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Thursday, January 29, 2004
kmc posted this at: 10:10 a.m.
Carpe Diem INDEED ! ! !

Well, I knew this would be a great site to visit; Nihilistic Oatmeal's post for today was a group of thought provoking questions that really do inspire one to Seize the Day!

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What if you lost your job today? - I'd take a day off, and then start looking again... or start working on a self-employed artistic endeavor

What if everyone you knew that everyone you cared about was going to die tomorrow? - This is a tough one... I would make a few phone calls... and then meditate for their well being and spiritual journey.

What if today you lost your limbs, or your mind? - Well, if I lost my mind first... loosing the limbs wouldn't matter! Actually, I'd quite look forward to loosing my mind... unnecessary devise really. Absolute nothingness! Now, limbs... that would be more challenging especially if the mind was still there to judge, analyze, and think about WHY it occured. But ultimately I would find a perfect reason to do nothing but meditate... and then learn to paint/draw with my mouth... still would seek out artistic endeavors.

What if you only had six months to live? - I would have the time of my life for 6 months... traveling, given that I am capable of doing so. And phone calls galore!
A week? - Definitely phone calls... spend everyday at the beach... some beach.... still try to travel around.
A day? - Phone calls and then the rest of the time in a very deep meditation, preparing for either absolute nothingness or whatever will occur next.

What would you do differently? And why aren't you doing it? - I couldn't say I would do much different. I would (and am working on) doing more artwork, creative stuff... self discovery! Life is everything I need it to be in this HERE AND NOW moment!!!

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Go ahead, give a go at it... what are your responses?

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Tuesday, January 27, 2004
kmc posted this at: 10:28 p.m.
I AM TESTING YOU ! ! !

Fun, fun stuff that one can find when browsing the freqeuent links... (found this at crystallyn.com):

How Well Do You Know MsCapriKell?

You can create fun tests to either stump your friends or test their knowledge on various things.... you think I am gonna do a few of these? you're right!! I am going to see what fun kind of things I can come up with and then I will set up the link here on the journal to see how many people feel like being quizzed! The first one of course is all about "ME"... so go ahead and give it a shot.... how well might you know me? Don't worry... they are simple questsions. this time hehehe!

Ta for NOW!

Be well!

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Tuesday, January 27, 2004
kmc posted this at: 01:52 p.m.
How Ethical ? ? ?

Visited EMDOT's site and she had a quizzie that compares your ethical/philosophical views to those of other known philosophers. Let's take a look at me:

My Results:

1.) Jean-Paul Sartre (100%) Click here for info
2.) Spinoza (87%) Click here for info
3.) Nietzsche (83%) Click here for info
4.) Epicureans (70%) Click here for info
5.) Stoics (68%) Click here for info
6.) Kant (67%) Click here for info
7.) David Hume (66%) Click here for info
8.) Nel Noddings (61%) Click here for info
9.) Jeremy Bentham (59%) Click here for info
10.) Thomas Hobbes (55%) Click here for info
11.) Aquinas (47%) Click here for info
12.) Prescriptivism (47%) Click here for info
13.) John Stuart Mill (43%) Click here for info
14.) Aristotle (35%) Click here for info
15.) St. Augustine (28%) Click here for info
16.) Plato (27%) Click here for info
17.) Cynics (24%) Click here for info
18.) Ockham (21%) Click here for info
19.) Ayn Rand (16%) Click here for info

Well, I know OF maybe half of these... then a couple I am very intrigued and fascineated by... so this is something new to learn about myself. I've got some reading to do now! :P

be well... have fun!

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Monday, January 26, 2004
kmc posted this at: 12:01 p.m.
Why Do I . . .???

Why do I?

A) Let people walk on me: Why? I ask myself that frequently. I want people to like me; and they normally do.... that's the wierd part. "You are such a nice person!" And yet people utilize my sensitivity, kindness, gullable side, and so on... But, being the "aware being" that I have opened my eyes to being... I *know* that I allow this activity as much as those who are taking advantage. I try to understand myself; is it a level of forgiveness? I think part of it is... I want to believe in the positive in everyone, so I allow repetative actions thinking that at some point the persons will see the pain that it causes and think to themselves that they wouldn't want to be treated like that. Boy, do I put too much thought into this?

