sAbrina : iT's gOnnA bUrN fOr mE tO saY tHis..bUt iT's cOmiN fRom mY heArT

Wednesday, January 19, 2005
11:21 p.m.

YeaH..Just came back from NIE's netball court... Was training my shooting.. With who? None other than the most idiotic butthead in the whole of the entire Universe: d. hmmmx.. yea.. he's playing soccer now.. so.. yea..

TYS rang me up earlier on tonight... The ego-ego pighead... Was crapping all the way la.. And then as usual we ended up irritating each other...*thUmbS uP!*... AHaHahah... idiotic lahz.. And then that ages-since-we-last-contacted mr sieng wei ming smsed to ask if im in ntu or nus and whether im going Zouk this thursday.. he said there's going to be a nus bash.. but i think the nus bash's gonna be at ChinaBlack instead.. anywayZ.. no idea ah.. must ask xiao bai.. Me aint in nus.. me ntu lehz.. AND AND AND.. i have totally NO TIME for play.. yep..hell no... absolutely no time AT ALL..(did i say i just came back from netball??)

Anywayz.. do miss my secondary school and jc days... though there were hundreds of thousands of unpleasant happenings... they all form a huge portion of my memories.. And the happy ones were really those that i cherish..

Hehx, was talking to WeiJun just a moment ago. Dropped by my hall to collect some books. A great friend there.

hmmmx.. anyway..about to pen off already.. gotta go for a bath...

Before i do, here's my crap:
SoMe peOpLe, theY'LL nEveR biD u gOodByE
FoR aLL thAt thEy kNow, iS tO leAvE u bEhiNd
sOmE peOpLe, tHeY kNow naUgHt abOut gIviN uP
fOr aLL tHat thEy kNow, iS tO bLaMe u & uR heArT
sOme peOpLe, tHeY'LL nEvEr unDerStAnd
fOr aLL tHat tHey dO, is tO tRy aNd dEfEnD
wE sHaLL tHeN sIng aLoNe
wIth aBsOLutELy nO oNe heRe tO sHarE

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Wednesday, January 19, 2005
06:29 p.m.

Am currently in South Spine's free access lab. Waiting patiently for the rest of my groupmates to arrive. Was having my GE lecture before this and the looney lecturer decided to let us off early. Hiaks. So, here i am. Blogging. With absolutely nothing better to do. Yep. Or at least i hope so. Bahaha. Crapping le la. Have tons of tutorials to FINISH OFF. But i just don't feel like doing anything right now. Laziness had got the better of me. As usual. Gonna succumb to it for now. Just a couple of hours. Aint gonna hurt. Will it?

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Wednesday, January 19, 2005
01:43 a.m.

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"The lonliness of nights alone
The search for strength to carry on
My ever hope has seemed to die
My eyes had no more tears to cry
Then like the sun shined from up above
You surrounded me with your endless love

You are my everything
Nothing your heart won't bring
My life is yours alone
The only love I've ever known
Your spirit pulls me through
When nothing else will do
Every night I pray
On bended knee
That you will always be
My everything

Now all my hopes and all my dreams are suddenly reality
You've opened up my love to feel
A kind of love that's truly real
A guiding light that'll never fade
There's not a thing in life that I would ever trade
For the love you give it won't let go
I hope you'll always know

You are my everything
Nothing your love won't bring
My life is yours alone
the only love I've ever known
Your spirit pulls me through
When nothing else will do
Every night I pray, On bended knee
That you will always be, My everything

You're the breath of life in me
The only one that sets me free,
And you have made my soul complete
For all time

You are my everything
Nothing your love won't bring
My life is yours alone
The only love I've ever known
Your spirit pulls me through
When nothing else will do
Every night I pray
On bended knees
That you will always be
My everything..."

Yea! Played my fill of netball just now! Bahahaha... It was more than just plain fun! The exhilaration of being able to feel like a netballer again is appalling.. muaHAHAHA.. netball addict...my middle name... baHAHAHAHA... nuts i tell ya...And d was playing soccer right next to us.. we were wreaking havoc at block 69's carpark see.. bahHAHAHA.. making a nuisance out of ourselves.. but who cares??

Alrighty, now it's back to serious business.. AGAIN.. shoosh...have to carry on with my stupid comm studies report and to start working on my Financial Mgt tutorial which we will be discussing tomorrow... about how we're gonna go about presenting.. sighs.. i see a long day ahead later on... *yAwNz*

Tuesday, January 18, 2005
06:59 p.m.

