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Saturday, May 31, 2003
Okay, I watched THE RING last night. Much more scary than Ringu! The effects were great.... all throughout the movie. The characters were all superb! I actually enjoyed getting the bejeezuz scared out of me! When I was picking it up at Blockbuster, there was a guy just standing there in front of the movies as if he was waiting to see what I would choose and then as soon as I picked up the movie he made a point of telling me "Intense movie, very intense, yes.... intense.... intense..." So, the only thing I could think to say in return was, "So I've heard" I smiled and went on my way to find the second movie to watch in the evening. He seemed to be making his way around all the New Releases advising people. It was a nice gesture.... his intent was kind..... so it was a pleasant experience. Then, I had to go through the process of filling out a membership application because I have never rented a movie from Blockbuster before..... I hate applications. So, after about a half an hour of waiting in line, filling out the ap, and then waiting for my info to be punched into the computer to get a handy-dandy card.... I had to go through a nice 10 minute explanation of how the card is used..... PA-Leeeeeze! Just take my money and give me the movies..... patience was wearing thin.
It was wonderful.... it was a mini-movie marathon.... okay, only two movies in a row.... but that is marathon enough at midnight!
I got some great photos this morning... still trying to upload them.... Fotolog.net seems to be soooooo busy all the time. I love the site because of the variety of photos - but, damn, the upload is time-consumning!
Well..... later this evening I am going to archive.... I always get so worried that I will mess something up and not be able to find it or link it..... eeek! This means another change to the format of the site..... in one spot.... I have an idea that I would like to use. Let's see if I can figure it out! LOL..... it's all fun!
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Thursday, May 29, 2003
Decided against the Farmer's Market... couldn't find a parking place! Ah well.... still okay from last week anyway. So I came home and decided to play computer repair-person. Spent about an hour doing disk doctor. And then still had an issue with mail! ARGH. Decided to take a walk.... kinda nice outside.... I live near the fire department.... they had a firetruck outside and a few guys around it.... friendly and nice... chatty group. Carried on my way after a little idle chat. Wish I had my digital camera with me..... would have been great picture opportunity.
Meandered around and made my way to a surfer's coffee shop... Zadock's.... it's decent. After that I made my way back to the house.... refreshed and smiling.
Then I did a "doh" moment..... I headed out in my car to run more errands and got to where I was going and realized I didn't have my driver's license or my credit card with me.... left them in a smaller carry purse. So, I headed back to the house...... and then BACK to my errands..... felt like my head wasn't screwed on tight enough. :)
Picked up a few fun things and then went back home. Ended up downloading a new email service. Ah, all is well once again.
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Thursday, May 29, 2003
there are days that I despise this ego.
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Wednesday, May 28, 2003
it was unbelievably warm in Templeton today.... stayed in the air conditioned office .... only stepped out for a brief moment to get lunch.... then straight back to the office to cool off. And to think.... summer isn't even here yet. YIKES! I guess after the season gets going, you kind of get used to the heat. It makes it really great to come home to the beach breezes.
I received my order from cafepress today. I ordered a messenger bag and a baseball jersey t-shirt. I am very happy with the order. Still thinking of ideas for my store... so stay tuned and check into the store to see what new ideas make their way to the product line! :)
Had a rather technically challenging evening... but, with a little assistance I was able to get through it. Many thanks. And now I can get my email on my home computer and not just webmail. Getting set up and ready for my rush of emails from people wanting to join the SLO bloggers, and people wanting to order Natal Charts, or people just wanting to get to know me by emailing me. Wow, can get any more links into one sentence.... well, I am always up to a challenge! hehehe!
I am a little bummed that Fotolog.net has become so popular that I can't get any photos to upload! I mean, that's great for them.... but it's like calling a radio station when they are looking for the 100th caller..... I can't get pictures in my own fotolog! :( They keep getting all this great publicity in the NY newspapers..... but, I want to be able to upload. (yes, I said that with a whiney voice!)....
that's it for today.....
catch me again later!
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Tuesday, May 27, 2003
very weird going to work on a Tuesday. End of month processing this week, so it's gonna get crazy having one less day. Ah well.... extra day off is worth all the craziness! It's all a state of mind anyway.
I am so glad to hear from my sisters back east..... funny calling Texas "east".... doesn't seem right! LOL! I received quite a few pictures from Jodi of the them from Easter. The kids are so adorable!