B) Overburden myself: Why? Well, this has been a little easier to understand. I know that when I feel rejected, hurt, or whatever, then I dive deep into work... the more the better... well, not really "better"... but actually it should be "the more buried, the less pain from emtional feelings" I try to stay "in work" because at that, I do not have an emotional attachment... I am the robot, I am the drone worker, I do not HAVE to feel, I just have to work. But, overburdening me has taken it's toll... I feel the difference of not being able to travel as I like; not being able to have a social life (or try to GET a social life)... I always have this excuse as to why I can not go do something. I don't want to have work be an excuse to not live my life... to not be creative... to not be ME. I see patterns in my life... I start to have epifany-like breakthroughs in my spiritual growth and then I go hide. And I (as mentioned above) allow others to assist me with this hiding/burial. I have to learn to say NO and follow through. I am not a mean person, so I know that by saying NO I am not being malicious; I am just NOT ABLE to do it. Wow, breakthrough there... "I can not do it all!"

C) Think that I *have to* be superwoman: Why? What is it that has made me think that if I don't do EVERYTHING that anyone has asked of me that I would be less of a person? That THEIR expectations are more important than my personal feelings? What is "superwoman" anyway? Illusions... what I have done up until this point is more weakness than "superwoman" strength... I've let people "utilize" me to the point that I do not make time for me. Now this is not the same as me OFFERING to assist friends... that is different. It's the indirect passive kind of stuff... where the person has all the best intent in their heart, I am sure, but it still comes across as expectations that THEY require to have met. This one is hard, because I don't ever like having to say "No, I can't do that." I want to help everyone, I want to solve the world's problems one person at a time, I want to be the answer to someone's needs. But, in doing that, I am loosing sight and touch with the Self that I had been discovering.

Right now my environment reflects my inner being... I am still "packed" in my car; stuff from my recent move... I don't have the ammenities to completely "move in" to my room. As silly as that sounds, I am completely aware of why I am doing that. It's a fear-based response to constantly moving. Partially abandonment issues and scarcity complex too. I just have to really set aside ME TIME and do it... get a dresser, get my stuff out of baskets and put away cleaned up. I live there... I pay a very sizeable amount to BE there... I should not feel like I am imposing on someone else just because they were there first... I *pay* my part to exist there... (okay this is me convincing myself)... so the hard part for me is JUST DOING IT... damn, I sound like a nike commercial!

Well, this is like a wide-open view of the vulnerable me... why do I feel the need to expose myself to the entire internet world? I think that it might be that by putting it out there, somewhere a guide, angel, or what-have-you will pick it up and take it to the metaphysical trash bin and dispose of it...(there's an analogy: the internet is a metaphysical trash bin!!!) I just have to let go of it. This is my way... I am not afraid to expose my fears; it's like pouring hydrogen perioxide on an open wound... it may not feel too good or look good at first... but it will force healing.

Welcome to my mind.

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Friday, January 23, 2004
kmc posted this at: 12:55 p.m.
2004 Wood Monkey. . .

2004, The Wood Monkey - the overview is quite positive. It was fun to see what chinese astrological sign I am... and the overview of this Wood Monkey Year for me:

The Tolerant Pig - The "Accommodating Pacifist."
Reconciliation and reunion with former loves, as romance takes a more positive course. The Pigs profound honesty and childlike trust is the only thing that can disarm the manipulative instincts of the Monkey year. It is the Pig who will transform this Monkey year, not the other way around. However, the highs are high and the lows are low. The Pig has the last word this year - a karmic reward for their lack of self-seeking and unconditional love.

I am more specifically a Metal Pig (January, 11, 1972):
Considerate, long-suffering, and supremely honest, the unpretentious Pig makes a cheerful friend and sincere partner. This 12th and last sign of the zodiac is pragmatic and has an unquenchable thirst for new knowledge. They are often betrayed because of their faith in others, but are oftentimes rewarded with financial security due to their pure hearts. Companionship, physical love and emotional security are a must, and these souls need an easy-going mate who talks out problems instead of shouting. Gentle, yet strong of will, Pigs are motivated by their conscience. Resigned and accepting the world as it is, Pig souls do not push themselves ahead at the cost of another. Most harmonious time of day for the Pig is between 9:00pm - 11:00pm.

