it's not the pain that matters.
sometimes, it's just the scars that hurt.

Mon Remembered Angels on Wednesday, October 22, 2008 at 08:25 p.m. _______________________

why cant anyone and i really mean ANYONE, not twist what i say into something else?

I just read something I didnt want to see at all.
my hands are shaking as i type.
am really just kinda sick of all this.
that's it i'm going to lock up all of my livejournal entries as soon as i get the time too.
cause it's getting uncomfortable for me to blog.

Mon Remembered Angels on Thursday, October 16, 2008 at 01:07 a.m. _______________________

why can't you just believe in me.
sigh.

Mon Remembered Angels on Thursday, October 16, 2008 at 12:38 a.m. _______________________

18. one year older, none the wiser.

Mon Remembered Angels on Tuesday, August 27, 2008 at 01:44 a.m. _______________________

this is an unexpected update.

i guess no one checks this place anymore, so i can probably type anything i want here and no one will notice.

I think I've somewhat ruined my own life. With my stupidity, the actions i take, the immaturity and childishness i fling around sometimes. Through the years, my personality has changed. Well, it's supposed to change, yes. but not so drastically, to the point that it is now reflected in my handwriting. From nice, neat, almost like typewritten handwriting, to scrawly, ugly, longish prints that just dont look right.

And then I look at how my life is now, and all I wanna do is go back to before, where i had nothing to worry, I could be the way i want, even if people like my family tried to convince me otherwise. I would lead my own destiny, make my own friends, and not care about how anyone looks at me. Worrying and thinking is adding a lot to my shoulders, and it doesnt feel too good now.

I wont be in this position now.
but i cant change it anymore, right?

Mon Remembered Angels on Saturday, August 23, 2008 at 02:47 a.m. _______________________

i know, i've moved to livejournal.

i dunno, i just felt like posting here again. i have no idea why, but yea.

recently i've been feeling really down. i mean, on the surface i may seem fine and all, because i laugh, i smile, i joke, everything is the same. but then, even so, for some reason, i just feel depressed and stuff, after all the excitement dies down.

all this should just go into a proper entry on my blogspot.

but it's not like anyone checks this anymore anyway.

Mon Remembered Angels on Sunday, March 16, 2008 at 08:30 p.m. _______________________

I've moved to livejournal~ comment to be added as a friend, so you can see my entries! Click here~

Mon Remembered Angels on Sunday, September 3, 2006 at 10:28 a.m. _______________________

Am tired... Not feeling too good... Lack of sleep?

anyway, holidays are coming up, which means intensive everything. Guitar, and every subject there is. Not that i mind of course.

I'll probably start updating my blogspot, diaryland, and livejournal more often, so this will be slightly neglected.

P.S. : Peiying, you got the update you wanted!!! :D

Mon Remembered Angels on Thursday, May 25, 2006 at 09:10 p.m. _______________________

Mon Remembered Angels on Sunday, April 9, 2006 at 07:42 p.m. _______________________

I'm starting to blog more frequently..... i dunno why....

Sarah, you rock for being able to make the list of stuff in my cds..... I didnt know there was so much shit in them....

Anyway, was surfing through friendster, and then, (dun dun dun duuuunnnnnn), i saw an account for ijtp guitar ensemble. I don't believe any of the seniors were aware. BUT! How can it be an account for us when we do not have access to it? What's more, the profile was done in horrible, bad SINGLISH! even though i occasionally speak singlish, i do not type singlish. When i do that, i'm trying to irritate people. Our school speaks proper english!!!!!

Still can't find my file. Oh well. I'm going to report the loss next week.

Mon Remembered Angels on Friday, April 7, 2006 at 08:18 p.m. _______________________

Quiz
Try it~

Mon Remembered Angels on Wednesday, April 5, 2006 at 09:55 p.m. _______________________

I still cant find my guitar file!!!

Okay, I don't care if it was taken by mistake or it was stolen. I just want tthat person to give it back. So you are reading this, please, put it back in the sickbay, and i won't even report it.

if it stays missing for another week or two, i'm going to report it. I WILL make sure all the teachers know, and the person who took it is found.

