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Tuesday, September 2, 2003
Had a fabulous holiday weekend! Let's recap... for those who'd like to know... :)
Saturday:
After my working on the Interpretation of the astrology chart, I had gone into the beating heart of the night in Pismo... I finally met up with someone I had been talking to for a while... we hit it off and had a great time!
Sunday:
Was taken to Denny's nearby to get some food into a rather tipsy tomy... again we continued with conversations which seemed to flow so easily... we have a lot of views and interests in common.
So, yes, I did eventually go home and try to squeeze in a few hours of sleep before having to head out to work at the Veterinary Clinic... wow, Sunday felt like a long, long day! :) but it is all good!!
Sunday evening I spent with Heidi and the family... my surrogate family that has adopted me. It was nice to have some relaxing evening hours visiting and being entertained by the children, Nick and Madison. They are all very dear to me. Oh, and they purchased a new car on Sunday after taking off around 9:30 in the morning, she had called me at 4:30 that afternoon to tell me she was signing papers for the purchase! I am so happy for them. The other vehicles had been giving them troubles, so it is sooo wonderful that they now have a very secure and reliable vehicle for Heidi and the children.
Monday - the HOLIDAY!!:
Well, after an incredible night's sleep... (it get's so quiet out where they live.) We slowly made it through the morning... Heidi was out doing a double check of all the features and options that appeared on the purchase of the vehicle so that when they take it back in for the detailing and tow package, they can make sure to ask about any missing items or any other issues. It was fun finding all the compartments, buttons that do certain functions, how to deal with the folding seats and such. Nothing like playing with a new toy!!!
After dealing with that for a while, I was able to take off with Heidi to the Halcyon Store for their 20th Anniversary celebration... they had a tarot reader available to give free readings for customers who wanted them. The other great thing was that everything in the store was 15% off!!! woohoo! I picked up a new divination deck... kinda similar to tarot, but a little differnt. I like them a lot ... deals with the four directions as "Winds" and the features of each direction. I am still learning about them. I also picked up gifts for the children and a little pen for Heidi. We had our hour of fun! And then we went back to their house and played with the cards real quick. Then we headed off to Oceano for some time at the park for the children... they fed the ducks bread and then went to play in the little playground area. I tried to capture some unique pictures in the area while they were playing and of course pictures of the children too! After the playtime, we headed back to their house for a BBQ dinner and then I HAD to get home myself. I had a fantastic time visiting them. So, I had done well... when I got home I did my email check, site check, all those kinds of checks and then phoned a friend. Then it was an early night to bed! Had to catch back up on the sleeping time!!!
All in all a very productive and incredible weekend. I am very pleased with how things are going in my life. I am incredibly blessed, I am very aware of this!!
And now I share blessings with all of you who read my site. Thank you!
be well!
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Saturday, August 30, 2003
Wow, I am soooo stoked! I just finished getting an astrology interpretation up on the net. My first online interpretation is password protected, so the readers have to have access to read it. I feel this is a great idea for my new orders that came in with my ad that I had run. I am quite happy with this new arrangement and look forward to doing more charts this way.
I spent a few hours out in Shell Beach again today. It's just a really nice get away ... and it's only a few minutes drive from where I live. I had my coffee first... enjoying the people who drove by.... reading the events in the New Times.... and then I headed out to the park in Shell Beach. Funny, when I walked up, there was a ring of seagulls in the grass... so of course, I had to take a picture of it.... it will be in my Photos log soon. I haven't downloaded the picture from my camera. I didn't get many pictures taken today... odd for a Saturday... maybe I will make up for it tomorrow! ;)
I was pretty bummed this morning (digressing here).... I was expecting a friend from L.A. to come visit me. I stayed up pretty late thinking that he was going to arrive late, like he had indicated in his email to me. Well... needless to say, I ended up falling asleep at 3:00-ish this morning... no phone call, no email.... I am not sure what to feel... part of me is worried (that ever present protective gentle side of me that thinks the only reason one would NOT call or correspond somehow would be if something aweful had happened.)... then there is the other side... the more cynical side... thinks that maybe he is just inconsiderate and is too "important" to call someone like me to let me know he won't make it.... I mean, he's an ACTOR...so why should he have to worry about someone like me... I am nothing compared to the L.A. lifestyle of an actor.... something better must have "come up"... so, there are the two halves of my brain going at it. And now that I have written that out, I think it will be easier to just get past it. Still bummed.
Well.... I think I am going to head out to an event here in Pismo... take some advice from my Lil Sis and "get out there".... ;) thanks Sis!!!
Okay, now that you've read about me... tell me something about you!
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Thursday, August 28, 2003
Wow, I just got some incredible news! I sent a quick funny note to a friend on Yahoo Messenger and found out that he and his wife had JUST signed papers for adopting a baby girl!!! She is two days old... how precious is that??!! I am just absolutely beside myself with happiness right now. I think it is wonderful when people adopt children. And I know for certain that these two people will make the most compassionate, caring, supportive, nurturing, cool parents a child could ask for! Laughter will be a regular sound from that home!! I am so giddy, I could just bounce out of my seat right now! They went to Texas to adopt this child. I am sure it took a great deal of time in paperwork, processing, interviews, etc. Goodness does happen! Love is happening. It's wonderful, like pieces of a puzzle coming together... when positive things happen it makes the "bigger picture" as positive ... even more so.... it's like the kinetic energy.... when it starts rolling the energy gets bigger!! THIS is great positive energy. I see many good things from this event. It has touched me deeply. I BEAM... I SHARE! I will post the link when he gets it finished!
