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Name: Ky
AIM: EldritchDiscord
Alli: Undo
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Thursday, January 9, 2003 -- 02:18 p.m.
Music -- Key-A-Kiss - Deluxe (Eurobeat Mix)
Monday, January 6, 2003 -- 03:36 a.m.
Music -- Nothing...
I feel sick... oi oi... I need to lay down...
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Monday, January 6, 2003 -- 03:29 a.m.
Music -- Nothing...
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Monday, January 6, 2003 -- 03:21 a.m.
Music -- Nothing...
I hope Mike doesn't think I'm ignoring him... I haven't talked to him since like New Years Eve... O.x;;;
Monday, January 6, 2003 -- 03:14 a.m.
Music -- Nothing...
I hate being sick... Work gets angry with you and all you can do is think... (sometimes)... I always start thinking about things that made me happy. God, I miss being happy... And I miss being healthy >.<...
Friday, January 3, 2003 -- 08:32 a.m.
Music -- DDRMAX (US) - The Shining Polaris
I need to know when the catillion is... SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME!
Sunday, December 29, 2002 -- 11:22 p.m.
Music -- Tatu - I Went Crazy
What's YOUR Writing Style?
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Sunday, December 29, 2002 -- 01:34 p.m.
Music -- Nothing...
Sunday, December 29, 2002 -- 01:30 p.m.
Music -- Nothing...
I'm magical
Saturday, December 28, 2002 -- 11:21 p.m.
Music -- Nothing...
Ok... tonight went.... well... I don't know... Some good some bad.
Well after the movie we went to dinner... after dinner we went back to my car and on it... there was a note... it was scary... I just don't know o.x;;; too tired or i would be more specific.... the notes are right next to the screen... on top of the blank cd spindle...
Friday, December 27, 2002 -- 08:53 a.m.
Music -- Khia - My Neck, My Back...
You know... I get sucked into just sitting here staring at people's LJ's... It's kinda annoying.... My hair has dried and its going to be hard to deal w/ now. I'm so bored... and My stomach ache has returned.... I'm upset... Well maybe I'll start losing weight again... XD XD XD
Thursday, December 26, 2002 -- 08:46 p.m.
Music -- DJ Encore feat. Engelina - I See Right Through To You (Extended Version)
Wow... I have a date on Saturday... ::laughs:: I've never actually been on a date... ever... Even when Jay and I 1st started our courting process it wasn't ever really just the two of us. There was most definatly always a 3rd, (Usually Carolynne). I mean later on in our relationship it would occassionally be the 2 of us. But we never went on a date. We just hung out or something ^^;;. Wow. So weird.
On another note, I did superbly with my gift giving. All my gifts were a big success! ::poses:: Yosh! Although my gift for Stosh wasn't what I really wanted to get him. But I got it vicariously through Cass... So I guess it's ok.
Ok now to explain why Jay and I dated again on X-Mas eve... It was because that's when I see my dad's side of the family every year. And to my knowledge they don't know I'm gay. ::shrug:: It's just more fun to say, "Oh, I have a boyfriend!" So that's pretty much why we dated again. But we decided that it wouldn't count toward our grand total ^^;.
I made $750 this X-mas... (Only counting money I recieve X-mas eve and Day) In the grand scheme of things it was more like $950ish... That money is going for.. Saving, Anime Boston, and Clothes... I was sick recently and I need new clothes that fit better XD... Which reminds me I need to do some laundry... Well I'm just going to predent like I'm going to do laundry so I can stop blogging... Ja ne!
Tuesday, December 24, 2002 -- 04:32 p.m.
Music -- DDRMAX (US) - The Shining Polaris
Well, Jay and I are dating again... for today only though ^^;;;... At the stroke of midnight everything will be as it was... hehehe... oh well... It's much more fun saying you have a boyfriend to your family that doesn't know you like boys ^_~;;
Friday, December 20, 2002 -- 02:45 p.m.
Music -- Kylie Minogue - Come into My World
::sighs:: I really want to go to Anime Boston... My anime node has been activated... I know we all "Kinda talked about it" but I would seriously want to go now.
Friday, December 20, 2002 -- 12:38 p.m.
Music -- Tori Amos - Happy Worker
Wow someone actually linked me... I can't believe it ;___; that makes me happy, hehehe I feel loved kinda ^.^ Anna Is her name... she like JROCK too from what I gathered ::hmms::
Well, I need to go clean my room, It's the only messy room left in the house... ::bounces off::
Friday, December 20, 2002 -- 12:28 p.m.