Change of subject:
As I hop to certain people's blogs nowadays, I notice all this "suaning" thing. Siriusly, just stop it. It's quite disturbing, all this suaning thing. Suan here, suan there. It's not like it's the most fun thing to do on this planet.

I need a good sleep. Maybe it's because i'm so tired that i'm in succh a pissy mood today. Hopefully, my aunt and grandma will sleep in and let the house be quiet enough for a good, long fifteen-hour sleep.

Mon Remembered Angels on Saturday, April 1, 2006 at 07:53 p.m. _______________________

Sigh, term 1 is over already..... and that means o levels are drawing nearer and nearer.......... i dont wanna start studying yet!

Anyway, failed two subjects and i got nagged at. Seriously, i dont think it would have been any different if i scored any better or worse. it's not like i'm gonna get praised for passing humanities and chinese for once. how can i be expected to get a1s and a2s for all my subjects in only a term's worth of hard work? it's not like i'm naturally gifted at everything what. and what's wrong with a f9 for bio? i think it's good enough that i didnt get zero!

aya's party is coming up. still dunno if i should go. have this feeling that sak and aya are planning something evil. i'm having a bloody headache as it is....... i really do not need anyone to put pranks on me or tackle me or anything. it's getting tiring.

just realized that i'm writing in horrible english. with lousy/no punctuation. heck, no energy to change it all.....

Mon Remembered Angels on Saturday, March 11, 2006 at 11:53 p.m. _______________________

Am doing this so as to show Aya I AM NOT LAZY!

1. What time did you get up this morning?
8.34am

2. Diamonds or Pearls?
Neither. Mon does not like shiny stuff.

3. What was the last movie you saw in the theater?
I Not Stupid Too.

4. What is your favorite TV show?
Child of our time, America's Next Top Model. I don't really watch much TV.

5. What did you have for breakfast this morning?
Quickie Toast Deluxe Cheese Pizza.

6. What is your middle name?
None.

7. What is your favorite cuisine?
I dunno..... Basically anything that tastes good, and doesn't have icky stuff like veggies.

8. What foods do you dislike?
Vegetables.

9. Your favorite Potato chip?
Lays Sour Cream, or Ruffles Cheddar Cheese.

10. What is your favorite CD at the moment?
Once Upon a Time. By S.H.E.

11. What kind of car do you drive?
Anything not pink. Really.

12. Favorite sandwich?
Smoked Salmon at Toast, Egg Mayo by my mum, Tuna from Delifrance.

13. What characteristics do you despise?
Giving up before even trying. I think.

14. What are your favorite clothes?
My black Armani Shirts. Ya, that's it. And my three pairs of Jeans.

15. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you go?
Paris. I wanna go to the Disneyland there~!

16. What color is your bathroom?
Was supposed to be blue, but is now grey with age.

17. Favorite brand of clothing?
No preference. Since i don't shop for clothes.

18. Where would you want to retire?
Australia. Because i think the food and weather there is okay. And everything is not very expensive.

19. Favorite time of day?
3pm. I get to use the computer.

20. Where were you born?
Singapore.

21. Favorite sport to watch?
Tennis, gymnastics.

22. Who do you least expect to send this back?
Gladys. because she doesn't use the internet much.

23. Who will be the first to respond?
Everyone who will respond probably already did....

24. Coke or Pepsi?
Coke Light~! then Pepsi. Pepsi Light tastes weird.

25. Are you a morning person or night owl?
Ummm..... Owl from Hogwarts? Awake in the day, but prefers to stay up at night.

26. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share with everyone?
Hmmm.... I like to listen to YUI's music...... Especially LIFE(BLEACH ED5).

27. What did you want to be when you were little?
Um.... I wanted to be...... a grown-up?

28. What is your best childhood memory?
Going to Australia..... I was three.....

29. What are the different jobs you have had in your life?
Factory Worker. We made ang pows, boxes for taiwanese dramas, packaging for the TinTin VCDs.....

30. Nicknames:
Mon

31. Number and location of piercings?
0.

32. Eye Color?
black.

33. Ever been to Africa?
Nope. Sponsors?

34. Ever been toilet papering?
nope.

35. Been in a car accident?
Once.

36. Favorite day of the week?
Thursdays, Sundays.

37. Favorite restaurant?
Long Bar at Raffles Hotel. I liked the Lunch buffet.

38. Favorite flower?
Note: Mon does not like flowers.

39. Favorite ice cream?
Chocolate~! with chips~

40. Favorite fast food restaurant?
MOS.

41. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?
Kinokuniya, KKnM at Sunshine Plaza.

