very few newspaper articles move me to repeat; but yesterday I came across an article in the Telegram Tribune during lunch that DID in fact move me. It is another confirmation of feelings I had as a child. Something I could do a "soapbox" posting on! I have decided to post the article here in my journal to share:
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LEONARD PITTS JR.: Some come to war on AIDS a little late
June 18, 2003
BY LEONARD PITTS JR.
The story goes that one of the Pharisees decided to test Jesus with this question: Which commandment is the greatest?
Jesus replied: "Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind. This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: Love your neighbor as yourself."
No, you haven't wandered into a Sunday school lesson by mistake. Not even close. What you've wandered into is a knotty moral thicket at the intersection of money, faith and AIDS.
By way of illustration, let me tell you about Mr. Stearns, who went to Washington, D.C., last week. Actually, Richard Stearns, president of the Washington state-based Christian relief group World Vision, wasn't alone. Dozens of evangelical Christian leaders traveled to Capitol Hill to lobby Congress on President Bush's plan to allocate billion to fight AIDS in Africa and the Caribbean.
These conservative religious leaders really do want Congress to fund a program designed to fight a disease once known as the gay cancer.
But what gets me is something Stearns said. As reported in the Washington Post, these evangelical leaders acknowledge that they've come late to the fight against HIV/AIDS -- an understatement, given that AIDS has been killing for nearly 25 years.
Stearns explained the tardiness by saying that in the 1980s, evangelicals saw AIDS as an affliction of drug users and gays and "had less compassion for the victims."
Because they thought less of the sufferers, they cared less about the suffering. Contrast that with Jesus saying that loving your neighbor is Christianity's second greatest commandment and tell me you don't see a disconnect wider and deeper than canyons.
Unfortunately, we've seen that disconnect before. I'm thinking of the Christian Coalition's 1996 apology for generations of white evangelical support for segregation and opposition to civil rights.
Then as now, it was good to see conservative Christians move to where they should have been all along.
But then, as now, you wondered: What took you so long? Why did you not understand what everybody else figured out long ago? Why are you the last to pitch in when, by rights, you should have been the first?
Christ, after all, had compassion for tax collectors, adulterers, prostitutes, lepers and others who were not welcome in most homes. He famously walked with the disregarded, the dispossessed and the despised. But these days, many would-be Christians walk by them instead.
"Love the sinner, hate the sin." they chirp.
Even if you buy that dubious formulation, it's hard to see evidence of love in their decision to ignore a deadly pandemic.
Indeed, some evangelical Christians even employ God to justify their callousness, arguing that AIDS is a divine curse upon gay people. They never get around to explaining how the "curse" managed to strike people like 13-year-old Ryan White, whose only sin was to be a hemophiliac in need of a blood transfusion.
Was God's aim that bad?
Or, as seems far more likely, is the problem simply that some of His people are distressingly small of spirit, disturbingly slow to respond to pain, disappointingly selective in their obedience to the second greatest commandment?
Reach LEONARD PITTS JR. at the Miami Herald, 1 Herald Plaza, Miami, FL 33132; toll free at 888-251-4407 or at lpitts@herald.com.
Now, I don't agree with all of the wording used... I rarely do with any writer or speaker. However, the point is very well made about people's use of judgement and how it affects everyone. I picked up a very profound bumpersticker ... I rarely do much but giggle at most of them. But this one is something I strongly believe.... that "NON-judgement day is coming!" In my opinion, religions have become greedy, materialistic, politcal, power-hungry and have strayed so far from what one of the world's most enlightened masters has taught. Guidance is one thing, but to demand and enforce by the "fear of God" is not what I call spiritually grounded. Fear should have nothing to do with spirituality. It has taken me many years of my own truths and my own searching to realize what Jesus and Buddha and Krishna have taught. They are no different one from the other. There is no separation other than what we have created in our own mind... transcendance is the answer. Not neglect or selective assistance. All are one... all are love in a unique package... the package is just an illusion... what you choose to do with each package you are given in life is upto you. Know your intent and choose with an open heart. All is well.
be.
