new layout(:
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
06:20 p.m.

I thought it would be nice to have a new layout to celebrate the end of MidYears.

Alrights, that was an excuse. I just got sick of the other one, it was a tad too simple , wasn't it?

&anyways, i got this from http://www.blogskins.com . Am seriously too lazy nowadays to come up with my own one. Anyhow, this skin is sort of different from my usual prefernce anyways. Thought i would opt for something more, un-me (: And since there's a song attached to it, hey, click one get one free? LOL. Pardon me for my retard-ness.

Stayed home the whole day. No nice teevee shows though. Not that i actually switched it on, been in front of the com ever since my previous post, which was actually posted only like three hours ago. HMM

Shall bugger off now ! (: My stomach is growling again.

YAY ! (:
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
03:30 p.m.

EXAMS ARE OVER ! (((:

not sure whether i'll pass any of them , hopefully i do. BUT YEAHH ! exams are over !

Was totally stressed out. Couldn't sleep &relax much at all. acks. I SWEAR they nearly killed me ok. i didnt even study this much for O lvls, or any other mid years i've had in my WHOLE life :X

ANYWAYS, it was tina's birthday yday(: went out to meet the girls straight after my last paper (which was econs, killer i tell you) .

took a few neos (: lalas.







me &tina took a few more(:









the rest have papers today so yeaps, we went home early(:

met up with lana, lindsay &at for pw this morning. char came along too. lana came to my house after that to slack before her training. LOVEACTUALLY ! (: haahs, so nice.NVM.

How Stereotypical You Are...
Created by uraverageteen and taken 34620 times on bzoink!
The Generic Teenager Stereotype
Do you drink [alcohol]?	yeas. i would be lying if i say i don't (:
Do you party a lot? How often?	nahs, not really (:
Do you use drugs for recreational purposes?	nuh-uhhh
How often do you use the word like in an average hour?	like, ALOT of times.
Do you skip classes? How often?	not really, i'v stopped ! ((:
Do you have casual sex? Protected?	nooope.
Do you steal?	noopppe
Do you wear inappropriate clothing?	like, what is inappropriate clothing?!
Do you drool over celebrities?	nopes, cept maybe for a fewww =p
Do you watch a lot of TV?	uhhhh, sorta.
Do you ever watch the News?	not really. i read them.
Do you even care about world issues?	hardly :X
Do you read books often?	sorta.
Are you failing a lot of your classes?	almost every :X
Do you spend most of your time with your friends?	mmhmm.
Do you smoke cigarettes?	nopes.
Do you hang out a lot in malls, or at Seven Elevens?	7-11?! malls only pls.
Do you often find yourself with a crush on someone?	not now (:
Do you cuss a lot?	haha, yeas.
Are you desperate to fit in?	not really.
Are you intelligent?	i would like to think so but sadly.. :X
The Goth Stereotype
Black lipstick?	nopes
Black eyeliner?	own one but don't use it .
Black eyeshadow?	own but dont use (:
Black trenchcoat?	nopes
Black boots?	nopes.
Black fishnets?	haha, it was a GIFT?
Black nail polish?	uh huh, like it !
Cigarettes?	like black cat? nahs. i dont even smoke.
Heavy metal music?	dont mind.
Marilyn Manson?	nahs.
Kittie?	nopes.
Cradle of Filth?	nopes.
Constant frown and perpetual angst?	pass that phase.
Do you like to be seen as	seen as wot?
Are you an intellectual?	would like to think so.
An atheist?	noopes. God DOES exists.
Horrible home life?	nopes.
Hopelessly depressed?	nahhhs.
Suffering with suicidal idealations?	noo.
Self-mutilation?	i hate people who cut :X
The Punk Stereotype
Plaid?	nopes
Big black boots?	isn't it like goth then?
Mohawk?	nahs.
Excessive piercings? [Especially facial]	nopes, want them though =p
Loud, confident and opinionated?	uhhh, dont think so.
Wild hair colors?	nahhs.
NOFX?	what's that?
Rancid?	rancid.. as in remarks? nahhs.
Well versed on political scandals and outrages?	not interested in the politics.
A	a wottt?
The Jock Sterotype
What's your IQ?	136.
Do you watch a lot of sports?	not really.
Play a lot of sports?	mm, not really.
Talk a lot about sports?	nopppes.
Do you do anything, really, but think about sports?	mmhmm.
Are you arrogant?	dont think so.
Are you a male or female whore?	NONE.
Are you homophobic?	nopes.
Do you tease other people a lot because you want to seem confident?	not really.
But really you're a quivering mass of insecurity?	more like yoou. :X
Boobs = yes?	if im a guy, maybe.
Parties = yes?	uh huh
Dropping out of high school and flipping burgers = yes?	nopes.
The Girl Stereotype
Do you spend a lot of time on your appearence?	mmmhmm.
Have you ever been on a diet?	fruit fast only.
How much did you lose?	0kg.
Was it not so much a diet as it was an eating disorder?	ddnt even go on a diet.
Make yourself throw up?	im not bullimic
Make-up?	yeas.
Low-cut tops?	i have some..
How big are your boobies? [Cup size]	err..
Do you flip your hair when you talk, even if you don't realize it?	so if i dont realise it, how am i supp to know?
Giggle a lot?	sorta.
What's the deal with boys?	they're BOYS.
Thongs?	mmhmm.
Pretty bras?	mmmmmm
YM, Teen, Cosmo, et al?	female, cleo more like it.
Who's the weaker sex?	none.
Are you a feminist?	i dont know :X
Do you think Brad Pitt is hot?	in Meet Joe Black he is.
How often do you shave your legs?	never.
How about your armpits?	frequent enough.
Are you emotional?	yeas.
Especially when on your period?	especially during my period.
This Or That [Oh, that old coconut.]
Originality or Acceptance?	originality.
Independence or Companionship?	companionship &independence, abit of both?
Stability or Freedom?	equal.
Personal or Interpersonal?	personal.
Introvert or Extrovert?	extro.
Popularity or Isolation?	popularity.
Unique or Loved?	loved because im unique.
Understood or Individual?	understood.
You or Them?	me.
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(:
Sunday, June 26, 2005
02:21 a.m.

A LOT LIKE LOVE TODAY ! (:

heh, LOOOOOVE that movie ohkays.

am hungry again. :X anyways, images uploaded at random june. mmhmm.

nth much to say, exams are coming. -YAYYY-

LIBRARY .
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
08:42 p.m.

again(:

am mugging so much now ! heh. not that i actually did much work :X i think i eat more than i think?

tiff was 1 hour late (somethings never change =p) . i was already studying. then we ordered food. ALOT of food. haahs and munch while we eat.

the library is turning into some congregation thing for JC students . lols.
shan't blog much. pics from yday. BAD HAIR LUHHS. why does it always happen? :X


me &tina


&again


HPS & PBS, [l-r] mine, pris's, tina's


3 of us(:


&AGAIN


the turtle is DAMN cute ohkays.


we LOVE it alot


SEE?


on our way out(:

ho-hums.
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
09:11 p.m.

Spent an unproductive day at the library. Read through my econs but i didnt really get the concepts inside my head. :X -sighh, will read through them again tmr, i reckoned it's the lack of slp. slpt at 3plus last night and woke up at 8 today? have to adjust my bioclock before school reopens or i'm screwed up :X

wanted to upload the pics but then TINA AINT ONLINE :X photos are up in her blog alrdy though, but i'll still get them. laalals.

i need to sleep. my back is aching alrdy ):

I MISS BART (: heh heh.

HEY ! again.
Monday, June 20, 2005
10:05 p.m.

I'm online again ! (:

am blogging ever so often now that i'm home. This is what you do when you're bored see? you BLOG about the oh-so-exiciting er, life, that you lead :D

it's been a while since i'm home the whole day &i must say, WHAT A CHANGE (: Felt good just slacking around doing nothing. Well, not really. More like, trying to get myself to study. hehh heh, ahh the joys of being a student. Or rather, a jc student. This time last year i'd be relaxing, enjoying myself out in the sun &spending my afternoon/nights shopping away. MYE IS OVER SEEE!

i'm starting to seriously think that i'm not cut-out for jc. or education actually. im a born slacker. :X i'd rather hibernate at home or go out and shop than stuff myself with knowledge. The outside world is of no concern to me :X
ohkay, that's NOT true, i do feel for the outside world sometimes, SOMETIMES
BAHH, im crapping.

My mum said that i look happy today. prolly cos she hasnt seen me in a while. YAWNS.

OHYEAHS, drummmms make me happy.

this is a bunch of nonsense.

I MISS MY FAVOURITE BOY .

OH, visit here
DAMN FUNNY PLS.

it's the 20th!
Monday, June 20, 2005
02:49 p.m.

MY ALARM DIDNT GO OFF :X

so much for waking up at 6.30 to change my phone cos the other one ran out of batt. I should have just stayed awake then.

but i woke up at 8.30( the time he's supp to report...:X). at least i didnt wake up at 12?


slpt after smsing for a while &i woke up at 1.(: im sucha sleeper. heh heh


SO, i'm supposed to start mugging today. sigh. I just (yes, i know, i should have earlier but :X) realise that they are squeezing my Chinese AO, listening compre, Math, Geog and Econs exams in TWO days.

yayness. &we have 3 days of break after that because the rest of the school has exams but we're done with ours. IS THAT FAST OR WOT?

why can't they spread the days out so we can study in-between instead of mugging like hell for that 2 days only?

OHWEL(:

did quite abit of maths just now &im gna continue with my econs sooon.


HEADACHE ! GO AWAY!

((((:
Sunday, June 19, 2005
09:12 p.m.

so the 20th is TOMORROW

. .
BUT THERE'S NO CONFINEMENT ! (:

Yayness (:

time to study for summmmer test though :X

BEACH(:
Thursday, June 16, 2005
02:29 p.m.

[Edited:/]
Woke up early in the morning yesterday to prepare for the beach trip (:


Realised that i cant cook rice? hahas. it ended up like porridge:X

the beach was GOOD , even though the moths &bats were flying above our heads, even though thr's this weird smell sometimes , even though thr's tonnes of BUGS (i didnt get bitten until like FIVE minutes before we leave..) , i couldn't ask for a better company(:

thanks for sacrificing your sleep for mine ((:


Mum just sent me tonnes of horoscope / personality stuff :

2 Sept - 29 Sept Swan
The swan is a complex character. While appearing on the surface as a calm and relaxed individual, underneath they are working hard to keep up with the pace of modern life. If provoked their natural graceful demeanour can give way to a violent temper which puts them in a flap. They are definitely someone to have on your side.

How Bad Is Your Temper According To Your Horoscope?
VIRGO AUGUST 22 – SEPTEMBER 21
Most of you are gentle and have full control over your emotions but those of you given to temper tantrums can certainly get violent. When see things with rage, you yell and shout and tend to break things lying close at hand. You can even harm yourself by banging your hands on a glass top table or wall. You should never get into any argument, for you are a sore loser. You feel that others are trying to persecute you and don’t quite respect your opinions. When hurt, you can also hold grudges forever.

Horoscope Test...
  If you are honest this tells the truth - it's pretty good
  Write your answers on a piece of paper. No cheating !!
  The answers are at the bottom of this page.
  1. Write the name of a person of the opposite sex. Bart
 
2. Which is your favourite colour out of red, black, blue, green, yellow? Black

  3. Your first initial? L
 
4. Your month of birth? Sept
 
5. Which colour do you like more, black or white? BLACK
 
6. Name of a person of the same sex as yours. tina
 
7. Your favourite number? 12
 
8. Do you like Sydney or Brisbane more? sydney
 
9. Do you like a lake or the ocean more? ocean
 
10.Write down a wish (a realistic one).

  When you're done, scroll down. (Don't cheat)  Answers  

1. You are completely in love with this person.  

2. If you choose: Red - You are alert and your life is full of love. Black - you are conservative and aggressive. Green - your soul is relaxed and you are laid back Blue - you are spontaneous and love kisses and affection from the ones you love. Yellow- you are a very happy person and give good advice to those who are down.  

