11/22/02Sullen Girl
ATTENTION! I AM ANGSTING!!!! ARGH! yes it is true. i am pretty damn angsty today. sigh, well it really started yesterday morning. whatever. i talked to kenneth and well yeah ya know how that must have went. what is worng with me! oh fuck all this shit!!! i hate things! yargh!
blegh, but heh, well i don't really care bout much right now. gonna go make some cookies in a minute. yay!
*.* i should be adding some fun shit in this entry but i am lazy. maybe i will if i get a chance later.
oh, ::evil grin:: i forgot to mention that i had a *SHINYA* dream a few days ago! ho ho yes i did. it...was...nice...
::giggles madly and blushes:: yeah yeah i know i am sick. i am also just wwwwaaaaiiiittttiiinnnggg for someone to tell me i need a boyfriend. well for that poor unlucky bastard that does happen to say that to me, they. are. dead. i am just waiting for someone to make a smartass comment like that me. i really hate it when people say stupid shit like that. that is like trish tell me how sorry she feels for cuz i didn't get wasted over the weekend. whatever. sadly the truth is, i really don't like too many people in general right now. dun want no boyfriend, been there done that shit. i am all too tired of dealing with whiny, jelouse, butthurt males that have a trunk full of emotional problems. hmph! i swear. they are nice to look at but from a nice, safe distance only. when someone worthy comes along i will let yall know! besides kenneth and i already decided by combining our mental phsyco powers and channeling our chi, that this is not a good time for relationships. however...the thought of hearing that oh so special, ::slip:: around your neck then ::click:: doesn't sound half bad. BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAAHA!!!!!!!!!!
ps: shinya had a nice penis ^.^ ::blush::
11/20/02
Hot Chocolate and Yaoi
well lets see, i guess i should update and change the look here ne? well if i am ever not too lazy...
anyway, i also wanted to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOSHIKI!! heh heh, well just wanted to say that. why? go on guess. oh go on. give up? well i wil tell you, cuz yoshiki is cool alright. so there.
hm, maybe i should write something interestin here ne? well i dun wanna. however, for those interested, here is a little something i enjoyed over the course of two days and yummy hot chocolate. :9 not for the faint of heart. actually i am a bit ashamed at myself for reading such a "naughty" fic. well almost anyway.
11/18/02
Drowning Sunday
there is so much going on in my head right now i just don't know where to begin. haven't blogged lately but i feel i really need to. everything has just been so scattered. okay first, a rund down of high points.
thursday i went to see kelly. which was very fun and i am so glad we got to do that. i really needed to get out i guess. fun was had by all. ^__^ the next two days were fine and dandy. except of course, on cue, trish calls asking where the party is tonight and if i can et her invited. i really should have gone off on her then. although, it really wouldn't have done much good. she wouldn't have said a damn thing back to me. it really is no fun to argue with nonconfrontational people since they don't argue back. and the whole point of confronting her in the first place would be to hopefully resolve all this shit. honestly so many relations ships with friends i have had in the past could have been spared if more people were not so afraid just TO FUCKING TALK ABOUT WHAT IS BOTHERING THEM!!! shit i hate that! they would rather seeth and talk behind your back than tell you to your face. blegh...pussies. oh yeah! but sunday was pretty good. saw the new HARRY POTTER. man...i was dissapointed. fun enough i guess but totaly dissapointed. i guess i was expecting too much. i feel sorry for those who haven't read the books. they would be so lost since the movie jumped around so much. ah but the high points were, of course my darling SNAPE sama!! (oh snape sama! can i have detention with you!!??!! please...!) ::giggles madly:: also lucious malfoy was...was...well...bishounen!!!!!! wah! ::is trying to surpress the fic ideas:: gah, and not to mention that scene with ron and hermione. eep! ka, kawaii. the rest of my night has a bit of a smokey haze.
