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Wow. I really love soccer.
I longed for how it used to be on Saturday, October 4, 2003 at the time of 09:40 a.m.
Ok. So I am going to homecoming. I really didn't wanna go, cuz I really didn't feel like being with all the drama again. But Chels convinced me that we might as well go. And it could be really fun! We just have to MAKE it fun!! WAHOO!! And boy, will we be able to do that! We have a group of 5 counting me (Chels, Erika, Allison, Kyla, and me) and we're getting our hair done and going out to dinner before and then goin to the dance! And I have the CUTEST dress in the world that I'm going to wear, complements to Chels's cousin Mallory!!! AHH I am soo excited to get all dressed up!! And going with friends is way better than worrying about what any guys think. I'm not gonna, cuz it's gonna be a super fun night no matter what! I'll make sure of that!! GUYS CAN'T RUIN MY FUN!!!! wOOt!!!!!
I longed for how it used to be on Thursday, October 2, 2003 at the time of 06:33 p.m.
mmmm....sexy senior soccer player. I love him :D *sigh* OOO!! He has the ball! OOOO! He's dribbling up the field!! He passes it!!! OO it's a beautiful pass...*faints*
I longed for how it used to be on Tuesday, September 30, 2003 at the time of 07:33 p.m.
haha. I fell asleep during the "Little Buddha" movie in english...great fun. Except I got a mark on my face from Chels. Arrrgh. Oh well.
I longed for how it used to be on Tuesday, September 30, 2003 at the time of 07:31 p.m.
High school drama is worse than Middle school drama. High school is really overrated. I say we boycott homecoming...oh yeah, and guys aren't worth the time. I've given up again, and this time I'm gonna keep to my own word. Well, at least I'm gonna try as hard as possible. I'm sick of having crushes on guys that I know won't go anywhere even before I like them.
I longed for how it used to be on Monday, September 29, 2003 at the time of 08:57 p.m.
Why can't I just keep my mouth shut?? I was just mad...but I can't help but feel guilty. Still, it really pisses me off. AHH why am I such a screw-up?? I'm not the same as I used to be...
I longed for how it used to be on Thursday, September 25, 2003 at the time of 09:19 p.m.
Went to church tonight, signed up for the discipleship groups, and basically just hung out the whole time with my best bud, Michelle, and then Bethany!! YAY!! And Clarke, and some other peoples. Fun stuff. Good times. Sister picked me up. Drove home with the windows down, "Where Is The Love?" and Hilary Duff's "So Yesterday" blasting on the stereo. It was awesome. Gotta love drivin with the siblings!!
I longed for how it used to be on Wednesday, September 24, 2003 at the time of 09:26 p.m.
Wow, I really didn't realize how much I hate actually being in school. I just really, really, really, don't like it. Just having to sit in class for soooooooo freakin' long. It sucks. Yesterday, my alarm didn't go off, and neither did my dad's, so we both wake up at like, 7:00. And he left and told me I was gonna have to just go late and give them the note, but after he left, I called my mom and convinced her to let me stay home. I just did NOT want to go at all. It was hard, though, cuz my mom was gonna make me. But I told her I'd be doing homework and practicing my songs for choir (which I did both of those things, mind you), and she said OK, as long as I rested (because I was tired). And oh yeah, I couldn't be on the computer, but it was soooo nice to be able to just stay home all day and be by myself. I listened to music the whole time, basically. It rocked. Oh, and did I mention that we beat West Salem Highschool in soccer on Monday? Yeah, buddy! 3-2!!! Mariah scored the first goal, I scored the second one (first goal for me of the season wahoo!!!!!), and Rachael scored the third. It was a great game, I'm pretty pumped for Friday's game against South Albany!! Supposively, the West girls beat them 3-1, so we shouldn't have a problem. But I still wanna go at 'em as if they're a super challenging team. And who knows? They could be! Either way, I wanna score again, hehe. 2 more days til the weekend! WAHOO!!!!!!!!!!!
