Saturday, April 30, 2005
kmc posted this at: 01:01 a.m.Making Pretty Things...
What do you do at 1:01 AM, you might ask me?
And why? It's all Emdot's fault for showing me!!! I like learning new things... that later spawn new perspectives of creativity... thanks, Em!!
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Wednesday, April 27, 2005
kmc posted this at: 03:27 p.m.BABY ANNOUNCEMENT!!!
Sierra Elizabeth Milburn was born today at 5:28 AM; daughter to a very close friend, Suwannee (Shawn, too, of course)... She is a very healthy, beautiful baby girl 8 lbs. 8 oz. and 21 1/2 in length, with lots of dark curly hair, blue eyes and perfect skin. She does look a lot like the Pappa!! She is absolutely mesmerizing! And, yes, I have taken pictures of this cute little bundle... and I will have those pictures up very promptly... I will edit this post later with a thumbnail gallery of her.
   
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Wednesday, April 27, 2005
kmc posted this at: 06:45 a.m.Hidden Passion via Tarot
There is much positive energy surrounding me as of late... today I received an email from Tarot.com with an offer to have a numerology report with the "Hidden Passion Number" as a free example of this report. Here was the result (based on my birth day, time, location information):
Your Hidden Passion Number is 7
You have a highly developed mind and a fine intuition. You are intellectual and deal well with abstract ideas. You like to be alone to contemplate, meditate and study.
You are drawn to the philosophical and metaphysical. Nevertheless, you can be highly skeptical and even cynical of things you cannot prove.
You are a deep thinker with unusual understanding and insight. You do not like to waste time on trivial and petty matters.
You are a specialist and a perfectionist. You come up with unique solutions to problems and can be very convincing when the subject interests you.
You can be self-centered, melancholic and depressed. Loneliness is quite common among people with many sevens, they have to learn to be alone without being lonely. Faith in the order and balance of nature is a must. You may seem different, alien and hard to get to know to others, but once they "know" you, they love and respect you. Even though you tend to keep to yourself you are generous with your love, genuinely concerned with the happiness of those around you but not demonstrative.
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Tuesday, April 26, 2005
kmc posted this at: 08:55 p.m.Ordained...
It is official today... Rev. Cookson... There is so much more to this.... but I am following my heart, and I will elaborate more on this later - details about why and how... but it is something I've been considering for quite a few years. I will be studying for a couple more years before I start focusing my activities.
I was just really happy with the news that I received today. I am excited about this direction that my life journey has taken.
More on this later...
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Thursday, April 21, 2005
kmc posted this at: 09:44 p.m.A Surprise Gift Today!
I had the opportunity to chat with a friend/co-worker yesterday and she let me know that she had picked something up for me while she was in New Orleans this last week. Talk about surprised! I was so not expecting anything! Today she stopped by my desk at lunch and gave me this beautiful mask... blue, purple, and black feathers... just stunning! But I think the most beautiful part of this gift was the element of absolute surprise... it's that nice warm feeling... like karma coming back around in a small but powerful way.
Another spectacular day... spent my lunch hour with my roommate Zoe... a bit of a late start .... but the weather was absolutely beautiful... so we ate outside and enjoyed the nice relaxing lunch. Late lunches make the afternoon at work go by a bit faster! Finished up the day and headed home... picked up a cute photo of a Lady Beetle... it's nice when you can notice the little things in life and stop to appreciate them!
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Thursday, April 21, 2005
kmc posted this at: 10:11 a.m.Past the Hump Day...
PHYSICS: Newton's Third Law of Motion -
"For every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction."
We live in a physical world... the scientific truth stated above is meant for the physcial world. And yet we, as humans, have taken this into a metaphysical level as well... or a spiritual level - there should be a "Third Law of Emotion" to assist us in understanding the energetics of human interactions. Might go something like: "For every action, there is a choice of reaction."
I admit it... I get sucked into the reactive state often when I am confronted. I have an Aries ruling my Mars in the fourth house of my astrological natal chart... I am very defensive about what I hold dear. And, I am especially more apt to be that way during the run of Aries (Mar 21 - Apr 19)... I utilize the fire energy of this time to "burn off" the excess and unnecessary... the Fire/Flame/Light that brings awareness of what is capable of facing the flame, what is able to withstand the intensity, that which is able to stand by me through it... those are the "things" which are strong enough to walk with me on my path. Much like weeding a garden, it is important to take time to tend to yourself... so that things don't become overgrown and out of control. Everyone does it... whether consciously or subconsciously.