and now ladies and gentlemen, time for some odd ramblings: gah, how do i start. maybe it is just because of the change in season, the cold weather bringing with it ghosts and memories. sigh...nothing seems right and time feels like it is sped up. i hate that. i may joke about it, but i really believe i am battling a bout of nastalgia. i am not sure why it comes to me this way and why i can never get rid of this. so strong i feel like i just can't move. and i want to catch hold of something, but the wind is blowing and i can't move since things are flying by too quickly. bit and flashes and scences resemble life but it doesn't feel real. i am not sure why. sigh...i keep running into people from my past lately and i am not sure i like that. i think i am supposed to do something with it all but i am not sure of what. the cold weather reminds me of that time i was truly happy for the first time. it was so long ago and i didn't appreciate it when it was there. but i remember that feeling. not to say i am not happy now, it was just so different at that time. somewhere i keep thinking i will find that time again for a moment and put it to an end forver. but i don't want that. i did once, but not know. i am not that strong yet. the answer means to jump into that cold lake all by self ne? hm... all that aside, there is something i want. something i don't recal having the urge for in a long time. hmph, well what can i say. it is very far away ne? no simple feeling or anything someone could give you. falling red leaves and deep water and stars and 'that' smell in my dreams. feh, i think i am finally craving the hunt again now that i am old enough to understand it. will it ever come, or do i find it myself? everything feels numb in my dollhouse. you know, my poor denise needs something too. but it is very different from what i want. speaking of denise i would like to take this moment to say i love her lot. :D she really is wonderful. spaceships and faces and all. my tribe baby! gotta love 'em. (oh our tribe feels so small still. scattered of course it is only a matter of time.)it feels nice to hae someone speak the same language as you. ah!!!!!!!!!!!! it is calling me again. not nearly as loud as when i was child, but...the whisper i hear, i want it. crystal, why can't you leave all those people behind. drowning in hell? i don't know. where will i find all those types of flowers? i guess in the end all i know that is real is that sweet christmas taste on my lips and that night turns to day too soon. ...orange jasmine... rwwooorrr! hm, trying to put all this feeling into words...i wonder if it is working. probably rubbish if you don't know me. but i had to get some of it out anyway. it probably sounds as though i am being angsty or something. not really though. okay well not at all. if i was angsty i would paint my nails black and talk aout how the world is a dark lonely place. and while that may be true, i refuse to open my eyes because my garden will wither. yes, angsting is best left to bishounen. not that i am particularly imune, but if i am ever angsty, i will be sure to say so. ^^::
note: just a side note. i just realized i have been up for over 24 hrs. why? what have i been doing? why i am i stil awake? argh! thinking up a new layout for here among many other things. i suck i need to go to bed. yargh!
11/13/02
and...
okay so this was so absolutly friggin cute. go read it. NOW. also, I WANT IT, I WANT IT, I WANT IT, I WANT
IT SO BAD I WOULD SELL MY SISTER ON THE BLACK MARKET! ehe, awww...but ain't he grand?! oh, and this made my 'lil day. XD hmmm....is that it? did i miss anything? most likely. but whatever.
11/13/02
More Than This
hm, me no blog for a while ne? okay so lets see...so much to catch up on. first let me start by saying i really wanted to go to bed early tonight. midnight at the latest i told myself. but then i sat down to watch some t.v. and THE DARK CRYSTAL was on!! i have never seen the end of that movie before. so i figure i'll watch that, then go to bed right? wrong, i made the mistake of having a frap. and now i am caffinated! (or something) no sleep for me. yeah so today was like a drawing mood day for me. i sat down drawing for, get this, 7 hours!!! OMG! what the hell is wrong with me? well i'll tell you this, right now my neck, back, and right arm are sore like crazy. but i really didn't draw anything interesting. a mini DIRU chibi comic, and i finished that shrine maiden and dragon pic i was working on. eh, well it started out as a pic of this sweet miko type girl right? then the i thought it needed something. heh heh, enter hentai idea, "oh hows about a dragon for the miko to be sacraficed to?" yikes! well i thought i would if only to practice drawing a dragon. i am actualy pretty limited on the things i tend to draw even thought i have been drawing for a long time. so it really turned out as more of an exercise than anything. the pic didn't turn out anything like i had hoped. i got so lazy too i just didn't detail it and did it fast and sloppy. sigh...but on the up side my first dragon attempt was better than i thought. hm, why does he look slightly bishounen? blegh, you can take the crazed fangirl and rescue..i mean take away all her bishouen, but you can't quite take the bishounen out of the girl. uh, wait...that didn't come out right ne? ^__^;;; that sounds wrong. so very wrong. but you get the idea. anyway, so yeah i was drawing all day. and while i was on the phone with kelly i drew a pic of her r.p. character. simple monchro. nice. and during and after THE DARK CRYSTAL, i drew a (heh heh) naked pic of YOSHIKI. and then a bust shot of AIJI. i m odd ne?