I picked up two new crystal pendants on Sunday.... both set up as necklaces.... I am sure they could both be used as tools as well. They are set very beautifully and not drilled like I have seen so many crystals. One is a rutillated quartz, the other is a very nice clear quartz. They were a nice gift! I still have so many crystals from before... funny too, because I have been giving A LOT out as gifts..... I am sure I only started out with 25.... and I still have like 19. I could swear I gave out more than just six!.... hmm... do they multiply somehow? :)
well.... I am tired.... gonna go melt into bed.... stare at the TV for a bit and then off to lala-land! where dreams await. Things are going well for me.... thank you soooo much for the emails and well-wishes from everyone! Your kindess is very appreciated.... thank you thank you thank you!
be well.
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Monday, May 26, 2003
THE EXTRA DAY OFF! Firstly, sending out positive thoughts and energy to the people of this holiday.... the veterans who had passed on... including my grandfather. Every year, from March to May, I have strong memories of him. He had past away in March 95. I love him dearly and thnk of him frequently. This holiday is one that sets a strong emotional memory.
I relaxed most of the day. I had been keeping to myself from Thursday through most of today. I finally replied to correspondence and ended up getting invited to a BBQ dinner. It was a great meal; steak, roasted corn on the cob, peas and calamato olive bread. Yum!
The evening was nice enough outside that we stayed outdoors visiting and drinking wine. Then we got into a digital camera frenzy.... it was funny to see the three of us buzzing around the backyard clicking away. It was too funny.... we got into "who's taking a picture of who?" craziness... pretty wild some of the pics that came from that... I will post a few later on my PHOTOS page. There was only one who wasn't saying..."No, don't .... I don't photograph well... don't take any of me!" YEAH RIGHT! Pictures of people taking pictures of people taking pictures.... It was great. But I do hope they delete most of the ones of me! ACK! hahaha!
Pretty satisfied with the entire holiday weekend. Things are looking up. I am past the egoic "crushed" feeling. I do realize things happen for a reason and that one should never have expectations of any situation. I have decided to revise a saying that would kind of work here... "If you love it, let set it free... and then, ...just be." It has been my motto any way... so, I will follow my own advice and....
be well .... or just be.
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Sunday, May 25, 2003
I was a walking advertisement today. Wore a spider all day. People looked at me. I guess that is a good thing for the spider.
Just thought of that after looking at myself in the mirror. It's a cute spider.
Sitting here looking outside my window.... I see the young bluejay again. Adorable, it was sitting there fluttering, the way that baby birds do to let the parent bird know it wants food. Then all of the sudden it starts looking around itself.... and then jumps up.... I guess it saw a flying insect and attempted to catch it.... I can't tell whether it got it or not.... but it was very cute to see it trying. I wish I could get a picture of it..... but it looks like any other full sized bluejay from a distance.
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Sunday, May 25, 2003
I have accomplished another task that I have been wanting to do for my site. It's nothing big, but it was fun to start. I have a STORE! Right now it's just a couple of things. But I can see having some fun with it. Keep them simple, but fun.
Went to the Strawberry Festival in Arroyo Grande, it was jammed packed with people. I didn't get as many pics as I thought I would. I am not that forward to just click pictures of people that I think capture the moment. One was a classic of a little girl eating a huge strawberry. It's amazing that people bring their dogs to these events. It's thousands of people.... so it's crowded... poor animals HAVE TO be on leashes.... it's hot from the lack of normal air flow.... people rarely stop to take water breaks for the dogs until they look back and see that the poor pooches are panting and dragging. Okay, so I will just post a couple of the pics from the festival on my normal Fotolog. Not enough to warrant opening a new one.
After getting overwhelmed by the massive amounts of people, I decided to take a trip to the Halcyon Store to unwind a bit there. I like the energy of the place. It's so peaceful. They had a Psychic Channeller there today. I was tempted to see what would come of it.... but, I wouldn't know what to ask. So, I passed this time.
Gonna veg tonight..... I am pretty sad.... borders on very pathetic. It's hard not to judge the self in certain circumstances.
send me good energy.
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Sunday, May 25, 2003
Finally finished updating my POETRY page to look like the main page. So, that task is complete now. Trying to think if there are any other things I wanted to add on that page. I had a couple more requests for astrology charts. Then I decided to start taking pics around the house and decided my flowers from Farmer's Market and a cute little visitor made great subjects. I had bluejays visiting outside on the patio too. It was so cute because one of them was a baby that would make the most adorable squeaky noise and the mother bluejay would return and feed it.... although, size they were almost the same... so it looked pretty funny to see a big bird crying for food and fluttering to be fed. Nature is so beautiful. The sun decided to burn off the coastal fog around 1pm or so yesterday. Then the breeze picked up. It was very nice. I stayed inside most of the day... meandered out on the patio to water my plants and take in the afternoon.
