Maybe not. If not, then...argh, this is going to haunt me forever. Wondering what kind of person put in that search query. XD
Right. Back to driving myself INSANE! with applications. You know, it's only just starting to hit me that I've got three thousand words to write on Canterbury Tales and The Odyssey. By Friday. With many references, most of which I'll probably fake, but that's not the point. I'm now in full Oh My God I'm Gonna Die mode. Well, not really, if I were then I'd be working on it already.
Silver lining: if I can wriggle out of my world religions exam, then I'll be having a totally free day on December 18th. FU. FU. FU. Plan being, I'll take my driving test that day...and then, if I pass, speed off cackling madly to LotR.
Yes, I'm aware that I need to get through every kind of hell first: Japanese exam, maximum four high school exams (but only two if I play my cards right), three school projects, both SATs and ACTs, finishing up artwork, scholarship essays, the all-important common application...I'm sure there's more. I'd like to scream, "What was I THINKING?" but most of this can't be avoided at all. Ergh. I fell into the sky @ 11:08 p.m.
Friday, November 29, 2002
np: Full of Grace - Sarah McLachlan
I feel sick.
So my mother points out a mistake on my college apps, and I send it in, and I think after I send it in that she was wrong after all, and I was right. So I went, I yelled at her, I emailed the college telling them about my mistake, only to realize she was completely right from the start. (Because we all know I'm the only one who can fuck up like this...)
So now I'm sitting, miserable, hoping the college will notice my following email I sent telling them to disregard the first.
I can't explain. I just can't believe I messed up yet another thing. It's not that big an issue - it's SFS, and their deadline is in May. I should be thankful that I messed up on a school like that instead of SDS, but SFS is my wildly, insanely safe school.
I'm not pleased with myself at all.
More reminders to me. Can ignore.
Nov 30: finish UC app and send in Dec 6: English project due. Yeah, you know, the huge ten-page one. The one you haven't started. Why the fuck is she doing this to us, when anyone with a brain should know not to in these weeks of hell? Dec 7: SATs (note to self: print ticket this time) Dec 10: first scholarship due Dec 14: ACTs (note to self: print ticket) Dec 17: first day of HS exams, Japanese exams at night, eligible for driving test starting that day but I'll probably be too busy sobbing Dec 18: LotR! and second day of exams..with luck, won't have to go that day and can skip out to go to the theater? *_* Dec 19: last day of exams
And somewhere in there, the world religions project that never had a due date will be due. If I had any brain at all, I'd be doing it this weekend before SATs hit, but...well. I'm not that smart. Whoever the hell came up with the idea of the final papers needs...to just be strangled.
Sigh. Christmas vacation will include spending the first half alone and miserable with all friends gone, then shuttling back and forth to PA, then trying to spend every spare moment with Les I can upon arrival home. Oh right, and I did mention portfolio, financial aid papers, finishing applications due in January and February, and the ton of portfolio scholarships I'm hoping to get?
Meimi: ...and then I said, "He must have people fawning over him all the TIME going oh my GOD you're DRACO MALFOY and you're at our SCHOOL-" Tara: *dryly* We're the only people who would do that. Meimi: Yes. Now shut up and let me finish.
Leslie: Anyway, I was watching Silence of the Lambs and I finally figured out what the appeal of Seishirou is. Besides being sexy. Meimi: And gay. Don't forget gay. Meimi: ...wait, we need more appeal besides sexy and gay? Are we slipping? Leslie: o.O ...
I had the absolute BEST day today, despite the fact that I had about three hours of sleep last night due to sitting wide-awake worrying about applications. Almost all of my classes were fun and uneventful. I worked on college apps through two classes and I'm about this close from being finished! I just have to edit my essay, dig around to find answers to one or two easy questions, and then done. Both a university and the UC email hotline emailed me today to tell me how to take care of my Japanese class problem! My mom and I went out to my one of my favorite restaraunts for dinner! I went to Ali's house and we watched two hours of Buffy and screamed at the TV and squealed over season six (screamed at Warren for being EVIL! at Andrew for being GAY! at Jonathan for being ADORABLE)! Then came home and watched Will and Grace reruns! Then watched some more LotR! And my mom ordered me the huge collector's set of the extended version of LotR for Christmas!
