Tuesday, August 30, 2005
kmc posted this at: 05:05 p.m.GRAND OPENING...
Well, I've got the new message board up and buzzing. I've opted to do a couple weeks of "doors wide open"... to let people take a look at the insides. Then if they'd like to stay, they can ... if not, they can meander on. I will eventually close it back up to a Membership By Approval again. You still have to have an ezBoard registration in order to post on the board... so that still hasn't changed. I've tried getting some really cute emoticons to help people express themselves in the posts.
I am always open to any advice or ideas for the look or features of the board too.
More S'mores later!
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Monday, August 29, 2005
kmc posted this at: 09:55 a.m.MENTAL workers...
Governmental workers... should accent the "mental" part of that. I had to call for an interview regarding my experience with a past acquaintance. This was such a worthless call. Basically he gave me this schpedeegle about the whole situation and that "they" were given information that I knew this person on a close level. So, upon telling them "Yes, I knew this person but I wasn't privy to the personal financial situations; just friends." Funny, too, because he wasn't pleased with that answer so he presses further that he is certain that I knew more than I was letting on. I asked him how he was so certain and he informed me that "another person interviewed had given us information regarding your relationship and knowings to the person." Okay, so another human being is saying that I can be pressed for an answer that they are seeking.... hmmm. So, I asked them directly... "why are you so adamant about getting something from me?" Turns out.... when the government doesn't get their money in the way they want it... they go to all ends to find a way to get it. (that's my summary of the whole sprattle that he rattled on.) It amazes me how much the government wastes in payroll dollars to reclaim dollars that they believe to be "theirs"... seriously, though... I think this guy's title needs to be changed to "Mentally Govern" worker... cuz that's what it felt like to talk with him. ICK! I need to go take an energetic shower now to clean my aura!!! Good thing I use Dove soap... will make things more peaceful!! I am so glad that this is over because this ends an episode in my life... I can let go with peace of mind and knowing that I am a decent citizen of this governed society. hehehe!
Okay... nuff said. My day is getting better already!
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Wednesday, August 24, 2005
kmc posted this at: 11:22 p.m.Created My Own Community...
Well... the negative energy consumed the other board where I used to go participate in ... and oddly enough.... I was the one who's membership was ended; this after having donated to support the board... ah well.... lessons learned.
TRUE SPIRITUALITY is my latest endeavor... I am giving this a pretty good "go at it" and we shall see how it grows. Now, if you click on this link here... you will be brought to a window that asks you to apply to become member of the community board.... this is a safety measure for my idea of having a safe place to express oneself. Looking forward to this new endeavor to take off.
Everything happens for a reason and I choose to see the positive in recent events ... and this is truly a positive avenue... more creative opportunities for me to learn and a new "community" to develop. This should be a great deal of fun!
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Wednesday, August 24, 2005
kmc posted this at: 04:04 p.m.The Malicious Things People Say...
"Honestly, regarding the ordination I have no respect for it. You were ordained on the internet. Any freak can do that. Not like you studied for years and years like true "ministers" do. Knowing how anti-church you are, I am shocked you even did it, quite honestly."
This was the ending to an email that I received.... heart-breaking. Normally I've felt the "stabs in the back" (etherically speaking)... but THIS was a blatantly direct hit straight into the heart... not from the back - but in my face - to the heart.
Now, logically I know that people attack others to make themselves feel more powerful than the one they are attacking. I realize this fact. However, it still pains me that someone I perceived to be a friend in the past has turned such a vile tongue towards me.
The odd thing that I noticed about this incident as well as the other incident earlier this week.... they were both Pisces women. Coincidence? I think not... more likely a message. But a message of what? What good ever comes from attacking someone?
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Thursday, August 18, 2005
kmc posted this at: 08:57 a.m.Truth Exposes Itself to You
I've come to find out that.... you can tell who your REAL friends are (or in my case this morning; ARE NOT) by overheard conversations. I know I am sensitive this morning.... BUT... to hear a conversation about my hair when I already had a hard time leaving the house this morning because I wanted to start ALL OVER again.... it just really hurt like hell to hear it. I already knew that one of the person's involved doesn't like me .... but it was the other person that I *thought* was a friend. I guess I was wrong.... because I am the type that would have stood up for my friend, no matter how well or how little I know them.... I just don't see the point in "making fun" of people behind their backs....