Today, wow, as I type is going to be brighter sooner... sun is burning off the fog early today... gonna be warm at the Strawberry Festival in Arroyo Grande. I am going to try to make it their with a friend today and get some pictures. Should be great.... thousands of people show up for this event. Over all last year the number of visitors for a two day event was nearly 200,000. I didn't think AG could hold that many people! ;) I am sure the local business thrive off of this event and look forward to it every year!
Well, I need to jump into the shower and get all dolled up to go out and play. I will have pictures to post this week on my PHOTOS page for the event... or I may create a new fotolog of it's own. That would be cool.... that way I can post all the pics on the one log.
Okay, off I go now!!
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Friday, May 23, 2003
metaphorically:
I stand here with my bleeding heart in my hands staring down wondering to myself, "What is this thing? What use?" As it dissolves, I stare blankly into my hands. I wish never to see it again. I wish to never share it again. It is no longer an option. A blue ice chill washes over me, I feel safe now. Enclosed in my own prison. Safe from feeling. Numb. I sleep. Today is all there is.
I hurt.
I am numb.
I cry.
"Leave me alone!" she says. I am truly alone.
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Friday, May 23, 2003
"Intention is the core of all conscious life. It is our intentions that create karma, our intentions that help others, our intentions that lead us away from the delusions of individuality toward the immutable verities of enlightened awareness. Conscious intention colors and moves everything."
-Master Hsing Yun, "Describing the Indescribable"
I like that term... "Conscious intention".... knowing what your intent is at all times. Aware of why you do what you do. The "why".... the "purpose"...
I like the pieces of wisdom that make their way to me.
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Thursday, May 22, 2003
"Those who know this truth, whose consciousness is unified, think always, 'I am not the doer.' While seeing or hearing, touching or smelling; eating, moving about, or sleeping; breathing or speaking, letting go or holding on, even opening or closing the eyes, they understand that these are only the movements of the senses among sense objects."
-Bhagavad Gita 5:8-9
Wow, this gives me a whole new perspective on being the observer/observed .... if I am observing, am I also "doing"? Am I merely objectified? What am I really? This mass of energy that has become acknowledged as matter, then put together objectively as flesh, bone, blood.... it's amazing how much thought has been put into this existence. Thought... such a complicated distraction. Ah, to be at a much simpler state... or am I already there... and all I have to do is awaken? Aware of the dream, but can not awake... what am I waiting for?
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Thursday, May 22, 2003
An evening at the Farmer's Market in San Luis.... picked up a few veggies, bing cherries, and some beautiful huge sunflowers...it was very busy downtown while I was there. I made the full trek from one end to the other. Not real big into such big crowds of people. But I did pretty well. Decided to hit Pier1 since I was parked so close to it. I know I totally disappointed this one driver....they were pulling out of the parking lot and saw me getting into my car (dropping off items)... so they BACKED UP.... but I had just dropped off stuff and locked the doors and took off to Pier1.... I feel badly... but, it happens... oh well.
Picked up a CD and a DVD rack....I've been needing to get something for a while.... now I will get organized!! :) YAY! I kept it simple, black iron, no frills.
Made my way out of the hustle and bustle of downtown off to Trader Joe's for the rest of my groceries. Meandered around nice and leisurely just taking my time.... loved it!
Then I got home... dropping off groceries and noticed that there was a huge cluster of ants around my sink..... I was soooooo bummed. Still am. The heat must be driving them inside. Either that or the work that they are doing on the side of the house is messing with the insects. HATE dealing with ants... it's one of those types of pests that just does not go away easily. I don't like using the sprays and chemical stuff, so I deal with a lot of washing, wiping.... trying cinnamon, but I don't know where they are coming at.....so that is not to good... I need to know the entrance and place the cinnamon there. Yes, that works.
Okay, back to the search and killing of ants. Not fun.
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Thursday, May 22, 2003
If she builds it, they will come... SLO bloggers! During the MEETUP gathering, there was brief discussion about a list of fellow bloggers from the San Luis Obispo area. So, I thought I would start up the list again; once started before by Shane Bonham. So now I carry on the legacy that he once started... I wish to make a page of unique, creative, awe-inspiring links that unite a group of bloggers known to the Central Coast area, San Luis Obispo County! I am happily taking any information on links that are not currently on the page, I will also add any people who would like to become members of this page as well... just email me! and I will gladly add information as I receive it. My idea is to "feature" certain posts or pieces of posts from various sites on the list... or allow the members to write their own posts on this page if they like. I will also try to get a calendar of events that people can post to as well. Still not certain what direction this will all take. I hope to be able to use the list to have bigger and better gatherings in the future. Well, I look forward to the feedback, and any assistance with the site would be appreciated.
