Sunday, September 26, 2004-11:01 a.m.
Biology = (N)
I don't like biology. Nor do I like the fact that I'm seventeen. I don't like the prospect of going to university. Ever. I don't like growing up. I don't like that in a month or two, I'm going to make a decision that will decide the rest of my life. I don't like the fact that my mom and dad are both super biased to where they think I should go to school, and that their biases have very little to do with me. I don't like that I'm losing my French skills. I don't like that I have to travel for three hours everyday in the name of science. I don't like that I'm going to lunch with my dad today, and then he's bringing me to a hydrogen fuel cell conference. Oh yeah, like I care.
And I don't like that all I'm doing here is procrastinating! Okay. Time for biology.
Sunday, September 19, 2004-12:20 p.m.
Pray that it doesn't jinx it, but...
I'm LOVING my life right now. Like, I can't believe how much. So much, that I've totally and completely forgotten about this little ol' blog here. Let's name all the reasons that it rocks.
My mom and I are really getting along. Pretty much self-explanatory. We're just having fun together and we understand each other. She's making sacrifices like mad for me, and I really appreciate it. Thanks mom. =)
The Ontario Science Centre Science School. Wow. Amazing. The people are just wonderful -- we're 28 students and we all feel like we've known each other all our lives. I've met some friends that I can tell are gonna be lifelong. The teachers are awesome (except Ruth for chemistry. I miss Mr. Van.), and we're considered staff of the OSC! We have ID cards and we'll soon have red lab coats. We have a student lounge and we have to type in a secret code to get there. Like ohmigoodness. We didn't even start class until three days after everyone else...Tuesday was get-to-know-everyone day and Wednesday, we went on an overnight trip to bond and have superfun science olympics. I'm learning lots of fun science stuff!! It's fun...I love it. Transportation's not cool, but whatcha gonna do. An hour and a half each way...I'll deal. But everyone, when the BA teachers say that BA is a good school, believe them. Because it's true! I'm pretty bored in my classes until now. Other people are having trouble, but I actually had to explain CaVa=CbVb to the rest of the chem class...including the teacher. Go VanGinneken.
Darren.Darren Turner. Boyfriend. Super cool. Roses, demolition derbies, and other fun stuff. Can't wait till he meets the PACErs. Heehee..
I have a tutoring job. Had my first tutoring session today for an hour and a half. I love ninth grade math! So easy to teach! And ninth grade French too!
Anyways, I'm just happy. =)
Friday, August 20, 2004-09:37 p.m.
Over a month later...
This summer has been ownage (6.023)(10^23). I've changed so much and I am so happy. I...found myself. As 20th Century Fox as that sounds, it's true.
Quebec. Wow. That was quite an experience. I certainly did do what I set out to do - learn French - and so much more. I became less shy, learned to take things less seriously, learned to be myself, learned not to compromise myself. I learned how to live with others that I may not get along perfectly with, and I learned independence. I also learned that heating up shepherd's pie takes longer than fifteen minutes and that if you hear thunder, don't spend an hour on your hair. But if you do, laugh about it afterwards. I learned what it's like in a house with five people, including a mother and a father. I learned what it's like to have a sister and that the phone is much more fun than the computer. And Dani, I must say the SIFA card is pretty darn good...ya know, if the WOW card isn't available. I learned how to...stick with people on my side, if that makes sense. I learned A LOT. And actually, my French is really good now. My dad almost started crying on the phone with me during our conversation in French. I also made a lot of friends - from Stouffville, Richmond Hill, Saskatchewan, Quebec, and lots more places. I love all the animateurs and Shien, Angie, Kara, Ana, Carolyn, Joselyn. Melissa and Maria, you guys rocked, and Lauryn, I dunno what I'm going to do without you in the house! I'll miss you all! And my family, wow. They ROCKED. Really. Éveline! Manon! Dominique! And...Yves...scary...and scary neighbour upstairs! Awww...what good times. The card! And Michael Cournoyea in the train station!
Darren. Wow. MY Darren. I'm glad we can appreciate the irony...because we'd go nuts. =)
So now I'm off to Montreal tomorrow, and New York the next week. And then..dun dun dun..the Science Centre. Holy crap, my life is moving along.
Thursday, July 1, 2004-07:59 a.m.
Happy!!!!
Ohmigoodnessohmigoodnessohmigoodness! See that? That speck down there? That's Cloud Nine.
