Thursday, August 26, 2004
kmc posted this at: 01:23 p.m.Lunchtime Funnies....
This cracked me up when I saw it... this truck had a LOT of bumper stickers on it's tailgate, but this one stood out to me and got me to giggling for at least 15 minutes:
BUREAUCRACY:
the act of converting pure energy to solid waste.
Ah the humor of political views... POLITICS - Now that's entertainment!!!
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Saturday, August 21, 2004
kmc posted this at: 02:29 p.m.Funniest Search Result so far...
I check my visiting stats on my website just to see what hits make it to me and why.... well, today I nearly fell out of my chair laughing:
Search Engine: google.com
Search Words: "pismo beach" prostitute
I did not know Pismo would warrant such services... I mean, yeah, people stop here for vacation; but that is one "full service vacation" stop if someone is searching for that!!! And like you would find that in searching.... yes, in my keywords I'd like to include prostitute.... that should get some attention.... eeek!
Ah... so the day is going along. I got an instant message from my brother-in-law last night that nearly freaked me out.... then come to find out today that all is well... I mean, for the most part. My sister left her husband due to all the banter and negativity that he kept dishing on her... he accused her of cheating on him and after she straight out told him that the one guy she does talk to is JUST a platonic friend; he still disbelieves her and keeps badgering her about having a "boyfriend". I don't know... it kinda sounds like he's pointing the finger at her and making her out to be the one doing wrong.... so much so that it makes him sound awfully suspicious. Well, come to find out..... he is indeed talking to another woman.... a girl who happens to be right there in Burleson too. Coincidence??? What is it about passive-aggressive men? If he wanted out of the marriage HE should have owned up to HIS feelings and said that he wanted out. But instead he makes my sister feel crushed that he doesn't believe her love for him. He puts so much negativity on her that she finally gave in and said "Fine, I am out of here then, if that's what you think of me." It's hideous the accusations that he put on her and made her responsible for.... when in reality HE wanted out of the marriage. Proof that he wanted out: maybe THIS AD..... it's as if he can't wait for the divorce to be done. Or as he put it to one person "My divorce won't be over with that quickly, though I am ready for it to be." Passive Aggressive Men have this innate ability to plan things out over a period of time so that they get what they want without appearing to be the one who is doing it. Helps that I've studied psychology... this is classic!!!
Anyway.... it upset me quite a bit... I love my sister and want her to be happy.... and now that she is away from her ex-husband's negativity she finally is happy... her children have even noticed it. I am sending all the positive energy that I can daily to her for this situation....
in light and love may truth be known
may the err and fault finally be shown
in light and love may peace be found
may all involved find solid ground.
Sending blessings
Back to cleaning for me..... yay, fun... no really it is.....
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Friday, August 20, 2004
kmc posted this at: 10:50 p.m.It's Friday..... do you know where your weekend is???
Someone had some fun with her digital camera last weekend. Okay, so it took me a while to get them uploaded.... something about a busy work week.... damn it all when work gets in the way of my hobbies!!! :P But I have at last posted a few of the pictures from the warm and beautiful weekend. I will post a few more tomorrow evening.... I have a limit... 6 per day. :(
So, as I was saying..... it's been a BUSY work week... I was filling in for the regular PR administrator... this time of year being pretty busy with the ending of our busy season. I had plenty of support, so it went quite smoothly. There was one hiccup with our TimeBank not downloading overtime that was held from the previous pay period (it's that weighted average thing.... geesh!).... anyway..... everyone got paid..... and if any tiny bits were missed, they will be cleaned up next week.... the work week is officially over.... HELLO FREE WEEKEND. That's right.... no plans... absolutely wide open to ...... clean. I've put it off long enough... gonna whip this room of mine into shape. And, get rid of the excess in my life... ya know..... too many clothes. I hold onto things thinking "oooh, it's cute.... I am sure I will wear this in the summer, or fall, or....." So, tomorrow I am going to make a gung-ho effort to become more "simple" in my living space. Excess is not necessary. There is abundance in everything I really need.... all else is clutter! Time to cut some chords.
Oh, hey..... everyone go tell ZOE to feel better..... she's been eating soup to feel better because her stomach has been icky a couple days now. NO MORE ICKY!!! Although...... my friend, Heidi had also been ill recently with a similar symptom.... damn virusy bugs.... go pick on someone your own size!!!