Go visit SLO bloggers!
:)
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Thursday, May 22, 2003
I really enjoy listening to myself in conversation.... it's almost as if it is not actually me who is speaking but someone with a message for me. I was talking with my sister:
"....but is cool to become aware of awareness.... seeing how much you observe yourself... it's is easier to get that calm when you think about your reactions as something you observe... sometimes they are funny when you step outside yourself. the other thing too..... is realizing that other people react as well, and it has nothing to do with you.... it is their choice HOW they react.... so, if they blame... they are only removing themselves from being responsible for their own actions."
Excuse me, did I just say that? Growing, learning.... ever changing. I am.
be well.
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Wednesday, May 21, 2003
Hump-day at work. Nothing exciting really... kinda falling into that same old thing .... accounting gets a routine to it... hard to really spice up numbers! :)
On a good note... I have received a LONG OVERDUE payment towards a claim that was filed back in April 2001. So, today after work, I went shopping at Bed, Bath and Beyond for a few household items that I have been wanting to pick up. Nothing REAL extravagent... the only thing that I bought that I didn't really NEED was a cushion, back rest, thing... ya know, the thing you use to read books in bed.... brain fade going on... anyway, it was something I've wanted for a long time AND it was suede ON SALE.... $19.... I think that is a great deal for it! The other items were essentials that I've been wanting to get, but been waiting for a litte buffer before I did it. I am a happy camper!!
AND then, at 7pm was the BLOG MEETUP! It was really nice to meet other bloggers from the San Luis area. I have some ideas for the next meeting. I look forward to getting the information on the other blog sites to add to my site. I would definitely like to keep up on others in this area and share any events or information through this new little (yet growing) community of bloggers.
Kinda tired, so I am gonna try to get an early start tomorrow and write more. This night out was definitely a good thing for me.
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Tuesday, May 20, 2003
Went to dinner..... Tsurugi in San Luis Obispo.... SUSHI.... it was really good food. Then after sushi was ice cream... Coldstone Creamery. :) Very good!! Still feeling like I am in a surreal state.
I received a very special Fed Ex today!! Got it when I came home.... a music piece composed by a very dear friend from New York. It's a piece for piano and violin... I had someone in mind who could play the piece, but that was before.... so I am trying to think of who I know that could play this for me... I have a mission... this is good, it will give me something to do. I even got a letter kinda describing how this piece came into creation. It's really cool getting the inside scoop on music.
Well, tonight was the season finale for Smallville.... that's right, I am a huge fan.... I like how the season ended... curious how the show will take off next season.
And now, I am still feeling kinda sad inside, so I am going to head off to bed.... dreams await me.
be well.
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Monday, May 19, 2003
Breaking up is hard to do. The difficult things is... the break up is not for any bad reasons that people normally break up.... you know, cheating or distrust of any kind... it was just that both parties didn't feel the same. And, because I was the one who had more feelings... it seems to be hitting me harder. I wish I knew how to shut things off. Turn off what I am feeling like a switch. But, I am not that type of person, so this is the downfall... I have to deal with my emotions of feeling rejected. It's hard when I was being me and being loving... to have that rejected hurts very deeply. When someone that I love does not want what I am offering... it is difficult. I know I had joked before about detachment... "It has nothing to do with you... I just don't like you."
Heartbreak is a very unusual thing. I am trying hard to see the spiritual lesson here. I know that I don't truly need anyone, but it is nice to have a companion to share things with.
Another difficult thing is that he wants to remain friends... he wants to have the part of the relationship that he liked without having the commitment of being with me. I want to remain friends too, but it is not fair that he should get what he wants out of this and I stay in pain while maintaining the friendship. I now know how his ex-girlfriend felt. Well, I guess, because now I am in that same position. He doesn't like seeing me in pain, so he tries to be nice and sweet... but by being nice, he is making me feel that he does have those kind of feelings for me, so it doesn't make sense why we broke up.... this is why I think that.... Breaking up is hard to do.
wish me well.
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Sunday, May 18, 2003
Spent most of the day helping (well, being there for moral support and positive energy) for a hangover sufferer. I hate seeing people that sick. I don't feel like I really did anything, but was assured that the presence alone was a kind gesture and much appreciated.
I was able to catch up with a friend from NY yesterday evening. I like the internet chat stuff.... it is far less expensive than long distance phone calls! Granted, you don't get to hear the voice, but you still get the communication. It was nice to hear that his cat, Andromeda, is healing quickly. I guess, Calisto is being Calisto :) Two very adorable kitties! "Purr"-fect companions... both very sweet and affectionate.
