np: Change the World - Inuyasha O_<;;; Me: . . . Nokoru-kun: . . . Me: O_<;;; Nokoru-kun: XD XD XD Me: .....please? Nokoru-kun: XD XD XD Me: Work? Please? Nokoru-kun: XD XD XD Me: ....WORK, DAMN YOU- no, I could say that to any computer but I just can't talk to one named Nokoru like that....hm... Nokoru-kun: . . . XD XD XD Me: ......SHRIEK. SCREAM. SHRIEK. SQUEAL. Nokoru-kun: XD XD XD Me: You could come to this damsel-in-distress' rescue any moment and boot up, darling. Nokoru-darling had his first Problem last night. *snort* Four months is pretty good, admittedly- it wasn't actually a problem, but I thought it was. For some reason the Windows startup screen vanished for part of the startup time. O_o;; It still shows up at the beginning, but then goes all oddly blank. Luckily the startup still works, but I didn't know THAT... O_<;;; I got very bored last night, and for the sake of my current fic went to watch the Crest of Friendship episode. Um. Watching it again, I wonder how the Sora bit was in the original? It just...made no sense to me. o.O; Where does 'darkness of heart' come into play with saving the world? >_>;;; I mean, if she doesn't think she's good enough to save the world, or if she's afraid of letting others down by not saving the world...that's another thing, and they never really said what. Sora strikes me as a character that loses a lot in translation. What sounds fine in Japanese can sound really random in English- I'm reminded of Satoshi in Pokemon. He sounds so precious in Japanese, but not very bright in the dub. ~_~;;; I'm gonna have to beg Leslie to get that episode for me... *siiigh* I'm genki enough right now, but I had such a depressing morning. I had a conversation with Ali last night and she kept avoiding the point. Look, I think it's a lovely thing to be devoted to school. It is. But it genuinely hurts, really really hurts, when I know she's always open to dropping me like a hot coal if she has schoolwork to do. Which is always. It would be much easier to manage a friendship like that, which is already hard just because of who she is (and I'm not blaming her for being who she is, for goodness sake, just saying she just doesn't make it easy)...if I felt I was something important to her on an everyday basis. Sure, I'm important as all hell if she needs someone to cry with or speak to. But when it's over, what am I to her? Nothing. Because she wants me there as someone who cares, but never bothers herself to give a damn about me below the surface. And it hurts. It really does. I mean...if I were confronted with her upset on a normal day, and had a paper due...do you honestly thing I'd care about the paper? Like hell. But seriously, the time she's sincerely hurt me the deepest was my past birthday. When she was considering not coming on the trip with me- where it was so important to me to have my friends with me, I put it off till way after my birthday so everyone could make it-she vaguely was mentioning she might not care to go because we "had an essay due on Tuesday". And I want to think to myself, "Am I such a terrible friend that she'd rather drown herself in schoolwork than be with me? Because she does, nearly every weekend." And I want to think it's my fault somehow, so I could fix it. But I don't think it is. If it is, it's something I could never figure out. But being told every weekend that, "I have homework, so I can't..." is a slap in the face to me. Because if she really gave a damn, she could finish it all on Friday night easily. But she doesn't. Instead, she sits around the house all weekend (never working on her homework, of course), unable to go to the mall or watch something together or do anything at all. To the point I wonder if she even uses these as an excuse, because... I really don't feel like bitching about this any further, as I say all this to myself every single waking day anyway. But it really, really hurts. It sincerely hurts when I know that deep down, past the normal everyday bit- not a single one of my friends at school really cares. Thursday, April 19, 2001 06:17 p.m. I don't want to admit to myself that I'm waking up in a few hours. o.O; But...I was afraid I wouldn't remember what I wanted to write if I went to sleep...but now I'm reluctantly abandoning it and wrote myself a nice outline. T_T If I weren't so tired I'd just stay up all night- only four more hours anyhow. Wednesday, April 18, 2001 01:52 a.m. Bwahahaha. After a long struggle that's lasted QUITE a few months, I think~! XD I MIGHT~!!! Be struggling out from my writer's block~!! I just wrote a few paragraphs of something I don't think is crap. XD Yet. But it's an improvement from before, even if I decide it's crap tomorrow, at least it wasn't crap TODAY~!! XD We'll see if it's crap tomorrow before I decide if I want to continue or not. Erin-chan: I could always hold the doujin scans hostage until you finished Arcadia. Couldn't I? XD Perhaps I will... And I must go to sleep NOW. Wednesday, April 18, 2001 12:08 a.m. np: Dive Into Shine - Lastier I am SO fricking TIRED right now. I don't even believe it. Wellll, I had a nice day for going to school surrounded by a bunch of smart-mouthed brats who, as their English isn't great, their Japanese just suffers. T_T Poor teachers at that school, I swear I forget how bitterly ungrateful and downhearted nasty those kids are. There was this one girl in Azama-sensei's English class who was saying to his face how he had a crappy class and was a crappy teacher...ugh. Some kids just deserve to be smacked sometimes. Idiotic kids treat the teachers like trash. No wonder California's so desperate for teachers- I don't blame kids with sense for not wanting to be one. Other than that...rather uneventful day. Azama-sensei- he ended up being every bit as cool as Sugahara-sensei used to be. Nante iu ka...Sugahara-sensei to fun'iki ga onaji...ka na. The classroom looks the same, the teaching is the same, the activities are the same. And if they aren't, they're close enough. And he listens to Chara~! XD I was looking at the class CDs and went all *piku*piku*...it wasn't a CD with any songs I recognized, but... XD And he had Amuro Namie and SMAP, but I didn't know the Amuro single and I don't listen to SMAP anyway. ^^; It was easy enough- just walk around the room and tell kids they wrote this-or-that wrong. Unfortunately I embarrassed myself, because I told this one girl she wrote her sentence structure backwards and it turned out it could go either way...