Hmmmx.. Doing fine so far... In the mist of catching up from where i left off... Studies, that's what im talking about.. Had Accounting tutorial today.. Can't believe i actually do understand what's going on during lessons despite the fact that i didn't pay attention to the lecturer at all.. Guess my burning-of-the-midnight-oil last night paid off afterall.. bahahah..

Tomorrow's pilates class is cancelled. So i can spend the whole afternoon carrying on with my 'catching-up-with-lessons' campaign. Bahahah. It better work. As for my dd, i will obviously be able to find time for him ah. Haha. Anyway he's discussing projectwork with his groupmates in the tv lounge right now. The thorn amongst the roses sia.. Lucky pig.. bleh...Then we'll be going off to JP once he's done with the discussion..

Going for a game of netball with my hallmates later on.. Hehx... finally.. The Yellow Molten Ball.. bahahah.. Was having stats lecture earlier on today.. then i just had the sudden urge to take out my mobile phone and start calling for people to meet up and play.. and that's exactly what i did.. bahHAHA.. meeting them at 10pm later... see ya guys! Netball rocks!

Hmmmx.. He said to me words that i know aint gonna last.. But im still happy the fact that he did voice them out to me..
Words that aint gonna last... But at least when i heard them i tot they would.. that's all that matters for now no matter what will happen in future... Carpe Diem i guess.. that's what they always say... and that's what i am trying hard to live by..

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Monday, January 17, 2005
12:13 p.m.

Third week of school, and guess what? I am still a slacker. Despite last week's missionary statement (recap: i said i was going to work really hard from the second week onwards), I still aint budging. A complete loser when it comes to such things. And then I'll end up having to rush through my days (and those bloody tutorials). No one's to blame really. No one except myself. I can never plan my days properly and im becoming more and more irritated with this sad fact. Darn.

Next point, Christianity. Im getting fuming mad with myself on that point too. Been a long time since i last done my prayers. And ages since i last done my own quiet time. No idea what the hell i am doing. Shoosh. Slap me in da face.

This week, im gonna give myself another chance to start things afresh. Come on girl. You've got to step on it. You were doing fine the first week. Now carry on with it will ya! Shucks! Argh...

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Monday, January 17, 2005
11:45 a.m.

My D's entry for the weekend. Loads of bad things happened to him. Lady Luck left him for a while i guess. Hope she's back now...:

"Had a hell of a weekend, Started off well with me and ting ting going to pasah malam and had shark fin, or at least we were told that was wat it was anyway. Den nothin went well from there. Met shar at china black, she was late and i gave her shit. Wanted revenge. Childish u may say, but i juz wanted it. Quarreled but was okie again later. Went zouk after that, had a lil chat with her and david. Nuthin really enjoyable i cant deny. Except that i saw cindy. cindy who?? Cindy Lim Chai Xia(something like that la, forgot lim or lin liao) Anyway, she walked past me and din recognise me. Quite expected anyway, not quite near the nanyang me now le. Anyway saw her with another guy whom i assume is her boyfren or sumthin, cos they were acting quite intimately(den again maybe she's drunk). Not quite sure how i felt den when i saw her. Rather, i dunno how to describe how i feel. Just a lil out of sorts. But to clarify any idiots out there who maight even try to suggest i may still have feelings for her, NO I DUN LIKE HER AT ALL. Not now ttz wat i mean. But i really want to clarify the incidents of the taxi stand incident, which i really doubt wat shar told me she observed. Till now i still cant believe wat she said she saw cindy mouthed. I really seriously doubt, cos knowing shar she always manage to twist the fact that teeny weeny bit. But i guess i cant bring myself to even tok to her, not to mention ask her. Watever the answer was i wun feel nice anyway, so let bygones be gone. Den time to go meet yanwei, but shar simply rufused to fetch me to my place, DESPITE her having her car. How selfish can that be. Even had the face to ask me to tompang her to her carpark and had the cheek to ask me get off the cab to accompany her into the carpark and den board ANOTHER cab again. how RIDICULOUS. Reason for not fetching me?? she's not feeling well, and have lessons early tmr morning. how LAME. Why drove ur car out when u are not well. not as if i stay at boon lay or wat, it's along the way loh, and she simply refuses. now NO MORE favours for her liao, and to think i went all the way to bedok to pick her up just for supper and fetch her back a few weeks before. arGhhhhH watever la. fuck man. Den went yanwei's place and tot i could finally have some 'peace' in my mind by trashing al of them in 'winning eleven', but simply couldn't get my form and even lost to xiehe, which is really un-believable. Realise the controller played me out and i got a whole night of suanings falling at my face. Den went for supper, or breakfast, cos was 530 in the morning le, den got knocked down by a fucking cab. Promised myself immediately that i'll try my best not to ride le. Could have been much worse than bruising myself big time and damaging dad's bike. And bruising yanwei oso. Felt guilty that he was involved. Sorry dude. Sigh, wat an eventful weekend. Feeling sort of depressed now, but lucky for me i've got my gal here with me to go thru all these shit or else i dunno how i would have pulled thru. Now back in hall le, hopefully can study hard for now le. wish me luck bros...."