Still dealing with a lot of inner emotional issues... so I am trying to stay aware of what I am feeling, when I am feeling it, and what lessons I learn from my reactions. Trying to let go of desires that set up expectations, which inevitably result in disappointment. It really does feel much better to have this mind set. I feel more free and I feel that those around me can truly be who they are and I merely observe. Since April of 2001, things have changed so much inside me.... I like that I am more aware. I am trying to expand my ability of compassion and let go of judgement. Judgement of both the self and others. I still like the term "Choiceless Awareness" to describe what I am experiencing.
Well, gonna call it a night. Until the next post,
be well...... or just .... be.
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Saturday, May 17, 2003
Today was beautiful. I am so happy about this wonderful weather. Well, even when the weather isn't that great it's still beautiful here!
I finally upgraded my computer some more.... I am now AirPort equipped!! That's right .... I can roam! I like the idea of being able to take my computer out and about with me. They have places that you can hook up via a wireless network in downtown San Luis Obispo. A couple of the Starbucks have that service... The Network on Higuera also has services available. That would be a great hangout spot. Coffee nearby... outside seating... fun!
I also picked up a few books at Borders today. Two books on Awareness and the other book is one that I have been wanting to purchase for a while... Sacred Contracts by Caroline Myss. I am looking forward to reading those. New books are always fun! Especially ones that have to do with spiritual awareness. I do feel as though I am experiencing so much more out of life with this different level of awareness. I am happy more often. I get over things more quickly. I know that I am the one responsible for how I react to situations... so I choose to be more aware of that.... and choose to be at peace. Now, that doesn't mean that I don't get upset, or have my feelings hurt.... far from it. I still have my moments, but I am more aware of that.... and am able to "transcend the situation" and see the lessons... see the reason why I react the way I do. I like this level of awareness. I have found that it is a simple concept, yet sometimes very difficult to practice it...... it takes discipline. And I am very happy that I am doing very well with staying in "my peace"... :) Books are just confirmations of how to keep this practice active. I appreciate all of the tools that are available to me.
Well, I am gonna wrap it up for this evening.... I will be back again tomorrow! :)
Be well!!
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Thursday, May 15, 2003
GOTTA LOVE IT!
This clock is available for purchase! I like the fact that it has no numbers on it. Kinda like "who cares what time it is...."
Too funny.... I would say there have been times in my life where that clock (and the other products available) definitey expressed my feelings. And I am sure everyone at sometime in their working life has felt this AT LEAST once! That's what vacations are for!
just had to share this item today! I like it! Express what you feel!!!! hehehe!
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Wednesday, May 14, 2003
"The moment you have in your heart, this extraordinary thing called love, and feel the depth... the delight... the ecstasy of it; you will discover that for you the world is transformed."
----J. Krishnamurti
Another great teacher and his thoughts shared. A very insightful man.
be well.
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Tuesday, May 13, 2003
you know how sometimes a certain thing can stick in your mind and just make you giggle inside (okay well, maybe it's just me) but HE does, EVERYTIME I see him... and for some reason I kept picturing him in my mind.
Kinda been running numb for a while. Not sure what to think, what to feel. Sometimes I wish I had the ability to shut it off.... to not feel, not need to express, not need to be needed. I know there is a spiritual lesson in this numbness that I can't seem to figure out. Am I protecting myself? I know that I am a passionate woman. I know that I am a caring person. Am I blocking something? Awareness is the first key to unlocking something like that. So, I am aware of something... I just can't put my proverbial "finger on it".... Do I really need to identify it? I think I just feel that I am not able to express what I feel inside.... not that I normally repress anything, but rather than I am not expressing because the "object" is not open to receiving. "you can lead a horse to water...."
Do I hurt because of this? I don't know. It is not my choice to be undesired; or is it? And I can not control the other's choices, so this is an outside source.... then my only "choice" in the matter is whether or not to stay and continue being undesired. I am also very aware that it is my ego that feels the need to be desired. But it is really just a matter of .... as the movies have put it.... "the greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return".... Peter Gabriel even has a song that mentions... "I need to be needed, I love to be loved...." It is natural, even karmic, to want to receive the same type of energy that you give out to others.
Reciprocal energy grows.
it felt good to write today.
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Monday, May 12, 2003
I thoroughly enjoyed Sunday! I slept in, did about an hour and a half of yoga, meditated.... it was absoulutely invigorating! I took a few more pictures with the digital camera. I'll have to get those posted this week to my fotolog. I think I have most of my redesign done for the site... the library of poetry is the last part that I have to get updated with this new look.
