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Friday, September 2, 2005 - Come Salsa With Me, It's Party Time!
Everytime your name was brought up I would act all non-chalant in front of an audience, like you was just another shorty I put the naughty on, but uh truth be told you threw me for a loop.
Hee, I like that song. OOOOH, I like the next song ever more! It's Swallowed By The Sea by Coldplay. Everything by Coldplay is pure gold, really. *sways to the music*
Working on my next layout. I've been spurred to do some layouts and icons again thanks to the fact that I now have Photoshop CS. Hooray!
Speaking of driving, I've been thinking about how ones state of mind changes once you get behind the wheel and you've been driving for several years. I recently went to a refresher defensive driving course and I am actively trying to erase my bad habits and drive like anything (read: something bad) could happen. The thing is, the ego becomes a huge issue on the road. Like, you know when you take the ramp to get onto the highway, and the stress associated with hoping people aren't going so fast that you can't get in? Legally, you HAVE to let merging traffic in. But how many times are you driving in the rightside lane and see cars coming onto the highway... and you speed up they don't merge right in front of you? People are bizarely territorial about "their space" when driving, myself included. I'm trying to change that.
Another thing I'm trying to change: the amount of TV I watch. It's for good reason that people call it the Idiot Box. Once you start, you go into this zombie-like stupor that makes it near impossible to turn the damn thing off. The key is to never start at all. Usually, I want to watch TV as I eat dinner. Problem is that 45 minutes usually turns to three hours! O_O So I've decided to change that up... every time I eat I read a book instead. And hot damn I get so much more done in a day now! I'm even sleeping at a decent hour! Hallelujah! I like to think of this as practice for when I have kids; because I don't want them to grow up watching too much TV, I'm gonna cut down a lot when they come around.
I discovered this website called Last.fm and it's pretty cool. Keeps track of the songs you listen to, and allows you to communicate with people based on music tastes. Things don't get really fun until you've listened to 300 songs, so I've got a ways to go :)
~ Temptation took over at 11:42 a.m.
Sunday, August 14, 2005 - Lights Will Guide You Home
Yeah yeah, it's been awhile.
I guess I'm sorta getting used to this whole "finding a boy online" thing my parents threw me into. It's a little weird, but now there's this lingering amusement that accompanies me whenever I find myself updating my profile or searching through random member bios. I keep thinking that I should join one of those regular online dating things for hip young adults such as myself for kicks, where none of that "OMG get me a wife/husband!" crap is involved. Only problem is that dating services SCARE THE CRAP OUTTA ME. I guess it's just that process of getting used to it, not being weirded out anymore.
Want to know what the strangest feeling is? Reading all those profiles from Indian guys who want a good, sweet caring girl to marry... and then I minimize the browser to go back to Photoshop and continue working on my wallpaper of the insanely hot and sexy Jesse Spencer. Frigging hell, I'm gonna end up marrying someone who doesn't match my fantasy perfect man!
I had a dream a few nights ago that my parents set me up ona "date" of sorts with an okay Indian guy. He was very sweet, but I just didn't feel any connection to him. But he was just SO DAMN SWEET; we went to a big Indian party (gee, how convenient) and there was an explosion or something and he kept me out of trouble. And in the end I felt a thousand gossipy Indian eyes on me as he asked me what I thought of him... and I said something like "I guess I'd better get started on those wedding invitations." while repressing a sigh of resignation. And the whole room cheered with happiness because I had made a "good choice". "Such a wonderful boy, good she accepted him!" Ugh. Gimme a break.
As far as things are heading for me, I only get once chance at romantic happiness. No chance to scrap everything and start over, like with schooling or a career. If we can change careers why can't we change spouses? Well, I could leave someone if I wasn't totally happy with them, but then I'd be damaged material in the Indian spouse market. I'd have turn to local westerners for potential relationships... wait, THAT'S AWESOME! I already want to be with a white guy anyway! Maybe I should just set this plan into action from the get go! ;)
*stretches* Heh. I am the laziest person ever. 7 PM and I haven't done a damn thing all day but watch TV, eat, and work on Photoshop. LOLZ this is the life :)
~ Temptation took over at 06:47 p.m.
Tuesday, July 26, 2005 - We Are In Need Of A Musical Revolution
Shit, man. It's been a while.
What's happened since I last posted? Hmmm. Got a car. Went to Paris. Went to London. Went to San Diego. Started working at my new job. Went to Nova Scotia. Made icons. Had a slightly disturbing dream about Dr. Gregory House. SDDS and all that.