Today is a blessing!!
be well.... be blessed!
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Thursday, August 28, 2003
Shhhhh.... be vewwy, vewwy kwy-it.... I'm hunting Wabbits!
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Wednesday, August 27, 2003
I had a productive day at work... but I was so looking forward to the evening. After I left work... I stopped and looked at Mars... this was the official night that it was the closest to Earth thanks in large part to the benevolant planet Jupiter... it helped us see a closer look at Mars. I really enjoyed the glowing orange light... soft, yet vibrantly there.
What does astrology tell us about this cute little planet?
MARS
Mars rules physical energy and efforts. It describes the strength and direction of the physical force that drives your ego, fires your emotions, and encourages your mental endeavors and communicative skills. It describes male relationships and associations, risk-taking inclinations, and the physical challenges you are likely to encounter.
So, having this planet closer should boost the "effects" of physical energy... the ego, the emotions... male relationships.... hmmm.... what did my conversations with Mars open up for me? Am I able to understand men better at this time? Or what are the energies within myself doing? I am still learning... lessons are good at this point. I appreciate the help and insight that a friend is giving me... conversations are such great therapy.... damn, I've paid big money in the past for conversations like these!!
Well.... I feel that the "closeness" of Mars is helping my defensive energies.... I protect myself and make sure that what I consider to be sacred is not taken advantage of ..... not taken for granted.... that which I consider the absolute self is safe. I always feel safe regardless of the "bumpy roads" that I may find myself traveling on... those are just lessons.... is it really the roads that are bumpy or do I just perceive them to be? There's a thought! Choice is everything.
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Tuesday, August 26, 2003
Okay, I've cracked myself up before.... but today was actually a funny that really tickled me.... I was asked "how goes it?"... so I responded:
"hmmm.... "it" goes. .... it comes and goes.... and comes and goes.... then it stops and stares until I look back at it and shake my head.... then it goes again. How's your "it" going?"
I have no idea where that came from... but it just made me laugh! I love it when that happens!!
kmc posted this at: 03:21 p.m.questions/comments?
Monday, August 25, 2003
I've been listening to Jewel's latest CD to and from work for a few weeks now... I like most of the songs; it did take a while to warm up to a few of them, but listening to the words ... they started to really make sense. One of the songs, Intuition, is by far a favorite... and in that song there is part of a verse that keeps striking me and my questioning mind to know WHY ...
"You look at me
but you're not quite sure
Am I it or could you get more?...."
and.... in all honesty it kinda hurts... but the whole point of the song is to "follow your intuition"...
I guess my point to this is ... YES, THE GRASS WILL ALWAYS BE GREENER... if that is what one is looking for... greener grass, because regardless of what color the grass is where ever one is; there is a different shade of green that will look more appealing.... because obviously one is not happy with their own grass. Ah, yes, then there is also the statement ... "I don't want ANY shade of grass" (staying with the euphemism).... so I guess one should get used to dry, parching, rough texture of sand or stones.
I am a beautiful shade of green.... I am by no means an exotic shade of green... but...I know that what I offer is a lush, encompassing, comforting lawn... a place where one is safe to be..... just be.... and not be judged or ridiculed.
In my mind right now, the word WHY is the most predominant thought. When something doesn't make sense I will ponder it and try extremely hard to make sense of it myself if any outside source can not (or will not) assit me in my understanding. If it seems that I beat the subject until it is completely flattened.... well, that is just who I am.... it's hard for me to just "let go" of something without understanding why I should be letting go...
Okay.... on a slightly different note.... there was another song of Jewel's from here 0304 CD that I really enjoyed because it really describes what I have been going through for the past couple years. It feels good to hear it sometimes via different voices....the song is "Becoming"
"Listen, heart
Listen close-listen
To the melancholy
Melody of your own voice
I am weary of my own dreaming
I am tired of waiting
So this time, I'm leaping
[CHORUS]
I reach-beyond myself to see
What I find, beyond my mind, there is no time
In this place beyond my sight
My heart knows what is not yet seen
I'm witnessing my own becoming
Lash myself to the
Mantle of my desire-I will
Turn from its temptations
But the wanting takes me higher
I am hurting
Oh, I am not yet born
I am the mother and the father
Of what is not yet known
Darkness surrounds me
I scratch, I struggle, I breathe"
Ah, music is ...... {deep inhale followed by a completely releasing exhale}
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Thursday, August 21, 2003
And this is the movie I should be in:
Fight Club!
What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!)
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Thursday, August 21, 2003
ZOE! is such a quizzical person too!! I love visiting her site ... and really enjoy taking the same quizzes as she does... so, here they come... I will post another pretty soon too.
I am this country!
You're Fiji!
As calm, relaxed, and removed from life as they come, you're just so
chilled out, it hurts people to see you. Everyone aspires to be where you are, but
most of them just can't put their stress away. Little do they know that even you
sometimes have inner turmoil and struggles! For the most part, though, it's sun and
fun for you, and that's the way you like it. It's just sort of hard to get things
done with all that partying.