Gotta mention this morning..... I had a WONDERFUL conversation over a nice cup of coffee. It is so nice to start out Friday mornings with stimulating conversations in a warm environment.... went to Utopia again..... that place just smells sooooooo good when you walk in... breathing in feels like you are tasting everything they have just baked!!! Intoxicating!
Well.....it's off to bed.... will be getting up fairly early... for me anyway... watching another set of the J. Krishnamurti shows. They run about a half an hour each... two on Saturday mornings at 8:00 AM on KCET public television. (hey, that was a plug!! -- I just did free advertising!!!)
Before I start getting too punchy.... I will wrap this up! Good night.... or good morning if you are reading this in different parts of the world... or even differnt times of the day...... okay.... that's it.... I am really going this time......
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Sunday, August 15, 2004
kmc posted this at: 10:44 p.m.OMG... I DID IT!!!
Okay.... so I've been a bit ADD on my creative projects lately... BUT... I just finished a scratchboard artpiece this evening. I have not worked with this medium for YEARS... since high school... junior year even. And I am so incredibly stoked with how well this turned out. The tools that I found at Michael's are perfect.... and it was a bit challenging to think in a different mode... but the results are spectacular.... and I am not one to normally brag about my own artwork (although at this very moment I could tell you at least 5 things wrong with that piece... but I won't go there). This moment is for creative celebration. I am very happy with myself for this event!!! The meditative moments of solitude have paid off! Creativity is reignited... the flame is burning well! I spent Saturday taking pictures at the creek in San Luis with Zoe and Tom... and I got some great captures that day. I feel like it is luck really... I happen to see something that looks phenomenal... or just plain naturally beautiful.... and I see if I can capture that same energy in a frame.... if so.... then CLICK... saved moment.
Today was pretty relaxing for the most part. I finally got to go have coffee with BMAC.... he mentioned something about it must be a trait of people who've worked at The Grid.... scheduling a time to meet with them is very difficult. (*winks* at emdot). I am getting used to the lesson of "patience" from the word .... SOON. All these wonderful teachers in my life. I have an enormous amout of gratitude for them... thank you sincerely for being excellent teacher for me. :)
SO... I am looking forward to the challenge at work next week..... I have to run payroll almost by myself..... at the closing end of our busiest season.... things have been very well prepped for my taking on this task....so all will go very well I am sure. But.... if you don't hear from me for a week.... now you know why.....
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Friday, August 13, 2004
kmc posted this at: 06:33 p.m.My New Pagan Name...
In browsing around today.... I came across this humorous Pagan Name Generator... for those of you who've wondered what your Pagan name might be.... go ahead.... give it a shot! Here are my results:
Your pagan name is
Rhiannon Mist Dream
I have had an incredible week.... This morning was started with a nice meeting at Utopia Bakery. The coffee was good.... croissant very delicious! And the conversation went well. I am still in that awkward stage of finding out about a person.... so, it was nice conversation.... but I was a bit defensive of the topic. I need to learn to relax. All in all it was good.
The day of work was a bit dragging... a lot of handwriting today. Will be glad to just sit and watch AVP tonight at the drive-in. I will gladly come back this evening and give a review. Stay tuned........
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Wednesday, August 11, 2004
kmc posted this at: 7:33 a.m.Helpful Messages...
From an email that I get weekly, I have decided to share something that resounded deeply with me (I've been doing that a lot lately... sharing chords):
Weekly Consciousness Tune-Up
August 8 – 14, 2004
You have eyes, BUT DO YOU SEE?
If we are on a spiritual path, we are going to struggle. It’s not easy. It’s hard to let go of our fears, it’s hard to stop being jealous, it’s hard to constantly work on ourselves.
And the hardest part is seeing. — seeing the true reality. How often have we looked back on a broken friendship or love relationship and thought to ourselves, ‘what did I see in that person!?”
The truth is, we don’t see. As it says in The Zohar, the main text of Kabbalah, “the eyes cannot comprehend everything.”
This is because we are trapped in the moment, trapped within the illusion of the five senses.
So what’s the answer. How do we get out of this trap?
Peel away the layers of our ego.
My father and teacher Kabbalist Rav Berg says our soul is like a lamp which we cover with blankets. Our ego nature conceals the Light within us. Me, me, me, me, me. ‘I can’t believe he said that to me.’ ‘What will they think of me?’ ‘Look at me, I am great.’ ‘Look at me, I’m pathetic.’
Being constantly obsessed with ourselves prevents us from seeing what is really going on.
Only when we remove our ego, piece by piece, are we able to see the truth in situations and people.