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If you, too, are a Capricorn... here's a quick snip-it on the Horoscope (via Yahoo):
Quickie:
When was the last time you saw a play or visited a museum? Make some artsy plans.
Overview:
Do not -- repeat, do not -- let anyone instigate problems between you and a dear one. Some people live for this kind of thing. It's up to you to nip it right in the bud.
Someone is working very hard from behind the scenes to cause a problem between you and a person you love. So if you've had that feeling lately and you thought you were losing your mind, you can rest assured that you're not. But what are you going to about it? Well, there's only one thing to do: March right up to them, tell them you know what they're doing and demand that they stop. You can bet they will.
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Wednesday, April 20, 2005
kmc posted this at: 07:17 p.m.Pin Cushion Experience...
Well... I finally did it... I went in for acupuncture for my allergies. My first time doing any acupuncture. It was a good experience; I have a fear of needles and this didn't freak me out. Yes, there was still a bit of sharpness when she put them in their respective places... I had two in each eye brow, one in each temple (shallow), one each outter edge of the nostrils, one in each elbow crease (inside area kinda), one in each of the pads between the thumb and first finger, then one near the sternum (just below the heart chakra), one in each leg just at the top of the shin muscle, and one in each foot between the big toe and 2nd toe... but more on the top of the foot)... there.... now you can imagine me with acupuncture needles!! I stayed there for about 20 minutes with the needles in. I did pretty well once she took them all out... I was able to sit up slowly without feeling faint (she said that is common for first time experiences). I have my next appointment scheduled to get more work on the allergies... and then also the skin issues. She also set up a mixture of Chinese herbs for me to begin taking. I am looking forward to this alternative medical approach. She also a very close friend so I trust her completely with her advice on what needling to do and what herbs to use... that and she is an excellent massage therapist too! If anyone is interested in finding out more about her services, don't hesitate to email me... I will forward information to you.
Practice this evening was pretty good... I am getting over that fear of things being thrown at me fairly quickly... and catching popfly balls... softball is a great way for me to get over a childhood trauma - I had accidentally been hit in the head (knocked unconscious) by a baseball bat. It took me forever to get used to just playing any ball game that involved something flying at me quickly. I am getting to be more aggressive about going towards the softball to catch it ... rather than that hesitant, "let-it-come-to-me" method from before. I am very happy with my progress that I've made both physically and emotionally!
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Tuesday, April 19, 2005
kmc posted this at: 01:37 p.m.Take Time to Stop and Smell the Roses!!!
Appreciation is a form of gratitude...
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Monday, April 18, 2005
kmc posted this at: 11:33 a.m.Making a Difference...
I received this story in an email today... the context in which it was used was related to a Toy Drive here at my work... but the message finally hit me (and I've read this a few times in the past):
One morning an old man was walking along the beach. He notice a young girl was reaching down to the sand, picking up something, and throwing it gently into the ocean.
He called out, "Good morning! What are you doing?"
The girl replied, "Throwing starfish in the ocean."
He asked, "Why are you throwing starfish in the ocean?"
"The sun is up and the tide is going out. If I don't throw them in, they'll be stranded on the beach and die."
"But don't you realize that there are thousands of miles of beach and starfish all along the way. You can't possibly make a difference!"
The girl listened and considered. Then she bent down, picked up another starfish and threw it into the ocean.
"It made a difference for that one," she said.
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I get it now... If I have made a spiritually significant difference in just one life, then I have lived a full life; I've done my service to those around me. The thing is... I don't know in whose life I've made a difference ... so I must continue "walking the shore" and keep doing what it is that I do... feeling like I make a difference ... one at a time. And sometimes it is not until long after I am past the point of contact that "the difference" is discovered... I think that is why I can never understand how "someone like me" can make a difference in "anyone's life"... I don't see it. But much like art... it is within the eyes of each individual that the beauty is seen. Something that I feel I do may appear as insignificant to me... a daily routine even... but to the one who needed that moment, that ear, that bit of attention... to that one, it is the difference that they needed. So, theoretically I can "see" how I could make a difference... I just never actively look or ask to see because it is not about acknowledging it and getting my reward, but rather just keep doing what it is that I do... knowing that others have made a difference in my life... and that gratitude that I feel for them is what compels me to "pay it forward" so to speak. It's not about me at that point...