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Sunday, June 22, 2003
It's been a very quiet weekend. House-sitting for a friend. She and her family went to Las Vegas. Looking forward to hearing how that went for them! I stayed here to take care of the animals; two cats, two dogs and three horses. Took a break on Saturday to help a friend with data entry on a site. It was cool to see the site coming along. I will be sure to post it to my site here once it becomes active. It is a vibrant business site. Not your normal "cookie cutter" type site.
Then came today.... I was such a veg today. I am getting a little bummed though... I am not being as disciplined about reading. I should have brought a book with me here. I feel like my writings here have even dwindled due to my lack of inspirations. I guess it's time to set new goals for myself. That is something I can document and write about the progress.
I am soooooo looking forward to the end of July. One of my sisters is coming to visit and I am getting very excited as the days get closer!! It's been about two years since I've seen her. She was the youngest of the siblings... we never got to see her because she was adopted out as soon as she was born. Another long story from my childhood. The siblings were separated, but eventually we all found each other again! I do believe that love does accomplish anything you set out with positive intent to do. It is sad that we all couldn't be closer physically. But that is okay. I believe that we have all made choices to live as we do, consciously or unconsciously, and we have so much to fulfill in this lifetime. I would wish that my other sibling would make different decisions about their life choices... but it is their lessons to learn. Everything happens for a reason. "In the end" all will be well.
Well.... I am going to watch "The Scorpion King" now.... yes, I so enjoy watching movies. Still have a couple out in the theaters that I would like to go see!
Thank you again for all the emails! I enjoy the correspondence! It's good to hear from friends in LA... I do miss LA at times too... must go visit soon. I hear there is a Martini bar calling me back to it! LOL!
until later...
be well always.
kmc posted this at: 06:33 p.m.questions/comments?
Tuesday, June 17, 2003
Been staying very busy with work. I have the vet in San Luis Obispo that I am helping get reorganized and proficient in QuickBooks Pro. I have stacks of files and folders at home now. Last night I got to visit a friend and see how websites are made! It's so much more difficult than what I have here. You know the professional business kind of website with a shopping cart and all that. I have a new found level of respect for that job now!!
I've had a new interest that has taken a bit of my time too. BLOGSHARES ... however, they are down... and have been for almost a full day. Kind of a bummer because I've really been getting into playing. I read up on a few other sites that this is kind of common... that they have been down before with problems. I still feel that someone from their newly formed "Board of Directors" should have sent out a quick email to the members letting them know when things might be up again or that they acknowledge the fact that it is completely unaccessible and give us some kind of status.... am I asking too much???
Spent the weekend with Heidi... shopping, digital pictures, work, .... it was pretty fun! I have some new pictures that I would like to get posted... just been bombarded when I get home that I don't really have time to log into my fotolog and wait for the uploading process. It can become a little annoying when it keeps attempting and then failing. I am glad that I have that fotolog though, it is incredibly handy and it does make me look through all of my pictures and decide...."Okay, what is the 6 best pics of the 117 that you took today?" hehehe!!
Well, that is pretty much it for the past few days. I am just very excited about my sister, Erin, getting to come visit me at the end of July... so I am distracting myself until then.... work is a good distraction!!! I AM NOT A WORK-A-HOLIC!!! ....(wait, isn't denial the first sign? uh oh!)
til later,
be well!
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Friday, June 13, 2003
Yes, again...... it has been a while since my last post.... it feels like forever. But, my week has ended very well. I am happy with the results of a good work week. Equally as pleased with the socialness for the week as well. Today was a BBQ at a new client's home. He has just moved into the area and took over the small animal, vaccination clinic and surgery practice for Edna Valley Veterinary Clinic and Broad Street Veterinary Clinic. Wow.... plug for the new client there. Anyway.... the party was great...... good food, FANTASTIC desserts... and wine... had good reds all night. I am very glad that I went. This was yet another great connection established by my dearest friend, Heidi. She is a very close friend who has been there for me in so many ways. THANK YOU HEIDI!!!!
