Meimi. 17. Art and evil soul-sucking mangaka and Buffy and LotR. AIM KSaintTail layoutSamwise Gamgee and Frodo Baggins from LotR. Currently overcome with endless Sam-rabu.
[Monday, February 3, 2003] np Itoshii Hito no Tame ni - Fushigi Yuugi
Oi oi. I can't believe I'm listening to this. Brings back memories - hasn't everyone fallen for this show one time or another, and then never watched it again?
Although it's better than the alternative, which has recently been...
Nokoru: *cackles like a maniac* Meimi: ARGH. NiiyamaShiho!Winamp: "Kagayaku shiroi sekai no naka ni tsubasa wo hirogeta - kimi ga iru! Demo sono tsubasa wa kuroku omoku~! Unmei ni kimi wa oshitsubusareSOU~!!" Meimi: Stop looking so damned pleased with yourself. Nokoru: *nikoniko* NiiyamaShiho!Winamp: "Tasuketai, sukuitai! Ore ni dekiru nara! Inochi sae nagedashite, kimi no tame ni~!!! Fuan na toki, tsurai toki, ore ga tsuiteiru! Itsumo misete ite kure, kimi! no! EGAO~!!!" Meimi: You make me listen to "Nagareboshi he..." on loop and I cry. Nokoru: "Todokanu Omoi"? Meimi: .....better. NiiyamaShiho!Winamp: "Motto deai ga hayakereba to! iiwake bakari mitsuketeru! Tsuki no hikari ga todokanu kanata he - AA! kimi wo tsuresaritai~!! Asayake ni terasareta, kimi no egao mabushisugite~! Kono mama futarikiri shiteiku jibun ga kowai yo! Fui ni naru PHS ga futari no kyori hiraku yo! Tomodachi da to ii hito da to warikirenakute~~~" Meimi: Why couldn't CCD have just had its own image songs sung by the characters? the sun shining the brighter @ 09:15 p.m.
[Saturday, February 1, 2003] np: Sweet - Chara
Adeline and Ingrid, thanks so much. I'm still all...sparkly at the concept that I don't have to worry anymore. X3
I clocked in about...six more hours at FF8 this weekend. Except that's just what the timer says and it's not true, because I must have spent three hours on a completely optional thing I didn't realize was optional. It occasionally took longer for me to restart the game than it did for me to actually lose. But after that it's been all easy stuff. Addictive as all hell, though...I'm going to DDR first but play some more before sleep~ the sun shining the brighter @ 09:26 p.m.
[Thursday, January 30, 2003] np: Youkoso Metallic Party - CLAMP Gakuen Tanteidan
*mad giggles*
I got into a college.
Mind you, it's only SDSU, which isn't exactly a school I'm jumping up and down for, but that's just not the point. The point is that I don't have to worry about not going at all.
I'm pretty sure that zooming down a twisting road while belting out "'Rashiku' Ikimashou" is the best feeling in the world.
I'm trying to distract myself from all schoolwork with fanfic rec sites. I'm trying to dig through HP recs, but they're generally...not what I'm looking for. Anyone have good Ron/Hermione to rec? That's good and not, you know, this, because it seems to be the only thing popping up when cute Ron/Hermione fic is begged for. the sun shining the brighter @ 10:14 p.m.
[Monday, January 27, 2003] Vinita, Kusao Takeshi as obsessive psychopath is very on-the-mark, methinks. He's the only one I'm really happy about of the lot - honestly, I can imagine him playing that absolutely perfectly. All the rest I know make me want to cry (Asano Mayumi as Risa?! Isn't she...more of a Riku? I guess she could have wild ranges unknown to me, but she's always done the lower voices for girls and wonderful boy voices). Except Tanaka Rie as Towa might be okay. I'll grant that Seki wasn't exactly...100% Satoshi for me, either, but...
Meimi: *howls* He can't DO it! Seki had the gay factor EXACTLY RIGHT and now he'll RUIN IT! Ali: ...well. ..maybe...he'll... Meimi: No. No, he only has ONE voice, Ali. And he can't. I mean, think of the comparison. *in bad sexy!Seki imitation* "Kimi wo tsukamaeru tame ni, ikitekitan da." And - *in an equally bad snarky!Ishida imitation* - "Kimi wo tsukamaeru tame ni, ikitekitan da." Ali: ...... Meimi: And then I get these horrible visuals of Satoshi giggling in that dress Xelloss wore and squealing "Sou desu wa ne!" and things. Except he's not smiling when I imagine it and it's just so wrong. the sun shining the brighter @ 11:32 a.m.