oh, i also wrote alot more on my story today. i am pretty much done. ^_________________^ hee hee. i am so etchi today! nooo! will this madness never end? yeah you can tell i am bored. i am kinda mad denise didn't cal me back tonight. hmph! whatever.
i guess i have been some what of a hermit lately. not my fault my "friends" suck. i just don't feel like dealing with the drama i guess. i really don't. and since trish is being a bitch, i am not going to try and ask her to be nicer. now way, it was like she was using me the past few weeks just to get invited to all those parties! besides she eigther would get really drunk and make a fool of herself of want to go home early. she's really being a bitch, but you know what? i wonder why it is bothering me so much. i really hate feeling used i guess. and she makes it sound now like she doesn't need me or something when we talk. okaaaayyyy...i thought we were friends. i am just thinking, don't rub your new friends in my face cuz i am not envious. those kids suck! big fat grade A white bread boring ass losers. i hate it that she talks to me like, "oh, i am sorry you didn't go out and get trashed this weekend, cuz i did without you. gee, you must feel like a loser." NO I DON"T GOD DAMNIT!!! arggghh! i just wanna say, DON"T PITY ME BITCH CUZ I DON"T NEED IT! heh...i seem mad ne? :D it's cool. i just have to wonder why coolness is measured in how drunk you can in a weeknd and who you screw. honestly i am so over that part of my life. i don't always HAVE to be partying, geez. yeah so i had the party girl rep, but now it seems like i don't go to all the parties and dinners she doesn't want to hang out wit me as much. BITCH!!!!!
whatever, that rant is over with. not worth worrying about. it just irritates me. speaking of booze though, i really wanted to go out to carlos o'brians with the kids one of theese weekends. last weekend would have been great but i thought i might be able to see chris so i cancled with them. -__-
how gay!
alright kiddies, what have all learned today? well, we learned that trish is an butter churning bimbo cow, i am a fangirl in love who has waaaayyyyy too much time on her hands, and could really use a drink right now.
11/10/02
Moo Madness
not a whole lot to say today. it was boring. plans fell through, trish is pissing me off, and i am stuck at a point in KLONOA. i think i am gonna go do something. i don't know what though. maybe finish up the story i started this morning. (my muse hit hard...with a baseball bat no less! -_-) and i wanna draw my mini manga i have ben thinking about all week. sigh...
11/9/02
Armored Moo!
well not much of an update today. too tired/lazy, whatever. i just wanted to say, i got KLONOA2 for the PS2 today! wai! me so happy. cute, cute, cute. and my little KLONOA is k.a.w.a.i.i!
11/4/02
gargh
i felt the need to say i have two very annoying fic ideas running laps in my mostly empty head. yeah, this is bad. i don't think they are going to let me rest until i write them. haaa...one DIRU and one IY. sigh...
11/4/02
Bleed
oh god...i had the worst day. that's all i'm really gonna say bout that. yeah, VERY bad. whatever. i'm hungry. why am i hungry? i ate a while ago. hmmm... anyway, what the FUCK is this? yeah, oooookkkkaayyyy ya sick bitch. jeez people like you ought to be shot! argh, full of hate want to kill! ha ha! just kidding. infact, how is it i ((heart)) DIRU, and am completely against violence?? i am also not a big fan of dying. yeah. huh, whatever floats your boat i guees.
wah! i had a weird dream last night. (okay so when don't i? well i was sitting inside this limo with MANA (hime) and we were driving to MADONNA's birthday party, which was this huge block party. MANA was teling me something in a snotty voice so i leaned over and kissed his cheek. *chu* then the dream changed to where i was walking around this big pretty park in the rain crying becasue TOSHIYA said he didn't love me. o_O; not that he told me in my dream but i somehow had the conversation with him earlier and was crying about it. ::bonks head:: quit dreaming about weird stuff! yeesh, well at least i kissed MANA hime and he was very pretty in this dream too.