This should be a gentle week at work. I am looking forward to Thursday. Hopefully I can get into the opening night show.... if not, then I will probably go on Saturday. It's going to be great! I can't believe X-men 2 has made 157 million dollars!!! Of course it's a hit!!!
Off to work now! Let's see if my projections are correct. :)
be well!
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Friday, May 9, 2003
Okay... fun evening.... just hanging out.... three books were given to me tonight.....
Two Lives of Charlemagne
Philosophical Essays
and
Dolphins * Extraterrestrials * Angels
A very eclectic combination to say the least; classical literature, philosophy and new-age spirituality. Gotta love it! I look forward to reading the Philosophical Essays. Was supposed to see "The Big Labowski" (did I spell that right?).... I still have not seen that movie! I wonder if it is going to be as good as the expectations levels are rising to? Ah well..... another night, I guess.
I have a test to take.... will give the update later!! :)
be well!
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Friday, May 9, 2003
It's a wonderful start to a Friday!! Last night was great. I stopped in at Borders here in SLO and picked up some DVDs that I have been wanting to purchase.... YOGA! So, last night I played with different (there are 6 in the set) classes and ended up doing about an hour of yoga! It felt great to get back into it again. I am very happy with this purchase!!!
This morning is equally as nice.... with the workouts I've been getting a little sore, so I now have a way to "release" the muscle tensions with some yoga stretching and toning.... this keeps me from feeling sooooo tired in the mornings. I actually feel much more refreshed and ready to go. I am actually looking forward to every moment of the day! I had a great idea too..... bring my Mac to work and do a half an hour session during my lunch break.... just a nice stress reliever session, and back to work.... it will definitely make the afternoons more energetic. :)
I heard from a very close friend yesterday! I was sooooo elated to get my message! You know how sometimes you just loose contact, still think of them, and wonder how things are going.... well, it was nice to get a message.... it just really put this ease to my mind. I know that although things may not be going great, but .... all is well.
So, off to another day of work..... and then the weekend.... I am doing the MayDay Project on Saturday.... that should be fun!
As always,
BE WELL...
or ... just be.
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Thursday, May 8, 2003
After a brief discussion with a friend about a funny statement; "I was pondering the immortal words of Socrates, 'I drank what?' ".... it really set me to thinking... (go figure, a topic of Socrates making one think...). Repression, censorship, judgement.... and then ultimately the death of anyone who does not conform. In Socrates' situation it meant death in the physical sense of the word... he drank the hemlock, and died. This, because he spoke his mind... which to those in power at that time was an act of impiety.... they judged that his words were irreverant toward a Supreme Being.... they judged, and then when repression and censorship wouldn't work, they decided to kill this man.
This brought me to one simple thought.....
Humans are the only creatures that kill their own kind for intellectual reasons.
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Tuesday, May 6, 2003
this is a have to do it kind of thing!!!! I like my poem!!!
http://www.mscaprikell.com
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in which you cling is indescribable, unutterable,
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nonarising,
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kmc posted this at: 01:00 p.m.questions/comments?
Tuesday, May 6, 2003
Yet another profound thought to share:
"Where, for instance, is the identity of myself? There's a special quality that makes me different from everything else and also from all other selves. And I want that identity, my own self, to continue. So where does that identity dwell?"
"Where indeed?" asked the Buddha. "That self to which you cling is in constant change. Years ago you were a baby, then a youth, and now a man. Which is your true self—that of yesterday, that of today, or that of tomorrow which you so long to preserve?"
"I see I have misunderstood things," replied Kutadanta slowly, "and although I find it hard to endure the light, the truth now dawns on me that there is no separate and enduring self. I will take my refuge in your teaching and find that which is continuing and everlasting in the truth."
-Majjhima Nikaya
From "Buddha Speaks," edited by Anne Bancroft, 2000. Reprinted by arrangement with Shambhala Publications, Boston
kmc posted this at: 7:30 a.m.questions/comments?
Tuesday, May 6, 2003
I had a great work out last night! Been playing on the new treadmill! Wow, do I ever need it! My endurance level is far too low, need more cardio! After the cardio, did a little bit of yoga... just to get a good stretch after the run. Made a MetRx shake for fuel after that. Wow those shakes are thick!! It is hard for me to find "work out food" that tastes decent enough for me to tolerate.... MetRx is one of those. That and most of the EAS products. Setting up some new goals.... maybe I'll keep a photo/tracking record on my site somewhere.... see the progress. Not sure I want to share that much yet... hehehe!
