Tuesday, December 10, 2002 -
Ok. I tunneled back up out of my hole. I think everything's going to be ok. I feel better than I did last night about the interview (again) and I'm going to go with that feeling. Plus, Emry's comment helped too (: You're right, you never know. I think I'm just going to let it sit and stop stressing. I'll find something else (God help me) if I don't get this job. However, I don't know how many interviews I can live through!!! Somehow, someway, it'll all work out - right?
On another note Firefly and I attempted to remove the after - interview stress last night by taking a journey back to the 80's. We watched a very very special conglomeration of shows. First we watched My Little Ponies. That was beyond special. I can't even begin to explain. Then we watched the Huggabunch Somethinginother. Which also was special because it was all about this world through the mirror where you hug all day. Then it was time for an episode of Care Bears followed by Jayce and the Wheeled Warriors (or something special like that). It was truely magical. I also watched Lilo and Stich (which was actually pretty good - I liked it and the bubbly drawing style). And can't forget Animal Crossing - I'm making my house pretty and fruit filled. It has a movning UFO in the middle. And for some reason I bought a science table. And the guy I liked to pick on because he was an ass moved to Osaka. I have to make new enemies now.
Tuesday, December 10, 2002 -
Well, I lived. I'm not entirely sure how the interview went. It went ok, I think, but not great. This is not shocking. Interviewing is not my X-man talent. I still am not entirely clear on the job nor am I sure I could actually do it. Unfortunately, I fear that this came across rather proficiently in the interviewing. There's a million things I wish I'd had done differently now that I think about it. And they gave me a friggin' test. What is that about? They made me copy an ad as best as possible using pictures and stuff they provided for me. On a Mac. Yeah, so it's only been like two years since I used a Mac. Mostly this is an issue because I use a lot of keyboard shortcuts on pcs that don't translate to Macs. *sigh* Oh well. I've pretty much ditched hope in this one. I was upbeat after the inverview but after spending the last few hours reassessing I've decided I said some pretty stupid things. I was babbling on about being creative. Quite frankly it didn't matter because I'd be setting ads, not creating them. I don't know where I was. I just can't concentrate. I was so nervous. Finishing sentences wasn't exactly my talent either......oh god.....*bangs head on keyboard* I'm so broke. I don't know what I'm going to do. I think I'm going to crawl into bed and cry. Somehow I'm talking myself lower by the minute.
Monday, December 9, 2002 -
My nerves are KILLING me. I am so freaked out. I wasn't made for job hunting I tell you. I feel like I'm going to explode cuz my tummy is such a friggin mess. I've gone over all the questions I think they'll ask a million and one times. I have to leave in about ten minutes. AHHHHHH.
Last night Sarah and I checked the place out (so I knew I could find it in the morning). It was a little podunk (not that bad tho, really) and the sign was amazingly ugly for a place hiring a graphic designer. Not to mention it was 10:30 and nobody was there. Does that mean they expect me to work alone in the office building at night? Ummm....yeah, scary much. So, now I'm trying to convince myself I don't want the job that badly in hopes of calming my nerves. Not working, by the way. Not working one little bit. Jason says I have to go. He's mean.
Ok. I'm going to go to the bathroom one more time in hopes of riding myself of any possible pee that could want out of my body in the next couple of hours. Wish me luck. I'm so scared! -_- I hate myself sometimes.
Monday, December 9, 2002 -
ARGH. I'm starving. I wanted to make a pastaroni but there's a slight problem. You see, I have a rather tall fiance that doesn't understand that if you put things up wayyyy high that I can't reach them. He's asleep. Which is why, by the way, I have to make dinner for myself in the first place (the horrors). I've tried everything from spoons to brooms but can't get to the food. There's a lip on the top of the cupboards that won't allow me to just shove anything off. All of the chairs wobble. Don't want to die for my food. So, guess I'll just be hungry. Dagnabit.
Sunday, December 8, 2002 -
This or That Tuesday
I have a couple minutes before I have to leave. Nothing else can be done in this short of time. SO here we go.
1. Go out and buy gifts, or shop online/mail order? Online! I hate shopping. It requires dealing with people, moving, and....ick.
2. Gift cards/certificates or pick out gifts? Pick out gifts. I know if you get gift cards then people can get what they want but I have too much fun buying really "special" useless gifts. It's a thing I have.
3. Pay cash or charge holiday gifts? Check. I do everything with check. However, I have nothing to pay with this year. Unless a credit card miraculously increases like what happened last Christmas. Then I use credit.
4. Are most of your gifts mailed or given in person? In person. I like to be there.
5. Are you an early-bird or last-minute holiday shopper? Last minute. Which is why I don't usually get a chance to do my preferable shopping online.
6. If you shop in stores...big chain stores or smaller specialty stores? Usually big chain stores. Less places to go. Cheaper usually.
7. Wrap gifts yourself or have them wrapped at the store or mall? Myself. Hee Hee.
8. Shopping on *Black Friday* (day after Thanksgiving)...did you or didn't you? Never ever ever even if you shoved a fork in my eye. I hate crowds. I hate waiting in lines to buy stuff. Ick.
9. Is your holiday gift list large or small? This year? VERY VERY Small. Nonexistant, as a matter of fact.
10. Is it better to give or to receive? I enjoy both more than I should.
Sunday, December 8, 2002 -
Recent "fun" facts I feel the need to share:
1. I am totally and compltely freaking out about this interview. I bought razors and shaved. I bought new scrunchies. I bought new lip gloss. I tried to buy new shoes (my dress shoes aren't friendly to people with knee issues). I'm hunting for some decent dress clothing - hopefully to borrow some from Fu. I even bought nylons (ick).
2. Interesting fact I just remembered. Both Firefly and I are scared of nylons. We learned this when playing scattagories.
3. I had a dream last night that Hewy, Dewy, and Lewy (DuckTales WooooWooo)(spelling?) were trying to kill Jason. *shrugs*
4. Actually, a couple days ago for a couple minutes I was convinced my boss was trying to kill me. Then logic kicked in. He keeps buying extra bagels and then not being able to eat them and offering to me. Of course I accept free food and eat them. Which, is really quite nice but my overactive imagination decided he was poisoning me because somehow he found out about the harassment issues being brought up against him (well, sorta maybe him) that I'm semi-involved in.
5. I like to pet Wasabi.
Saturday, December 7, 2002 -
I'm trying to remember everything. It's mostly a blur right now. I haven't felt good. I have a low threashold for pain. Yup, that's about all you need to know about my life lately. That and I have a LOT to do in the next couple days. I'm really really trying to prep for this interview. I want this job. I want it so bad I can taste it. Which is bad. Because I have my hopes way far too high up there.....Keep your fingers crossed! Meep! I had some funny things to share and now I can't remember them. Dagnabit.
Thursday, December 5, 2002 -
I'm an INNOCENT . Chances are you blush at the mention of the word "penis." You are virginal and wide-eyed, the sort of bride an evil old man would search for. Well, at least you ACT innocent. Maybe you're fooling all of us.
Hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha. Hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha. Hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha. Hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha. Hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha. Hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha. I find this funny.
Thursday, December 5, 2002 -
I'm running on some many different feelings right now!!! Eep. So, I finally got ahold of that company I was talking about. Wasn't that a fiasco. I couldn't understand the lady's name so I asked the receptionist and she's all oh! That's definately Jan. So I left a message for Jan. Then I listen to the message and I'm all ummm...that's not Jan. So finally five hours later I decide she's saying Chris. So I call and get to talk to the right person. I have an interview Monday (AIEEEEEE). However, I'm still a little concerned about the message I left for Jan. Oh well, I can explain that away - but not without looking like a dumbass. Anyways, so it'd be full time about $11/hour. Hello doubling my paycheck. Plus, no union fees. And the job is basically all the good parts of my job with the Whitworthian last year. It's like I was their entire publications department with that job and now I get to be just the designy chick. Woot! Cross your fingers for me - I REALLY REALLY REALLY want this job. I could be wrong but I also am pretty sure I'm the only one applying (probably because it's 4pm-12:30am).
Wednesday, December 4, 2002 -
I am a complete and utter disaster area. I slept most of the day away. That's my number one way to combat sickness. My throat is still on fire and my tounge is annoying the living heck outta me.
I just missed a call from a job I'd quite rather like to have. I'm hoping they are offering an interview. This concerns me slightly too because I'm sick and that doesn't come off well. I don't know if they'd be happy I still came even tho I'm sick or upset because they thought I might spread it to them! Argh. Not to mention I can't dress very well cuz I have nothing decent to wear. *pulls hair out* All this and I haven't even called them back yet. I can't until tomorrow morning. This could drive me crazy.