[Sunday, January 26, 2003] SM.net new layout has some glitch in the HTML that I didn't notice till after I uploaded, so it's loading kind of bitchily in IE (!! Netscape is supposed to be the constant troublemaker!) and shall until I muster up the energy to fix and reupload. But it's new layout and new mp3, both Houshin Engi, yay.
Krad = Kusao Takeshi? Hrm...actually, I don't think that could be much more perfect, if he does it the right way. He has some pretty wild ranges, but if it was his SKU Saionji voice...mmmm. Perfect. If that voice was being kind of seductively evil, it would be wonderful.
Whenever I think Ishida Akira = Satoshi, though, I keep flashing back to that Slayers Next episode where all the boys were all in drag and Ishida was giggling his head off. Associated visuals with Satoshi are not good. The voice is just. too. gay. When his characters aren't crossdressing, they're fufufuing at the hero of the piece and strutting around in black leather.
Had a very intense conversation with Les about X, must write up highlights later. It started out talking about this month's chapter, Fuuma clones, and ended with a long discussion on NokoruxSuoh apocalypse sex (Because No Apocalypse Is Complete Without!). the sun shining the brighter @ 10:40 p.m.
*cringes* ...there's no justice in the world. I mean, there's a certain level of Gay Voicage required, and they had the exact right amount, and then they decide to try and double it with Ishida? He's too nasal for Satoshi.
*sulks* I liked the drama cast. Can't believe this, Seki seems to be voicing half the male population of anime characters nowadays and he couldn't make time for Satoshi?
Okiayu is okay, but Onosaka had such a sexy voice that he was never allowed to use for sexy characters. He kept getting wasted on roles like Kero. *mourns*
I wonder who the twins and Krad are, now. But...Ishida... *wails* the sun shining the brighter @ 01:16 p.m.
[Friday, January 24, 2003] np: Cradle Song - Escaflowne
Spent most the day trying to keep my eyes open. I'm sleeping all day long tomorrow. Because I need to. I woke up during school with one side of my face all red since I'd fallen asleep on my textbook cover. the sun shining the brighter @ 05:54 p.m.
[Thursday, January 23, 2003] np: Dive - Sakamoto Maaya
Meimi: (re: the phone-snatchage and the cackling and dance) I. HATE. HER. Ali: ...yeah. I know. I could see the pure hatred in your eyes when I walked into class. Meimi: ...you're kidding.
*flashback to class* Meimi: *thinking* I hate her I hate her I hate her. Seniors in other classes used to say she was a witch and not till recently have I believed it. Witch witch witch witch...HAAAATE.
*end flashback* Meimi: ...well, maybe.
After a mostly hellish day (chem test did not go well), everything finally did the turnaround I've been waiting for. I had the most wonderful musical practice ever. We read our scene about ten times, maybe, because we just couldn't stop laughing. Mr. Y was trying to teach Blake (who plays FDR) how to say, "Now sing!" in an empowered, yet uplifting way. I think it took thirty tries for him to get it right (with about thirty girls giggling at every single attempt) even though at least five people demonstrated for him, and we all applauded at the end when he finally got it right.
Mr. Y, directing us as the cabinet members: "Now, you have to act like men in this scene. And when I tell you to act like men, in that I mean that men are always very loud. And always very sure of themselves. And always wrong." XD
Still haven't done my homework, obviously don't care that much. I came home just wanting to keep cheery, so I watched more of S3 DVD set and DDRed for an hour. I'm pretty happy right now, for the first time in a great many days. I'm pretty sure I'll get through tomorrow without constantly trying to hold back tears, anyway.
Honestly, concept of driving places still kind of scares me in general. I'm not really going anywhere except to school and back, and even that has me in constant fear that I'll mess up. But I've found that there isn't a much better feeling in the world than zooming down the road with the music loud enough for it to feel solid around you, singing as loud as you want because nobody can hear you.
It's occasionally a very peaceful feeling - today I was singing "Kaze ga Fuku Hi" all the way home.
