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Hajime kara sonna mono
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april is a damn crappy month...cause this page is getting really really long...argh...I hate typos...died today cause of 2.4...blisters on the soles of my feet...legs too tired to even support myself...so I'm confined to my room for the next few days...oh joy...whatever...shall not talk about it anymore...dampens my mood...
been contemplating my next template...haha contemplate template...whee...anyway...think I'm going to be using white for may...yep...white background with light grey wording...shall use a nice picture of tala to brighten it up...dash of red orange and blue...whee so nice...whatever...can't seem to suppress my sudden burst of obsession with tala...haha you watch beyblade...don't laugh it's nice kay...he's one of the antagonists (I simply refuse to say he's a bad guy =P)...a genetically-modified-til-perfect human...yeah yeah whatever...he's still good-looking for a cyborg...haha...
yuck...the new pepsi twist tastes horrible...they doubled the amount of lemon flavouring inside and now it tastes like coke gone really really really bad...like maybe left in a stuffy cupboard for more than a week...eww...totally gross...I want the old pepsi twist back...boo...
yep yep...shall go eat dinner now...byebye...
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been banned from going out at all for today...with the sad exception when I have to go see the stupid doctor who refuses to give me an MC for yesterday cause I didn't go to him then...bah...so now I have an almost useless MC...speaking of that MC I HAVE NO IDEA WHERE IT IS!!...argh!!...shit...
parents went to work in the late afternoon...so I sneaked out after they left to finish my cadenza shopping...yup...met this RJ guy while in one of the shops...he was behind me in the queue and he was late for some RJ dance performance...so he asked if he could go first and yarh I was feeling kind of nice...started crapping to him...haha I sound like a flirt damn it...anyway bought nice -stuff- for the juniors sb and huien liane...huien will love her present to bits =)...haha...ok damn...no idea as to how I'm gonna lug everything to school tomorrow...perhaps I'll get dad to drive...but he might not agree...so bleah...boo...
barh...I hate this...scramble...before major stuff...you get into a big flurry and forget stuff...and you die...bleah...tomorrow i have to reach at 8 to practise on my instru...make sure all the sec 1s are down by 10...brief them on backstage stuff...get them to memorize both seating plans...have a thorough tech rehearsal at 11...get to vch and figure out lighting stuff with the mrc pple...make sure the mrc pple teach lingwei and sarah how to operate the cams...do the storyboarding...go through another tech rehearsal...change for the concert...go for the concert...clear up vch after the concert...go back to school and clear up everything...go home and die...yay...so fun...
boo...deadened...so sad...I like tala...he's such a cute guy...so cute so cute...yay...the light in my moment of darkness...*melts*...
alright I shall go and bathe and pack for tomorrow...the wonderful tomorrow...ok byebye...
i hate this...last band prac b4 cadenza is lyk starting in an hourz time...and im staying at home dying from food poisoning...tai bang le...been to e toilet fer more times den i eva had in my entire life...not to mention e frequent passings of nausea and a sense dat e end is near...feel lyk dying...bleah...mum gave me a bowl of sugar dis morn...to eat...yea...all i hafta do is dip my finger into e bowl and den lick e sugar off...to give energy or so she saes...well...at least now i hav e strength to get out of bed and in front of e comp...refuse to eat any more sugar...it gets disgusting after a while...energyz gonna die out soon n ill flop bac onto bed and sleep...
been off food fer e last 16 hours...dun feel lyk eating...datz y im eating sugar in e first place...sick sense of hope dat dis will cont till tmr ends so i wun hafta go to skool...at e expense of me hanging on to life by a frayed thread fer e next 1 day...carn stand life...dun wanna do hw...yet feel a weird sense of guilt if i use cadenza as an excuse fer my undone work...boo...i am obsessed again...tala is so damn cute...argh...i need to stop dese random bursts of lust...feel so grossed out...
i shall not do any hw at all...hw can die...dun really care abt it animore...main thing now is cadenza...after which comes prelims...den e Os...nice series of events to look forward to...almost makes me feel lyk i dun hav a life...boo...
I AM VERY HAPPY!!...THE GEOG TEST IS NOT TMR COZ TMR DUN HAVE GEOG AT ALL!!...I AM SO SMART...YAY...well...at least i haven started studying =P...