Also, I had a rather ackward discussion with my boss about looking for a new job. I ended up promising I'd give them two weeks notice. So, here's to hoping if I do miraculously get a job that they don't want me right away. I'm overworrying about everything. This isn't very good for my stupid cold. *screams and pulls out hair*.
Tuesday, December 3, 2002 -
Oh my goodness gracious pants on fire I feel like crap. This apparently isn't going to be my day. First of all, my period started. This is great fun. On the first day I always am in great pain and continoually have stomach issues that usually result in puking out both sides. Glad I shared that, aren't you? Then today I also have a horrid cold which I'm sure will turn into strep throat because it's concentrated in the throat and that's what always happens. Then my left knee flipped out. THEN as if that wasn't enough pain and discomfort there are like six inflamed taste buds on the tip of my tounge. At least I think that's what they are. Ugh. Good thing I don't work today. Unfortunately, I also can't seem to sleep. I'm on the way to the physical therapists. Hope that's over soon. Not entirely sure how I'm gonna survive it! LOL!
Sunday, December 1, 2002 -
I am so tired, but I haveta type out this dream I just woke up from before I forget it. It wasn't that fantastic, but I feel the need to remember it cuz it was cool and like Detective Lissay.
It all started in this gigantic 5 story shopping center that still was grocery store and the bottom floor was the gas station. It was on a downtown busy street. It was for some reason empty down there (no customers, no employees) and I was on my lunch break so I walked out the door to go to my car. Suddenly, this tall black guy with a gun told me to give him all the money. He didn't scare me at all cuz he was all nice and stuff. He was funny and kept cracking special jokes. His partner was a old lady who was also nice. I was trying not to remember anything about them because I didn't really want them to get caught. Anyways, after I made sure he got ALL the money (I even made sure he got the 1,246 dollar bill (yes, this was apparently a real bill in my dream?) they left. I even told the dude that he had picked the right day to rob us cuz we had a ton more money than usual. Then he's like "oh really? How much do you usually have?" and I'm all "uhh...$300" - which was a lie, but I didn't really want to be robbed again. Then they came rushing back in. The old lady's all "I forgot my keys!" and mumbled something about her husband who worked at Walmart being angry. So they rushed into a completely different car than they came in (they just left the nice blue camero for a big white jeep).
So, I waited a bit (aparently I wasn't traumatized by being held up and wanted the bad guys to get away cuz I thought they were nice) and then went upstairs. The manager (which, by the way is the same that I have now) was running around in circles in his office talking about what a great day he had been having then I'm all uh...we were robbed...and they got away with a lot more money than they should have because nobody dropped any today. So, he made me call 911 and wait in a little room for the police to arrive.
They come and start questioning me. Then we find out that the old guy and lady were found burned to death. I'm all sad and can't figure out how that happened. So, I decide to tell all to try to at least solve what happened to them.
Suddenly we cut to myself at my really big college (that I've never seen before). However, I still have the same teachers as I did in real life. I'm babbling to myself about the teacher(that I have three classes with in that one day). Apparently I've skipped a lot of classes, but I decide the robbery is a valid excuse and decide to go back to my car and go home (weird things happen when I go to my car, by the way).
Suddenly this group of four Japanese girls that I recognize as members of a semi-popular music group are in front of me talking about something "suspicious." One grabs a folder with something on it that I remember from what the guy who held me up was babbling about. So, I stealthily follow them around (mind you, I'm still hobbling with my gimpy knees). Somehow Sarah joins me and I manage to snatch the folder and stick it in my jacket. Once they find out someone has taken it they stand at the only way to get out of the little area we are in and pat everyone down. I hold Sarah's NaNoWriMo journal over it and when they're all, ah, what's in there? I pull out a thick stack of her rewrites and they let me pass. So then it turns out the 4 girls and the guy and the old lady were all part of a secret software scheme. They were making this wonderful product and now I had it in my hot little hands. The girls were mutinous and had taken over the group, kicking out the guy and lady who were the real inventors. Now they intended to make millions on this software. Depressed over the extreme money loss and death threats the guy and lady had planned on stealing some money and escaping the country.
Anyways, so I went to the puter lab (stuff still stuffed in my coat and ready to fall out at any time) and the friggin girls follow me. So, I go to the bathroom. Which are absolutely disgusting. I am about ready to put the folder in my backpack when I hear them enter and start fighting. Apparently two of the girls are trying to take over and then one of the two plans to be the supreme leader and kick everyone else out. I then drop everything i'm holding into a gigantic piles of sludge and God knows what on the floor. I gasp and then wake up. The End.
I'm now going back to bed.
Friday, November 29, 2002 -
Quick blog. Probably won't do all that I have to say justice so be prepared for the longer version if need be at a later date.
Thanksgiving was wonderful. I had fun, good food, and lotsa thanks. I also learned these very important lessons.
1. Hitting yourself in the boob with your knee brace does not feel good
2. It might not be a good idea to eat things that appear in front of your face. Lieko kept feeding me an endless supply of pickles. Today, I can't stop farting (just to clarify, they are smelless farts). I'm blaming it on the pickle overdose.
3. Spelling out all of your food with your body prior to eating it is entertaining.
4. Your eyes are the same size they always will be when you are born. That's why baby's always look like they have gigantic mutant eyes.
5. If you offer to help with dishes you get lotsa wonderful leftovers. (:!!! Yay.
6. Don't expect to sit through a movie with Firefly, Lieko, and I and expect to hear it. Or at least expect to be yelling "Shut the hell up" every few minutes.
7......I think that's all.
I gotta go to work! Ack! More to come!
Thursday, November 28, 2002 -
Googlism's thoughts on Thanksgiving
- thanksgiving is a romantic dud
- thanksgiving is every day for the ex
- thanksgiving is closed please delete your bookmark for this site as it will no longer be available
- thanksgiving is not a day
- thanksgiving is a noun and a verb
- thanksgiving is celebrated wherever strawberries are grown
Thursday, November 28, 2002 -
Happy Turkey Day, everyone!!! Today I am going over to my friendies housie. Should be fun. (: Happy. Happy. Joy. Joy.
I'd like to share that I just got out of the shower and I am now afraid of it for two reasons. One, of course, is the slipping thing. However, the other is that there is this hole in the wall behind the shower head and spiders keep falling out of it into my shower. (ew) I have this horrid fear of spiders. I know that's such a girl thing, but I can't kick it. Spiders just terrify me for no particular reason.
I'd also like to share that I am apparently growing exponentially no matter what I do. It's rather scary. I think it might be because I am doing a lot less walking with this knee thing? That's the only thing I can think of because I have been dieting quite well for the most part and it's not slowing the process. I've even been attempting exercises, but *most* require the ability to walk. Anyways, I have discovered this presents quite a bit of a problem. I fit into like none of my clothing, especially my dress up clothing. Unfortunately I'm also broke. And unforutunately it's Thanksgiving. Wish me luck trying to come up with something suitable to wear....
Wednesday, November 27, 2002 -
This or That
1. Stuffing: baked inside the turkey, or separately? I guess inside the turkey but I don't particular care. I like stuffing any way you make it!!!
2. Fresh or frozen turkey? This is going to be exciting. Once again I don't really care. Turkey's so-so on my list any way. As long as I didn't meet the turkey or have to see it killed (a little to fresh!) then it's all ok.
3. Cranberry sauce: jellied or whole berry? YAY! CRANBERRIES!!! I like it any way I can get it. Kinda like something else I can think of....(kidding)....
4. Stay home or visit friends/relatives? Visit! Um, duh. Otherwise it would be Thanksgiving a la McDonalds!
5. Do you cook Thanksgiving dinner, or let someone else do it? ELSE! ELSE! ELSE! (Hence previous McDonalds comment).
6. Traditional turkey dinner, or an alternative (such as vegetarian)? Traditional.
7. Regular potatoes or sweet potatoes? Regular. And lots of them! WOOT!
8. Homemade gravy, or the jarred stuff? I really don't care for gravy. If I have to eat it, I prefer Homemade.
9. What part of the turkey do you prefer...dark or white meat? White. Definately white.
10. After dinner: football or Christmas movies? I hate football, so movies it is. Not that I'm a big fan of Christmas movies either nor have I ever watched them on Thanksgiving. I'm just saying.