3.If your initial is: A-K: You have a lot of love to give in friendships in your life. L-R: You try to enjoy your life to the maximum and your love life is soon to blossom. S-Z: You like to help others and your future love life looks very good.  

4. If you were born in: Jan-Mar: The year will go very well for you and you will discover that you fall in love with someone totally unexpected.  

April-June: You will have a strong love relationship that will last long and the memories will last forever.  

July-Sep: You will have a great year and will experience a major life-changing experience for the good.  

Oct-Dec: Your love life will not be too great, but eventually you will find your soul mate.  

5. If you chose..... Black: Your life will take on a different direction, it will be the best thing for you, and you will be glad for the change.  

White: You will have a friend who completely confides in you and would do anything for you, but you may not realize it.  

6. This person is your best friend.  

7. This is how many close friends you have in your lifetime.  

8. If you chose: Sydney: You like adventure. Brisbane: You are a laid back person.  

9. If you chose: Lake: You are loyal to your friends and your lover and are very reserved. Ocean: You are spontaneous and like to please people.
 
10. This wish will come true only if you send this to five people in one hour. Send it to ten people, and it will come true before your next birthday!

(:
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
05:27 p.m.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEILEANG &MARY ANN ! (:

Life is GOOD , if not great, now (:


But the 20th is nearing ! :X


I haven't study much for the Summer Tests yet. I'm just done with all the maths &a lil of econs.


I totally agree with what Wendy said. That in JC, you only have like 1mth break out of the whole 2 years. The mid-year hols are crap for you have to study for your mid years after that . But really, i think if they have the midyears before the holidays, i'l flunk it? mmhmm.


MY EYE IS STILL IRRITATING ME :X

-
Monday, June 13, 2005
01:17 a.m.

I've always know that i can switch from being extremely high to extremely low in a matter of a mili-second.

But it's happening oh-so-often now & i HATE it.

i feel as if i'm sitting beside Schumacher while he's racing.

AHHH :X

HOMEWORK :X
Saturday, June 11, 2005
12:31 a.m.

i SWEAR i hate homework :X

have been trying to do GP compre since this afternoon &i've only the AQ left &it's like 12.31 am now?!

not in a really good mood now luhs.

YAYNESS.
Thursday, June 9, 2005
01:13 a.m.

NOT

Just when i do finish my compo &send it back, I SAW THE MAIL FOR COMPRE. (:


Met him for dinner(: Don't know why but i felt quite stone. Must've been the lack of snuggling in the morning :X haahs.

er, saw a sight of him i havent seen before? :D haahs, quite funny actually.


Felt sick for a while cos i drank too fast :X sorry yeahs? hahas


AHH, i wana slp alrdy. nights world.

General Paper.
Wednesday, June 8, 2005
01:12 p.m.

A couple of hours in front of the com &im still stuck with the question:

Do you agree that religion serves no practical purpose but to give men hope?


At least that's not the only thing i've typed. Hahs, i have my name &class on the document. HAR HAR HAR.:D


This is getting nowhere, i haven't even started studying for my Summer Tests yet. I wonder why they call them tests though, it's more of a mid-year EXAMINATION if you know what i'm talking about.


The holiday mood is finally catching up. YAY. i was thinking i'd never get into the holiday mood. Must be due to the shopping yesterday(:


After agonizing over it for weeks, i'v finally decided to NOT go for the church camp today. Sighh, i feel really guilty. I mean, look at the number of people who cancelled out ! :X &i don't think my reason for not going is good, though it's important to me. But yeahs.


Grandpop's death anniversary today. But they decided to postpone the dinner to this saturday. hmm, is this right? I'm starting to be in the thinking mode right now .


YAY ! I'm meeting him tonight for dinner (:


wonder if i'll see him there. sigh, hopefully not.

ANIMAL outing(:
Tuesday, June 7, 2005
11:25 p.m.

well, sorta. considering lin only met us for like , what, one minute? then she left, saying her eyes hurts :X


it was RED, but she said she would come back ! :/ sighh, anyways, took neos, but i only scanned my fav :




&congrats to Bart, for he is a recruit no more? (: haahs.


&duck! i give you my full support (:

NEW TEMPLATE.
Tuesday, June 7, 2005
12:30 p.m.

so the entries won't align. i just can't be bothered with it right now :X hahas, im about to be late ! acks.

quizzes(:
Monday, June 6, 2005
11:00 p.m.

You scored as Gucci. Gucci 83% Abercrombie & Fitch 83% Diesel 67% Louis Vuitton 67% Tommy Hilfiger 58% DKNY 58% Dior 58% Chanel 50% Burberry 50% Anna Sui 42% What Designer Brand Are You? created with QuizFarm.com

i would refer DKNY or D&G though =/

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

(:
Monday, June 6, 2005
01:40 p.m.

OHKAYS.

rushed through the GPP last night &i managed to get it done ! lalala, so proud of myself.


am so tired. slept late &woke up early for school. didnt go for math though, it was too early =/


gna slp and maybe read some econs later. =p


animal outing tmr ! ((: YAY miss my zoo.


I MISS BART TOO.

WhisperingHeartsFiesta(:
Saturday, June 4, 2005
09:05 p.m.

Pics Uploaded here(:

Stay`d over at Lana's during the daycamp(: had to wake up at 5.30 everyday just to get to BoonLay, or rather, Xingnan Primary on time :X


haha , it wasn't as bad as i've expected (: I dont really like kids so it was actually surprising, to me &those around, that i didnt really feel like snapping until the very last day(:


Not a very good last day actually. i had actually prepared some cards for all of them &Naz &Alden actually asked me if they could throw it away.


well, since they're kids, i guessed im supp to not take what they say to heart. but then, sighh, guess it was really hurting :X wasn't in a good mood for the rest of the day


thank god for Magdeline & Cassandra though. The 2 sweeties(: think i'll just go off to a corner if not for them. I appreciate the hugs &kissess (: lala


i'v been wanting to sleep alot lately. can't seem to get enough rest but no matter how long ive slept. sickening :X

&im still wondering or not i should go for the camp. If i go, i'll have NO time to study, &yeah, lesser time with -. sighhh.


i miss - (:

BEAMS
Tuesday, May 31, 2005
09:03 p.m.

not a productive shopping day, considering that they have nothing of my size =/


or they ran outa it :X AHHHH


&lana's feet must be aching from all the walking &that bigbad slipper which bullies her feet . Im sorry lana ! :X

heh heh. in a VERY good mood now. i dont know why ((:


IMISSYOU ! (:

hohums. random thoughts.
Sunday, May 29, 2005
06:02 p.m.

PRODUCTIVE DAY(:


Things i did today-
-Market
-Math Tuition
-Maths tutorial (YAY ! )
-Econs Essay
-Another econs essay =p

ohkay, i said that twice to make myself feeel like i've accomplished alot alrights? :X bleahs


IM SO HUNGRY. only had 3 pancakes for breakfast

my command of eng seems to be deteriorating. =/

i need to slp :X

random images (:
Thursday, May 26, 2005
09:09 p.m.

click !

wouldn't it be nice (:
Tuesday, May 24, 2005
09:50 p.m.

if the world was cadbury.. =p


in a relatively good mood now ! (:


let's hope me good moody wouldnt go away


ECP on sunday, too bad i had to leave early though :X

&thanks for the socks ! haah, not that you'l be able to see this :X hohum


gna be mugging like hell during the june hols. i failed yet ANOTHER econs test pls.

i shouln't say pls. it sounds cheeeena yeahs? =p


&LANA ! YOU MUSNT KAYS ! ((: gilsy will be here to remind you ! lalala.


I wana eat sambal kangkong ! (haha, muist be surprising to those who know me well, cos i DONT eat veg (: ) my new favourite ! i hope the auntie saw my depressed face when she told me that the kangkong is sold out :X

&COOK FOR ME TMR !!

kay, nvm (:

gilsy ; I WANA EAT SAMBAL KANGKONG ! says:
haahs, cos my mum bought sambal kangkong yday !
gilsy ; I WANA EAT SAMBAL KANGKONG ! says:
&it's like OMG SO NICE !
gilsy ; I WANA EAT SAMBAL KANGKONG ! says:
lols
there she goes again. says:
u ate?!
there she goes again. says:
how come u even touched it ?!
gilsy ; I WANA EAT SAMBAL KANGKNG ! says:
i felt like i was in tuoch with the world./
gilsy ; I WANA EAT SAMBAL KANGKONG ! says:
like, the grass is suddenly greener
gilsy ; I WANA EAT SAMBAL KANGKONG ! says:
like, the air smells fresher
there she goes again. says:
err.really ah =p
gilsy ; I WANA EAT SAMBAL KANGKONG ! says:
i've never tasted anything like that =p
there she goes again. says:
its like. u feel the force, for the first time.
gilsy ; I WANA EAT SAMBAL KANGKONG ! says:
it's like WAHHHHH (sparks ignited from the kangkong)
gilsy ; I WANA EAT SAMBAL KANGKONG ! says:
=D
gilsy ; I WANA EAT SAMBAL KANGKONG ! says:
YEAHHH
gilsy ; I WANA EAT SAMBAL KANGKONG ! says:
may the KANGKONG be with you !
there she goes again. says:
err.lols
there she goes again. says:
you'r so mature all the time gi =p

&so i am (:

(:
Monday, May 23, 2005
02:09 p.m.




my head looks small here :X

KAYAKING(:
Sunday, May 22, 2005
10:31 a.m.

Totally burnt. ohkay, maybe not as red as some others, but it still hurts nonetheless? :X


Bet it'll fade in a few days though,sighh, i so wana get tan.


Woke up at 5.30 (again.. sheesh) but had to take a cab down anyways. Saw Ryan(tiff's brother) there ! haahs, while we were in the waters that is. &talked to tiff on the phone (while in the water .. still) hahas.


Did lots of capsize drills & TX rescue.Now my arms are sore. Even though i didnt empty out that many kayaks. :X The thought that we were swimming &drowning in the place where they find headless dogs/ cats whatever just spoils my mood . (not to mention, dead cockroaches floating around). Kallang has one of the dirtiest water =/


Tuition & NTUC & Beach later. lalala.


The Juliana Theory- IF i told you this was killing me would you stop?

fucked up.
Thursday, May 19, 2005
08:57 p.m.

A BAD day.


Not entirely surprising, havent' exactly had any peaceful day for like, eons?


Got to Woodlands MRT at like 7.24am. &for some unforeseem circumstances, i was late. (note that school starts at 8) Not that im blaming anybody. (darling, definately not you kays =p) Took a cab to rush down to school but we were late anyways. Shouted for us to go stand in frnot of the whole school where we got lectured by the vp herself. sighh, it was only my first time? Some regulars don't even get it. But like i say, it's all about luck. Sorry for pulling you in too , Joce :X


Got scolded during a particularly lesson again, like it's any 'bloody' surprise. Wait, the teacher ain't scolding us (: hahas. RIGHT. A11, we have to pull through this ! So what if we'r 'divas & bimbos' , so what if - says ' seriously, i dont like you guys at all' . &im sorry for not standing up today when - asked me to say something. But i seriously dont know where to start and arghs, i was lke so pissed &vexed.

two more years of this &i'll seriously suffer a mental breakdown. It's not as if life is easy at home. I don't want to face another problem at school.


Better go off to do my maths, before anothr one starts.


I know i say this alot, but i never did really mean it until today. I HATE school .


My Chemical Romance- I'm Not Okay (I Promise)
what an appropriate song.

songs(:
Tuesday, May 17, 2005
06:19 p.m.

thanks fang fang ! =p haahs, for your mp3 (:

uploaded tonnes of songs ! now i'm so happy . haha NEW PLAYLIST ! like finally. lalalas.

im so tired. i need to go slp now (:

excerpt.
Monday, May 16, 2005
08:23 p.m.