The secret is to see others first and ourselves second. Only then can we have the merit to rise above the limitations of our five senses and turn on our sixth sense.
What exactly is the sixth sense? It is the ability to see something we’ve never seen before, to suddenly get the answer to questions we’ve been constantly asking.
After all, what is Kabbalah? It is learning to receive. And we receive not through the intellect, but through connecting to the Light.
This week, the forces of the universe are pushing us to see our purpose, to perceive that which normally eludes us. To connect to this positive influence, we must use the tools of Kabbalah, specifically:
• Transformative sharing
• Getting out of the comfort zone
• Removing the agendas
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This week you can receive this force of seeing that which you are normally blind to, simply by letting go of your ego.
Try it - you’ll like what you see.
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So that is something I have been working on already; I will continue in my path and see - truly see - what occurs. Most of my friends know that I have been on this path of Selflessness and working on making my ego more subservient. Setting aside the views of why people do things to me and observe how I learn from lessons presented to me by my teachers (the catalyst situations). Observe in choiceless awareness... being more openly subjective in my experiences. Not being the "what others do to me"... but rather being true to the Self throughout the lessons.
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Tuesday, August 10, 2004
kmc posted this at: 11:11 p.m.SOLD!!!
I am in shock! I sold my first piece of artwork today!!! I printed a 4x6 of the eucalyptus leaf with a poem framed with it... and she insisted on paying for it!!! Wow, it felt so scary pricing my artwork... sure, I can shoot it, print it, frame it ... make it artsy... but pricing it.... out jumps the modest artist in me.... "uh, I don't know... it's just hobby stuff to me; I wouldn't know where to begin." Luckily I had been to a couple of the Art in the Park events on the central coast and asked a co-worker about her experience purchasing prints.... and voila, I was able to come up with a decent price.
So ... this, along with the cardstock (of which I have one person very interested in purchasing a set)... oh, and how many cards usually come in a "set".... 12, 13, 24??? And it's so hard to look at these pieces objectively.... well, because they feel more subjective... they are my view; how I see this existence, it's who I am only looking outside of me... (geesh, this could get deep). Anyway. I am really excited about this endeavor. I feel it could very well get my creative energies out where they need to be.... shared with others. Next stop... larger matted prints and paintings! Life is beautiful!
I've come to appreciate solitude. I realize it's extraordinary value in my spiritual growth ... how I need this "alone" time to be more in touch with me, to stay more grounded in my energies and to be unattached to physical situations. If you've seen me during my lunch hour (which I know most of my readers haven't)... I am usually by myself next to the creek reading or journaling. Alone, contemplating, connecting, being aware, listening, experiencing... unattached ... in choiceless awareness. Observing the observer. Seeing how I see things. Where my ego enters and being aware of it being there. Knowing when to pull the reins and let my Self take control. It feels as though things are going very well for me; my creativity is bursting out of me and at the same time I feel more connected with my true Self than I ever have.
I still have yet to hear back from the email I sent out.... for the first time in years I feel strong enough to face truths about me via the eyes of friends ... the odd thing is.... I was actually expecting harsh criticism. Not negative or anything, because the email noted that the person observing was to do so with loving intent... so, nothing in loving intent could ever be construed as negative. But I was/am prepared... spiritually strong to view these opinions or observations as lessons or ways to improve myself as a human. Funny though, the first couple emails noted in the "something you could change about you" part, things that were actually equally as positive as the "what I appreciate about you" part. Maybe I will get more feedback this week. I know that people are extremely busy these days, so .... this teaches PATIENCE... I am learning much about patience. Solitude helps with that too..... being patient with me.... talk about a challenge!!
Okay.... babble session over.... off to another realm to learn more... g'nightie-night!
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Monday, August 9, 2004
kmc posted this at: 12:01 p.m.The Weekend Summary...
Aaahhh... the weekend.
Saturday started off beautifully; woke early to listen to J. Krishamurti on Public Television. The videos that the Krishnamurti Society shared were clips that dealt with death and non-attachment... "living with death" was a message that I drew from it. The awareness of non-attachment to things, people, situations, egoic ideas... awareness that should death occur - there would be nothing to fear loosing. Now, some may say that the perspective I just described sounds cold and unloving... but quite the contrary... I am able to love without being attached to the physical aspect of the person, thing, idea... true unconditional love. Love without expectation. Love without judgement. The videos made for some very powerful meditation. Deeply connecting and yet staying unattached. It is quite exhilarating - it is freedom.