I've made a few more changes to my "extras" on the site. Hoping to make things a little more uniform and still fun at the same time. The Guestbook has changed.
well, more later....until then,
be well!
kmc posted this at: 7:00 a.m.questions/comments?
Monday, May 5, 2003
**********WARNING: This review may give away parts of the movie. If you haven't seen the movie, you may not wish to read this at this time.**********
An absolutely, fantasticly, phenomenal follow up to an already spectacular beginning! X-men 2 was beyond outstanding. The performance by all characters was just as good if not better than the first movie. The characters seem to know themselves better and exude their personalities in things as simple as looks, gestures and voice. I would have to say that, as a fan of all X-men characters, my only complaint was that there wasn't enough time spent exploring some of the new characters introduced on this sequel. My hopes are that the continuing sagas will bring light to these characters in time, or give them their own movie as a branch off of this one. You know, something like X-men: Jubilee's Story. I know it is hard to spend any significant amount of time on such a large number of characters without having the movie end up spanning hours upon hours. (Although, I would probably sit through it!!!)
WOLVERINE: It was wonderful to see this character again, of course as the trailing from the last movie implied, we might. Experiencing his past was very well portrayed with flash backs and run-ins with characters who were familiar with what had occurred to him. It was great to see the more "known" characteristics of Wolverine as well.... comic books portrayed him as very animalistic, and this movie gave a great moment of that animalistic behavior when protecting the children and the school.
PROF X: To see such a powerful teacher, as he was portrayed in the first movie, become subject to something more powerful was an absolute surprise. And for this adversary to be someone who had once come to him before, was very moving. Especially when the mutant character was the son of someone who fought hard to eradicate the entire mutant species. It was good to see a vulnerable side to Prof. X.
ROGUE: This has been one of my favorite characters for so long; it was wonderful to see the youthful growth pattern of this character. To see her experiencing an intimate moment with someone for whom she cared deeply was sweet! She still portrayed her attachment to Wolverine as well, with the added jealous actions of her boyfriend made it all the more realistic to what teenagers do... even mutant teenagers.
ICEMAN: This the boyfriend of Rogue, showed a few of his characters abilities in this movie. The ice wall was very spectacular... and at such a pivotal moment. The way this character had to "come out" with his family as his true identity was a great way of portraying what so many people have to do in the real world as well. The pains, the love, the attachment, yet the utter abandonment by the family... it was very moving.
PYRO: Another great introduction to a powerful character. And I am sure with the implied situations in the movie, we will definitely see this character again very soon, if not in the very next sequel. With the amount of anger that this character showed in this movie, it was not surprising that he would side with Magneto, it was only a matter of time.... which Magneto sensed.
MAGNETO: Great to see this character again, but we knew we would! Although his point is made in this movie, it was very difficult to see this character tortured just as he was when he was a child. And, part of me feels that he did not want to be the one who brought such torment on the school... but that he did not regret what had happened, as it was part of what he had already told Xavier in the last movie. I must say that his escape was most magnificently well done! Mystique did an incredible job once she knew where to find him.
MYSTIQUE: An absolutely great character! It was great to see the versatility of the character as well as the actress who had to play her. Speaking of which... it caught me off guard that the "girl at the bar" was, in fact, the actress without the spectacular blue make-up artwork.... it took me a while to figure that one out! Mystique had just as fantastic of fight scenes in this movie as the last!
JEAN-GREY: Wow, I was absolutely blown away with the magnitude in which they took this character. As most fans know, this character has a dual role....which I have no doubt will be explored in the next sequel, due to the image in the lake. The effects with her eyes told so much as to the transformation that was beginning to occur within her. I was very sadden by the effect of this character's part in the movie which affected the emotional reactions of two other characters... Cyclops and Wolverine. Two characters who seem to despise each other and love the same woman. That part of the movie touched me! Very well written!!!
Well, I didn't want my review to go into TOO MUCH detail... for those who may not have gone to see it yet. I am absolutely amazed and completely entertained by this movie and am sure that they will continue to produce such blockbuster hits as this movie was in it's opening weekend... record making numbers actually.... ranking 4th in all time highest opening weekend at 85+million dollars!!!! And I would have to say that a full price ticket is indeed WELL WORTH the investment!!! I eagerly await the next sequel... bring it on!
I know this doesn't cover all of the characters, but these are the moments or characters that stood out enough for me to write a partial review. Something that I had reflected on earlier today really hit me..... "be careful what you wish for, it may come true"... this statement has been somewhat foreboding in the past for the most part, but this is actually quite true in a positive way in my situation. I had remembered that as a child, reading and watching the cartoons.... I had very strong feelings about wishing and hoping that someday someone would make a REAL PEOPLE version of the X-men (of course, I was hoping to play the part of Rogue, hahaha!)... and twenty years later.... That wish had come true!!! It may have taken a while, but I don't care...what is time? My wish came true.