The Metal element symbolizes clarity, purity and precision. The power of Metal is to delineate and define. Metal element persons create structure, create the surface of matters, and interface with the outside world. This element adds rigidity to an individual sign. Those born into the Metal element are guided by powerful feelings and will seek their goals with unwavering allegiance, chaste & tendency to speak candidly/bluntly. Much strength of will, and fluency of speech characterize those born into the Metal element. Metal is 'set' and determinedly fixed. Metal element persons must learn to compromise, not always insisting on their own way, as they will always have a strong effect on all whom they come into contact with. The Metal element shores-up an individual sign and is not deterred by calamity, hindrance or loss. The Metal element holds in position each individual sign by serving as a foundation and base. Metal element souls prefer to sort out and solve their own problems and do not appreciate interference or unsolicited advice. The Metal element imparts strong monetary instincts to the individual sign, with extra ability to save for a rainy day. The Metal element possesses a fine-tuned intuition regarding finances and speculative investments of all kinds. This is the element of the solitary entrepreneur. The physical organs of Metal are the lungs and the large intestines; its flavor is pungent. Metal's color is White and corresponds to the season of Autumn and dry.(gratitude to the translator: Shelley Wu)

Hmmm.... curious... we shall see how this year pans out. It's always fun to read up on the various forms of astrology. I like the elemental aspects of the chinese astrology.

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Thursday, January 22, 2004
kmc posted this at: 03:11 p.m.
To Vent or Not To Vent . . .

I had something I wanted to vent about.... but when I started to type it up my mind just went blank... kinda like it's telling myself that it is a waste of time to vent about it today. I noticed I haven't been as "post happy" as before... being sick kinda sucks out any extra hours in the evening or early in the mornings.... and then periodically throughout the day too.... I've decided that I am going to put myself into this metaphorical washing machine and set it on "super spin cycle" to get this residual coughing and runny-nose stuff out of me. I must say that I've had quite the ab workout for the past two weeks now though.... gonna sell a line of workout tapes.... "You and the Flu: Ripped Abs!" It will fly, I just know it!

And to clear "other news" up.... no, I am not dating *him* anymore.... was informed that our lifestyles are TOO different. :| Uhm, okay... I always looked at diversity as a way to learn more and expand one's horizons.... :| still... if someone isn't happy "being with me" then I surely don't want to try to beg for attention. Love myself too much to beg for someone to like me. And I absolutely love the line.... "don't take it personally, you are a very nice person!" :| Uhm, it's still R E J E C T I O N.... ah well.... c`est la vie!

I figure I like being single... "free" to go, be, do.... do, be, do, be, doooooo!! I have an abundance of friend connections that sustain any "needs" to be near others. Work takes care of that too... I like the people that I work with, for the most part... I can carry conversations with any of them... and then there are a couple that I would actually "hang" with after hours if the opportunity ever presented itself. I rarely come across people that I don't like... makes life very fun, enlightening, entertaining... definitely the learning experience that I've come to understand it to be. Seeing life through so many different eyes... seeing myself through so many different persepctives... feeling what others feel... experiencing fullness. I have an abundant life!

Happiness is what you choose it to be...

be well, .... or just be!

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Sunday, January 18, 2004
kmc posted this at: 10:57 a.m.
Been SICK, SICK, SICK....

That's right, for my birthday I received... an icky fever; which turned into coughing, coughing, achey body, coughing, freaky dreams, yo-yoing fevers... oh, and did I mention COUGHING!?!!!

I knew something was going downhill last Sunday while I was at work at the veterinary clinic (YES, I worked ON my birthday... something I haven't done in years!); I just knew I had caught something. So, I emailed the office on Sunday evening letting them know I would be out of the office on Monday, thinking if I "nip it in the bud" then I will be fine on Tuesday and able to work....

NO SUCH LUCK.... was dead to the world on Tuesday... Simone and James call me up and offer to bring me any necessities.... water and medicine were my only requests. My roommate had made me soup earlier that day. So, I received my medicine and water that evening and thought that by taking the medicines that I would be "saved"..... again, dellusion... I did feel well enough (in my mind by relative comparing to the other days) to go to work... I had even been teased by one of my co-workers when I was calling in to let them know I was, in fact, making it to work on Wednesday, that I sounded like that "Helen" from the commercial from years ago.... you know, smoker Helen.... that and an 80 year old woman... that's the sound of my voice from all the coughing.... Yes, I still had that incessant COUGH... so I went to the MedWorks in town and was told that I had a pretty bad flu that was going around, got a prescription for the cough, and then an antibiotic prescription if the cough didn't go away or became worse. BUT, he said, "If I worked with you... I'd send you home!" So, I was sent home with new drugs in tow.