WHICH IS GOING TO INCREASE MY WORKLOAD FOR TMR NIGHT DAMMIT!!...HAVE TO DO YING YONG WEN GEOG ASSIGNMENT GEOG WORKSHEET AMATHS REVISION EXERCISE DAMMIT...AND GOT BAND PRAC SOMEMORE...BEST...I SHALL NOT DO -ANY- HW...HAH...I WILL COME HOME FROM BAND PRAC AND SLEEP!!...SLEEP!!...DAMMIT...
urgh...so grossed-out...duz e human body hafta hav such complicated reproductive organs?...all e sperm ducts urine duct wadeva duct all loop ard each other...den i try to follow e route of the sperm den i end up in the bladder...WHOA!!...horrible...and e bio wrksht jokes are getting worse...wad did the mother ear of corn sae when her son asked where he came from...u were brought here by e stalk...WHOA!!...SO FUNNAY!!...
hai...momo keeps going on and off and on and off coz her comp sux...her msn dies lyk every 2 mins...so lousy...haha...dis is e fourth time shez signing in...i shall cont counting till she gets fed up and gives up...haha...nothing better to do...I HAVE TO DO SS!!...later she kick me out of class den i stay outside and sleep...cannot liddat...and i need to bathe...I STINK FROM PE!!!...COZ PE STINKS!!...haha...
i am very gross...i shall go off soon...baibai...
A single thread in a tapestry
stupid shit thing...stop messing with my brain...I do not have a sexually-transmitted disease dammit...I AM FINE!!...argh...not funnay...i shall infect sumone else to cure myself...I AM GOING TO HAVE SEX WITH EVERYONE ARGH!!!...y e hell duz yengling put dis kinda stuff on her blog... boo...dunnoe whether itz 2 or 3 daes left...juz noe dat itz coming...ITZ COMING!!!...argh...problems need to be fixed...SOON...hafta increase my volume by at least 3 times...3 TIMES!!!...argh...hafta have moqi wif yengling...MOQI!!!...hafta stop panicking...ARGH!!...im losing all my brain cells...drowning them in acid and throwing my whole brain into the bin!!...THE IKEA BIN WHICH IS SEALED UP OREDI CANNOT THROW IN!!...argh... boo...last band prac tmr...muz make good use of it...muz muz muz...not mess up not mess up...argh...boo...geog test tmr i dun want to study dammit...i shall fail and i will not care... boo...im tired and bored...dun wanna do hw at all...AT ALL!!!...f*ck hw...bleah...I AM NOT MAKING SENSE DAMMIT!!...argh...wadeva...going to sleep...SLEEP!!...BYE...
correction to one of the questions in the previous entry...if you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?...I would buy a plane and use it to send yapper and limhm to the middle of the sahara desert AND LEAVE THEM THERE!!...WITH A HUNDRED COPIES OF THE RGS SCHOOL RULES!!!!!...HAH!!...
grr...some people really can't take a hint...abit like 4 days to cadenza and they are still like that...if they even -think- of chasing us home on friday...I am so going to STAY in the bandroom and get booked DAMMIT...like I care...I already have 2 bookings...one more won't hurt...and I am going to print out the school rules and shove it into their faces...and challenge them to find that rule which says people have to go home at 5.30 every stupid f*cking day!!...argh!!...MONDAY NOT WEEKDAY WAD...some people wah so smart..."you know right? only tuesdays and thurdays are weekdays leh, so only then can you stay until 6.30. monday also weekday lah, but not weekday leh. so you have to leave now"...WHOA...idiocy...stupidity...argh...so angry at myself for getting angry at them...waste my energy...argh...
boo...not studying for emathz test tmr...still can rmb how to do vectors and probability...hope i dun die too badly...anw im sitting next to liane so...yarh...haha...hey my emathz not bad one k...yes...shall juz rely on my memory and go sleep now...yay...gdnitez...
1: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says: "It's everybody's baby. Is the NTSB here yet?"...err...e pple were tokking in police-slang...yarh...
harhar dat was fun...ok im gonna sleep...bye...
ARGH...WHEREZ MY NICE SANZO PIC?!?...GIMME BACK MY SANZO!! XP...