I took quite a few pictures out at his home as well.... renting a great piece of land tucked in the SLO hills off of South Higuera. I will have pics posted on my PHOTOS page... go check it out!
I miss having my posts...... still waiting for a permanent connection at the home-front. Living off wireless is fun.... but not as much of a guarantee. And a little more expensive when I want to sit at say..... Starbucks.... and play. These WAP's really get you.... capitalists!!!! It's just such an opposite to my thoughts.... if I have something....why not share.... secure what I need and then share what ever extra there is. It's a big enough world. Why not?!!
I over heard some really cute things this week at work...... my office mate has children in high-shcool.... one day one of her son's walks in and is talking about classes...... "Yeah, that Boo Radley dude stabbed that other dude".... To sum up one of the greatest pieces of literature....yeah, I guess that would say it. To Kill A Mockingbird. Speaking of which..... Gregory Peck has passed away. A great artist in his acting career..... especially in the movie rendition of the book....To Kill A Mocking Bird. Very sad to see him go, but on the other hand..... we will always carry this great memory of him from his splendid works throughout the years! He is/was a fantastic artist! Blessings to him as he journeys on into a greater existence. May we all learn from his experiences here.
I have caught up on my readings as well.... online that is..... EMDOT is one of my favorite places to go read and catch up..... what a wonderful person! She is such a blessing to know. Although I do not know her as well as I would like. I look forward to changing that!
Well, after spending a night with Heidi..... out partying.... I am off to bed..... I look forward to any and all correspondence with my regulars..... may you all be well and have as great of a feed of energy from me as you give to me. I am grateful to all of you.... blessings and love to all of you!!!!
be well!
~amaya
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Wednesday, June 11, 2003
I had another quiz sent to me.... funny how it turned out.... here I thought I was a Mac through and through!

Which OS are You?
too much fun! I had another friend take it too... turned out to be TRS-DOS! but he answered the questions differently so that he wouldn't turn out to be linux.... how would you know???
HA!
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Monday, June 9, 2003
Sometimes the Daily Wisdom that I have emailed to me makes such a profound impact that I feel it is important to share it on here too. Today is one of those days:
No "I,"
No "mine."
He knows there is nothing.
All his inner desires have melted away.
Whatever he does,
He does nothing.
His mind has stopped working!
It has simply melted away...
And with it,
Dreams and delusions and dullness.
And for what he has become,
There is no name.
-Ashtavakra Gita 17:19-20
This is a very beautiful thing to me. It seems to be yet another confirmation of Choiceless Awareness. Living beyond cause and effect. Just being. Truly living. Transcending the obvious. An unaware aspect of me says "I aspire to become that aware." When yet another part of me (like there really is any separation).... says "I am!" It is just a matter of viewing it through the True Eyes.
I am ... as are you.... just be... awaken.
namaste
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Sunday, June 8, 2003
Went to visit a new list member of SLO bloggers: Cosmic Void! I ran across a quiz.... I love quizzes! So... I have found out which Matrix personality I am!!!

You are Neo, from "The Matrix." You
display a perfect fusion of heroism and
compassion.
What Matrix Persona Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla
that was fun!
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Saturday, June 7, 2003
Yeah, I know.... I took a break.... been scrambled on what is going on inside this head anyway. I should run my own transit search.
Okay, thank you to my "readers" who have noticed that I haven't written for a while! :) Didn't realize I had "regulars"!!! I am stoked!