Wednesday, November 27, 2002 -
I'm at a standstill for what to do, so of course, I'm blogging.
I have that damn "She Fucking Hates Me" song in my head again. Good thing Jason's not home. I discovered it's on the Puddle of Mudd CD that I actually own and it's playing repeatedly. I only think they have one, so that's pretty easy to do. I bought it after I saw them open for Godsmack the summer before last. I need to go to another concert. I'ts been over a year. We *had* tickets to Creed, the first time they *were* coming back in May. They are on their third rescheduling here, so we kinda gave up. Lack of money big factor.
I need to change my blog. I am finding the layout depressing. I need something more in the holiday spirit. Not that I'm in the holiday spirit but maybe if my blog is I will be? Hahah. That's logic for you.
I need to write another butt poem. That'll get them creative juices flowing.
Butt Poem #4
Puppet Butt.
Talks out it's ass.
Dress-Up Butt.
Looks like DiCaprio.
Not sure what that was supposed to mean. I was just spouting off again. Woot.
Monday, November 25, 2002 -
Let's see. What's news? It's getting colder. Just hoping it doesn't you know - the s - word. I feel pukey. Maybe cuz I just slept forever cuz I had to wake up earlier than is sane this morning. Now I have to get to work. There's some jobs I want to apply for. I think I might have a shower first. What I really want to do is bathe but I still fear doing that with my stupid knees. Stupid stupid knees. This knee thing is getting old. I just want to be normal again. Ok, as normal as I ever was. You know.
Another special thing to note. A while ago Jason bought me the gross cream cheese. I decided to do something with it - Grandma always made us this special cheesecake with pudding, cream cheese, and milk. I figured it was simple enough. However, when I made it it curdled up all strange and is still liquidy. Couldn't for the life of me figure what was wrong. Until today when I picked up the package. Jason grabbed Jello, not pudding (oops). That was pirty. I thought it was a little too soupish!!!
In other news: The Butt Poem #4
Silly Butt.
Thinks it's a burger.
Jolly Butt.
Wears a santa hat.
I'm running out of good butt poems. Can you tell?
Sunday, November 24, 2002 -
Can I complain? Thanks. I can't figgin concentrate in this study!!! It's a good friggin thing that I friggin am not in school anymore. I need quiet. This boy over here accross from me eternally has noise going and feels the need to neverendingly comment on it. Wether it's music, south park, or television. Right now it's football. Argh. I was going to work on design stuff (portfolio, Cliquehappy, blog...), but now I'm going to find something else to do cuz I can't concentrate!!! End complaining.
Sunday, November 24, 2002 -
Ahhh. I'm feeling much better. Just ate for the first time in 24 hours. There's no food in our house! There's stuff to make but we're all out of the ingredients to make them (milk, butter, cheese, meat). My head was all achey cuz of it. I think I'm starting to function again. I have to work the morning shift again tomorrow so I only have a few hours to get everything done I wanted to get done today.
I now have Thanksgiving off. Which is good cuz now I get to actually eat the meal, not the leftovers, but it's also bad cuz I was really counting on the holiday pay. Oh well. I guess I didn't lose that much. I get 6 hours of holiday pay on holidays whether I work or not. If I do work then it's time and a half. If that makes sense. So, I'm just going to buck up and enjoy the holiday.
The Butt Poem #3
Flabby butt.
Wiggles back and forth.
Jiggly butt.
Or is that pudding?
I know you are in awe of my butt poetry.
Saturday, November 23, 2002 -
Nothing really to say. It's been a long day. I'm very tired cuz I had to work the morning shift. 4:00 is too early to be waking up in the morning!!! Especially because I slept like SHIT all night. That's a long story I don't want to get into. So, I present you with prose.
The Butt Poem #2
Cold butt.
Cheeks are stiff.
Frozen butt.
Eat my popsicle.
Look for more incredibly butt poetry to come!!!
Friday, November 22, 2002 -
What a week. I've been knocked out (out, not up) all week and I'm not sure why. Sure, work was exhausting but seriously, I shouldn't be this tired. It's starting to worry me. I haven't been able to do anything except work and sleep.
Today I ordered work pants. Online, so it'll be a while but that's all I can handle right now. I had just enough on one of my credit cards for that, thank god. My zipper busted out of one of them. Apparently the diet I've been atempting needs to be upped a few notches. I thought I was doing pretty good but I can't seem to stop growing. I even canned eating fast food/out (only like did that three times in the last month and a half or so). I almost had chocolate cut out. Managed for about two weeks and then I started getting depressed again and that went down the crapper. Someone actually asked me when I was "due" yesterday. (Yes, I'm quite fat, but I'm not friggin pregnant). I couldn't decide wether to scream or run away crying, so being that I was at work I smiled polietly and did neither. Then, the guy in the kiosk lectured me about being nicer to that same lady. I also repressed the urge to tell him she was lucky she escaped with me still being polite.
Anyways, tomorrow I have the morning shift so I'm trying to get everything done quickly so I can get to bed early tonight. Wish me luck, I only have like 6 hours or so!
Friday, November 22, 2002 -
The Butt Poem
Little Butt.
Has three cheeks.
Mutant butt.
Always squeaks.
Tuesday, November 19, 2002 -
Dead to the world again. While I'm being dead I'm also going to do a this or that Tuesday. Imagine that.
1. Long or short hair? Mine or in general? Guess either way it's definately long. I tend to think men with long hair are cute but it has to be the right kinda long. Not the greasy gross kinda long. Very few men can pull it off.
2. Microwave or conventional oven? Microwave. Although the oven tends to cook better and less fakey I'm not a patient person.
3. Plain or Peanut M&M's? Peanut. Hands down. The only downside is you get less in a pack!
4. "101 Dalmations"...animated or live-action version? I don't like 101 Dalmations. The whole puppy-kidnapping thing is just too damn horrifying to a pet lover like me.
5. Drink out of bottle/can or pour into a glass? I prefer it in a glass with ice but that doesn't stop me from being lazy.
6. Sunlight or moonlight? That one's easy. Moonlight.
7. Kermit the Frog or Miss Piggy? I found both rather annoying. Fozzie and Animal were the best. If I have to pick between those two I'd have to go Piggy.
8. Glasses or contact lenses (or neither)? Neither! Go me and good vision.
9. Action movies or chick flicks? Chick flicks. I'm all about the cheese.
10. Toilet seat...up or down? Uh, down? What kinda question was that.
Tuesday, November 19, 2002 -
I blame this on Firefly. My new toy, Googlism
chadder is some "polar bear repellent"
melissa is the bomb diggetty
melissa is microsoft's fault
melissa is a vibrant
melissa is known as an excellent tranquilliser and sleeping aid
jason is a buttmuffin
jason is a sick bastard
jason is when he freezes a woman's face and then breaks it into pieces
sex is your guinea pig?
sex is your brain condensed from "brain sex"
Fucking is a small village in Upper Austria whose name is unique and has existed since the year 1070. (learn a new thing every day)
poop is supposed to be fun
poop is nirvana nirvana is poop poop is nirvana nirvana is poop poop is nirvana nirvana is poop
Tuesday, November 19, 2002 -
I feel bedraggled. *dies* 7 hours of midshift is wearing on the nerves, but it's like 8 is pushing it past draining to blah. 8 hours in the morning is one thing because there's no people! Ugh. I'm not really complaining because I need the money but don't expect me to be alive this week at all. Last night I went to bed at 8:00!!! I haven't done that since I was like ten. I'm still dead and I have two more of these type of shifts to live thru. Then another seven one. Then a day off! Then a morning shift.....then....-------- zzzzzzz. Gotta go to work. I'm gonna be late!
Sunday, November 17, 2002 -
Firefly you sounded down about your NaNoWriMo. I'd like to say that I just finally caught up on it and I think it's turning out very well. (: You have to keep writing it because I have to know what happens next! It drives me crazy to read these things one chapter at a time. I get into it and then suddenly it stops and I'm like...eep! Now what?
I would also like to add that Cole and Torn are my favorites so far. I *think* I like Tabit too, she's not far behind. I'm, however, not a big fan of Ian. I think he's just a little too....Ian for me. You know? Becca is annoying me but I think I could still like her. She's kinda in limbo right now. I'm intrigued by who she turned out to be. I didn't even see that one coming!
*Turns into NaNoWriMo cheerleader* Yay! Keep those words a coming. 10,000! 20,000! 30,000! 40,000! GOOOOOOAAAAAALLLL!!!!