Take
the Country Quiz at the Blue Pyramid
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Thursday, August 21, 2003
okay, had to make a quick entry... I wasn't expecting this rain up here in Templeton today.... it is SO cleansing! HUGE drops... washing away the pollens and dust from the road construction that started earlier this week. It smells so nice. It's a rain, then a pause, then a big cloud burst, then another pause,.... OH, and just now it BEAMED a bright ray of sunshine... where is that rainbow? Kinda makes me feel like nature is taking care of me, too. Washing away things... and then smiling brightly at me as if to say...."Not all clouds are bad... and the sun will shine again... sooner than you expect."
Is it egotistical to think that nature is thinking of you and taking care of your specific needs? I kinda feel like it's that wish thing all over again. It's not neccessarily what I "NEED" ... but it feels so good. I am the rainbow that the sun was smiling at just now. I feel blessed.
be well
kmc posted this at: 09:19 a.m.questions/comments?
Wednesday, August 20, 2003
Well, I finally did it.... I found a few poems that I had written last year... and put them into my Library of Poems. So, do take a look at the Poetry page for the latest from yours truly. It was during a very introspective moment... so keep that in mind. Funny ... I prep people to read my poetry.... Silly Girl!
I look forward to feedback from all visitors.
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Wednesday, August 20, 2003
I did it again... at lunch... well, after eating lunch.... there was this shoe store.... and there were these tantilizing signs that said.... SALE.... and so I went inside and looked.... and there were these REALLY cute shoes that called out to me.... for $19..... so, I did it.... yep.... another pair to add to the collection... Gonna need another shoe stand!
Work felt very productive... got a lot of "loose ends" tied up today... very happy about that. I can't believe the week is almost over already... Geesh! Time does fly.... period! ... having fun or not.... it flashes by! But, over all I would have to say it was a great day. I talked to my landlords this morning before I took off..... they are still working on the landscaping around the house..... today they were removing the roots of the junipers that were removed earlier last month. It looks sooooo different here. They said the next thing is the wall that is going up. I like seeing progressive change on homes. They have a lot of plans for this place... very cool! Has to be fun!
So.... after work, I decided that since the Weblogger Meetup had been cancelled (because only 4 people confirmed making it there; out of 5 that they require)... I went to San Luis Obispo's Mission and sat down to read a book by the creek... the sprinklers were running and there was a bird making this peculiar sound that was kinda funny. I am currently reading (well, trying to finish) Awareness by Osho. There are so many things that the book really brings to light... I have a lot of work to do. But, I will definitely work on it. I started out reading the book at the Mission and then decided to move on over to Linnea's Cafe ... ordered up a White Chocolate Mocha and sat in the back and read some more of the book. I thought I would possibly be alone while reading the book, but there was a group in the very back of the "Garden Area"... fun to observe. People are a fascinating subject to observe.
Then on the road home, I started thinking about myself. People have "analyzed" my life from the stories I tell them and then wonder... "How did you make it?" So, I thought about it deeply.... well, in most of my more difficult situations... where I was metaphorically being shaken up.... it seemed that I "rose to the top" of the activity in which I was being shaken... so I kind of looked at myself as cream.... as much as I've been shaken, I have not "turn bad".... I still love, I still care about the people who have been in my life regardless of what they have done or not done to me. So, I am cream.... and I am becoming sweet cream butter.... spreadable... in other words.... adaptable. I feel quite abundant... you know, like as much as people may "take" for granted what I give out... there is still so much of me that I still have left to offer .... I am not spent, I am not running out... I am still me... still 100% sweet cream butter.... go ahead, spread the goodness. :)
Lessons, I have had so many lessons and I am so thankful for all of them. Very valuable ... that is what I am happy about..... I can see the value of each of the events. This is a good thing ... I wish there were some way to bottle up this understanding and peacefulness that comes with awareness. But, that is just it... it IS bottled up.... we just have to go WITHIN to find it. Find the observer... and know the observed. There is the Self.... in both.
be well, better yet... just be.
kmc posted this at: 08:58 p.m.questions/comments?
Tuesday, August 19, 2003
I am feeling much more comfortable with the new responsibilities at work. Only had one dynamically obvious mess up and that was due to a decimal point that didn't make it into the mix of numbers added up.....so, if that is all that I messed up on .... I am pretty happy with that. I will double check my adding next time. :) Easy enough.
Had a wonderful conversation with my sister... she was so supportive and said some very sweet sisterly things that made me smile. Thanks Sis!!! I think I might be on my way to convincing her and her husband to move out here to California!!! Wow, would that be the greatest thing!?!?!! I will keep my fingers crossed and keep them updated with beautiful photos of the beach!!! Anyone locally looking for an Alarm-something safety specialist-kind of person??? That's what Steve does... not certain what it is that he ACTUALLY does as far as duties.... but I could get a resume going! HA!
Today was pretty cool.... as I frequently do when a little less than happy... I went shopping during my lunch hour.... my shoe collection is growing again!! I like SHOES!!! big chunky boots and clogs are my favorites... but I like all shoes really. Bass Outlet in the Atascadero Factory Outlets has a sale on shoes.... AND... low prices on some incredibly cute shoes at that .... 50% off the second pair kind of thing... but LEATHER shoes for less than $30!!! STEAL!!! found this absolutely FABULOUS pair of dressy clog-style shoes for $9.99.... I was sooooo happy ....if they would have had my size in both colors.... I would have bought both!! COME ON... ten bucks for a pair of BASS LEATHER shoes?!?!!! YES!