" God keeps his promise,and he will not allow you to be tested beyond your power to remain firm; at the same time you are put to the test,he will give you the strength to endure it, and so provide you with a way out" From First Corinthians, chapter 10

=X
Sunday, May 15, 2005
08:42 p.m.

i think im a meanie :X


i mean, i treat those people whom i like nicely. &i sorta ignore those people whom i dont rrly like


but .. but.. that is normal right? :X TELL ME IT IS.


Amityville Horror last night (: Show wasnt that scary but i did screamed :X it was more of a SHOCK ohkays? hahas.


sighh, i miss -

a lot like love(:
Thursday, May 12, 2005
10:15 p.m.

i so wana watch that movie ! but it's only like, coming out in june? :X that's damn long pls.





i like this kinda pictures (: so sweet &spontaneous! haahs. ok, i dont know lahs, i just LOVEE the picture. ohwels, nvm ((:

danXathon
Wednesday, May 11, 2005
09:39 p.m.

Am (like lana) taking a break from my pi to blog(:

not that i really have time to anyways, cos if i'm not doing my pi, i have to mug for my econs &math tests tmr (:


VJC symposium was interesting, though it took quite abit of time. Took a cab all the way back &i only got home at like 7plus. Imagine if i took a bus? :X


My school's organising a danXathon ! (: how cool is that? hahas, we're not going to dance though. but we're inviting people down to suntec (still under negotiation) to dance 24hours non stop. it'll be like some charity drive thingy. we;ll be collecting money while the people are dancing. hope my CG gets the 2am timeslot =p

ah wel, better get back to my work, laters(:

eh btw lind, i thought he already hates me as a whole =p

-SCREAMS-
Monday, May 9, 2005
10:10 p.m.

i need to pass one test or something. SERIOUSLY.


Look at the no. of tests i've passed-
4 geog tests &i've passed none.
3 Econs tests &i've passed one.
3 Maths tests &ive passed none.
1 Chinese test & i got like 8/50


sighh. this is so demoralising. I need to change my studying , or er, plan my studying plan. have to get down to studying .

hopefully i can pass my math retest tmr?

&my econs &math test this thursday.

the geog test tday is a goner. ):


gee, note how many tests we have per week? &we end sch like around 5 everyday? sometmies later. sighh.


&i feel so slpy when i geth home, just feel like slacking around.

am treating this as my whining ground :X

&im missing - luhhs :/ ohwels.

thr's not enough time !
Sunday, May 8, 2005
02:12 p.m.

i just had a four-hour tuition. :X dont ask me how i manage to keep myself sane for so long. i have NO idea.


&thr's another one from 3.30-5. I SO HAVE NO LIFE.


the worse part is that i'm still failing everything. four tests a week &i've only managed to pass one Econs MCQ test. &by ONE mark. how pathetic is that?


it's oh-so-frustrating now. ):


sometimes, when a person doesnt reply you, it usually mean that the person DONT WANT TO TALK TO YOU. some people just dont get it.


i should stop being so mean. :X

acks.
Friday, May 6, 2005
10:00 p.m.

TGIF !
waited so long for today (: but there was a security seminar to attend =/


sighh, what's with the sudden - ?


&school is kinda kinda stressful. im hardly passing anything now? In primary school, if you fail any subs, it'll be like WOAHHHH (not that i can recall any.. :X), in lower seconday, it's like UHRMS?! , in upper secondary, it was PRETTY common. in jc, it's like , 'SO?'


sighh, this is NOT good ohkays?


sometimes, if you treat someone well, you'll misled them to think that.. sighh. but i dont ! =/ ohwels.

DOG BITE !(:
Wednesday, May 4, 2005
10:00 p.m.

Wenta Lana's house after the canoeing briefing (wah puden, we're like DAMN SLACK can? lols =p ). SuTiean wanted to bake a cake for her mum's bday. HAPPY BDAY AUNTIE !


Took a cab down from school. Went thr &rotted loads (me luhhs. ) explore`d lana's secret room. hehs. &then just when we were about to leave, i got bitten by one of her dogs she got FOUR see?)


Couldnt remember what exactly happened. Was trying to move my leg but couldnt. found out only like 1sec later that the dog was biting me. what happened next was damn embarrassing luhhs.=/ shant talk about it.


mum insist that i go see the doc anyways. &i got a jab. YAY.

arghs, dont feel like bloggin lahs. BYE.

ARGHS.
Tuesday, May 3, 2005
09:39 p.m.

i've finally thought of something for my PI. hopefully it's relevant ? =/


temper has been running short lately. maybe it's because those who should didnt but those who shouldnt did.


am not making sense ehs?


canoeing meetin tmr. but no canoeing =/


i can't wait for the weekend to come. but then again, it's anothr 2 days for me to rush through all those homework ive not done. sighh


arghs, im missing - .


weird night last night anyways. haahs. was quite funny luhhs, but things are REALLY complicated now. not that it's a bad thing anyways. BUT nvm. ((((:


it took me so long. ahahs. OHKAY, i so dont make sense right? NVM.


&all 3 of you better cheer up kays? =/ it sucks to be happy when everyone around you isnt. (not that you should be happy for me but be happy for yourself?)


i sound like some counsellor. LOL. NVM

collide
Monday, May 2, 2005
11:33 p.m.

AHHH !

this is so bloody confusing. ..

ARGHS. ohkays nvm.

articles(:
Monday, May 2, 2005
10:54 a.m.

More &more Singaporeans are becoming aware of us teens, or even adults blogging online: read


&perharps we should follow Japan's style of teaching? Since Mr Chow's workload seems to be heavy, judgin by the amount of administrative stuff he has to do everyday :read

acks. so many homework &i still dotn know the webbie for that online essay. link anyone?

quiz.
Saturday, April 30, 2005
11:29 p.m.

You scored as Apathy. Your life is marked by quite a bit of apathy: You don’t seem to care much about the direction of your own life, much less society in general. I would find a quote or two to better describe the virtues and thoughts behind apathy, but ironically those who would espouse the concept of apathy are too apathetic to write about it. “Eh, who cares?” --Myself, just now... More info at Arocoun's Wikipedia User Page... Apathy 80% Hedonism 75% Existentialism 65% Strong Egoism 65% Justice (Fairness) 65% Utilitarianism 60% Kantianism 60% Nihilism 35% Divine Command 10% What philosophy do you follow? (v1.03) created with QuizFarm.com

X-COUNTRY !
Saturday, April 30, 2005
09:02 p.m.

haha, INNOVA'S FIRST X-COUNTRY WAS HELD YDAY ! (:


&i ran ! (: mass run duuuh. lols. for the later half anyways. feld that since i did go so far alrdy might as well try to make it for the 25mins thing.


went for dinner after that. &i think i sorta went mad. :X
GILBERT IS MINE KAYS ! hurrs. ohkays nvm.

happening night lahhs (: hahas. not gna be bothered with the details. but yeahhh (: FIRST TIME. hehs. &the bloody cab uncle dont know howta drive to my house thr &so i have to walk bvack home from the mrt. bleahhs


spent the WHOLE day at home today. cos i havent been home early for quite some time &i wana go out tmr so yeahs (:

& IT"S ALRIGHT GER. STOP APOLOGISING OHKAYS? (: haha.

CANOEING
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
10:54 p.m.

(the pictures in the previous entry has been resized =p)


I'm so tired now ! My arms felt as if they've been to the end of world 97347294 times &back. BUT ..


CANOEING ROCKS LUHHHS !


yay, geog test , maths tests &prolong econs lecture tmr (:

sick(:
Monday, April 25, 2005
05:44 p.m.

[Edited]


am down with the usual flu &cough (:


&the pizza i'm eatin now ain't helping =D


(this is what you get when you'r too lazy to cook )


woke up early this morning anyways. had to pass sid the maths tutorials so i can ask ger to pass it up (: thanks both of you !


spent most of my day sleeping away. so nothing constructive done (: &there's still that pile of homework next to me. looking at it always makes me feel sick again. :X HAH.


I just can't stand how someone can spend their time wallowing in self-pity over some guy they dumped. &the next day, they'll find someone new &claim that that guy is "THE ONE" &a few days later, when it's over, the cycle repeats itself.they'll wallow in self-pity again.


heard that our pe shirt is blue black &white at some parts. don't think it matches our school skirt but i'll go see tmr (:


i missed sch ! :X dont think i'd ever say this, but .. hahas


Pictures (: :



me&lana (:




we look like we just had a chingay performance :X haahs. fifi &i




me tina &jill



some of us (:



me &fifi again. we were bored :X




her attempt at being artistic. =D

hm.
Friday, April 22, 2005
09:46 p.m.

I realise that none of the people i hang out with now are vulgar. So why do i seem to speak even more expletives than i used to? :X


Whatever. I almost started the entry with a 'HEY BITCHES' too. like wth is wrong with me. I ..MUSTTT CONTRROOOL MYSEEELF. (:


uh huh. &i make so much sense sometimes. ((:


Weiling went mad today. Laughing nonstop for like eons (: &our uniform is really waterproof . it's tested &proven pls. haahs.


I ate Macs when im having a cough.


&i have this stupid virus on msn.


plus i have to wake up at 7plus tmr to attend a FUNFAIR. yay, so late right?


&i havent do my PI, econs tys, econs tutorials, geog tutorials, maths tutorials.


oohoooh, &my mum is SO smart luhhs,
i was damn bored, so i sent her a forwarded msg
with it starting with somethign like, Life is hard..
&she replied with a 'Y?!'
& i was like "what?!"
"you said life is hard. rite?"
"mummy, SCROLL DOWN PLS"


Thanks for the genes mummy.


alright, i have to go now. (:


i'm a bitch
i'm a lover
i'm a child

chinese blog?!
Thursday, April 21, 2005
09:40 p.m.

AHHH!

My chinese blog ain't working. ): i activated the chinese input thing alrdy but i have NO idea how to work it at all. =/


School is getting more &more tiring. I dont know why luhs, but i'm just so tired everyday with school either ending late or perharps it's just the heat. &i can't think or write coherently. My homework's a mess. arghs.


Bought my uni (finally) already. As mentioned before, it er suck. But it aint as bad as expected. I dont even have to alter (: hahas.But some of the teachers said it's short though. weird, shorter than the one i altered. hmm


Am falling ill too, am coughin nonstop like some old hag now. &the headache's starting to kick in again. yayness.


&HOW THE HELL DO YOU USE CHINESE TO BLOG?!

(:
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
08:54 p.m.

i think im about to die =/

MY THROAT'S KILLING ME ! ):

&i have this huge headache . sighh

I wonder if any of the IJ teachers actually reads my blog. =X I mean, I know Mrs Koh do read blogs. I better be careful about what i'm gna say in the future then. :X &if you'r reading this, HI MRS KOH.

gosh, im still blogging like those kids who can't spell for nuts. or maybe i'm one of those :X i kanT spwelle.


ANYHOWWS, wnt nuts at Far East today. keep laughing at absolutely nothing &i have no idea why :X

JOCELYN ! MY MATHS TUTORIALS ARE WITH YOU !

=X
Monday, April 18, 2005
08:16 p.m.

i know that to some people, i might not seem like the right person to say this. But i hate girls who dress like sluts &acts all googoogaagaa-y around guys just to win their affection.


&thr's those who goes crazy at every single guy they see. Why bring yourself down to such a fucking low level?


sigh, pardon me. I'm pms-ing =X

anyways, i know im late in putting this up but...

uniforms ):
Friday, April 15, 2005
08:16 p.m.

Our uniform sucks.

The colour is that of Yishun Town Secondary (well, or so they say, i thought that the colour is much much .. never mind..)

(not that i have anything against that school, it's just that the colour.. isn't really my kind of thang you know?)