When I got home, I thought I'd be a good patient and take the proper amount of cough syrup for the size of my coughs.... I took the maximum dose, two teaspoons.... of a codene cough syrup.... "drink plenty of water" couldn't be more accurate.... actually the picture that goes with that sticker was more accurate.... a water faucet turned on full... I was knocked out into the worlds most bizarre dreamland but would wake myself every 15 minutes or so to get a drink of water because it felt like I licked the Mojave with my tongue for two days straight! So this occured until 6 or 7 am the following morning.... I promptly called into work at 6am when I knew I wasn't going to have the strength to stay awake on Thursday (and my Helen voice had not improved at all... only got worse). I eventually fell back asleep around 8am and slept solid for once until 2pm!!!! woohooo!!! SLEEEEEP! and this was without the freaky wierd dreams and waking to drink because of Mojave mouth. It felt wonderful!

I received another care-giver phone call from Simone to see how I felt.... she cringed over the phone from hearing my voice... she knew what this was... and had had it before. She offered to bring me any other supplies that I thought I may need... since I had gone through most of my bottled water that they brought me, I asked for more.... and then also remembered items that I had promised to take care of for her wedding.... so I asked her to go ahead and pick those up and I would write her a check back. Presto! I was able to get that taken care of while sick! It helps to have attentive friends or I would have totally been up shitcreek. So, I was totally stoked to receive this huge tub of egg flower soup (okay, technically "large bowl") from the Mandarin Gourmet near where Simone and James currently live. It was perfect and I could finally eat! Anything more solid just irritated the throat. Went to bed that night feeling much better again. I had received a very strong piece of advice from Simone though, that my voice was going because of the infection from the flu, and that the antibiotics were necessary... she made sure that I would get them filled the next day and take them....so I assured her I would... seems people don't find the "Helen" voice sexy after all... hmmm.

Friday.... I head off to work.... feeling okay enough to attempt some work again. (going nuts at home doing nothing) My supervisors still wanted me to be careful, not over do anything, go home if I needed to..... the coughing still scared them. I took my lunch hour to go pick up my antibiotics (YAY Zithromax Zpack)... and some liquid nutrition for lunch. Took the very first dose of the antibiotics as soon as I got into my car. Lunch consisted of boysenberry yogurt, some fruit medley juice, and I tried one of those campbell's drinkable soups..... OH, NO.... not at all good for me... the only one that sounded good from the shelf still did not look or taste good, Blended Vegetable... isn't that a baby food type thing you do??? EW! okay, lesson learned ... even Campbell's screws up on ideas. ICK! Okay, the day seemed to be at it's end for me right around 1pm and I started showing it... I let my immediate supervisor know that I had prepared for a check to be cut that they needed, and that I then needed to call it a day. (I had also been stuck answering the phones while one of my co-workers was on lunch and the other had to go run office errands... uhm, hello.... Helen voice.... not good for professional image on phone... aside from the Helen voice, I barely had a voice to answer with.... OY!)... so when my office mate returned I promptly prepared to go home. It felt like I had put in a full day already. I got home and went right to sleep to really let my first dose of antibiotics set in... it was a good hour plus of sleep... again... FELT wonderful!

Things have been looking up from there.... still tired as ever! I've been still struggling with a cough that sometimes turns into a coughing fit which exhausts me... but I am doing pretty well for the most part. Much in thanks to Simone and her care-packages she brought to me! Other people later asked me "well, why didn't you call me? I would have brought soup or something".... I just didn't call anyone... Simone happened to know I wasn't feeling real well... so I was lucky she went into "maternal mode" :)

All this days before her wedding too.... speaking of which.... Saturday I rested most of the morning and then by 3pm I went to the house and assisted with what I could to help set things up. One of my main functions for the evening was recording on the video camera, which went very well. The wedding was beautiful, the people were all very sweet and supportive, and the bride and groom glowed with positve energy! There were many typical and then many more non-typical wedding shots taken throughout the evening. Tons of fun pictures taken with digital photos from the guests as well. I am looking forward to seeing them as well. My digital camera was in my purse most of the evening as I was attached to the video camera most of the evening. I finally wrapped up the video stuff around 8pm and then sat down to catch my breathe and have fun listening to conversations... joining in where I can. It was a fabulous evening! As the remaining crowd was making plans with Simone and James as to where to go out dancing, I made my own exit and headed home for the evening. Almost instantly crashing into bed when I got home! What a day!!