Yesterday was fabulous.... I took off from work at my lunch hour and that was it for my work day. I then had a massage at 2 that was MUCH NEEDED!! I had let everything I was feeling build up in my shoulders and neck... talk about knots!!! Wow, I didn't realize just how long it had been since my last massage. I prefer massage to chiropractic services. it is the muscles that pull the bones... so why not just get to the root.... relax the muscles and the joints and bones go back to where they belong. Cathryn is my massage therapist in Pismo Beach.... I would be more than happy to refer anyone who wants a great massage. She is also taking classes right now for accupuncture as well. So learning the channels of energy also benefit her massages as well. She has very powerful yet gentle hands. By far she is my choice for best massage! I am also looking forward to when she starts accupuncture. But that is about 2 years to go.... she's half way done!
It was funny when I returned home... I found my living area had been rearranged by my landlord. She had found a TV/Entertainment cabinet for sale at A&R Furniture. So now the TV is on the opposite wall and the sofa is now at the window.... I am a little worried about that though.... because it is a dark purple sofa.... and I like keeping the window open to direct light... that may fade the sofa, so I may have to change the set up of the window. Was thinking of curtains, right now I have wooden blinds. Well, they had also stated that they were going to change the windows soon too.... they are single pane older windows and I think their idea is to change the shape and size a bit and make them dual pane (what a difference in temperature that would make!) like the upstairs windows. I like change... it is can be pretty fun.
On the emotional side.... I am still pretty bummed about not being with the guy I fell in love with. But, at least he is being honest with me... I have always asked for honesty and now I have it.... I guess it's just a bummer that it ended up being a one-sided deal. Trying very hard to do the "let's remain friends" and hang out. But I am not doing very well with that. I decided (remembering some advice from a friend in Victorville had given me) that a break from contact is probably best. It will help me realize that the relationship is ended... maybe at a later date we could re-establish a friendship. Although, it would be very difficult for me to see him with someone else. And I say that at this time during the hurt that I am feeling. Ultimately I know that I would want him to find someone that he does have feelings for and experience those feelings fully... to know love and be in love. I would want that for anyone really. I regret nothing that I have experienced with him. Everything happens for a reason and the ultimate purpose is eventually seen. I am just trying to learn how to transcend the "extreme emotions" that I experience. Not to say that I don't want to feel... I just prefer to be aware of them... experience them, but not be stuck in them. I like to think that I am capable of that level of awareness. The thing is .... I can see the "bigger picture" ... I do realize that I don't NEED a companion to exist in this lifetime.... it is just "nice" to have someone with which to share what I am learning and being.
And, on another note, I have now picked up two new work "clients" for weekends and evenings.... part time stuff. One is for a veterinary clinic... he has two locations that he owns in San Luis Obispo. I will be "cleaning up" the QuickBooks records and setting up Payroll in QB for him as well. Then working on setting up the filing and such. The other opportunity is at a Massage Therapy office in Pismo Beach. This is someone that Cathryn had introduced to me. This is going to be a little more clerical and possibly assisting with their QuickBooks as well. I am very happy with these opportunities that have come up for me! I am starting both very soon.....as a matter of fact, I have the laptop and some paperwork for the vet's office today. I like that I have new things to learn and perform. This will keep me very busy too!
There..... that is the update on me. :) All is well.
kmc posted this at: 09:19 a.m.questions/comments?
Tuesday, June 3, 2003
watched the Miss Universe pageant tonight.... interesting.
not as chatty tonight as I have been.... taking a break from the typing tonight.....
Perspective: it can be how you CHOOSE to see things in your life.
be well.