ANYWAYS, they have like two pleats in front, &two at the back? like, wth, you look like you're walking backwards from far pls. &the two pleats are fucking ugly (yeah, im trying to stop cursing =D)


gee, anyhows, went er 'studying' after school today &i saw tonnes of stuffs that i wana buy (: MUM JUST DEPOSITED 500 bucks into my bank ! YAY ! MONEY AGAIN! muahaha. sorry. (((((:

new skin(:
Thursday, April 14, 2005
10:33 a.m.

NEW SKIN(:


Got it from blogskins this time &did quite a bit of adjustments. Am too lazy to design one nowadays. ):


Anyways, in case you guys didn know, "You're my only;" is the tagboard. (: ohwels, go explore yourself.


didnt go to sch today. woke up feeling headachey so i decided to stay at home (:
might be going down to the polyclinic with lana later (:


dont know if im going to the SA thing later, prolly not. Am too lazy (:


look at this vid<

turfcity.
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
09:32 p.m.

intersch x-country at turf city today..

was supp to go study with aaron &all. but me &lindsay decided to go turfcity to support them. Puden , Bryan &Aaron decided not to go only when we've boarded the shuttle bus :X

went thr &saw lotsa people. both the jings are in AC (: haha, me &Jing wanted to join the same cca so we can meet up. But apparently the touch rugby in my sch aint set up &it aint offical for hers :X

arhhhs, am so tired. had pe today too. &the bus ride was friggin` long. &i had to stand the whole wayyyy. ohwels. tmr then ! might be going down to SA to support them.

QUEENSTOWN 2(:
Wednesday, April 6, 2005
08:55 p.m.

YAY ! got my jersey today ! (:

hahas, no. 12 - gilsy.

Am to lazy to sum up what we've done today, but tonnes of people went today. was damn noisy lahs (: esp after those wet SA people(Sam, Andy, Char, Chanel) came =p

anyways, saw jing ! (: haha, havent seen her for long. ohwels,=D

uploaded some pics. &lindsay's pics from the first queenstown outing with them : here

):
Tuesday, April 5, 2005
07:14 p.m.

Currently, I have 180 in my wallet(:

BUT

geog notes - 10 bucks
Population studies notes- 10 bucks
Geog reference book - 60 bucks
Shirt- 39 bucks (well, i paid 10 alrdy, so 29?)
mingyuan- 10bucks

&that leaves me with 31 bucks =/

LANA: did i shock you today? (: think i was too high lahs. LOVEYOU !

&thanks Joce,you know you can tell me ! (:

love at first sight (:
Sunday, April 3, 2005
11:32 p.m.

They're both convinced
that a sudden passion joined them.
Such certainty is beautiful,
but uncertainty is more beautiful still.

Since they'd never met before, they're sure
that there'd been nothing between them
But what's the word from the streets, staircases, hallways-
perharps they've passed by each other a million times?

I want to ask them
if they dont remember-
a moment face to face
in some revolving door?
perharps a 'sorry' muttered in the crowd?
a curt 'wrong number' caught in the receiver?
but i know the answer.
No, they don't remember.

They'd be amazed to hear
that Chance has been toying with them
now for years.

Not quite ready yet
to become their Destiny,
it pushed them close, drove them apart
it barred their path,
stifling a laugh
and then leaped aside.

There were signs and signals
even if they couldn't read them yet.
Perharps three years ago
or maybe last Tuesday
a certain leaf fluttered
from one shoulder to another?
Something was dropped and then picked up
Who knows, maybe the ball that vanished
into childhood's thicket?

There were doorknobs and doorbells
where one hand had covered the other beforehand.
Suitcases checked standing side by side.
One night, perharps,the same dream
grown hazy by morning

Every beginning
is only a sequel, after all,
and the book of events
is always open halfway through.

=X
Saturday, April 2, 2005
10:39 p.m.

AHHH !

you have to pay for every sms you received for MSN MOBILE ! =X

so shite. i didnt know ! no wonder my phone bill was THAT high. hahas, i keep using it to chat. sighh-
how to cancel it anyways?

arghs, think i'm about to die from the no. of popups. the popup blocker aint working =/

what lindsay did to my file:

&that's only half of it. ohwels (: it's unique. hehs.

Queenstown(:
Friday, April 1, 2005
08:48 p.m.

After a long time in the toilet...


jasmine lana me (:

finally. hahas ((:

Went to mos after sch with Alison, Lindsay, Aaron, Puden, Audrey, Verena, Vernessa, Lee Chong. Stupid lahh, taking pictures of us with mayo all over our face =p making toonnes of noise. Left for Queenstown after that. Met Ian at Commonwealth then Joce, Jianye(sp?), Charlene &Melvyn at Queensway. Wenta make the shirt then was supp to help Aaron find his band lahs, but we ended up at macs with them telling lame jokes

Aiya, dont rrly feel like bloggig (: haha maybe i'll update later or something.

neos from yday(:
Thursday, March 31, 2005
09:32 p.m.

took neos with XCS yday (:


me, joce, lana (:


me joce lana again. haah,same order((:


INNOVA you'r SO FINE !

that reminds me, some ITE guy was making some snide remarks about IJC on the mrt train yesterday. gee, what's the world coming to? =X

ohwel, more neos (:


joce lana me.

muahahaa
Wednesday, March 30, 2005
10:43 p.m.

i think im going to die laughing(:

Ger just told me what ***** said.

arhem- ANYWAYS,
good day today ! Met up with my XCS babes, well, sort of met up since we're all in the same school (: took neos, ate &crap. then left to go home, before i realise that i have a spare phone in my bag (wanted to go home to switch my phones cos my phone ran out of batt)

went back to Causeway, rotted with him for awhile. (A very long while actually ) while waiting for the girls.

lalaa, miss my babes man (: we should gather more often !
ohkay, im not making sense alrdy. am sleepy again. nights all !

over.
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
07:56 p.m.

I watched the walls around me crumble
But it's not like I won't build them up again
So here's your last chance for redemption
So take it while it lasts, cause it will end
My tears are turning into time I've wasted
Trying to find a reason for goodbye

I can't live without you
Can't breathe without you
I'm dreamin' bout you
Honestly, tell me that it's over
Cause if the world is spinning and I'm still living
It won't be right if we're not in it together
Tell me that it's over
And I'll be the first to go
Don't want to be the last to know

I won't be the one to chase you
But at the same time
You're the heart that I call home
I'm always stuck with these emotions
And the more I try to feel, the less I'm whole
My tears are turning into time I've wasted
Trying to find a reason for goodbye

I can’t live without you
Can’t breathe without you
I’m dreamin' bout you
Honestly, tell me that it’s over
Cause if the world is spinning and I’m still living
It won't be right if were not in it together
Tell me that it's over
And I’ll be the first to go, yeah, I’ll be the first to go
Don’t want to be the last to know (over, over, over)

My tears are turning into time I’ve wasted
Trying to find a reason for goodbye

I can’t live without you
Can’t breathe without you
I’m dreamin' bout you
Honestly, tell me that it’s over
Cause if the world is spinning and I’m still living
It won't be right if were not in it together
Tell me that it's over
Tell me that it's over, over
Honestly tell me, honestly tell me
Don't tell me that it's over
Don't tell me that it's over


sorry for whatever that has happen today, didnt mean to breakdown .. am just in a fucked up mood. ignore me if my mood ever swings again yeahs?

breathe(:
Monday, March 28, 2005
06:11 p.m.

I got my new cg today ! (:
haha, am feeling ubber high i have no idea why .
gee, it rhymes

1A01 now (:
too many girls &too lil guys.
sad, but heck, we have the best looking girl in the class.
hurr, i sound les

orientation is finally over. time to get down to some serious studying, once i stop procrastinating that is. (:

sometimes, i feel as if the whole world is making a big deal on something that is damn small. as in seriously the whole world. &i dont understand why.

or maybe i'm in one of those couldnt-care-less phase again. shite

lost it

PULLS HAIR FACTOR
Sunday, March 27, 2005
12:36 a.m.

I hate liking a person ¬ knowing how the person feels because i can't or rather, don't dare to put my whole heart in the person unless i'm certain that the person likes me as well.

&if that aint enough, the situation always gets more complicating.

sighh. dont wana talk about it. dont even know what to say about it..

heh heh heh
Saturday, March 26, 2005
12:55 a.m.

been meeting up with my babes these few days (: miss them loads. nothing beats secondary school friends ehs?

wenta little india for threading today. didnt hurt as much as expected (: thank god. but i look weird now. still aint used to it

watched ms congeniality 2. it's not bad(: should go catch it.

lalaa, was looking through my photos & i saw this, taken recently :

me tiff &alic

&this:

took lotsa nice pics that day. lala nvm. aint thinking coherently now. am kinda tiredd. long day again tmr. yayness.

EEKS.
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
03:53 p.m.

i suck (:

cos i dont think i can handle it

i KEEP LOOKING ! not good not good.

OH, &ger, don't think about it yeaps?((: at least something nice happened today. heh heh heh

JAE
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
10:25 a.m.

As expected, i got inside my first choice- IJC (:

so yeas, if you see this alrdy, dont ask =D

-
Monday, March 21, 2005
10:28 p.m.

some people are just born a hypocrite

i fucking hate some people.

RANT.
Monday, March 21, 2005
06:36 p.m.

So i woke up at 7am to the sound of the phone ringing:

ger: hey, wear sch uni arhs?
me: .. huhhhhs?
ger: ehs, you'r still slpin? sorry sorry
me: what time is it?
ger: 7.
me: no really, what time isit?
ger: SEVEN !
me: really lahhhs, -reaches over to grab the phone- AHHHHH !

&that's how i made up my mind to not go to sch

jonathan: have to go to sch tmr, it's the last day where we can change our combi
me: ...

&that is how i regretted skipping. Because to all those who'r not changing combi or whatever, THERE ISNT ANY SCH TMR !

anyways, check out this link - http://www.nach-mir.de/gronemeyer-portal/filme/clips/demo/body_demo.html click the 'video' on the right. it's damn nice. kinda reminds me 'Save the Last Dance' though. hmm

surveys pls!
Sunday, March 20, 2005
01:24 a.m.

any kind soul out there wana send some surveys over? hahas, i'm friggin bored pls.

Ode to the nice girls
Friday, March 18, 2005
02:56 p.m.

this rant was written because a nice girl finally snapped

I've read the tribute to the nice guys; this is my response.

This is my tribute to the nice girls. To the nice girls who are overlooked, who become friends and nothing more, who spend hours fixating upon their looks and their personalities and their actions because it must be they that are doing something wrong. This is for the girls who don't give it up on the first date, who don't want to play mind games, who provide a comforting hug and a supportive audience for a story they've heard a thousand times. This is for the girls who understand that they aren't perfect and that the guys they're interested in aren't either, for the girls who flirt and laugh and worry and obsess over the slightest glance, whisper, touch, because somehow they are able to keep alive that hope that maybe... maybe this time he'll have understood. This is an homage to the girls who laugh loud and often, who are comfortable in skirts and sweats and combat boots, who care more than they should for guys who don't deserve their attention. This is for those girls who have been in the trenches, who have watched other girls time and time again fake up and make up and fuck up the guys in their lives without saying a word. This is for the girls who have been there from the beginning and have heard the trite words of advice, from "there are plenty of fish in the sea," to "time heals all wounds." This is to honor those girls who know that guys are just as scared as they are, who know that they deserve better, who are seeking to find it.

This is for the girls who have never been in love, but know that it's an experience that they don't want to miss out on. For the girls who have sought a night with friends and been greeted by a night of catcalling, rude comments and explicit invitations that they'd rather not have experienced. This is for the girls who have spent their weekends sitting on the sidelines of a beer pong tournament or a case race, or playing Florence Nightingale for a vomiting guy friend or a comatose crush, who have received a drunk phone call just before dawn from someone who doesn't care enough to invite them over but is still willing to pass out in their bed. This is for the girls who have left sad song lyrics in their away messages, who have tried to make someone understand through a subliminally appealing profile, who have time and time again dropped their male friend hint after hint after hint only to watch him chase after the first blonde girl in a skirt. This is for the girls who have been told that they're too good or too smart or too pretty, who have been given compliments as a way of breaking off a relationship, who have ever been told they are only wanted as a friend.