But most days, it's about cackling all the way to school at seven-thirty AM, belting out the lyrics to "Vanilla" at the top of my lungs. One of those feeling that's a little hard to explain, and maybe a little twisted, but it's fun anyway. the sun shining the brighter @ 09:18 p.m.
[Thursday, January 23, 2003]
....right. Tired last night, wrong posts.
I'm going to fail my chem test, I'm absolutely exhausted, I forgot to turn off my cell in English today and class hadn't even started when it rang, and my teacher took it away anyway. And she did this little dance of joy that she was causing student pain. Hate her.
Yeah yeah, I know I should just be grateful that apparently word hasn't gotten out about the new instant detention for ringing cells rule. But I started my day off by more trying not to cry. I'm tired and exhausted and I can't believe I have musical practice again today. And I don't want to take my test or write up lab reports and I've given up doing my psychology homework entirely because she tells all the answers in class and I just write down whatever she says.
Tired and sleepy and miserableeeee. the sun shining the brighter @ 11:28 a.m.
[Wednesday, January 22, 2003] np: Endless Sorrow - Hamasaki Ayumi
So I got to school and spent my English class studying for my makeup econ test, then I went to drama class to discover my partner is absent for the fourth day in a row. Result being that I had to choose an entirely new partner. Same scene. Starting all over again.
Went to econ, begged my econ teacher to move my make-up test to Friday because my chem lab partner wanted to go ask the teacher for advice during lunch and "didn't want to go alone".
Right. Let's all guess who didn't show up at the chem room when I gave up a half hour of lunch to sit around and wait for my teacher to appear.
At least, I comforted myself, I get to leave school early today. The schedule had aligned itself as such, which it only does about every twenty days...
No, Sarah says. We have all-call musical practice. No, I told her firmly, we don't.
We did.
More than half the reason I was cast for that musical at all, I'm certain, is because I have to be half-dead not to show up at practice. After my last class was over, I sat in my car and, for the first time in my life, considered blowing off practice entirely. Massive tests, misery, there couldn't be a much better excuse. I thought and thought, and finally decided that after screwing up so many times this week, I didn't need to skip and end up adding to the list of reasons to hate myself. I took off to buy lunch down the street and came back for practice. I was mostly trying not to cry the entire time.
And now off to go study for three chapters of chem test. This is just not a good week. At all. the sun shining the brighter @ 05:09 p.m.
[Wednesday, January 22, 2003]
....
I wish I was home, in bed, with the covers pulled up over my head. Alone. Sleeping. the sun shining the brighter @ 08:06 a.m.
[Tuesday, January 21, 2003] np: Cell Block Tango - Chicago Soundtrack
Chicago. Flat-out one of the coolest movies I've ever seen. I can't remember the last time I walked out of the theater feeling so pleased, LotR and the like which I counted the days to not counting. Most of the best films nowadays are just miserable and compete to break your heart, and it was really refreshing to walk out both satisfied and cheerful. Gorgeous direction. Amazing. It's hard enough to seperate a movie musical from its stage, and this didn't even bother to try. Being one of Those People who loathed Moulin Rouge more than words can say, I was screeching (in my mind) at the screen the whole time, "Take THAT, Moulin Rouge, THIS is how you make a movie MUSICAL! HAAAAH!!"
[Monday, January 20, 2003] np: Landslide - Dixie Chicks
General announcements. The evil Tokyopop, whose products I refuse to buy but occasionally shamefully read in the stores, have released Parakiss 4. I only got 1/3 through it or so though. *mourns* I have to snag the Japanese release as soon as possible.
February Animage has a fairly small little blurb with the D.N.Angel character designs: Daisuke, Dark, Krad, Satoshi, and the twins. Now that I've told you people near Japantowns that, I sincerely hope someone snags it and SCANS IT, since I haven't seen it yet, though apparently the designs are excellent. No news of start date, but I would bet on April.
And finally, because I've always tried to restrain myself from cluttering my blog with Buffy ramblings...well, it was inevitable. My Buffyblog. Maybe not that thrilling, but at least it has a Buffy/Spike layout.
Yeah, I'm slacking on school stuff and I really don't want to write about that dumb play. Can you tell? Ah, I'm going to bed, don't care anymore at all. the sun shining the brighter @ 11:03 p.m.