Tuesday, June 29, 2004-09:12 a.m.
Quebec is soon!
Summer is finally here! And it has started out pretty well. Exams weren't bad, Korean BBQ was fun, a bunch of us spent a few hours cleaning out the Luke shelves, Luke social was fun, saw Tara and Ivan, talked to Mike. Then I went to my dad's and spent alllll daaaaay Thursday in the pool. I got my tan, and that's all that matters. The rest of the time at my dad's wasn't great, but, meh, I bought two bathing suits. And my grandmother told me that she's happy for me that I'm going to Quebec...after hearing for weeks and weeks that this is a bad decision, my grandmother (who, I swear, depends on me for friendship during the summers) tells me she's happy for me. Ohmigoodness, I almost started crying. Quebec is soooon! Too soon! Not soon enough! I don't know! I'm gonna miss my mother a lot...and other people, of course!
I got the bessst phone call yesterday! Two, actually...and one on Wednesday. That one was awesome. Hm...anyways. Emmy, guess what...I'm leaving for 6 years now. Not 4 anymore. Sorry. I'll write though!! =) Promise. It's only 6 years.
Sunday, June 20, 2004-11:54 a.m.
Tent!
Last night was like the greatest time ever. I went to Eilish's birthday par-tay, and it was soooooo much fun. First of all, you have to understand her family. They're artists. Her mother owns an art store and is all....arty, and they live in the coolest house with furniture made of sticks and crazy pictures on the walls and everything is just so cool. Except they don't live there anymore because her parents are divorcing. So now she's staying in her mother's friend's house which is even cooler than the other house. This house is set back in a forest and you have to climb stairs set into the ground to get there and there's a pond with ducks and the entire backyard is forest and there are paths everywhere and two fire pits and it is just INSANE. And there was a clearing and the six of us slept in a tent there. (And out of the six kids, five had divorced parents...I found that reeeally sad.) And...I didn't fall asleep till after four, I don't know why. Helen, a guy named Darren, and I stayed up telling the most stupid jokes in the world, and just talking about stuff. Anyway...I'm pretty bad at recounting events. But it was fun...and Darren is nice...and Eilish's mother is very cool. But now I'm sleepy.
So now I have to go study for Anthro...mostly because I just really don't want to study for Bio.
Tuesday, June 15, 2004-03:40 p.m.
Rambling. *cries*
Today was my last full, normal school day at Brother André CHS for seven months. *cries* How sad is that? I'm even leaving Ontario for six weeks this summer!! *cries harder* Not including the time at my dad's and in New York. *breaks down* Sigh. We'll all deal. And, Emmy, the whole OSC thing has no bearing on you. So you don't have to cry with me about that. =) Omigoodness! I'm gonna have to write so many letters all the time! (Promise!) Okay, enough sad things.
Tomorrow is my French exam! I must study! So I'll have to leave and do that! And...I like classic No Doubt and Oasis. Remember Just A Girl? And Don't Speak? And Spiderwebs? And Wonderwall? And Champagne Supernova? All great...okay, study time. Maybe I'll just leave so my incessant incomprehensible rambling stops.
Sunday, June 13, 2004-11:45 p.m.
Tricksy...
Yay! Both of the people I was missing came back. And I didn't mean to make you feel bad! I only meant to make you come back...=) Muahahaha...I'm so tricksy. Thank you, thank you, thank you. =)
So this weekend. Spent doing a lot of nothing. Saturday, I walked with my mom into town for lunch. There, we met Ms. Hainchwain (I have no idea how to spell that...), the librarian from St. Mark's. This woman struck fear deep into my heart for a full six years. I mean, she had seven-year-olds waking up in the middle of the night, yelling, "I lost my book, don't kill me!" Or I assume so...that's how scary she was. She wouldn't answer you if you started any sort of statement with "Um...". So of course, when you went to ask her a question, out of sheer terror, your first syllable would be "Um..." and you'd curse yourself. She was scary. Anyways, we met her in front of the jewellery store. And she was the most happy, amiable person I've ever set eyes upon. We told her about the OSC and stuff and how I'm in grade eleven and oh, haven't I grown up nicely...and the woman next to whom the monsters under my bed were pussy cats is kissing my cheek and hugging me and telling me that she's so proud of me. It was just surreal. And then on the way back home, we passed the Stouffville ElvisFest. And then I did homework.