I think that's enough fanservice for one day, mm. I fell into the sky @ 09:31 p.m.
Sunday, November 24, 2002
np: Kirei na Kanjou - Arai Akino
Draco Malfoy has been haunting my dreams in recent weeks. Until today, though, I couldn't remember any of the contents of the dreams (except that I'm postitive one had gay in it, so I'm absolutely furious that I can't remember). So.
In the dream, I was walking through my school, and then he was walking down the hall towards me. "Gosh," I thought to myself. "He must've just transferred in. How cool is that." (You do all know that I go to a Catholic all-girl's school, right? So it's pretty hysterical either way...he was in the Hogwart's uniform though, not our stunning plaid - more's the pity XD) I considered talking to him, but decided against it: "He probably has people going OH MY GOD YOU'RE DRACO MALFOY! and you're at OUR SCHOOL! at him all the time. I should be sympathetic."
As I walked past him, I dropped something, but I didn't stop for it, figuring I'd double back for it as soon as he passed. Then he picked it up and stole it, and I decided not to be nice. So I ran after him screaming, "MALFOY!" at the top of my lungs, as well as some phrases I can't remember that were very British, but even in my dream I was thinking, "Why on earth am I talking like this?"
.......riiiight. XD I fell into the sky @ 01:48 a.m.
Saturday, November 23, 2002
More notes to me about applications, can be ignored. Everyone, please pray that my brain does not explode in the next week.
UC app:
-Japanese credit coursework, find out a way to fix it
-find community service hours at school
-EDIT ESSAY AND GET IT UP ON THE ONLINE APP
CSU app:
-find 8th grade algebra grades
-find out what a college "nonresident/resident fee" is for Japanese community college classes: does it mean you pay to live on campus? o_o
-"general education requirements": I have no idea what the hell that's about specificially, but it's in my notes so it must be very important
-call Linda and ask about oncampus for art program @ SFS
-if the online application is still on enough crack tomorrow to be believing that SDS is no longer accepting applicants even though they DAMN WELL ARE till Nov 30, try and find an email address to complain to.
I swear all college-related websites HIDE their contact info for admissions. They just don't want to deal with emails. I'm teetering on the edge of being done with both apps, though. I have to get this Japanese class crap sorted out, definitely, but that's the only huge issue...
More reminders to me:
-SAT and ACT final dates are creeping up slowly
-TV scholarship app due Dec 6
-portfolio, portfolio, portfolio. next week during break, really get cracking on self-portraits again and try to finish something decent. balsafoam relief's background must be finished by this Tuesday. I'd like to dream and say carving and paint job should be done by the following week so I could tackle something else, but...probably won't happen. Just means I have to tackle more projects at home. You know, during the time I'm not sleeping, tearing my hair out, or engaging myself in the occasional happy activity to prevent myself from losing my MIND.
-spring musical tryouts also creeping up
-hell, final exams are creeping up - Japanese and high school
-FAFSA workshop is December 16th in the library
I...think that's....all. I fell into the sky @ 12:24 a.m.
Friday, November 22, 2002
When you know you've been studying way, way, way too long: You pause to actually do language lab work, which happens to be answering questions about dialogue in Totoro, and you're so hysterical that your eyes are filling with tears and you're all but wailing, "That. Is the most BEAUTIFUL THING I've ever SEEEEEEN. Bake-neko-neko-basu, find Meeeeeei~~~ Run run~~"
The movie's cute. It isn't that cute.
Oh, I learned something in Japanese class! :D I love random language trivia! My teacher says that Denny's isn't horrible over in Japan, it's actually quite popular...so popular they actually have a slang verb for eating at Denny's. So if you're eating at Denny's, you "deniru"! XD
Right. Anyway, I'm exhausted. I'm sleep-deprived. I studied for about five or six hours yesterday, I woke up early this morning after staying up late last night, so I could study some more. And so let's just hope I did decently on the chem test. An "A" is not necessary, but a high enough "B" that will not kill all chances of a final "A" grade would be appreciated.