This one's for the girls who you can take home to mom, but won't because it's easier to sleep with a whore than foster a relationship; this is for the girls who have been led on by words and kisses and touches, all of which were either only true for the moment, or never real to begin with. This is for the girls who have allowed a guy into their head and heart and bed, only to discover that he's just not ready, he's just not over her, he's just not looking to be tied down; this is for the girls who believe the excuses because it's easier to believe that it's not that they don't want you, it's that they don't want anyone. This is for the girls who have had their hearts broken and their hopes dashed by someone too cavalier to have cared in the first place; this is for the nights spent dissecting every word and syllable and inflection in his speech, for the nights when you've returned home alone, for the nights when you've seen from across the room him leaning a little too close, or standing a little too near, or talking a little too softly for the girl he's with to be a random hookup. This is for the girls who have endured party after party in his presence, finally having realized that it wasn't that he didn't want a relationship: it was that he didn't want you. I honor you for the night his dog died or his grandmother died or his little brother crashed his car and you held him, thinking that if you only comforted him just right, or said the right words, or rubbed his back in the right way then perhaps he'd realize what it was that he already had. This is for the night you realized that it would never happen, and the sunrise you saw the next morning after failing to sleep.

This is for the "I really like you, so let's still be friends" comment after you read more into a situation than he ever intended; this is for never realizing that when you choose friends, you seldom choose those which make you cry yourself to sleep. This is for the hugs you've received from your female friends, for the nights they've reassured you that you are beautiful and intelligent and amazing and loyal and truly worthy of a great guy; this is for the despair you all felt as you sat in the aftermath of your tears, knowing that that night the only companionship you'd have was with a pillow and your teddy bear. This is for the girls who have been used and abused, who have endured what he was giving because at least he was giving something; this is for the stupidity of the nights we've believed that something was better than nothing, though his something was nothing we'd have ever wanted. This is for the girls who have been satisified with too little and who have learned never to expect anything more: for the girls who don't think that they deserve more, because they've been conditioned for so long to accept the scraps thrown to them by guys.

This is what I don't understand. Men sit and question and whine that girls are only attracted to the mean guys, the guys who berate them and belittle them and don't appreciate them and don't want them; who use them for sex and think of little else than where their next conquest will be made. Men complain that they never meet nice girls, girls who are genuinely interested and compelling, who are intelligent and sweet and smart and beautiful; men despair that no good women want to share in their lives, that girls play mindgames, that girls love to keep them hanging. Yet, men, I ask you: were you to meet one of these genuinely interested, thrillingly compelling, interesting and intelligent and sweet and beautiful and smart girls, were you to give her your number and wait for her to call... and if you were to receive a call from her the next day and she, in her truthful, loyal, intelligent and straightforward nice girl fashion, were to tell you that she finds you intriguing and attractive and interesting and worth her time and perhaps material from which she could fashion a boyfriend, would you or would you not immediately call your friends to tell them of the "stalker chick" you'd met the night prior, who called you and wore her heart on her sleeve and told the truth? And would you, or would you not, refuse to make plans with her, speak with her, see her again, and once again return to the bar or club or party scene and search once more for this "nice girl" who you just cannot seem to find? Because therein lies the truth, guys: we nice girls are everywhere. But you're not looking for a nice girl. You're not looking for someone genuinely interested in your intermural basketball game, or your anatomy midterm grade, or that argument you keep having with your father; you're looking for a quick fix, a night when you can pretend to have a connection with another human being which is just as disposable as the condom you were using during it.

So don't say you're on the lookout for nice girls, guys, when you pass us up on every step you take. Sometimes we go undercover; sometimes we go in disguise: sometimes when that girl in the low cut shirt or the too tight miniskirt won't answer your catcalls, sometimes you're looking at a nice girl in whore's clothing - - we might say we like the attention, we might blush and giggle and turn back to our friends, but we're all thinking the same thing: "This isn't me. Tomorrow morning, I'll be wearing a teeshirt and flannel shorts, I'll have slept alone and I'll be making my hungover best friend breakfast. See through the disguise. See me." You never do. Why? Because you only see the exterior, you only see the slutty girl who welcomes those advances. You don't want the nice girl.. so don't say you're looking for a relationship: relationships take time and energy and intent, three things we're willing to extend - - but in return, we're looking for compassion and loyalty and trust, three things you never seem willing to express. Maybe nice guys finish last, but in the race they're running they're chasing after the whores and the sluts and the easy-targets... the nice girls are waiting at the finish line with water and towels and a congradulatory hug (and yes, if she's a nice girl and she likes you, the sweatiness probably won't matter), hoping against hope that maybe you'll realize that they're the ones that you want at the end of that silly race.

So maybe it won't last forever. Maybe some of those guys in that race will turn in their running shoes and make their way to the concession stand where we're waiting; however, until that happens, we still have each other, that silly race to watch, and all the chocolate we can eat (because what's a concession stand at a race without some chocolate?)

By Jessica Leigh Griffith jlg421@psu.edu Copyright 2004-2005 by Jessica Leigh Griffith

arghs.
Thursday, March 17, 2005
11:55 p.m.

everything is turning out weird luhhs, i dont even know the person whom i thought i knew.

nothing is what is seems to be anymore.

have you ever felt like killing yourself so that you can start your life all over again?

another depressing entry. i'm starting to become another hopeless teenager. yay.

miss!
Thursday, March 17, 2005
12:34 a.m.

i'll miss my class ! (:

self control(:
Wednesday, March 16, 2005
02:13 p.m.

Laura Brannigan-Self Control

Nothing beats those songs from the 80s [man] =D hehs

today was a total waste of time.went to sch thinking that we'll at least go through some games but NO. they just make us listen to whatever games that they've planned. &only allow us to participate in those games when all of us are feeling bored &restless. &mind you, it's those games that only require like 4 person during each go. yayness

or maybe i'm short-tempered due to my lack of slp or something. BAHHH. too much sun &too little sleep. NIGHTS ALL

15March
Tuesday, March 15, 2005
11:53 p.m.

While you might be busy obsessing over someone you like (or love..) , someone else might be obsessing over you(:

ohkay, i'm WEIRD lahs (: hahas. WHATEVER

&you stupid lil bugger, stop calling wendy ! (not that you'll see this anyways) but acks, you'r friggi` irritating ! who goes around calling people mre than 100times in an hour? psychopath :X freak !

x my superfly beauty king(:

ARGHS
Monday, March 14, 2005
11:15 p.m.

i'm feeling ubber depressed now ! ):
&i sound like those teenagers that i hate .

god save me !

Acks, no more Obsession ! (: hehs
i guess it wont make sense to some of you people.

AHH heck, this is a weird entry

Scissor Sisters-Take Your Mama

my superfly beauty king(:
Monday, March 14, 2005
10:51 p.m.

yawns. a day well-spent (:

watched lotsa movies recently :X

All those that are still showing:
Robots, In Good Company, Hitch, Boogeyman, Lemony Snicket's A Series of Unfortunate Events, White Noise, Constantine, Hide &Seek &a few others that i cant rmb. ,br> sighh, &here i am, a teenager, complaining that im broke. -rollseyes.

14.03.05
Monday, March 14, 2005
11:10 a.m.

Was reading some blogs before comig to blog &i realise something. While adults(generally) blog about stuff that's much more need for concern, we, the teenage bloggers, blog about stuff that is so friggin` insignificant. Like, 'oh, i went out with a bad hair day today ! gasp !' or 'i'm friggin broke !' blah blah. I admit, i do that also, but it's starting to seem oh-so-immature to me. :X

&most of our entries sounds real malancholic, as if there doesn't seem to be anything in the world that would make us happy again. (that's for entries after a break up or something along that line) This shows that small lil` stuff like teenage romance can really get to us. I know it's matters of the heart. But still, at our age, do we really have love for the other party? Or is it just pure infatuation , crush, whatever?

&are we really broke (man, i only have like 3 bucks left for the whole month .. =/) ? I mean, we're not the one earning the money yeahs? If we're broke we can just walk up to our parents &beg them for money or something, right?
ohkay, nvm. Im in the thinking mode again. Just wait for me to shut up yeas? (:

whn it is cold outside &you got nobdy to <3
Monday, March 14, 2005
12:19 a.m.

more than 10pics gone frm my phn now ): thanks terence

sry if i reply late, wasnt hom (: , anyways:

lana: miss you too ! uhms, partial fractions, me?! =/ MATHS?! you're finding the wrong person (:

allu: alison, is that you? =X hah yes, i'll try not go go to the gutter while bowling =D

joce: i think im puttin geog as my first choice, ain sure =X but my tutor was like saying i should change sub cos i cant do &have no interest in physics. hehs

peishan: glad you'r feeling better, went through it before too (: so i totally know how you feel. -huggs. going to sch on tues?

ed: HALO(: hahas.

missyou(:
Friday, March 11, 2005
02:02 p.m.



(:

you'r kiddin.
Thursday, March 10, 2005
05:58 p.m.

Your Brain is 33.33% Female, 66.67% Male

You have a total boy brain Logical and detailed, you tend to look at the facts And while your emotions do sway you sometimes... You never like to get feelings too involved

you'r kidding. i'm a girl?!

im oh-so-purr-theh-tick(:

8th March - Skipping.
Wednesday, March 9, 2005
04:40 p.m.

i've been skipping alot of lessons. Please kill me now ):

&im staying in IJ luhhs ! (hopefully) so yeah, basically this is just like s social (to the tchrs) suicide. hehs. ((:

ANYWAYS, wenta bowl &pool today. I seriously CANNOT bowl for nuts. ): it's either gutter or.. the rare hits. ohkay, doh right.But yeah, &everyone around keep hitting tonnes of pins down so it was kind of demoralising. ): but no ! i perservere ! &i swear it got worse lahh . don't know how &why but it seriously got worse. so me &alison decided to go play pool instead. ((: Jo too. hehs. &it wasnt that good either too. hahs. My almost non-existent skills went even mre non-existent until i dont think you can see it luhhs.

ehh just rmbed something. thr's quite a few other people who should be joining us but they didnt. weird. hmmm

arghs, 5km run tmr. so dont feel like going to sch alrdy (: hahas. that'll make it like the 2nd day of this week that ive ponned. &i left early on monday &wed. wth.


haha, decided to dedicate one section of my blog entry on MATs &MINAHs. i know it's mean. but fuck it yeas? i'm racist, gao wo lah ! (sue me ((:) alright, here goes:

Let's start with the naming of MATs. Do you know how the acronym (well, not exactly , since it doesnt stand for anything) came about? Because (ohkay, according to leang) you guys are as worthy as a piece of doorMAT. For people to step on yeas? (: heyy, that's not bad alrdy yeah? At least as a doormat, you serve a purpose.

ohkay, wait. Before i carry on, i shall first make a point that i wasn't racist at first. Meaning like when i was born til like maybe sec 1? Maybe it's because i was from a convent sch &there weren't any malays. So my "first" interaction with them was like in sec 1(: I treat them as per normal. But seriously, some fucks & bitches just pissed me off so much i seriously wish they'd either ESAD or just disappear from the face of the earth. Really. think about it, if there were no MATs (including MINAHs) in this world, don't you think that the world will be a more peaceful place? No more fighting/riots in Indonesia. The Malaysian Malays wouldn't be as fucked up because , hey, they dont exist ! (: They're seriously wasting all the resources &everything. What contributions did they make? Can't think of any. Cept maybe creating mee rubus or whatever. bt then again, i dont exactly like malay food so i dont think i'll miss it.