Deliver us
boo...feeling devastated...due to me talking on the phone to momo...I missed the front part of prince of egypt...when I finally on-ed the TV the song deliver us was like at bar 16 already...like directly after charis' solo...and I missed it completely...argh!!...boo...
argh...and to think that after all the disgusting-ness of yesterday I could at least get a decent night's rest...but nooo...my brain just had to freak me out with nightmares...imagine this...you just finished band prac and is spending time babying over your instrument...and this person comes and sits next to you...and for no apparent reason asks "can I kiss you?"...and before you have time to come up with a sarcastic comment...she attempts to kiss you...so you get totally freaked out...and decides to move to another part of the bandroom...then this other person comes up to you, holds your hands and asks the same thing...all the while looking like asking for a kiss was the most normal thing in the world...and before you can run away screaming you get kissed on the lips...yay...I love my f---ed up brain...like how many times in your life can you get kissed in your dreams twice in the same week?...by the same person somemore...either my brain is seriously overworked or by some freak-of-nature I've gotten voodoo-ed upon...boo...
coming back to yesterday...was the first to reach the school in the morning...only to find that the teachers bolted the top lock of the bandroom door...yay...spent like 45 mins outside getting bitten by mosquitoes before momo finally found someone to open the damned door...was quite pissed off with the sucky teachers...anyway band prac wasn't any much better...not so much as the playing but the poor ventilation...almost died of heat...the aircons are seriously not working...after that was lunch...which was quite uneventful other than when these people came up to us and stuffed NKF magnets into our hands...for no apparent reason...hooz...and bridget went on a section-batch lunch too *ahem*...yeah...after which we came back to school and I got abandoned by my section-batch cause they had tuition and I had nothing...the trombones adopted me for most of that time between lunch and combined prac (with the small exception of 5 mins when fengyi came to adopt me)...bombi's back from india...I really really tried to miss her =)...anyway she wanted to go for combined...which was wierd...like doesn't she have jet-lag or something?...maybe bombis have too much energy and enthusiasm =D...haha...saw my senior when she came back and immediately went to hide myself in the perc area...after which sam and bombi came to sit with me...so the 3 of us were sitting there and stoning...with the occasional burst of some chinese "I love you" song from sam...which is funny cause when she sings it to bombi she doesn't understand...and when she sings it to me all she got was a raised eyebrow...went for combined prac and sat at the back with my darling...she looks very cute when she plays...still highly amused at her nabucco score...if I'm not wrong it only consists of 2 notes...sadness...but her score was quite interesting nevertheless...haha amusement cause I never really saw her play before...such cuteness =)...after that the alumni had alumni prac...walked around the whole school with bombi and teng...after which I was going to go home when I realized that we need to move all the perc instruments back to the bandroom...boo...and to think I had to reach home at 5.30...anyway...went home with sam...spent a damn long time at the bus-stop cause the stupid bus didn't come...so I just sat there and slept while sam stoned...bus finally came...spent the bus ride listening to the Ms.Singapre-Universe contestants droning on about themselves on TV mobile...sense of lethargy...finally reached home and almost fell asleep at the comp...haha sadness that was yesterday...
hah...what a long paragraph...bet no-one would have the patience to read it anyway...haha...ok...shall go do hw now...
approx 7.5 years since e 3 of us graduated together from secondary school....& e 2 who sat together in class & slept through 2 years worth of O level Bio lessons (& concussed through another 2 years of A level Bio lectures) are now a doctor & a biologist, while e one who conscientiously kept awake is now an electrical engineer =D
excerpt from this blog I found...written by quite a thoughtful and mature person who's currently studying in NUS...very reflective...yup...can go read her blog here...
I've been going to Action City regularly over the past 3 months, and have since accumulated quite a number of stamps.
poor guy neh...feel so bad for him...totally agree that singapore's customer service sucks like nothing...yep...got this from here...
ok I'm going off for dinner...byebye...
goodness...and to think that I kind of liked sports fest...whooz...halsall spent half the time chasing all of us back to our house areas...not that he really succeeded...haha...hadley never got a 1st today...most of the medals won are for 3rd place...so was kind of surprised that we still got overall champion...was quite estatic...especially during the 4x400m relay...me and liane just like sit there and scream for the runners to go faster...haha was quite sad actually...yup...congrats to minmin...for best cheerleading...she sort of looked funny with her hair poofed up like that...yarh...
mum was relating to me her pregnancy period last night...was going to fall asleep listening to her drone when she said "you know, you had a twin brother"...and that got me listening...according to her...when she was 2 months pregnant...she went for this scanning thing...so the doctor was taking photos of the inside of the womb...and the photos all showed 2 embryos...one of them was significantly larger than the other...so that means that they are different cells and not split cells...so the doctor told my mum to expect unidentical twins...so my mum went home...then 2 months later...she went for the check-up again...but the photos this time didn't show 2 foetuses...there was only a girl baby...nobody knew where the other embryo went...aniway my mum was quite relieved because she wasn't too happy about having twins...particularly so because both my parents didn't intend to have children in the first place...which basically meant that I was an accident...and that I didn't get aborted partly because my mum wasn't that cruel and that the abortion would have killed 2 lives instead of 1...so when my mum realized that there's only going to be only me it was quite late and dangerous for abortion...so she had me...*yay*...but I want my twin bro...decided to call him yuhjie cause it's a nice name...I want yuhjie =(...