The funny thing about this is.... WAY back when I attempted a friendship with the one person who instigated today's conversation.... she had told me about something someone said to her, "Women can be really catty when they are intimidated by other women."
Frustrating way to start a Thursday.
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Wednesday, August 17, 2005
kmc posted this at: 07:47 p.m.Exposing Your Soul...
I can't say that I do this without fear; but... I am who I am. period. More often than not, I am more than happy to let people see the absoulute me. I no longer see the point in covering or "protecting" my essence... I am proud of who I am; not in a conceited way... but rather in an "OH... I get it now" kind of way. That epiphany of Love. Words can hardly describe the feeling that I get when I know I've connected with someone on that level, too. It's rare, but once in a while... there is a person who sees past the physical, even through the ethereal... to that Soul Level. Not many are comfortable to keep looking at that... and it is challenging to stay at such a heightened state of awareness. If I were to describe enlightenment, it would have to be this "knowing" ... without having to have been "schooled" by anything... that bliss that occurs just because intuitively you feel what brought you to the Present Moment Awareness is ... YOU.... the True Self, the Ultimate Soul, the Source, Love... gentley it has set you here to experience everything you are not... and by negating the Self... you are then left only with that which IS. Exposing the Soul means tearing off man-made labels, washing off the scuffs and scrapes the human body has acquired, removing the veil of doubts... once the temporal is burnt off... what are you left with? Truth... AbSOULute Truth. Are you prepared to See With Soul Eyes?
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Wednesday, August 10, 2005
kmc posted this at: 08:41 a.m.Short Term Memory Glitch...
You ever have one of those mornings where you get to work and wonder.... "Did I put deodorant under both arms?"
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Monday, August 8, 2005
kmc posted this at: 09:29 p.m.What Kind of American English Do I Speak???
Browsing on Flikr... I came across The Occasional Occasion.... read a while there and wouldn't ya know.... I found a quizzie to take!!! HA! Okay... so here it is:
Your Linguistic Profile:
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35% Yankee | |
15% Dixie | |
5% Upper Midwestern | |
0% Midwestern |
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Saturday, August 6, 2005
kmc posted this at: 10:01 p.m.Beaming Baywood Memories...
I've been browsing through some of my sunset images... I can say that this one has been my most favorite shot to date. There is just something incredibly soothing about sitting in front of this ... live, of course, is the best.... but they go away.... extraordinarily temporal. Capturing this moment is something I enjoy sharing with others. Thus, my love for digital photography now. I used to shoot film, but I would take SO long to get it developed and would be disappointed at images for something I could have simply changed or shot a second time with a minor adjustment. I feel so spoiled now! And... I am dreaming bigger and better cameras again already.... I really do want to look into a camera that I can get different lenses for different circumstances. Macro... fish eye... telephoto... I am looking to capture the sweat off the brow of the busy bees pollenating the flowers!!! So, I hold that as an affirmation of eventual truth... I will get all of the equipment that I desire when the time is right... or when I am truly ready to utilize them. I sitll want to pursue getting my images sold or displayed in a gallery. I have ideas still. But something in me keeps holding me back... what could it be? Self-doubt? or fear of Success? Still trying to find the focus of my path and how my photography can be incorporaed with that. I love my photography... but I know I have a life purpose that is drawing me in specific directions... I think I can keep my creative passion/hobby along with my life purpose... who knows... they could very well work together as a positive benefit.
What a gentle weekend so far... I am re-watching (dvd run) a favorite series... and sitting at my computer playing on one of my favorite sites... and I stayed in PJs all day today!!!! wooohoooo! It's been a nice, sorta-recharging day... doing nothing... is kinda nice. I will get out and about tomorrow.... do a coffee run in the morning... meander out to the beach, maybe.... do some paper journaling.... find the sunshine.... and MAYBE.... go for a hike... which ... camera will capture many images! So tomorrow is going to be spontaneous.... first feat is getting me out of the house; that's what I am hoping the coffee shop visit in the morning will do... it's easy for me to sit there and journal while I drink my coffee.