42. Bedtime:
Usually around two. But earlier if i woke up early.

43. Who are you most curious about their responses to this questionnaire?
Everyone. Curious by nature......

44. Last person you went to dinner with?
My aunt.

45. What are you listening to right now?
星星之火

46. What is your favorite color?
Black. And blue. The colours of bruises.

47. How many tattoos do you have?
Zero.

See? I did it. I AM NOT LAZY~!

Mon Remembered Angels on Sunday, February 19, 2006 at 10:42 a.m. _______________________

Saw this at tsu's blog, and couldn't help trying it.

Oh God...... (dies laughing)

Mon Remembered Angels on Sunday, January 15, 2006 at 09:01 p.m. _______________________

Back from Hongkong and Beijing. Wasn't exactly the best trip I ever had. One of the gifts I got from Beijing was....... rashes.

Mon Remembered Angels on Monday, December 5, 2005 at 11:31 p.m. _______________________

Am leaving for Hongkong in a few hours' time... I'm gonna miss the computer...

Mon Remembered Angels on Saturday, November 26, 2005 at 10:19 p.m. _______________________

I fixed the bloody internet connection!!!!

Last night, my mum tried to use the internet, but she found out that someone had deleted the connections from the network page, and the modem couldn't be detected. That was strange, because I just checked my emails in the morning. So I woke up at nine this morning, installed, uninstalled, and reinstalled the modem five to six times over. And it works~!

Now the only things I have to fix are my umbrella and my phone. The umbrella got spoilt on my way to the LRT from North Spring Primary yesterday(blasted wind). Was doing CIP there until 5.30pm. The second guitarists were much much better players than the first guitarists. The songs were quite easy, but there were five to six of them who refused to practice. I nearly twacked them on their heads!!! Anyway, It was raining heavily when we left, and the umbrella was useless after it was destroyed by the wind. Lynn, Germaine, Tiffy and I were all drenched, but I was the wettest. My guitar got wet, and my new Tsubasa 10 too!!!! (I'm gonna get a new one from Times)

My phone's LCD screen has blanked out. To contact me, please call my handphone. I cannot call or sms, because i can't see what i type.

Watching GoF later on!!! I hope it is nothing like PoA. That was a disappointment and an insult to the book.

Mon Remembered Angels on Thursday, November 17, 2005 at 11:25 a.m. _______________________

Announcement: If I have lent you something, please return it by 15th Jan 2006.

Anyway, sunshine plaza rocks. It has pins~!

Mon Remembered Angels on Sunday, November 13, 2005 at 01:06 p.m. _______________________

Exams are over~! But I still feel like studying History!!!!

Tagged by Sak
20 random facts: (yes I finally got down to doing this)

1. I am not, despite what people say, all Yellow.........
2. I would like to believe that everyone around is more yellow than I am.....
3. I like to eat seafood!!!! especially oysters~!
4. My study table is now neater than most of the people i know!!!!!!!
5. My guitar has been untouched for a few months now...... after the fourth string broke......
6. I realized that my password for a lot of stuff that i got an account for in sec one was password..........( i changed it all already though......)
7. All the stuff that i have downloaded in the past three months are unwatched...................
8. I bloghop. a lot.
9. I just realized..... I hate pink a lot, yet my blanket, pillowcase, bolster, and a lot of other stuff is pink...
10. I really have no idea why my sister and her friends read Absolute Boyfriend....
11. And they think I have good taste in music..... (bootlickers...... they just want my mp3s)
12. My favourite show (all the way back when i was six) used to be ren rou cha sao bao (human-meat charsiowbao)
13. Gladys taught me my first quote from Joy Luck Club!!!! ( I was six when my mother taught me the art of invisible strength.)
14. I used to iron all my school papers because they got so crumpled.....
15. I used to mispronounce everything i said, including my own name. ( and 我要喝水 became 我要喝鬼...)
16. I wish i have enough maths papers to do weekly......
17. I lost my Kino voucher. Again.
18. My sister lost our Harvest Moon 1, 2 and 3 cartridge, so now i have nothing to play.
19. I hate satay.
20. ...............................................(I like dots)

Tagging: All you people from Guitar!!!!!