Oh, &the MATs are like, reaaaallllyyy clever. Quote," if you wana see malays, go ITE lahh, sure got alot". hhas. yes. Please lah, if you wana count those in junoir college, you can count them with lke one hand. There's only like a few of them in jcs. They can't make it to JCs or polys even. That's how pathetic. Not that ITE is bad, it's where it's happening ehs? (:

ohgee, i ABSOLUTELY have to talk about this - their sense of style. Er, if you call that a style that is. PLEASE. tapered pants? i look better brniging my pet carrot for a walk down in town. for fuck's sake. you guys look like some carrots walking around town luhhs. &ditch the leather jacket &all man. WTF IS THAT?! & tophats? pleassse. metal chains, jacket, tophats &tapered pants DO NOT, i repeat, DO NOT go well tgr. &skinheads. euks. thats the ultimate man. you might as well go to changi prison & befriend the people thr? or maybe you'r just from thr or something lahhs.

this does not apply to all malays. Just MATs & MINAHs &maybe some exceptions. &if you can't tell the difference(gee), then too bad lahh. Maybe you'r one too? &ive got some good malay friends. Just dont have any M&Ms. Fucking eyesore.
ohwels. shall get off now. Wrote this just because some fucking MAT just pissed me off.Someone from ITE doh. arse-fucking-hole. far cue. (fuck you if you dont know)

&oh, i just put up a new tagboard. so feel free to tag yeahs? m&ms are welcome to tag too. make yourself heard man.

jap(:
Tuesday, March 8, 2005
04:34 p.m.

if anyone knows what :

Ima sugoku hima.. Tanoshii koto nai ka na, ore tachi zen zen hanashita naine.. Mata mukashi mitai ni nareruto iine

means, please tell me? email me at nucking_futs_88@hotmail.com please,(: thanks.

Graham Coxon-Bittersweet Bundle of Misery

7th March 2005(:
Monday, March 7, 2005
10:21 p.m.

kong &mar crashed today (:
hehs, miss them both. &the 795 gang of course

lalala, skipped clao &maths. felt abit sick also. headache &all. so i left sch at around 12. with mar &kong. sent mar to town. kong left at bishan to go with her classmates. walked around town abit. saw tina &pris. hang out with them for awhile before leaving

saw qiuyi. yay another below-10-pointer. sighh.

thr's really quite alota weirdos in friendster ehs? everyone be wary. esp of a guy name JOE (:

anyways, im outtie point. a series of unfortunate event is good ((((: go catch it people ! haah. too bad for my headache &the stupid people sitting behind us. making unnecessary &irrrelevant comments. geee . spoil the whole show luhhs

i have a craving for XXXL Chicken (:

good charlotte-the world is black

beams-5th, well, 6th March 2005
Sunday, March 6, 2005
01:57 a.m.

am sorry to say this, but KONG ! i i just saw your surprisingly long post ! it's like soo... well, sooo.. long =X

ohkay, how very anti-climaxing ):

SO, i havent been online for like 4 days. MISS ME? (this is the time to lie , only if you havent miss me .. & WHY HAVENT YOU ??!) -coughhs.

ANYWAYS, it has been a pretty havocky week, with the weird slping hours &all. &me having to wake up early EVERY SINGLE DAY of the HOLIDAY(: to do some stupid stuff that i should/could cancel. ahh yes, how verysmart.

you know what? i dont feel like bloggin all of a sudden. 7thr seems to be a probbie with doodleboard =/ so irritating. shall go check it out now. nights ya`all. or rather, morning (: it's 2.05 now. taaa.

3rd March 2005
Thursday, March 3, 2005
11:12 a.m.

AHH !
what's the point of having a Singpass &all when you cant even get to the JIS page?!

Server is congested. &i cant get into the page.&im going for a chalet in like what, an hour? OH GEE. Tried to sign in yesterday &i couldnt do it either. WTF

Ohwels, i'll just blame the MOE or something when i don't get to go to any school or something (: muahaha.

of course im kiddin,moe (: i wouldnt do such a thing.

im crapping. Must be the lack of food ): i need foood !

hitch was good (: highly recommended.

01-03-2005
Tuesday, March 1, 2005
04:27 p.m.

got my O lvl results. didnt do as well as expected. =/ but at least i didnt get above 20?

got almost 3 for everything. sighh- average student luhhs. still wondering if i should stay in JC or go to a poly. =/ but i still cant decide what course i'm interested in &all. irritating. ):

& i havent got my singpass ! even though i applied for it like eons ago &it's been mre than 5 workin days !

should i stay in ijc with 14 points or 16 points for the other jcs? =/

or maybe poly ven. considerin that my grades aint that good. -pullshair- just about everyone else got lower than me ! =/

anyways, did i mention that im burnt now? wenta sentosa this morning but came home early cos i was damn tireeddd &slpy &lazzy. 7there's chalet tmr till friday. muahahas. &drums on saturday. no time at all for JAE. acks.

27 Feb 2005
Sunday, February 27, 2005
07:41 p.m.

Life's a biatch
-as quoted from Bart.

Been living on Anarex nowadays. Popping it inside my mouth every now &then as though i am eating sweets. The headache is seriously killing me. ARGHS!!

I'm kinda looking but not really looking forward to tomorrow.I dont know why, but i really wouldnt mind not being able to look at my results. =X &yet at the same time, i really wana know how much i've got for my L1R5. -pullshair-
dont know why im so stressed out for though. Dont really wana stay in jc. Maybe it's because i just want to have the feeling that i can agonize over whether i should stay in a jc or go to a poly. (:

ahh heck. -reach over for another anarex-

Thursday, February 24, 2005
11:58 a.m.

i must be oh-so-hate-able. even my good friend doesn't like me (:

didnt go to sch today. doc said something about me being overstressed. hah sometimes you really cant tell yeahs? (: at least i know what to blame for my pms-ing behavoir.

i actually had a good time chatting with the doctor. this is weird ): i can actually talk to someone i dont know that well. -sighh-

anyways, thanks tina (: just being there to listen is good enough. &you added advices. lalaa.

shall go off before i start wallowing in self-pity.

DRUMS(:
Wednesday, February 23, 2005
10:27 p.m.

so i'v finally sign up for drums lessons (: with WENDEEE. hahas,sorry i'm a bit high (mann, talk about extreme mood swings =X)

went for hockey today. all the way to siling secondary which is some dilapidated building which freak`d all of us out. &the people there are quite arhem- heard some girl saying what , ' bu yao lahh ! (dont !) diu wo men xue xiao de lian (throw our sch;s face)' direct translation =p &i was thinking, gee, what face do you have left? =X damn bad lahhs but... =/

ohkay, you'r prolly thinking that im a bitch now. =X

anyways, after that wenta mos to eat before heading down to ps to sign up. now i owe wendy 184 bucks cos my bank doesnt have enough money. =X WTH. i spent quite alot i think. hmms. anyways, went for a mini neospree. so now you can see my urgggh hair.


scroll all the way to your right .i seriously hate my hair. hahas.




i havent even write cedaR yet !



anyways, everyone was taking pics today as if today was the last day of sch =X I DONT WANT THAT DAY TO COME LUHHS ! (yesyes, even though i'm finding excuses to NOT go sch) i dont wana take my results basically. acks.
going off now. wana go read some mags before going to slp . think thr's only me &ger from my class who'r going to sch tmr. sighh.

-
Tuesday, February 22, 2005
09:01 p.m.

wanted to blog but couldn't think of anything cept' for all the rumours about the o lvl results release dates. it ranges all the way from wednesday (tmr, 23/02/2005) to next monday =/ sighhh

cut my hair today. wendy say it's nice. bt i think it looks a lil weird.

baa, amso tired. =/

headache !
Monday, February 21, 2005
05:48 p.m.

my head's like a walking minefield now =/ it might just blow up on you any min. stupid headaches .,br>
it's so HOT HOT HOT nowadays. but shiling always have tonnes of water supply =D hahas. actually she gets them from ger.hmmm.

wanted to cut my hair but i fell aslp on the train. so i was like ahh wtheck.shall just cut another day (:

lalala heyy ger, if you`r reading this. hope you'r feeling better now? (: don't worry so much about stuff kays? they'r bound to find out sooner or later. &idf they happen to find out now, thr's nothing much you can do about it. so cheerup kays? pray they wont find out =X

my singpass got rejected. AGAIN. yawns. &they need 5workin days. so i cant like apply for anything after i get my o lvls results luhhs. acks. stupid singpass.

anyways, TO ALL THOSE PEOPLE WHO ARE THINKING OF WITHDRAWING: DONT ! :( gillian'll miss you`all =/ but if you do, make sure we keep in touch yes? seeyou (: im gna go slp now =D

acks.
Saturday, February 19, 2005
12:41 p.m.

i think it's the hormones. but i get easily irritated now. =X or maybe it's some personality change or whatever shit. ARGHS. teenage angst =/

went out to hard rock yday for some army thingy. was the youngest one there i think. =/ i'm barely seventeen. wait. im NOT even seventeen.

met up with bart &leang after that. was quite weird was feelin sick to my stomach &didnt rrly think much about it. sorry about it ya'als.

supp to meet at one &he's still sleeping. sighh. think i cant get to sa in time to pass rach her stuff alrdy.&im supp to meet so many other people thr. sighh. no point going alone luhhs. o wels.

arhs.can my bad+dead mood just go away?

(:
Thursday, February 17, 2005
11:07 p.m.

i feel so loved now (: -BEAMS-
ger call`d right after she read my entry, lana &joce both express concerns too. &nt to mention the so many other people who were worried/asked anything about that entry =D MUACKS-

ohkay im high.

i think im extra sensitive nowadays because i'm kinda stressed =/ prolly cos thrs been a rumour about the moe releasing the o lvls results next friday. which is like WHAT?! so fast ! acks -pullshair.

anyways

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FIFI(:

wenta town after pe(: was wondering if i stink again =p hhas, anyways , wenta nydc at heeren for dinner. fifi, mar &kong came at like 7plus? waited quite long for the guys at somerset mrt first. before deciding to go to nydc to wait for thjem =D

the guys started to "leave" after dinner. ate up to quite a bit of money =X hahas. then me, alic tina &tiff wenta walk arnd heeren, with me tricking fifi telling her i haveta meet my friend to get something so she would go to youth park =p whr everyone was to cut the cake . Even got some of the people who were practicing their dance to perform for her =D ARE YOU TOUCH FIFI? =p

am so tired now. =/ but think im gona go late for sch tmr. overslp or soething hahas. seeyouall.

):
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
08:57 p.m.

stop the pretense please. it's not working.

i can't seem to be able to talk to anyone nowadays. As in, tell anyone my problems or whatsoever. &that is getting oh-so-fucking-irritating.

i so miss secondary school ):

it's not that the people in IJC are bad. They're nice people. But the fact that they dont know the details of whatever that has happened, &the fact that i cant say out everything seriously cuts down the no. of people i can talk to down to zero.

there's so many thoughts running through my mind now.

i'm kinda fed-up with the jc life too. &all those rumours about the letter from the MOE & the release of the results. all the anxiety with everything else is pushing me to my breaking point.

&i fucking fail`d my econs test

if you can't stand my language, whatever. I know this is going to sound clichè or whatever. but it's my blog yeah? ahh heck.

this is the fucking bad side of me.

fucks
Monday, February 14, 2005
08:46 p.m.

you'r fuckin testing my patience.

i have a scrwed up life man.

but v`day was good. thanks for the flowers &all (: &thanks joce, for the honeystars jumbo. hahas.

CNY.. it's OVER =/
Saturday, February 12, 2005
03:47 p.m.

Well, not exactly over. But since there's only 2 official holidays, so yeah IT'S OVER. &i havent finish with my ang-bao collection yet =/

They say you'll learn something something every new year(: &this year i've learnt something !Not that it's a good thing =X.. i've learnt how to play the mahjong ! I couldnt really grasp it last year &now MUAHAHA. arhem- yesyes. Been playing it nonstop throughout the whole NY. hehs. LOVEIT.

