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No Rules....
Sunday, August 25, 2002
No Rules....
I realized life has no rules today... and yesterday... In contrast what's fair isn't really and what isn't fair if as close to justice as you'll get.People don't get what they deserve people get what other people think they deserve... what seems fair treatment from you to another person may be unfair to them or vise versa. There's one thing I know... judging people is unfair... it just puts life in a big endless cycle of social disaster... if you don't like someone let it be because you got to know them not because you took one look and decided to hate. That's unfair to everyone. You hurt others and who knows what kind of relationships you miss out on. I don't know just a thought to keep in the back ofo your head...maybe I'm crazy. I went to London last night and on the way home I saw a horrible car accident. A truck hit a mini van and the truck rolled into a corn field... it was upside down and there were three firetrucks a whoel bunch of volunteer firefighter ( wit the green lights) and two cop cars it was pretty bad... There were two ambulances too... and before we could get through the road i watched a lady cry by the side of the road while they loaded soneone into and ambulance... the whole thing just didn't seem fair... why those people, why there, why right then in time... There are no rules i guess. things happen but they aren't unfair or fair they just seem that way... They aren't either fair or unfair they are just steps in our lives that help us or others learn... sometimes the lessons are hard ( those seem to be the ones considered unfair) but if life was full of happy easy occurences then we'd all have life pretty easy... life would be boring and unsatisfying. But there are happy times like to night spending time with friends at tanya's. And know shelley u can't have pop corn adn a crotch rocket... jk..it's hard to believe that life is so diverse but it is and until i learn the definite difference of unfair and fair then i'm just gonna live it with hope for the future. I love all you guys, and i always will. Goodnight.
yeah! Out With the Old( and crappy ) and in with the Shelley
Thursday, August 22, 2002
yeah! Out With the Old( and crappy ) and in with the Shelley
Well today went so fast! Marg hired Shel at work today! yeah!that's so awesome.... I've been watchin the counter at work and detailing cars out back. Because ya know it's easy to be in two places at once! I don't think so! i'm so grateful for the help Shel will provide. Peace of mind and i get to spend more time wit her that rocks!The sad part is that Marg fired pete and darryl and james. And Pat quit! Jazz and Kendra Quit! we replaced 6 employees wit 1 efficient one, SHELLEY!Hey Shel trainin' rocks... It's fun watchin u do my work! ha ha ha.. Just kiddin' One week of summer left but ya know i'm ready to go back. i miss my friends... i miss seeing all of u guys everyday. I prolly should go. i love you guys so much. we have to party b4 school starts so call me. love u all, bye.
"we went out drivin' after midnight"
Sunday, August 18, 2002
"we went out drivin' after midnight"
"In the heat of the night we were havin a fiesta we danced until siesta when the sun came alive!" We got and did donuts. Hee hee! oh man i can't believe the things we do! Damn those mini- hos.... get your own damn fashion trends... stop stealin' ours... what the heck r we suppposed to wear now! Sanctuary! Experience the cruzin'. Is that a cop? Is there a cop behind us? That looks like (insert name here)'s car! Just stick your head out the window and everything will be ok! (right tee?) If you're fired and you know it clap your hands. Ya gotta go digital... Country music. Ok real sentences now, aka the end of inside jokes. Another 49 hour work week appraches. Hurray for overtime! Not! We're goin' to da movies this tuesday. Be there or be fired! I'm really happy now! But something still isn't really right. I keep gettin these spells of happiness followed by the crushing reality. Oh well ride the happy wave while it's here... who knows how long it'll last? Friends keep u in and out of reality its their job. thanx guys... the memories of these awesome summer nights and roadtrip make the harsh realities less devastating... I love it so much. I love you guys so much... but i gotta work tomorrow so thanx and byes.> Jo
memories 4 ever!
Sunday, August 18, 2002
memories 4 ever!
OMG! What a night! You guys know you're crazy right! "Thank God I'm a country boy!" ha ha ha. Are you guys havin fun? Yeah, that's good cuz we can hear you in the kitchen. I can't take you guys anywhere. We didn't scare Laurie(this is how you spell it guys, geez!) she had fun... Thanks for allowing that, she's not a bad kid if ya give her a chance. I can't believe he locked us out. That's it he's fired! Twice.... But can we invite him for dinner. Nooooooooooo! no girlfriend! Oh Tee how can you be sure Shelley was better, does Vell know about this? Hee hee. Why? o Why did the parentals have ta come home? Why? Oh well at least they weren't mad. Yeah! I get to see my Holly tomorrow... Her smile is si full of light, hope and innosence... my grandma says its because she left god so recently she says she can still see and talk to angels. I don't know what i think but i know how i feel... She's so perfect. I love her so much(read the poem dedicated to her if ya haven't already.)And to Shelley... I hope you go to camp if ya wanna but i'd love to spend the week wit ya. 16 days left till school. I can't wait to get to see everyone again... but so many people ahev left us. Oh well i'll have my memories but i get a new chance to start over and make a million more.And they will last forever like true friends that never die... as long as they can be remembered and make you smile than those friends will never have left you... i'll keep you guys with me forewer and always peace and love always >Jo
Saturday, August 17, 2002
Not Like You Remember>>>>>>>by me>>>>>>>I am different now, You made things go this way, I'm not like you remember, What else can I say? I won't take your crap, Not now not ever again, I realized I got burned, That you really weren't a friend.But I've learned from the past, Of kindness , love and hate, It's not like you remember, For us it is too late. I have left the place, Where you kept me locked away,I had never thought of you, At least not until today.It's funny how people change, And our pasts become haunted, But it's not like I remember, It's like I've always wanted.