I finally blogged.

Mon Remembered Angels on Wednesday, October 12, 2005 at 01:32 p.m. _______________________

I can do INSTANT KILL~!!!

Am a bit too happy over that, but maybe it;s because of the coke.

Am just here to make my blog look a little more updated.

Mon Remembered Angels on Friday, May 13, 2005 at 12:53 p.m. _______________________

GOLDGOLDGOLDGOLDGOLDGOLDGOLDGOLDGOLDGOLD

Actually, I never thought we would actually get gold for SYF. I expected a silver. So did Ms Ng. I wanted a gold though, and so did everyone else in the end. We finally became united and flew towards our goal together, even though it was only for a short period of time. Why I expected the silver? Because in Guitar Ensemble was divided into many, many small groups. We backstab each other, gossiped, had lots of hatred and dislike for each other's small 'clique'. But we came together in the end. Thank God. Thank Ms Sin. Thank Ms Ng. Thank ¿µÀÏʦ. And Thank everyone in Guitar.

I wonder when will people finally notice that i finally updated...

Mon Remembered Angels on Thursday, April 28, 2005 at 06:33 p.m. _______________________

Just came back from the family BBQ... Now feeling extremely bloated... Had too much lamb, beef, and chicken... The lamb was supposed to be only eight months old before it was slaughtered... When the people eating heard that, they said, poor lamb... Me, I was thinking, no wonder the meat is so tender... Oh well...

Before the BBQ, I managed to borrow my cousin's Playstation 1 again... so I played Final Fantasy IX... tried about ten times to defeat Beatrix at the end of Disc 1, but just cannot succeed... Damned... Left the PS1 at my house though, so i shall try again tomorrow...

Gotta go now... Am gonna try to sleep before twelve today...

Mon Remembered Angels on Sunday, December 26, 2004 at 11:07 p.m. _______________________

Just been to JK Rowling's website. Latest News: Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince will be out on the 16th July 2005!!! Finally! The price is not out yet, but I better start saving up... Just finished watching Inuyasha episode 120... Currently have bought only 120 episodes... Anyone has episodes 121 to 167? Stupid episode 120 is a cliffhanger! Spent time wondering what Sesshoumaru's fluffy thingy on his shoulder is for; that's definitely not his tail... That's it for this entry... Happy tree friends is loading in the next window... Hope you all get a kick (in the face) out of Christmas!

Mon Remembered Angels on Thursday, December 23, 2004 at 10:20 a.m. _______________________

Yes!!! I'm finally back from Malaysia!!! So glad to be back in Singapore, where everything is in understandable ENGLISH and not freaking Malay!!! It was so freaking irritating to try and communicate with the people there... Luckily they understood mandarin. Reached my aunt's house in Kuantan at 4+ on the 30 Nov. Found out that she babysits FOUR kids each day. 8mths, 12mths, 6yrs and 8yrs old respectively. But only the 8mths old baby is hard to handle because he cries all the time. And my cousin there is freaking tall. Height: 184cm. And his fingers are freakier than mine. They are thin and at least 2 to 3cm longer than mine. And people think my fingers are too long. Stayed in Kuantan for three days. Spending most of our time there searching for Christmas presents for my cousins. Then we went to Genting for two days. Played at the theme park and ended up only not playing two rides. SpaceShot: because it was too unsafe and my mum forbade me from playing it. Corkscrew: it was out of order. Went to KL for the last two days... Shopped around for christmas presents and found nothing... And now finally back in Singapore, in front of the computer, where I connected to the internet and started adding a entry to my blog, and typing "Yes!!! I'm finally back from Malaysia!!! So glad.." Well, you know the rest.