Saturday, January 15, 2005
06:03 a.m.

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"Grew up in a small town,
And when the rain would fall down,
I'd just stare out my window.
Dreaming of what could be,
And if I'd end up happy,
I would pray.

Try not to reach out,
But when I tried to speak out,
Felt like no-one could hear me.
Wanted to belong here,
But something felt so wrong here.
So I'd pray,
I could break away.

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly,
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky,
And I'll make a wish, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Out of the darkness and into the sun,
But I won't forget all the ones that I love.
I'll take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.

Wanna feel the warm breeze,
Sleep under a palm tree,
Feel the rush of the ocean,
Get onboard a fast train,
Travel on a jetplane,
Fall away, and break away.

Building with a 100 floors,
Swinging with revolving doors,
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me.
But I gotta keep moving on moving on,
Fly away, break away.."

Friday, January 14, 2005
01:39 a.m.

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"I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
All i wanna do is grow old with you

I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you

I'll miss you
I'll kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold

I'll need you
I'll feed you
Even let ya hold the remote control

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed if you've had too much to drink
I could be the man who grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you..."

Wednesday, January 12, 2005
03:27 a.m.

Stupid idiotic butthead. Blehx. Told d i had a sudden craving for fish porridge at about 1am or so. It was just some mere stupid impulsive craving. But he took my word for it and went all the way out of ntu with junwei to buy it back for me without me knowing. Speechless. Touched, u bet. 100% dumbfounded. Haix. D. You're gonna make me a spoilt brat at the rate you're going. I don't want to become one ya know. But thanks no matter what dearie. You've made my everyday so special. Unique. Happening. Happy. Just want to take this chance to say, I Love You. =)

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Wednesday, January 12, 2005
01:07 a.m.

Earlier on today at dinner, before we went out to the movies, d was telling me what he almost did in the afternoon. Purchase fireworks that cost 0++. I almost choked on my food upon hearing that. Was touched that he had the thought but i was REALLY relieved to hear that he did not buy it in the end. Else i would have killed him man (something which he apparently knew.. bahaha). The diamond necklace u bought for Christmas was enough d. You promised you won't spend your money recklessly anymore man. You ain't any ATM. You are Andy, boy. Yea.

Wednesday, January 12, 2005
12:07 a.m.

Just came back from the movies with d. Seed of Chucky. The fourth sequel to Child's Play. Still as gruesome this time round. But it is apparently losing its ability to freak its audience out. The previous ones were like horrifying AND gruesome. Anyway, violence rocks...*wOoPs* (O_O)... i mean sucks... bahahahhaha... whatever...

Anyway, got to get back to some serious business as of today. Been slacking around too much. And now the projects and assignments are taunting me. Disastrous sia.

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Tuesday, January 11, 2005
02:13 a.m.

Sighs..Can't seem to get to sleep.. So i'll just do some blogging.. ohx and trix's back... hahaha about 45 minutes ago... quite last minute.. cos her sister's boyfriend offered to drive her back...And now she's on the bed.. preparing for her expedition to dreamland.. muahaha..

Andy told me about the Netball Mellow Monday thingy... Honestly speaking I am really interested in becoming part of it (dun mind paying 3 bucks each week either... as long as i can lay my hands on the Molten ball again...hehx...)... but i can already visualize all the impediments that are gonna be in the way... the thingy's from 7-10pm every Monday.. the shit is...my lessons end 6.30pm everyday.. and on Tuesday i have morning classes at 8.30am.. It sure is gonna affect things in one way or another... sighs... beats me.. perhaps another chance the next time?? hehx.. ya.. anyway.. thanks d.. for helping me scout for information about things i like... i really do appreciate it you know... was very happy when u called from school to tell me about it... hehx..

