I have a hard time disliking for someone more than a day. I have so many tthoughts running throuigh my mind at this time, it's hard to organize them. But to me the most important thing are the memories. They hold untold value to me and i'll be sad to see them fade with my aging mind, but i know that i will savour them for what they are while i have them. Until that day, i'll make new memories, and hope they are as good as the ones past.
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Savvy?
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Sunday, July 13, 2003
07:02 p.m. |
Music: Goldfinger - Is She Really Going Out With Him
Freeservers sucks ass, since i can't link t my pictures anymore, you want 'em, e-mail me, like smart Jill =p. Either way, recap of last week (cause it HAS been that long). Starting last saturday, the Number One Thing NOT, i repeat NOT to do with a pellet gun is to get shot in the ass...i WOULD post a picture if not for freeservers. Oh well, like not like you want to see my ass anyway =p. That was the highlight of last weekend, the rest of the week was a sort of trance type mode. I was sick...it sucked. Friday went to the movies with Jen...should've gone earlier, the movies were packed. But hell The Pirates Of The Carribean was an amazing movie, very funny. But either way, i'm gonna go now, get back to playing my wonderful ittle computer games. Lata.
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PICTURES ^__^....no really, i'm ok
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Friday, July 4, 2003
03:05 p.m. |
Musyk: Amazing Transparent Man - THe Ocean Is A Fuck Of A Long Way To Swim
Yeay look at me go, i'm gonna link to some pictures, wheep, here we goooooooooo....
Now in order of appearance from left to right would be: Amanda Cavanough, Dan Muir, Ashley Stuart, Jill Roach, Shannon (what's her last name?), ignore me haha, and the Jen LeBlanc....wow...haha, i don't have a picture of Clarissa, oh well =P. Lata all.
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Whee Fun
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Friday, July 4, 2003
12:11 p.m. |
Musyk: Secretions - Boner
...Baby you make me pop a boner, I think about yuo everyday it's you I wanna lay...
Thanks for the music Christiana ^_^. She came back from warped tour and brought back a bunch of CD's....and some song are just hilarious. She also got me a shirt ^___^ and reading material...manga's kick ass. But yeah, last night had a schwakload of friends over, consisting of Jill, Clarissa, Ashley, Shannon (SHE LOOKS LIKE CHERYL...at least when she smiles...), Jen, Dan (Muir), and Amanda. We had a great time just hanging out, eating, talking by the fire/candle light. It was good. I then used my wonderful camera, got some good pictures....if and when i find a place to post them i'll link to them. But until then....we'll see. =P
Lata
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^________^
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Wednesday, July 2, 2003
01:58 p.m. |
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Wheee!....Sleep? Who needs it?
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Wednesday, July 2, 2003
1:09 a.m. |
Musyk: Linkin Park - Somewhere I Belong
Today was a good day....yes i think that's good....because it was. This morning i decided i'd go swimming (finally =P). So that was great, didnt' swim THAT much...takin it easy, but i need to get my old speed back before i do my bronze cross course...i have my aqualeader shit in august as well, but that can't be THAT hard...can it? Either way, i walked home from there, of course being already late for meeting Laura and jen in Kin Coulee...so after i got home and picked up Dan (Muir), we went down there to be a god-forbid 30 minutes late....oops. But then ended up seeing Jill, Allison, and Ashley first, so while Dan and i stood and talked with them, Laura and Jen found us. 'Twas an interesting day from there. Hung out with Jen and Laura, and for those who don't know, i am going out with Jen, whee fun-ness...much ness there. Either way, we walked, we talked, we drank, we ate, we watched Iverdale(¿speeling?) and Wheatmonkey(¿speeling?). One of the Wheatmonkey's songs sounded Tool-ish, so that was great. So then Dan and i departed to head to my house while Jen and Laura went to Jen's house, since it was raining later, i invited them over to my place instead of going back down to kin Coulee, and that was fun. They came, we talked and looked at my house. Then Dan and I walked Jen and Laura to Allison's house, cause Allison didn't want to watch fireworks from my house. Meh, w/e. I'm tired, less coherent sentences...fuuun. Either way, g'night people.
P.S: BEST part of today was when i was told i should hit Mel for giving me the finger by a special someone ^____^
He knows who he is.
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Blah diddy blah....huh? Oh right, that tower goes there and then the creeps....SHIT....