Pretend that was some sort of cheer. Now, if only I could take my own advice. I'm so incredibly stuck on mine right now too. I'm neverendingly impressed by all of the stories I have read so far (Fu, Firefly, Lieko). They are all wonderful and I gotta see how they turn out!!! So, write away, little pixies. Why pixies? We don't ask.
Sunday, November 17, 2002 -
I'm itching for a new blog layout. However, I am still behind on CH layouts and my portfolio layouts and that whole loans coming up and need to get a job thing.....so.....
Saturday, November 16, 2002 -
I'm becoming a Fantaholic. I blame Leandra and Caley's alter egos.
Saturday, November 16, 2002 -
God, I feel like crap. Not that this is an unusual shocker. Mornings always equal stomach aches for me. Today I also can't walk (hobble?) straight. I'm all over the place.
Last night we went to see Harry Potter and Cham (at least that's what the ticket stub said - um...who's Cham, haha?). It was very good. I personally was impressed and amused at how it came out. I am, however, like ten times more excited for the next one. The third book is where it starts to really get good, if you ask my personal opinion.
In other news, Fu got a kitty. It's a very cute kitty. It's a very nameless kitty. I'm a very jealous Lissa.
I work the night shift tonight. I used to love night shifts, but now they kinda scare me. I don't know why. I'm erattic (Sp?) like that. The other sucky thing is it cuts into my Trading Spaces time. *boo,boo*
Friday, November 15, 2002 -
Morning!
Wow. Last night was special. I had a bunch off odd dreams and a lot of very ragged sleep. I don't remember much of the dreams tho. Just bits and pieces.
Today, however, is a big event! HARRY POTTER!!! Woot. (BTW-almost wrote HAPPY PORRER. Don't ask). Fu gotted tickets for her, Jason and I. Hopefully Rachel and Jamie picked theirs up too, eh?
On a sidenote. You know what's really annoying? Jars that are too long for your untensils so you get jam all over your hand. oooOooOo that makes me ANGRY!
Friday, November 15, 2002 -
Morning!
Wow. Last night was special. I had a bunch off odd dreams and a lot of very ragged sleep. I don't remember much of the dreams tho. Just bits and pieces.
Today, however, is a big event! HARRY POTTER!!! Woot. (BTW-almost wrote HAPPY PORRER. Don't ask). Fu gotted tickets for her, Jason and I. Hopefully Rachel and Jamie picked theirs up too, eh?
On a sidenote. You know what's really annoying? Jars that are too long for your untensils so you get jam all over your hand. oooOooOo that makes me ANGRY!
Thursday, November 14, 2002 -
I'm so out of steam. I don't think theres a chance that my NaNoWriMo novel's going to get done. I've tried to write it every day this week and can't seem to get anywhere. I'm frustrated and just....blah. I'll keep trying tho. Can't hurt. Maybe if I get past this block it'll take off and I can get back on track?
Thursday, November 14, 2002 -
While I'm busy being a slug I might as well do a this or that tuesday.
1. Hershey's Kisses: with or without almonds? Without. I like to let them disolve in my mouth. I am rather fond of the new mint ones too. They make me happy.
2. Wizard of Oz: Scarecrow or Tin Man? I'm still not that big of fan of Wiz of Oz ... and I don't particularly remember the personalities of either. But, going on a whim I'm going to say Tin Man for the fuck of it.
3. Meat eater or vegetarian? Definately meat eater. I couldn't be a vegetarian no matter how much I adore animals because I really love meat...if it's the right kind. I am very particular. I love hamburger. Chicken is okay. I really like fast food chicken, or fried. I love salami, pepperoni, sausage, bacon, etc. However, I disklike steak, seafood, pork chops, ribs, etc. Icky.
4. Buy books or borrow them? I prefer to buy. However, being of the compeltely broke variety my current book status is in borrow mode.
5. At the bank: ATM or human teller? That's a toughie. I don't particularly like interacting with people. Bank tellers seem to be especially difficult because they insist on striking up conversations. Kinda like coffee girls. However, I also don't really trust myself or ATMS.
6. Oil or gas (or other) heat? I prefer the heat we had at home home. I think it was gas?
7. Pen or pencil? Depends on what I'm doing. I'm also very particular about my writing utensils. If I'm just plain old writing, pen all the way. If I'm doing math or sketching, then pencil first. Make way for mistakes!
8. Drive or use public transit? Drive. I fear the bus and am always afriad of ending up in timbuck too. Plus, I don't have the patience to work with someone else's schedule. I prefer to be able to push the time to the limit as to give myself the maximum amount of sleep. No time for walking and waiting here. Not to mention, I like jaming to my own music, in my own temperature, singing and picking my nose if I so desire.
9. Who IS James Bond: Sean Connery or Pierce Brosnan (or any of the others in between)? Hell if I know. I've never actually managed to sit thru a Bond movie.
10. Your ideal breakfast: full (bacon/sausage, eggs, pancakes, etc) or continental (bagels, muffins, fruit, cereal)? It's, once again, relative. I dislike eggs and cereal. Everything else works for me. I really love muffins. I prefer waffles to pancakes.
Thursday, November 14, 2002 -
God, what is wrong with me? I think I'm turning into a slug. The kind that doesn't apparently care cuz they are letting their life go down the drain while they do nothing. Not that slugs particularly care due to the fact that they are slugs. I suppose slugs don't like themselves that much either. Is it strange that I should be comforted by this idea? No, because it doesn't make sense, Melissa. It doesn't make sense. Sense. Doesn't. Make. Slug.
Thursday, November 14, 2002 -
God, what is wrong with me? I think I'm turning into a slug. The kind that doesn't apparently care cuz they are letting their life go down the drain while they do nothing. Not that slugs particularly care due to the fact that they are slugs. I suppose slugs don't like themselves that much either. Is it strange that I should be comforted by this idea? No, because it doesn't make sense, Melissa. It doesn't make sense. Sense. Doesn't. Make. Slug.
Wednesday, November 13, 2002 -
Very stressed. Here's the breakdown. Starting last night.
11/12 @ 9:00PM - Enter hysterical depression. Freak out, flee house (as much as a gimp can flee). Cry uncontrollably. End up in Whitworth parking lot. Freak out even more. Lots of hatred is channeled toward that place.
11/12 @ 9:30PM - Return home. Manical driving too scary cuz can't seem to function enough to drive or even see for that matter. Don't want to live at this point in time but don't want to damange mom and dad's car either. So, huddle outside on the wet pine needles with my stuffed Mummford. Babbling incessant insanities.
11/12 @ 10:00PM - Jason realizes I'm freaked out and somehow cheers me up (he's good at that). Makes me brownies. However, my hysterical depression fits always drain my energy and make me sick or headachy. This one was bad enough to do all three.
11/13 @ 4AM - Wake up. Can't sleep because of horrid migraine. Take medicine. Try to go back to bed.
11/13 @ 6AM - Wake up. Can't sleep because of horrid stomach ache. Can't make self puke. Feel like crap. Consider calling in sick. Don't. Need money.
11/13 @ 8AM - Give up on sleep. Look for work uniform. Takes an hour to find it. Is hiding in couch cushions.
11/13 @ 11AM - Work starts. Migraine is still hiding above my eyes. It's not that bad but it's there waiting to attack if I get too stressed.
11/13 @ noon - Autodial failure on Veeder Root alarm. Not a huge deal, but forshadows rest of day.
11/13 @ 2:22PM - Keypad stops letting people enter phone number or slide debit/credit. Incessantly says "WELCOME TO SAFEWAY." Technology resets.
11/13 @ 3:00PM - Keypad does it again. Call technology. Tech gets sent out. What we're supposed to do in the process without credit cards working, etc is beyond me. Starting to get stressed out. Migraine getting worse.
11/13 @ 3:15PM - Entire system suddenly OUT OF SERVICE. Call technology. Says there's something wrong with the power. Tells me to check breakers, etc. To no avail. Finally, guy working on pumps realized he may have triggered something. He can't fix it either. End up having to call the company that does our system rather than just our technology guys because they are clueless on the issue. Finally, and hour and a half later it's fixed. In the meantime I've been trying to fix it, be on the phone with technology, and chase off extremely pissed off customers. Did I mention this was also during a rush since it was the middle of the day? Say we had about 6 customers every five minutes. That's 72 unhappy people in one hour. I think. Maybe I can't do math. Stressful? YES! VERY STRESSFUL! *holds head* I'm just glad I'm home now. I'm hoping sanity will return!!!
