This is the day that the Lord has made. I will rejoice it!
Everytime I remembered about my money's robbery, instead of being angry and depressed, I am very thankful to God for giving me serenity and see this as a blessing. Ordinary people may think I'm crazy or something. Since the very first day I realized that I've lost that amount of money, my Mom said that it might be hard for other people to believe that I was actually being robbed, since I was facing the reality so calm and grabbed full control of my emotion. To be honest , for the first few weeks it was still hard for me to accept this happening in my life. I did feel angry to the robber for being so cruel using other people's savings for his own sake. But amazingly God gives me His wonderful blessing by giving me serenity in my heart which had lead me back to God. I know God's judgement is uncomparably the fairest in Heaven and Earth. His justice is no way can be predictable or read by mere sinners like us, so I'm fully put this 'problem' according to God's justice. Why bothering myself with vengeance, anger, curse, and things that makes my heart heavier and dirtier when I have a God that can settle all things for me? One thing that
I know for sure, that losing my money doesn't make my life miserable but much more blessed, even much more blessed and peaceful than the robber's.
When I was at my darkest time, I listened much to some gospel songs, but the one that gave me total serenity was Don Moen's
River of Joy album. In this concert Don Moen said
"This is the day that the Lord has made. I will rejoice and be glad. Maybe your day hasn't gone the way you've planned, but still the day that the Lord has made and He said to rejoice and be glad of it."
These words were really opened up my eyes that time and change my view in everything I do. My past, present, and tomorrow's day are the days that God made for me. Everything happened in that day is always according to His plan. Why? If hard things happened to us today, why should I be rejoice for it? The next songs answers:
"God is good all the time, and all the time God is good. Through the darkest night, His light will shine. If you're walking through the valley and there are shadows all around, do not fear. He will guide you. He will keep you safe and sound. He has promised to never leave you, nor forsake you and His Word is true! Though I may not understand all the plans you have for me, my life is in Your hands and through the eyes of faith I can clearly see."
Sometimes we must face some dark times in our life, because we are all sinners. At some cases, the temptation was so hard that we sometimes failed to keep our faith in God and started to doubt Him and left Him at the end. We failed to wait for the time has come when His light will shine so bright through that darkness. See, God promises a wonderful light, a life that so bright we could not ever imagine since it was so different than our current dark life. We cannot ever predict what glory God has planned for us beyond that darkness, so just walk your life with God and be rejoice in everything you have today, bad or good, because it was all small parts of your entire life according to God's plan.
My life so far is a testimony of how unpredictable God's plan for my life. I've never expected for being accepted in the school I've dreamt from a long time and never laid a thought for going there even for once.. and who could predict that I would be accepted there years after with full scholarship? There are still many wonders in my life as a proof that even the darkest moment in this life has a meaning. I was once dealing with my darkest chaos in my family and my own self for quite a long time because I was so stubborn with my dark side and refuse to 'accept' God's light. Maybe if I laid my problem in God that time I won't suffered that long. But God is almighty, and again no one can predict God's plan.
So my friend, always be rejoice for everything happened in this day and are going to happen tomorrow, because God is good all the time and He has made this day for you. :)
@ 10:09 p.m.
Back!! :)
Okeeey, after my bank account robbery I've never posted something new again and that incident has already been my past so I think I have to post something to archive that incident. To be honest, I was really shocked for 1-2 weeks after the incident but after that, amazingly, God gave me serenity so instead of angry, I felt my life become lighter and blessed more than before I lost the money. :) I'm now saving most of my money to recollect what has been lost and holding back my wants of buying unnecessary things. Hopefully I can recover the loss in a few more months.
So many things happened during these few months. My dog Momo is getting bigger and naughtier but calmer and stick to me all the time. I revisited Singapore at the beginning of this July. My office moved to the opposite of Mal Taman Anggrek and I have to add a walk for about 700 m from Tomang traffic light to my office in the morning, but arrived at home 15 minutes earlier at the noon than the previous location. This new office still has no permanent electric supply and still using generator to supply the electric needs. I'm currently addicted to these anime: BLEACH, Loveless, and Kyou Kara Maou and even decided to buy Loveless original manga. For music, I'm currently into UVERworld, Orange Range, L'arc~en~Ciel, Psycho le Cemu, and of course Janne da Arc.
There are so many things I want to share but I'm just too lazy to write it down. :) Until later!
@ 10:32 a.m.
