The lovers, seemingly happy,
hold hands and walk.
It looks like everything is going perfectly, but
no one knows the truth.
appears by ayu hamasaki

went to google n typed in my own name (with e space)...n guess wad...i found e blogs of all e pple hu dun really noe me ver well...went n searched again...dis time without e space as in yuhning...n found e blogs of pple hu noe me kuite well...saes sumthing duzzen it...

shit...im sick of being sick...argh...not meant to be puny =P...yes...i suspect e doc gave me sleeping pills instead of wadeva med im supposed to get...sux...feeling damned lethargic now...n i haven even done all e stupid hw lyk lit n eng...sux sux...need motivation...

did lotsa loserly stuff todae...firstly went ard collecting other pplez nametags n putting dem on myself...u see...e sad thing is dat i dun hav my own nametag (sam zhuang has it)...which is plain sadness...helped sampoorna n liane get a nametag frm a sec 2 n sec 3 each...so we all wore dis stupid variety of nametags n took a photo...yay fer us...after which i went on a date...with liane...yes ver anticlimatic but cun help it...aniwae...went to ps n went on all e wrong escalators...boo...den went spotlight to buy a board fer e fuzzball band n wire to make into mini instrus...damn cute...den we juz walked ard n luffed at all e sad things dey had on sale n taking photos of dem...wonder y we din kenna thrown out...oh well...

suck...dun wanna do -any- hw...-any- at all...sux...i need a lyf...btw...davuz getting kinda fat frm eating all of huienz leftovers...e last he ate was a half-eaten chocolate thing dat i koped frm huien...yep...it was a rather huge one so no wonder he suddenly became so obese...shall not feed him fer at least 2 weeks n pray dat he'll get flatter...

sad news...kitty has a terminal illness...shez gonna go soon...*bawls*...dun want kitty to go =(...hai...sux...funni how lyf can suck and feel good all in one dae...*buries head under pillow n screams*...bleah...

ok...shall go bathe now b4 putting in another pointless attempt to do hw...baibai...

ps...if u happen to be wondering...yes...i wrote "e pain of love" thingie myself...dunnoe where dat came frm...sudden inspiration frm too much angst i think =P...

e pain of losing sumone...sumone u lyk...sumone u luv...sumone hu...fer once...meant sumthing to u...

e pain of looking at sumone...looking at sumone u lyk...looking at sumone u luv...n sumhow noeing dat u were neva meant to be...

e pain of empty smiles...empty smiles fer dat sumone u lyk...empty smiles fer dat sumone u luv...becoz u noe dey find u annoying when ur sad...

e pain of crying at nite...crying becoz dat sumone u lyk...crying becoz dat sumone u luv...neva really gave a damn...

e pain of letting go...letting go of sumone u lyk...letting go of sumone u luv...letting go...juz becoz u noe dey will neva really care...

e pain of being alone...without dat sumone u lyk...without dat sumone u luv..being alone...becoz u noe dat sumone neva lyked to be with u...

e pain of finding another...another u lyk...another u luv...another...hu sumhow juz carn replace dat sumone u lost...

e pain of watching dat sumone fall in luv...dat sumone whom u lyk...dat sumone whom u luv...fall in luv with sumone else...

e pain of dying...dying fer dat sumone u lyk...dying fer dat sumone u luv...n noeing dat dey will turn bac n regret...n whisper e words u so longed to hear...

e pain of seeing dat sumone cry...sumone u lyk...sumone u luv...finally showing dat dey cared...

but izzen it all too late?...e pain is all gone...no need to show dat u care now...becoz it duzzen matter animore...

i lead a damn deranged lyf...n im lurving very minute of it...i rock...

got e pic from here...in yasuragiz words..."I have nothing to say. Except.He's....so happy..."...totally man...n to think dis achaly came on e anime...goku was lyk dancing ard in dat dress...n sanzo *nearly* shot him...n e bullet made a beeg hole in his dress sleeve -_-...lyk whoa...seriously...yep think itz some episode from saiyuki reload...whoo i want i want...haha...n dun u think he has a damn good figure?...lyk damn nice slim hips fer a guy ;)...*getz trampled on by teng fer being perverse*...