Tuesday, November 12, 2002 -
Down in the dumps again. (God, that's a dorky phrase). Anyways, yeah. Had two days off. Not sure where they've gone. Know I haven't gotten ANYTHING done. I've gotta get out of this funk or I'm going to be in deep shit. (dumps, if you will). Haven't written any of my story. Haven't paid any bills. Haven't gotten stamps. Couldn't even find a friggin book so I can learn FLASH. Haven't gotten started on Christmas presents. Haven't called up on any jobs. Haven't gotten my financial aid loans reduced. Haven't gotten my resume together. Haven't cleaned up the apartment. Haven't written back to anyone in my family. Haven't done anything!!! Argh.
Why not? I just can't seem to be productive. I know that's a lame ass excuse, I know. I have got to find a way out of this funk. I just give up and sit around and be depressed. Sleep a lot and dream about dying, you know, same ol'.... same ol'..... I am starting think what really should be at the top of my list is get my insurance company to send me a insurance card so I can change doctors and get some help....
Tuesday, November 12, 2002 -
I should go to bed. I have to wake up before too late tomorrow cuz of a physical therapy appointment. I'm not much tired tho.
Today I went and played with friends. We ate hot dogs in a blanket (yum!), played Animal Crossing (I heart that game), watched them play DDR (grumpy that I can't play - stupid knees), and watched Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back. Then I came home cuz Jason was lonely. Magically all he's done since I got back is play Final Fantasy and sleep. *grumble grumble* Oh well.
I'm stuck on my story again. Creative dribble. ----
Monday, November 11, 2002 -
So, I'm ecstatic cuz I gotted a copy of FLASH today! WOOT - FIREFLY MY HERO! (Woot). I also got Freehand and Fireworks and a quite updated Dreamweaver. I'm happy happy cuz I desperately need these to get any chance of succeeding in the graphic design market these days. However, now I desperately need some "how to" action. Anyways, I open up FLASH and am all like....God...this looks a lot like Director 6. I took a multimedia class like forever ago (we're talking freshman year of college) and it specialized it Director 6. So, I look it up and lo' and behold, Macromedia made Director 6 too. o.O That explains a lot. So, I sorta know how to use it (big sorta).
Monday, November 11, 2002 -
Finally posted the boring chapter of doom. I apologize to anyone who reads it. On the other hand, it was even worse to write, so I get some sympathy, eh? LOL. Next chapter = much more fun. WOOT! I also, I may add, am well aware of just how "conventiently" everything works out. Next chapter we finally discover the real plot line and the chapter after than we FINALLY meet our final main character. Took long enough, eh? I'm not convinced I'm going to be able to do this all in 50,000 words! Scary, eh? I could be working on this one novel for the rest of my life!!!
Sunday, November 10, 2002 -
This is my desktop right now. Just thought I'd share. I have no idea where I got this special special image.
Sunday, November 10, 2002 -
*is feeling spiffy wearing Safeway saftey vest*
*sneezes*
Today is the day. That I sneezed.
Ten things I heart.
01. I heart......Jason
02. I heart......Woikaholics
03. I heart......Ty's cuteness (7 hours of trading spaces that I taped last night! YES!)
04. I heart......money. Lotsa money.
05. I heart......my neopets.
06. I heart......PaintChat
07. I heart......eye boogies
08. I heart......SLEEP
09. I heart......wet hair in freezing weather (is being a sourpuss...it's actually only 36 degrees this morning)
10. I heart......pitas.
The end. Must go to work soon. Must not sleep. Must go to work soon. Must not sleep. Must go to work soon. Must not sleep. Must go to work soon. Must not sleep. Must go to work soon. Must not sleep.......
Saturday, November 9, 2002 -
Up to 8754 words. Still not thru this damn chapter. It's crucial to the plot but boring as hell. Having issues writing it. I'm too excited and full of ideas for future chapters that it's a pain in the assmunkey.
Saturday, November 9, 2002 -
I'm in itchy owchy mo-fo. Somehow my lame-o self managed to leave my braces on for the entire day. 8 and a half hours straight and I didn't even think about them...until I pulled them off. Rashes, sweat, and ickiness galore. Just thought I'd share.
I haven't allowed myself to buy any candy from work but today I cracked. Mike and Ike have Strawberries n'Cream and Orange n'Cream holiday flavors. MmmMmmMm. Lissa like! Woot! One thing I'd like you to ponder tho. Why does Strawberry get to be plural but orange doesn't? Hmmmm. Wonder away!
I have most of the next chapter to my story all sketched out. Did it at work today. Haven't had time to do it during midshifts cuz it's too busy but the morning shift is slow as shit. This story actually kepts me awake. OOT! Off I go to type it up.
Saturday, November 9, 2002 -
Internet connection wasn't working last night. Don't know what happened. At first we thought it was cuz we hadn't paid in like ... forever, but they said we were "only" 45 days late and they didn't shut people off until they were 80. Then, suddenly it started again. WOOT.
I feel pukey. I always do in mornings. Ever since forever I get stomachy sick when I wake up. The earlier I get up, the sicker I am. Never puke, but do have to run to the bathroom contantly for other less pleasant things. It's attractive, really. I hate mornings. I'm also apparently on a too much information kick.
I need to leave soon. It's almost five. I always blog on early morning shifts cuz usually I use any extra time to catch a few minutes of sleep but if I did that now I wouldn't wake up again for work! I know myself better than that.
Friday, November 8, 2002 -
This or That Tuesday
1. Art or science museum? I'm kinda torn. The obvious choice, since I'm an artist, would be art. Yet, I find art museums to be boring sometimes. I am not a big fan of sitting around looking at other people's art. I like doing. At science museums, at least the whole one I've been to, you get to interact. I like that. Hands on is the way to go.
2. Play or watch sports? That's relative. If I'm playing with people I can have fun with then it's a lot more fun to play! But, I suck, so if not then I'd definately rather watch.
3. Zoo or circus? Zoo. I love zoos. I wish there were more here. There's only a big cat zoo sorta thing. Which is fun, but it's no zoo.
4. Theater: film or live on stage? Live, I think. Cuz you know I've seen so many live theater shows. Out of all the ones that weren't school productions I count....one. But it was good!
5. Rock concert or the symphony? Duh, rock concert. You wouldn't catch me awake at a symphony.
6. Movies: see them in a theater or wait for DVD/VHS? I like both. At the movies it's all about the experience but at home you can pause, eat whatever you want, wear whatever you want, endlessly comment, and don't have to worry about peeing.
7. Board games or computer/video games? I wholeheartedly love both. Games are my happy friend.
8. Hobbies: crafts (art, cooking, home repair, etc) or collecting (coins, stamps, rocks, etc)? Crafts, I'd have to say. Recently I have really wanted to learn woodshop. Is that strange? Seriously tho, I want to find a class. I'd like to be able to be creative with something usefull. Plus, I want to be like Ty and Amy Wyn Pastor (Sp?)
9. Watch TV or read a book? Gosh Gobilty Gook Darnit. I like both again. I know that's a cop out answer but sometimes I feel like vegitating in front of the television. Lots less thinking. Yet, books are always better content-wise.
10. Eating out: fancy, white-tablecloth restaurant or casual dining? Casual. Fancy places have crappy food, by my standards. Not that I have ever really had money to go to a fancy place. That's not the point. I also enjoy being casual. I like my jeans and tee-shirts too much to give them up, even for a night, for a fancy meal.
Friday, November 8, 2002 -
More Sharing. I'm at a dead stop for figuing out what I should be doing so I'm procrastinating.
- I have physical therapy appointments like twice a week now so I actually have to shave during the winter! Ack. It sucks.
- My fingers hurt cuz I tried the new game on neopets where you have to hit keys really fast. I only played for like five minutes too.
- They are remodling the house above us and it sucks. There's always banging, whirring, smacking, and what not going on lately. They start at like seven in the morning and work all day. I get distracted easily so I find this extremely annoying.
- I work two morning shifts this weekend. Icky poo. Means I have to go to bed at nine tonight. -_-
Friday, November 8, 2002 -
Poop on me. When you're not strong. I'll be your toilet. I'll help you expell your crapppppp.
I'm having a serious personality disorder day. Don't mind me.
Friday, November 8, 2002 -
Note: Didn't go to bed. Have to go to physical therapy in an hour and wouldn't wake up in time. Nadda chance.