Today, I went to driving with Dani and it was class 4/4. So, naturally, we had pizza and watched Along Came Polly to make up the 25 hours. Now I want a ferret even more. Not a bad movie, I must admit. I was definitely feelin' for a funny one after the depressing-as-heck Requiem For A Dream that we'd watched the day before. Crazy good movie, but depressing like whoa. As André-Philippe put it: "It makes you want to sit naked in the corner of a dark room, wrap a wet towel around your shoulders, and rock back and forth, muttering 'No...no...no...'" So if you were thinking of getting into heroine, DON'T! Kay? Lovin' Jared Leto though...he owned that movie.
Now, back to the evil pseudo-essay that we're supposed to write. No sarcasm or satire in a personal essay..what IS that?! Satire is my life. My life, I tell you. I'm trying so hard here to keep a "serious tone". Ain't working.
And, oh goodness, Darren.
Wednesday, June 9, 2004-04:51 p.m.
*rolls eyes, sticks out tongue*
I so did not handle that whole Darren thing well. Like, I pretended I didn't see him this morning and I sort of ignored him on Messenger. Actually...that was legitimate. I really was (busy)...I was watching Life As A House. And if Hayden Christensen was having a shower in my house, I'd be in there with him too. Anyways, back to what I was getting at. I can't tell him again that my...feelings are elsewhere invested. I feel bad. I'm not put in this situation very often. Or any situation even remotely like this one.
In other news, everyone's left me. Mary Evelyn is in Florida and Ivan is...disappeared somewhere... At least one of them will be back on Sunday.
Tuesday, June 8, 2004-06:02 p.m.
Blah.
*swears loudly* Darren likes me. Again, you might ask? No no...still. Blah.
Friday, June 4, 2004-11:09 p.m.
Randomness.
I wrote an entry yesterday, but I didn't post it because I accidentally closed the window or something...but I really can't remember what I'd written. Hm...so I'll just write a new entry.
My Friday night was spent at Apple Jack's, eating dinner with my mother and my senior citizen neighbour. And, oh my goodness, it was so much fun. Like, I am SERIOUS. I had the greatest time laughing with my mother, and the fact that my neighbour didn't find anything that we were laughing at funny made the whole night even funnier. Like...we blared Michael Jackson in the car, while Kathleen sat there shaking her head. We got lollipops with the cheque, but they were green, so we asked Kathleen to go exchange them on her way to the washroom, yelling to her as she went, "Remember! Only red, pink, purple, or blue! No green or orange!" Oh, it was great. And Kathleen is like my surrogate grandmother, so it's not like we were abusing her or anything...anyways, I think you had to be there. But I enjoyed my Friday night. =)
Today, my mother called the OSC to ask how they wanted to receive my accceptance letter thing (not that I've made a decision...). And the woman, who was one of the interviewers, knew who my mom was talking about when she mentioned me! And she recognised me when I waved to her from ten metres away when we went to the BioTech thing at the OSC! She remembered me. Like, whoa!
Did anyone watch Canadian Idol? Well, I did. Twice. That's right, twice. There was a repeat about two hours ago. Anyways, I'm in love with the Forever In Blue Jeans guy, the The House Of The Rising Sun guy and the You Raise Me Up guy. They were super cool.
Today, I watched a little bit of Passions. Okay, do you know how stupid that show is? They're biting The Pirates Of The Carribean now. Sheridan is...the girl whose name I've forgotten. Luis is Jack (or Henry, as they call him), and Antonio is the commander guy. They come complete with English accents! I dunno if this is supposed to be some sort of past life or if it's just part of the absolute nonsensicalness of the whole show, but it doesn't make sense. Luis doesn't even make a good Jack! You don't compare Passions actors with Johnny Depp! You just don't! It's against all laws of nature! Although Luis always holds a special place in my heart, Johnny Depp has a bigger part that's slightly smaller than Brad Pitt's.
Today was the math breakfast. That has got to be the nerdiest sentence I've ever typed. But it was. And I had a very yummy breakfast. And we took a big nerdy picture. Thank goodness I was blocked by a tall nerd. No no...I accept my nerd condition. I had a point...I really did...but I lost it...oh! Ryan is valedictorian. That was my point.
Judging by the randomness of this thingy, I have to sleep. good night!
Tuesday, May 25, 2004-04:31 p.m.
Fun stuff.
Been a while, huh? Ah well...lots to catch up on then!