[Monday, January 20, 2003] np: My will - Inuyasha
And Ingrid, thanks so much for the congratulations and things this past week. *hugs*
And now to brighten everyone's day (and it should be noted that when trying to type "day", it came out "gay" twice, even trying to correct the typo) for random fangirl quotage... *drumroll*
"I want them both to be prettily gay together! ...Sirius and Lupin, I mean. Not Sirius and Harrison Ford."
".... O.o;;"
I'm in trouble, no school stuff done, some of this is definitely getting blown off. It's not good. I hate having to wake up on my own in the morning, I'm not allowed to get four hours sleep anymore. the sun shining the brighter @ 10:19 p.m.
[Monday, January 20, 2003] np: Endless Rain - X-Japan
...
I hate the play I was given for my drama project. I have to do a whole analysis for it by tomorrow, and I hate it so much that I can't finish it. Seeing as it's about forty pages in the tiniest print imaginable, this is a problem. I got about twenty pages in and just tried not to scream in frustration. I haven't experienced such a sense of boredom and detachment from the characters since...uh, maybe since I read FotR, which I kept throwing at the wall.
I hate the whole idea of prayer class, but I especially loathe the idea of a prayer journal. I have this wacky notion that prayer is a private thing, and it's not my teacher's business how, where, why I pray or even if I do it at all. With this outlook, I have to rack my brains to come up with a proper two pages of BS each week. Until the end of the year. If that's not enough grounds for longing for high school to be over, I don't know what is.
None of this is the Problem, I'm just circling around it because I can't deal with it. At all. I'm just shutting it out because I can't understand at all. I think I'll go mope some more and then have ice cream. Because I'm in one of those annoying girly moods where all I want is some good sobbing time and comfort food. the sun shining the brighter @ 05:23 p.m.
[Thursday, January 16, 2003]
Right.
All applications are in, all that remains are portfolio scholarships and one last app that will be easy to complete.
I am officially a licensed driver. I woke up at the crack of dawn, made my first solo drive this morning while blaring "Nanka Shiawase" from the stereo, giggling like a maniac. Tonight I get to drive myself home and have the entire house to myself until nine PM.
I'm pretty happy - the worst of the college stuff will be over after my interview this Sunday. And I'm driving. the sun shining the brighter @ 08:04 a.m.
[Tuesday, January 14, 2003] Meimi: -and I looked in the book of Revelations, and there's no gay sex at all. Ali: No. No, there's not.
Yes, I am supposed to be doing my UCLA art application. the sun shining the brighter @ 11:29 a.m.
[Monday, January 13, 2003] np: Miruku - Chara
Surfacing.
Immensely bad week, not getting better. I'm not happy, I'm moping constantly, and I need more time on everything in life. I'm very lucky that I organized my college apps well, everything will go in a day early except maybe UCLA portfolio.
But new semester is not happy. I actually have a term project in every class except econ. This means more term papers than you can count (my chem teacher alone wants a twenty page paper, and that's not even the whole project). I have to write an in-class paper tomorrow in English, which I'm dreading, because after my final grade fiasco I never want to write another paper for my English teacher again. And I like writing, I just hate her. And the idiot woman who runs our computer lab was extremely rude to several of us last week. Among other annoying habits, her big Thing is jumping up and GRABBING people. She grabbed me and then kicked me out of the computer lab for a ridiculous reason, and I not-so-politely jerked out of her tight grip. I went back to the computer lab the next day and the Bound website (which I had been browsing when she jumped on me) had been suddenly and mysterious banned from the school network, which she controls. Bitch.
Burying myself in tests and apps and essays and papers till at least Wednesday. Owe many people email, will try to answer later. the sun shining the brighter @ 06:43 p.m.
[Thursday, January 9, 2003] np: Samwise The Brave - LotR
New layout. *hearts* Sam. Maybe I won't wait another week for that movie again...but probably too busy this weekend. *pouts*
Musical going wonderfully. I'm the cabinet member with a personality. Looks to be fun fun fun, except for the fact that I've been spending the last few days singing under my breath and against my will, "no-one cares for you a smidge~ when you're in an orphanage~"
Tired. Sleep. the sun shining the brighter @ 12:05 a.m.
