|
My pitas page
10/23
Ok, this might be something only people who know English and Japanese can understand, but today, ruth told me that she tried to post the message on my homepage, but she could not figure out for some reason, even though she had her friendfs help, so she sent me an e-mail that tells me about the homepage that she says appeared not in neither Japanese nor EnglishO__O so she tried to tell me what she would have written on the e-mail she sent to me, but it didnft show, so I talked to her on the phone, she told me that she was gonna write something in Japanese, and whatever the sentence is, she meant to write something like gtake careh on the end of the sentence which would be gkiotsukete(ne)h in Japanese, but what she told me was not that word, she said gtasuketeh which sounds kinda similar to gkiotsuketeh,,,,, kinda^^ and which means ghelph, and we laughed and laughed, what if you get a letter or something that asks you for a help on the end of it? Just funny to think about it. I am not humiliating her though, we are both in agreememt*lol* ok no more talking about something I can seem wacko*lol*,,,,,,,,,,, cocky snob I mean*lol*
Whatfs it like to hear your language in the foreign songs? Japanese songs have many, many English in them, but not Japanese in English songs(this may be strange way to define the songs^^;), you might even realize that there are almost as many English titled songs sangsung by Japanese as the ones have Japanese title out there, thatfs amazing, really, so I think, I think that shows the proof of that Japanese people think English is kinda cool, I donft know if other countries are like Japan too, but that also shows Englishfs popularity and how English is accepted as a not first language, now most of Japanese donft even wonder when they see English in Japanese songs, even if they could not get what the words mean, I sometimes think in Japan, itfs been too much English is mixed into Japanese society, almost all of advertisements have English and some English words are known that we can not think of what would it be in Japanese. Maybe itfs good, that way people can get used to English. Internationalization is what our country had needed for a long time, but
I wonder if the Japaness(language) get critical influence by mixing the word like we do now so that in future words my kids use would be so many gkatakanah, the square form of kana which is basically used when we write English word, I donft know if I am saying that English should not be used as much as it has been where itfs not necessary, I am rather happy about that English is used so many places, and even though Japanese has adopted some foreign words since long time ago, I just think languages(any of them, in this case it is Japanese) should not be changed much by OTHER language, I know itfs been changing according to the history and society,etc, I know I can not talk with the people who lived in Japan earlier than 400 years ago, but by other language? I think itfs a bit different from like,,,, English and Spanish having so many similarities. 2 independent language like Japanese and English that have (I think) nothing related to each other,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, I donft know*lol* no offence to the English speakers, I donft know if you feel as if you are insulted, but I have no intention to be jerk to criticize English , I really adore your fascinating language^^
I just want Japan to be more internationalized in the way the states is, many different people live as a same human being, not the way too much of change of language so that people doesnft know the language have to suffer. ooooooooooooooookkkkkkkkkkkkey, get back to the topic I was talking about before I digressed, Japanese songs, so maybe I should try to put Japanese words on some songs sang sung with English*lol* ok since I happen to be listening to gBrad Paisleyh(good country singer) I should try to quote his song and change some words into Japanese*lol* no intention to make fun of him at all for the fans of his:p just part of the song So you say you wanna tie the knot
And you're askin' me if I think that the two of you have got
What it takes to make it work
Well one thing's for sure
aisaearebadaijoubusa(Japanese in stead of saying all you really need it love)
Let me say I'm happy for you both
And here's a little something that the two of you should know
If you want to do it right
Just take my advice
aisaearebadaijoubusa(jpanaese)
Itfs used like that, I would think itfs weird when I hear the song that has words mixed with Japanese and English,sang sung by Eminem*lol* thatfs all for today, I need to go to bed(-___-)zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
where did 10/21