So, this is not a "glory post" to find out how many people that I've made a difference to... if you have experienced that difference and you feel it... don't give it back to me... make a difference to someone new... let that difference be contagious.... don't worry... I will feel the difference too.
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Friday, April 15, 2005
kmc posted this at: 07:20 a.m.Joke of the Day...
It is nice to start Friday out on a chuckle... I get jokes sent to me as well as the thought provoking spiritual things. This was in my Inbox this morning and just cracked me up:
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Three guys were fishing on a lake one day, when Jesus walked across the water and joined them in the boat. When the three astonished men had settled down enough to speak, the first guy asked humbly, "Jesus, I've suffered from back pain ever since I took shrapnel in the Viet Nam war. Could you help me?"
"Of course my son," Jesus said. When Jesus touched the man's back, the man felt relief for the first time in years.The second man, who wore very thick glasses and had a hard time reading and driving, asked if Jesus could do anything about his eyesight. Jesus smiled, removed the man's glasses and tossed them in the lake. When the glasses hit the water, the man's eyes cleared and he could see everything distinctly.
When Jesus turned to heal the third man, the guy put his hands up and cried defensively, "Don't touch me! I'm on long-term disability."
Hope your Friday goes well!
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Thursday, April 14, 2005
kmc posted this at: 04:41 p.m.Re-Reading Conversations...
I thought maybe I had WAY misinterpreted something in the heat of the moment.... so I went back and re-read a conversation from the very first email through... trying to keep an open mind and seeing from the other's perspective. But the only thing that came out of re-reading that group of emails was a stronger understanding of the INITIAL email's intent. Now, I know you may ask... WHY?... why go back and read it again? Well, it is easier to analyze things after the fact... when you are no longer in the heat of occurance. I really, truly wanted to see from another perspective with a cooled off mind. It would help to get an outside perspective on this ... but I haven't ... this has been within me only. I didn't run to my best-friend even... she only knows that a friendship had ended. For some bizarre reason my path (or maybe just this segment in my journey) is one of being alone. Now this is VERY different from being "lonely"... I can handle being alone... it gives me much time to be introspective... which I obvioiusly need at this time in my life. It does pain me that not everyone gets that about me. I try very diligently to be very upfront and honest with people about that trait of mine. Trust is something earned with me once it has been betrayed... although I do have a long history of forgiving and taking back those who've betrayed my trust. I will be right there to admit that I do go away when people don't want me around... it's that saying "be careful what you wish for... you just might get it." I hold no ill-feelings towards those that I've separated from, quite conversely ... I still love most all of them. I just don't feel I should be subject to the treatment that I receive from them. I am starting to value me. And for that I am most grateful!
All these thoughts come pouring out of my head....
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Thursday, April 14, 2005
kmc posted this at: 02:12 p.m.My Mistake...
So, I finally received some acknowledgement from the message board I posted about yesterday... seems I posted my request in the wrong place to get attention... okay, fine... water under bridge so to speak. However, I do feel that I was quite justified in issue about the clicks... this is something I had witnessed in the past - with my own eyes and ears - that the person had done before. Although, the other party involved was being malicious toward her... so that was also justifiable for her to bring together her collective of friends on that board. It was also the reason I didn't understand why I would be "shunned" on the board... yeah, we had ended a friendship rather bizarrely... so I thought that may have been why I was getting ignored. I feel that is not so far out of the realm of possibilities with this person because of seeing this behavior in the past... ya know, bringing in your friends around you and making sure you are "protected" from the opposition. And, yes, I do get the feeling that there is a view towards me as being this awful person for "abandonment during a tragedy"... notwithstanding the fact that I had my own personal tragedy that I was dealing with at the exact same time. So yeah, I could see me being exiled from a board that is "her people" as she had previously called it when her house guest had used the board. I can see how these people would be her people because they know her better... she's on the board more often than I am.