I'm in a dead halt on my story. Lacking inspiration and having trouble fixing things I think should work better so I don't make the same mistakes throughout the whole story. My big problems is I feel Caley, Leandra, and Paige have pretty much the same personality. I think they all need more chracter description and different features that make them unique. I know how I want them to be, but I'm not entirely sure how to pursue it. The whole reason I'm basing them off people I was and knew in my past is I was trying to do something "different." I was thinking up chracters and realized that characters in my own teenhood were different than I'd ever seen written in stories before. Sure, we've seen the unlikely hero thing before, even recently with Princess Diaries and such, but not like this. I also want to incorporate Poink and Woink more. I think it can be done so that it's woven into the framework of the story instead of a weird side plot. I want it to be more than just chracter definition, like I frist intended it to be.
Friday, November 8, 2002 -
Haven't written lately cuz was down and in a funk. Conversely, still am. Didn't use conversely right, did I? Don't care, quite frankly.
I'm frustrated with life the universe and everything. Know the feeling?
In addiion to my usual woas. Whoas? Woes. Ah, that's the one. Stupid microwave is on the fritz. I didn't realize how much I used that thing for. It just all of a sudden burns everything to a crisp that I put in there. Including dishes. I put something on for 45 seconds and it came out charred and the dish had a huge hole burnt into it. Scary, ne? Plus some jackass stole my bike. This makes me very sad. I loved my bike. I get way too attached to material things that I never use. Plus it had lotsa sorta 'spesive accesories. *grumble grumble*
I'm not going to bitch about any other problems, just the stupid icing on the cake ones you see here. Too personal and I'll sound like a whiney freak. Instead I'm going to go sleep some more. Dreams better than reality.
Tuesday, November 5, 2002 -
Did fairly well on my word count today. However, the fourth chapter isn't really anything. It's like rambling bs. However, I need to have it there to lead up to my big plot twist. Excitement galore.
Jason is driving me insane. He's talked politics for the last hour straight and I'm about ready to scream. I'm going to have to go into a different room and abandon writing for now cuz I'm leaving my puter. I JUST can't take it anymore, for the love!!!
Tuesday, November 5, 2002 -
My God. I exceeded my bandwidth on my NaNoWriMo site. Seriously, that many people couldn't have visited! What the heck? .....
Tuesday, November 5, 2002 -
Moved my story. It's now at http://www10.brinkster.com/poinkwoink/ . It was stressing me out as a blog so I figured this would work much better and *ding* it does. Imagine that. Most of my life is dedicated to writing this story right now, so I'm not very exciting.
My throat hurts and I'm still hungry. That's about it, folks.
Sunday, November 3, 2002 -
For those of you who looked at my page within the last hour, I apologize. I've just established another pitas for my NaNoWriMo story and the result was confusion and mishaps galore. Luckily, I've cleared everything up with this pita.
My new pita is
here . I'm working on making the buttons work and adding a tagboard so bear with me. And I just realized it really doesn't work for 800 by 600 screens. Dagnabit. Right now all you can do is see chapter two when you load and hit the one to go to chapter one. I didn't really design this the easy way and I'm causing myself more problems than it's worth!!! I'm going to take a break and go back to writing for now. First thing I've gotta do is clean up Chapter two. I just reread it and it's horrid!!! LOL. Hopefully there will be an update on that soon. Wish me luck!
Friday, November 1, 2002 -
Ah, the stories I could tell. And will. Because it's my blog and I wanna. So pbbt. Insert evil cackle here. MWHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
Yesterday was Halloween. It was pretty happy. I worked until 6:15 but I got to give out candy at work, so that was cool. Even if it was the lame-O Tootsie Roll kind. Plus, I got to see several cute little kids all dressed up. One coworker brought her son by and he was a cute little lion. We had fun cuz I made him beat himself in the head with a lollypop for like twenty minutes! I love little kids. They are so fun. Then I bought some candy for trick-o-treaters and those of us hanging out. Unfortunately I forgot about Jamie's allergy to nuts and a lot of what I bought was nutty - SORRY JAMIE! ): Sadly, I only got six trick-o-treaters and all of them were high school aged boys. That was rather depressing. Not only that but one of them was smoking and made my house stink for a while. How Rude (Hello Full House Flashback).
Then Jamie and Rachel came over. We watched television, played Top Shop, played Nanosomethingoranothergame, and then were strange. Not that we're usually normal or anything. I'm just saying. I was in the "crazy" chair where "meep" meant "yes" and "Pick my ass" meant "no." Jamie was in the reverse chair where "Pick my ass" meant "yes" and "meep" meant "no." Rachel was on the perv. couch where "pick my ass" just meant "pick my ass." We also learned that I have an ass obsession, Rachel has a foot fettish, and Jamie likes to pet her pussy (cat) before going to bed. The special thing is that seriously I will never understand the cute butt phenonmenon. I like to talk about asses and be obnoxious but seriously folks, shit comes out of there. Literally. And that's my thought of the day. Thank you. Thank you very much.
Elvis has left the building.
Tuesday, October 29, 2002 -
I have a lot to blog about. Hold onto your jockstraps.
To start off with, I had a perfectly wonderful weekend. Mostly because I goofed off with friends all weekend, but that's not the point. Saturday night and Sunday morning was spent with Fu watching the three new episodes of Buffy, Angel, and Firefly. We also watched trading spaces. Then we enjoyed hour upon hour of Queer As Folk. I love that show. I'm also estatic that Emmett unsaw the light. His trail straightdom just wasn't doing it for me. She also made us yummy chicken parmeseana (sp?). If it wasn't for having nice friends to feed me I'd die from the monotony of hamburger helper. Then Sunday night Firefly and Lieko came over and played video games. Turns out "Top Shop" is actually kinda fun when you have other people to play with! (:
Now, for today's fun fact list o' ten:
1) There has been constant banging all over the apartment all day. Either someone's moving in or they are having sexfest 2002. Either way it's annoying.
2) The last person to have our phone number's name was Jennifer, she is in a lot of debt, and she has a little girl named Ivy. But the big fact is that she hasn't learned how to change her phonenumber.
3) I was killing needed time with "Top Shop." I managed to get a monoply on the entire second floor. On the left side of the elevator was a four shop long Kiss store and on the right was a four shop long Johnson Books. That was cool. However, I then played another game with evil Rob. Evil. Rob. EVIL!
4) Do you think telling these banging hooligans to calm down or I'm going to whip out my shotgun would be considered an idle threat?
5) The apartment's finally cold. For the first time so far I slept without the fan going. However, the bad thing is I can't seem to figure out how to turn the heat on. My toes are frosty.
6) I managed to miss my parents anniversary. Some whitch planted a seed in my head that thought it was five days later than it actually is! I feel bad.
7) We broke the spinny thing in the microwave. So, I bought a new one. However, in the process we manged to move the little thingy with the wheels that the spinny thing moves on. The problem is our microwave cooks extroadanarily lopsided and seems to have a migrating hot spot. The point is I am eating burritos cooked REALLY well on one side and cold on the other (yes, I did rotate it manually).
8) OH MY GOODNESS GRACIOUS! What the fuck are they doing???? Seriously, folks. BangBangBang THUMP BangBangBang FUCK!
9) I am supposed to be finding a job. I'm dirtbutt poor and getting worse. Yet, I keep finding myself working on my Amazon.com wishlist. Hmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
10) Finally gotted my shipment of DVDs from the Columbiahouse DVD club. WOOT! *drools* I now have Romantic Cheese: You Got Mail, Sci-Fi: Gattaca, Family: Princess Diaries, and Best of all Kevin Smith's Dogma and Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back. *WOOT!*
Friday, October 25, 2002 -
*screams* Sometimes I wonder.
My current problem is I have to work the morning shift tomorrow and my bedtime should have been nine but I can't sleep. I'm even tired. I've been going to bed about nine because I'm going thru a strange going to bed early thing and now I can't sleep because I have to. Dagnabit!!!! I keep wondering about stupid things and it's keeping me awake.
Anyways, might as well blog about today while I'm here whining about my inability to sleep. Today I didn't get much done after my last blog. I'm feeling angry at myself and guilty because of that, but alas, there's more. Then Fu and I went out to lunch. That was nice! We went to the Golden Coral and they have good eats. Yummy in my tummy.