I think I'll go collapse now. *thuds* I fell into the sky @ 09:12 a.m.
Tuesday, November 19, 2002
End of the day yesterday was not so good, but oh well.
Ingrid, but you still love me anyway, right? XD (And Flying Monkey Boy = "Andrew", I think. Grr. "Do you think Willow could kill me, too?" If only we could be so lucky...)
The CLAMP North Side artbook is gorgeous stuff. I liked it much better than X Zero. There's lots more of their later work when their color art improved. Thirty-seven pages of Clover art is wonderful, even if I'd seen most of them before. The one of the fairy statue beheaded was a little creepy, though. Clover was definitely the highlight, but there were three MKR images I adored, CLAMP in Wonderland series was always entertaining, and I liked the picture in the back that they drew for an ALI Project album cover. *_* I fell into the sky @ 09:36 a.m.
Monday, November 18, 2002
So far, has been a most satisfactory birthday. XD I woke up pouting because I was too broke to go out to lunch, only to come downstairs and find that my mom had left money for me on the table! Had a splendid day so far...my classes are really slow and quiet today. Went out to lunch at Burger King with Geri, and we shrieked over Buffy (good shrieks) and Angel (BAD shrieks) together. XD I fell into the sky @ 01:04 p.m.
Monday, November 18, 2002
Got home after CoS very late last night, and then I sneaked downstairs to watch the Angel episode I'd taped.
I can't believe I sacrificed an hour of sleep for that tripe. Ick. Ick. Ick. The only thought I had after watching that was "...I think...I need to wash my brain out with soap. I feel...dirty. EW." I fell into the sky @ 09:34 a.m.
Sunday, November 17, 2002
CoS.
Ten billion times better than the first. I laughed, I squeaked, I jumped out of my seat and then pinned myself back in fear. This movie'll be winning awards this year, methinks, though LotR will probably still soundly trounce it the second year in a row.
Best performance: Jason Issacs. He stole the entire movie. Brilliant performance, I just wanted to see more and more of him. He was creepy, he was evil, but in the most wonderful way that had me grinning every time he came on screen. Like Snape, but not as gay...I think, but then again there was that cane (which he used every second he could, ooh). Rupert Grint turned in a close second, though. That kid makes the best faces - it was obvious he was absolutely terrified of the spiders for real. XD Camerawork: Ooooh that bit in Flourish and Botts. Most brilliant piece of camerawork I've seen in ages in a movie - the camera soared from near the entrace, upwards, seemed to sort of turn in midair, and found Draco sneering up above. Sparkle. Also some really great stuff that really impressed me - those wide shots. Clearly they started with CG and ended with "real" camerawork, but I don't know where or how. Especially the bit (very ripped off from LotR, but anyway) where the camera zoomed down the tower with the switching stairways and ended up with the kids in the hall. Special effects: Dobby should have been a puppet. I'm hard to please, but he didn't look right at all. He wasn't placed in the lighting correctly, was often too brightly colored for the scenes he was in. But I care a great deal less for Dobby than I do for Quidditch, so they're free to spend their budget on that instead. My heart was racing through the entire scene - amazing. Also, the pictures hanging everywhere were much, much better this year. I was sorely disappointed in the first movie when only about a third of them moved - in this one, the pictures are moving almost all the time. Sets: Burrow was lovely! Dumbledore's office entrance was the coolest thing EVER. *_* Defense Again the Dark Arts appears to be a different classroom from last year's with Quirell. Gorgeous stuff with Snape's and Dumbledore's offices. The Chamber itself was pretty damn cool, though not quite as much so as the sinks splitting up to open. *___*
Best line: "I didn't know you could read." (I'm easy to amuse.) Worst line: "You may have blinded the balsisk, but it can still smell you!" (Looord, was Riddle a disappointment. He lacked the smirky, shivery finesse of all other villainous characters in the movie. Even Draco has more style. And I had such high hopes after I saw him stroking Harry's forehead with his wand in the preview...speaking of which, Riddle was dressed in blue colors, it seemed. Aren't those Ravenclaw's colors?! Which makes no sense...) Fangirl Award: Oh. My. God. That little...thing...Draco does with his eyebrows. I almost died laughing silently in the middle of the theater. He does it TWICE. *howls* But, um, more seriously...everyone complained that Hermione hugged Harry and only shook hands with Ron, but it was way cuter that way! XD It was so adorably awkward!! Auuuugh~!!