~just an X-men Fan!
kmc posted this at: 05:55 p.m.questions/comments?
Monday, May 5, 2003
I found a new site (as you can tell from my last posting) that has all kinds of groovy website features....
You have to check this place out! almost anything you can think of as far as features for your personal website. :)) I am quite happy. Still working on the new look... not sure if I am quite pleased with everything just yet; the colors, the set up, the links... it's gotta be right before I update to the new look.
OH, and the X-men 2 movie! Well, that is going to get a review of it's own in a separate post. I can say that I am very happy with the movie... there are plenty of great featured moments of different characters. So, more on that later.
We saw the movie on Saturday morning... then my friend, Tammy came over Saturday evening to catch up. It had been almost 5 years since I'd spoke to her! Wow, what a great evening of chat! Glad to be back in touch with her. And then Sunday was absolutely wonderful! Spent the morning doing a little laundry and then headed out to the Halcyon Craft Fair. They had the fair a week earlier than they usually do, so I was surprised to hear about it.... and glad I didn't miss it! Such a wonderful energy around that place! Ran into friends and shared great conversations... I was sooooo happy (well, still am) on Sunday!
Well, that's the happs for me as of late. I will write more later on my review of X-men 2!
Ta!
ciao
be well!!!
kmc posted this at: 07:00 a.m.questions/comments?
Friday, May 2, 2003
Happy Friday to all!!!
Well.... the regular guestbook isn't really getting much of a response so I have added this cute new feature to replace it:
Hopefully people will have more fun with that and leave messages there. I will keep both up for a while and then make a final decision on what to use in the long run. I like all the fun features of what one can do for personal websites! This has really been a a fun learning experience for me as well. And soon, I will be making some changes as to the standard look .... the archives will hold onto the previous looks.... so I guess, when you look at the archives, it will be like looking at the growth process of the site! :) too much fun!!
Well, I am gonna make my way to the movie tonight to see X-men2!!!! I am actually quite excited to see the new characters that they will be introducing.
Have a great Friday, everyone!!!
be well!
kmc posted this at: 07:33 a.m.questions/comments?
Wednesday, April 30, 2003
This quote made it's way to me today.... I find that it touched me very deeply. So, I thought I would share it with everyone who visits here as well!
The mind is not just 'oneness' or a singular entity because it manifests in manifold ways. It is not a plurality or many things, either, because these numerous manifestations all have one essence. No one can describe its nature saying, "It is exactly like this!" It is indescribable, unutterable, inconceivable, nonarising, unceasing, and nondwelling, like the essence of space. Mind nature is discovered within the experience of awareness and is cognized individually.
-Chokyi Nyima Rinpoche, "Union of Mahamudra and Dzogchen"
From "365 Buddha: Daily Meditations," edited by Jeff Schmidt. Reprinted by arrangement with Tarcher/Putnam, a division of Penguin Putnam Inc.
To me, spirituality is best discovered and understood as the individual. The moment someone else tells you how, or what to believe....or that there is only one way, it is not spiritual. Not saying that great teachers like Jesus, Buddha or Krishna are wrong. But rather, that one should listen to the words, feel the energy, and decide for themselves as to what is their own truth, their own reality, then life becomes truly spiritual. Every moment is a choice of "being" when aware. Everything that happens is a choice of bringing events to yourself to learn, to better know the Self.
be well.
kmc posted this at: 7:33 a.m.questions/comments?
Tuesday, April 29, 2003
Now would you take a look at that!!!! I finally did it.... archived my messages from the beginning of this fun, uplifting creation to today. Now that I know the process, I will try to keep it up so that my page doesn't get that long again! :)
Thanks again for all the input and advice to everyone who has offered ideas and helpful hints!
I am also excited to say that, I think, the Astrology Services are ready to take off now as well. With a few tweaks and pinches along the way, this should be a fun tool for anyone who would like to utilize it. Again, the services are donation paid, so I am hoping the response to this the services is big. I am not really offering the astrology to make money from it (although that would be fun!)... but I like the idea of being able to assist people in becoming more aware of traits that they have. Learn where the strengths are and what the weakness maybe and find out what balances out the other. What I learned was that awareness of the self is a big step alone. The rest starts falling into place.
Okay, that is all for now.... I will try to post again later this evening if I can.... :) I really like all the features and "bells & whistles" this website can take on.... oh, there's an idea.... sound effects!!! hehehe!
be well!
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