*waiiil* I'd never seeeen it that way before, though... O_<; Hen da ne. But I think I helped more than I did damage. And one girl remembered meee~!! XD XD XD I was so happy somehow. Then 'Kaasan and I went to lunch, and then I was done so we drove back to her school...and I was so completely exhausted that I fell asleep in her last block class. In my chair, sitting sideways. O.o; Gives you an idea of how tired I was- you'd understand if you knew how NOISY those classes are. o_O Then we went shopping after school...'Kaasan and I went shopping all over and it was fun. I found this REALLY cute skirt at Express but they didn't have my size~! XO SO not happy. I tried on lots and lots of clothes but didn't like anything except the cute skirt...but I found the shoes I wanted~!! *__* They're soo cute. They're black and sort of...squarish at the front. ^^;;; Nyaa...and I bought Ali the first Harry Potter book, because DAMN IT, she just will NOT read those books. I've been after her...*counts*...a year and four months to read them. And she won't. So I realized the only way to get her to read them was buying it for her, and then as a GIFT she would be OBLIGATED to read it. XD But it really makes me mad, because she takes reading reccomendations from everyone but me. It's upsetting...she's supposedly reading all this other stuff people are telling her to read (she's not, because she's been using the same books as an "but-I'm-already-READING" excuse for all the year-and-four-months), but damned if she'll listen to me. I feel loved. I know it's a simple thing, but to have someone not give a damn about a word you say for a year and four months just hurts. No matter how simple. Tuesday, April 17, 2001 08:25 p.m. *scowls* Nemui. Today was the unofficial ending of my spring break. T_T 'Kaasan no gakkou no nihongo no kurasu de tetsudatteru no. I wanna go back to bed. I still have bags under my eyes (I GOT seven-and-a-half hours, for goodness sake~~). And I don't have to help until second block, and from what I understand I'm not doing anything today. Nyaaa. As long as he counts today stiiill~! I'll be SO dead if I don't get enough hours... o.O;; I might do tutoring after school just so I can be positive of at least three hours. O___o;; And I HATE these computers. XO 'Kaasan no Computer: *choke*....*choke*.... Meimi: . . . 'Kaasan no Computer: *WHEEZE*HACK* Meimi: Please. Load. Stupid thing. 'Kaasan no Computer: *COUGH*GASP*CHOKE* Meimi: ...my blog page does NOT take THAT much effort, for goodness sake... But at least 'Kaasan let me listen to my pretty CD on the way. And I have "Itsudemo Aeru Kara" stuck in my head. Happy happy. And now I'm off to have this idiotic comp try to wheeze its way through my email. Tuesday, April 17, 2001 08:23 a.m. np: Change the World - Inuyasha Am I the only one who gets all sniffly at pretty parts of songs? I mean, I get all ;___; at really weird songs. Like in this one. When it goes, "Kimi ni deata toki, hontou no ibasho mitsuketa." *ponders* Okay. I am incredibly annoyed at myself for buying the DNAngel manga last trip, because in retrospect it was a rather stupid move since I had some stuff I really wanted (and had for months ebforehand). I have a list of things I've randomly smacked Ali for, as she hasn't reminded me to buy them. XD Hoshii mono: Eva tankoubon 5 (HOSHII~~!), Inuyasha (as many tanks as I can afford~!), and the Gravitation manga. But I get the idea if I start collecting Inuyasha it'll be the end of me. XD; I am in NO WAY rich enough to start buying a series already THAT long. Knowing me, I'd probably work backwards...but if I do that I'll never get to the beginning. *sigh* But I've only read near the first half, and Leslie's dropped hints at the more current story have made me curious as all hell. ^^; Monday, April 16, 2001 08:29 p.m. np: Akindo Damashii - Himiko-den Genki genki song...wake me up please. *rubs eyes* I'm so tired...I woke up this morning and saw i had bags under my eyes and everything. I haven't actually gotten a day to stop and sleep in to make up for Thursday. I've only snagged a few naps along the way. And it's not faaaair. T_T I've been kinda short with people today because of it, too...I feel really bad... But besides being woken up at eight AM, it was a nice day. 'Kaasan-tachi wanted to go shopping down in Carmel, which I agreed to. Then they planned to take me to this Japanese restaraunt nearby, but t'was closed. So we drove back to Monterey to try out this other new Japanese place...nice view, cute place, but not my favorite by a long shot. The food was pretty bad, actually. ~_~ Nyaa... Then we went to the mall, because I wanted a new pair of jeans, but it turned out I was between sizes so I have to wait a while yet...Then we went to the video store and they had nearly every DVD I wanted~! XO The Earthian one and the PSME one and, aaaand... ><;;; I only had $15 from the day before. Oh, but they opened the most wonderful art supply store at the mall. *__* They had shelves of the prismacolor ones...every color, and you could buy them individually...but I figured I might as well just wait it out and buy nicer ones online that don't overlap. ^^; I was tempted, though...and 'Kaasan bought me an precision knife for cutting my screentone~! Wai... Then I came home and it turned out my grandparents sent me $20 and I was so >__<;; because I was thinking, "Aaaaah, I could have bought a DVD~!!" But it's probably better this way, because now I can give Leslie money for rental fees and buy tapes for her to copy, and still have money leftover to spend on our next J-town trip. Whenever that'll be. Hayaku Kix-chan ni aitai yoo~n~~! XD But thinking about it, achieving a meeting time like that would be kinda hard...because 