I longed for how it used to be on Wednesday, September 24, 2003 at the time of 05:39 p.m.
Summer Romance - Incubus
I'm home alone tonight
Full moon illuminates my room, and sends my mind afight
I think I was dreaming up
some thoughts that were seemingly possible... with you
So I call you on the tin can phone
We rendezvous at a quarter-two, and make sure we're alone
I may have found a way for you and I to finally fly free
When we get there, we're gonna go far away
Making sure to laugh; while we experience
anti-gravity
For years, I kept to myself
Now potentialities are bound, and sleeping under my shelf
Simply choose your destination
from the diamond canopy, and we'll be there
So I call you on the tin can phone
We rendezvous at a quarter-two, and make sure we're alone
I may have found the way for you and I to
finally be free
I longed for how it used to be on Monday, September 22, 2003 at the time of 08:51 p.m.
DUCKS!!! AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! I LOVE THEM SO MUCH!!!!! They always play such a great game and give you somethin to really watch!!!!!! Today, it coulda gone either way. But the Ducks proved to America that they can still be good without Joey...they freakin beat a no. 3 ranked team!!!!! And they were ranked no. 22!!!!! WAAAAAHOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!! I'm so excited...if the Beavers lost, that would really make my day...except for the fact that I'm sick. bleh. Oh well!! MY DUCKS WON!!!!!!!!! :D
I longed for how it used to be on Saturday, September 20, 2003 at the time of 10:05 p.m.
Mondays suck. I just did all this homework that I really didn't understand. I hate spanish, I really wanna drop it, but I really can't. Well, not that I know of yet. I only have to take one more year of a language....but I want it to be something that ISN'T spanish. Like sign language or something. All I know is that after my minimum language year requirements are done with, i'm not takin another language class. I wanna do other stuff. Bleh. ahhhhh school is so depressing/sad/stupid. I mean, I like seeing people...but I'm just so depressed about all of the work and stuff and being in school. I think this year is going to eat me alive. I seriously don't think I'm gonna survive. Ahhhhhhh save me now. Bleh. At least I have awesome friends that I can hang out with, and football games to go to...and guys to like hehe. And fun things to do I guess. And soon SNOWBOARDING season will be here and I'll go up with some friends and it'll be rockin. This season HAS to be better than last or else I'll cry :( I LOVE IT SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yeah buddy! Just friends, a mountain, and a board. NO other way to go.
I longed for how it used to be on Monday, September 15, 2003 at the time of 09:53 p.m.
Last night was a fun night indeed. Had a soccer game against Skyview (they're from Washington), and a buncha people came to watch. Let's see, I think there was Chels, Lacey, Allison, one of Allison's friends from gymnastics, Maja, Elle, Scott, Kyle, Jordan, Stevey, Doug, Kris, and Kreg. And then some other guy I didn't really know. But yeah, we kicked butt. I felt like I played pretty well, too. I made this breakaway I am super proud of. I checked into the middle for a pass, sheilded the ball so I could turn it away from the person that was marking me, took it up the side, cut in and beat the defender, crossed it in perfectly in front of Rachael, and she shot it in for a goal. It was awesome! I hope I can do that in all my other games, too!! Fun stuff. Anyways, we all kicked major butt and won 3-1. And I played forward in the last few minutes, which is always a nice break for me, aha. And then Anna came over afterwords, and we ate Muchas Gracias for din din, and then went to Stevey's, where Chels and Erika, Jordan, Kyle, Scott, and Doug were there too. It was fun. But Erika and Chels left soon after we got there, but it was lots of fun, the guys are so incredibly entertaining, ahaha. Good times, good times...that pretty much sums it up! haha.
I longed for how it used to be on Sunday, September 14, 2003 at the time of 06:03 p.m.
I can't stop thinking about him. I can't stop. It's all coming back, everything, the emotion...I don't want it to, yet so badly I do want it to. You think I could learn from other things happening, but I guess since it's never happened to me, I could maybe give it another try...
I longed for how it used to be on Saturday, September 13, 2003 at the time of 09:57 a.m.