Music -- Tori Amos - Happy Worker
Well... I'm basically done X-Mas shopping... But I just realized I need to get an outfit for X-mas eve... and I need to get Cal a present O.x;;;... ::shakes head:: Still need an outfit for the Catillion but that can wait till the new year. Oi oi... and I need to get some fabric to Cass. I hope she remembers that we are hanging out Saturday. ::shakes finger::
Friday, December 20, 2002 -- 12:24 p.m.
Music -- Animaniacs - Macadamia Nut
I'm a nut whose known as macadamia.. But you can call me by my other namia... Louisa... Francheska... Banafana... Fo Feska! Or just plain Dot the name I'm refered to... But if you call me Dottie i'll have to hurt you...
Friday, December 20, 2002 -- 08:19 a.m.
Music -- Nothing...
All 200 Sailormoon episodes + specials + movies in japanese w/ english subtitles... for sale on eBay. oi oi oi oi oi. I need them. Or do I need to complete my Eternal Moon Tier ::falls over:: AAAH!
Thursday, December 19, 2002 -- 08:15 p.m.
Music -- MAX - Ride on Time
I mad, but don't know what to be mad at, it's just anger floating around wanting to lash out at the people involved in creating it.
Well, in retrospect I had a really good last night. I bowled a really good game and witnessed utter chaos at work. And I had a nice talk with Jay. Not to mention I woke up at 6am today and had 6 hours added to my day.
Thursday, December 19, 2002 -- 05:36 a.m.
Music -- Nothing...
I have a fucking headache.
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Thursday, December 19, 2002 -- 05:14 a.m.
Music -- Moi Dix Mois - Dialogue Symphonie
I ***had*** really wanted to go... Don't think anyone realized how much. By Matt not going it made me feel a little better... and you know I figured it wouldn't be a big deal cause you know he had already seen it earlier that morning and would be seeing it the next day. And it ***REALLY*** pissed me off to come home and see his car there. I fully enjoy being replaced when everyone tells me they aren't going to bring somoene else along. I think that angers me most of all. How Alli and Cass feels is irrelivant because we all know the answers from Alli when Matt is involved and I don't know what to say about Cass primarily because she has nothing I can lash out at or want to, Can't be mad at her for nothing. ::glares:: Oh, and I didn't want to sit next to you at Osaka's I wanted to sit next to Cass. God, I'm so angry. I went to sleep last night because I was so angry. I knew the sleep wouldn't make me feel better. Especially since I was awakened by the piercing light from the LIVING room and the fact someone came into my room and took the phone. Well I'm done lashing out. I hope the movie was good... cause I no longer care.
Wednesday, December 18, 2002 -- 08:49 p.m.
Music -- Lee Jung Hyun - Nuh (Techno Remix)
... I'm so fucking angry... You're such a fucking JERK! You know... If you didn't want to waste $10 I would have fucking paid for it... ASSHOLE! IT WAS FUCKING YOU THAT ASKED! I FUCKING KNOW IT! ::snarls:: I will abstain from saying anything about anyone else going... But if you have anything to say I will ***GLADLY*** say what I want to say. But you may not want to hear it. ::smiles::
FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU ALL! (Except for Cass. I'm not mad at her, Can't exactly explain why but she evades my rage.)
Wednesday, December 18, 2002 -- 08:16 p.m.
Music -- Yomanda vs. Emma Shaplin - Spente le Stelle
I fucking hate you all... You all can go fuck yourselves... That fucking sucked... I wanted to go... ::hisses!::
Monday, December 16, 2002 -- 12:15 p.m.
Music -- Nothing...
::yawns:: Watched some Sailormoon Stars last night now I'm playing Breath of Fire 4 ::shrugs:: I'm bored...
Friday, December 13, 2002 -- 11:52 p.m.
Music -- Akira Yamaoka - I feel...
... I don't know what to say. Tonight fucked me up horribly. When I thought I had my emotions relativly sorted. It was like emotional punches left and right. And then one to the jaw. ::snickers and sighs:: I just don't know anymore... Jay's mom hugged me and was like I miss ya. I was like ::cry::. Cause I missed all of them too =/... ::jumps into the sea of emotional turmoil:: I know there is probably nothing to say (or nothing you will say for one reason or another). But I wish there was. So badly...
