Sunday, November 4, 2001... u_u Trying to post for the fourth time tonight...well, I couldn't sleep. ^^; I couldn't get to sleep because this Ficbunny was chewing, so after a while I gave in and got up. n_n;;; I'm sure when I read it at a more awake hour, I'll toss it in the trash. But oh well. Nothing got mailed today; I asked 'Neesan to go to the post office for me when she went out to run errands, but it was closed by the time she got there. n_n; My-chan, I still need your address and everything... Kyaaan, Meia-san reads Nervous Venus too? I feel all happy that I'm not the only person who's heard of it... ^^; Shannako, I can sympathize. I think birthdays should be like that too; last year all I wanted to do was go to Mitsuwa with three of my friends, and the day before we were going, Ali said she didn't want to go since we had an English paper due (yeah, in two more weeks). She ended up going, but only because I was so hurt that she felt she had to. Shi-chan, happy you like the layout. I wasn't expecting the NxS to be started, I just wanted to make sure you hadn't forgotten~<3 XD Ne ne, if school is over for you then will you be on AIM more, I hope? I miss you. T-T Lalala...maybe I'll try to get some sleep now...or not. XD ....tada sore dake//05:25 a.m. Saturday, November 3, 2001... I asked Neechan to go to the post office for me, but by the time she got there it closed. u_u I'm so sorry. Bell-san, yours is the only one 100% ready to go so I'll drop it in a mailbox next I see one. Shannako and My-chan, gomen neee...though My-chan, I couldn't have sent yours anyway. ^^; I need your address ne... Continuing with Houshin CG sites...this site has some of the prettiest CGs I've ever seen. I particularly like this one- it's of Fugen, and while the image isn't really spoiler-ish, the text around it from the artist kind of is. ^^;; Argh. And off I go. ....tada sore dake//05:21 p.m. Saturday, November 3, 2001... np: Cheri Cheri - CLAMP Gakuen Tanteidan These past two weeks have been hell. This upcoming third week will be probably worse than the other two. And to begin it, I am really, really sick. I've been sitting in front of the comp all day looking at Japanese CG sites, with a mountain of tissues beside me- I already went through a box. =_= At least my head's pretty clear (figuratively). And the CG sites are pretty. Look at the cover image for this site (Houshin). That's...really adorable in a strange kind of way. ^^;;;; The rest of the CGs are pretty adorable too- I like this one a lot, it's really pretty (Taikoubou/Fugen)...now this one just WORRIES me. O_O (There's a matching one for chibi-Youzen, too....*thud*) ....tada sore dake//01:07 p.m. Friday, November 2, 2001... My temper tantrum is over now. I was annoyed. I am now going to put it behind me. Almost done with the Bebop movie- about fifteen more minutes to go. I completely reccomend it. It's really, really good. The scene with Spike and Electra was really great; I'd probably say the best part of the movie so far. It isn't that Spike was a mystery to me, but now that he finally put his whole focus on life and Julia into words, it just seems to make things...a bit clearer now that they've been spoken out like that. I liked it. Can't wait to watch the end. T-T Also dropped by Borders tonight and read the fifth Eva Viz novel in the store...I haven't gotten around to getting it in Japanese yet, but I must get that next trip. I was never that big of a Kaji fan, though I always adored Misato so I had at least an appreciation for him...but I don't know, I'm liking the manga so much better now. With manga you have to lay things out a lot more and can't dodge making a complete point the way you can in anime, and I think that's why the Eva manga is becoming so much better than the anime was. Asuka's character is handled in a different way, making it obvious from the start that she's deeply troubled. It seems impossible for a lot of people to like both Asuka and Rei, but I do. Rei in the anime was just incredibly...weird. In a likable way. But reading that manga tonight made me way happy since the manga is actually getting into her head. In an actual coherent way, now just her whole "Sou. Yokatta wa ne," or "Nara sou sureba," etc. way...her talking to Shinji was quite nice, making her actually seem wise. (A big improvement on the anime variation. Stupidly shameless fan service, that one was.) It isn't as though she's changed much, just enough to make her so much more likable. She isn't a mindless drone as was implied in the anime- she's just completely detached from life in general, and has accepted her fate. I liked that a lot... And I'd buy the tankoubon purely for the two chapter covers of Misato and Kaji. Those were really pretty...Misato hasn't really changed from the anime much as a character (that's okay, I think she was one of the most well-rounded characters to begin with, just because she had a