Come to think of it, it seems I never have been able to bring my non-academic aspirations far.

Loved dancing. Always mimicking the music videos. Especially britney's. Liked her then. Joined the dance club in my JC days and got thru the audition. Halfway thru i quited the club to join Netball and the Student Council. End of dance days.

Loved singing. Joined Talentime every year without fail in my Secondary school days. Solo. Duet with Grace. Group performance with JVG. Managed to clinch a champion in secondary 4. Hard work paid off. Great job girls. Although Wen wasn't able to make it on that day of our Finals, you still deserve the trophy as well. We made it there together. All 3 of us. =)... and then *wAh La*.. End of singing competitions.

Then went on to JC. Carried on with my song-writing but was more intensive. Got people to help me sing the songs i wrote and handed them in for competition. Somewhere somehow, lost all the time for singing and song-writing in the 7-months break. Was working see. And there goes. End of song-writing.

One of my happiest moments. December 2004. Was able to get back to netball again. Short-lived though. Now it's semester 2. Gone are the sports. At least for another semester.

Nevertheless, it is oki. Looking on the bright side, i'll get all of them back someday soon. For now it doesn't really matter. My top priorties currently... Mom and Sissies, Andy, JVG, Studies... Christ...

So, chill girl. Chill. heHx. :p

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Monday, January 10, 2005
11:53 p.m.

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"Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things define what's within
And i bet that before that life's adore are full of the superficial

Some people want it all
but i don't want nothing all
if it ain't you baby ,if i ain't got you baby
some people want diamond rings
some just want everything
but everything means nothing if i ain't got you

some people search for a fountain
promises are forever yours
some people need the dozen roses
that's the only way you prove you love them

hand me the world
on a silver platter
then what a what good it would be
no one to share
no one who truly cares for me

Some people want it all
but i don't want nothing all
if it ain't you baby, if i ain't got you baby
some people want diamons rings
some just want everything
but everything is nothing if i ain't got you
ain't nothing in this whole
wide world don't mean a thing
if i ain't got you with me baby..."

Monday, January 10, 2005
11:48 p.m.

yeA!! finally a decent looking blog!! muahahahaha... although there's still more room for improvement..

Monday, January 10, 2005
12:56 p.m.

Proudly Adapted from Friendster (muHAHAHAHA)... Nothing better to do ah.. So I decided to write myself an essay:

QuieT fReAk. 100% nerD. rEdisH cHeeKs. dImpLeS. nEtbaLL-addIcT. a feMaLe bReeD.

tHat's nOrmALLy tHe fIrSt iMpReSSioNs peOpLe gEt oUt oF mE. weLL i musT sAy tHeRe iS cErtAiNLy aN eLeMeNt oF acCuRacY iN tHeRe. muaHAHAHA *nOt in tHe leAsT bOtHerEd mOoD tO dEfEnD mYsELf*...

qUieT fReAk. u bEt it's tRuE. fAct tHat i cAn sIt in a cOrNer dA wHoLe daY aNd nOt saY moRe than 10 seNteNces to aNyOne proVes thiS obVioUs fAct. BUT BUT BUT... cLosE fRiEndS wiLL fInd mE a 300% nUisAnCe.. baHAHA... LaMe. sTuPiD. cRappY. LauGhs aT thE sLiGhtEsT tHiNg.

100% nErD. aInT goNNa dENy tHat eItHeR. oNLy rEaSon wHy pEoPLe seE mE gLueD toGeTheR wIth mY teXtbooKs: beCausE im a sTuPiD bRaiNLeSS iDiot wHo neeDs to pUt iN tRiPLe thE eFFoRts oF a HarDwoRkInG muGGeR beForE i cAn attAiN anY dECEnT aCadEmiC reSuLtS.

reGarDiNg tHe rEdiSh cHeeKs aNd thE tWo dImpLeS. pLs cOnsULt tHe pErsOn hErsELf aNd sTarE iN hEr sTupId fAce. saY sOmeThiNg LooNeY aNd...*wAh La*... u'LL fInd a tOmaTo wiTh tWo hOLes sTanDinG bEfOrE yA.

nEtbaLL-addiCT. iN dA bLooD. muAhAhA. bEeN pLayiNg eVeRsIncE pRi 4. sLacKeD foR a perIoD oF tiME. eXpLaiNS wHy i aM sTiLL heRe. bLeH. wiLL woRk haRd frOm nOw oN.

a feMaLe brEEd. kinDa oBviouS. aT leAst fOr nOW. muAhAhA. wiLL uPdaTe u wiTh fUrtHeR cHaNgeS. bAhAhA. wAt tHe hEcK?!?