Okay.... coming down off the 'shoe-shoppin-high'.... now I am at home relaxing and watching (for the umpteen-millionth time) Laura Croft: Tomb Raider. Maybe I should purchase that from Amazon. OH, speaking of purchasing.... I think I have a reserved copy of the Lord of the Ring: Two Towers..... yes, I am a geek.... I love those movies. SciFi.... Fantasy.... all of those kind of things entertain me. I think I have watched Queen of the Damned almost as many times as Laura Croft. Although, I have been repeated told by a BIG FAN of the books that Queen of the Damned is FAR better in the book than what the movie did. So, now I have to go purchase the book to compare. I wish they would do "Memnoch the Devil" in a movie. THAT I would love to see!!! I should be careful what I wish for.... oddly enough strange things that I've wished for have been coming true....
for example: the Cuesta Grade issue. Early on, I had been getting upset at the flashing signs that said, "UPTO 30 MIN DELAYS".... after sitting in traffic a few times I thought to myself (with great annoyance) ... "I wish they would get this sign right; it's more like 45 minutes delay, AT LEAST"..... No more than a few days later.... the signs reflect a new timeline..... "UPTO 45 MIN DELAYS"..... No joking.... I didn't call or email anyone.... I just wished with strong conviction.... it worked....! AND... kinda in that same realm... after getting one wish granted, I was STILL annoyed at the placement of the sign that told of the LONG DELAYS..... it was placed FAR after the one exit that would allow drivers to take a different route to get into San Luis Obispo....via highway 41 through Morro Bay..... so again, in my head as I hit the crawling traffic line.... I think to myself, "If they would just put the sign BEFORE the 41 exit then it would make it a lot easier to decide to take the 41 exit to get home without sitting forever in this traffic." ....AND AGAIN, not more than a week had passed, if that, and there was a new sign placed a good 1/2 to 3/4 mile before the 41 Exit so that people could indeed have time to make a choice to use the alternate route to get to San Luis Obispo instead of using the Cuesta Grade which had been slowing down to a meager 2 miles an hour IF YOU WERE LUCKY. I get what I wish for.... anyone have any wishes they'd like to come true? Send them my way.... we'll see what we can do!!! LOL.
on that note.... I am gonna call it a night and finish my movie!
be well!
kmc posted this at: 10:50 p.m.questions/comments?
Monday, August 18, 2003
The ultimate in rejection: (this is one of many thoughts running through my head from the conversations had) I would rather be with nobody than be in a relationship with you.
Granted, I am told repeatedly that "it has nothing to do with you, it's me." Words that were taken from me... it is the tool used to separate the self from situations; Choices that people make really have nothing to do with the "other person" per se, but rather "it's the self" who is choosing to react or respond. The tool is to make one look at the self. Not really to be used as a "breakup tool" especially when one has never before practiced that ideology. .... okay, wait.... Contradicting myself, but yeah, it could be used it this situation too.... but it is still tacky to do that when one can't find their own words to use to explain why they do what they do.
This is a big venting day for me. I try to explain myself but it seems as though I just keep digging myself deeper and deeper. Try talking to a person who blows things off as easily as lint is brushed off slacks. I was rarely mentioned except to a few friends of his... his family never met me although there were numerous opportunities... we both blog but you will not find a thing at all about me in it.... it's as if he had nothing to say about me... like I didn't really exist with him. Am I taking this too deeply in looking at it this way?
I am fully aware that I do not "need" a person in my life to validate me, but ya know.... it does feel good when people make you feel wanted, appreciated, or acknowledged somehow. I mean, I am not photogenic, so that wasn't a possibility to show me off to people in pictures.... can it really be that shallow of a reason to end a relationship?... okay, the relationship ended because he "didn't have the same feelings for me as I had for him".... I've always believed "that which you put into a relationship or friendship is what will come back around to you".... I am having a little difficulty with that now.
This is, by no means, a "dig" against him... I care deeply for him... that is why this is so difficult. I mean, I can't continue the friendship with him because that is what drew me into the "this is more than a friendship" relationship part. And, to "hang out" with him would be difficult not to still have the intimate feelings there and not act on them. It's like being teased with your favorite dessert or candy.... just dangling there in front of you and when you reach out, it's pulled back with a sharp "whack" reminder that "no... you can NOT have this."
I need therapy! Meditation here I come!
kmc posted this at: 01:55 p.m.questions/comments?
Monday, August 18, 2003
I watched the Discovery Channel last night; they had a program about finding Nefertiti. During the program a few things were brought to my attention that I had not before known.... like... Ankhsenamun and Tutankhamun were the children of Nefertiti. Now, for the fantasy movie fan that I am, the first thing that came to my head was "The Mummy" and "The Mummy Returns".... in which, Ankhsenamun is depicted as the mistress of Nefertiti's father.... eh, I guess it was just "grabbing names" to use in the movie.... all for good effect. I mean ... how cool is it to try to pronounce the name Anhksenamun? Anyway, the program was great because they had basically located the first female pharoah's body which had been displaced from her original burial chamber with her husband. Such a powerful and beautiful woman. And now it seems that she can "move on"... part of me was very touched that this discovery was made... missing pieces to a puzzle, the answer to a riddle, the closure missing for thousands of years. In great thanks to modern science.