My Saturday continued with work on my photos. I found a nice cardstock that I used to print examples of my digital artwork. I am very excited about continuing this venture and printing quite a few cards... who knows... maybe some friends will be the first to receive these creations... and see where I might be able to market them. I have a couple ideas of where to possibly take them. So far I have only a select few images that I chose to print. So a majority of my time Saturday afternoon was organzing and prepping my images to print. Those images now have a folder of their own.
Saturday evening was fun, my roommate and I went to see "The Village" finally. In my opinion... very well done. Bizarre... but WELL done!
Sunday was just as lovely as Saturday. A very meditative morning. Relaxing. More organizational work with the photos and then prepping a scratchboard with an image to start working on. I will post it once I have finished the entire work. It's small. I managed to squeeze in some Sanctuary time ... every now and again. The roomie and I had lunch at Quizno's... venturing "outside" was the whole drive behind that. Later we stopped in at Coldstone Creamery and fed the inner-child in us! :) Who doesn't enjoy a frozen dessert?! We picked up a movie to watch at home... one we both had not seen; "Cold Mountain"... and OMG... very moving. The timeframe may be different, but the same issues with war were felt then as they are now. The same "good men with good intentions gone bad" occured then... unreal "power" given to those who should not wield such a privilege. There are so many avenues I could go into as a review of this movie... but it would take a long time!!! All in all... I found that movie to be so brilliantly well done!
And that was a beautiful weekend!
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Friday, August 6, 2004
kmc posted this at: 04:11 p.m.Rains during Sunshine...
Gentle rains
wash the dust away
to start refreshed
begin another day
and in the morning
dawn's pure light will break
illuminate the drops
the residual evaporates.
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There is always hope. Life is too good to let anything weigh it down for long. The nice thing about living at a divine vibration... things come and go quickly. Lessons learned quickly as well. I realize that my meditating helped me stay grounded during the event. AND, it helped me focus on the only part that I should be focusing on... me and my take on things. Meditating goooood.
Not much else going on in the Life of 'Her'... still painting... picked up another new project... scratchboard drawing. Very challenging, I am looking forward to the results of this new adventurous endeavor. I should be able to get another layer of paint onto my work in progress this weekend too. Gotta remind myself to get out and enjoy the beach weather this weekend, I hear it's supposed to be warm and lovely at the beach... good place to focus.
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Friday, August 6, 2004
kmc posted this at: 07:30 a.m.Daily Meditative Message....
Daily Thought for Friday, August 6, 2004
from Ascended Master Djwhal Khul.
Because I understand the pains of suffering mind, I am filled only with love and kindness for all others I see suffering.
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Gentle reminders, confirmations, etc. All is well. A great way to start this weekend!
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Thursday, August 5, 2004
kmc posted this at: 11:55 a.m.Contemplations...
What weighs heavily
on my mind
another’s perception
of situations
clouded aura, clouded eyes
of struggle’s illusion
…choice
reaction happens.
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My confirmations have remained strong. 1’s and 7’s have been a constant in my contemplations as of late. But it is still a challenge to let go. Observations. Merely observations. Misconstrued. Emotional reaction, rather than responding. Communications stopped… how can one work through something if there is an inability to communicate? This is my current life lesson. Meditations. Standing firm in faith and love. I know who I am.
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Wednesday, August 4, 2004
kmc posted this at: 05:00 p.m.Who Can't Handle the Truth???
I was brave a week or so ago.. I sent out an email asking 25 recipients to (with loving intent) identify 1) what they appreciate about me; and then 2) what they would suggest I change about me. Four people responded to me. I had so prepared myself for facing truths or views from my friends. I felt I was ready to face the truth. Now I am wondering who is the one(s) not ready for being truthful? Or is it really that hard to tell someone something they might need to change? I don't feel badly about informing someone of something if I feel it is negatively affecting them or others around them. So, I was kinda hoping that they would do the same for me. I out-right asked them to tell me honestly things they observe or have observed about me.
It makes me wonder about the "I don't have time to deal with this" perspective people take nowadays. Granted, I know I do that as well... take a while to respond to emails from friends. But, I would be more inclined to answer something like this request if it was a self-discovery tool. Am I just in a world of my own? Am I that out of touch with how people ARE? I base my views on my own perspective of how I treat others around me and how I would like to be treated in return. My focus has been "love-saturated" as of late. Not, the "love" like I am lost without this "love" ... but rather, THE love... saturating all that I do with the energy that I know to be the most positive influential energy that there is. I do realize that not everyone is able or ready to see that same perspective as I do. So, when I encounter "bumps" or situations where people misinterpret things, I have to stay centered in who I am and know that all things will work out for the best.
