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Thursday, April 29, 2004 - Buffalo Soldier, Dreadlock Rockstar
*hangs head in shame* Oh man, it's my first day off school and I'm already bored! I suck! I'm sure more stuff will come to mind soon, but right now I'm like "duuuuuh, what do I do now??". I burned a the Last Exile OST onto CD, I posted some icon bases up at an icon community, I dusted my room, and I blogged in all my journals. What else is there to do??? And I even got a call from my boss and he said I could start work a week later! So much time to do nothing! Maybe I'll just make icons and layouts the whole time. Or maybe I'll download more songs and burn more CDs. Or maybe... I could get off my fat drunken ass (yeah, a little intoxicated right now) and spend some time in the outside world. I just wish it was warmer. And that I had MY BIKE! Man, I'm starting to sound like the redhead chick from Pokemon.
I had, like, 12 hours of sleep today. Went to sleep at 11:30 PM and woke up at 11 AM. I'm feeling so rested. *sigh* I wish I was back at Queens with all my friends and out doing some post-exam partying. Nothing clears the mind and soaks your troubles away like a night of dancing and drinking and general good times with fun loving people. *sniffle* I miss those days. I wish I wasn't living with my family right now, but was back in Wonky, putting on gitter body gel and squeezing into a tube top to the tunes of Lasgo and ATB.
Okay, I'm going to stop before I get any sadder. I'll just bask in the glory of my anime music...
ETA: Oh my god, why do so many stupid people have Pitas blogs??!! If it weren't for its easily customizable layout I'd be all over LJ instead.
~ Temptation took over at 08:57 p.m.
Wednesday, April 28, 2004 - Been A Long Time Since I Got Along Fine
I'm weary. My hair is tangled and greasy. There's a foul taste in my mouth. My bladder is begging for a bathroom break. I've bitten my nails down and scrapped off my nail polish. Periodically my eyes burn. I'm so nervous I feel as if my stomach will start climbing up my esophagus. My mind is desperately trying to cling to pieces of knowledge I've absorbed over the last several days.
But godammit, in less than 10 hours I will be done another school year. And that makes everything okay.
~ Temptation took over at 01:26 a.m.
Monday, April 26, 2004 - My Room Is A Prison.
For a second, and only a second, I wished I was American so I could do my part in attempting to vote Dubya's ass out of the White House. But then I came to my senses and remembered the greatness of being Canadian. In any case, this is the website that prompted my lapse in judgement:
www.johnkerryisadouchebagbutimvotingforhimanyway.com/
My dear American brothers and sisters who are of voting age, I hope you make the right decision at the polls. Then again, you know what they say about Americans... not the brightest bunch.
I kid. I kid because I love. But seriously, please don't vote for Bush. He's an idiot. *sigh* Alright, back to studying.
~ Temptation took over at 08:28 p.m.
Sunday, April 25, 2004 - Cloud Age Symphony
Holy crap, Mother Nature must be pissed off today. It's rainy and windy like a bitch. It hasn't been this windy since we last had a dying hurricane pass by. And it's cold as well. I woke up at 7 AM because curling up in the fetal position was not helping me conserve any heat.
God came through for me last night: I successfully downloaded the Last Exile soundtrack. It's really good. I actually initially liked the instrumental pieces better than the songs. But the songs are beginning to grow on me as well. Last Exile is definately going to be the anime conquest for the summer. Last year it was RahXephon and Samurai Deeper Kyo.
I'm usually not a fan of slow songs of the Hindi variety. But this new song Kitni Baatein from the movie Lakshya is so good, dare I say... my favourite song on the soundtrack. I'm surprised I like it so much. I liked it the least the first time through the soundtrack, but then after the 3rd time it suddenly "clicked" with me. The whole soundtrack is really moving though.
I can't wait till exams are over...
~ Temptation took over at 02:39 p.m.
Saturday, April 24, 2004 - Are You Some Kind Of Witches' Brew?
W00t for commenting! Very happy right now.
WTF, someone outside is setting off fireworks! Is there a holiday this weekend that I am not aware of? 'Cause if not that's really random. Plus, it sounds like bugs with hard exoskeletons are slamming their pitiful little bodies into my window. It's really distracting.