clearly-defined beginning, middle, and end where seriously the only other character who did was Shinji) but I liked the scene where they got stuck in the elevator...it made me start to sincerely like Kaji a lot. It gives a sort of silver lining to his (surely rapidly-apporaching) fate. I'm actually going to miss him this time around. ^^; And if all of these little points are better and better, imagine what'll happen when they get to Kaworu-kun? *_* (I love the way he's been drawn in manga style. Can't wait can't wait can't waaaiiit for the manga to reach him. X3) I think I'll go drug myself further and go to sleep. Am downloading episode two of X so hopefully a significant amount of that'll be done when I wake up. Though Subaru in the anime has truly disappointed me beyond belief. That voice is not Subaru. His voice is deeper than Sei-chan's, and Subaru is most certainly supposed to be the Ultimate Uke, second only to Kamui. And now...he doesn't sound like an uke at ALL... T-T I mean, could you imagine Sei-chan entangling him in sakura branches and making him bleed prettily when Subaru has that voice? I think not. How incredibly depressing. And why, I wonder, is it that in the anime, Hokuto died two years sooner than she did in the manga? o_O Why change it? I don't see much point.... Ergh. Must have medicine... T-T ....tada sore dake//11:17 p.m. Friday, November 2, 2001... T-T To add to the list of torture: I am now sick. Between Ali, John, and Amy, I had to get something. I'm around one of the three through the entire day. Day was awful. My free was spent - joy - emptying and sorting the recycling for the entire school week. Meimi/Ali: *talking during free* Katie: Hey, why don't you guys do recycling? The class who had duty skipped it. ((They get a WEEK to do it for goodness sake, and it's a whole CLASS, and there's pretty much no punishment if you skip. >_<;;)) Meimi: No way. Hilary: (activities director) *pops up* I'll give you CIP points. Meimi: I don't w- Ali: Of course! *hops up* Meimi: ...........*snarl* This wouldn't be such a difficult job if it weren't for the fact that almost half of the cans and bottles were half-full and needed to be emptied. The recycling bins were also filled with regular trash, like lunchbags and unfinished food. And they wouldn't give us a cart at the beginning so we had to carry the damn things from all over campus (quite heavy since they were filled with soda/water/etc still). And everything was sticky. In short, I was annoyed. At that point I started feeling really ill... We had a school rally, our class won, and off I went to play practice. I got so angry at Ali. Gen went off somewhere so Ali took over her job and I was SO ANGRY AT HER. In any play, there are always lines that get mixed up or dropped, and after any attempts at corrections are ignored, after a while these mistakes/modifications to the script, are accepted. Ali ignored everyone else's (not serious) mistakes for the most part except for mine and she complained to Mr. Y about how I was speaking out of order in a place where it was COMPLETELY UNIMPORTANT, but she disregarded it with everybody else. We've never done it right. Ever. Nor does anybody care, nor does anybody even know how it really goes anymore. The entire thing is everybody saying, "Hello" and "Good evening" to each other in exchanges where the order DOESN'T MATTER and she made me look like a fucking FOOL. Amy had messed up SO MANY LINES that night that were a hell of a lot more important than that, and Ali IGNORED it, and I thought her lines that betray her character's suicidal tendencies as she stares at the flowers were a lot more important to take care of than who says "good evening" first. And they made us do this stupid bit FOUR TIMES. I was positively seething. I was so angry; I went offstage at the end, got out of costume, and sat backstage (which I never do) and watched the boys be stupid backstage for the rest of the scene. I didn't want to look at her. Why the hell can't she pass up an opportunity to make me look stupid?! And THAT IS WHY I DIDN'T WANT HER INVOLVED. BECAUSE I KNEW SHE WOULD DO THIS....this is the *ONLY* DAY she could have managed to make me look stupid since next week we're on our own, and she succeeded today totally. Thanks tons. I didn't want her to be near me for this. I knew this would happen. She goes around fussing with everything and it disgusts me how she acts so important. Her respsonibilities are two exact things: decorate the front lobby and turn on the lights during intermission. But no. She had to fuss with lines and props. She is not prop master, we have one, and it is not her job. But she had to mess with props today and set it all up, when we've been doing it by ourselves for two weeks now without any trouble. I am overreacting. I don't care. I despise it when people make me look stupid, but I will not take it from her. I absolutely refuse. Hell, I'll even put