I wish I knew how I felt for sure. I wish I could tell him how I feel.....but it would just get screwed up even more...
I longed for how it used to be on Friday, September 12, 2003 at the time of 11:00 p.m.
Guys are gay. Officially gay. School? It's gay too. Relationships are stupid, yet not...Gosh, why am I screwed up? Feeling the same way all over again.....Man, if this happens to me every week this is gonna suck.
I longed for how it used to be on Friday, September 12, 2003 at the time of 10:50 p.m.
I had yet another crappy night at a football game. Will it ever stop?
I longed for how it used to be on Friday, September 12, 2003 at the time of 10:48 p.m.
I'm so glad it's been raining!!! I feel like I live in Oregon now! YAY!!!! It's been so hot, I forgot what it's like to have it rain and be cool outside. Last night, I woke up and it was raining outside!! So I drifted back off to sleep with the sound of the rain hitting the roof...it was awesome. :) *smiles*
I longed for how it used to be on Tuesday, September 9, 2003 at the time of 05:57 p.m.
Highschool. Eh, it's allright. I hate mondays, though. Gosh, they suck. Just....they do. Even if nothing is really actually going wrong in some way, they're just bleh. You're always tired, and you really really don't wanna be at school. Plus, it's the first day of the week, and you know you have 4 more days to go afterwards. But at least it's over! The good thing that happened today, though, was that we won our soccer game 4-0!!! It was great. We played awesome. I think we weren't as nervous, so we settled down better. Also, it was our second game playing together, so we were a little more used to how everyone else plays and stuff. We were a lot more aggressive, and first to the ball! YAY!! And the team we lost to was supposively one of the hardest teams in the league (if not the hardest), so we should kick butt most of the rest of the time! But especially for league, cuz right now we're just doin pre-season games. But we play Jesuit on Thursday, and I'm really nervous, cuz they recruit, and they're really good! AHHHHHHHH!!!! But it'll be all good. Tomorrow's an A-day. Fun stuff...NOT! Oh well, pretty soon it'll be Wednesday! Which means a B-day and Freshman mugging! WAHOO!!!!
I longed for how it used to be on Monday, September 8, 2003 at the time of 09:22 p.m.
Youth groups started back up today!!! YAY!!! And this time, I'm in the highschool youth group! So I go to second service (at 9:45) and then to the Flipside (highschool group) at 11:15. Let me tell ya, it rocked! Even though we just sang a few songs, and Ryan talked a little bit, not really a sermon or anything, and then we had our 3rd annual weenie roast! haha. It was great. I really think I'm gonna like the highschool group! No, correction, I know I'm gonna like it. I loved middleschool youth group, no doubt about that, but some of the things we did were so much more fun when I was in 6th grade...and being an 8th grader, well..you catch my drift. The step even from 7th grade to 8th grade is huge!! I like being with the older people. And I am SO excited for the fall retreat!!! It's comin up next month!!! And freshman mugging is this Wednesday!!! We get root-beer floats :D Michelle and I can make our Fajha's New-Fashioned Root-Beer! Yes, we made it up. haha....well, I really am excited about this year. Even though I have to go to school, I can at least look forward to the Wednesday nights, Sunday mornings, and events with the Flipside!!! I LOVE MY CHURCH SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I longed for how it used to be on Sunday, September 7, 2003 at the time of 03:35 p.m.
I really love music. I really love singing. Just belting it out at the top of your lungs....it's always so full of emotion. And it's so easy to express yourself when you're singing, whether you're happy, angry, loving life...anything. It's awesome. I feel so blessed that God gave me a voice with which to sing, and I feel like I should give back to Him through my voice. I want to use this gift He gave me to further worship Him, and not just by being on worship team at church....
I longed for how it used to be on Saturday, September 6, 2003 at the time of 09:57 p.m.
Duck game today. GO DUCKS! They won...Ħole! And of course, Clemmens looked better then Fife. Although Fife did make this one gorgeous pass to Samie Parker for a TD. I'm hoping this season will be better for the Ducks!!