'Kaasan never brings me up there at all (purely because I don't like going without Ali-tachi, and our car isn't big enough to hold the whole group), and going with Ali-tachi I'd feel kind of bad asking her mom to be there at such-and-such a meeting time... ~_~;;; Argh, if only I could drive/if only my mother weren't so dratted paranoid and overprotective. Monday, April 16, 2001 05:35 p.m. np: Super Drive - Gravitation XD Addiiiicteeeed... On the subject of parents and yaoi. XD Leslie: *thoughtfully* I mean, obviously Mom's fine with it. But my dad just...doesn't know. XD; Meimi-tachi: Understandable. Leslie But he has a bad habit of walking in at the WORST times. XD See, first he walked in when we were watching Yami. And saw Muraki licking blood off (Tsuzuki's? Hisoka's? Don't remember) fingers. And he says, ".........are those both guys?" And then I told him, "Yes. He's a vampire, Dad." And he went, "*blink*...Oh. Okay..." and walked off. And then he came back in again at another bad Muraki moment, and went, "...those ARE both guys again?" And I said, "Yes. He's a vampire, Dad, remember?" Meimi-tachi: *kokukoku* Leslie: And then he walked in during Gravitation, and said, ".......are those both guys?" And we went, "Yeeeeeeees. XD XD XD" *at this point, we're about to hit the Muraki/Hisoka flashback in Yami* Ali's dad: *wanders in* Ali: *slaps the fastforward button* All of us: o_____________O;;;; Sunday, April 15, 2001 06:47 p.m. np: Stand By Me~hitonatsu no bouken - Digimon *snarl* Nokoru-kuuun chose to freeze as I was halfway through typing this up...I still love him dearly, BUT... We had a lovely sleepover last night. I had SO much fun- we watched some great stuff. *^^* First the Utena movie berforehand...then we started by watching all of Yami in one sitting, which...was not the best thing we watched, to put it nicely. I was unbelievably disappointed- it wasn't the worst manga-to-anime transition I've ever seen (*cough*KKJ*cough* >_<;) but it was in no way the best. The fact that 98% of all jokes in the series were removed just really annoyed the hell out of me- Muraki being a Serious Sicko just isn't fun at ALL. >_<; I mean, even in the King of Swords arc with the poker game, it wasn't, "BWAH~!!!"...it was in the most deadly serious way possible, "Oh my. Muraki's going to rape Tsuzuki." What's the fun in THAT~?! XO (Yeah, and Hisoka's cute comments were gone, and Oriya didn't walk in on Muraki and Tsuzuki, and...) IMO the anime wouldn't have made all that much sense unless you'd read the manga beforehand. None of the characters were focused on especially, and if I hadn't read the manga I would have wondered why the hell Tsuzuki was so angsty all through Kyoto. T_T I'm not gonna say there weren't some good parts in there- the two TxH scenes from Kyoto Arc were fabulously done, and the first had an added-in part that was VERY cute. However, I can't say it was worth it. Some things are unforgivable. Such as... "WHAT. THE. HELLLLLL~?!!! ***MURAKI***. ***MURAKI***. GOT TO KISS **TSUZUKI**. AND HISOKA. DOESN'T~~~?!!!" Then we watched the PSME music videos- worth getting purely for the NEW ANIMATION~!! XD They threw in new clips from the last tankoubon~!! And they did ALL the BEST PARTS~!! XD Then we hit upon the highlight of the evening... Gravitation. OH. MY. GOD. XD I have not had this much horrible FUN watching ANY series, in a REALLY LONG TIME. The basic story of it is there's a boy band made up of characters with niiiice seiyuu, and there's pretty shounen-ai involved. Unfortunately we had it raw. While ordinarily I would have been able to get half or more of the story, we were too busy screeching our heads off to make any sense of it. Or to catch any of the characters names. *snort* So we have, "Shuuichi" (well, he was the main so we knew -him-), "The bastard blonde guy who's voiced by the guy who does Kagetsuya, the OTHER bastard blonde guy~!" (Leslie's nickname for Yuki XD), "the smart caring guy" (Hiro), "the Kappei guy" (Sakuma), "the Koyasu guy" (Sakano), and "PRETTY PRETTY NOKORU LOOKALIIIIKE~!!!!" (Seguchi). Me: *clasps Leslie's hand* Leslie. Leslie: XD ?! Me: We're going to KILL the wife of Prettyprettynokorulookalike, AREN'T WE~~?!! XD Leslie: Oh yes we aaaaaaaare~!! XD Actually, he looks like a mix of Nokoru and Quatre (probably looks more like Quatre but DEFINITELY acts like Nokoru XD ...and he drinks TEA~!!!), and is voiced by Orikasa Ai (which is of course ironic, because she voiced Quatre and did Nokoru in the dramas)...only this guy is absolutely LOVELY because he has FASHION SENSE. XD XD XD (Look, Nokoru grew -up- nicely, but when they were younger... @____@;;;;;) Unfortunately he seems to be married so we're plotting said wife's gruesome death at the moment. *beam* Leslie: Wanna help, Ro~?! XD Rocchan: ......*looks at us*...... O______o;;; ....I figure you'll kill me if I don't... Although we're wondering what it is with Inoue Kazuhiko characters and evil blonde guys. T_T Anyway. After that we watched FAKE ("Tomokazu Seki uke to Tomokazu Seki seme~!! XD XD XD") but I didn't like iiit that much... T_T The art wasn't my style and I didn't think they were pretty, as amusing as they were. XD; I fell asleep halfway through and woke up right when it ended. At that point Rocchan retreated to bed (Ali left after the first ep of Gravitation~) leaving me and Leslie alone. Having a half-hour of sleep and my second wind, I proposed we watch Kodocha. Leslie agreed, and promptly fell asleep after an episode. I fell asleep after three episodes or so. ^^;;; Dropping off around four AM or five. I woke up around eleven (Leslie had left early), and Ali and I watched the tenth Utena tape together. *^^* FUNFUN~!! XD Gravitation, by the way, is Meimi's Sparkly New Obsessiooon~!! XD XD XD Saturday, April 14, 2001 07:54 p.m. np: Target~akai shougeki - Digimon 02 I need to work out a better system for my sketches I leave laying around. T-T I leave them in heaps and sorting through them when the heaps take over my room is hell. The obvious would be a sketchbook, but I don't LIKE sketchbooks. They don't fit nicely into my bag. ;-; I