I think i'm growing fatter. Too many ny goodies ! acks. &i'm still eating the white colour cookies now too. Can't rmb what it's called . ahhwels. (:

yesterday was good (: haha . though i couldn't watch constantine =/ Cabbed to tamp after school to bainian. Wanted to go watch constantine later. But we couldn't get the seats in Suntec nor PS. sighh. So wells.. =/

Anyways, going to go to fifi's house later.(: might be staying over but see how, since i've to wake up &head over to pasir ris by 8am tmr morning. sighh.

I MISS MY BABES ):

HAPPY NEW YEARRR !
Wednesday, February 9, 2005
01:00 a.m.

this time it's chinese new year (:

woke up early to help my mum clean up the place (yes, i skip`d sch DOHH.) &then went off to grandmumsie's place. pack`d &ate loads. nth much interesting until all of us went to the biggg empty space to play with the firecrackers. =X
we were still playing when brandon suddenly whispered that thr'r policemen around. we grabbed our stuff &wanted to run (err, because we srta had a lil` fire going &we burnt the pavement... =X) when we saw that the policemen are both chasin after this guy. he fall into the ground beside us &by then we of cos run like hell right? thenn uhhms when we turn back, we saw one of the policemen firing shots into the air. quite a few shots actually. &my cousin said that they shot the guy too. by thn ive alrdy ran far away alrdy. =X

so much for a peaceful new year .. =/ ohwels. CHEERS EVERYONE !

songs(:
Monday, February 7, 2005
09:56 a.m.

was rummaging through my old cds &i found quite afew nice songs which i didnt know i have (:


-Shawn Colvin(it's a girl =p)- Sunny Came Home
-Oasis- Stand by me
-Paula Cole-Where have all the cowboys gone
-Third Eye Blind- Semi-charmed life
-Jewel - Foolish Games (SEA Vers)
-Gary Barlow- SO help me girl
-Az Yet(David Foster remix)-Hard to say im sorry


i'm so sleepy. slept at 4plus last night &woke up at 7 ths morning. supposed to crash alicia's sch with tim. but she decided to skip sch instead. so yeahhh. & my dental appointment is only at 1.30? =/ BORED.

If you're leaving will you take me with you
I'm tired of talking on my phone
There is one thing I could never give you
My heart will never be your home

lucida sans unicode !
Sunday, February 6, 2005
02:24 p.m.

i dont know why but im in love with LUCIDA SANS UNICODE with font size 8 =D


ohkay, maybe it's just a passing phase. ohwels
gonna go to the hospital later. grandmumsie is getting discharged (: yay ! finally. just before the new year too ! haahs.


oh yeah, I was eating supper yesterday when i felt the wire slipped out of my brackets. tried to use my fingers to push it back in BUT apparently i'm like frigin` clumsy or something. but the wire slipped out even further. =X nto only that, after a while, the wire somehow hooked my cheek & scratched it. tried to pry the wire away but then i pull it even further &thr were like, tonnes of blood. DISGUSTING =/


&the clinic aint open today ! which means i'll have to go tmr. ruin my plans only. cos i plan to crash alicia's sch on monday IN THE MORNING. ohwels.


haha, been feeling the same way that lyn is feelin (: quote:


"aaaaaaaaaargh , i'm irritated . but i have no idea why - everyone who talks to me or is around me seems to get on my nerves . maybe it's cos my period is coming and so the hormones are making my moods swing ."

heh. SO DONT STEP ON MY TOES OHKAY ! literally &metaphorically.

new template.
Saturday, February 5, 2005
03:30 p.m.

new template-> new entry.(:
didnt' spend much effort on it though, as you can tell from the word HUAWEN. i couldnt' find my chinese prog thing &neither could the only other person that i've had asked-junhao. so it's yeah, MOUSE-WRITTEN. =X

you'r prolly wondering why i have chinese as my theme for this template. well, let's just say that im trying to psycho myself to like chinese again. (: yes, i USED to like it. not now though, not ever since sec 3, when i first had Wu lao shi as my lao shi. ): my current CLAO chinese lao shi is the same too. sighh- crap loads &dont ever go back to the topic. it took him 3 weeks to finish ONE passage.

yes, you got that right.
ONE passage

sighh-
so they delievered the tv. i dont even remember buying it. ): haven't even plugged in the cables &im already thinking of selling it. ANYONE WANTS A TV?
gee, im so bored. supposed ta go out but im still sitting down in front of my com warming up the chair.
my entries don't make sense. &theyre becoming oh-sooo boring.

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(:
Saturday, February 5, 2005
11:31 a.m.

ydae was good.
food sucks. but the company was great. hah, so can't complain lahh

sighh, i miss secondary sch-
tiffany with her loud voice
kong with OUR-DEADPANNED look when someone says somethign lame
alicia with her silly moves &her VERY lame jokes =p
pris being the gullible her
tina &i mulling over ----
margaret with her siao-gong
calvin jumpin on his toes
steven lee's expertise in physics
steven leow's zhutou
&many more.
gosh, i even miss yifen crying every now &then.
i miss teachers coming into our class
i miss not being able to stay inside a classroom for lessons
i miss going to sch late but still able to slip through the gates
i miss the sch bell
i miss the horrible speeches they make
i miss the tehpengs after sch
i miss the meepok
i miss 795

sighhh- i just miss sch lahhs.

=/
Thursday, February 3, 2005
08:03 p.m.

i`m starting to think that my sch is sick =/

i mean, the PE routine sucks? yesyes, i know we're supposed to be some sports jc but really, why can't you let a person who have menstrual cramp rest? =/

exercise is supposed to make you feel better, yes that is true. BUT , errr mine isn't that normal? acks. NVM.

&shiling, wahhh so smart =p ran to the toilet immediately after the run so she didnt have to do the circuits =p haahs. sneakky ehs?

i wonder if mr lee hates me now =X

ayes, my grandma have jaundice again. =/ sighh- the whole family's worried. mum's over at the hospital now but she asked me to stay home. =X this is the second time she has it? didnt know that you can have a relapse. ahhwels.

gna go meet them tmr. YAYNESS (: haven't seen them in ages hehs.

ohyeahs. HAPPY EARLIATED BIRTHDAY YUAN ! (:

ALOHA (:
Tuesday, February 1, 2005
08:09 p.m.

lalaa,
did i mention that ive dyed my hair alrdy?
well, mre like streaked ((:
but i spray it black everyday luhhs. so like cant see =/

met FIFI NEO ydae. wenta novena. (: for a short evening mass. thought we were late =p turned out it opnly starts at 6.30 =D

ate xiang chang with jocelyn today ! hahas. miss eating xiangchang with her. but thr's no lana today ! =/ &i havent see the school badge too ! (: show it soon yeah?

acks. seems like tonnes of people know about it =X it's like spreading luhhs. ohwels, nth i can do about it.

wendy &i sat in the mid of sembawang mrt station eating donuts while waiting for ger. geee, think we look stupid =/

VERY FIRST MATH TEST TODAY ! how exciting. haha. havin a splitting headache but im going to the hospital later to visit grandmumsie. she had a fall =/ sighh. hope she's alright. seeyou all !

replies &such (:
Sunday, January 30, 2005
04:09 p.m.

HMV IS HAVING A CLEAROUT SALE ! (:

bought tonnes of dvs &vcds yday. hahaahs.

saw a madman there though. he bought this jolin tsai vcd + cd pack thing. he paid for it (with 2 dollars) &then he started demanding for this cd but the 2007 vers. like UHRMS?! it's TWO UH OH FIVE?! then when the cashier tried to explain it to him, that madman pointed at her &said, ' YOU GO DIE, TMD ! CAN"T EVEN ...(cant rrly hear at this point in time cos they were blasting some songs.. =X)'

so weird luhhs. then the security guards &even the boss of that hmv came over &tried to pacify him. took them a VERY long time. even after ive paid for my stuff, wenta MPH &came back, they were still havin a minor disagreement =p

ahh, weird people. (: they're all around luuhhs.

replies

Wayne: HALO (: haha, actually i wanted to go to the party ydae, but mum was like kinda pissed off , i have no idea why. thought it was better to not go for the party =/ SEEYOU SOON KAYS !

lyn: HALO (: yeaaaah, how'r you gettin` along? when's uni starting hmm? or has it alrdy started? =X

feeen: i know you miss mee (: went for the steamboat thing ydae? i didnt go =/ sighhh. cancelled ALL my plans for sat. acks.

jolene: yesyes, (: oh yeah, im givin you the uni, so you can alter it in any way you want . next time we'll invite lin out yeah?

lana: NO IT WOULDN'T BE NICE ! hahas so embarrasssin ! eeks =/ can you imagine telling people that you got kicked out during the first 3 mths?! hahas!

keshia: haha yeaps (: i'd prefer going to sch than bumming around though. ahh yes, when's the poly intake hmm?

joce: YEAH YOU DIDNT REPLY ME ! ): i was wondering if your phn was outa batt or something. you got home so fast? =X cos renick &junwei were in town too, so i thought we could meet. seeyou tmr ! =D

jonathan: hahas (: sorry ! go get those mouse with scrollleys =p see you tmr (: are we playing the angels or mrotals game?

alicia: YOU'D BE THE LAST PERSON I FORGET LAHH ! =X OF COS I WONT FORGET YOU ! my shopping kaki &a member of ARG (: &GAK . hahas. missyou babe. when'r you free?

nique: yes, COOL RIGHT (: hah change too?

replies &such (:
Sunday, January 30, 2005
04:09 p.m.

YAYY (:
Thursday, January 27, 2005
09:46 p.m.

went shopping after sch today ((: haha, was so tiredd luhhs. ran like don't know how many km today =X was worried that i'll stink up the whole mrt =D

ANYWAYS, met jo before meetin my mum. passed her my uniform (: miss that girl. hehs. we should go out again kays !

actually i have nth much to update. or rather, my brain's not functioning well enough =p ahahs, so i shall continue another day?

fen: haha, sch's alright (: lovin` it. esp those short days &the breaks. mann, i love the breaks.

lana: YEAPS. just dont skip GP lessons (: I DIDNT SEE YOU IN SCH TODAY ! pon again ahhhs?

keshia: oh, cos my whole class ponn`d gp. &my civics tutor told me that we might face expulsion or suspension because of that =X but it's all cleared up now. THANKS. (: how's sch going on?

sighh =/
Monday, January 24, 2005
06:40 p.m.

it's disgusting what some people would do for money. ):

but then again, theyre from some poor country. sighh

click here to find out what im talking about ..

anyways, uploaded a few pictures of our og outing on sat (: haha. :



waitin for i cant rmb who at marina bay mrt (:


lana & mike. with the rest of `em behind.,br>

looks like theyre tgr hm? =p


quite a few people didnt take the grp pic =/


shiling


wendyy hiding from cam.


people in the canteeen.



ger when she was young .


haah. no 2

few pictures of sch coming up. was bored lahhs. waitin for class to start so i took a few shots from the spiral staircase (:




you cansee the sports sch from here .




ger &shiling.




under construction.. still =X




sch will only finish their construciton in april`05 (: more picstures to come then ! =d

OG outing (2)
Sunday, January 23, 2005
02:57 p.m.

Ralph Myers & Jack Herren Band-Think Twice

ORIOCHUS outing yesterday (: woke up at like 12? thought i was late =X then rushed to town, but only joce was thr waited for a while, then me, joce, mike, junhao, junwei wenta mos burger for me to eat lunch. walked around, decided to catch elektra. stoned at lido for quite awhile, joce wnta fetch junhao, i wenta fetch lana. junwei &a few others wenta pla pool. leaving me, joce, lana, junhao, mike &junhao (thr are 2 junhaos) to watch.

met up with the rest soon after, jeremy didnt join us for steamboat though. waited at the steamboat place till 9plus for renick to join. turned oout that he was lost. board the train to changi airport instead =p hahas.

decided to walk to marina bay mrt, &wenta meridien to find renick.left soon after cos i thought i was gna go out later again &i wanted to go home &chnge. but cancelled in the end cos i was too lazeee =p

ahhhwels. took some pics but i left my cam with lana ((: shall upload it soon!