Monday, January 10, 2005
12:05 p.m.

Going to have lessons at two thirty later. Marketing and Stats tutorial. Yikes. Woke up at 11am. Expected myself to wake up later than that. 1pm (muAHAHA kindA laTe i kNoW.. but waT dO yOu exPecT maN?!?). Weird. I don't normally have the tendency to wake up way before expected time. Cos the 'slacker's genes' in me ain't gonna allow that. Duh...

Watched the movie "HONEY" with d last night. DVD. Finally got to see the brilliant dance moves. Had been craving to watch the film ever since Trang (aka the Duck or better knOwn as cY-dUcK.. baHAHAH) told me hell-long-time ago that the film was all about hip-hop-style street-dancing and that it was one slammin' one. And she was right. It is. bahahah. Great one there. All thanks to d who decided to purchase the dvd when he was in M'sia. If not I don't think I'll get to watch it even eon years later.

Gave d the laken bottle that i bought last night too. He looked kinda surprised, and i bet he was. hehx. Tot i could get him a little something now that im still slightly financially-abled. bahahaha. can't make my d the one who's always giving me stuff.

anyway, if you're wondering why i'm typing with all the full-stops and stoppages here and there. For instance, like this. Well let me answer you. It's a conspiracy of mine to act gothic. Act cooLz in fact. Don't tell anyone k. It's a secret only between you, and me. *hiAks*

baHAHAHhAHahhahAHAH... man! can't stand myself and all these shit..hahahaha... bleh

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"If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call?
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side.."

Sunday, January 9, 2005
09:19 p.m.

I am here to declare myself brain dead as of this moment. Hahahaha... shits man... Im beginning to feel my concentration draining away as the seconds tick by.. Getting older i reckon... bahahaha... darn...

Been through quite crappy days recently.. Absolutely no idea how to put them into words... Not forgetting how all the bloody tutorials are tormenting me... My classes are hyper-competitive... As if you're gonna be thrown into a shady corner of the Universe if you stopped to breathe... "Have fun catching up man! Adioz!".. argh..

As i was blabbering... days are as crappy as can be.. and i seem to be seeing things negatively these days... where is the positive sab i used to be with?? i need ya back man.. i need ya back... "don't leave me hanging in a city so dead... held up so high on such a breakable thread...".... come on... gotta find myself back.. chirpy.. blabbermouth..lame and stupid...deafening laughter...happy.

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Friday, January 7, 2005
01:52 a.m.

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If anyone's gonna ask me why my recent entries've been song lyrics... Don't bother... Cos I've no idea either.. argh.. freak...

Friday, January 7, 2005
12:53 a.m.

"Somebody said they saw you
The person you were kissing wasn't me
And I would never ask you
I just kept it to myself

I don't wanna know
If you're playin me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can't take it anymore
And if you're creepin, please don't let it show
Oh baby, I don't wanna know

I think about it when I hold you
When lookin in your eyes, I can't believe
I don't need to know the truth
Baby keep it to yourself

I don't wanna know
If you're playin me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can't take it anymore
And if you're creepin, please don't let it show
Oh baby, I don't wanna know

Did he touch you better than me
Did he watch you fall asleep
Did you show him all those things that you used to do to me
If you're better off that way
Baby what I'd like to say (all that I can say)
Go on and do your thing and don't come back to me
(Stay away from me baby)

I don't wanna know where your whereabouts or how you movin
I know when you're in the house or when you're cruisin
It's been proven, my love you abusin
I can't understand, how a man got you chosen
Undecided, I came and provided
My undivided, you came and denied it (why?)
Don't even try it, I know when you're lyin (I know when you're lyin)
Don't even do that, I know why you're cryin (stop cryin)
I'm not applyin no pressure, just wanna let you know
That I don't wanna let you go (I don't wanna let you go)
And I don't wanna let you leave
Can't say I didn't let you breathe
Gave you extra cheese, put you in the SUV
You wanted ice so I made you freeze
Made you hot like the West Indies
Now it's time you invest in me
Cause if not then it's best you leave Holla, yeah

I don't wanna know
If your playin me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can't take it anymore
And if your creepin, please don't let it show
Oh baby, I don't wanna know

Thursday, January 6, 2005
09:56 p.m.