11/3/02
Schwein no isu
haaa...today was good then very bad. i don't want to go into to it too much. maybe tomorrow or something because the good things are worth the mention. i am tired and feel SICK! i wish tomorrow was monday. i can already tell it is going to be bad. i want to sleep for days. blegh...
EEP! i almost forgot! it was actually quite tramatizing. and yet again something i did not go looking for but happened across anyway. (the internet is scary place. good, but scary.)
you want to know another thing that is scary? (well not really) i have this growinf fasination with DIE. don't ask me why. and of course, kyo's hands. ;D
11/1/02
OVERDOSE!
DIRU overdose...*vomits* (kyo: coooooool!) sigh.....but even though i have died from the excessive amount of makeup, platform, pvc, and boys who look better than i EVER will in a dress...it's okay. since i'll be floating up to DIRU heaven. ::revives:: okay i got this really yummy eggnog yesterday and i had to write about it. why do i always write about food? cuz i am a fat bitch who likes eggnog okay?! good. anyway it's a tasty vanilla spice flavor. everyone should have some. i stayed up very late you know. i have been reading the inuyasha manga translations. my goal is to someday read them all. how ever for now i am only on book 9 *shiku*
this has been a rather random entry i realize. gomen.
11/1/02
Kyyyyyyyyyyyaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!
ahem...well lets see, i have an anouncment to make. *strikes dramatic pose* i am now the proud owner of my very own PS2. hell yeah! i got it last night as a late birthday present from my mommy ::smile:: although i did not get a game i will get one next week when i go to the mall or something. i don't mind cuz i still had the DIR EN GREY d.v.d kenneth got me to watch. and yes, did i ever watch it. the frist thing i did when i walked throught the door was fire that baby up. heh heh, mmmm....oh yes....ummm......kyo.....XD.....::drolling::
yes well, lets just say i like that d.v.d wah! youkan video SWEET! (i am sorry but i really like that song! ::guilty::)
oh my goodness, after having seen the videos i have to ask myself 'what kind of fan was i before now!!??' this has just brought my j rock obsession to a whole new level i never thought possible. wai!! kyo dancing around!! cute!!!! ::suddenly has the urge to wear black lipstick and ANGST like all hell:: XD ahem well anyway, sigh, now i need kingdom hearts. ah yes, i have avoided video games as long i could. but now...i must give in. well if no one hears from for about a month or six i'll be infront of the t.v. kay? blegh, noooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!
*yawn* tired. i must sound so dumb right now babbling about silly shit, but oh well. maybe a better entry next time ne? maybe.