just want a little file box so I could organize them all. And have seperate files for fanart/series, my own characters/manga, and the Shiori fanart/manga. Right now I have a manila folder I've stuffed with drawings and designs and sketches for the Shiori fun, but it's getting kind of stuffed. ~_~; And disorganized. And the designs for my own characters are getting kinda out of hand to just be shoved in a drawer. Of course the whole point of this was to clean my room before I left for Ali's, and to thus PACK before I left for Ali's. It's not that bad (it never is), but I'd better start now, so I can finish before I leave. Am I so weird for having a perfectly organized room, that I always clean of my own will? o_O;; It sometimes seems so. I just don't like living with junk surrounding me. T-T Friday, April 13, 2001 12:27 p.m. np: Wishing I Was There - Natalie Imbruglia This song reminds me of MW for some reason...though it really doesn't. It just got stuck in my head one day when I was drawing and then became a Song. ^^ Our sleepover has been supposedly put back on. 'Kaasan is either mad at me, or mad at Baka Aniki for this to go so easily. I'd like to think she believes Aniki shouldn't screw with my fun when I'm getting such a crappy not-vacation in the first place, but things so rarely work out that nicely for me... XD; But we haven't called Leslie-dear back, so Ali is supposed to call me back in a bit. I predicted that now that I can go, Leslie will most certainly not be able to go. ^^ Damn iiit, she'd better call back -soon-, though. T-T I'm tired as hell. And~!! I'm muchly happy because Allyson's not coming~ (Ugh, I feel so evil just for thinking that, though...but I can't help not liking her...)...oh, Ali called back but we'd forgotten that Leslie was visiting colleges, so we don't know if she can come. ^^;;; Ah...Leslie going to college is just a really sad thought. *sigh* It seems like she's looking at things close by (by close I mean "in California" but that really doesn't mean anything, huh)...I'll miss her like mad when she leaves (even if it's another year to go ^^;;). I've only known her for a year already, but... T-T Sigh. My friends are slowly leaving, one-by-one. Our 'lunch group' is gonna be half its size next year. All the exchange students (Rosina, Rocchan, Livia) are going back home at the end of the year...Daisy's going off; where to I've no idea. It's very lonely. And it's going to be my turn soon; just a year behind Leslie. I end up thinking this a lot around this part of the year- my classes have enough seniors in them that I'm affected near the end of the year more than my other friends. (Daisy told me I'd end up catching senioritis this year, as supposedly it's contagious even for underclassmen. ^^ I haven't, though...just gotten more lonely than other people who aren't leaving.) Ugh...I think I'm going to bed, so I can enjoy tomorrow night into the small hours of the morning. Or...not so small. XD; I'm basically planning on forcing Leslie-dear into watching as much Utena as we can manage. *cackle* Oh, she can't tell me she doesn't care for the characters, when she hasn't seen the first Juri duel, even~!! FUN~!! XD Oh, and I got to watch Passions today. I SWEAR that show gets worse every time I watch it. ^^;; ANYONE home for break, WATCH IIIT~!! XD If you're the type who enjoys idiotic shows, you'll LOVE it. XD; Todaaaay, they found out that Charity's mommy has power from God. Using the awesome power of her faith and holy light, she was able to command the serphent from hell (which looked like something out of a bad video game- BTW, serphents don't have ARMS ~_~;;;) to spit Miguel back up and sent it back into hell-inside-the-closet~!! XD Thursday, April 12, 2001 09:48 p.m. np: Nanka Shiawase - Rekka no Honoo I hate it when I have dreams and wake up thinking they were real. The pretty Taito dream I don't remember doesn't count. And it's rather disappointing, because *usually* I know when I'm dreaming while I am. I can't wake myself up, but generally I don't take whatever I'm dreaming too seriously because of it. n.n;; Soo, I dreamt it was somehow a mix of spring break, graduation, a masquerade ball, and Honors English... (Honors English was suddenly taught by the health teacher from hellll rather than Ms. Dunn whom I adoooore...that in and of ITSELF was a nightmare. XO) Emily: *hmms* And let's see...we have our science final tomorrow. Meimi: *jaw drops*.....excuse me? Emily: Our science final. Tomorrow. XD Have you started studying~? Meimi: *flees for her planner* THE SCIENCE FINAL!! IS *NOT*!!! TOMORROOOOW~!! XO Of course the rest of the dream was trippy enough to make it interesting. Oh, just remembered. There was an anime con thrown in there, too. n.n;; And I stalked Ikuhara-samaaaaa~<3~! XD He was IN my dream and I had been writing this letter to him. But it wasn't finished so I kept trying to chase him down asking for his fanmail address. And I ended up recieving this sheet commenting on his own prettiness as is typical, but no address. I left heartbroken. XD; Thursday, April 12, 2001 11:40 a.m. np: Tobira [Teenage Wolves version] - Digimon 02 Meg: Well, oven-cleaning can be made a little more fun. XD; Try...naming it after a bish. Leslie: ...and so Mom tells me...*leers in imitation*..."Oh, yeeeeeeees. I cleaaaaaned ouuuuut Tasuki the other day. I took out allll his parts, and scrubbeeeeed him dooooooooooown. *leeeer*"... Me/Ali: .........