Before that we went to Hastings. I didn't find the right book but due to lack of time I bought another one for my parents that has nothing to do with anniversaries or anything but it'll have to do. I have to get them something cuz mom feels bad nobody ever remembers, so I figued I better. Plus, it's nice. Then I was a very bad girl. I was going to just spend my Hastings gift card but I couldn't find Harvest Moon. So, I bought three cheap games. Two are absolutely horridly stupid. I'm very miffed at myself for spending money on them and upset I conned myself into getting crappy games that I couldn't afford anyways. (They were cheap but still went over my budget limit but about $15 - and that's a lot of money right now). Now I'm whiny and feeling rather guilty. I can't afford to pay my bills, my own lunch (thanks, Fu), or money for dressdown days for a good cause (thanks again Fu), but I can on crappy games? What is wrong with my *groans*. I've been in this self-beating up mood all night. Maybe that's why I can't sleep now? I'm such a dork sometimes. It just makes me angry that I spent money on something I didn't need. I've been so good about budgeting everything with barely anything and working thru this and then I do that? Ugh. I have this thing about wanting desperately to spend money when I have none. I can be very materialistic.
Anyways, wanna hear about the special games I got? First, I got "SHEEP." Which is very SPECIAL but also takes patience that I don't have. Maybe I'll get the hang of it, I dunno. It involves sheep herding and has a long of strange things like tunnels that change sheep into tanks, sharks that live in the hay fields, and farmer equipment that sqashes all your sheep flat. Then I got another one called "TOP SHOP" which is a corny board game where you create and buy stores - whoever owns the mall first wins! *yippie*. I don't know what else I was expecting with that one. But hey, you can be a cactus. I also got FF8, which isn't the most updated version of FF but I was hoping it'd cheer up Jason. He thought I was strange because I renamed the main character (Squall) MacRoni. I wanted to name him PoonTang but there were too many characters.
However, in the process of looking up what other people had to say about these "lovely" games on Amazon.com I found even more games I'd like to own. They're probably stupid too, but I can't buy anything else until I have money anyways. I should try sleeping again. My knees are hurting a lot. I think I walked too much today. It hurts bad to walk and it's rather complicated to limp with both knees.
P.S. Jason scared me. He just said I like to flog logs. *eep*
Friday, October 25, 2002 -
*drools* Look what I found! Whoot! I want! I want! I want! I have suddenly had a Miyazaki attack, don't mind me. I also discovered that there's a two disk set for Spirited away that looks HAPPY!
Friday, October 25, 2002 -
That stupid little voice in the back of my head wants me to take a nap. I'm very tired, but I have to go to bed early tonight so I don't want to take a nap because I need all the time today I can get. However, I have the day off on Sunday too but I have a lot on that to do list and things like the portfolio need to be done ASAP and are going to be very time consuming. I hate it when things are pressing on you like that. It makes me freaky. It's very cold too. My toes are owching at me. "owch!" said the toes, "I'm cold." I can cross e-mail grandma and budget off my list now! Whoot! Unforutantely, that was depressing cuz I have around $300 less than I need to cover all the bills, and that's only thru the 8th of November! *bangs head on desk* See why the fix up the portfolio and get a better paying job is so pressing?
Friday, October 25, 2002 -
Whoot. It's 11:00, and I'm awake! (on my day off, that's what's significant about it). I woke up at 7:30 for a physical therapy appointment. I'm actually attempting to be productive today. I also need to make sure that I am good and tired by 9:00 tonight so I can go do the whole working thing at 5:45 tomorrow morning. Gotta be good and rested for that, eh? Here's my to do list for today (cuz I'm so sure you care).
- E-mail grandma
- Buy mom and dad anniversary present and card and mail
- Make hair for pumpkin and gather materials to fix peeling paint
- budget
- dishes
- straighten and vacuum living room and bedroom
- finish unpacking and organizing study
- lunch with Sarah (woot!)
- Cliquehappy Marla fanlisting and Emmett buttons
- Search for jobs
- fix up resume
- Work on creating a self-promotion web page and package
- Halloween Blog Layout? I had one started a year ago that I was going to put up, but I might have waited too long again. Hm. Maybe next year.
That's actually a lot to do. No way it's all going to get done but I'll plug away on it. I'm hoping Sarah is ok with dropping by Hastings to get a book I wanted to grab for my parent's anniversary. I also have a gift card for Hastings so I'm thinking about using it to get Harvest Moon, the Playstation edition, of course, cuz it's cheaper.
I also have to share that last night I watched Will and Grace and it was really pretty because Matt Damon was on it. He was a straight guy who was pretending to be gay so he could sing in a gay choir and go to Europe. This itself was amusing but what was even better was when he mentioned his gay lover he'd had since high school, Ben. Hmmmm.....Affleck, anyone? I was amused by the real life reference - especially since I actually picked up on it - and not to mention I always thought those two had something going on.
Well, it's off to plug away on stuff.
Thursday, October 24, 2002 -
Ten fun facts for Thursday!
1) I've worked too many days this week, I think. I have hit my overload point with customers. It's a good thing that I have tomorrow off. I might have exploded and that's not pirty when you're of the non-explodable-or-you-die brand of human. (Pretend that made sense)
2) Last night I went and saw Spirited Away with Jamie and Rachel. It was very good. I liked it. Miyazaki's a little bit of a strange one but I love his works. They make me happy. (: Plus, they always have funny little cute creatues!
3) I also played a fun game with aminals that I liked and my name was Poo! Rachel gave me an orange chair and a dice outfit. I posted an announcement on the message board that said "For a good time call Nooks at 1800-YOURMOMA" or something mature like that. I also ate yummy chicken and potato.
4) I just looked to see if there was a Totoro DVD and there is one but it doesn't come out until December 3. Unfortunately, someone said it's just the movie and no subtitles. This makes me sad. Now I've decided I want the Japanese DVD cuz it has cool stuff on it, or so I've heard.
5) I want cheese
6) My apartment is eternally hot. We haven't had to turn on the heaters at ALL!
7) Sometimes I have the sudden impluse to wiggle my toes. Like right now! *wiggle wiggle wiggle*
8) I've lost track of reality. I don't know what world I've been living in lately, but it sure isn't this one. I have no idea where this week went.
9) I painted pumpkins this morning. Mine had three eys. Unfortunately, the paint is peeling off because the white paint is a bitch. My coworker also made a Cleopatra pumpkin with green spidery hair. I think that the customers were a little scared of us this morning cuz we were both rather hyper and painting pumpkins. Work? What's that?
10) I want to be a girl scout. I never got to be a girl scout when I was little and they have all the fun. *pout*
11) This isn't a bonus fact. It's just another fact in this fact bunch because two of these facts are not like the others. Can you guess which ones? Aha! The ones that were talking about yesterday, which wasn't Thursday and therefore are not techincally "part" of the Ten facts for Thursday. See where I'm going with this.
12) This is the last pointless fact of the day. I promise.
Wednesday, October 23, 2002 -
I'm agrivated and need to vent. Today was very stressful. Customers were rather disturbing today and almost every single one of them were either stupid or had some strange random problem. Plus, I didn't get a lunch or any breaks today cuz boss had to leave early so it was seven and a half hours straight of sitting in the kiosk. Ick. *shudders* That's so against union rules, I tell ya. However, I got an extra half hour of time so I'm not really complaining. The worst was when I got home tho. I got a bill from the peoples who gave me the knee brace aparently it was a $100 deductible for those things and so now I have to pay $88.90. Where am I going to come up with that???? Argh. I think it's time to talk to mommy. How horrible. How utterly horrible. *sigh* I also lost my deoderant and have to wear Jasons. Now I smell manly. Eeep.
Tuesday, October 22, 2002 -
Special Bonus Facts (65% fat free!)
I found this letter to someone that I wrote in ninth grade. It's quite frightening. Now I know why I had so few friends. Below is what it says, nothing spelling/grammatically changed, of course. Strap on your seatbelts and get ready for the geek ride of your life.
Begin letter:
Anyways, wuz up? Like my Teddy Bear stationary! It's neato Mosquito.
Guess what? We go to Yakima next weekend. I can't wait. If we win (we probably won't but if we do) we will go to Tennesse or however you spell it, ya know what I mean man!
Well, my pen is orange, and to think I always thought this pen was red. Dude! I can't see orange! I'm orange blind! Geez! Help me man! Wow! help. I'm just kidding. I can see orange. I'm just not a geez, what's the word for some one who can't stop lying! Geez, now I can't think. Anyways, I'm not one of thoose!
Spiffy doodle, huh man?
End letter.
That is the single most scariest thing I've seen in a long time. I don't know where to even start. No wonder people used to always ask me what I was on. This explains so much.
P.S. The people above us sound like Michael Jackson Elephants
Tuesday, October 22, 2002 -
Ten fun facts for Tuesday:
1) I am wearing black socks with pink flowers.