all my entries after 10/6 go? (T___T I know, I know, it's not happening only to me, I saw Jamie's blog and samething seems happening to her blog, well, I just should say"oh well" and forget about it,,,,,, I just miss my entries not only because I wrote them, but it's harder for me to write them in English. Every single entries I usually need to spend 30min or so to write them. well, I guess I just need to get over and move on*lol* I finally sent the application form to the school I intend to attend ^o^/ I really hope that I get accepted and can get the visa on time. let's hope^^ 10/6
Yesterday I got the result of TOEFL I took before I went to the states, and score was 223 which meets the requirement to get in the school in the states, well, it should meet, but I checked the paper again and it says there are few way to show the score, for instance if you take paper test, requirement is 550 point, and if you take computer test, 213 is the point you have to get, and I thought there were only those two way they show the score, but there is other way and my score was shown by that way which wonft meet the requirement-___- so 223 isnft good enoughcc.. ok, thatfs about the dream I had last night*lol* well, you sometimes have a dream that makes you so relieved after you woke up and realized that was a dream, it was definitely one of that^^; well, even though having no cell phone, I somehow managed to get a hold of Ruth who I am becoming very good friend with, and talked to her a while. We might be going to have Halloween party or something, although she might not be able to make it on that day because she will be gone for JET congress, anyways, itfs good to plan that kind of things^^ but I wonder if there are Halloween in other countries, I need to find out if there is,
Seems like many foreigners who are in Japan have not been able to study or have enough time to study Japanese, most of my friends tell me that even though they really want to study, they are too busy working, and at the work they donft have much opportunity to study Japanese. That reminded me of the days I worked in Oregon, well, I mean, I was working in the green house, and of course, English was used at there, but most of the time I had to mainly speak was Spanish, so I donft think I got better at English from working. I wanted desperately to improve my English skills, maybe because I like or I am interested in English very much? Or I wanted not to sound bad when I speak and act like outsider who doesnft know anything? I kinda hated to be treated as who can not communicate so that they have to take troubles for me when they wouldnft have to if I werenft devoid of English ability, so I tried relatively many things and got embarrassed, laughed at, mocked, whatever, and it would still keep happening if I continue to live in the states, not everyone is like who are used to seeing foreigners, talking to them. But I didnft care. I donft intend to criticize them at all, but sometimes I wonder if they really want to study or that itfs not so important to them so that they can easily give up and doesnft matter to them. Almost all of my friends in Japan from other countries are teaching English, so it might not bother them even if they can not speak the language spoken in the country they live in, because they might feel itfs not something they necessarily have to learn because as long as they have ability to speak English as a native speaker, they can work and maintain the respect (I mean, no one around you at work would treat you bad), and still feel satisfied, itfs just like my friends in Oregon who hang out with mostly Japanese and donft do anything about study, so they are ok with people who are so kind and used to taking care of international students kinda stuff, but I want to get out of that and be treated as same as who lives there for their entire life, I know I am still treated and taken care of as a person who needs to be taken care of, and am surrounded by extraordinary kind people, and itfs sometimes hard to find them, but there ainft any other way to study if you canft learn from work. You can study by watching TV, reading books, they are really good way to study, but language doesnft consist from just reading and perception and understanding, you have to tell what you think of, they donft just keep on talking and talking to you not listening to you or asking your opinion. Abilities to listen, to understand, to express, to say, etc, several things you need to have, you can not be lack of even one of them. So what I think about them is that they should take more advantage of being the country, it is a shame that if you can not study as much language in the country as you did back your country, although sometimes I think it might be easier to study language with your first language, do you know what I mean? I mean, if you study English in Japanese you can probably get to know more detail you wonder about, cuz to me, I have many stuff I can use but donft know why is that so, and I donft have fundamentals of basics, so I still can not make perfect sentence^^; Here is something I think of leaning the language with your language or the one you are studying, sorry, I couldnft explain it well, I meant, to learn English in Japanese or to learn English in English, I prefer to learn in English not because Ifm not trusting Japanese teachers*lol*(though itfs true that they sometimes teach something wrong, Ruth even told me that, but she couldnft correct them because,,,, you know^^; I wouldnft do that either,and there is teacher who doesn't speak much english so it's hard to understand them, amazing:p)