Overly optimistic? I think not. It's just who I am.
be well... or .... just .... BE
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Monday, August 2, 2004
kmc posted this at: 09:55 p.m.New Photo Pages...
I went to visit Emdot and she had this new link.... so, I decided to set up an account for more photos... (see if I like it better than the current account). So HERE IT IS!!! Tell me what you think compared to the other photos site.
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Sunday, August 1, 2004
kmc posted this at: 11:11 a.m.Another one of those QUIZZIES!
Your Heart is Pink
What Color is Your Heart?
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Like I had to take a quiz to see that one! I am aware of my view on "love"... and I do realize that not all entities share that view. Some day soon... I am in no hurry.
Yesterday was a brilliantly beautiful day. Started the morning out at Simone's house, fresh blueberry muffin! Mmmm! Her nephew (Tony) and neice (Maddie) were helping out with making them. Then we headed off to Morro Bay for a day at the beach. The children took the dog out for a run on the beach and playing "keep away" ball. Too cute! We then opted for a more quiet setting at a park near a fairly new housing development. Very nice park. We had picked up some great sandwiches from Nibblenook (they also make delicious pizzas!). I had noticed a deck in the park that kinda sat away from the main section, so I took an hour while the children and Simone played with Emmett (the dog).... and I meditated. It was sooooo spectacular... warm with gentle ocean breezes now and again.... quiet for the most part, the soft sounds of nature and the ocean waves in the distance. I was surprised that it was actually an hour... felt like just a brief moment had passed. I had only finished up because a couple had walked into the deck where I was sitting. Not that it completely broke my concentration or anything... but it did change the energetics a bit... so I wrapped things up. I don't know, maybe it's just me; but, if I saw someone meditating in an off-the-path kind of setting... I would not walk right into the area and make noises. I would liken that to walking into a church while on a hilarious cell phone call while everyone else was praying. (Since meditation, to me, is the equivalent to prayer) Okay, so that was a small discomfort to an otherwise beautiful day.
That evening a group of us got together for a Full Moon release gathering. A small sacred event where we "let go" of things that have weighed on your mind, emotions, etc. And then you also note the things for which you have gratitude. Well, that is a summary of the event anyway. I consider it to be a very special thing that I do.
Today has been a gentle day so far.... I am off to see the Art in the Park at Dinosaur Caves in Shell Beach. Cute little event of artists gathering. When I get a few good pieces of art together, I will try to get into that and see what happens from there. I could get a few different medium together that I do... the paintings, the photos.... that's the two main things. Off I go.... blog atchya later!
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Thursday, July 29, 2004
kmc posted this at: 08:55 p.m.Ladee-Dahdee-Day...
Name the era, and you can name every artist from it. You've got an eye for design and a knack for feng shui. Color schemes, architecture, and objt d'art - these are all your forts.
What people love: You're the perfect person to shop with.
What people hate: They have to clean their house whenever you come over.
What Kind of Elitist Are You?
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Zoe has found another great quizzie! This one was fun! (Not that they ALL aren't) Self discovery through the power of quizzes.... if you answer honestly... you just might find out something quite interesting about the self!
Okay.... so I plan on posting pictures of my partially completed artwork.... show the progress I've made and then you can track how long it takes me to finish it!! HA! No, seriously though... I do need to let the oil dry, so that will take a while. Then I go in with more details, smaller brushes. I am hoping I stay fairly impressionistic with it. I don't want to turn it into an actual portrait... I want expression through color and style to be there. Why I choose oil as a medium to start back into art is a bit puzzling. I guess if I am going to challenge myself, I go for the big guns!! :) I am pretty pleased so far though. It is a challenge mixing oils though. Not like pastels ... I feel more at ease mixing pastel colors.... the brushes hold onto the previous or more dominant colors... so I need lots of brushes when doing the oil painting. I will get a style down. SOON. ~heh~
So... I am still reading Mystic Heart by Wayne Teasdale... and I am so impressed by the his words. I feel as though it is a strong confirmation of what is already in me now... and there are pieces of information that help me better understand the intricate interlocking details of beliefs. Tolerance has definitely found it's way back into who I am. I feel more compassionate... which is extraordinarily outstanding as far as spiritual achievements to me. My ego wants to shout out, "I am soooo proud of me!"... but, that's the ego. If I could only learn how to make the ego more subservient. I will do it.
Okay... that's enough for today... more later.
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