10/31/02
Blue Agave
hi, my name is crystal and i'm drunk. ha, okay well maybe not but i am definately tipsy right now. i just got home. i went out tonight with carrie, prism, sommer, abby, and *shudder* jamie to this pre halloween show. there were some kick ass bands and hal 13 was there too yay! hall 13 kicks fucking ass. it was kinda weird cuz i went all dressed up and not that many people were. here is a run down of my outfit:
blue lowrise jeand and a white pretty peasant top
small kid sized fairy wings with ivy and flowers
glitter (and lots of it)
pretty flower wreaths around both wrists
a flower wreath in my hair
ribbon wrapped around and hanging from everywhere
and a cute lil star wand i put flowers and ribbon on
so i thought i looked really cute tonight so whatever, if no one else dressed up. well some people did. anyway, i have to say it is so fun being 21!! i haven't really been drinking since i turned 21 but i did today. it was really different being able to order from the bar. and the club we went to was prety nice. better the the dives we usually go to. so we all sat down at the bar but i didn't have much $$ to buy drinks with but then some lady asked me if she could buy me a shot. i was like...okay. hell yeah and then these HOT and i mean MOTHA FUCKIN' HOT GUYS were talking to us and givin' us drinks. they had this melon shot thing wich was yummy! :3 and since i was dressed as a fairy i was tapping them with my wand on the head and gave the cutest guy a kiss on the cheek. (awww) he was so nice. i was trying to hook sommer up with him. i had so many margaritas and me and tamara shared most of the drinks since i like her and wanted her to drink too. then carrie brought over the lead singer from hall 13. (CUTE!!!) but he looked all scary for halloween. so we talked with he guys a bit and some other members of some other bands. then we watched the show. too bad jamie and sommer were there cuz i would have been dancing but i felt too self concious then. and at the end of the show there was the lead singer from the band oktoberwho all trying to mosh with me! he is so scary, i was like OMG attack of the egyptions! oh well. it was so fun.anyway i am happy i got to go out all dressed up at least. on the way home we met these drag queens at the stop light next to us who invited to something called hamburger mary's. (??) don't know what that is but i wanted to go. although jamie wanted to go home. bitch. sigh...well i had such a fun night. but i am off to bed now. just wanted to blog about all ze fun. oyasumi
10/29/02
Top Ramen
gah...not much to report. bored. i was actaully in a good mood today until i talked to denise. nothing bad was said or anything but suddenly during our conversation i was feeling more upset. i think it may have been comment she made to me. i have been thinking about it but i am not sure. whatever when we got off the phone i was not as happy. she brought my mood down i guess. sigh...maybe i shouldn't let myself be so open to other people. (demons are looking pretty good right about now ::faint::)
speaking of demons...i found this. but wait wait! it's not what you think. i didn't go looking for that at all!! i am serious! okay so it looks bad i realize but i really did just stumbled across this place. not that it didn't make me all hanyaan...but that's not the point! anyway, you know i am not a big fan of his really but sesshomaru (sp??) looks the best i think.
well, i suppose i should go and do all those things i need to do. and maybe draw some more tonight. whee! picccies of shrine maidens! o__o;;;
10/28/02
Kompeito
i just...wanted to say...although there really is no reason for it...SUSUWATARI NO KAWAII!!! ne ne? ::arms crossed:: hmph...then it's settled. kawaii.
20/28/02
Subarashii!
okay, now a real entry. so let's see where do i begin? i had a really great weekend!!! ::nikuniku:: i am not too sure why it was great but i was. saturday i went out with my mom first to the eye doctor since my doggy ate my (new) glasses. haaaaa...have to get another pair again. then i got a birthday present from (??) HIMITSU!! heh heh. ah but that was nice. we then went to TORRID and i bought this pretty black slinky dress and used up the rest of my gift card. since we were both hungry when we left the mall and went to trader joe's for mochi(i?). bah, they were out but there was this lady handing out goddies. so we got samples of apple pie with french vanilla ice cream and ginger bread cookies. :3 oishii!! so we took our snacks and left. and as we were walking back to the car i had this perfect moment. it was all rainy that day and the sky was grey with tiny streams of sunlight coming through and huge clounds. it smelled good like rain and felt nice and cool. and there we are eating hot apple pie and cold sweet ice cream. mmmm, it just felt so good! it's hard to explain but believe me it was a perfect moment. i was happy. later on the way home we trided to stop at the art store but it was closed. ::sad:: when we came home i found my present from kenneth had come and it was GACKT's REBIRTH c.d. and a DIR EN GRY d.v.d!!! ah! ::faint:: i have not watched the d.v.d yet cuz i still need to deal with THAT whole mess. but the c.d. is so wonderful. i can't stop listening to it. that is why i thought i would post the lyrics to MARMALADE. that is a neat song it sounds like some silly poem i would write. yay! gackt-kun thinks in "doki doki" like me. plus i think that song really describes my happy feeling the past few days. i called him and thanked him. (after INUYASHA was over that is! :3)
hm, and sunday was an okay day too. i woke up late and went to the groceries for my mom. wah! i told them not to leave me alone in a place like that with money!! too much temptaion damn it! okay so i didn't buy everything in sight, just a few cute things i 'needed'. i got groceries of course. (and all under $30 i might add so hmph) then saw the halloween section! yay! i got some black candles and a little ghost cookie cutter i had to have. so i can make some lil "boo" cookies. and there was this big adorable coffe mug. painted purple in the background for the night sky and a black cat jumping in the air. (and there were some fat pumpkins too) but when i saw the black cat i had an awful 'kiki' flashback and then i new i had to have it. i have also affectionatly named the cat on the cup 'jiji'. therefore making it my 'jiji' cup. feh.