*both with that pained, "Why can't WE have ecchi moms like this?" expression* The description went on farther, to be much more detailed and got VERY H, but I don't remember exactly. Thursday, April 12, 2001 12:44 a.m. np: Ai wa Honoo~weddingwars - Wedding Peach (Once you get past the beginning, the WP music just gets so damn GOOD... *_*) Meimi: *eyes those damn identification bracelets from the surgery center* Now that I have escaped from your hell, could I have the markings that declare me the needle's prey removed? Please? Yeah, I need to get to bed. Erin-chan, I added Tsumi to FF.net but I don't think it's made it to the KKJ page yet. I revised and added to it a little, though, so be happy...I haven't any idea what I did wrong when I tried to put it in HTML format, but the tags were still in the body so I went back to text format. Erk. Help on this from anyone'd be appreciated~<3 Ali called. Leslie can't go on the planned Thursday (which wouldn't have happened if Ali had called everyone when I told her to, but it's too late now, so anyway) and I can't go on Friday, and Leslie can't go on Saturday, and Monday-->Thursday I'm going to do all my community service hours for the year at once by tutoring middle school kids in Japanese. So life pretty much sucks for all three of us. >_<; So...I went through hell and emerged with neither shota dreams or pretty bishounen? ...DAMMIT. However, I think I'm going to SF J-town on Saturday (as Baka Aniki wants to go to the zoo, which ruined my sleepover plans). Maybe. But without my two partners in crime the idea seems rather dull. And I'm broke since 'Kaasan never gave me money this week. Seriously broke. Like...pocket change. ^^;; I did, however, speak to Ali about Allyson. I just...kind of want her to know, so hopefully she can shut me up. XD; Ali: Well...I guess...you have an excuse, since you're an invalid and all. *laugh* Meimi: *venomously cheerful* It's my excuse, anyway...because Ali, I mean it. I'm not in the mood, and I just Don't Want her to get me mad. Because I honestly think she just baits me sometimes, to snap. I find it difficult to believe someone could have such little tact. I really just try to stay away from her since she has this gift of knowing exactly what buttons to push. It's an amazing talent. =_=;; At least I've come to know where to expect it. XP It's stupid idiotic small things, that make me go >___<;;; at Allyson all the time. Always small things. I just started listing them and went "..." and deleted them, because if I wrote them down nobody would understand why they made me so mad unless they were there. The issues themselves are always stupid, but I always end up being treated like crap no matter if it's something as silly as her not being able to sit by us in the theater, or her finding the need to insult something I was just complimented on... It hasn't been so bad this year, because while we still sit at the same table and all, we haven't been her "friends". Livia and Alicia and people like that are her new group. But Livia's gonna be gone soon, and I just really hope I don't have to deal with her and Alicia constantly next year. Call me paranoid or whatever, call me an overprotective freak- Alicia's not good for Ali to hang around. They frighten me when they speak together, and that's only been a few times. Ali's so pessimistic in a serious way, but Alicia is cynical in a joking way...and she just sort of eggs Ali on as they talk about things, thinking it's just a joke. And I get scared. It scares me, sometimes. Because I'm the only one who gets told anything. And I'm the only one who has to worry. Wednesday, April 11, 2001 11:20 p.m. np: Shiny Days - Digimon 02 No matter how I feel about Sora, she's got the NICEST image songs...as quiet as this one is, it gets into my head often. But it's sort of a happy-slow song. ^^ The kind that puts you in a good mood while it's in your head. Sakki-san, sankyu. XD Good luck with the rest of your midterms, deshou~? ...well, now that I've had a nice eight-hour nap, perhaps I'll go back for more. n.n;; My pain med has obviously worn off, but I suppose it makes me sleepy. I don't remember that from last time, but oh well. Trying to deal with it as much as possible so I can stay up all niiiight tomorroooow...with or without med, damnit! XD Given the choice between sleeping painlessly or missing H_H bishounen/the ecchi conversations that accompany them, we know what I'll piiiick~!! XD Thanks muchly to everyone who stopped me from going crazy freaking out (and Jin, I didn't have any shota dreams. You'd think with all the crap I had to put up with, I'd deserve a sparkly shota dream. I actually had a dream a week ago with 02 Taichi and Yamato in it, but I don't really remember the contents of the dream...which is REALLY infuriating, though I'm pretty sure they were basically making out in front of me. H_H Problem was I had the dream the same night I downloaded all those clips from Splash's site, so I woke up thinking my dream was canon...but can't remember it anymore...damn. People at the Yama forum were really jealous of me, but I had to explain that having one and not remembering it was just as bad as never having one at all)...and thanks to everyone who's complimented me on my layout- I've never gotten so many comments on one before. o.O Why haven't I taken any more Vicodin? Oh, wait....I need to call Ali. >_> Ikanakya nee...idiot told mee to caaaall, but she's on the neeeet and not on AIM so what am I supposed to do~? XD; Wednesday, April 11, 2001 07:57 p.m. np: Akai Kutsu - Sasaki Yuuko I survived. ^^; Doctor: XD XD XD How are weeee todaaaay~? Me: XD FIIIIIIINEEEEEEEEEEEEE~!! 'Kaasan: *translates* She's scared out of her mind. Me: YUP~! XD XD XD Doctor: o_O;;; ...oh. Okay... It wasn't that bad, though. T-T I had to wait like an hour though, and that really annoyed me. ^_^; Then we went iiiin, and the nice nurse held my hand and made me talk about school as a distraction device for my being poked with neeeeedles~<3 And then fwoosh. Asleep and I woke up in recovery. It's sort of odd though- I don't remember waking up. ^^;;; Very weird. So now I'm home with two giant purple bandages on my feet, and they sent my prescription for Vicodin to the wrong pharmacy so I'm waiting for 'Kaasan to get around to remembering about picking it up. XD; As...the shot is starting to wear off now...and my foot is now beginning to hurt like hell...it'd be appreciated. ^^ And the bandaging job wasn't at its best, because I can already see blood soaking my socks. >_>;; The bandaging job for the needles wasn't so great, either... At any rate, I don't feel drugged in the least. XD; I feel tired, sure, but that's because I had four hours of sleep (five if you add in the drugged nap XD). All in all, not too