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Sunday, January 11, 2004
kmc posted this at: 10:27 a.m.
Birthday at Blue Lounge. . .

To wrap up my Saturday of celebrating me... First, I played online for a while (imagine that!), then I had a WONDERFUL massage by my good friend... she's been my massage therapist for quite a few years now. After the massage I headed back home to relax with it for a bit... and then headed out to help Simone and James move some of their belongings into their new home. Pretty well organized and it was unloaded quite quickly! Teamwork, I tell you, it rocks everytime!!!

During a break at Starbucks, Kinsley called to invite me out to dinner.... YAY! So, I headed home about 5:30 to get ready for the evening out.... had to get "blue" but in a good way! :) Dinner team was running a little late, so we ended up eating dinner at Blue Lounge; which turned out to be pretty good. I'd never eaten there before... just had drinks at the bar. New experience!

Then the friends started showing up in their collective groups. I was soooo happy with the turn out of everyone.... kinda like my group of friends getting to meet my group of friends... I have a pretty good mix of people that I know... and am still getting to know, so it was a great mixer where people chatted had drinks.... the music was okay when it got started later in the evening.... basic dj hiphop stuff. I still have this idea of starting a "club" where more techno/club type music is the venue.... ah the idea is there! Waiting on fruition... :)

So the party kinda started breaking up around 11pm... with a few of us staying until midnight... got a ride home and snuggled into my bed by 1pm.... it was a pretty good night all around. I had a happy birthday celebration! :)

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Friday, January 9, 2004
kmc posted this at: 07:01 a.m.
OH WHAT A NIGHT ! ! !

What a day.... and then OH WHAT A NIGHT!!! First, I got to go see Kinsley and spend time with him at the Farmer's Market in SLO. We walked around talking about my holidays here and then him telling me about Puerto Rico... sounds pretty crowded to me! :) But he classified the kite-boarding conditions as "okay". We had a great time catching up! We sat at Linnea's for a while having (me) coffee and (him) steamed soy w/ameretto flavor. It's so fun because it is still at this "getting to know you" stage. Very new... I am still "giddy" around him... it's funny... you'd think I'd be a little more casual and relaxed about it! It's all good!

And then.... at 8pm I went with my roommate, Michelle, to see the Chippendales dancers at The Graduate... I thought it was going to be cheesey what with having nearly married an adult entertainment star... but I was very happy with the evening... and, it was just as fun people watching all those women! OY GESVALT! These ladies need to have a little more fun during their regular lives.... talk about letting the repressed monsters out of the cage! WOW.... anyway... the show was very well done... there were 3 of the dancers who were very experienced with stage performance and interactions.... and the other "newbies" did well for being new at it... stage performance is definitely an acquired talent... but all in all... the dancers were very flirty and interactive... as expected... that's how they get their tips... which at one point I felt that one of the dancers was out just picking off the last of the dollar bills.... he'd walk up for a brief moment and just open the elastic of his undies as an offering plate to place your tithings. But I am sure they are just as tired towards the end of the show as the women are lacking ones to hand out. So, at the end of the show they offered to have your picture taken with some of the dancers.... so, I thought since this was my first time (and probably last) doing this... why not. I hate pictures of me, but this wasn't all that bad... so, I will try to get a digital copy posted online soon. My roommate had a fantastic time as well.... she was dressed to the nines.... so she looked spectacularly adorable! She was sooooo happy; this ticket was actually her christmas/birthday gift.... she was thanking me sooo much!!! I had to laugh! It was a great show so we both were happy we went. (I was still trying to pawn my ticket off around 5pm onto female friends so that I could spend more of the evening with Kinsley...) I am happy that I went and experienced it... the dancers did their jobs well.

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Thursday, January 8, 2004
kmc posted this at: 12:35 p.m.
Love to Love. . .

Hand Analysis Test

Kelly, the shape of your hand reveals that you are especially good at Letting your love flow...


Based on the signs in your palm, you have much to gain by giving your affection freely to those that you care most about. By putting directed energy toward expressing your love, your efforts will be returned multi-fold.

This was yet another fun test to take.... basically answer questions about my hand and the lines on it.... and presto... they think I love to love.... well.... they got that one right! :)

be well... or be loved!! - BE WELL-LOVED!!!!

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Monday, January 5, 2004
kmc posted this at: 12:11 p.m.
Soon, Very Soon . . .

That's right, it's getting near! So I've opted for a nice get together...