up with her making me look like a fool most of the time! But not in front of the rest of the cast I've worked with all this time, and not in front of Mr. Y. NEVER, EVER in front of him. I admire him so, so much and it has always been incredibly important to me that I look as perfect as I possibly can onstage. .....it's not like good things didn't happen today...I never even talked much to the boys in the play before just because they're never offstage when I am...but I had fun talking to them., sort of... *sighs* I know Ali wasn't doing it on purpose. At least I don't think she was. But I hate it when she does this. It gets under my skin. I just want her to go away from this- this is something that I was proud of, something that I thought was mine and she has to rush in, and in a grand total of two days, try to make it just as much hers. After making it into the play in the first place, and two months of hard work, I don't want to share with her. I know I'm being selfish, but I really don't appreciate this at all. Isn't it funny? I still can't hate myself for feeling this way... ....tada sore dake//08:40 p.m. Thursday, November 1, 2001... np: Time Machine [live] - Chara I love this song. Shannako and Bell-san, I made both your CDs today (I didn't forget, rather play practice runs late so I have no other day to mail them but Saturday since I need to buy packing stuff at the post office). Bell-san, yours had everything you asked for. Shannako, I don't think you told me anything you wanted in particular, so on it is: -CCS Memorial Specials 1 and 2 -X2 video -Digimon 02 episodes 47-50 (for what they're worth XP) -GALS! episode one -creditless version of the Himiko-den opening -Houshin Engi opening And then the dramas and some music I chose at random. My-chan, I looked at yours tonight, and since all the episodes don't fit evenly, you'll have about 60 megs free (30 on each disc or so). So take your pick from my playlist if you'd like. ^_^ (I might finish the Bebop movie by then but, it depends on connection speeds and whatnot. ^^ I have 60% of it right now.) Speaking of which, the first hour of that movie is...just... *_* Sparkly. Can't wait to get the rest- the CG job in the movie is just great. X3 The characters are great, the music is great, and it's quite evenly balances out in moods. Kyaaan. I now contemplate how much next week will suck. Hell, the weekend too...I can't believe this now that I've thought it out. *bursts into tears* And now, all of it so I won't forget anything: Saturday: -Get to post office at some point n_n -Go to court, be there as 'Kaasan adopts my stepbrother, go out and celebrate his birthday. -Ali wants our group to be online in a chat at TEN A.M. Firstly, I'm certain that Les doesn't have a fast enough connection to chat, and secondly after last weekend, I'm not getting up at ten AM for ANYBODY. Even my friends. XP Plus, I don't want to. I don't want to talk to Ro. At all. She treated me like crap and made my life hell, and now she's sending me postcards and emails and acting like we're still great friends. She was too nasty to me, too much for me to just let it go. She was always like that- she'd be terrible to me and never once did she ever act like it happened. Just shrugged it off like I was crazy, of course she'd never snapped at me or insulted me. And for all the trouble Daisy caused last year with her opinions, I think she was right. I'm...just glad Ro is gone. Life is easier without her around. I keep the thoguht to myself, of course- she was always nice to Ali, and nobody else had to spend as much time with her. Sunday:Not too bad so far, to my knowledge. Get to go see Les' play at two. Monday-Thursday: And this is where life starts to really get bad. -Play practice till SIX, Monday to Thursday. We still haven't gotten all the props, we have NEVER GONE THROUGH the WHOLE THING. EVER. This is going to be one huge disaster; Amy is a darling and I love her dearly but she DOES NOT HAVE HER LINES MEMORIZED. Considering she's the lead, this is a PROBLEM. Everybody else is pretty shaky on theirs too. =_= (Oh, and other thing that made me go "..." at practice today- Ali totally hit it off with the Idiot to the point that Mr. Y had to tell them to shut up. If he was her friend or something, I'd be prepared to die of embarrassment, but, well, I can't stand him.) -School: I think we have a math test this week. I'm so dead. I don't understand the sections at ALL and I can NOT flunk two tests in a ROW. (Actually... >_<; I can afford to. My grade last quarter was way way higher than I expected so I could maybe afford to get even a C in the class and still get away with a B...but I don't want to cut it that close...) And I have a history test on FRIDAY. I'm DEAD. -Any other homework: Will do it at the last minute since I'll have no other time to do it, but I do that everyday so shouldn't be a problem. -Play opens FRIDAY NIGHT. Make it go