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Sunday, June 29, 2003
03:58 p.m. |
Musyk: Three Doors Down - Away From The Sun
So life is life, it moves, it turns, it twists, it has it's ups, downs, sunburns, and LAN parties...hey, what more could you ask for? Dan and i had a sleep over last night, LAN parties kick ass. Played lots of TD's in WC III, made a paladin team in D2 LOD and slugged it out with my Barb and his Necro and then my Paladin and his Barb....all in a good 6 hours work...course we weren't SUPPOSED to play that long...oh well ^__^. So that's the story of yesterday....only time for a quick update today...not much to say so i'm on my way, have a nice day and go out and play! ^__^
Lata...hee....hee?....haha
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D(ance) D(ance) R(evolution) kicks ass!!
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Monday, June 23, 2003
11:18 p.m. |
Musyk: Three Doors Down - So I Need You
Wow.....i never knew that two hours of Dance Dance Revolution could be so great ^________^.... Sorry, but the music was good, and it was great for my fingers, and i wa having FUN....so it was good. Today, wrote and exam, was gonna catch a ride home with Mark Prince, but he had to fill up, so we went to his house to get his wallet, we watched his fish, then played DDR for the PS, then went to the gas station, got gas (no shit) and slushes, and then he and Scott dropped me off at my house. Damn we had a good time. The game was so damn good, i decided to get it for the computer ^______________________________________^
..Damn straight....dan can't remember hisusername and password for Magic Online, damn, cause i was gonna play for him, oh well...well, i better go before mother snaps, later.
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Mhmm, i feel like shit
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Wednesday, June 18, 2003
09:41 p.m. |
Musyk: Marilyn Manson - Use Your Fist and Not Your Mouth
Feel like shit, Mel can't be civil, she apparently has a code, well so do i and it consists of a series of runes and a whole shit load of "fuck you"'s...That's code alright....worried about Anne, learned some info, no good, but what can i do in my current situation?? Noooooooothing. Shit happens right? As the lutherans say "That shit happened to someone else."....i still am Lutheran afterall. Well, this seems to be an all-around shit spiral for everyone, so while i'm tired and thirsty, i'm gonna go drink, then sleep, then write a wonderful exam tomorrow. Whee fun, g'night.
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Hmmmm.....damn Taro Cards
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Tuesday, June 17, 2003
09:24 p.m. |
Musyk: Foo Fighters - Monkey Wrench
SO....a whole schwakload of shit has taken place in the last time since i wrote...i started 'going out' or dating Anne, take your pick, and then today, i got dumped, Mel's being fuck about me not telling her...well fuck that, i didn't FEEL like telling her....in FACT, i didn't tell anyone...so fuck that.....fuckidy fuck fuck...i'm just gonna follow the cards and Andrea's interpretation...if the first one doesn't work, keep tyring, the next one will be better, or something along those lines.
Anywho, Jakob got a nice new car....bah, bullshit, old/new 84 camaro, new engine and transmission, old body, i love the thing. Needs a new CD player and shit tho....so i'm gonna go look at things now....i dunno....fuuuuuuuuuuuck.........my mind is so lost......i'm.............huh? This brings me back to my shit spiral...of life....and....fuck....i'm gona go now...
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Interesting 2 days....
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Saturday, June 7, 2003
06:27 p.m. |
Musyk: System Of A Down - Toxicity
No Anne, you did not dream that.....so yeah, last night was fun. Hung out with Anne, watched X-Men, drank alcohol...all in a nights work....had a great time no? Yes....so yeah...today....i feel okay.....tomorrow i WILL feel like shit...why.....biking to Dan's house, around the backside of town, then to the OTHER side of town, only to bike back on a broken bike is not my idea of fun....but the swimming is great....there were lots of people there, like:
Dan
Amanda C
Amanda D
Kevin
Josh
Brian(aka Dalton)
Mary
Cheryl
Josie-Ann
lots of people....i now know them...wow Dan's friends....either way, i better go clean my room now before mother snaps...she was mad enough earlier.....anywho, later all
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Mr.Sandford can BURN in hell.....ok, so it was a good class....
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Wednesday, June 4, 2003
09:32 p.m. |
Musyk: Foo FIghters - Monkey Wrench
So mr.S decided to do another murder class tonight.....shit i am soooooooooooo out of shape.....fuck...but hell, the classes are still good. my legs just feel like shit...Tae Kwon Do is till my life tho...i don't think i'd be where i am if it wasn't for TKD....but still....Sandford turned the place to shits...i hate Ms.Munroe, mr.Mcfee, and mr.Collier....either way....legs hurt, arms hurt, Anne kicked my ass i am THAT out of shape...just fuckin WAILING on me like i was a punching bag...no surpirse tho...i felt like one =P...