boo...sadness...depressed cause I'm deprived of my twin...where did he go anyway?...boo...
had a damn damn damn disturbing dream last night...was in a church and wearing a nice black suit...was quite happy til I realized that I'm going to get married...started panicking...then I saw who I was going to marry...and almost died of shock...haha go figure who...so I was like panicking and wondering how the hell I got into such a predicament...then this other peron came up to me...was going to ask her to get me out of this mess when she kissed me...yes on the lips!!...like what the f---ing shit...got so freaked out that I just ran away screaming my head off...then I woke up...was so freaked out that I couldn't go back to sleep for the next 1 hour...so was just sitting up in bed hugging bolster and having goosebumps everytime I think about the nightmare...yes despite all my scandals and everything I'm still damn disgusted and freaked...boo...scared of going to sleep tonight =(...
ok...shall go eat dinner now...although it's like 9 already =)...haha ok...byebye...
in the mood for gothic songs nowadays...good example is golgotha...been stuck in my head for 2 days straight...whee I like golgotha...just realized that my score is 50% similar to the higher clarinets...70% similar to the tubas...85% similar to the bass trombones...and 90% similar to the bari saxes...yay so fun...another gothic song also stuck in my head...hanabi...it's quite a nice song...but damn damn dark...starts of with this long stretch of silence...after which a very very old musicbox starts playing this tune...then the drumset joins in and it sounds damn scary...then the bass guitar and string ensemble comes in...very very nice...I like =)...
I'll search for a shooting star to cast my wishes on,
There's never a day where I have to remember you
hanabi lyrics are so sad...so forlorn =(...hai...going to go off soon to eat dinner and stone...after which I will come back to crap again...ok...byebye...
more then once...I've berated myself on why I took full geog instead of full lit...I score equally well in both subs...but take into account the fact that i absolutely despise human geog...and lit should be a far better choice...so if I took full lit and half hist (NO half geog please)...I might end up either in 406 or 410...hmm...I like my present class perfectly fine...oh well...
Those were the days my friend
yukit's my wife...fengyi's my concubine...siokteng's my mistress...sam's my lover...and yengling's my one night stand...wonderful relationship we all have =)...
ok...I should be bathing already...byebye...
looking back on my layout...I realized that my actual colour shade ranges only from beige to dirty blonde...so don't ask me where the orange words come from...and someone asked me how I managed to "punch" the words monochrome ver 3.5 into my picture of sanzou...actually I didn't...it just so happens that the colour of the words corresponds to the bg colour...so ya...
been making a concious effort not to type in short-form...so far I've tried to type in perfect english and capitalize all my "I"s...haven't got to the stage of replacing the "..."s yet...those are just too habitual to replace...an obvious effort to make sure my english gets an A1...really can't rely on my chinese...for some strange only-god-knows-why reason my chinese is going down the drain...even though I've been doing all my homework and studying for all the tests like a good little girl...really makes me remember my pri school days where I used to get full marks for everything chinese -_-...
just crossed my mind that I'm a reverse psychological person...or rather...my mind seems to work better backwards when compared to forwards...really...don't ask me where that thought came from...in a state of random-ness now...
have my chang wen suo duan in front of me now...I've highlighted all the answers and summarised all the phrases...even have my foolscap paper out...now all I have to do is to pick up my pen and write it down...which I somehow can't find the will to do...seems like I have no sense to complete whatever task I set out to do...horrible...
suddenly life seems so bleak...all the homework piling up...plus the fact that it's going to rain soon...I don't like rain...especially in the afternoons...and there's this ignorant kid still out there in the field flying his kite...like what with all the lightning and thunder...either he doesn't take science or he failed it...like really really flunked...
I shall start on my chang wen suo duan now...despite the desire to just chuck it into my bag and leave it till tomorrow...and the desire to just go read my book and forget the pile of homework on my desk...and most of all the desire to turn the volume of my speaker to max and burst everyone's eardrums...but I shall not...
and one more thing...despite all your sarcastic comments and the fact that you aced chinese...I love you charis...for being my constant source of entertainment and for your egocentric love confessions =)...