Oh...just wow. The whole movie was fabulous. I'll go see it again this coming weekend with my friends. Like the first one, it's a definite big-screen experience. The balsisk scared me out of my mind (the soundwork, too - at a point, it sounded as though it was right behind my seat). The spiders were pretty damn scary, though only the bit when it grabbed Ron made me jump. I pressed back into my seat when the hand moved in Knockturn Alley, though I knew it was going to happen.
Um um um...it was just fabulous. Amazing. Dazzling. There were definitely some things skipped over (Ginny was barely seen at all - you couldn't even have known she had a crush on him! almost no hint of Hermione's crush on Lockheart, Lockheart himself wasn't there enough, and the world ALWAYS NEEDS MORE *SNAPE*). But I was fairly delighted by the entire thing, and didn't feel anywhere near as disappointed as I was last year. I'm going to go see it at least once more. Possibly twice, tiding myself over for LotR. Fufufu!!
Oh yeah, and my family and I showed up two hours before the movie began, and we were first in line. I hopped around the sidewalk cackling, "We're the biggest Potter geeks! We're the biggest Potter geeks!"
............yeah. XD I fell into the sky @ 11:05 p.m.
Sunday, November 17, 2002
np: Ordinary Day - Vanessa Carlton
Last night's Buffy was some scary shit.
So you see the irony, right? That I woke up hysterical at four-thirty AM from a nightmare - not a horror movie inspired dream, but...
"Oh my God. Oh my God. I don't need letters of reccomendation by that application date, right? Right?!!"
I was up until six-thirty. Yeah. I fell into the sky @ 12:27 p.m.
Saturday, November 16, 2002
np: A Sorta Fairytale - Tori Amos
Application-related notes to myself:
-call Linda to ask about Japanese classes, keeping in mind if I don't get into ANY COLLEGES then it's entirely her fault when she told me I was fine with college credits (fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck...I'm so scared now...I shouldn't be, lord knows I've got two years equivalent knowledge so they could test me if need be...but...this is just bad)
-complain to school how they messed my transcript freshman year when they gave me HS 5 credits instead of equivalent of CL credits for Japanese
-ask mom for scholarship dates
-check community service hours at school
-fix "school" spelling in UC app
-add photography class to UC app
-do CSU app online
-give teachers resume and ask for letters of reccomendation
FUUUUUUUUCK. Only the Japanese thing is an issue though - everything else I can fix within the week. T'would be really interesting if I didn't get into college because of this, hrm... I fell into the sky @ 04:43 p.m.
Friday, November 15, 2002
np: A Sorta Fairytale - Tori Amos
New layout, courtesy my procrastination on college applications.
This absolutely cracked me up. Top ten life lessons learned in Buffy. I was personally shocked that "sex is BAD" wasn't #1, but hey. XD My favorite at number eight:
"Souls are very real and they do 'something'. They're important, they make you human, they make you other than dead. Without them we can't love (no, sorry, apparently we can), we can't be selfless (whoops, again with the sorry, we can), we can't value life on planet Earth (hang on a minute). Still, apparently, souls do 'something'." I fell into the sky @ 10:39 p.m.
layout Mamoru and Toshi from Bound. Kind of looks like she shut him up by suprise, huh. ^^;; Love love love these two. Lyrics from A Thousand Miles by Vanessa Carlton.