but because you can learn the words you can USE in the conversation, real language I would call, it seems not to happen as much in English as in Japanese that spoken language and the one on the textbook are so different, and Japanese has many many ways to talk, and on(in?) the textbook, mostly(I bet whole pages) written by very formal polite way that we donft use much, here is the contradiction, if you want to talk like native speaker, you have to learn how to talk not like the way textbook tells you, and you can not learn much about how to talk that way from books, and if you study from textbook, even though you are getting better, you might still not be able to understand what your friend says, although Ifm assuming that once you cross particular line, you will be able to understand the context of sentence not seeing or listing to whole sentence, cuz usually difference between formal and informal sentence can be differentiated by seeing the end of the sentence,(itfs not that simple of course :P) well,I totally digressed and I have to go for now>D I will talk about more about this later someday*lol* alright, bye^^
thing I never really thought about 9/27
I almost never thought about how I sound when I say some bad words because it's ok whatever people think about me sounding funny or unnatural to express my anger or other feelings, and to be quite honest, I still don't know how bad the words could be, something like crap, F word, thing, I know which one of them is stronger than other, but I do not know the very small details that only native speaker can get (or feel), like I leaned the words from talking with people and I kinda know which situation you say words in, so like some words are that I can use it and understand what that means, but I don't know the right Japanese word for it. Tonight, Jamie and Meg and I were at the basement seeing the pics and having a fun^^ although Meg needed to get massage because her back was killing her and it still is killing her. I hope she gets at least better by the tomorrow. Anyways, I saw lots of pics of them being in Japan and it was fun even though I've seen it before. I learned some stuff tonight, for instance, I leaned about "doujin-shi" *lol* and words "seme, uke". What do they sound like to you? I mean, if you are Japanese, you know what that mean, it was just funny because those words are known by Meg as something you use when you(has to be guy) are having some kind of relationship with guy and to decide which one of them is going toEE. Nah,, forget it, it's just nasty contents*lol* speaking of nasty, I was giving Meg the massage on her back, and while I was giving her massage, Jamie was reading the Japanese book I bought, and telling us the Japanese word and what it means in English, and Jamie said something really really something girls never said before expect in the porno movieXD I mean, totally no offence to Jamie, she is wonderful person, it was just funny cuz some words, you don't expect certain people to say them right? You don't expect "grandma" to say "man, I'ma kill somebody if that bitch keep doing that" kind of thing, right? So it was just funny in a good way, Jamie and Meg sometimes find amusement when I say some words that are not used by not English speaker so that it sounds fun I guess when I say that, it was just like that and even funnier because of what she said^^; I wish I could hear it again, I don't mean to sound like perv tho>D what she said is about some kinda organ in Japanese in even very funny way, sorry Jamie, it can be on here right jun?:p *lol* I went to play table tennis tonight and it was fun, but there is not much I want to write about except one thing that Jamie must be (undoushinkei batsugun= so athletic), she played it so much better than she said she was, and she was so good so I could have gotten beat, I'm just saying she is good at many kind of sports, I was impressed. We played board game called "clue", I am not even sure about how to play. The Jamie and Meg both won and I didn't, I gotta play it again. All right, I need to go to bed now, (-__-Zzzzz ok guys, talk to you later. I now do know what I can do for the people who I care about a lot^^v and it was very fun I had tonight^^v 9/24??
