Friday, December 30, 2005
kmc posted this at: 09:36 a.m.POGO!!!
Is this NOT the cutest picture ever?!?! Oh my goodness... I couldn't stand it! And those puppy teefers peaking out too... puppy is just "smoooshibly" cute!
This picture also reminds me of the game that my friend's son picked up yesterday... Nintendogs. OH... MY... WOW... addicting! You get to buy puppies and play with them on the NintendoDS... I feel like such a kid because I was instantly in "I wanna get that toooooo!"-mode. Thing is... ya have to buy the NintendoDS ... that runs about the price of a small camera in my realm. Justifying that would be hard. Which was cute because, then, my friend's son instantly offered to have everyone go in on this for my birthday... WHAT A SWEETHEART! Kids truly are the cutest when they come up with ideas or statements straight from the heart!
Well... If I don't post before the New Year.... All of you wonderful blog-browsers have a SPECTACULAR, FUN-FILLED New Year celebration and remember... as you are venturing into the 2006 year... Be what you are... Love what you are... and be willing to see that in everyone you meet!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
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Wednesday, December 28, 2005
kmc posted this at: 11:11 a.m.A QUIZZIE!!!!
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Wednesday, December 28, 2005
kmc posted this at: 7:23 a.m.ACKNOWLEDGING my SECRET SANTA...
HAD to get a quick post in this morning to say thank you to my Secret Santa! THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU! I received one of the series that I am collecting of the OSHO - Insights for a New Way of Living Series, this one's title is "Intelligence: The Creative Response to Now" ... I am SO looking foward to reading this one! Another book to incorporate into my reading list. It will, more than likely, get bumped up to the top.... it's a fairly thin book, so I can read it in one sitting probably. Now watch this be one of those books that is so incredibly deep that it takes me a week to read, contemplate, absorb and incorporate into my life. Expectations... lol....
Thank you, Thank you, Thank you, Lisa!!!
AND, on that same train of thought.... I am wondering if my recipient of the Secret Santa got her gifts.... I've tried to keep checking in on her blog to see if she mentions it... of course, silly person that I am... I forgot to mark it as "Secret Santa"... I just signed it as "mscaprikell".... I guess I can email her later this week.
Okay.... off to work, I go...
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Tuesday, December 27, 2005
kmc posted this at: 12:11 p.m.Planting Zaadz!!!
I'm in love... with a new site...
ZAADZ!!!!
Okay... if you haven't already been there... GO NOW - What are you waiting for?!?!?! Sign Up! It's a place that feels like a "me" spot... somewhere that like-minded individuals are gathering to make a significant, loving difference in the world. I love the business plan and the goals that this company has! Talk about the "greater good for ALL involved"... a mantra that many of you have heard me say time and time again... well, this place just beams with this kind of loving goodness! I am quite excited (as if you couldn't tell!) because it isn't just a social network - it's a heartbeat! If I get a little slow on my posts here... just check in at the MsCapriKell@Zaadz blog. I will be posting stuff there as well... and hopefully making connections that help inspire me, help "fire" me up, and help confirm the path that I am currently taking... I am sure this is going to be a great and positive experience in my life... and it's a website... whooda-thunk-it?! Well, I am glad these guys did...
Dancing around with a big smile on my face today... planting zaadz.
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Tuesday, December 20, 2005
kmc posted this at: 12:04 p.m.New York...My Heart Goes Out to You...
I posted on another news thread my full feelings about what is going on in New York right now with the TWU strike... I tell you... it seriously grates on my nerves like you would not believe!!! The people are paid and paid WELL... and now they are pissing over the cost of health benefits... welcome to my world... I also pay a pretty penny for my health insurance... what makes them any different? They have a ton of benefits that most of us would never dream of having... and they piss about "disrespect"... well, how about earning it? It's like a rich kid complaining about the allowance they get... WAH! And now look at what has happened... the millions of other people are now suffering during the holiday season due to greed and self-serving bureaucrats. The politics of "unions" really annoys me... "for the people"... right. Look at the number of people now suffering... "Happy Holidays" ... at what cost?
Look at the hospitals now that do not have full or normal or scheduled staff that they NEED. Look at the other welfare facilities that help desolate people at this time of year. And look at the people who are pointing the fingers "We (TWU) did not want a strike. Evidently the MTA, governor and the Mayor did." How childish?!!