Aw man, I'm trying to download the Last Exile OST and it's taking FOREVER!!! I'm serious here! Lemme check the download time... okay, it's been going for over 8 hours. The root of this suckiness lies in the fact that there is no one online to actually download the last 2.76% of data from. *sigh* It's so close to completion... yet so far away! So frustrating. I tried downloading the RahXephon OVA yesterday but spent 5 hours acquiring a movie file with NO PICTURE. Oh yeah, nothing but sound. >_< All I know is that Quon and Itsuki were talking to each other, about, um, dreams and stuff. It was the sort of situation where subtitles would have been handy to say the least. Well... there's still 3 hours till bedtime, maybe there will be a breakthrough before then. *hopes*
Tomorrow afternoon Duplicate is playing on TV and I won't be able to watch it. Wah. I have only seen 1 Juhi Chawla movie so far and I so wanted to see another. And this one stars not one but two SRKs!! Mmmm, double the greatness ;) I hope my sister tapes it properly. Otherwise she's getting some serious bustafazoo.
*cries* Why am I not getting any emails?? It's so hard to procrastinate without incoming messages.
~ Temptation took over at 08:58 p.m.
Friday, April 23, 2004 - I Smell Good. Like Lychee and Persimmons.
Today just keeps getting better and better! This Firday actually started in the wee hours of the morning, when I discovered The Little Wank That Could aka The Wank That Ruled The World aka Crystalwank. I frequent fandom_wank every now and then for fun and had noticed this crazy ol' LotR wank that was pretty funny. I come back 5 days later and all hell (and splooge) has broken loose. It's insane! But by far the funniest thing that I've ever come across. I will forever love the "MY HED IZ PASTEDE ON YAY!" line, till my dying breath. I think I was dreaming about making an icon with those words last night. And I might have to make my dream a reality ;)
I woke up this morning and went for my job interview. Went super well. I get to create and manage independant projects about workload management and modified work strategies. Very neat stuff. I can't wait to start. And my boss is supercool as well :)
After the interview I head on down to Future Shop to buy replacement headphones. I buy these badass clip-on headphones with a 1.5 M cord. Best forty bucks I've ever spent. The plug is of the gold plated variety, which is good. The open air headphones don't deafen me, which is also good. The quality of the bass is amazing, which is very good.
I also happened to buy a CD while I was there. It's called MC Mario Mixdown 2004. It's a dance CD. But anyway, I wanted to try out the new headphones when I got home, so I pop in the CD and realize that the first track is this song I've been DYING to acquire. It's called Gia by Despina Vandi. That just made my day. It doesn't get much better than this.
Did I mention I smell good?
~ Temptation took over at 12:57 p.m.
Thursday, April 22, 2004 - Sala Means Jerk. Manjula Does Not Mean Some Sort Of Spaceship.
I found this scrawled within the pages of my day planner:
If I Ruled the World
1. Resources would be unlimited.
2. Dark chocolate would be part of a nutritious and balanced diet.
3. Shahrukh Khan would be MINE!!
4. The temperature would never drop below 15 degrees Celcius.
5. Someone would pay for for fooling around in Photoshop all day.
Hmm, that's a really shallow list. Whatever. I have to go. As my friend so aptly put it, "the next few days are going to suck like huge amounts of suck."
~ Temptation took over at 01:41 p.m.
Monday, April 19, 2004 - Bros Before Hoes, Sistahs Before Mistahs
I have a problem. This problem happens to be two-fold, so allow me to break it down.
Part 1: My computer is evil. I have exams to study for, yet I unexplicably find myself not lying on my bed, poring over federal legislature, but sitting at my desk, basking in the warm glow of my LCD monitor. I cannot stop myself from obsessively checking email, my flist at LJ, or the new Bollywhat forum. And once I try to cut the cord and sever all ties with the internet, I find myself tinkering with paths in Photoshop. Will the horror never end??
Part 2: My computer is boring. While I do indeed find myself wasting precious time in front of this glowing box, I am perpetually unsatisfied. No one posts on LJ anymore, and when they do it is on matters that I don't care about, sadly enough. My sister has completely taken over the new Bollywhat forum, sucking any joy that once came from expressing my opinions away. My inbox recieves nothing but meaningless forwards. Even Photoshop does not hold the endless possibilities it once did.
I get bored with studying, only to get bored with procrastination. I. Am. BORED.
So, the condo will be done before the new school year. Me and my brother are moving into the lovely new place in June; he to do his MCAT course and me to get the hell out of the house!!! Not that I don't love the fam, in fact I'm sure I'll miss them tremendously after I move out. But I've got to soon.
Now that I know I have a job for the summer, I can plan to set aside some money for personal acquisitions ;) First on the list is a digital camera. Dear god how I want that digital camera!