Anywho, I have had a lazy Saturday. Woke up late (I didn't get to bed til 3 last night because I had drank lots of Mountain Dew before the game and wasn't tired when I came home), sat around, was online, watched the game. Went on a run. Did homework. I actually had quite a bit! I had to read chapter 4 of my history book, do a fairly long math assignment, and finish my spanish question things. None of it was really hard, but it was still quite a bit. It's so weird, It's already homework time again! Man, this is crazy. Did I even have summer? Anyways, I'm glad, because my geometry isn't too incredibly hard. It's just the concept of getting it...I'm startin to understand things on my own, wahoo! haha.
I decided that now I'm in highschool, I'm really gonna make the most out of my classes. I'm gonna have to, since they're harder ones. It's definitely going to be a challenging year, but with some studying, hard work, and a little prayer, I know I can do it!!! And if I get tired of the school part (which I know I will) and don't wanna go back, I at least get to see my friends, hot guys, and be on the soccer team...and youth group is starting TOMORROW so I'll be able to have stuff to look forward to over the course of the year. Like retreats, and wednesday nights, and Sundays, too! Fun stuff. I think this year is gonna be a good one. I just have a feeling!
I longed for how it used to be on Saturday, September 6, 2003 at the time of 09:50 p.m.
The Kinks. Yeah buddy.
I longed for how it used to be on Saturday, September 6, 2003 at the time of 11:33 a.m.
I love this. It's the 4th day of school and already I'm frustrated with guys! Gosh, it doesn't even seem like I've been out of school for 3 months! Last year and the summer went by so fast, it's like it's all one thing or something. But anyways, I just found myself frustrated with guys tonight, I dunno. And also a lot of the people in our class. For one thing, I think that guys have a serious issue with me or something! I SWEAR!! It's like, do I have a disease? Is there something on my face? WHAT?!? Argh...and I'm sure the guy I "have my eye on" doesn't even care about who I am. I mean, am I invisible?! Because sometimes it seems like I am. I mean, people know I'm there, but they don't really acknowledge me, and I feel like they take me for granted or something. Or they just don't care to know who I am. And why do guy things always work out for other people??? Anna got a boyfriend in 4 days, that's gotta be like, a record or something. SHE JUST FREAKIN MET HIM ON TUESDAY!!! Holy crap that's gay, I think. Personally...I mean, on this site, I'm writin what I think! That's for sure! And Doug was always talking to other people that were by me, and he didn't know them that well either, but did he talk to me or anything? uhh NO! And the only people that did really come up and talk to me were freakin HIGH!!!! Gosh, what is it with me? I NEED TO CHILL OUT I KNOW!!!!!!!!!!! But I have reason to complain! BECAUSE I'VE NEVER KNOWN WHAT IT'S LIKE TO HAVE SOMEONE REALLY CARE ABOUT ME!!!!!!!!!!
I longed for how it used to be on Saturday, September 6, 2003 at the time of 12:30 a.m.
It's FRIDAY!! FINALLY!!!!!!!! I officially like B-days the best. I hate having first lunch, it makes the day go by sooo incredibly slow. ARGH. Plus I have better classes, like Jazz Etc., History, Geometry (I don't like math but I have it with lots of good people), and Orchestra, and of course 2nd lunch with Chels and Erika! That's always great. Well, the first home Varsity football game is tonight! AND I AM SO FREAKIN EXCITED!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! I'm gonna drink lots of mountain dew before I go so I can get on a total caffiene high....MWAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHAH!!!
I longed for how it used to be on Friday, September 5, 2003 at the time of 05:21 p.m.
Highschool. Could be. A mini me of the rest of society there's always. A prom queen. They're always be. Always be sorority and sadly. Some will be. Eternally. Keeping score with popularity and just cuz. They all do. Doesn't mean we have to act like we're in highschool.