Mon Remembered Angels on Monday, December 6, 2004 at 07:05 p.m. _______________________

Now counting down to the trip to Kuantan...18hrs and 56mins away... Why I even have to go is beyond my comprehension... Just supposed to renew my dad's driving licence and his passport. Then visit the living relatives, visit the dead relatives, and go to the waterfall in Kuantan... At least the trip down to Genting would be more fun... Oh well... I'd rather go for guitar... At least i had fun in the recent holidays... Went to Qian Kun's house on the 25th with Melissa... Saw her cat, Lemon, for the first time... Always thought of Lemon as a yellow cat, but was actually white and black. And her brother was funny. His friends had came over for a short while and one of them said, "Ni jia you mao, wo jie you gou!"(your house got cat, my houe got dog!) when he saw Lemon. And Lemon responses to many languages. Dialect, Mandarin, English. Smart cat... Played a shooting game, and watched Qian Kun's brother and Melissa play Pokemon Stadium. And when they decided to stop, they switched games to Harvest Moon. And when Qian Kun's brother heard that, he literally started JUMPING for joy... And their family is violent; they hit each other (hard) for fun. Went home late, and Melissa got grounded... My parents didn't even know i was home late, because they were later than me... Gotta go now, to continue packing for the trip to Kuantan. I am SO going to miss the internet...

Mon Remembered Angels on Monday, November 29, 2004 at 10:04 a.m. _______________________

haven't blogged in ages... so decided to blog today... Recently went to Moony's house with Qian Kun... (was it the 16th or 18th???) Played Harvest Moon, then Shrek. Moony finally found a match for Mix Master P. But she still won. Then they played some weird game that involved arrows, finger coordination, and accuracy. I lost the game in about 5 seconds or so... And I was playing the easy mode... Wonder how i can actually play guitar... My sister got a new present. (goodness knows for what) It's a Gameboy Advance SP with a very VERY expensive cartridge, the very same one I've been asking for in the past year and half and never got!!! Damned biasness... She had two freaking band 3s and two freaking band 4s for final exams and can STILL get a present worth 0!!! What in the world happened to unbiasness!!! Cousins are staying over, so I'm babysitting them... One of them is peering over my shoulder to watch me now, so i gotta go chase them out now...

Mon Remembered Angels on Wednesday, November 24, 2004 at 12:36 p.m. _______________________

Okay, finally able to update because... MY DAD FINALLY GOT ME UNLIMITED BROADBAND!!! That was for my C.A. marks... Unfortunately I did extremely badly for Finals. Work this out. Outstanding for Charms, Exceeds Expectations on Potions, Arithmancy, Transfiguration and History of Magic, Acceptable for Defence Against Dark Arts, Muggle Studies and Astronomy, and Terrible/Troll for Divination. Overall very lousy marks... Anyway, went to Moony's house two days ago. Waited for Sak at the bus stop from 9.ooam to 9.40am before deciding to go off myself instead of waiting for her as planned... Totally forgot which floor Moony lived on, so called Padfoot who called Moony, who told her, who told me. And i reached her house a few minutes after Padfoot did. Then the three of us started wondering if Sak got lost since she hadn't reached yet at ten when we were supposed to meet at 9.30am. So we started calling her non-stop. When we finally got through to her, we found out that she was still sleeping!!! So we screamed at her through the phone and got her to come down immediately. And she was fast. She practically came down in her pjs. And so we started playing King of Fighters because Padfoot left her Guilty Gear American Version at home and the jap Version was hard to figure out. And I defeated EVERYBODY with only one character each round in the Team Versus. Yuri and Mai are SOOOO easy to use!!! Got bored after a while, so we played Shrek... Moony's sister wanted to play, so they played as Shrek. And they won. Padfoot was Donkey, and got Second. I was Lord Farquaad and got Third. Sak lost terribly as Thelonious. Again. Then we had lunch. Moony's mum makes great soup. I like the rice, but it had lots of peas and beans and corn and carrot in it. but i ate them for the first time in like, 8 years? When off to guitar and reached school one hour and ten minutes early. And i go drenched in the rain. VERY drenched. Today was loads of fun at guitar.(It always is anyway...) Cracked jokes, laughed because guitar teacher couldn't hear us over the band's practice downstairs, drank coke light, had fun and laughed again. Gotta go off now before my mum scolds me for wasting so much electricity on the computer. Happy Holidays!!!

Mon Remembered Angels on Saturday, November 6, 2004 at 09:42 p.m. _______________________