bad, and I was previously (before the med started to wear off) jumping up and down the stairs and emptying out the dishwasher. But I'd really better go to bed in a little bit, as it turns out the sleepover at Ali's is tomorrow. T-T And we literally need to stay up *all night*...I really hope Allyson doesn't go. >_>;; I sent a rather...not-happy...mail to Ali that said basically, translated from lots of genkiness and hearts, I will take no crap from Allyson. XD I'm not in the mood to. Especially if she decides to be an immature brat about the yaoi stuff we watch. (I don't care if she doesn't like it. o_O; Everyone entitled to their own opinion, for goodness sake. Daisy doesn't like it either- but Daisy didn't insult me personally for liking it.) Wednesday, April 11, 2001 10:34 a.m. np: Kisetsu ga Kureta Jewel - Wedding Peach *shudder* Oh my God...I'm going to that damned surgery tomorroooow. I don't give a damn how juvinile it is, I'm freaking SCARED of needles. *waiiil* Even if one (or several, I've no idea) stabbed in my arm is infinitely preferable to multiple ones in my feet...I am scared as HELL. >_<; Oddly, because I'm going to be sleeping. Yes, it's nice to be put under for something hurting that much...but just the fact that I get to be put to sleep and pricked and whatnot without feeling it creeps me out somehow. T-T It figures that now that the main pain issue is out of the way, I'd find other things to frighten myself to death over. >_<;; you know, up till this week everything was fine, but now my foot's gleefully showing more visible signs of infection. At least I feel like I'm going for something now. T-T And I'm trying to listen to happygenki songs to cheer myself up, but it's not working. I think I'll go draw MW pics. I just want tomorrow to be over and move on with what's left of my vacation. >_<; As the fact that I'm on a (pathetic) vacation hasn't quite registered yet. Geez...spring break of sophmore year already. Very freaky. Freaky just to even think about. Sure, the year is one big longing for summer vacation for me...and now it's like thinking, "I'm almost there!".....but with that I'm almost at junior year. Very scary. T-T Yes, (for me, anyhow) it's only going to get easier from here on out. I think so, anyhow. I'm already in the process of braving the hardest class on campus anyway, anyway...and with the classes I picked for next year, it's going to be a breeze. Without a math class, that'll cut down on all my daily work. *_* But...it's just scary, how fast the past two years have gone. The end of the year's approaching, with another Class Day...which is more of a sad ceremonial day at school than anything else. Last year I seriously looked back that day and wondered that I hadn't wasted freshman year somehow. How *fast* the years move really hit. I don't feel like this year was a 'waste', though. I've got more friends than I did previously. I decided not to throw my life into school- it doesn't sound like a good decision, but I think for me it was the best. Ali made me do it- I'm stil scared to death I'll end up like her. ^^; If only I could convince her to do the same- it'd just work out better..I ended up with a good part in the fall play and still got involved in the musical when I didn't make it in. And I converted my two closest partners in crime to ecchi fangirls. Though they don't cackle. That's okay. XD I have all summer to fix that. Call it another goal. Tuesday, April 10, 2001 08:33 p.m. np: Onaji Hoshi ni Umareta Futari Dakara - Wedding Peach *_* I found a WP song I haven't heard before. WAI. And it's GORGEOUS. Does anyone know the real titles of some of these songs, though? Like the really cute one that's SO horribly mahoujo that goes, "San-nin chikara wo awasete yeah yeah yeah yeah! Ai-Tenshi! Watashi-tachi AI TENSHI~<3~! Ai to bi wo kono hoshi ni, soshite kono mune ni tachidoru no!" I'm guessing it's called "Ai to Bi wo Kono Mune ni" but I've no idea. (I think it's worse than Yumemiru Ai Tenshi in that it's being disgustingly cutesy and cliche on purpose. ^^;;) And there's another one that goes, "Nanimo iwanai, KITTO sore ga KOTAE ne! Honki datta! ITAI kurai, SUKI datta no~!" I love that series. Really I do. XD Yet another one that my friends haven't seen. *siigh* It's rather pathetic someetimes. Though I *know* they'd think I was a freak for liking it if I showed it to them. XD; I loathed that show the first time I saw it anyway. Leslie: Well, you're so obsessive over it so...are you bringing MB next time? I wanna see it since you're so obsessive... Me: O_<; Leslie... We're plotting the ultimate marathon this week. T-T We haven't had one in I think months. The new tapes have been heaping up, and it's awful. I think we wouldn't finish all the stuff we're bringing even if we didn't sleep for TWO days. I'm bringing every Utena tape I have (that's everything but the last Student Council arc tape and the Black Rose saga) and four MB tapes. Ali hasn't anything new between the three of us anymore, I don't think. Leslie...has Ayashi no Ceres 1-20, all of Yami, the second CCS movie, Kodocha 1-32, the PSME music videos, the rest of the Seta Soujirou episodes of Kenshin we haven't seen, the Eva movies, the first six episodes of Inuyasha, and Gravitation. O_O;;; I think we're trying for two sleepovers during the break. We kind of...need them. Tuesday, April 10, 2001 04:45 p.m. Kix-chan~, yeah, I really don't like the AL art...it just seems to switch between being really pretty to really ugly at times. I wouldn't mind it if I liked the story that much, but I don't. ^^; But the anime looks fun purely on good seiyuu factor~! *_* (Oh, and I accidentally lost your address, could you send it to me again? ^^;; Gomeeen, I copied it but never got around to pasting it...) Ohohoho...Jiin, now I have the Happiness song stuck in my heaaaad~~ XD XD XD Speaking of happiness...