Been sleeping awefully last few nights.... I've been dreading pulling myself out of bed in the mornings to get out the door with plenty of time to deal with the possible delays of the Cuesta Grade Construction that is still going on. And there is no set schedule - I try to check out the Cuesta Grade Traffic Update to see what it might be like.... but that doesn't really tell whether or not the traffic is going to be backed up... it depends greatly upon the number of semi-trucks that are in front of you... THAT is what slows the grade down to a crawl. So, on the lucky days that the lanes are closed down to just one and there are no big trucks in the lead... it's pretty normal driving... ... wow, I just realized I have an issue with the drive to work now... hehehe! THIS after having spent a year in Los Angeles and commuting there took an hour to drive 23 miles to work.... hello! I catch myself still... this is far better than commuting in L.A. Just takes me a bit to get my bearings and perspective refocused.
Ah, another day... let's see how it goes.
kmc posted this at: 06:55 a.m.questions/comments?
Sunday, August 17, 2003
Browsing another site, I came across a test/quiz that was a little different than the others... It was fun...here are my results:
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Saturday, August 16, 2003
Funny.... I visited Zoe's site again today... new quiz about herbs.... so this is odd.... I am not sure what Moly is.... but I guess I will go see. :)
YOU ARE MOLY
What herb are you?
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I like what that had to say.... for the day I had that actually sounded positive. I will take it.
kmc posted this at: 07:01 p.m.questions/comments?
Saturday, August 16, 2003
You ever have one of those days where you feel like nothing is going well? I had one of those mornings. I made an ass out of myself and have lost a friend in the process. It was difficult anyway... long story.... and although I have written long posts in the past. It still kinda hurts a bit to write it out. I have this tendancy to isolate myself... and I have done a splendid job of that today. I stayed in bed crying and then crying myself to sleep most of the day. Pathetic, I know. But it will soon pass.... the friend is one of those types who can move on past issues quickly... so I am assuming this won't be a thing for this person to just forget about. I am the one with the attachment to the situation. Me, the person who writes so much about being "unattached" so as not to create my own suffering. I know I will get past it too eventually.... it's just hard to imagine not getting to stay in touch. Of course this is my decision. I made an ass of myself and can't imagine being able to "hang out" without thinking that the other person thinks I am still thinking about the way it was. I am a complicated creature. It is best that I stay to myself.... less likely to complicate anyone's life that way. Maybe I will focus now on meditations MORE and reading more... or.... another likely scenario.... I will work myself to oblivion and forget the Self completely... it numbs me, work does. That way all I do is make enough money to maybe get out ot the debt I am in. If I don't go out spending the money... then I can pay debts. No parties and I won't spend money on gifts or drinks or foods.... live a more disciplined life. If I can control my emotions, then staying to myself will keep me from hurting or complicating other situations around me.
I can always come here and unload. That's what a journal is for, right? To empty what is in the head and re-read it ...trying to make sense of what just spilled out.
I missed the Vinyl Record Day in San Luis Obispo today. I was going to try to make it downtown to see what it was all about. Ah well... maybe next year.
Any words of wisdom from anyone right now would be incredibly helpful..... and greatly appreciated!! I seem to communicate better here in the internet world anyway... maybe... it seems that way right now.
I think I am going to go explode in my private journal. It's nice.... no links to it... no links going out of it... just a page where I dump negativity. It's cool!
Ta!
kmc posted this at: 07:07 p.m.questions/comments?
Friday, August 15, 2003
I had to go onto TAROT.COM and get the exact meaning for the "Fool" Card that described myself from my quiz:
"You inhabit that transitional world between the past and the future.
The card in the Self position reveals aspects of how you perceive yourself right now.
The Fool is associated with circumstances that are unique, unpredictable, inscrutable -- one who is suspended between realities. The Fool is often portrayed as an empty headed simpleton unaware of the forces that move him to and fro, following his impulses. But tradition tells us that this Fool has a secret that protects him: the magic of synchronicity.
He proceeds without calculation, spontaneously, without hesitation or resistance. If you trust in your own mystery and that of Divine Providence, you can step into a new realm of opportunities. For now, trust your instincts. If you have no expectations, you have nothing to lose."
It's not the typical thing that most people associate with the word "fool"... it's a good thing to me!
fun day ahead!
kmc posted this at: 06:21 a.m.questions/comments?
Thursday, August 14, 2003
Which tarot card are you?
I couldn't help it..... I am actually doing quite a few quizzes just for the fun of it.... and the one above just turned out so funny that I had to post it. I agree... I am the Fool. But it is a glorious card!!
I also found out that I am the VIOLET Aura Color..... fun too... helping people, guiding...healing... yeah, and yeah,.... and yeah.... cool!
More stuff later.
kmc posted this at: 08:22 p.m.questions/comments?
Thursday, August 14, 2003
My sister took the emotion test that I have here in my journal and she was also Peace.... so then she forwarded me the link for the Animal Quiz.... so I took it and here I am:
What Is Your Animal Personality?