I hope it's 24th, but I guess it's probably not, I just wantI really like with Jamie's family, even though I don't always hang out with her dad and her brother, they all care about me, and it has never been scarce or too much, they hardly let me pay for many stuff, I hope I could pay more but I do understand why they wouldn't let me pay, I would probably do the same if they were in Japan. So all I can do is to thank them and sometimes to try to oppose them and just pay*lol* I have probably been spending more time with jenilee who is Jamie's mom than anyone else, she's been helping me to study English and other stuff, and she is very good at listening to people specially who can't speak fast like me, and she used to be a teacher, so very kind and attractive personality she has, I think she still is a teacher. I really like her and that's why I am really considering to attend the school here. I can get great deal of benefit by doing so, not just like as an international student, just like kids having parents to help them to study about things. I might lose something by going school here, I might lose something very important , I will get something I really want, and I will get something which means to me a lot, because I can totally trust something. So I don't see why not I talked with Shannon on the phone tonight, I was so happy to talk to him, we talked about so many things, and he inspired me a lot, he sure is my great friend and I totally admire his character, I need to see him again^^; I have to go to bed right now or I would die, so, good night^^; the time to stop now so that I won't have to go 9/23
I don't know how to explain this well, but, if you communicate with someone who speaks different language, sometimes you can not express what you really want to tell them. It is kind of frustrating like when you first like the person as different sex and don't know what to talk about, how to act, etc. the worse thing would be that both things happing at same time:p well, maybe it's not worse because if someone likes you, that means you are one of the happiest person in the world*lol* ok I am going to speak about something as I feel like. I suck at speaking English, I do, and can not set up the structure of sentence right, it happens to many people too I assume that even you know those words that you can answer what they mean that doesn't mean you can use them when you talk, especially when you are with your favorite person or just nervous or that you don't know what's going on around. But I wouldn't mind trying to tell them, to convey my feelings, to the people I want to tell. I want to say that I love it when I love something, I want to tell someone what's in my mind when I have something in my mind about someone. ok I will digress, I used to think you don't need to say you love someone stuff much when you love someone, but I now think you have to express more of what you have in your mind, you should not try not to tell them what you think of them, tho it would be different story when it comes to negative feeling against them, I don't know if it is the good idea to tell them:p anyways, ok just let me be straight, if I met wonderful person and I liked the person, I just want to tell what I think of the person, and want the person to know about me, about how much I like her, and want to feel her, maybe this sounds nothing but sexual to you, but it is not:p I mean by feel is something like either to talk, or to touch her, or even just watch her laugh, in order to "feel" a existence of who care about me and who I care about, I am the kind of person who does the things like them to make myself feel very close to her:p get back to the subject, after 2 years living in the states, and still not being able to have general conversation smoothly, that sometimes terribly depresses me out, but at least now I can say things what I mean to say, it is better than when I used to be like being only able to say something very simple. I still can not make complete sentence, and even though it is going to be like this for loooooong time, but that is the reason I have been so amused by learning the language, in order to be able to communicate with the ones who I would not be able to talk to if I didn't study. I know, I am not making sense now, I will stop here, actually tho, I think 3rd chapter seems to be the one I mainly wanted to say tonightXD talking myselfEI don't want to forget every single thing happing to me, I don't want to miss every single moment that I have a chance to find something with. 2000 9/22
Somehow, my homepage's Counter showed that over 2000 times my homepage has been seen, which is very surprising to me because I didn't think people were going to see my page that much, however, * Such a thing could only be achieved because of Jamie and her friends and Azusa, yuki(right?:p) matsuda-kun, mika-san and many other friends, and myself contributing bunch of numbers to the counter by checking *lol arigato-ne^^ thanks to you 9/19