2) I've been fighting my arch nemisis, the Migraine lately. It attacked me full force the other night. I went to bed at nine and I couldn't sleep cuz it even hurt in my sleep. That's pretty bad. It's been sitting behind my eyes ever since. So I have to stay calm, collected, and fed so that it doesn't come back. I keep having to do the ten deep breathes thing so that I don't stress out.
3) My big toes are both horribly ingrown. It's oozing white gunk today. Hope you weren't eating. I hate doctors.
4) I just burped. It tastes like lasagna. That's what Jason made me for dinner last night!
5) I worked today cuz a coworker was sick and a customer was gloating that he was off work and I'm all "well, I'm not even supposed to be here today" and then I kicked myself because I sounded like Dante from Clerks.
6) I really like this children's series Fu's having me read. It's called The Enchanted Forest Chronicles by Patricia C. Wrede.
7) In the above paragraph I was trying to write children's and then Jason distracted me and instead I wrote coolness! It took me five minutes to find my bearings again. I confuse easily today.
8) Fu got me this horrid N'Sync notebook and Justin's eyes keep following me. *looks for exacto knife* How do you think you'd look without eyes, PRETTY BOY? *evil cackle*
9) Pump 3 is evil incarnate. It is seeking the next victim. Don't let it be you.
10) This is the second time I've had to write this list cuz I accidentally clicked on the big button that says GOLD! last time. I love doing things twice. REALLY!
Sunday, October 20, 2002 -
Seven on Sunday
Seven songs that frequently get stuck in your head is the topic today. Now, you have to understand something about me. I get so many songs stuck in my head that there are usually not repeat offenders. However, when they do get stuck they usually stick for about a month or so. So, we're going to do seven songs that have recently gotten stuck in your head. Hope that works for you. If it doesn't you can go jiggle (it makes more sense if you read the last post I made).
1) The "She fucking hates me" song by Puddle of Mudd
2) I love I love I love my calendar girl
3) Mmmm-Blah when the little green frog one day Mmmm-Blah went the little green frog.
4) I love the Cocaine - I love the Cocain (Buckcherry)
5) WE've got the biggest BALLS OF THEM ALL!!! Some balls are held for charity and some for fancy dress, but when they're held for pleasure they're the balls that I like best.
6) The scary song by "No Doubt" when Gwen breathes a LOT
7) I've got something in my pocket, it belongs accross my face. I keep it very close at hand in a most convenient place. I bet can't guess what it is if you guess for a long long while. So I'll take it out and put it on it's a great big PUFF GETS DORKY SONGS STUCK IN HER HEAD smile.
Sunday, October 20, 2002 -
10 Fun Facts of the Day:
1)I've been having an astoromical increase in boogers lately. I used to never have them and suddenly I have tons and tons and tons of boogers. It's very upsetting.
2) I'm eating lemon JELL-O. Jason made it. It's yummy. And already in our cupboard = cheap. JELL-O is a very sexual food. Watch it boop and bop.
3) I keep getting sharp pains in my tummy when I eat. It's not very nice. It's worse than cramps and I didn't think that was possible.
4) Jason and I have been working on getting around to cleaning all day. We have a lot to do but it's already 2:00 and all I've done is lay around and dream about dragons. Don't ask.
5) I just dribbled JELL-O down the front of my shirt. Poo.
6) I have a new desktop on my puter from the TLC webpage featuring the "Trady Bunch." I'm such a geek. I desperately want a home I can decorate. Oh yeah, and the money to do so. Right now all I want here is a coffee table.
7) I'm running out of fun facts. I'm not very fun.
8) I like things that jiggle. I might be a little obsessed with my JELL-O (among other things). Do you think there's a jiggle-addicts-annony-mouse?
9) Pearl jiggles.
10) I currently have that new Puddle of Mudd song stuck in my head. It's annoying me. SHE FUCKING HATES ME!!!! That's the only line I know. That's the only line stuck in my head. Isn't the pleasant?
Sunday, October 20, 2002 -
Knew there was a reason I was doing NaNoWriMo.
Sunday, October 20, 2002 -
The To Do List continues to grow as I veg-out. Luckily I have tomorrow off. However, tomorrow I must:
a) Get a Sunday Newspaper and Look for a Job
b) Clean House - at least do dishes and general straightening
c) Start putting together a portfolio so I have a decent package to apply for a new job
d) I know there's more....
Today I didn't do horribly. I budgeted, read (that book you gave me was good, Fu, I hope you plan on buying more of them soon!!!), and talked to my family.
Anyways.
How about a Friday Five?
1. How many TVs do you have in your home?
1. Whoot! But Jason's puter also works as a television....so kinda 2ish.
2. On average, how much TV do you watch in a week? Lately? About 30 hours. That wasn't always the case tho. Being depressed and only having a part time job isn't the best for couchpotatoitis.
3. Do you feel that television is bad for young children? Not particularly.
4. What TV shows do you absolutely HAVE to watch, and if you miss them, you're heartbroken?
Right Now (I'm developing new addictions I don't know where are coming from): Trading Spaces, While You Were Out, Will&Grace, Friends (I don't know why...suddenly I have to watch it), and Gilmore Girls(I'm turning into a complete cheesehead!). If It was in season/was on: Buffy, Big Brother, and The Mole.
5. If you had the power to create your own television network, what would your line-up look like? I'd like to see a station dedicated to twisted adult humor. I think it would be a steady stream of reality television, sitcoms, DECENT QUALITY cartoons, porn(hah?), and cheesy/special dramas. And Queer as Folk - SHO would just have to share with my special network so more than three people could see it, eh? No news and sports. Who gives a damn, really? However it's a good thing I don't have my own station because then I'd never LEAVE my couch. Ever. You think I'm kidding.
Saturday, October 19, 2002 -
It's been a fun day. I am so ultimately broke. Been alternating back and forth from severe depression to severely stressed out. Jason and I are having some serious money issues. From now on we are going to sit down together WEEKLY and figure monetary stuff out. Jason's been in charge of bills. I never even see them. Obviously this is a bad idea because altho I've been paying Jason for my part of the bills they don't seem to have been paid since God knows when. Somehow I have to figure out how to cover them. The result is that from now until November 8th we have about $100 total for food, gas, etc. With it costing about $20/week each for gas that's not much money...I'm worried. Not to mention starting in November my financial aid payments start being due - $160 a month! Someone save me. Gimmie a job that makes LOTSA MONEY!
Friday, October 18, 2002 -
I'm very blah. I was going to watch tv but Jason's hogging the tv. I don't feel like doing anything else. Everytime I try to do anything I give up. Blah. I'm very blah.
In other news, I think I came up with an idea for NaNoWriMo. I'm not sure. It seemed wonderful today but now it seems stupid. I'm still thinking about it before I share and everyone thinks I'm retarded.
I'm going to do
this or that Tuesday.
1.
DisneyLand or DisneyWorld? DisneyLand because it's much more of a possibility than DisneyWorld given that it's closer.
2.
Amusement park or Themed park? Um. Does it really make a difference?
3.
Seashore or Mountains? I really don't have a preference. I love both.
4.
Hotel/Motel or rental house? Hotel is much more feasible for my budget. Then again what is even more feasible is sleeping in my car. Wait....or at home. I almost forgot that I never get to leave home so that I can go to a hotel/motel.
5.
Guided tour or aimless meandering? Definately aimless meandering. I don't have the attention span for a guided tour.
6.
Drive or Fly or Boat? Driving. I hate planes. It's not that I have a fear of flying. It's that I have a fear of people. I hate the crowds, the lines, the fear of missing my flight. It's way too stressful for me. Boat could work for me but I've never tried it.
7.
Close or far away from home? Close. I like familiarity.
8.
Daytrip or by the week? There is nothing I'd love more than to go on a nice week long vacation to somewhere that isn't my home or never was my home. However, daytrip is more feasible. Not that I ever do that either. Oh fuck it all. I want a vacation!
9.
Camping in a tent or the Holiday Inn? Holiday Inn. I prefer beds. However, I would really like to go camping. As soon as I have money I'm so buying a tent.
10.
Rent a car or drive your own? I will only, ONLY, drive my own car. Period.
Thursday, October 17, 2002 -
Still feel icky. Slept all day until 4:00. I sleep when I don't feel good. A lot. As you can tell. I'm feeling a little better now.
However, I feel messy. Everything is a mess. I'm a mess. The apartment is a mess. The car is a mess. The fianaces are especially a mess. So, just to demessify something I've decided to archive my blog. Yay.