away. ;_; We couldn't be less ready. Maybe three-hour rehearsals will help, but costumes are not that important and Mr. Y has done little else but fuss over those for the past week. >_<; And things I ought to get done between now and then... -Kyoko and Gin'yuu Meika translations...Alexa, I'm so sorry these are so late. I will do my absolute best to do at least Kyoko on Sunday, but I can't promise it since it's both long and awfully difficult. I feel really badly about this... -more Bound...Shiori, sorry; I haven't been in the mood recently but I worked on more today during class. I got to the end of the first Rekka and Yuki part and will start the Mamoru/Council scene tomorrow. Not like it matters all that much since I can't scan it anyway, but if I finish the whole thing I'll try to find somewhere to scan it. Ergh. I feel so irresponsible. Speaking of Bound, I might have gotten another idea (Chizumi-related again, I need to stop this...addiction or whatever) but I'll have to ask you if you've thought of something like it already... -Find the time to buy Amy a birthday present, I think. -Find the time to think about my birthday, though this is of course low priority. 'Kaasan doesn't seem happy about my wanting to go up to Mitsuwa with Ali and Les (at a later date of course, the actual day will be too busy to do anything =_=); I think she hates the fact that I want to do anything for my birthday at all. Ugh. -Start working on Bible semester project. My weekends from now on will be rather full, till the one before the due date. With the play. Iyaaaaaa...at least I have Thanksgiving vacation...and I'm not touching the English project till the week before the due date. ...can I go crawl under a rock now? And I don't have the option of faking sick since I need to get to rehearsal. I will personally murder anybody who doesn't show up next week, so I have to go, of course. I need to. I should probably go to sleep now. T-T I want to just...collapse. I need serious sleep this weekend, because I won't be getting much next week. XP ....tada sore dake//10:23 p.m. Thursday, November 1, 2001... Going off on a slightly more selfish than usual tangent... I was a little happy when it was only me in the play- it's something good for me. And I was happy that I could finally -finally!- do something all on my own without Ali; something just for me. And say, "Look. I did this by myself, without her help." I wanted her to come to see me and sit in the audience with everyone else. But now I can't, anymore. Why did Kathy have to switch jobs? I'm a terribly selfish person. But...her being there today and watching me throughout rehearsal- I didn't want that at all. I wanted her to come and see it when it was perfect in the audience with everybody. I guess...a little, I wanted to know she came because she wanted to and not because she was managing something. I know it's selfish and terrible, but I can't bring myself to hate myself for thinking this at all. Because I knew this was selfish from the beginning, but I really wanted it even so. But while things rarely work out the way they're wanted to work out...why not...just this once? It's not likely to ever happen again... I'm being a terrible brat right now. >_>; ....tada sore dake//06:07 p.m. Wednesday, October 31, 2001... np: Fly Me to the Moon - Utada Hikaru Halloween~!! X3 I was wearing my (bad, bad, bad) movie Juri costume, and everyone thought I was...well, a lot of things, though the more popular were band major and bellhop. Juri-sama would be insulted. BUT, Ali was dressed up as teenage Subaru! X3 ...you don't get it. She had her hair cut like his a while back, and except for her glasses (which I forced her to take off at points) she looked JUST LIKE HIM. She walked in the door this morning and I started screaming over her Ultimate Uke-ness. She then made the mistake of telling me about how Leslie had, in her words, been trying to molest her all Sunday (their Halloween temple picnic). This was a very bad idea. Being at school, I wasn't as bad as Leslie had been, but... XD XD XD I mean, Les was cackling over how she was "sooo molestable!!!!" and...well... ^^;;; Meimi: *leeeeeeer* Aliiiiiiiii. Ali: O_o What. Meimi: *leeeeeer* Hiiiiiiiiiiiiii. Ali: o_O;; Hi. Meimi: *nikonikoniko* Ali: o.O;;; ... Meimi: *TACKLEGLOMP* Ali: O_O ............ Meimi: *niko* .......hiiiii. Ali: O_O Hi. Seishirou-san wouldn't approve of this. Meimi: XD XD XD *starts 'petting' Ali's arm* Ali: *SCREAM* GETOFFME!!! She nicknamed me 'Hokuto-chan' for the day because of my evilness and cackles. I also made her pose in pictures, and took entirely too many of her. ^^ ("Look angsty! ...not that angsty! ...now pose with the ofuda! ....now pose like you're chanting! ...now take off your glove and kiss the star on your hand!") Meimi: *nikonikoniko* Kiss the star, Ali. Ali: o.O *takes off gloves and does so* Meimi: XD XD XD Can I kiss the star tooooo, Ali? Ali: O_O ..... Meimi: *pops up next to her and grabs her hand*CHUU* Ali: O_O ....... Meimi: *nikonikoniko* I dunno, I think I traumatized her pretty well but she said I didn't beat Leslie. That's okay; we were at school after all. ^^ ...so yeah, t'was my Halloween. XD And Ali is dressing up in same outfit for Fanime so anybody who's going to that...come and meet us, and watch both Leslie and me torture Ali! X3 (That'll be BAD, both of us at once. XD Though Ali and I were being awful to Les last year at karaoke- she was Tree-san, and had two fake sakura branches, and we were being reaaally siiick. XD) Ohohohoho... And Bell-san- Fruits Basket seiyuu list! Thanks so much *_* but...Akito's seiyuu doesn't pop up on seiyuu database! IYAAAAAN. There's no other show where I can hear that gorgeous evilly voice? Saaad. ....tada sore dake//07:00 p.m. Tuesday, October 30, 2001... np: Aishitai no - Chara I got a little tired of Haru's angst, which I take as a good sign (though reaaally everybody should read Nervous Venus! X3), and so, the new layout features Imonoyama Nokoru and Takamura Suo- Nokoru: *squints* That's not Suoh! Meimi: *sweatrains* Sure it is! Nokoru: No. That's the work of a desperate fangirl trying to disguse Idomu-kun as Suoh. Meimi: ....just humor me, okay? I don't like the manga art and there aren't enough decent anime pictures, and my scanner died so I can't draw anything. ;_; So yes. Nokoru. I adore Nokoru. He's classy. He's cute. He has The Fan. And underneath his preciously huggable nikoniko exterior, he angsts. And it our mission in life to make Nokoru truly Happy. Preferably Happy with Suoh, but I'd settle for him just being Happy. Actually, I remember a fic ages ago on CFFML pairing him up with Hokuto (who wasn't, you know, dead and all)...does anybody know of it? I've always wanted to actually read it since I think that's a really cute idea, but the X archive is too overwhelming... On that subject, Shi-chan, you haven't forgotten the NxS, neee~? (Not like I'm one to talk, since your TxH still isn't finished. *flee*) So, yeah. Nokoru is sparkly. And not only is there little Nokoru, there's grown-up Nokoru! So fangirls such as myself can be pedophiles and shimmer after biseinen at the same time! H_H And I have already declared that if they kill off Nokoru pointlessly, I will swear off CLAMP products forever. Or try to, anyway. ...for a week...maybe... Meimi: Never again will I read CLAMP things if they kill him off!! Leslie: ....what if he had sparkles with Suoh when he died? Meimi: Oh. If they give me sparklies, they can kill off Nokoru and Suoh in extremely bloody deaths. If sparklies are involved, it's all good. XD ....I'm shallow. Leslie: ^_^ Me too. Meimi: But they can not kill off Akira. Because that would be wrong. Leslie: Yeah... ^^;; And as far as I'm concerned, there's a definite lack of Nokoru-ness in this world. It results in conversations like this. Meimi: *ranting about the Idiot at play practice* And he said HI to me, and my arms were FULL, and he went inside and shut the door! He didn't hold the door open for me, even though my arms were HORRIBLY FULL!!! XO I had to open the door with my foot, and dropped a ton of stuff in doing so!! Leslie: That's terrible. Nokoru would have held the door open for you. Meimi: *sniffle* Yeah. Leslie: ...actually I take that back, Nokoru would have carried your books and things for you FIRST, and then would have opened the door. X3 Meimi: *siiigh* ....tada sore dake//07:26 p.m. pitas.com: making the world better for cackling fangirls everywhere .

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MEIMI... Email: meimi@time-stranger.net AIM: KSaintTail Age: 15 Tanjoubi: 11/18/01 Computer: A cute, slightly mischievious PC named Nokoru, Sei-chan the monitor, and Twinkie-sama the scanner. Site: M-T ARCHIVE... FANFICTION... PLAYLIST... FAVORITE... Things: Tomodachi, drawing, shopping at Mitsuwa, shounen-ai/yaoi, fangirlism as a way of life Anime: CLAMP Gakuen Tanteidan, Karekano, Gravitation, Digimon/02, Fruits Basket Manga: Tokyo Babylon, Gravitation, Nervous Venus, Clover, Kamikaze Kaitou Jeanne, Houshin Engi Fun Girls: Kusakabe Maron, Sumeragi Hokuto, Honda Tooru, Ohkawa Utako, Souryu Asuka Langely Pretty Boys: Imonoyama Nokoru, Ishida Yamato, Ichijouji Ken, Seguchi Touma, Ran, Arima, Souma Yuki, Sei-chan~! Music: Chara, Hayashibara Megumi, L'arc-en-Ciel LINKS... allegretto applesauce aqua stranger basic black cat's delicacy cephiro, inc. complete strangers convent girl december23 demon winged disintegration doushita no?! dreams of sakura echoes from the void eyes unclouded freetalk green tea ice cream headphones save lives kaijuu ga iru kelemenopy kudaranai kyoko lady commander lime rain one dimensional pensieve random pie sadistic dreaming selective memory somedays good somedays bad tegretol dreams that damn duck the bishounen diaries truth tsubasa uncommon valhalla which way is up? winnow in thy abraxas