Ok, let's just focus on what's happing around here in stead of talking about whole what has been happing since last month^^; We are going up to Chicago tomorrow, and we will be having a blast at the Great America(I think that's what it's called) which would probably be the biggest theme park I've ever been. Let me tell ya, I am sooooo ready for this! *lol* It is going to be so much fun^^ And furthermore, I get to see Jamie's friends Kira and Racheal( no confident with the spellings, sorry if I spelled wrong(m-__-m :p), and go to Karaoke which I don't particularly want to do, I like to sing though, it'll be fun too. Anyways, I can't wait tomorrow^^ I watched the movie called "old school" with Jamie's mom Jenilee who has been great help of my study English or pretty much whatever I do,
I gotta tell ya, she is really really really really nice, I get frustrated by my self not being able to express enough how nice she is as she really is. She is not only "really really really really nice" person, but as you might already know that I'm stupid and not having the dictionary with me(he died;__;) I can not really say such things. Anyways, we watched it, and even though I have seen it before, it was still enjoyable to me, and so was it to her, she enjoyed it so much as she mentioned that she was fascinated, it's kinda funny that she said she was fascinated considering the contents of the movie. I didn't even ask Jamie if she wanted to see it, so I kinda started watching it with Jenilee(don't take this wrong tho, they have their stuff to do, and stuff they prefer to do, so I'm not being selfish dumb ass>D), and while we were watching, she came in to the room(we watch movies in Jamie's room) and said she wants to see it, maybe it was more like she doesn't mind trying, yeah, let's put that way*lol* Even though I would looooove to see the movie with her, I don't really know if she's gonna like that kind of movie, it's got some sexual things in the movie. I'm nearly 100% positive that she would like it if those contents are not contained, I guess I'm just going to find it out. Keep the fingers cross…………. it's like 3am now, but I can not still sleep. We all(Jamie, Megan and me) went to bed before 12:30, but I couldn't fall asleep, so I decided to sleep at basement, I was reading the comic, tying to get sleepy. Jenilee woke up to take the Blue(their one of the lovely dog) out, she was surprised and asked me "why are you there?" with enthusiasm. After she came back, she came to basement and I got blue back(he sometimes sleeps with me now which makes me very happy^o^), I must have made her worried again, perhaps I might appear to them STRANGE because sometimes even my Japanese friends don't understand me^^; but don't worry, you'll get used to it*lol* ah ok I digressed, anyways, I told her something I thing is strange and I guess almost no one do, but I think I'm stupid enough to say such a thing like that, and she later said something back to me that put big smile on my face^^ I guess that means she is kind enough to embrace my stupidityXD but stupid could be good, right? Like, to see only one person forever until they get bored with me*lol* not many smart people can do that, if you know what I'm talking about. Ok I should stop here and go to bed, thanks to you all who read this crappy nikki. ^^ /
From Illinois 9/18
After a month I left the last entry, I had not really felt like writing the nikki. But finally figured I should stop being the procrastinator and write it. Ok, I have so many things to write about, because I didn't write the nikki for more than a month, and furthermore, I kinda want to get off the computer now for some reason, so I promise, I will update my nikki while I'm staying here in Illinois, so please be patiant with me:p
PS; Notification. Jamie made awesome steamchiken! very impressive, and tasted good as hell^^v What if 8/15
you are relative with who you love? and even you guys are engaged? man, they must be screwed up so bad, and put myself in that position, don't know if I can handle it well, the thing is, you meet one as not a relative, just like other people, and happened to fall in love as you have done with other people, and all of a sudden, someone tells you you can not be with the person because you are relatives. I don't think it's gonna ever happen to me, I just thought it's not the way I want to satisfyingly finish the relationship with who I like:P no one would tho:P it's much better if you get dumped,,,,,well, maybe it's not either^^; losing the one can't be comparable however the way is:P it makes sense if 2 people can't be together anymore because one of them doesn't like other anymore, but if both love each other very much, they should be able to keep together, I hope there is magical fantastic rule in this world to do what I said, ok I'm starting to sound tremendously weird japanes guy:P so I'll stop, I'm not fantasizing tho, I'm saaaaaannnnne>D 8/8