IT'S HER BIRTHDAY PARTY . . .

Just wanting a nice, peaceful gathering ... there should be entertainment that night at the bar for us to enjoy. So, if you'd like to go and you didn't get an invite... go ahead and add yourself to the list and let me know you'll be there.

I've never hosted one of these evite things before... let alone host my own birthday party, so this is going to be a whole new learning experience for me! Looking forward to Saturday anyway... but this will just be "icing on my birthday cake" :))

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Thursday, January 1, 2004
kmc posted this at: 01:11 p.m.
H A P P Y N E W Y E A R 2 0 0 4 ! ! ! ! !

Your Catfish Friend
Richard Brautigan
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If I were to live my life
in catfish forms
in scaffolds of skin and whiskers
at the bottom of a pond
and you were to come by
one evening
when the moon was shining
down into my dark home
and stand there at the edge
of my affection
and think, "It's beautiful
here by this pond. I wish
somebody loved me,"
I'd love you and be your catfish
friend and drive such lonely
thoughts from your mind
and suddenly you would be
at peace,
and ask yourself, "I wonder
if there are any catfish
in this pond? It seems like
a perfect place for them."

This is a post for Becca, since she is a fan of Richard Brautigan. The name really rang a bell with me... as I was introduced to this poet by a chat-pal from the East Coast. (Ertishe)... kind of like my very own Catfish Friend. It was such a wonderful feeling to read this poem again! So very beautiful and touching. So thank you Becca for reminding me of a wonderful and touching moment in my own life. Sometimes we grow distant from friends... but I know I will never forget those who choose to make a profound impact in my life! Eric was definitely one of those persons!

New Year's Eve was not anything spectacularly eventful... but I had a spectacularly wonderful time with what I did do... I spent the evening with Simone and her fiance James going over different positive affirmations for the new year. We performed a cute little New Year's Eve ritual that I had done a couple years back at the Shinji Shumeikai Temple in Pasadena. Basically you take a set of chopsticks and breaking the two signify the things which you wish to let go of from the year that is departing and throw the first stick into the fire to be burnt. The second stick is then filled with all the asperations, dreams or affirmations which you want to ignite for your new year and then also thrown into the fire. We did the first stick just before midnight, consuming the items of the 2003 that we wanted to remove chords, ties of any sort or any old habits. And then as the clock struck midnight and 2004 began... the second stick was laid in the fire to begin the new year with an igniting of new thought patterns and a new perspective for 2004. We then enjoyed an indulgent beginning to the new year... we drank Tobin James's Liquid Love (Late Harvest Zinfandel) and ate Ghiradelli chocolate bits. Absolutely divine way to start the New Year! Was wishing I could have called Kinsley, but he will be returning home soon... we will catch up then. Then a few moments later Zoe called me from where she was.... wishing me a Happy New Year and sharing the moment with those around her as well. I also share her well-wishes with Simone and James. A very sharing New Year!!

I am very grateful for the 2003 experience and very excited about this new year.... I know wonderful things are occurring!!

be well.... be new!

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Tuesday, December 30, 2003
kmc posted this at: 01:06 p.m..
Secret Santa results for 2003 . . .

Every year I participate in the Secret Santa program... and so this year I was eagerly awaiting the annoucement of who my receiver would be... on December 10th I got my recipient's information... his site, www. o y l a n d e r .com is very creative and colorful. Amuzing too. I've rather enjoyed reading his site! I am still awaiting news as to whether or not he received his gift... mail systems and all!! You never know!

And then conversely, I was the recipient for someone.... I was sent an email that revealed my Secret Santa for 2003.... her name is Becca Friedman and her site is My Site All About Me. So far all I know about her is that she's 34, she's a writer and a Mom who has her own business, loves to travel and camp. Her "blog" is fairly new... started on December 9th. I haven't received anything in the mail as of yet. And it doesn't appear as if anything has been purchased on my Amazon Wish List. I am wondering if maybe this was her first year participating in this event. Some people may not understand the whole concept of what they do on this Secret Santa thing. Ah well.... I had a blast on the giving side of it!!!

I think I am going to start a wild search thing... just start browsing blogs and do a certain number of ring links and then when I reach that specific number... that will be my own personal secret pal... and I will try to get to know the person and set up for a xmas fun thing! We shall see how that idea goes...

Well, I need to figure out something for lunch... not really hungry, but I know I should eat... hmmm, what to do... what to do.....

be well!

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