Fallin'
Wednesday, August 14, 2002
Fallin'
Well i'm glad today is almost over. It feels like I'm fallin' through my life rather than walkin'. I can't hold my ground and I have no control over where I end up. I hope this is part of the plan. On today's list of news Pat (from work) quit and Darryl was fired. It's like they're clearin' all the nice guys out of work. You can't get rid of Pat he's the hottest one. I know i've written a lot of poems lately. If ya don't like 'em don't read 'em. I hope ya like 'em, but I'm gonna keep writin' 'em anyway. XXX is an awesome movie if you like explosions and hot guys. It's the kind of movie a girl and a guy could like on two different levels even though melisss thinks it was shitty actin'. I liked it. If anyone wants a job and ya can take the heat then my boss will hire u in a second she's desparate just drop off a resume. That's how i got my job. She looked at me for 20 seconds and then asked my if i could start training that afternoon. I know that reading my pita is sometimes like riding and emotional rollercoaster sometimes but right now I'm pretty stable... I'm hangin' in there at least until I start fallin' again. It's only scary when I've been fallin' for a long time and I can't get up.And to my friends right now and my friends of the past I don't wanna live a lie. I just want the hate and romours to stop. I wish I could say that you were only hurting yourselves but thruth betold you're hurting other people too. I don't want any part of it. I'm not sayin you all ahev to love each other... I'm just askin you to stop the backstabbin so all the tears can stop. I' m not even sure you guys know you're doin it to each other. just something for you ta think about. no matter how much gossip and lies are spread I still love ya all cuz that's what friends do... lova ya all always>>>Jo
Wednesday, August 14, 2002
You Beside Me>>>>>>>>>You may not see it now,
In fact you may never know,
How I feel when I'm with you,
I let true colours show.
I slip into a perfect world,
No hatred, no pain, no fear,
You silence a million needy pleas,
Just by being near.
You chase away dark shadows,
You keep me safe from harm,
You end all my problems,
When you take me in your arms.
You give me strength to carry on,
You give my dreams persistence,
You make everyday better,
Just through your existence.
No one makes me feel like this,
I thought it couldn't be,
Loving you makes all the difference,
Here with you beside me.
Wednesday, August 14, 2002
Tragedy>>>>>>>by me>>>>>>>
No one knows why,
It doesn't seem real,
It's can't be like this,
How should I feel.
Should I fill up with rage,
For those who did this,
Should I mourn and cry,
For those who'll be missed.
What could make a person,
Resort to take life,
Disregard others,
Give pain, cause strife.
It's a part of life that
I don't understand,
Disagreeing violence,
The fight between man.
Wednesday, August 14, 2002
Hanging on to you>>>>>>>by me>>>>>>>
Tore up all your letters,
Put your pictures in a box,
Forgotten all the words you spoke,
On our midnight summer walks.
Buried all my feelings,
Kept you out of touch,
Hidden all the gifts you gave,
Though I'm wanting you so much.
Just seeking out the answers,
To figure this thing out,
Can't be sure that this is right,
When i have so many doubts.
Tears of hate, then pain. then love,
I don't know what to do,
It's so hard to say goodbye,
When i'm hanging on to you.
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For Eve...
You touched us all but not for long, I blink my eyes and now you're gone. Life isn't fair tears fill my head. This is too hard, why are you dead. We miss you so much,its hard to express, I miss your hope and your happiness. You played the game hard, but now it is done, I may seem like you lost but I know you won. Now you watch from the heavens above, I may have lost you but I still have your love.
Proved her Wrong
She thought he was a man of honour.
A guy who kept his word.
She thought that she knew him.
That's how she was assured.
She thought that she could trust him.
With the secrets of her soul.
She thought she understood him.
Thought she was in control.
She thought that he loved her.
God knows she loved him.
He went ahead and proved her wrong.
Her glowing heart grew dim.
She thought she really knew him.
But he proved her wrong.
This time there's no forgiveness.
She'd forgiven for too long.
But love is sometimes blinding.
Cause she'll forgive and then forget.
Then she'll wake up tommorrow to relive and regret.
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