Thursday, December 12, 2002 -- 01:06 p.m.
Music -- Nothing...
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Thursday, December 12, 2002 -- 01:03 p.m.
Music -- Nothing...
You're ice! You can be very cold and distant and you are NOT a people person. You're pretty mean but you can be nice...to a select few.
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Thursday, December 12, 2002 -- 12:58 p.m.
Music -- Nothing...
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Thursday, December 12, 2002 -- 12:40 p.m.
Music -- Ayumi Hamasaki - Trauma
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Thursday, December 12, 2002 -- 12:38 p.m.
Music -- L.E.D. Light feat. Sana - The Shining Polaris
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Thursday, December 12, 2002 -- 11:43 a.m.
Music -- Moi Dix Mois - Dialogue Symphonie
Teehee! I found the Moi Dix Mois MP3s! ::cackles:: I love Mana!
Wednesday, December 11, 2002 -- 01:26 p.m.
Music -- Ayumi Hamasaki - Appears
This song is so good ;____;
The lovers, seemingly happy,
hold hands and walk.
It looks like everything is going perfectly, but
only they know the truth.
At the first phone call, the hand
with which I held the reciever trembled.
At the second call a message
was left on my machine.
At the seventh call we decided to meet.
It all began on that ordinary day.
The lovers, seemingly happy,
hold hands and walk.
It looks like everything is going perfectly, but.
only they know the truth.
At the 10th call we
went far away together.
As we held hands and walked,
I felt a little shy.
And the nights flew by.
On the way home, in the car, we kissed.
I love the white, shining snow.
Nevertheless, we were separated last year.
This winter, we'll try together.
Will we make it? Can I say?
The Merry Christmas I couldn't say before.
How many times have we tried to take off
the rings shining on our ring fingers?
The lovers, seemingly happy,
hold hands and walk.
It looks like everything is going perfectly, but
no one knows the truth.
Tuesday, December 10, 2002 -- 02:38 p.m.
Music -- Lee Jung Hyun - Nuh (Techno Remix)
Well... Today is 12/10... ::snickers:: To celebrate 1 year - Alli, Stosh, Cass, and I - are going to Osaka's tonight at 8 when Stosh and I get out of work. I hope they are ready ::hint hint::. Well... I'm finished with my x-mas shopping w/ the exception of Laura.. my gift to her is my presence... HA HA HA! ::rolls eyes:: Well, this was just a quick blog before work... Oi oi. I miss everyone ::sighs::.
Tuesday, December 10, 2002 -- 12:07 a.m.
Music -- Run Lola Run - Supermarket
I think I'm finally done X-MAs Shopping!
--X-Mas List Update!--
Mom - Done
Dad - Done
Lex - Done
Cam - Done
Jay - Done
Alli - Done
Cass - Done
Matt - Done
Stosh - Done
Laura - Done-ish
Carolynne - Done
Oi Oi! 11 gifts O.x;;;
Sunday, December 8, 2002 -- 11:31 p.m.
Music -- The Brak Show - Brak Rapping o.o;;;
Well, I talked to Jay... Hmmm... ::Shrugs:: At least everything is set straight.
Saturday, December 7, 2002 -- 11:00 p.m.
Music -- DDRMAX (US) - Look to the Sky (True Colors Mix)
Which Golden Girl Are You?
Saturday, December 7, 2002 -- 10:35 p.m.
Music -- Ayumi Hamasaki - Appears (Ayu-ro Mix)
I've come to the realization that some people create their own misery. It's really funny, but not. Especially when I keep getting dragged down w/ them. Ugh! Ya know. It's annoying when you think that when everyone else has problems and you don't. But when you have problems everyone else is happy. Well it sucks when your problems are your fault. Because until you grow up, you will continue to have these problems and not be happy. You really have no idea how lucky you were. I don't think you'll find someone that loved you as much as they did. I wish there was a frying pan of common sense or something then I could bash you in the head with it and hopefully open your eyes. But alas I wish I could let it go. But I can't, I truely want to. I wonder if it was that easy for you. Maybe that's what they need maybe they need to know how you're feeling. And maybe they just need to know it wasn't all for nothing because you basically severed all communication w/ them and then closed yourself up tighter than before.
Saturday, December 7, 2002 -- 10:35 p.m.
Music -- Ayumi Hamasaki - Appears (Ayu-ro Mix)
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Saturday, December 7, 2002 -- 10:26 p.m.