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Wednesday, August 13, 2003
From Zoe's CosmicVoid I went to The Tenth Muse blog and found a quiz!! now who am I to pass up one of those!!! :D Here it is:
You are Peace.
You are at peace with your self and the world
around you. You have balance in your life and
exude tranquility from every pore of your body.
People are constantly asking you "what is
your secret?"
What Emotion Are You?
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I am the same as The Tenth Muse.... funny thing too.... her name is also Kelly.... hmmm... maybe all Kellys are peaceful??? I like that thought! Well.... another day has passed.... I am actually looking forward to the weekend... but OH SO trying to stay in the "here and now" moment. Challenges.
be well!
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Tuesday, August 12, 2003
I did it! finally..... I got some more PHOTOS uploaded..... only six for today... I can only post that many per day.... so I will try to get more of them uploaded soon..... especially of my visit with my sister when we were at Montana de Oro.
Work has been crazy at Mesa... one of the workers has an opportunity closer to her home, so she is taking it. We are all very happy for her, but we will miss her too. And, until we find a replacement, the office staff has taken on additional tasks to keep the ranches and Payroll functioning until we do hire a new person. It's great to learn something new.... but I feel like I may have been a bit slow for processing .... maybe not.... I will ask tomorrow if everything was fine.
Sitting at the park watching people practice for softball.... there is a child who keeps climbing this little knoll and then running back down it.... sooo cute to watch. Actually quite balanced for running downhill. Didn't crash until the bottom.... still cute. A father and his son are tossing a football around further outside the baseball diamond. The father does okay on the catching while running..... but when it comes to kicking it or throwing it.... well, he needs practice! :) Fun to see the interaction of people.
And now I have to head off to the Vet Clinic..... gonna get caught up on those GL entries if it's the last thing I do!!! LOL... ah, it is looking better though. Hoping that I can get the payroll functioning for QuickBooks sometime soon.... another project!
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Tuesday, August 12, 2003
It's amazing how simple it is to see, yet for those who "have" ... it is so impossible to imagine.
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Amid accumulated millions a man remains poor
If he neither gives nor enjoys his wealth.
Vast wealth can be a wretched curse to one who neither
Gladdens himself in its worth nor gives to the worthy.
-Tirukkural 101:1005-1006
Excerpted from the Tirukkural, translated by Satguru Sivaya Subramuniyaswami. Copyright Himalayan Academy Publications.
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It is so odd how the mind is corrupted and distracted when given this illusion. Everyone wishes for more, but yet quite insatiably are never satisfied, taking them out of the present "here and now" moment.... living in a "hope" of a time when/if they will have more. I don't make as much as I used to .... I don't know how much money will come my way. But I am aware enough to know that it is just an illusion... I am happy with my current situation. I am living safely, securely... and happily. Do I play the lottery.... OF COURSE.... I will still play the games, be a part of the illusion... and if the challenge presents itself by a winning... I will most happily step up to the challenge of sharing my gift with those around me as well. But I do not live only for such a moment. It may never be. But I am... so, I live now.
I like the "wisdom" that is emailed to me.... it trigges thoughts, makes me question myself... truly explore the Self. Lessons. This experiment called human life.
be well... or just be.
;)
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Monday, August 11, 2003
Cleansing directions:
Breathe in deeply...
Breathe out completely...
with the exhale imagine...
Letting go,
Releasing,
Detaching completely.
Move on.
Repeat as necessary.
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Friday, August 8, 2003
Got to love eMode for the fun tests... and boy do they have a lot of them!!
Today I decided to do a funny one.... Astrology Matchmaker - you guessed it... they ask you a variety of questions and presto... here's the sign of the one you are looking for! and my results.....
"Your stars are sending you straight into the arms of an AQUARIUS. As an air sign, your man is a great communicator and an independent thinker. On top of that, he's incredibly popular. You won't be able to resist his inviting personality and altruistic nature. Also ambitious and creative, he tends to be inflexible when it comes to his views. He might shy away from romantic relationships at first, but once you break through that barrier, he's yours! His sign is the water bearer, which means that he gives off a special energy that is received as a gift by others. Your ideal man is a people person, and he genuinely wants everyone to be happy. He's also a progressive intellectual with an analytical edge. So, not only will he provide interesting conversation, he'll make sure you're always smiling! In addition to possessing all of these redeeming qualities, your Aquarius is most commonly known for being the friendliest sign in the zodiac."
Well now..... hmmm.... challenge.
hahahahaha!
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Thursday, August 7, 2003
Did a little bit of cleaning up.... had to archive.... wow, a lot of writing for the month of July! It was a good month! Great to get to see my sister from Texas.
Staying incredibly busy at work... very short work week due to dealing with my car on Tuesday (first day back at work had to take half the day off!) But, good news, car is running fine now. Broken parts replaced, worn and tired parts replaced.... it's happy now. Catching back up on work stacks... both at my 8-5 job and at the Vet Clinic in the evenings.
Anyway, had to make a small presence here.... keep everyone updated on me! Covers a lot of people at one time! hehehe! Back at it now!
Take care of you!