I found myself wandering into a Guess store today. I don't know what possessed me to do so. I just want to say: holy crap! Expensive clothes. I mean, I knew that Guess stuff was more expensive than the goods I get at Dynamite. But $70 for a tank-top? Whoa. Okay... so it was 100% silk. Still. That's a lot. If I ever have the fortune of being rich when I grow up (Hahaha... when.) I will make certain I buy stuff like 100% silk tank-tops and designer purses that match my stilleto pumps.
Love is a strange thing. I don't think I trust it anymore. Love likes to fuck with one's head. Love is an S&M addict. Love is in perpetual denial. How can something so beautiful be so... weird at the same time? I don't understand love. Of course, I'm talking about one particular kind of love here. Love of the romantic variety. The love of epics and slow ballads. Hrm. I'm in a strangely good mood now. But love is still fucked up. It'll probably drag me away as I am kicking and screaming someday. Secretly enjoying the whole sordid affair.
~ Temptation took over at 10:26 p.m.
Tuesday, April 13, 2004 - And I Need My Anger Just For Me
Am back home, in my insanely messy yet so warm and comforting room. Should be studying, but this is the way I am. The night is young. My cut-off is 1 AM. I need at least 4 hours of sleep to function.
Only at Ryerson will the graffiti on library cubicles say stuff like "Salman Khan + Rani Mukherji" O_O Well, U of T might. But aren't U of T students too cool to vandalise cubicles? And by cool I mean uptight.
It makes me happy that the school year is coming to an end. I've had just about of downtown TO's heartless hustle and bustle, the perpetually pathetic Ryerson buildings, subway waits that feel like my teeth are being pulled, and the inconsistancy of my social circle. That last one is quite jarring on my poor fragile mind. My newly acquired friends make me feel too old and too young, too ethnic and too white-washed, too normal and too weird. That probably didn't make sense. But in any case I've really been missing my friends from Queen's.
My sister had a plan: to get a whole bunch of people on a Bollywood forum we frequent to come together to see a Hindi movie downtown. Except my mother just told us she doesn't want us meeting people we talk to online. I understand her fears (after all, she's a mother, and mothers are paranoid) but I believe that the situation is different that what she believes. Firstly, it's not as if my sister is meeting some random dude. The two of us would be going together, cellphone in hand. Secondly, we are meeting with almost 15 people. I suppose if my mom wants we could make sure we have an honest profile for each person coming, just so she has information on who exactly we are meeting. Hmm, we'll see what happens. The more I think about it the more depressed I get. Mainly because my mom vetoed our plans, but also because she might be right.
~ Temptation took over at 10:37 p.m.
Tuesday, April 13, 2004 - Who Put Whitey In The White House?
Omigod, I didn't realize how BIG everything is on screen when your monitor is at 800 x 600 resolution. Livejournal icons are huge! I'm at school right now, living in La La Land aka Procrastinacia. I'm feeling mighty tired and want to sleep, even though I know I shouldn't and should just go to the library and study for my exams. But I am doubtful of whether or not the library will have any good seats. Meh, might as well try. I can't believe I have to stay here until 7 PM. I can't wait for the summer season to arrive.
I have decided to create a spoof of Devdas, h4xx0r style ;) This is going to be a trip.
I've started making mini-movie icons. But I can only do so by using someone else's gif clips. Fortunately, my sister's computer needs a new CD drive; I'll ask my dad to get a CD-DVD drive. Then I can start capturing clips myself! *squee*
Dammit, I just ate a big ol' pita and I'm still hungry. I better bust out my Fruitopia. Mmm, blueberry-watermelon...
~ Temptation took over at 02:12 p.m.
Sunday, April 11, 2004 - My Cat's Breath Smells Like Cat Food
Aaah, much joy was had yesterday. My parents completely didn't expect their surprise 25th wedding anniversary party. It was great times. Good people, good food, good fun. I'm so happy it turned out well.
Devdas is on TV today and I really should study, but Devdas is so hard to deny. Maybe I'll just watch the end.
~ Temptation took over at 01:34 p.m.
Friday, April 9, 2004 - Cash In On The Pleasures Of Life With Me
Okay, so there a movie coming out called Mean Girls. One of those teeny-bopper movies. And I was like "What the hell? Mean girls? What kind of a movie is that?" So I went to the site to see the trailer. There was a clip of the movie there and I went to see that first, before the trailer. As I sat here at my desk and watched the scene unfold, I felt my stomach slowly turn with bitterness and disgust. Those mean girl characters reminded me exactly of girls I knew in elementary school. And they'd say the exact same things in that exact same tone, superior and mocking. It's so sad that the conflict in this movie has to be resolved through revenge. The victim has to become the tormentor in order to regain control. The world is a bad bad place.