Say do you remember on the first of December when we were riding on the backseat
been panicking in vain...fone was achaly in e bandroom...tot i lost it last nite n freaked lyk xiao...
tots on perf todae shud be kept to myself...all i shall sae is dat i believe dat we've done all we cud...almost...evidently some pplez minds were sumwhere else...but fer e majority...yep im proud of us...u prob think dat i am easily satisfied...but im entitled to my own opinion...and to me...datz enuff fer now...i trust e band enuff not to worry about cadenza...i noe we can...and itz juz a matter to wanting to...and i believe dat we all have dat common goal to make cadenza worth it...so i shall happily enjoy wadever precious band pracs i hav left...
There can be miracles
this song's been stuck in my head fer lyk...e past 2 hrs...along with shuqi's solo...can't seem to forget it...not that i want to anyway =)...
christine's love-sick...or more appropriately put...infatuated...never seen her act like that before...sense of wrongness o_0...
so now i have a spouse, 2 concubines and 2 lovers...cool isn't it...you can go guess who they are...though it's really quite obvious...if you're observant enough that is...
Many nights we've prayed
random bursts of song make me feel happy =)...in a relatively good mood...physically contented with my life now...have just completed my sonic game on my phone...a good book waiting to be read...(relatively) interesting projects to do...nice song to occupy my thoughts for at least 1 week...wonderfully tasty food within 1m of where I am sitting currently...bolster on a nice soft bed...wonderful batchmates and classmates...enjoyable band pracs...nothing more I could have wanted...
In this time of fear
have my life planned all the way to when I'm forty years old...from now till the time I finish my U-study I shall concentrate on studying...and of course dating and enjoying life...after I've got my whatever degree, I shall go off travelling for at least half a year and enjoy myself...when I return I shall start my career and earn lots of money...not to mention look for a soulmate =)...shall get married in my late-twenties...and start having kids...I want 2 sons and 2 daughters...shall call them ralph randall reina and rocher...don't ask me where those names came from...sudden burst of inspiration maybe =)...shall send them to prestige schools...by then which I will probably reach forty...yep...seems relatively achievable...except maybe the four children part o_0...haha...quite proud of myself...considering the fact that I've never planned out of the scope of a week before =)...
nothing more i feel like saying...shall just go off soon to bathe and eat...might come back again to do geog project and crap on msn...yay...ok byebye =)...
Maybe it wasn't there to begin with
translated lyrics fer e song in e side panel over dere <=...yepyep...e song title is monochrome...which is where dis whole theme came from...sung by ayu hamasaki...one of her early singles...n one of e nicest too =)...fer me at least...yep...lyk e princess n smiling face verses...damn sweet...haha...ok itz damn late...shud go bathe soon...yep...ok baibai...nitez...
yep...i noe...dis entryz dated march n dis page is fer april...but hu cares...aprilz lyk...juz 5.5 hrs awae?...heck...
dun tell me everything blends into everything else...derez a reason y itz called monochrome u noe...MoNoChRoMe...sumthing done in diff shades of one colour...understand =P...so shaddup abt it...n abt e version 3.5...itz fer u to guess...one hint is to look at e pic...yep...huz in e pic?...hu comes to mind when u see him?...yar...no point asking her coz she duzzen noe y too...onli i noe...n im not gonna tell u...so live with it...
lyf sux...cheena teach came to klazz todae...much to e
april tmr...or rather april foolz tmr...yay...gonna play jokes on kenneth lui andrew chia n hoho...all e male teaches gonna kenna...sad...i luv my klazz...
sigh...not looking forward to tmr...despite all e april foolz crap...yeah...but i wanna go fer band prac...itz been getting better lately...to me i think we achaly sound kuite good...yep...not perf standard yet...but close n getting dere...datz a comfort...even if otherz think we still suck...at least i noe n can see pple putting in e effort...n datz enuff...
oh...gd luck to those auditioning fer ensemblez tmr...esp my sb =)...dun worri...u all sound wunnerful...really =)=)...
suck...oredi spent more den 60 bux on cadenza prez...n im not even done buying...abt 90% of tt money has been spent on my sb...yea...i noe itz alot...but itz e last year...
a few more mins b4 i go watch tv...new show todae...tian zi shun long...oso e hao ming person starring...so cool..i lyk =)...
ok...im zaoing...mite b bac later... |