::yawn:: i am tired. gah, when am i not? it's my own fault too. i was doing horrible things all night. okay okay i was drawing some sen to chihiro fanart! alright ya happy now. well i guess it wasn't too bad. i did this uber cute pic of haku...smiling! (swoon) also one of chihiro standing next to that statue her dad almost hit in front of the tunnel. (it's funny) and haku in all his dragony goodness. hmmm...wasn't there something about a dragon and a young virgin in one that hiroyuki utatane comic???? do do do....pretend you didn't hear that.
okay it's official, my brain isn't working. oyasumi.
10/28/02
Marmalade
the first sunday after i came to this town,
even though there was no reason why, my heart,
was racing and i opened the window,
far away i could see a dazzling rainbow arch,
almost like it was beckoning me
a cute bicycle and this gentle afternoon,
on a hilly road, my heart beat faster and faster,
when i saw you standing in the shade of the tree,
i felt a new breeze
my hunch is about a miraculous meeting...suddenly
even now, my pounding heart feels like it's going to fly off
the word for this feeling,
can't be found out, can't be discovered,
i can't say anything but,
now i want to gaze at you like this
on my way back alone,
i always look up
everyday's been colorful since that day,
i want my overflowing feelings to reach you
i wonder if i can meet you again,
i want to see you once more, i look for you,
like i don't want it to be over with one meeting,
i look for you
these feelings of unrequited love,
i can't convey them, i can't completely convey them,
no matter how much i search, you,
can't be found out, can't be discovered
even though i went back alone,
i was a little happy
sigh...today i woke up so early. which is odd since i only got a few hours of sleep. last night i went to this girl's birthday party. i guess i had fun. ^__^ i did but the night could have gone better. i drank too much too. i think i woke up drunk. -__-;;; right now i am waiting to go out shopping with my mom and i am watching this cool movie called The 47 Ronin. it's on IFC right now but i did not catch it from the begining. i would like to watch it again.
mmmm...today is all rainy. it gives me such a nice feeling. almost romantic.
::shakes head:: today was deffinately a strange day. not in a bad way really cause i honestly feel pretty good. unfortunatly i woke up very late again. although this time i think i have a valid excuse!! i was up cleaning all night. i can't believe i got so much done now that i thik about it. so i was sooooo sleepy and slept a long time.
actually today i did not mind sleeping so long since i had a nice dream! @__@;;; okay well i guess i will write this dream down before i forget it even though it will make me sound like a big nerdy fangirl. but i guess it would be okay since i NEVER have anime dreams and once in a while is okay right? by the way, the anime in question here would be inuyash. ::blush:: start dream--> okay so i am sitting at home at about thinking i would like to go the movies. so i call up my next door neighbor,(who happens to be kagome!!) to see if she would like to go to the movies with me at 4:40. she says yes and she will call me when she is ready to go. okay so i am waiting around for kagome and it is getting pretty late! and just then, guess who knocks on my front door?? go on, just guess. i bet you'd never guess, never. ahem, well i go to answer the door and who else could it be it's our favorite doggy eared hanyou himself. ^.^;; except he is wearing tight dirty blue low rise jeans and fitted black tshirt. ^____________________^
he asks me if i have seen kagome lately. i say no and that i was wondering where she was at since we had plans to go to the movies. he looks a little sad. i ask him what is the matter and if he and kagome were fighting or something.