It's a lot colder today than I thought it would be. Sunny and 11 degrees ain't what it's cracked up to be. And where are all the children, clogging up the street with their toys and screams? I hardly doubt all were dragged to church by parents. *shrug* Whatever, I'm not complaining. Just curious. No kids outside = good thing. It means I can study in peace.
~ Temptation took over at 03:46 p.m.
Thursday, April 8, 2004 - I Am A Pawn...
From x_3mta3.pitas.com So very true...
~ Temptation took over at 11:06 p.m.
Wednesday, April 7, 2004 - In This Life
An exerpt from my abnormally depressed ramblings whilst at school and hating it:
You know how they say there are no stupid questions? And that voicing a question in class is helpful because other people are probably wondering the same thing? That's bullshit. There are some stupid fucking people in my stupid fucking classes. There is honestly something wrong with these people. If you don't know that a 5 mark exam question warrants a longer expository than a 1 mark exam question, go back to grade 10 and get the hell out of my class.
I am a pawn... I don't know why I'm the way I am.
Marcia is an Overhead Whore.
Reality hit me hard today. I've been in escapist mode all weekend, doing crap that I enjoy. Then Tuesday rolled around and I faced the full brunt of a life not worth living. I'm very unhappy today. Very unhappy with where my life is going. I am a pawn... nobody cares.
I am not so sad anymore, because I bounce back from shit like this. Plus, I just found a superduperhothot picture of SRK and tinkered with it to fit my own wibbley needs. Wanna see?
Yes, he is to die for, isn't he? I really shouldn't be oogling the guy and accentuating his almighty cuteness; I should be doing a lab report. But come on, is there any real choice there? I thought not. It's a rhetorical question. Good-night.
~ Temptation took over at 12:14 a.m.
Monday, April 5, 2004 - SUN!!!
After 6 days of gloominess, the light is finally upon us! But all good things have a trade off. It's fucking freezing outside. And winds gusts are getting up to 50 km/h. And since it's still April I know that it will snow at least 2 more times this month.
Saw One 2 Ka Four yesterday. I so love SRK/Juhi together. And there's nothing better than ass-kicking, gun-totting Juhi. Go baby go. A good movie, but not as good as Asoka.
Whatever. Yay for a 3 day week :)
~ Temptation took over at 11:49 a.m.
Saturday, April 3, 2004 - Little Pieces of Joy
Time is of the essence so I'll be brief. I'm on day 5 without sunlight. Fortunately, I am buoyed by the fact that starting tomorrow we go into daylight savings time. Yay for not leaving law class in darkness. However, this also means that my early mornings will once again be conducted under shadow and darkness. Whatever, the trade-off is worth it.
Things are slowly yet surely closing in on me. There's not enough time to get things done thouroughly. I've got to finish off these essays and projects asap.
ETA: Photoshop is the devil. You hear me? THE DEVIL!!
~ Temptation took over at 06:32 p.m.
Saturday, April 3, 2004 - Love Wounds You In A Way That Doesn't Let You Live Or Die
Oh man, it is so late. Took me forever to get the new layout ready. By now your retinas are probably burning from the orangeness of the whole thing. It features full grown Ashura and Yasha from the Clamp manga RG Veda. It's a big change that took me some time to iron out. But I promised myself to post today and post I shall!
It has been rainy, gloomy and overcast for the last 4 days. If I don't see the sun soon, I will DIE! Mar gaya!! Shinigami hayaku!!! O to have those golden rays of heady light to dance across my skin again...
I watched Asoka today. Excellent movie. But so far removed from Indian history. Loved the whole thing, from warrior!Kareena, to the water & blood symbolism, to the wonderful soundtrack. And, of course, Shah Rukh Khan. Excuse me while I fangirl the half naked SRK taking a mudbath with flowers and candles. *wibble melt die* Only he could pull shit like that off :)
There was this guy next to me on the train today with an iPod. It looked so damn cool. I want one. How many songs does it fit again? Maybe I won't get one until they are fit to hold at least 1000 mp3s.
Speaking of mp3s, I'm proud to be Canadian. Welcome to Canada: Liberalist Paradise... home of gay marriage, decriminalized marijuana, and legal mp3 downloading. *cheers* It doesn't get much better than this.
Several situations have come up over the last few days where I have found myself defending my rather feminist beliefs. Interesting times. I'm rather having fun expressing my opinion. I don't do it very often, you see. Introvert and conflict avoider that I am.
~ Temptation took over at 01:43 a.m.