No, really. Europe was amazing. I was utterly blown away by Paris. London was endearing as well. San Diego was super-cold, much to my surprise. But the wedding (while mostly in chaos mode) was amusing. I am getting used to the idea that I will have one soon. The new job is interesting. My boss is unique for sure. Never graduated from high school and is now the OHS Director for a multinational corporation. Nice enough guy, likes to give me lots of independance with my work. Also tells really bad jokes. Like: "What's the difference between a Spice Girls video and a porn flick? The porn flick has better music." O_O Anyway, the job is cool thus far. I get all kinds of perks like company cards and laptops and cellphones. But I have to drive a lot, which is bothersome yet enjoyable at the same time somehow.
Otherise, everything is cool. Living with my brother is interesting. We have a good ole time.
Can't fall asleep at the office... bedtime now.
~ Temptation took over at 10:46 p.m.
Wednesday, May 11, 2005 - Memories Will Stay Forever With Your Love
Julia is going through some major crap right now. She's got some dramarama going on with Adrian. Apparently, he's been treating her badly, unprofessionally. Things are tense up at the clinic. So she's been spending more time down with me. Also, she's having a fight with her boyfriend/fianceé. She wants to get married. He wants her to wait 3 more years. Things would be easier for her in that department if his and her parents would be more open about the idea of them being together when still not married. Julia and Her Boy need a serious talk about committment. I know she doesn't want to throw 4 years away.
I've got my share of dramarama at work. There's this woman named Charlene that no one likes at the office. She drops by a pops into my office every now and then, because she wants the place for herself when I leave. It's weird. Also, I may have made an enemy out of one of the head honchos. And my boss thinks I'm a doofus. Aaaahhhh, I hate these office politics! School is so much easier to deal with; there's no hierarchy of command amongst the people you work with.
~ Temptation took over at 11:05 p.m.
Wednesday, May 4, 2005 - Get Your Mind Right
So I got the job at Maple Leaf Foods. I start after I come back from San Diego. And I'm still gonna work at the hospital until I leave for Europe. The stess, she will kill me.
I also was worried about school, in the fact that my research paper for Seminars sucked donkey balls. And it's practically the only thing we had to do for that class. If I bomb the essay I could fail! My GPA would drop! But note I say that I was worried. I got a grip and realized I already had a job. Plus, if I failed and didn't complete that one course, my employers would never know. As far as everyone is concerned, I have graduated, QED.
Anyway, back to working at the hospital. Monika and Julie are such girls. They always have some scheme or secret gossip they're talking about. They're polite and passive to the point of being back-handed and mildly offensive. They talk about boys and clothes and jewellery a lot. I think they're those QISA Bitches that grew up and made it into the real world. Yet... they're so damn sweet. Especially Julie.
Julie works with The Boys, Adrian and Lee. Julie and Monika gave me a girl-biased overview of The Boys. Adrian is a hilarious guy, a big flirt who you'd never know was married with a kid. Lee was dubbed as a sweethear, a Casanova AND a gay man's dream come true ;) Lee? Is so very hot. Like, the first time I met him I could only think "Whoa! He's gorgeous!" He has a Caribbean accent, but he looks Latin American. Severely hot. But has a girlfriend, so whatever :) Today we were all doing some Health & Safety promotion and at one point I was hanging with Lee and Adrian, and it felt a lot more comfy than with the girls. With girls, I always feel as if I'm being judged. Doesn't help that Monika and Julie are the same age as me, and Indian. Lee and Adrian are a lot older than me and not Indian. I feel like I've got less to prove around them, that it would be okay to screw up around them. But that's just me.
This shit is bananas.
~ Temptation took over at 05:56 p.m.
Tuesday, May 3, 2005 - Come Get My Love
So I've joined the working world. It's interesting, mostly due to the unique nature of the place I'm working at. I have a job at an inner-city teaching hospital doing Occupational Hygiene. There's a lot of responsibility involved, because the chickie who hired me (Monika) is leaving this Friday. She's Indian, like me. So is the girl she hired last year, (Julia) who works there still. They're both really silly girly girls, but fun at the same time. They have this saying: "Everything sounds funnier in a fob accent." And boy do they ever bust out that fob accent whenever they can! It's crazy how they manage to balance insane amounts of work with acting completely insane. I'm mostly stressed about the entire thing right now, due to the things I'll have to do once Monika leaves. I try not to think about it.
In addition to THAT working stress, I also applied for a full-time job with Maple Leaf Foods and I might get that job... in which case I'd have to leave the hospital. Monika is worried about that. I should know by tomorrow whether I got the job or not. That job's a sweet management training position with full benefits, but requires I purchase a car. Either way, lots of responsibility coming my way.
I don't mind the responsibility too much; I like the feeling that I'm an adult now. But my Peter-Pan complex has been acting up late at night before I fall asleep, as I think about how much better life was back when I was a child. I would love to go back to being a child. But I know that if I was a child I would wish I was an adult. Oh irony of ironies!
~ Temptation took over at 01:11 a.m.