I've steered clear of the north county right now... I just have not had the desire to go to the Mid-State Fair just yet... or maybe... just not alone. Friends mentioned possibly going there tomorrow... maybe that will be a spontaneous item for tomorrow. We shall see.
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Wednesday, August 3, 2005
kmc posted this at: 06:36 p.m.New Paths...
I took a different route home this evening... Turri Road... well, in conjunction with other roads... but, a new piece to the route... any way... I love it... it's "out there"... backroads. It was a bit slower than the otehr route but well worth the drive. I would have to say this will be a "unwind route" from this point forward. Ya know, you have those kind of days that just get you so wound up that you NEED something to undo the damage... this road, albeit only 9 minutes long, is great for me to accomplish that.
Well, I have a good feeling that the roommate situation is going well. I've found an interested party... but I still need to get the absolute confirmation... like the deposit. AND, then there is the issue about taking over all of the utilities so that I am not treating one roommate one way and another roommate another way. The politics is a juggling/balancing act. But I have a good feeling about it... things always work out for the best of all people involved.
I feel I need to take that vacation up north sometime very soon. As much as I would love to travel out to see my sisters on the east coast... I really feel that I need to recharge my Self. Facing challenges and giving of myself to those who've been a bit ungrateful has been draining. I know that can only serve others if I, myself, am well enough spiritually by myself. I hold much in the saying that "You can't love others until you learn to love yourself first." So, if I neglect my own spiritual needs then what good am I to other people ... I may as well be babbling... and believe me, I do enough of that already.... I'd like to have a good grounded soul to do my work.
I know that I've neglected my writings... both here and in my paper journals as well. I've taken a break from reading, but I should get myself back up into that.... I makes me feel better when I do. And I do have plenty of great books to finish reading. So many important views to explore... taking it all in... learning. I enjoy learning. And... what I am able to learn... I should be able to share or utilize in my care for others.
My brain is on overactive mode... I am still searching for that "OFF" switch... although I do need to unload the thoughts that are in my head so that I can possibly organize them, make sense of them, get rid of some of them... So, I guess this is one spot to start doing that again. I need to remember my path choice... and keep on it... stand firm regardless of what others may think of me in this physical realm... this is a test... to see past the illusions... to "not take it personally"... as challenging as that may be. I know that I have encountered certain people in this life for a specific reason; and I need to stand firm in those beliefs, follow my heart, and do what I believe I am meant to do for the encounter. My thoughts pull in and out like they are not wanting to come out... and then other thoughts pour out somewhat incessantly... I guess, if you get rid of the trivial things, then the core issues are left and more easy to handle.
Well... this is enough for now... I need to analyze this later. Wish me luck!
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Tuesday, August 2, 2005
kmc posted this at: 07:47 p.m.Other People! ... I am
I am of the "Other People". I feel more comfortable now....
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Thursday, July 28, 2005
kmc posted this at: 09:19 p.m.My How Time Does Fly....
July seems to have zoomed by... I feel like I've kinda zombied on my writing; I've browsed back through some of my older posts... I had some profound stuff for a while. I am not sure how these ebbs and flows occur... I look at myself and how I am interacting with others... maybe the words that I've been saying to others has been the equivalent to what I would normally write in my journals. Are my words being recorded... just in a different way...? Could be? I like being able to go back over my thoughts sometimes... but to ask someone to reiterate what you've said to them.... probably not good. That's like asking for a translation of your own thoughts from a stranger... "Here, take my words... chew them over... and tell me what they mean to you..." Hmmm....
Okay... now for the breakdown on the "haps"..... Oy! - I am looking for a roommate; thought I had someone, but that didn't seem to work.... so now I have the word out again.... *deep inhale* .... aaaaaaaannnd *exhale*..... this willl work out. If you happen to live in the Morro Bay area and are looking.... let me know.... I'll give ya the skinny on the digs. Don't want to go into to much detail there.... I have the word out... good enough for now.