*niko* Mita~? XD Oh, bellll~!! XD XD XD This is my last health class for over a weeeeeeeeek~!! JOY~!!! Tuesday, April 10, 2001 10:09 a.m. *gazes at clock* See, I'm supposed to snag these references for health class and I just kept putting it off since I didn't have the book I needed, and now suddenly- look at the time. @___@;;; I'll just do it tomorrow. Bah. Smartest thing, as the book's at school anyway. >_>;;; And I need to update that playlist, because I have too many damn mp3s now. O_O;; I hadn't looked at how many for a while....453 mp3s on my playlist. That's disregarding a bunch of drama clips and whatnot, even. o.O;;; *reflectively* Tomorrow is my last day of school. Then I have my surgery. O_<; *mournfully* And I'm missing a math quiz then, which I have no way of taking beforehand. And I can't afford to fail it when I return from break. I got the most recent test back today. Oh my. @.@;; It had pretty red writing scrawled all over it and said, "What happened for you to get this low of a score?!" on the inside. XD; I can drop it, but it's still rather annoying. Otherwise, on Wednesday the classes I miss are morality (I'm guessing it'll be a free day anyhow), health (twenty minute videos on something completely unrelated to the unit, I'm -postive-), and English (Tale of Two Cities. Nya...). Big loss. >_>; Tuesday, April 10, 2001 12:22 a.m. np: Digimon 02 - Goggle Boy *whines* I think I've gotten every Digimon song sung by Maeda Ai now. Depressing somehow. One of my goals in life fulfilled. ;_; Jiiiin, can you REALLY see You're A Good Man, Charlie Brown TOO many times~?! XD I kept ushering for it and I loved it every tiiime, but that was honestly just because of Shannon (the girl who played Lucy). She was so FUNNY. XD Only because it was completely typecast, except Shannon is about twenty times scarier than Lucy. o.O I, frankly, am terrified of her, and I do NOT scare easily. But I remember one night she wanted a bagel but wasn't allowed up front 9since she was in the cast), and she sent Rocchan to get one. Well, they wouldn't let Rocchan have one...and Rocchan was to scared to tell her so, she she sent Daisy. Daisy subtlely placed a large plastic garbage can between herself and Shannon before she said a word. XD; Either way... Shannon: Now, hold still, Charlie Brown. *calmly throttles a perfectly still Charlie Brown* I SAID! *-THROTTLE-* HOLD STILL, CHARLIE BROWN! But the "Happiness" song should be filked for fangirlism~!! XD Monday, April 9, 2001 10:36 p.m. np: Keep On - Digimon 'Kaasan-tachi and I were standing around eating Starburst jellybeans...for anyone who's never had them before, you've no idea what you're missing. They're unbelievably yummy, and I won't eat regular jellybeans anymore after these. You can feeel the sugar coating your teeth with every bite. XD And 'Kaasan-tachi know I only eat the orange-flavored ones so they won't eat them, and so after 'Kaasan emptied the remains of the bag into a bowl for everyone...I ate all the orange ones. And was kind of sad as anyone is when candy is gone. And then 'Kaasan reached into the bag and there was one orange jellybean left. ^_^ Simple things. It made me incredibly happy and I can't say why. It was like magic; the way I was at that moment staring at the seemingly-empty bag, thinking, "I wonder if there's any orange jellybeans left in there." With that magical effect (and the sugar), I suddenly feel six years old again somehow. ^_^ Monday, April 9, 2001 09:35 p.m. np: Now is the Time! - Digimon 02 I WUV 'KAASAN. XD *cackles* Today she went ouuuut, and bought me a duckie nightshirt, a duckie bathrobe, and duckie socks. *_* KA. WA. II. Damn, but I wish I could find a good Jyoumi fic. T-T I've found maybe two up till now, and neither were the kind of cavity-inducing cute that I wanted while being completely IC. Very annoying. "Mirai he no Message", from Iori's Best Partner....is freaky. o_O It's just so scarily calm and reminds me of quietly falling rain. But they aren't depressing lyrics at all...tho the style's definitely not the norm for the Digimon -duets-... XD; (Although just the fact that Iori -giggles- during their dialogue freaked the HELL out of me, so I guess I should be thankful...?) About this blog conversation floating around everyone's blogs...yeah, I often use mine as just a place to rant. It's helpful in that way- if I can type up exactly how I *feel* about something at a certain point in time, I can go back *later* and read it a few times, and think about it seriously/how I'll actually act on it or whatnot. It sorts me out. But at the same time, just the fact that you know someone's *reading* it is helpful somehow. It makes it more appealing than written diaries or something else similar. ^^ And I like reading them- even before blogs were common, I liked reading random people's scribble.nu things and the like. I don't know why. I always adored personal sites (even ones for people I don't know, whose sites I barely visit)...reading people blogs/scribbles/diaries/whatever, their playlists, their profiles...I've always liked it and no idea why. XD; Now that blogs have caught on, I keep myself busy enough reading just the ones to the right these days..but I like it. XD It's always nice to read and learn even more about people; whether they're already my good friends, or if only brief acquaintances, or if we don't know each other at all. *^^* Monday, April 9, 2001 04:54 p.m. I love Digimon fandom. n.n;; Let's seeee...the first episode of Tamers just aired on Sunday, yes? Lee, as far as I know, hasn't made an appearance in the show yet. Ruki was seen for a few seconds. "I support Takaki!" "I support Leeki!" "...I support TAKATEE~!" And we all know I'm dead serious. XD; Monday, April 9, 2001 07:58 a.m. np: Crybaby - ANZA Jin: Un un. XD; I didn't say Takato's attitude was a bad thing- it's just a new thing. Just the way Tamers has already been set up, it seems like there isn't really a need for a Taichi/Daisuke/whatever-like leader. ^^ ie., as it is even if Takato is the main chara, Ruki seems to have more of an idea of what's going on than he does at the moment. ^^; They aren't a bunch of kids thrown into the Digital World at random, needing someone to take charge and direct the group, really...though it seems obviously Ruki's gonna be in the villain role at first. XD I'm looking forward mostly