Drama recommendation by me:P who usually doesnft prefer to see them:P Ok guys, I know I like drama and used to watch them (still, itfs not many ), but I donft watch them anymore nowadays for some reason. But one drama got my interest, itfs called gFuyuno sonatah itfs a Korean drama and broadcasted on satellite channel that you have to order to have that channel. Itfs already been played more than half episodes, so I donft think Ifm gonna watch it from now, but I might try to get DVD or something, cuz it looks sooo good, itfs a love story, oh yeah itfs looooots of love involved*lol* 2 people I think are going to get their lives ruined by main characterfs love cuz they were girl and boy friends of heroine and hero, It must suck if I was the one of who gets screwed and lose the one who you engaged with>D anyways, itfs good drama for sure, and there is books too, I strongly recommend that drama. Donft I sound like salesman??? XD Typhoon is supposed to pass where I live tonight, so far itfs not been so bad, just strong wind, I like the weather before typhoon comes, very strong wind but no rain started yet, I can say this probably because I havenft had serious problem with typhoon yet. Ifm so used to it, so taking it for granted. I hope nothing bad is gonna happen:P I really think people always need something that is incentive or they really like or really want to do,etc, whatever I think of. to me, sometimes itfs a place, or things I do, and it's a person sometimes. After I came back from the states, I kinda had nothing besides the job in Hawaii thing, so I didnft feel vitalized much, and that frustrated me, but now I feel much better. What Ifm realizing is that itfs easier to live in your life having object and pursue it than having nothing you want to do or donft know what to do and felling as if you are wasting the time. Thatfs why I always want to have something I can be enthusiastic about, otherwise I would be just dull person, Ifm not saying Ifm very interesting person:P I just think Ifm much better when I have something, cuz I like myself when I have something that I mentioned above:P in case you donft know, I used to hate myself a lot, but as I get older, or rather have met many people, Ifm finding the way to enjoy the time I was given. Jinsei tanoshindemasuka----? You better be able to say yes^^*lol* cuz life is supposed to be enjoyed.
John Manjirou 8/4
do you know who he is? he is the first japanese person who needed to speak engnlish who was rescued by american ship from shipwreck and taken to the states when he was 14. so he is supposed to be the first japanese who steped on the land of the states and brought back what so-colled "katakana english" you know what it is, right? it's like how we pronounce the english, for example,,,,signal, this word is known in japan as well, but we pronounce it as "sigunalu" you know, something like that:P do you know who Yukichi Fukuzawa is? he is the guy whose face is printed on the 10000 yen bill, he is novel writer, but before he became a writer, he was studying languages, he used to study German for 5years, and he somehow decided to study english, but there's no Japanese-English dictionary that time, he learned enligh with German-English dictionary which I think is extremely tough. I was surprised from this fact that he is the one who created these japanese words,"kyousou(competition)","enzetsu(speech)","dokuritsu(independence)",etc that made me wonder who gives approval to the words the guy came up with to make it official? maybe I should find out. These informations are presented by TV program called "eigo de shyaberanaito" which I think is best program in japan among english educational programs so far. well, I need some sleep, oyasumi-----(-o-zzzz rainbow8/2
(this is what I wrote when I was on the plane)I'm sitting the seat 38A, where is right next to the wing, and it's like 7:30pm in japan, what do you think I'm seeing? sunset, incredibly beautiful one, it's kinda cloudy in Korea and even showered when the plane was about to take off. Rain was hard so I thought flight's gonna be delayed which didn't happen:P Anyways, because of the depression, it cleated something like another world in the sky, no exaggeration,believe me, and I saw the rainbow on the wing! it wasn't like typical rainbow shape, it was rather just colors on the wing, still, it was fantastic! I tried to take a pic with my cell, but didn't come out(=_= and now it's getting dark,I'm wondering if I can get to see the fireworks from the sky, summer festival is supposed to be held today in Gifu. well, I couldn't see it^^; and next week, Ibigawachow hanabi matsuri is coming up^^ hey jamie, I finally found the word(^_-v remember? we ended up sattling for "unchangeable" or something. it's abiding!! tho I don't know if you think the word is right or appropriate:P anyways, now I can go to sleep^^ on the plane8/1