ok...so since e last entry i had fulfilled sumthing...i found a good fanfic to read...n my dear liane came on msn to tok to me...was damned cool coz we both got johnny deppz oscar pix fer our display picture...haha yay...oso got good food to eat...namely sugared biscuits n a boiled egg...went to watch e gods of honour eps dat my mum taped fer me...so datz e good show to watch part...onli requirements not fulfilled r e good game to play n e sammie to HUG...yup...but i went to sleep frm 5 to 7...yay...den i went to do e first qn of e yue bao...so all i hav left r e remaining of e yue bao emathz paper emathz file n cheena essay...yep yep...yay...i rock e wurld...

lyk i said...i lead a damn deranged lyf...n im lurving very minute of it =D...

i wanted to be...not a princess...but wif u...i wanted to hav...not glass slippers...but ur smiling face...
thoroughly sweet...lyrics from song called monochrome by ayu hamasaki...real nice...

perhaps i can blog my wae thru till i feel lyk doing hw again...been doing since lyk 2 hrs ago...totally horrible...so disgusted dat i juz skipped alot of assignments dat i carn be bothered wif...stuff lyk amathz assignment homeland essay n kuite a number of questions in e physics assignment...urgh...no mood no mood...no good fanfic to read no person on msn to tok no good food to eat no nice game to play no good show to watch no sammie to flirt wif hug...plus too much energy to sleep too much hw to do too much time to spend on too much hw...best...disgusting lyf i lead...

hai...dunnoe wad to do now...except mabee hw...but i abit dun care liao...wad shit larh...give so much hw ver fun wad...sadistic pple wan to see us mugging e whole hols awae meh...urgh...n guess wad...onli our batch need to go bac to skool tmr...best wad...other pple e-learning n slacking at home we sit in skool n stone...n dey want us to be productive...nice try but too bad it din work =P...

datz it...im gonna heck care...so from now on ill go look fer a good fanfic to read nice person on msn to tok good food to eat nice game to play good show to watch n sammie to flirt wif hug...yay...lyf suddenly looked more optimistic...e powers of prioritising =D...

ok...shall come bac after i hav found a good fanfic to read nice person on msn to tok good food to eat nice game to play good show to watch n sammie to HUG...haha...BYE...

abt time i put dis up...find it so amusing...

ok...so now im officially having an affair...i need money n she has money to spend...so y not?...ahh...cannot liddat...we r being damn disgusting n we dun care...haha losers...hai...my client not here yet...shall blog either until she comes or when i get tired of waiting...bleah...

hai...sentosa sucked big time...i was wet fer at least 3 hrs...meaning i was sweating lyk nothing...yucky...n my cadenza wad...best...e onli person hu cud hear me was teng...n itz onli a little little bit...BEST...i cannot stand myself...hooz...dammit...

hai...momoz online now...trying to enlighten her on wad a client means as she is either too sad or innocent to not understand...wadeva...n my clientz prob still havink her dinner...mabee on her wae bac home...sadness...not dat shez paying me alot...oh well...

yawnyawn...im bored...n dead...n aching everywhere else...i need my client...wadeva...ok shall stop my nonsense...baibai...

Outside the rain begins
And it may never end
So cry no more
On the shore a dream
Will take us out to sea
Forever more... forever more

Close your eyes my dear
And you can be with me
'Neath the waves
Through the caves of ours
Long forgotten now
We're all alone... we're all alone

Close the window, calm the light
And it will be all right
No need to bother now
Let it out, let it all begin
Learn how to pretend

Once a story's told
It can't help but grow old
Roses do, lovers too
So cast your seasons to the wind
And hold me dear... oh, hold me dear

Close the window, calm the light
And it will be all right
No need to bother now
Let it out, let it all begin
All's forgotten now
We're all alone... all alone