Monday, July 10, 2000
03:27 p.m.
Stress Relief Strategies
Okay...... one test down... time to rid myself of all that useless knowledge to make room for the next set of useless knowledge. *sigh* After this, all I have is one project, one comprehensive final, and a fourth test. And then all I'll have to do is pack up my entire life and move! RRRrrrrrrrrrrrr. STRESSED? WHY WOULD I BE STRESSED??

Monday, July 10, 2000
05:41 a.m.

Funny how none of your friends are on ICQ at 5:30 in the morning. :P

Saturday, July 8, 2000
12:03 a.m.
Honey Brown!
Ooooh, it's 12:03 in the morning, I've had three beers, and I'm finally feeling good. And I really mean "good." Not "okay" or "mildly happy" but "everything's-gonna-work-out-GOOD." Which is crap, because I have to work tomorrow, and I haven't even started studying for my tests, and I won't see my lover for a month, but wow, it's amazing what a coupla beers can do. Feel better. Drink more beer. :)

Friday, July 7, 2000
04:08 p.m.

Wow..... does anyone even *read* this? Oh well.
New News: Right now I'm playing my techno music REALLY LOUD to cover up all the banging sounds coming from apartment next door AND the one above me. Yeesh. If these guys can't be quiet, then I'm not obligated to turn my bass down. [EG]
Went to my friend Nathan's wedding on July first. I had a really good time.. got to see Ellen, my old roommate, and John and Mindy, two of my friends who moved to St. Louis. They just had their second daughter. Wow.
Went up to Cinci for July 4th, saw my lover for the first time in about a month. And I won't see him again until (checks calendar) August 4th or so. WAH! Oh, and he's out of the clinker, too :). Let me just say that Ohio has some really stupid road rules. (And yet, I'm moving there. *sigh*)
Well, I have a test on Monday, and another on Tuesday. Wish me luck!

Monday, July 3, 2000
01:17 a.m.

It's one o'clock in the morning, do you know where your boyfriend is?

Hopefully not in the clinker.

Sunday, July 2, 2000
10:18 p.m.

"And there's a memory of a window,
Looking through I see you,
Searching for something
I could never give you,
And there's someone who understands you
More than I do,
A sadness I can't erase
All alone on your face
--"God of Wine", 3rd Eye Blind from their self-titled album

Thursday, June 29, 2000
08:49 p.m.

Went to the S+LUG lab at school, hung out with some computer geeks, and watched Strange Brew. All in all, a fairly fun evening. :)

Thursday, June 29, 2000
04:30 p.m.
Limp Bizkit
Normally this isn't my type of music - but I'm thinkin' about making "Break Stuff" my new theme song. It *always* feels like one of those days.

Wednesday, June 28, 2000
10:03 p.m.

Still taking my moods out online, in case you couldn't tell. :) I blame it on general stress and a "missing" syndrome: I miss my lover. I miss my friend. I miss my mom. I miss having free time. I miss having big paychecks. I miss the person I used to be (though I hold great hope for the person I can become :) ). I miss having control. I miss Darvon. I miss best friends of the past.
I spend a lot of time ignoring the things I don't think I can handle; the less I think about 'em, the less pain I feel. I've yet to decide if that's healthier than dwelling or not.
Well then! Enough of that. This is where I should put in my spot of bright news. Um... gimme a minute... Okay, I mailed my application to the University of Cincinnati. And I got my transcript, and all I need to do is mail it out. At least that's making *some* progress.

Tuesday, June 27, 2000
08:48 p.m.

It's the little things in life. I've been saying that for years, and I maintain that it's true. And sometimes it's the little things, or the lack thereof, that can drive a wound so deep that it makes your stomach hurt.
Boy, ain't I cheerful tonight. :P
On a brighter note, my partner and I got a 100% on our first project in Information Structures, which is a really hard class. :)

Tuesday, June 27, 2000
06:51 a.m.

I have determined that there *are* such things as computer gods. Last night my computer crashed no less than 5 times while I was trying to load a file off a zip disk. I couldn't get it - every time I tried MS Word completely locked up. I cursed, I pleaded, I begged, I screamed, I even pounded my fists on the wall from frustration (I have about 8 files on that zip disk needed for a homework assignment I'm handing in today). Finally, I actually shut my computer down and went to bed. This morning I get up, turn it back on, check some email, sigh, pop in the zip disk, and ta-da! Everything works fine. Thankyou thankyou thankyou. :)

Monday, June 26, 2000
07:33 p.m.

Oh bleah. Gobbling down a double quarter pounder with cheese, plus fries, after not having eaten anything all day, is a BAD move.

Sunday, June 25, 2000
08:23 p.m.

So much work to do...... so little time. And I just realized that the one weekend I was going to be able to see my lover in the next month and a half is the one weekend that I have my third test in one class the following Monday, and my second test in my other class that Tuesday. And we ain't talking about easy classes, either. So the question is, will I choose to preserve my sanity or my grades? Decisions, decisions.

Sunday, June 25, 2000
02:22 a.m.
Procrastinator's Creed
Okay...... I've been fussing with this page plenty, and now I think I should go to bed. I have so much work to do by Tuesday... and of course I have started absolutely none of it. *sigh* Just a procrastinator at heart, I suppose.

Sunday, June 25, 2000
12:59 a.m.

Okay... set up a new template. I made it, obviously (and I'm sure you can tell my proficiency in HTML is not the greatest :) ). We'll see how I like it.
Doncha hate it when every time you and your lover get into an argument, you always feel like you're the one that's horribly f***ed in the head, and wow, how can you even survive with those crazy opinions of yours? I know I sure do. :)