I need to get a recharge on the spiritual level.... meditations have been focused recently on sending positive energy to others.... I need a battery recharge! One of the things that I love about living right next to the ocean, it's a great place to recharge... I just have to do it.... make that sacred walk to a quiet spot and let nature take it's course.
More later...
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Wednesday, July 13, 2005
kmc posted this at: 07:45 p.m.Baby Bird...
Yesterday was unusually difficult for me... I happened to come across a baby bird that had been displaced from the nest prematurely, by what means... I do not know. But, I couldn't just leave it there on the ground, so I put together a box of tissue and ecualyptus leaves for the baby to make it comfortable... I called my friend to ask her what to do with the baby bird since she worked at a vet clinic, I thought she would know what best to do. She informed me that there is a store in the Marigold Shopping Center that actually takes in rescue situations like this... my heart was happy. I took the baby bird into my office with me; figuring that since I was leaving early from work anyway that I would just shave an extra 1/2 an hour and swing by the store and drop the baby bird off to be taken care of. As I was sitting at my desk, I kept it within viewing so that I could monitor it's situation... it had a bit of labored breathing which I attributed to the fall... it was probably scared. It would fuss a bit and change a position ever so slightly and then settle in and cuddle in the tissue again. At one point, the baby bird started breathing very rapidly and it looked as though it was trying to chirp... I got very concerned and went to tell my supervisor that I was leaving earlier than expected... I logged off my computer and then walked over to the time clock to swipe my timecard. Quickly getting back to my desk, I pick up my purse and look down at the make-shift nest to assess the baby bird.... MY HEART SHATTERED... the baby bird had stopped moving... and stopped breathing.... it had passed on in THAT short of an amount of time. I had known the baby bird but for an hour.... but in that short amount of time I had given it my heart... I had given it all hopes of living and being well... even now as I type this I get teary and feel very heavy in the chest... I try figuring out the "why?" aspect here.... normally I had been staying in my car during lunch; writing in my journal; listening to music; etc... but that day I was compelled to get out of the car and take pictures.... I had captured images of a Momma Duck and her baby in the SLO Creek... just adorable... that's when I heard a rustling in the leaves... why me? I couldn't just leave it there.... I wanted it to live... I gave it all the hope I had... I envisioned it being set free once it was old enough... why me? I still hurt.... I don't completely understand what the full message from this experience is just yet... I know that it validates my sensitive side... but ... c'mon... that was no surprise.
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Sunday, July 3, 2005
kmc posted this at: 09:44 p.m.Ready for July...
I haven't written much over the past two months. It's not that there has been a whole lot going on though. I've not written much in my paper journals either... silent days, I guess.
I had a lovely weekend off... meandered around today... got a haircut, picked up pies for tomorrow's luncheon, ran out to the Halcyon Store to look around, and then finally did a bit of grocery shopping, for some odd reason I've grown to dislike grocery shopping.
I have ideas for my photography and slowly getting myself "out there" as an artist. I still feel as though I have huge obstacles within that I have to conquer in order to really get this into fruition. But, I figured if I started making things happen on the outside... well, then the inside would have to follow suit. It's something that I heard a while back about horse riding..."when you adjust one area of your seating position, the other areas auto correct or fix themselves." I am going to make an active effort to get my artwork out there... for all to see... all mediums of my artwork... not just the photography.
New dilemas have come up... but I am sure things will work out for the best - they always seem to do so. I will keep a positive perspective during the whole occurance. I will see it through.
That's basically it for today... I will make an effort to post more... keep ya updated.
Until later...
be well.
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Wednesday, June 29, 2005
kmc posted this at: 07:47 a.m.WARNING...
| UCAUTION | | IN THE INTEREST OF SAFETY IT IS ADVISABLE TO KEEP MSCAPRIKELL AWAY FROM FIRE AND FLAMES. |
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