Anyway... they now have made an effort to assure me it was because of the placement... not the person (me) that it wasn't seen. But there is that gut feeling in me that still feels like I am opposition to a priority member. Yes, that is my choice to view that... but I feel fully justified in seeing it that way. The past is in the past... but it is also there to remind us... and if we don't learn the first time... we are bound to repeat the past until we get it. I am holding my own observations as a guide to help me figure things out. What may appear to be right or wrong in one person's perspective may be completely different in another's view. That is why I stand by the "to each their own" phrase. I will see this the way I will see this... it is part of my path of learning about myself; and obviously something I need to experience. Be it "good" or "bad" ... it is necessary for me to go through it. I am doing the best I can.
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Wednesday, April 13, 2005
kmc posted this at: 01:33 p.m.Update on Skin ...
The doc visit went well this morning... I have a skin condition that has three very long words in it... that basically mean it's "subdermal" - under the skin and is a self-allergic reacting type thing... I am allergic to myself! HA!! Seriously though... I have about a month's worth of pills to continue taking to get it to go into remission... it will be something that I live with for the rest of my life. It's not a fungus that I can get rid of or eliminate completely... it's something that I have to be aware of for the rest of my life. I have been told how to keep it in remission and will be fine. For that, I am extremely happy. I don't mind the work required to get there... just glad it wasn't something worse.
Side note... I am a member of a spirituality message board... basically a place where like-minded people can bring up topics and offer their services as well. Last week when I found out that the first oral medication didn't work... I got scared... and I turned to this group of spiritual people as a support of "prayer" or whatever energy form of healing they would like to offer. Response.... one person... the one person with whom I had recently ended a friendship... at first I thought, okay... kind enough of that person to do that. But next couple days... nothing... no other people saying a word... and I looked on other posts to see if the board was just slow... nope, plenty of activity elsewhere... hmmmm... I was being shunned.... how very UNspiritually minded, I thought. Then it hit me... just because this group wears the label of "spirituality" doesn't mean that clicks won't form inside the group... ya know, like in high school... clicks. I have a very strong intuition and have learned to trust it to it's fullest. I have had so many things confirmed within this past six months to make me realize that I have a strong gift.
So, as heartbreaking as that experience was... it taught me a great deal about that old lesson of "expectations"... I had expectations when I posted my prayer request up there... I hoped people would respond. That's what I get for relying on them. Lesson learned (again). I would have to say that THAT was the only downer about this whole experience at the dermatologist. Much like my "norm"... I will analyze the condition on a metaphysical level to see what is going on in me at a core spiritual level... that process will take a while longer. I'll update as I follow that through.
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Sunday, April 10, 2005
kmc posted this at: 04:33 p.m.Bestest Friend's Birthday...
This was my favorite shot from the birthday celebration for Heidi:
I loved the huge smile... she is such a wonderful person and it was fabulous to see all of her friends at the party from all over! The house was full and the front yard was filled with children too. It was like two parties going on! Happiness was had by all who attended!
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Sunday, April 10, 2005
kmc posted this at: 10:41 a.m.Had to Share This Smile...
This was from the day out and about yesterday... Austi was just TOO cute on this one! The smile is GREAT!
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Sunday, April 10, 2005
kmc posted this at: 09:39 a.m.Saturday... What a Day!
What a wonderful day I had yesterday!! First, the morning consisted of my roommate, Wayne going kayaking with Greg and Roger... the party was supposed to consist of one more person, but unfortunately that person had to cancel due to errands and was not able to attend... in turn, fortunately for Wayne, that meant he didn't have to rent a kayak to go out. Things worked out well that way. I ended up roaming around capturing pictures like these:
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There are many more pictures from that day... I walked around with Austi puppy while the guys were out exploring the estuary. My favorite view of the day had to be this one:
The guys were back in by noon and so my roommate and I headed off to find a breakfast spot (even though we were right there at Bayside Cafe)... we ended up stopping at Kitty's Kitchen to eat. It was okay... can't say I would go again... for the price, it's not the quality that one would expect. AND, it is a cash only restaurant... didn't know those types of places could survive theses days... luckily there's an ATM not far from that spot.