Yeah, that's just a bit from a Superchick song, but anyways...highschool has now begun. It's interesting. It's actually quite overwhelming, I mean, you don't realize it, but then once you get home you're like, WHOA! haha. And I can't even stay home for 20 minutes (not even that...more like 10!!) cuz I have to walk down to Gilmore Field and be there at 3:00 for socccer practice til 5:00! Ahhhhh!!! Craziness. Our first game is tomorrow, too!!! SO NERVOUS!! At least it's a pre-season game...but I still wanna win! :D School is weird. Like, I feel like I'm at school, yet I'm not actually there...if that makes any sense. And I mean, I was like YEAH HIGHSCHOOL WOOHOO!!! But now that I'm there, it's just school. Although I'm glad I'm there than Leslie!!! Anyways, I guess highschool isn't all it's cracked up to be. Well, at least for now. It'll probably get better in the next month or so...Hopefully!!!!
I longed for how it used to be on Wednesday, September 3, 2003 at the time of 08:47 p.m.
Tonight. One of the last nights of summer. Tomorrow. The last day of summer. Wow. It's so crazy. Time flies by so fast. It barely even feels like summer, it's like we just were at Leslie. And it's not like it feels like I had gone to school or anything, it's just, I dunno what it felt like, just not summer. Odd thing, huh? I just have to think about that a bit. It's so weird. I just can't get over that. I'm just...overwhelmed by it almost. As I was running, I ran by South, and it just hit me (like it has many times before): that is my school. I am about to start those years where everything will matter the most, and 4 more of those years and I will be off to college. Yeah, I know I'm kinda jumping ahead, but...it's right around the corner if you think about it. If the years go by as fast as this last one did, well, we'll be in college before we know it. All I know is that I'm ready to live these highschool days as best as I can.
I longed for how it used to be on Sunday, August 31, 2003 at the time of 09:26 p.m.
Somewhere In Between - Lifehouse
I can't be losing sleep over this, no I can't
And I cannot stop pacing
Give me a few hours and I'll have this all sorted out
If my mind would just stop racing
I cannot stand still
I can't be this unsturdy
This cannot be happening
This is over my head but underneath my feet
Because by tomorrow morning I'll have this thing beat
And everything will be back to the way that it was
I wish that it was just that easy
'Cause I'm waiting for tonight, then waiting for tomorrow
And I'm somewhere in between what is real and just a dream
Would you catch me if I fall out what I fell in
Don't be surprised if I collapse down at your feet again
I don't want to run away from this
I know that I just don't need this
'Cause I cannot stand still
I can't be this unsturdy
This cannot be happening
'Cause I'm waiting for tonight, then waiting for tomorrow
And I'm somewhere in between what is real and just a dream
Kinda sounds like me...
I longed for how it used to be on Sunday, August 31, 2003 at the time of 08:35 p.m.
I keep getting that feeling...the feeling of needing someone. I keep getting lost in daydreams that won't come true. Yet, I still can't help but think about it...even though I know perfectly well that I'm wasting my time. But still, I keep thinking that maybe highschool could bring someone unexpected in my life. I guess we'll just wait and see.
I longed for how it used to be on Saturday, August 30, 2003 at the time of 11:13 p.m.
Went to the barn party tonight. It was pretty fun, but I was so incredibly tired. And the girls I babysit were there. And Alayna (one of the girls) didn't have a friend with her, so she had me go play with her for a little while. Until I decided that I wanted to go watch the rest of the game haha. She's so funny. Anyways, the game was good in the first quarter, Clemmens gave great passes and made great plays, and the TDs were great. Then they put Fife (or Feefee, whichever you prefer) in and he just didn't compare to Clemmens. Yeah, he made a TD, but he still didn't look as good as Clemmens. Clemmens is only a sophomore, and he's lookin better than Fife, who's a senior. I don't see why Bellotti hasn't made up his mind about which QB to play!!! He better know by next game. Jeez. I say, put Clemmens in, give him this year to gain more experience (I know he'll get better), and next year, dannng he'll be somethin to see!!! Almost like a Joey, except for not, cuz no one can compare to that ;) But anyways, GO DUCKS!!!