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Tuesday, December 13, 2005
kmc posted this at: 12:05 p.m.Drink???
 You're a Glass of Wine!
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Tuesday, December 13, 2005
kmc posted this at: 07:32 a.m.All Players Can Win... it's a WIN-WIN Solution...
"As we move from poverty to affluence, politics changes from what Mathematicians call a zero-sum game into a non-zero sum game. In the first, if one player wins another must lose. In the second, all players can win. Finding non-zero sum solutions to our social problems requires all the imagination we can muster." -Alvin Toffler
This paragraph, when I initially read it, instantly applied to so many aspects in my life...
- work: what the company here does at a gestalt level... I think this concept could bring a new level to what they do here...
- personal home: what with the recent situation; I feel that it was most definitely a WIN-WIN situation for all... regardless of the emotional outbursts.
- personal friendships: this is an ideal concept for friendships... how to bring it into fruition... well, that's another goal.
- personal romantic: again... it's an ideal... but it is such a strong view to have when looking for a romantic partner... finding an equality or balance to engage each other... a feeling that both are "winning" in the game of relationships.
What is your ideal Utopia? ... think about it.
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Monday, December 12, 2005
kmc posted this at: 12:12 p.m.An Arrival of Another Week...
The weekend almost feel as if it was a dream... it flew by so quickly.
Friday evening consisted of hanging out with a some friends and work acquaintances in downtown SLO and getting to see "The Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, The Witch, and The Wardrobe" movie. And, my analysis: ABSOLUTELY fabulous! They did a very good job following the story line and incredible job on the magical aspects of the book... talking animals, spirits in the wind, etc... it was brilliant... and I do plan on seeing it again very soon!
Saturday was an "up-and-at-it" kind of day... as soon as we could, Heidi and I headed out to attempt to get more shopping done for the Holiday presents. We did pretty well... then it was back to the house... hide what you had to... and plan on wrapping later. From one busy task to another meeting... I went to Village Host for a belated "Goodbye/Good Luck" lunch for a co-worker who had previously left... that went very nicely... except for the fact that there were supposed to be a few more people show up... but that's okay... I was the spokes-person for the group, I guess. It was nice to catch up on all the goings-ons and have a chance to chat and see a different perspective of person. I would say it was a very positive experience all the way around... made me happy I planned the event - regardless of how many turned out for it. All is well. From the lunch... it was a couple more shopping stops... and then... FINALLY.... back home.
Sunday was another early morning... early for me is waking up and starting the coffee drinks at the same time I would during the work-week... 6:30ish AM ... but it was a relaxing morning to slowly get the motor going and then.... Wooossshhh... off to Costco for a bit more shopping... WOW... I love that place, but I could easily spend my entire paycheck in every visit! Dangerous! I still plan on getting my membership updated and paid... gas prices alone will be a great savings incentive for me! *Don't even ask why I haven't done it yet... I know, I know...* So... while at Costco, I finally get this buzz on my cell phone letting me know I have a message... promptly calling it (since I have no service at the house for some bizarre reason... )... I find out that the person with whom I had intended to attend the Nutcracker was canceling due to her workload... busy times, I understand... but panic sets in... WHO can I contact on such short notice to attend the ballet with me? I placed quite a few phone calls about town to see if anyone was available and all I got was voicemails... ah well... it was worth a shot... and... this brings up a good point... always have a backup person who is great at spontaneous, last minute requests... But then I thought about that... how would that feel to be the "second-choice" person, or the "stand-by"... "just-in-case"... I don't think I could do that to someone... anyone... Second plan then... get it written in blood! hehehe! Ah well... I still attended the ballet and had a WONDERFUL time... the Civic Ballet of San Luis Obispo put on a spectacular performance... not only do they have extraordinarily talented ballet dancers, they are also very good actors who brought the story-line of the Nutcracker vividly to life in such an artistic and elequent way! Grace and beauty were abundant on stage! Kudos to the entire "Company" and staff that it took to put this performance on stage!!
Overall... this weekend was so fully scheduled that I don't feel like it was real... I was going, going, going... and now, today, I feel like work is almost a restful spot... but only for a short while... much to do!
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Thursday, December 8, 2005
kmc posted this at: 12:45 p.m.Rejecting Gifts... ???