Music -- Ayumi Hamasaki - Appears (Ayu-ro Mix)
'Tis the season...
XMAS Checklist... UPDATED!
Mother - Done
Father - Not Yet Purchased
Cam - Done
Alexis - Done
Carolynne - No Idea
Alli - Done
Cass - Not Yet Purchased
Stosh - No Idea
Matt - Not Yet Purchased
Laura - Not Yet Purchased/Done
Cheez - I wish she was here ;_____;
Saturday, December 7, 2002 -- 10:16 p.m.
Music -- MAX - Grace of my Heart (Maximum Mix)
God, I'm out of high school and rumors still seem to get around about me. It's so annoying when people tell things to people they shouldn't but not even give them the correct information.
I went to Alli's play yesterday night. It was horrible. The small children were everywhere... kowai yo! Hmmm, Jay was there, wasn't expecting that.
I went to the mall today w/ Alli and Stosh. We played some 7th mix. I sucked, I guess I was really tired or something.
Friday, December 6, 2002 -- 11:18 a.m.
Music -- DDRMAX (US) - Look to the Sky (True Colors Mix)
'Tis the season...
XMAS Checklist....
Mother - Done
Father - Not Yet Purchased
Cam - NO Idea
Alexis - No Idea
Alli - Not Yet Purchased
Cass - Not Yet Purchased
Stosh - No Idea
Matt - Not Yet Purchased
Laura - Not Yet Purchased/Done
Cheez - I wish she was here ;_____;
Wednesday, December 4, 2002 -- 10:29 a.m.
Music -- MAX - Grace of my Heart (Maximum Mix)
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Wednesday, December 4, 2002 -- 10:22 a.m.
Music -- MAX - Grace of my Heart (Maximum Mix)
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Wednesday, December 4, 2002 -- 10:01 a.m.
Music -- Ayumi Hamasaki - Appears (DJ Turbo Remix)
I almost died a couple nights ago... I was driving home from work and my car almost slid sideways into a telephone pole... It was so scary... Luckily I took my foot off the brake and I continued going forward... Gah, I'm sick of waking up w/ a headache.... every day... ::clutches head and pops more pills::
Monday, December 2, 2002 -- 03:26 p.m.
Music -- Ayumi Hamasaki - Appears (Ayu-ro Mix)
I feel myself weakening against everything... I want to talk to people that would hurt me in the end (again)... I want to talk to people that would lie to me... I just wish everything was simple, why why why is there so much drama surrounding everything...
Ok, you know... It's not that I need a relationship... It's just that when you're not in a relationship, there is nothing binding and nothing "stops" them from pursueing other people. That is why I want a relationship. I don't want to be betrayed again. At least let me think that you're not going to cheat on me.
Oh well, my life is so full... full of nothing and meaningless stuff. I want something substantial... Nothing holds any bearing on my life. I FUCKING Hate drama... It wastes precious energy.
Well there is one thing that is going well... If you talk to me then you know what it is ^_~ *TEASER!* Well I'm closing at work tonight... (4-midnight)... I'll talk to everyone later...
Friday, November 29, 2002 -- 09:36 a.m.
Music -- DDRMAX (US) - Look to the Sky (True Color Extended Mix)
Lalala... I'm bored... and I have a stomache ache... but at least I learned Armageddon... ::glares over shoulder:: HISS!
Sunday, November 24, 2002 -- 09:34 p.m.
Music -- Mulan Rouge - Sparkling Diamonds
I think i'm having an overload. I was thinking about things today. Always a depressing occurance. I thought about Jay something I try not to do, I ended up crying. It's really sad, but I think the Jay chapter in my life is ending. It's really a shame, He doesn't even want to be friends. He even treated me badly when we stopped dating. The things you said *tore* me apart at my very core(Not that you'll ever see this). But that's another story.
I feel like I'm drifting... I feel lost in a sea of emotion... It's like I see a door and it closes just before I can get to it. I feel as though everything I know is changing, but I'm the only one that knows. I've been so tired lately. Not to mention that everyone has been yelling at me (or just being mean). I don't even know if people know what they are doing. I'll just sit quietly and be abused... It's my way... I won't be able to say anything... I have no voice, but when I do it's quickly silenced. So I'll take it.
Well, at least I have some friends that I didn't think I'd have in the end. It's funny how things work sometimes. Kendra introduced me to her friend Mike... He's wicked nice. I **hope** we hang out more in the future.