I longed for how it used to be on Saturday, August 30, 2003 at the time of 11:01 p.m.
Special Announcement:
Switchfoot is coming to Portland!!!
They will be in the Roseland Theater in Portland, OR on September 29th!!! Tell all your friends cuz the tickets are only $15!
I longed for how it used to be on Saturday, August 30, 2003 at the time of 06:01 p.m.
Gosh, I've done a bunch of cleaning today. I cleaned the bathroom, vacuumed my room, and cleaned the bunny cage. I've just been a busy girl today! I also went on a run, which was good, but super hot, holy cow. OMGOSH we got our Krispy Kreme donuts this morning and OH they are soo incredibly good. A dozen of their original glazed. They're best when they're hot off the conveyer belt thing, but even when they aren't, they're still soft and they melt in your mouth, mmmmm. If you haven't ever had Krispy Kreme, you seriously have not lived. WOW they are good. Anyways, I'm goin to the first BARN PARTY of the season!!! The first Duck game is tonight! YEAH BUDDY!!! Hopefully they'll be better than last season! haha!
I longed for how it used to be on Saturday, August 30, 2003 at the time of 05:37 p.m.
I tried on my sis's prom dress. It's so pretty!!! It's long and flowy and pretty and OOO!!! I'm thinkin of going to snoball just so I can wear it.....
I longed for how it used to be on Friday, August 29, 2003 at the time of 09:41 p.m.
Wow, I have a lot more reading to get done. Hopefully I'll be able to finish in...*counting* 3 days! EEK! I'm really excited to go to school, it's just the reading I'm gettin nervous about. Oh well, it's my own fault, haha. AHHH I STILL CAN'T CONTAIN MY EXCITEMENT FOR SCHOOL!!!!!!! Hot guys, hot guys, hot guys....
I longed for how it used to be on Friday, August 29, 2003 at the time of 08:43 p.m.
wOOt! My hair is back to normal! I'm glad. Wow, today has been a very lazy day so far. Woke up at 10:00, ate some breakfast, talked online for awhile, got my hair cut at 12:00, got back home at about 1:00. I read a little, then went on a run at about 2:00, came back, ate some food, and got back online and listened to some tunes. Man, I love music. It is so incredibly awesome. First Duck game is TOMORROW NIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yeah buddy!
I longed for how it used to be on Friday, August 29, 2003 at the time of 04:50 p.m.
Yesterday was an interesting day. All I can say, is that I was really tired...and I got my hair cut crappy. All I wanted was a trim, and I went to the place I always go to. Except I had to have someone different this time. Anyways, they wash your hair before they cut it, and she did. And then, when they trim it, they usually put it up in clips and cut by sections, making sure it's all even......huh. Well.......she didn't. She just combed it out, parted it, an started cutting straight across, totally guessing on the length and stuff. WHAT A PIG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Argh...I'm just trying to grow my hair out, can we make it less difficult by only getting ONE hair cut instead of two at a time?! Gosh, people these days...
I longed for how it used to be on Friday, August 29, 2003 at the time of 10:56 a.m.
Finally finished LOTR 2 last night. Wow, that movie is still incredibly awesome (even after the 3rd time seeing it!). So much hotness, too...like Aragorn? Seriously, it's amazing what looking greasy can do for you. And Legolas of COURSE is just a hottie. Maybe not so much with the long blonde hair goin on (that's just kinda weird), but when you look at his face, you can still tell he's really really hot. I love how he's the only one that ever stays clean, haha.
I longed for how it used to be on Wednesday, August 27, 2003 at the time of 08:09 a.m.
Ok, since my computer is GAY and deleted my other site to who knows where, I had to start another one. Which really makes me mad because I had stuff on my other one that I really actually liked. Oh well, at least now when I'm starting a site I'll know what I'm doing, and all my pages will look decent, haha.
I longed for how it used to be on Tuesday, August 26, 2003 at the time of 07:54 p.m.
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