Sitting at work today and I get a piece of mail; not a normal thing for me due to the position in which I work. So I open, extremely curious.... to find a Christmas card AND the Borders Gift Card opened but returned to me with this letter:
"Kelly,
I am returning your Christmas card and gift. Please discontinue all further communication to me or to the house. I have no interest in ongoing relations with you. The opportunity to remedy this situation with me has past. I understand your need for closure, if that is what this is about, so you may consider this letter your closure. All future correspondences will go unanswered.
signature"
Now, what is it about people and returning gifts to me? (previous experience with yet another drama queen) Do I draw the most bizarre people into my life or what???
Firstly, I was not wanting an "ongoing relation" with her... just wanting to show that there were no hard feelings for the way that she treated me. My way of letting her know that I forgive and move on. I am not that naive that I would think that anything further could continue with her... the friendship was never truly there if she is so easily swayed from it and would leave it so abruptly. I get that I was naive enough to believe that she was my friend; because that was what I was offering her - friendship. But, with room-mating with a friend... you find out things you'd rather NEVER know about them. So, that facade of friendship fell through, but that doesn't mean I am going to be an awful person towards her just because of differences...people move on in a mature way all the time. So, I sent the card and gift as a way to be kind in the midst of the "house negativity" and let her know that I will always care about how she is doing and as my card stated, "wishing the best always" to her regardless.
RETURNED... the ultimate slap in the face, the ultimate proof of character... I mean, really!!! Who really does that??? I guess that Sagittarian lesson was DEAD ON... people are not what they seem to be. And it is amazing when someone isn't even capable of accepting a gift and just moving on. Go ahead; hold the resentment... let it fester inside... I did what I felt was right and kind... and that is all I am capable of doing... my own actions, my own choices, my judgment of what is kind. I can't even imagine what would have happened if I took another friend's advice and invited them all to dinner (them being "the house" that was referenced).
I gladly move away from such life draining situations and look forward to the rekindling of my self-worth and what I know I truly deserve in my life... people who don't reject the gifts I give... physical or not.
Referring back to that post a few days or so ago... "Children will be children and act in childish ways" ... growing up is a part of life.
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Friday, December 2, 2005
kmc posted this at: 12:37 p.m.A Sagittarian Lesson...
"...people are not always what they appear to be."
Looking in the nighttime sky, we often perceive Jupiter as the brightest planet because it is the largest. Yet despite its massive appearance and vivid colors, the greatest part of its mass is gas.
As Jupiter is the controlling planet of Sagittarius, which we have just entered, this teaches us a huge lesson, not only about those born under this sign but about all of us this month.
The lesson here is that people are not always what they appear to be.
If you know any Sagittarians, you'll usually find them charming, charismatic people. Fun to be around. But if you really get to know them, you'll often find that they are riddled with guilt and low self-image. The image they project and who they really are don't match up.
We all have a mask we put on that shows us as the person we wish we were. Just look at the people in your life. What do you really know about them, even the ones you are closest to? Do really know what makes them tick? Chances are, you know only what they let you see.
Kabbalah teaches that when you are not honest with others - and not honest with yourself - you create separation. This goes against your mission here on earth, which is to become one again with other souls, just as you were in the Endless. This is why it feels so good to have a close friend or lover - because your soul craves this oneness.
And this is why when you share your pure thoughts and are willing to say the uncomfortable truths, you feel peaceful and grounded.
An important lesson to remember this month is that if you truly care about a person, you should do anything in your power to be open and honest with them. As the kabbalists say: Love without unity isn't love, and unity without love isn't unity.
Whereas some months we are at risk of building more interpersonal walls because of the energy, this month the universe is helping us destroy walls. So if you have the opportunity to be honest, don't miss it. If you are thinking of telling a lie to save someone's feelings - or to save face - ask yourself: "Who does this lie serve?"
This month is one of the most positive of the year. You don't have any aspect of conflict or pressure of the zodiac compelling you to be argumentative or reactive. It's a time of pure positivity. Take advantage of these moments and watch your relationships blossom.
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Sometimes I am astounded at the miracle of timing that the messages arrive in my inbox. I truly believe all things happen for a reason. And after reading this lesson, it was very easy to become more compassionate. Awareness brings a peaceful tranquility.