Yeesh, still ahven't done my homework, cause i HATE my teachers.....i have 85% in science, 70% in english, and 85% in social....damn teachers...i don't even KNOW what i have in CTS.....either way, let's all go make fun of Mel and how STEVEN COLE checks her out EVERY TIME she walks by....and how she HATES HIM...anyway...This friday, Jill's plans flopped for the better, can get together with Anne now without consequence, so that's good.....and online friends are cool, i met people like Melody, Melissa, Kathleen, Lorri, Samantha, Josephine, Sandra, Cheryl, and Jeni....hi if you guys ever read this....anywho, i'm gonna go now....i'm so bored...and HUNGRY....
anyway, buh-bye
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Eeps
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Monday, June 2, 2003
08:12 p.m. |
Musyk: Foo Fighters - All My Life
I am so friggin bored...this last weekend, i went to a festival...yeay.....piano...got runner-up for the duet C and i did, and i got outstanding performance for my Hungarian Dance number 5, and i got runner up for my cha cha...whoop de shit......yeah.....made new friends...also wen to Jills thing in kin Coulee, couldn't go to Mel's cause my mom would never have let me go halfway through the festival (otherwise i would have come). Should do something like that in the summer again Mel. Anywho.....i'm too friggin tired to be doin this....so what ever, i'll talk to you all later
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Wheeeeee......shit...ass.....fun....
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Thursday, May 22, 2003
10:32 p.m. |
Musyk: No?
As i sit here in Jakob's room, writing an ntry, cause i'm far to lazy to go downstairs...and besides, i'm sick, and yeah....had a decent night...
Went to this volunteer pizza party thing which is at the end of every session, i'm now up to a total of 80.5 hours of volunteering for our glorious hospital *twitch*....either way, saw Amanda, Cheryl, Justin, Devin, and other people. Justin, pretty cool, Devin, fucking retard, Amanda, pretty cool, i think she likes me, no that is not pure speculation, and Cheryl too....Looooong story, and not one i want to tell....either way, ate my pizza (six pieces), drank my whole freaking one pop...yeah, started watching drumline, left to go to piano, played piano, got home..whoop-di-shit....yeah...so that's life....*dies*.....i'm gonna go to bed now....lata all.
P.S: Laura, pick a day, other than this weekend or next for Nemesis day, it IS out for rent, Mel, i'll see you there hopefully :P, and yeah...hermitism isn't so bad.....really.....bye
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Wednesday, May 21, 2003
10:11 p.m. |
Mel Has damage....she has issues....no were not as clos as we used to be....but that's cause i don't want to be right now. Mel, this is relating to your journal:
You don't need a defense, it's not your problem.
And this is the ever continuing story of my life....i think i'm goin hermit while you're at it...i'm gonna go find myself now, maybe even fix some chemical inbalances in my brein...see if the cellz aren't broked yet...hopfulli not yett. Either way, i'm outta this shit hole. ALMOST makes me wanna get high.
Lata all...
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"...no really, I CAN help you..."
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Wednesday, May 21, 2003
10:01 p.m. |
Musyk: Marilyn Manson - This Is The New Shit
Wow, I'm now a certified first aider, after giving up 16 hours of my life learn how to possibly break your sternum while saving you...neat huh? I didn't think so either....
Matrix Reloaded wasn't bad, could have been far better, but wasnt....sorry Wachowski brothers.
Schule is ass......very much so...so is Student Council
Life is ass....i am ass......world smell like ass....i have no discernible problem...worry not.....everything is just ass right now....
ass ass ass ass ass ass ass ass ass ass ass ass ass ass ass ass ass ass ass ass ass ass ass ass ass ass ass ass ass ass ....I'm done...
Gonna change background now....
P.S: Ass....
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Life....and the never ending story of the shit spiral everything eventually gets sucked into...agree?
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Tuesday, May 13, 2003
09:57 p.m. |
Musyk: Eve 6 - Bang
Sooooo....it's been a little while....oops...whatever, not much has really happened, last weekend, plans to get Iniebirated with Anne kinda flopped...but half for the good...cause i got to hang out with Melanie. It's been sooooooo long since i got to see her last. We had a great time, and i'm like family with her grandparents, which is great. Buah...yeah....Keshia was buggin me again today about Dionne...apparently Dee has "ness" for me....basically she likes me...and she only has "ness" for me...which is creepy...i mean...i kinda like her...but i'm also not lookin for a relationship right now which is what no one understands....communist bastards. Whatever...i should redo my journal again....it's been a little while :P
I'm thinkin that i'll be needing a new way to organize my entries too....i'll get on that...and my source code....i have some to work on for this thing with the thing hey:P
Lata
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Archive...again
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Tuesday, May 6, 2003
10:31 p.m. |
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Gonna try to make a monthly thing...wahtever, g'night.
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