then he explained that when him and kagome finished their journey (don't ask what happened to the jewl, i don't know!) and her and her family moved here (next door to me) she told him she didn't want to 'be' with him but came along anyway to protect her. (awww...) but he said that he wasn't hurt about it anymore just worried about her. i ask him to wait outside for a moment and then grab my phone and call kagome's house. the line is busy! then it accured to me that she must be talking to that boy at school she really liked. i felt really bad and didn't know what to tell inuyasha. i went back outside and said i called but the line was busy and we both walked over the side of the house where kagome's bedroom window was and sure enough we saw her laying on her bed giggling on the phone. (she was also listening to some hip hop too. don't ask) inuyasha said it must be that boy from school. i was annoyed kagome
blew me off and felt a little pouty. so i got closer to inuyash and became very coy with him. i said i was sad about missing the movie and asked him what i should do. i noticed some dirt on his shoulder and brushed it away. and then with my other hand i grabbed a small lock of hair and twirled it on my finger. (gah! i never act that way! ^__^;;) he looked very surprised and asked if i was really sad. i pouted and said yes. he hugged me very tight and it was so nice. kyaaaa! ::dokidoki:: hugging inuyash...cute! he turned me around so i had my back to his chest and kept hugging me. i grabbed his hands and kissed them. then i pulled away and asked if he thought i was being too forward. he said no and that he had honorable intentions. XD i went back to him and he continues hugging me and then held one of my hands up and looked at it then held my hand. sigh...cute. then my dad shows up with taco bell and tosses me some tacos. i say i don't want them and give them to inuyasha. he takes the bag inside and sits down in front of the t.v. and starts flipping channels. he motions for me to come and sit next to him. okay! then i wake up. -__-;;; hmm... interesting dream ne? okay okay i am sorry i know i am a sick scary girl who should not be dreaming of anime!! a nt a fangrl i tell you! wah! it's not my fault. but it was fun anyway. i totally blame the thought of inuyasha in tight jeans on her.
okay so yeah that was a weird dream, but anyway like i was saying my day was weird too. not just the dream though. i can't really describe it. i talked to kenneth and then steven stopped by. that was VERY odd. ::gulp:: and he, uh, kissed me too. it was surprising but cute. :3 lots of doki doki feelings today.
i can't believe it is almost the end of october all ready! this month has flow by too fast if you ask me. i guess i wish it just could have better. ah! but it is such nice weather the past few weeks. i am very happy about that. right now i am listeng to the ending theme for saint tail!! weird no? i do love this song though for some reason. blegh..i should go to bed soon. i did alot of cleaning today which is good since i have been so lazy lately. and in other news i finaly finished that 35 chap. fic that has taken me all fucking week to read!! egads! i should learn not to waste my life on such things. oh well, but honestly it really wasn't worth it in the end. -__-;;; whatever.
well not much of an update. my life is so painfully boring. the only pleasure i get is from beating my head into the wall until i black out. okay well maybe not just that. but there really isn't much to report, sadly. i have been drawing ALOT the past few days. nothing big just sketches but that is better than nothing eh? i have a 'miko' obsession right now. also a thing for japanese ghosts! -__-;;; hmm...who can say what exactly is wrong with me, ne? anyway since my creative juices have beena' fowin', i was thinking about trying my hand at some ficcies!! yay! since 95% of the ones i do read are complete garbage. okay okay, no. we do not want to get started on that subject i could be here all day.
whatever. gee, i so have to get out more.
::yawn:: ah, i am so tired right now i can not stand it!!!
oh, i was up reading again! @_@;;; damn i guess i should get to bed huh? it is a nice morning though. my head is swimming from fic overload, lack of sleep, and that cold early morning smell that feels like school. gee, am i losing it or what?? i suppose sleep would not be such a bad thing right now. i can go and have sweet dreams. kyaaaaa!! XD *nikuniku*
blegh...i am tired right now. i should have gone to bed a long time ago. but nooo, not me i don't know what my problem is. watever. right now i am listening to yoko kanno's 'song to fly album'. it's really interesting. i have not listened to this for a while. today my mom and i went to my nanny and aunt's house to celebrate my aunt's birthday. it was fun even though my day turned out nothing like i was hoping. i was hoping to get all that much needed cleaning done. sigh...ah well, tomorrow is another day.