Next on the agenda for the day was my best friend Heidi's birthday celebration... Awesome Aries woman!! Wayne had met Heidi and Jeff earlier in the week and had been invited to attend the party as well. Which turned out to be great... he was so pleased to meet the people at the party... the one thing he's had a hard time with in California so far is meeting "real people" as he callls it... people who you don't have to watch what you say, be careful not to offend, or walk on egg shells around... "his kind of people" that he said he liked hanging out with. I was so stoked that he met people he could see himself hanging out with more. That combined with the morning that he had... I think he had a spectacular day all around!
I had my camera in hand for the birthday party as well... Heidi knew I would... and I captured mostly the gift opening process. I have yet to download the photos for her... will get that done later today. I will post a couple of my favorite ones on my Flikr account.
Going to try to get some batting practice in today for softball... hopefully I will get some more pictures with the bright beautiful sunshine that we are currently experiencing. It makes for great clarity in shots and vibrant colors.
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Thursday, April 7, 2005
kmc posted this at: 04:14 p.m.Keeping You Posted...
Well, yesterday was the follow-up appointment at my dermatologist... unfortunately it was not a positive outcome from the oral treatment that she had prescribed me to take for two weeks. Severe Bummer.... because.... she had to take skin samples ... a scraping and a punch. I got a local anesthetic (did I spell that right?)... very VERY bizarre to get a punch of your skin removed... she fixed me up with 3 stitches for the punch if that gives you any idea to the size. The scraping was cauterized so it wouldn't bleed. I got a new prescription for a cortizone cream to apply to a couple sections to see if it works... eek, I am now in a "test it" phase... it's a bit scary to be in the "unknown" zone. She was very shocked that the oral medication didn't knock this out... let alone the topical cream and shampoo to boot. I am confused... I want so badly to KNOW what my diagnosis is... and at the same time, fear is a bit gripping and I almost don't want to know. I will know within a week... I have another follow-up next Wednesday to get the stitches removed and if I don't hear from her between now and then... I will find out if they've been able to determine what the condition is. Keeping fingers crossed on this; that and stomach tied in knots!
Wish me luck!
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Monday, April 4, 2005
kmc posted this at: 01:11 p.m.Gotta Love Yehuda!!!
"... Unfortunately, we are under the influence of our ego, so our inclination is to look for the quick fix. Instead of creating a healthy partnership, we develop an addiction.
We hear the word addiction and we associate it with drugs, alcohol, food or gambling. But yes, we can also become addicted to people, to relationships - and to love.
Addiction happens whenever our happiness is dependent on an outside source.
Think of how many times you have felt you couldn't live without a particular friend, or family member, or someone you were dating. Perhaps you couldn't stand the thought of losing her, of having to give him up. And haven't you had times when it seemed impossible to get through a situation without a sister or a best friend? You needed them in order to feel capable and complete.
When our self-worth becomes entangled in what they think of us, how they see us, how we feel when we are with or without them, we've made the other person the cause and left ourselves to be the effect. Before long, we are searching everywhere for that exchange of energy, that high, until - boom! - it explodes in our face.
Addiction is not to be confused with affection. Having affection for someone - wishing that person happiness, or wishing them to be free from suffering - is a wonderful thing, providing there is no agenda attached. This is what we are striving for: UNCONDITIONAL Love and Compassion. With affection, we do not feel as if our very existence is tangled up with another's.
Addiction, on the other hand, is like glue. We feel useless without that special person. We can feel as if there is no point to our lives without them. And while relationships are vital and necessary, relying on them or on anything other than you and your ability to generate the Light is futile.
The test to determine whether or not your love and affection is genuine is to ask yourself, - If I had to let this person go, could I? And would I survive? - ...."
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I am so incredibly grateful for Yehuda Berg, the Kabbalist and great teacher. These messages come to me on a weekly basis... and the past few have really confirmed issues that I have been either experiencing or of which I have been a catalyst participant. Sometimes my inner questions sit there and I analyze myself wondering if I am just going crazy or something... and then one of these messages comes along and just soothes me. It is nice to receive confirmations - kinda like the Universe saying "hey, just relax... you're doing fine." Ah, a moment to sigh... sometimes it REALLY feels powerful to sincerely EXHALE.