I watched movie "Xman, or men" whichever it is, and it's much better than I thought it was, and one part where lady who the main guy(claw guy) likes sacrificed herself to help other when dam collapsed, and I thought, how could you get over when you lost who you love? eternary? I've seen so many storyes that are like that, but it's happening in real life too, right? here is one tragic story from japan The man lost his wife and bady, they were living in apartment and one day he came back and found their bodies, they got killed by minor perve who said he was just curious and wanted to have sex or something. I felt terrible with the husband, who just lost practically everything(seemed to me). he was still 29 or somewhere around that age. I didn't think he would be able to get over and live his life like he used to, even tho he needs to and his wife and baby want him to do so. I'm kinda good at imagination, and to think about if it happend to me,,,,it's like worst thing I would ever face, being dumped like I talked on last entry wouldn't even be close....... I hope it doesn't have to happen, sometimes life is not fair for some reason. well, that's what that movie made me think, now I'm done babbling.BTW, I didn't get to watch the end, it was painful to keep watching, you know, people die, stuff,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,well, to be honest? ahem,, just I had to take a crap and when I came back it's overXD*lol* go ahead laugh over it, but I know I mde right decision:P now people are around the restroom waiting:P(I wrote this while I was on the plane) all right, mousugu nihon da------:P dream 7/31
when you dream about someone, you think you care about that person a lot? is that why you dream about them? well, I don't know, cuz I see people who I don't know well in my dream often, but I think it's also true you dream about the person who you care. I used to go out with girl and liked her very very much, but she dumped me, and after that, I dreamed about her A LOT, it's exactly every single days, it lasted damn long time and that had depressed hell out of me, but time does help to forget about her to teke back myself sane,
it helped me a lot, but on the other hand I felt kinda sad cuz even tho I loved her a lot but still can forget about her and can be indifferent to her. I just whish I can have happy dream like I do now for long time^^v I'm leaving to japan tomorrow, I ma come back here someday with someone that time*lol* not alone*lol* 7/28
I just came back and all excited! about being here, let me explain, I went to have dinner with the guy who works the company I'm applying for, and after he dropped me off at the hotel, I was gonna do landry, and while I'm waiting, I figured that I should go to see the sea, and took a walk headed toward the sea, and on the way, I saw TON of people walking down the street, it's like festival kinda atmosphere, I did really said "ohhhh my fucking god!" and "this place is fucking awesome":q but it also made me think why I'm here all by myself*lol* that was sad that I really thought it>D well anyways, I really enjoyed that many people and "funiki(atmosphere, usufull word right there:D)" and got to the beach, even though it was already dark so I couldn't see it well, just seeing the waves and sitting on the t remendously fine and beautiful sand was worth going there, but that also made me think same way as I thought when I was walking on the street*lol* sitting on the beach alone.... I must have looked sad man*lol* well, I didn't realize I'm in hawaii, but now I do, I should probably buy the souvenirs for......people:P I hate buying the souvenirs tho(-_- I walked back same main street on the way back from the sea, I was thinking something in english(believe or not, I can sometimes do this. it doesn't happen often thoXD) that I wanted to come here with someone, and one more that I hope I had someone I want to come here with, I got little confused that time that which one of them is what I'm really thinking*LOL* well, whichever you think
I was thinking might be correct. I can get it right tho:P anyways, I gotta come back here again (ToT.................................. I'm still in the Hawaii, right?*lol* weird 7/27
well, what I mean by weird is that there`s anything particularly different at airport in Korea and Japan, except frequency of use of the words. Korean is used a lot, of course, you still see tons of Japanese though, and as much English as you see in Japan. so I might not feel I`m in Korea now. however, something made me, or forcee me to feel I`m in the different countly, take a guess what that could be^^ it`s language, I don`t understand what they say at all, aaaat aaaaal! it`s weird, cuz it does look almost same as airport in Japan, but still having a problem to communicate with people, and having to act like a stupid idiot>D when I got throught security gate to get to next departure gate(I`m transfering here to Honolulu, waiting time is 8 hours!! ridiculous.....), one man who checked my boarding pass talked to me in Korean, but since I couldn`t understand what the guy said, I said "what`s that?", and he must have figured that I`m not korean, so he just said "Honolulu" with nice smile(could be artificial or halfhearted one:p but you are foreigner now, when they smile, you smile*lol* that`s how you deal with people who you don`t know well:P(I`m not serious, so don`t