to her, seriously- just the way she's going to develop. She has the Kaizer's sentiment towards Digimon, and it's guessed Yamato's attitude to the world. XD; COMBINATION~! (Whyyy couldn't she have been a pretty bishounen combinatiooon? T-T But I'm whining. She'll be cool either way. XD;) Sunday, April 8, 2001 10:19 p.m. np: Dreaming I Was Dreaming - Amuro Namie Jin: Mita yo. XD Kaizer-kuuun might have fuuuuuuuuun in a cage with Daisukeeeee~<3 And...seriously. n.n;; Whoever wins that doujin deserves it. *cringes* $102 is just pushing it. That's like three dollars per page. O_O;;; *pause* But damn it, if time weren't an option I'd gladly starve myself for the next month and a half for it. XD; I mean, it's so PRETTY~!!! Sunday, April 8, 2001 10:13 p.m. np: Active Heart - Sakamoto Maaya XD URESHII. I just did Angelic Layer on seiyuu lookup, and of course the seiyuu are fabulous. I reallllllly don't like it in manga form (the art annoys me and the story isn't good enough to hook me) but it just seems like it'd make a nice anime. ^^; I just wish I knew who all these lovely seiyuu were playing. XD; I've read it, but a LONG time ago on lend from Ali...just not enough to recall all the minor chara's names. Misaki is Yukino's seiyuu, and Tamayo is Kagome's...Icchan is Takeo/Jadeite/big-Kero. ^_^;;; And Seki, Shiratori Yuri, Kuwashima Houko, Mitsuishi Kotono, and Inoue Kikuko are all in there, too. XD LOTS of my favorites... But I wish the listing for Tamers/GALS! would get up sooon... T-T I had WAY too much fun playing with the database lookup. Some that suprised me: -Sae (MTT!) is Takeru (Digimon01). O_o;; -Nanaka (MTT!) is Millernia and Yukari (Esca), and Kasumi (Pokemon). I never even knew Millernia and Yukari had the same seiyuu...much less being -Kasumi-. O_O; -FREAKY: Mizuha (MTT!), is Jiji (Kiki), is Mariemaia (GW Endless Waltz), is Shampoo (R1/2). O_O;;; ...Jiji...is Mizuha. KOWAI. ><;;; -Takeo-kuuuuun (MTT!), is big-Kero, is ICCHAN~!! XD WAAAAAAI~!!!! What FUN~!!! Sunday, April 8, 2001 09:58 p.m. *_* Tamers looks...shockingly cute. With lack of any bishounen to look at (Takato being too cutesy), Lee is almost starting to look good in that OP. o_O Ruki, however, continues to appear VERY cool. The music's amazingly good, and I WUV the sequences~!! I hated the sequences for both 01 and 02; they always seemed way too choppy...especially with add-ins and whatnot. Ken always looks so...randomish in the sequence. ><;;; But Tamers sequence goood~!! XD I like the part where they take off their sunglasses especially~ and where Ruki's shadow high-fives her Digimon. ^_^ I'm not sure what to think of Takato quite yet. He looks cute, but in the clips doesn't seem to have that...endless reserve of reckless energy that Taichi/Daisuke had. XD; I don't mind, as I don't want them to start being carbon-copies of each other (as it is Takato looks like a cross between the two, but not in that good of a way n.n;;)...but all the same, it's something I miss. Ruki just looks so COOL, though~!! *_* And from the little I've seen, the way she rarely smiles seems to imply she's ANGSTY somehow. Angsty girls are kind of rare, so I'll have fun even if there isn't a resident angsty bishounen for this season... But even though I'll happily watch for now, the driving factor in my watching Digimon has always been the s-ai involved (well, initially Yamato/Ken but it just expanded~ XD). Sure I eventually fell in love with other charas, but...it was those waffy moments like Taichi and Yamato holding hands, or Ken saying "Motomiya..." before he passed out, or that whole moment in the Crest of Friendship episode, or Daisuke running after the kidnapped Ken screaming his name.......things like THAT that made the show a cackling fangirl marathon. XD; With only three kids this time around, and no real angst in sight for either boy right off the bat...I'm curious to know what'll happen, but s-ai-ness doesn't seem -quite- as likely. XD; And anyway, at last there's a seriously cool girl. I really hope I continue to like Ruki...in 01/02 the only girls I ever adored were Mimi and Hikari (moreso Mimi- Hikari), and neither manages enough screentime on her own... And as a side note, I wish the D-Arcs looked cooler. They don't look as nice as the D-3s did...and from the looks of it, they're what, glorified tamagotchi~? O_o;;;; Sunday, April 8, 2001 09:58 p.m. np: Dakishimetai - GALS! *stares blearily at clock* ......... Okay, I had NO intention of staying up till this hour. @.@;; It's just this layout got kind of...out of hand. And then I accidentally replaced it before archiving, losing my Daiken wedding layout in the process...and bad as that layout was, it amused me, so I remade it but didn't have the patience to match up the link colors so they look awfuuul. @.@;;; But it's archived at the least. And I really, really like this layout. I haven't liked a layout this much in a really long time. *_* I had another plan for this one (I was about to make it Duklyon) but changed my mind...I abruptly fell in love with the GALS! ending. *__* It's the kind that takes a few listens to grow on you, and then suddenly you've got it on loop and can't stop listening...(WHEN will the OST be OUT~?!! XO ...when I know very well that the singles won't be out for another two weeks O_o;;;) The main picture up there is from the opening, but the smaller ones from the ending. (*shikuuu* But the original wasn't that big so I had to play cut-and-paste for a bit remaking that patterned background... ><;;) I'm praying it'll still look good in the morning. XD As everything looks good at four AM, deshou~? Usually: Meimi: *finishes a picture at 4 AM*....*gazes at it dreamily* This is, without a doubt, the most beautiful picture I've ever drawn. It is. This is AMAZING and I have never been more proud...*head drops onto pillow, zzz.* Next morning. Meimi: Where did my picture go~<3~? Oh, here it i- o_O THE HELL WAS I *THINKING* LAST NIGHT~?! This is *CRAP*~!! Anyway. O_o;;; Sunday, April 8, 2001 04:13 a.m. pitas.com: not as yummy as some bishounen, but hey! XD

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