I know that I have kept a positive light and forgiveness in my heart about my current situations.... and I am happy that I have listened to my heart to respond and not my ego to react. I have not objectively placed blame for my actions to justify them... I take full responsibility for what I have done. And, I have done what I feel is best for my spiritual and emotional well-being; like I've said before, there are no regrets. As a wise teacher revealed to me recently; "Rule your life, it's the only one you've got!" -YB Of course my addendum to that is "-regardless of which incarnation your are currently experiencing." :) ~giggles~
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Sunday, April 3, 2005
kmc posted this at: 10:10 a.m.Ah... Spring...
Spring is not subtle... it let's you know with the most beautiful shades of bright green... the birds are very chipper... there is almost an urgency to let you know it has arrived. With the past few sunny days we've experienced, it has been a wonderful time to capture images that say "I am Spring"!!
New growth is both actual and symbolic... I enjoy the opportunities that Spring energy brings. I am encouraged by the changes that have occurred in my life ... and like the birds... I feel compelled to sing loudly to exclaim my joyful energy. I have received such positive feedback and encouragement about my photography (like the shot in this post). I am going to get a large group of my photos printed and start up a small venture of selling the prints. I have friends who are going to assist me in getting this fully started... which is great to have the active support and encouragement! I will have a new website set up specifically for the selling of stock photos and fine prints. It is so exciting.... and a little scary at the same time. Kinda like the first time you ride a roller-coaster - that adrenaline rush of "Wow, I am going to do this.... Oh, my goodness...what am I about to do?" And then once you've started the ride, the rush of it all and the fun is just unravelling with each turn and every rise and fall... it's that great.... that's what I am feeling about this opportunity.
Spring is not subtle...
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Thursday, March 31, 2005
kmc posted this at: 03:31 p.m.Change Happens...
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it's about enjoying the time that is spent together; not brooding about the time apart.
it's about learning from the past and our life lessons; not drudging up the past to fuel present moment anger.
it's about accepting one for who they are; not setting personal, conditional expectations.
it's about quality; not about time. (Time is an illusion)
it's about unconditional love; not about restrictions.
it's about being happy with what you are able to give; not about what you are going to get.
it's about freedom of expression; not about control and repression.
it's about listening without trying to fix; not fixing without listening.
it's about relating and empathy; not about pity.
IT is what I offer.
Yes, I am posting about a recent life lesson. I am not angry about this lesson; conversely, I am quite happy about what I have learned. I know who I am ... which has been a challenge to reach a point in which I could say that and really mean it. In my life journey I have encountered those whom I value dearly... but as life has taught me so many times... "Change is the only constant thing..." I will let go of the hurt of disillusionment; for it taught me that I am trusting. I love that I am trusting. I will let go of the pain of loss; for it taught me that I am strong enough to endure it. I release the fear of not being good enough; for I know the truth of who I truly am... and I am good enough.
When others set expectations... it is THEIR choice to do so... they feel the need to limit or require certain aspects... I do not feel badly for not meeting anyone's expectations for they are not mine and I have no control of those expectations. I know who I am and what I have to offer; if someone else sees it differently and does not like it, then I remove myself from that situation.
Another thing that I've known about myself, that was confirmed in this situation is that I am not a reciprocal responder; in other words, I do not say something to someone out of habitual response nor do I say something just because someone said it to me first. To me that is like plagiarism... I think for myself, I speak for myself, and state things when I feel it is time for me to state them. And there are times when introspective analysis shows me that somethings do not need to be said at all; and I am comfortable with that. I am learning the valuable importance of "nothingness" ... "not" ... "no" ... standing firm in my core. For a major part of my life I have been the type of person that others knew they could take advantage of... people knew I would not say no and would compromise my own self to satisfy their wishes; many have used that to their benefit - some consciously others subconsciously.
Change has occured; I am protecting what I have found... the gem that is the true me, the me that I love, and I share that gem with those around me. Just because someone doesn't find the gem to be attractive or have qualities that they find to their liking... does not mean that I make a different gem. I move on, I share the gem with new encounters, I establish new connections, and I learn new lessons about this gem... others even point out new facets that I may have formed from the "hard knocks" during various encounters... things that I may not have noticed... introducing new ways to appreciate the gem and the journey it has taken.
I am now moving through life with a calmness that I can only define as being an aspect of grace - something I aspire toward constantly. I hold true to my dignity and I regret nothing. I am not saying that I do not encounter bumpy sections of my path... I just handle it far differently that I have in the past.
funny tidbit of info: this is post number 13 of March!
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