think I`m always like this:P)) so after being complacent about that I THINK I communicated with locals(without any words except "Honolulu" and "yeah"*lol*) I exchanged $20 bill into korean money, it must be called won I guess, I just wanted to see what it`s like. anyways, I found my self tending to speak english when I talk to locals, despite that they might know Japanese, maybe it`s because I think english is worldly wellknown:P I now can kinda understand the people who speak english, go to foreign country and do not try to speak the oanguage that is used in that country^^; if you don`t know much about the country and go there for just short time sightseeing or something like that, it is hard, that`ll be the different story if you are studying about the country tho. but being in korea, having no language I can count on(tho I don`t really need it now, cuz I`m just waiting for the plane) that makes me feel the US is very closer than any other countries:P shallowness7/26
it's been a frigging long time since last entry so that I almost forgot the password>D
I just realized I'm a shallow person, I mean, I don't know exactly how shallow I am, but I know I am at least,,,,, in the way to be affected by people, or pleased by something. it might not be called as shallow, but, yeah, sometimes I find myself being very happy from something people did or said to me, or being sad, whatever that feelings are. and it could change the impression I have to people. it's not shame or anything to be susceptible, I think it's better than to be impassive. I just wondered if people I like are only who do something veneficial to me or something, would I hate them otherwise? well, I don't think so,,,,, I don't think people who've been my friend have been my friend because I'm always nice to them and do something good to them, as a matter of fact I don't do nice things to them much as they do to me^^; but they are still friends with me, not only friends, being whoever care me:P as I talked about me being susceptible, let me talk about effect you get from other people. some people can change the other people's perspective, or things they see, etc. Let me show you an example, that if you met someone and you have interest in that person and the person told you what she likes(I'm using "she" cuz I'm a male:P)? I would see the things she likes even if they are something I never cared about. well, maybe this is too straight, but you can get interested in something you learned from people who you don't hang out with, or even you don't even know. I think that's why everybody say if you meet many people, it'd be great education. I'll be gone to Hawaii till Saturday. I'm taking my computer with me so I might be able to update this page or home page. I doubt if I'll be playing at the beach or anything I'd be doing if this is just about the "visiting Hawaii":P kurumaisu no Ms tanabata7/13
there was the TV show which talked about one lady who got car accident so she can't walk, but she applied for selection of Ms,tanabata and she won the prize, I was moved not by her winning the prize inspite of her difficulty(of course that is inspiring too) but what she said, that is "people who she doesn't want to lose to is not other people but herself who uesd to be able to walk". it must have been hard even to apply for the contest, cuz no one have done what she did, people might even think it's embarrassing to apply for the contest cuz contest is most of the time thought as for the poeple who's able-bodied. but she won, I need to keep thinking about this, you never know when you lose your health till you lose it, you shold never take it for granted, it could be other things too, people who I like, love. I can at least say I'm fortunate that I'm aware of this. so if I have something that I like or cherish or whatever the word I can think of, I can appreciate that I have them or they are with me. to me, this is kinda important, could sound hypocritical(?), but who cares? ok I was watching the tv and happend to see the some "janyyyyyyyyys(don't know how to spell^^;) program"
and that show made me think, that, How would I look with those costume?? or I should call it outfit:p but seriousely, it would be interesting to wear some suit kinda looking clothes that doesn't have arm parts, how should I call that? no leeve or sleeveless suit? I just thought it's funny, and I don't think they are enjoying to wear them either, and it looks like as they get older or get to be more "senpai" they are going not have to wear them, this is my guestimate tho:p well, weird janyyyyyyyyyyys. you know what is the pain in the ass to do? being sick, of course that's one of them, but having to wait and can't do anything because of that you have to wait for something (-_- I don't care what people say about me at all, but I'm like "always want to be doing something" kinda person, so this is practically first time I have to not do anything but wait for this long,,,,,,,, well, is this complaint? no it's not (x_x just should shut up, cuz I don't wanna complain.
|