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Monday, June 2, 2003
Not bad for a Monday. :) There was group of songs that came on the radio at work today that made me think of my grandfather. The first was Bette Midler's "Wind Beneath My Wings"... my sister and I sang that at Grandpa's funeral. There are so many things that started flowing through my head. Thoughts about my childhood.... how he cared so much about my sister and me. The negative things popped in as well and it donned on me that I have allowed people to convince me of the negative things.... that the "bad things" about my grandfather are what pop in and almost override the positive feelings. But, I realized that those negative feelings were other people's choices of how to react to being around him. THEY choose to what to hold onto from their experiences with him. I do not know those experiences.... I did not live them.... they are not mine. My memory of my grandfather is one who was loving... not overbearing... but always there to "catch us" should we have ever needed it. I see now the non-attachment value and not the "neglect" as others put it. I have no doubt in my mind or my soul that this sentient being who played the part of my grandfather loved me in the exact way that I required love. I know he loved me deeply and wanted me to be happy, healthy, and beyond all else... loved. But he also respected my choices.... even at a young age... when my sister and I decided to live with mother after we were "of age" to choose according to the state of Illinois. He loved us enough to let go..... to let us move on.... into a new set of lessons... outside of his protection. How courageous was he? I truly believe that his love and trust is what sent us flying into the next stage of our lives. Without knowing if he would ever see us again, he said goodbye.... and let us fly out to mother's wedding. He did not fight or use anger to make us do anything against our will at that time. The biggest thing in my mind today was that he let go.... he loved us so much that he let go of being the father figure, the protector... the one that we relied on. It has taken me twenty years to see this.... today, I forgave my grandfather for the moments that felt he was not there for me... and at the same time, I thanked him for loving me so much that he let me make a decision that separated us physically for a very long time. I never got to see my grandfather since a very small visit he had made in the 80's... but he never tried to make me feel guilty for any of it. When I found out that he was ill in 93, I made plans to go visit him.... he had been in the hospital off an on with complications from emphazema... bronchitis and other respiratory problems (as a coalmine worker back in the early years he had been diagnosed with "Black Lung" as the respiratory devices at that time were nothing compared to these days).... he was doing well with his recovery at one point and I had enough money for a plane trip back to Oklahoma where he was staying with my Aunt. I had talked with him on the phone to let him know that I was going to be coming to visit... that I missed him... that I loved him. I remember him telling me that everything was going to be fine now that he had heard from me (I was the only grandchild who lived so far away... at that time I was in Sacramento)... That same night he passed away in his sleep. My family told me that he had waited to hear from me before he let go ... again... once he knew that I was well, he let go one final time... this time to watch over and protect me from a realm that I am only beginning to understand. There are times that I sense my grandfather's presence... and today I was able to fogive him and asked him to forgive me for the judgement that I had allowed others to convice me of him... I was finally able to let go today... because I love him, I am able to let go. I am at such a place of peacefulness ... such a level of understanding that I feel like crying, laughing and screaming all at the same time... and I sit here with tears in my eyes, knowing now what his love .... what love means.
with all my love... not that it is really anything I can possess, give, or do....but, you get the idea....
be well. know love.
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Sunday, June 1, 2003
Today was a very beautiful day on the coast! Well, I got to sleep in until 8:30 am .... felt wonderful to catch up on sleep. Then I got a great phone call regarding some work.... so that was an additional bonus to the day!
I got invited to go see Finding Nemo. It was actually really cute, constantly moving.... I can understand why the movie would have so much movement...it keeps the children's attention. AND THERE WERE PLENTY OF CHILDREN! I was invited by Heidi to join her and her family to see it. It was great to see the kids, Heidi and Jeff again. She and I will probably be working together now and then. She was the connection for getting the extra work. I am very grateful to her for that... the extra work will be very helpful for me.
After the movie I decided to head out to a store in Los Osos that I had been to once before. It was so nice to browse and get a great energy vibe. Refreshing drive and a refreshing time at the store. Picked up a couple of nice items... charms for the home and self. And a book that I have been wanting to read for some time now too.... The Dancing Wu Li Masters.... by Gary Zukav.
I have a lot of reading to do! I like the recent books that I have acquired. All very valuable tools for me. I am looking forward to the completion of these.
After the store I decided to drive by Shell Beach to get some pictures of the ocean. It was very moving today.... a lot of waves.... not huges waves, but there were some crashing waves that I tried to capture on my digital camera.... didn't get the timing down though! The pictures that I did take were very nice anyway... I am happy with my afternoon out!
Today has been a wonderful day all around!
be well!
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