yesterday i had fun too. i went to the mall and got some uber cute low rise jeans on sale and a red harry potter tshirt. also the manga MARS #2 at the comic shop. i really like that series although now i am thinking i should have gotten that sen to chihiro film comic instead. ::jumps up and down:: damnitall i knew i should've gotten it!!!
gee, i just realized this entry isn't too interesting okay time for bed.
right now i am painting my nails this very lovely
pale mocha color called 'shy'. i am also listening faye wong's c.d. 'fable'. at first when i got this c.d. i didn't like it as much as i do my other c.d. but now i completely love it! today was an odd day. a friend and i went to the arcade 'gameworks'. it was fun although i have felt like staying at home lately. how strange for me ne? but it was such nice weather today. everything is feeling very much like christmas right now. the cool weather, and this music. it makes me feel a little sad i guess. not in a very bad way though. maybe sad is not quite the right word. but i do feel very quiet and introspective lately. we passed by the
fair tonight and staring at the big lit up farris wheel, i had such a romantic feeling!! it felt really nice.
anyway, crystal needs to make a trip the art store. ::sniff:: i have actually been in the mood to draw more but i don't have any good pens, or blenders, not to mention paper!! i really need to get to cleaning out my stuff in storage because i know i have some pastels and i'd really like to try out this technique i saw in one of my color kingdom books. oddly enough, the thing i have been seeing alot of in my drawings lately is japanese style costumes. that is different for me since i usually draw western style costumes. hmmm...whatever.
so today was my mom's birthday. and guess what? my aunt got her this huge turtle cheesecake!! ::big watery chibi eyes::
ch...cheese cake!?! wah! happy! i had a big piece and it was yummy. my aunt had some lady she works with make it. it was really rich and probably oaded with calories but that's okay. i am fat and HAPPY! anyway, i just wanted to write and talk about the cake not much else to say. (it seems i am always eating...) whatever. oh yeah! and i drew a piccy of kagome earlier too. ^_________________^
ah, right now is boring a little. i am eating some ramen but ramen is never really good ya know. but i am using the chopsticks denise got me! ^.^ oh but i am also drinking some of that yummy japanese peach water stuff. ::munchmunchmunch:: XD other than all that i am waiting for mommy to come home. today is her birthday and my sister and i went out today and got here a dozen pink roses, a box of toffee candy, and a bottle of strawberry wine! i hope she likes it. i didn't really have time to get her much else. i was going to make her a cake but my aunt bought her one instead. ::munchmunchmunch:: *sip* ahhh! peach no oishii!
sigh...i should clean the kitchen now. Hina chan makes such a mess! she chewed my birthday flowers up and now they are all over the floor. but anyway i found the cutest thing the other night. info and a recipe for onigiri. strangely enough it was on a furubu page, imagine that! but the cutest thing was the lil smiling onigiri. (watashi wa oishii!) i'll post the link in the linky section.
alright, it seems i finally have a chance to
blog here. i am still putting the finishing touches
on this page but am pretty satisfied with it! i am happy
i decided to make new blog. i still need to organize
and finish adding some of the links i enjoy! and the
sen/haku layout is something i really like.
so anyway, it's sunday night. after the non stop
"fun" of this weekend i am pretty beat. inside and out.
today was really great though. went to see nanny and got
my birthday goodies! Lydia promised to take me out to
lunch next time she gets payed. i am looking forward to that because we are planning on an indian place.
i also went to see "spirited away" again tonight. i a surprised i got to go! i took chibi inuyasha along too!
i think this time around i was able to appreciate the c.g. scenes more this time. i can be so uptight about that stuff. i was also very disturbed during the scene where a some of the bird gods were in a steamy tub together. they eerily resembled chicken soup!!! (okay maybe not but that is what came to mind ::laugh::)
did i mention my aunt got me this avon skin so soft 'soft and sensual' body wash? it smells great! i am smelling it right now.