"I don�t know who to trust, you're surprised
Everything feel so far away from me
Have your thoughts sent through dust, and the lies
Trying not to break, but I�m so tired of this to see
Every time I try to make myself get back up on my feet
All I ever think about is this,
all the time and time between
And how trying to put my trust in you just takes so much out of me

Take everything from the inside
And throw it all away
�Cause I swear for the last time
I won�t trust myself with you

Tension is building inside, steadily
You feel so far away from me
Have your thoughts forcing their way out of me

Trying not to break, but I�m so tired of this deceit
Every time I try to make myself get back up on my feet
All I ever think about is this,
all the time and time between
And how trying to put my trust in you just takes so much out of me

Take everything from the inside
And throw it all away
Cause I swear for the last time
I won�t trust myself with you
I won�t waste myself on you..."

Thursday, January 6, 2005
02:36 p.m.

"I don't understand why
See, it's burnin' me to hold onto this
I know this is somethin' I gotta do
But that don't mean I want to
What I'm tryin' to say is that I love you
I just, I feel like this is comin' to an end
And it's better for me to let it go now
Than hold on and hurt you
I gotta let it burn

It's gonna burn for me to say this
But it's comin from my heart
It's been a long time comin'
But we'd been better apart

Really wanna work this out
But I don't think you're gonna change
I do, but you don't
Think it's best we go our separate ways

Tell me why I should stay in this relationship
When I'm hurtin', baby, I ain't happy, baby
Plus there's so many other things I gotta deal with
I think that you should let it burn

When the feelin' ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go
'Cause the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might hurt you
Let it burn (Yeah)
Let it burn (Ooh)
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know it's best for yourself, but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
We know that it's through
Let it burn (Let it burn, whoa)
Let it burn (Let it burn)
Gotta let it burn

Sendin' pages I ain't supposed to
Got somebody here but I want you
'Cause the feelin ain't the same
Find myself callin' her your name

Ladies tell me do you understand
Now all my fellas do you feel my pain
It's the way I feel, I know I made a mistake
Now it's too late, I know she ain't comin' back

What I gotta do now to get my Shorty back, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Man, I don't know what I'm gonna do without my Boo
You've been gone for too long
It's been eleven days, umpteen hours, I'm gonna be burnin' till you return...

I'm twisted 'cause one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry, ooh
I'm twisted 'cause one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry, yeah

So many days, so many hours,
I'm still burnin' till you return..."

Thursday, January 6, 2005
07:45 a.m.

I feel like I am beginning to lose my grip really... Can't seem to hold on much longer... Let's just hope I ain't gonna let things go... argh

Tuesday, January 4, 2005
09:50 p.m.

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"You don't run with the crowd, you go your own way. You don't play after dark, you light up my day. Got your own kind of style, that sets you apart. Baby that's why you capture my heart.
I know sometimes you feel like you don't fit in. And this world doesn't know what you have within. When I look at you, I see something rare. A rose that can grow anywhere. And there is no one I know that can compare.
What makes you different, makes you beautiful. What's there inside you, shining still to me. In your eyes I see all the love I'll ever need. What makes you different makes you beautiful to me.
You've got something so real, you touch me so deep. See material things, don't matter to me. So come as you are, you've got nothing to prove. You won me with all that you do. And I want to take this chance to say to you.
What makes you different, makes you beautiful. What's there inside you, shining still to me. In your eyes I see all the love I'll ever need. What makes you different makes you beautiful to me.
You don't know how you touched my life. Always so many ways, I just can't describe. You taught me what love is supposed to be. You saw the little things that make you beautiful to me."

Official first day of school today. Had Statistical Methods and Marketing for lecture. Not bad for a start I'd say. Firstly, stats means maths. So what?? I love maths!! baHAHAHA finally got a chance to get in touch with maths.. AGAIN!! Last sem was crap... Theory all the way... Long time since i've come into contact with MATHEMATICS TUTORIAL...aMazIng...baHAHAHA.. okieX okiEX..am sounding like a 100% nerd-personified freak now...Anyway.. yea... and marketing was cool too... at least i understood what the lecturer was talking about... unlike last sem's OB.. killer sias.. hahaha..

okiEx... there's a make-up lecture tomorrow at 12.30 for stats.. look forward to it...i think... bahaha... although i can't really catch what da hell the lecturer's blabbering about.. at least i have my notes.. bahahaha

hmmmx... yea.. that's all i have for today... nitez