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Monday, August 4, 2003
Monday:
The car decided to bite it again this morning.... made a REALLY bad sound at one point... I had decided to take it to the shop to be worked on anyway, but I didn't realize it would be that early in the morning. So! I had to call the tow company because I was afraid to attempt to start it again. HOWEVER, when the tow truck got to the house.... he took my key to see if he could hear what it was doing..... IT STARTED RIGHT UP AGAIN!!!..... wtf???? ARGH! Okay, so I asked him what the minimum charge was for him to stop by my home.... and it was $35..... okay.... I felt like an idiot for having him come and then the car started right away. So.... he took my credit card to charge for the call.... and then 5 seconds later he returns from his truck with my card saying that he wouldn't charge me.... I was soooo thankful.... he even offered to follow me into San Luis to the auto shop.... but I guess he got a call as he was following me so he took off at an exit for Avila Beach... I made it to the shop just fine.
Erin and I walked then to Budget Cafe. We had brunch and relaxed.... then called Brian to see if he could help get me to the airport to rent a car. I was very happy and grateful that he was available to help. VERY GRATEFUL... I would have had to take a taxi... which would start ticking up the dollar figures for my car going into the shop. I called to find out what the status was for my car.... they can't seem to duplicate the problem.... (no surprise there).... and they don't seem to see any issues with it being a starter problem.... signs are pointing towards the battery..... that may be the culprit!
Well, I dropped Erin off at the airport .... it was cute because there was this group of children getting a "field trip" of the airport. The questions they asked were adorable... and the stories. It was great to see them... the young minds... and the caring teachers. The airport started calling out for the passengers to head through the security gates... so we went and stood in line for a while and then I noticed that at a certain point it was only passengers and authorized personnel. I said my good-bye and left.... didn't cry until I was out of the airport doors.... didn't think I was going to cry....but I really am going to miss having my sister around. It was such an incredibly fun vacation. I am sooooo happy that she was able to make the vacation as well. Next year or so is my turn to go to Dallas. :)
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Sunday, August 3, 2003
Sunday:
Dealing with the car early in the morning..... thought I was going to have to go rent a car for the entire day, so I had a friend come over to pick us up and take us to the airport to rent a car there. Well, before I took off, I wanted to get some things out of the car to take with us. I took my keys out to unlock the car.... and just for the hell of it I decided to try to start the car..... and of course, it started.... go figure! First try... sounded fine.... so I sent my friend home.... with a promise of lunch or something later...
With the car running, I was then able to take Erin to another one of my favorite spots... the Halcyon Store. We had a nice visit there and picked up a book or two as souveniers as well. The Rainbow Bridge by Kerry and Tom Nechodom.... and a small publication about some even in Arroyo Grande in the 1800's.... she and her husband like those kind of things.
After Halcyon, we went to visit Heidi at the vet clinic... since she was working on Sunday I thought it would be great to show Erin where I worked on Sundays and introduce her to my closest friend on the Central Coast. Two birds theory. I was very happy to have them meet each other! Heidi and her family are like my family in this area..... they have been a very big help to me and I wanted Erin to meet her while she was here!
Lunch time! As promised, I picked up Brian to do lunch with us. We hit the Margie's Diner.... they feed you so much food with whatever you order!! It was great. The conversations seemed to be non-stop laughter! It was like having a workout on your abs while eating! Absolutely wonderful! I had so much fun!!!
After lunch Erin and I tried to find another tattoo shop in San Luis.... come to find out, the only two shops that were in San Luis were no longer operating. Bummer. Ah well, back to the beaches to get more pictures for Erin to take home. I decided to go to Avila Beach on my way back into Pismo Beach. She was able to get some great pictures of the boats at the Port. Beautiful day! There were some seals at Port San Luis, so of course she HAD to get pictures! There are so many things that I take for granted that she has never seen before in "real life".... hummingbirds.... that was another thing she had never seen in real life.... sure pictures are cool and everything.... but there is nothing like seeing them in action.... (there were two out at the vet clinic that she was able to see.... one even perched in a tree.... a still hummingbird!)...
Next beach.... Shell Beach .... again.... you can never get too much of Shell Beach! She took a few shots at the park there and then we headed on into Pismo Beach. Parking was crazy! I made one round and then came back around and happen to catch a great spot.... so we parked and walked out to the very end of the Pismo Beach Pier. Perfect timing.... there was an otter eating... it was great.... I think she took 10 or 15 shots of the otter alone!!! :) It would pop up with it's rock and an oyster or musscle and crack it open and eat it... then sit up for a brief moment and "bloope" back in under the water to fetch some more! :) it was cute.... we watched for a good 15 minutes or so. The breeze was pretty strong and cool.... so we walked back to the car and stopped at the other tattoo shop in Pismo Beach, the Tiger Rose. They had A LOT of artwork to look at. So we found another idea that we would like to do since we both like tattoos... there are chinese letters for "sisters" that we were very interested in getting. I think that may be the next one. Just a simple tattoo. And then working on my original one's artwork over the next year or so... and then deciding where I want to place it.
Back home... we had a "Rush Hour" and "Rush Hour II" back to back movie night! It was great!! Erin had not seen the second one.... so she was loving it!!!