OG outing (2)
Sunday, January 23, 2005
02:57 p.m.

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Saturday, January 22, 2005
01:06 a.m.

an insight of how i spent my day :

jerome: heyy, i've got something to ask you.

me: what?

jer: why cant skeletons play music?

me:er.. dont know, why?

jer: give up?

me: yeaaaah.

jer: because they have no organs ! -laughs-

me: ...

yes, LAME LAHHS =X hahas.

irony
Saturday, January 22, 2005
12:36 a.m.


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gee, the irony of life. (:

SCHOOL
Thursday, January 20, 2005
09:46 p.m.

Peter Malick Ft Norah Jones- Strange Transmissions

had 2 PE lessons today (: cos geraldine wanted to run the looong run again. so yeahh accompanied her =X together with our 2 girlfriends. hahas shiling &wendy.

shiling left soon after &the rest of us wenta causeway point's Mos for dinner. (: had fun taking pictures &all. quite sttooopid lahhs. then Wendy had to rush off for her band practice &ger needta go meet her.(:

went home &now im having muscle aches =/ 2 long runs + 300starjumps +situps + the uhh arm support thingie aint no easy feat i tell you =X

anyways, wenta ngee ann ydae with timothy. saw gordon, zach, germaine, yuchern blahhs thr (: MCM !! i wana go mcm =/ haha but i want to stay in my current jc too. ARGHS.

met rach for dinner after that. (: had fun just rotting about town. came home to cram for maths . thank god i did my tutorial. mr pang was like walking around checking as if we were pri sch kids. GEE.

anyways, JOCE ! dont be sad (: they need you for badminton &so much more ! hahaa. &yes, you got us ! that'll occupy alot of your time alrdy. haah. seeyou on sat i think (:

(:
Monday, January 17, 2005
08:31 p.m.

Peter Malick Ft Norah Jones- Strange Transmissions

am so in <3 with this song (: been putting it on repeat since god nkows when.

crashing og jcs soon (: hahas. as long as im done with all my work &all. ayes. NEVER MAN.

good day(:

oh btw, joce ! tell me about your badminton tryouts yes? (:

the return of ME (:
Sunday, January 16, 2005
11:05 p.m.

haven't been updating again.

it's not that i dont want to. but i keep forgettin?! ahhh. ohwels.

ORIOCHUS outing on FRIDAY ! (: not that everyone went . just me, joce, (lehana wasnt thr), peijuan, lijun, yvette, renick, junhao, junwei, mike, shaun (he's in sr now), junhao (another one) &jeremy.

planned to have steamboat &all. but int he end all of us just rot around town? cant even get in to play pool =/ they chased us awayy after seeing that we're in sch uni. AHWELS.

then a few of them left. &thr was only me, peijuan, lijun, junwei, shaun &renick. wenta wheelock then renick left. peijuan &all came to join us. talked for awhile before we too left. leavin shaun with his friend.

saturday ! bought a new phone cos apparently the person at samsung said that my phone was beyond repair. 7260(: not badd. but acks. they called me today to tell me that they have fixed my phone alrdy? WTH pls. ahh wels.

todayyy. nothing mch. wnt out with jerome today (: slacked a bit &went home.

sch tmr. yayness. i havemt done any work .shite.

PICTURES (:
Wednesday, January 12, 2005
05:00 p.m.

hah. finally uploaded the pics i took during campfire (using my phne) to my com (:

CEPT THAT I LOST MY CABLE. so yeahh, i used my digicam to take those pictures &upload them. so the quality isnt tht good?

uploaded some pics from NYE too (:


alicia &kong (: miss them. sighh.


alicia's vibrator. =D hahas private joke.


me &fifi (:


fifi was damn excited about this effect haahs. =p


(from l-r) joce, lana, me (:


our shoes ! hehs. plus a part of the sch.


the campfire ball thingie (:


our sch all lighted up.. for campfire o.0"


sch + lana's head =D



sch again (:



sch againnnnn.


me&lana. =D


the 3 of us !


during kong's bdae (: haahs.

CG & Lectures (:
Monday, January 10, 2005
06:48 p.m.

Met my class today. ahha Nicholas (Xun Wei) is in my class too. TALK NON-STOP LAHHS. =X hahas. Can't stand it. (: Kidding. yeaps, 16 people in our class. It was 17, but one transferred to another class. So yeaps. (:

Day was alright. But there were like, too many breaks. As in seriously, ALOT of breaks. Could go home only at 5pm? If not for the breaks, we could have gone home at like 2? Had only 3 lectures today. So you can imagine how we spent our hours idling away. hahas.

Physics lecture was the best, though it was kind of boring too. They got straight into the first lesson after like 30mins? =/ Base Units, Derived Units, Unitless Quantity & Principle of Homogenity. HOW FUN (: Kind of makes me wonder why i chose Physics over Biology.

Had our break (again.. during which i ate lunch) before proceeding to Lecture Theatre 3 for our Maths Lecture. It was seriously cold. Not only due to the aircon, but also cos' of the lame jokes made by Mrs whatever-her-name-is. The whole theatre actually gave her those sarcastic har-har-har laughter , but she didnt get it. Or maybe it's cos she don't want to. I can almost strangle her lahhs. =X

break again before having econs lecture (yes, eat again...) Mr. Chu meant business man. Sat us down (with seating plans?!?!) &start going on about economics &all. BORING . Even ask us to write our expectations of the lessons &all. hahas. weirdo.

break again before pe. make us wait like 1 hour just to take height &weight? but we got mr lee as out pe teacher. quite a nice guy (: so it was alright. haahs. I GAINED WEIGHT ! 44.25 kg now. (: but i didnt grow in terms of height? AYES, measuring tape spoil luhhs. =D haahs. riggght.

mann, gna go read through physics or something. Seriously dont get it. was too lazy =/

(:
Saturday, January 8, 2005
10:36 p.m.

you'r so cute luhhs. ((:

p.s
bart &i have nothing going on. thanks. hahas.

ASSHOLE.
Thursday, January 6, 2005
08:22 p.m.

SERIOUSLY, ive never met a guy as ASSHOLEY as you (:

I admit im not that good, but at least im not as lowdown as you. fuckin male prostitute. ARGHS.

you'r -
vain
arrogant
petty
flirty
a liar
a cheat
hopeless
a cunt
a male whore
egoistic
a two face bastard

you'r just an asshole man. i shouldnt even be bothered to write this. but ARGHS. fuckyou.

ORIENTATION
Thursday, January 6, 2005
05:02 p.m.

heyys (:
haven't been updating for quite some time i realised (: well, not me but my friends. ALRIGHT IM HERE NOW =D
Anyways, IJC is pretty good so far , the orientation is good , the people are nice (: what more can on ask for? ohkay, im being crappy again. One becomes crappy when your brain is too lazeee to think yeah? Am so sleepy now. Lack of sleep for the past few days. =/
Shall just sum up the last few days in point form:
Day One Arrived in school at 7.50+am even though i got to Woodlands MRT at around 7.34am. Thank god school starts at 8am (: Went there &start making friends . Am in Regor's Ophiuchus (: The best og other than Orion, which we grouped up with later. We have the best OGFs too ((: hahas. THEY ROCK YEAH? They havent' finish constructing the school so all of us were like covered in sand, mud etc. &since we painted flags, we have paint on our hands too. Wnt home tired &happy (:
Second Day Subject registration, took damn long to think &finally settle on physics, maths &econs . even though i hate figures &all =/ kinda regret it already. had mass dance after it. danced to rock dj. quite funn lahhs, but the moves are like, kinda lame?
Third Day went to sports school again for mass dance. had amazing race before that though, ran around the whole woodlands, sembawang, marsiling &admiralty area. =X Almost killed all of us. Friggin` tired? lols. Went off early, met up with Bart &his friends, Jeremy, gavin... walked around town &they left. Me &Bart then wenta eat then yeap rotted around then wnt home (:
Fourth Day TODAY ! hahas. Went for mass dance early in the morning. Was our last massdance practice &all of us were like WOAH. hha super enthu pls. Then went for lunch &a few of us decided to just skip the last few hours. (: Went to town &met up with Tina &Pris. Walked around a bit . BOUGHT MY BLACK STUDS ! yay ! finally found it after a long time. Came home.. blah
gna meet sid soon, shit man, im damn tired =/ haahs. ohwels.

HAPPYNEWYEAR (:
Sunday, January 2, 2005
02:55 p.m.

Tuning: Antonio Carlos Jobin- Waters of March

HAPPY NEW YEAR EV`RYONE

I just tried on my school uniform &i realise that i've lost weight. (: t's good in a way except that i think i should GAIN instead of LOSE ?

Kelvin had left for Sri Lanka to help out with the Tsunami Waves disaster. I seriously hope he's alright. -prays-

Anyways, New Year was good. Day started out tiring cos' i didnt slp well that night, no idea why =/ Left my house at around 3plus to meet Alicia. Went down to town (as usual =p). Saw Aaron &Ausgustine. Man, i couldn't recognise Aaron? His hair look so.. -stumped for words- i was like, OHMYGOD. hahas. Found Alicia's gift for the gift exchange, then we went straight off to Tina's house. Had to take a cab in since the bus service had stopped (at 5plus?!). Almost everyone was there already. Ate loads. Non-stop if i might add. HAH. (: Food was good. Company was even better. Played Indian Poker &all. Can seriously say that i'm damn full? Yeaps. Due to the sotong balls &fishball added by our resident evil, Steven.

Went to the park to fire some crackers. (: All of us took turn with our speeches &then we sat off like 5 rounds of crackers. Funness =D The guys left soon after. Weird man, since its like only 11plus? A few minutes before countdown. Then we sent Pris out &headed back to some cracker-iing before i left soon after. They sent me out (sorry girls, making you guys walk out so many time within the same hour) &i board the cab to ecp. I think i pissed the taxi uncle off though, i asked him why he ain't home &he just grunted &drive faster. Decided that that was my cue to shut up so i just turn on my ipod &listen to it &yes, shut up.

Bart was late (as usual...) Waited for him for quite some time even though i took my time walking to Macs (there was a jam so i decided to walk in instead, the taxi uncle int exactly save =X). We then walk all the way till the end of the beach. Took us like 2 hours plus? By then we were both shagged. Sat down at some breakpoint &look at the planes &just stoned&chill out. ((: He decided to go change then, askin me to call him if anything happens. While waiting for him, it rained lahhs. So i called him. HE DIDNT ANS. man, if anything bad happens, i think i'd be dead or something before he even ans my call. Then we decided to walk back to macs for shelter (yesyes, 2 hours walk to some stupid shelter) but the rain stopped? so we went to stone at some bench or soemthing. The area there was like damn creepy &dark pls. so scary. I started to feel sleepy
After that we decide to head back, cos iit's going to take a while. Then yeap, walked back. He was practically sleep walking by then. Me too actually. We walked so far? & it's already been a long day . So yeah. I dont remember much from here. LOL, cept that it rained alot of times &we keep stopping

ohkay, so we got to Macs. By then it was like 8plus? Even though we start walking at 5plus.Then we cabbed home. Gee, now i owe him for cab faree. Got home &showered. Planned to sleep until 12.30 but i only manage to sleep from like 9 to 10 before my ccousin began to bombard my phone. =/ Woke up &hit the showers again before cabbing down to their house for a bbq. Got there &help with the cooking &all, then with the bbq & the taking care of the kids & everything. it isn't until like 11plus at night did i finally manage to find some time to rest =X long day huh? Slept from like 12 plus all the way till 10plus before i get woken up by Bart.

-sighh- sleepy now. long entry. (:

Grand Opening
Tuesday, December 28, 2004
10:27 p.m.

ohkay, so that pagename was lame =/ but i couldnt think of anything else alright. template sucks, am going to change it soon. & also, i'm going to change the way im writing my stuff. gna have everything in perfect sentences (i'll try ) &all. (: rushing off now. somebody just pissed me off, again, as usual. hahas. toodles-

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