This has been a busy week of various challenges; my moving out of Morro Bay, hearing of my best-friend's mother-in-law passing away, getting the news yesterday that a co-worker has cancer, and then hearing news today that another co-worker had her mother pass away. I realize how very blessed I am by relative comparison to the others near to me. Death has been an issue for me over this past year; I have had a dream at least once a month of my death in some way or another. Last night I had yet another dream where I experienced death... very real feeling and yet I was okay with it... I realized that I would die from the wound that was inflicted on me and yet I did not feel fear or any anger... I was okay with moving on. Now the circumstances and details of the dream require a bit more analysis... so I will try to figure that out later... but very bizarre how unafraid of death I have become. I know what it physically feels like to be shot, the physical sensation experienced when one is in a car that drives off a cliff, what it feels like to drown, fall, etc... etc... and then last night what it feels like to be stabbed in the solar plexus with a sharp knife. Maybe I am re-living some past life experiences??? It gets me to wondering how I will really die.... not that I am seeking it out... but rather, have I prepared my physical self for death? Strange thing this brain is!!!
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Thursday, December 1, 2005
kmc posted this at: 08:33 p.m.About That NEW MOON!!!
"The New Moon in the outgoing fire sign of Sagittarius is like an arrow shot into the future. But a hard square from erratic Uranus to the New Moon this month makes this an especially explosive event ... It's an excellent time to burn off karma and let go of old habits."
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I love my emails!!! Now is the time to LET GO! And I am very happily doing so. I feel like a whole new chapter is opening up for me in my life and this is a perfect sign from the Universe... I enjoy the fiery energy of Sagittarius!
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Thursday, December 1, 2005
kmc posted this at: 11:11 a.m.A NEW DAY...
... has dawned. A huge sigh of relief; a hurdle has been overcome. I have reached the light at the end of the tunnel of November... which is the new beginning of December. Today is also the New Moon... yet another glorious sign of new beginnings... a time to plant new thoughts, develop new habits, make new opportunities manifest. It is the first stage of fruition... planting. I am absolutely blessed with all that has happened over the past year. I cherish my friendships, both active and recently inactivated friendships as well. I will hold onto the beautiful memories and lessons I learned from each and every one. I am proud to say that "regret" is still a word that I do not use... even though things did not turn out the way that I expected or had hoped they would... I am still happy that I experienced everything. The one thing I do not expect is for my life lessons to be all pleasurable and easy... how would one really learn anything?
One of my emails today challenged me to look over the past year and evaluate the person I've become so that I can then look to the future and see where I would like to go. So, I am going to run through my journal here and make notes of that... should be pretty fun! I will probably post that later this evening... or by the weekend. Setting deadlines for projects! HA!
AND... the countdown begins... Christmas is 3 weeks and 3 days away. I have plans that need to be made firm (whether or not I can make it up to Sacramento to spend time with my sister and her family).
I have reconnected with a friend from the Bay Area just the other day... I hope to make some travel plans to go visit her as well... oh the fun we'll have!! I know we will spend at least a day or two playing in San Francisco... museums, art galleries, GREAT vegan restaurants, and the best beauty salon I've ever been to... 77 Maiden Lane... I miss that place! I think I will try to make that my birthday gift to me... a trip to SF for pampering fun!
I feel much lighter today... free... disconnected from the turbulence and BS of the past. There is a beautiful cobalt blue essence around me... I am now safe from the negativity of other's fears and anger of change. I know that I have made the right decisions because positive has come to all who were involved in the recent situation. New, strong friendships were formed for those who needed it most; a living situation was made stronger by one of the roommates'father taking the responsibility of the lease rather than them sharing it individually; a romantic encounter was made and is being developed - which is ALWAYS a positve thing when love is involved!; security is being felt by all; no one has to stay in an environment where they are not wanted or loved; and a solid love of myself is what made this all happen - because I wanted what was best for me, I was able to make a decision that positively affected those around me. Everything worked out for the best... that is the biggest miracle/blessing I could have ever asked for! Granted... "getting there" was not perceived by all as being a positive thing... and I am certain that I am still the object of ridicule and blame... but that's okay... I am not hurt by their fears and anger... the energy that they expend belittling me can be easily transmuted by compassion in understanding that they are young and afraid of change... even though change was an extremely positive thing for them as well. In time, they will see this too... or not... who knows. It is no longer my life, but a memory that is a part of my past. Moving on.
Snowflakes fell upon my face,
leaving me with but a trace,
memories of what once was dear,
now remain like burning tears.
Sacred snowflakes fall on me please,
cover me with melting memories;
as each snowflake is unique unto its own,
so also each memory stains alone.
Winter is here.
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