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Saturday, August 2, 2003
Saturday:
Well, it started out okay.... breakfast, shower, ready to head out and have some fun!!!! ..... and then trying to start the car.... it decided to have a really bad morning of not turning over.... my landlord tried to help... nothing.... so I called a "mobile repair" place.... I was given a window between 4 and 6 PM.... DUDE.... what??? ARGH! Okay... I thought that would be fine, we will just walk around Pismo Beach... we were going to do a walk in Pismo anyway.... just changed the schedule to Saturday.... instantly! Turned out to be a BEAUTIFULLY warm day in Pismo! The shops were full of people ... we hit the "touristy" spots to pick up souveniers for her family.... that was the fun stuff.... I could have just kept on going! We stopped in at a new shop (well, new to me.. I hadn't noticed that Pismo got a pet shot).... it was sooooo much fun!! The kittens and puppies were absolutely adorable!! We both love baby animals... as we put it.... "Their so cute, you could just squish 'em".... explanation: "Squish 'em" translates to "hug them for hours and hours."
We stopped at a tattoo shop to look at some artwork for some more ideas... we both are looking for some egyptian artwork ... scarabs to be exact. We found some nice stuff at the "Mothership" in Pismo... I still think I am going to do my own artwork and get it done later. Still a big fan of Paul Hughes. I will more than likely have him do the next piece.
And then... after another long day of walking.... our feet were screaming at us to get back home! so we did... and had a nice relaxing evening.
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Friday August 1, 2003
Friday!! Our first event for the day was a massage by my very dear friend Cathryn. We each received a half an hour massage... much needed for me!!! :) I am always so very thankful when I can get a massage from her! Erin enjoyed her massage as well; this was her first massage she had ever received. So I was very happy that Cathryn was the one who performed her first massage. She is a great therapist!!
Now, I couldn't remember if I had told Peggy at the Health & Harmony and A Mother's Massage that I was on vacation, so I had just planned to go in and work while Erin explored Pismo Beach... well, Peggy came in to the waiting area while Erin was getting her massage and insisted that I not worry about working on Saturday. Her first priority is always family! I thought that was very kind of her to do that for me! GREAT NEWS! So after the massages we headed out to my work... I wanted to show her what I did and where I worked. I am very pleased with the environment in which I get to work. It is an extremely beautiful office. I also was able to introduce her to a few of my co-workers and a supervisor as well.
We had lunch in Templeton at the Templeton Market and Deli... one of my regular lunch spots! It was good... they forgot the avocado and mustard on my sandwich. :( Not cool. Ah, well.... we ate at the park which was lovely!
Shopping! We had to hit a place to pick up a pair of walking shoes.... flip-flops just weren't going to cut it for the next step in the plan for the day. So we went to Ross.... love that place for inexpensive shoes.... and t-shirts! So we did what most women love to do..... SHOP!
And then..... it was off to THE FAIR!!! We walked around for quite a while through all the market stuff.... picked up a licence plate frame... it was something fun and silly to do!! Also got Erin a ring ... natural stones.... it's fun to shop for her and rings because she likes the same style that I do. After walking around for what seemed like a REALLY long time... we stopped in an area of the fair that had previews for some event coming up sponsored by "GOT MILK?".... skateboarders, vert-bike riders, a flat-land bike performer, and a vert-inline skater. I tried to get a few pictures of the performers and their acts. Loved it!!
And then back down the hill (aka the Cuesta Grade)... back home just in time to see the most beautiful sunset in Shell Beach. There was a storm out on the ocean and the pink and orange sunset was going off behind it... so we stopped to take pictures!! Gorgeous!!
Since I was in Shell Beach, I decided to stop by another friend's house and say hi.... introduce Erin and see my kitty, Mukai.... she is doing well; always happy to hear that. She is such a sweet thing! I am glad she was able to stay in her "home environment".... Anyway.... short visit... and then off to the house. Another long day and vegged in front of the TV for about an hour and then hit the pillow hard.
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Thursday, July 31, 2003
Thursday was great! I went to the small SLO Airport to pick Erin up in the morning. First thing we did was grocery shopping! :) Figured it would be easier to pick up a few things when she got there. Headed home to drop off everything and chat a bit.... we got into the paperwork again from the adoption proceedings that she went through as a child. We reviewed some of the things that described our mother.... very odd to go back in time that way! We had a few laughs at some of the observations... therapeutic, I guess.
I wanted to introduce her to friends, so that was the next step.... sat and visited for a while. And then lunch at Cugini's - always good food!! After that we headed to a great little store in Los Osos... Volumes of Pleasure. A metaphysical items and bookstore. I have grown very fond of this store. It's a must visit for any friends who are interested in the same types of things that I am. AND, my sister is very much so into the same things that I am. It was a great visit!
After the bookstore we headed out to Montana de Oro to walk out onto the rocks a bit. Took a lot of pictures.... I will try to get those up as soon as possible... I only get to post 6 pictures a day, so it will be a few days (maybe weeks) before I get the whole group of pictures that I want up.
After the ocean visit, we meandered back into SLO for the Farmers Market! They had tuber roses for sale.... they were soooo incredibly fragrant! We wondered around a while more visiting shops as well as the street vendors. We also decided to go to Starbuck in the downtown center after walking around a bit... we rested there a while and were people watching! fun!
A long day for Erin, so we headed back home to relax and have more conversations. And then an early bed time... to prepare for the next day!
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