1. I was elected VP of Luke 4:18. YAY!
2. I was accepted to the Ontario Science Centre Science School for first semester next year. Double YAY! But numbers one and two conflict...=(
3. I saw Van Helsing with Ivan. Fun stuff and amazing company, but the movie wasn't all that wonderful. At all. =)
4. I went to New York this weekend! YAY!!
5. In NY, I got hit on by a 30-year-old who was biking with his 9-year-old son. Funny story..ask me to tell you sometime.
6. In NY, I went shopping bought a purse that looks like a guitar. I like it. =) And I bought...a hat...and...other stuff...
And really, that's all. But it's been a great few weeks!! Seriously! Once again, my entry doesn't make sense. But I just got back from NY, so gimme a break. I was in the car for 12 hours, man! Twelve hours!
A few hours later...
Which Princess Bride Character are You?
Thursday, May 13, 2004-03:07 p.m.
I'm getting out!
I'm getting out. I. Am. Getting. Out. One more time, for good measure: I'm getting out. I'm getting out of here!! I was accepted to the summer work program in Quebec!! Six weeks of not-here-ness!! Six weeks of Vercheres-ness!! Six weeks of pure French-ness! Six weeks!! *super duper glee* I'm sooooo happy! I'm gonna come home happy! Of course, that means I have to live with another two months of unhappy mother. Je m'en fiche. That's not true...I care, but I'll probably explode here. So I feel that my happiness is justified. Dad too doesn't want me to go. I really don't care about that. If he ends up keeping my here, I will have a very hard time forgiving him. Anyways...Quebec!
Went to my dad's this weekend...and now I get to say that I took the car without my parent's permission! Woohoo! Even though...itprobably didn't go exactly the way you might think it did, I still get to say that. I drove allllll the way to Ste. Anne's with my cousin. Yay! And I had my first in-car driving lesson yesterday! And I drove on 16th! And...I'm starting to tan! Sweeeeeeeeeeet....
I love how my entries make so little sense, it's un-freaking-believable. =D
Wednesday, May 5, 2004-08:27 p.m.
I give up.
My goodness. I need to get away. Get me out of here, please...please. Mother wants me to be open about stuff and then shoots me down. I just give up.
Monday, May 3, 2004-06:29 p.m.
I hate it.
I hate that when I'm cold, I think of Unionville Main Street.
I hate that when I'm hot, I think of furnaces.
I hate that when I need someone to lean on, I think of Friday.
I hate that I've let go of my ground and fallen.
Saturday, May 1, 2004-01:12 p.m.
Famine!
Wow, so much has happened since I last added an entry...which was...lemme check...a week ago! Well. My weekend was horrible. Mother and I weren't the best of friends, and I actually screamed at her. I've never screamed at anyone, least of all, her. I still can't believe I did that. She wasn't upset, but I was. Anyways, sad weekend.
But Monday! Monday was awesome! Beyond words! But "awesome" works pretty well. Because it was super awesome! We had a NET retreat, and it was awesome. I've never experienced such openness with faith. The leaders were so enthusiastic about Christianity and Catholicism and God and Jesus and it was beautiful. It made me want to be one of the leaders too, someday. I gotta be a better person first, though. It really was wonderful...I can't even put the reasons into words...it was great.
After Monday, Famine and its preparations kinda governed life. The actual thing was yesterday, and I'm not sure if all the work that Erica, Wallace, Justyna, and lots of others and I put into the event was evident, but we really did try! Thank you to everyone! It was lots and lots of fun..though some people weren't so enthusiastic...Group 3!! *sticks tongue out* I hope everyone enjoyed themselves and didn't get too bored. Mr. McInerney is hilarious, did you know that? And so is Trip. Though sometimes annoying. And Darren is too cool for words. I still find the whole "Casanova" thing hilarious. And Ivan knows he's super, so I don't have to say it again. But he is. And he helped with Famine. So he pwns.
I might go to the summer work program in Quebec during the summer. Because my mother and French teacher want me to. They're worried about me. I'm too bored with my life. Which is very insolent of me, if you ask me...
Saturday, April 24, 2004-11:15 p.m.
Someone change something up.
Today was so freakin' yucky, it wasn't even funny. Horrible. I hated today in every way. Like...my six-hour long driving class was the highlight. And church. The rest was horrible. Gilmore Girls needs a behind-the-scenes.
I'm so BORED. With everything. And Mme. Issawi's nosyness is annoying me.
But the good thing this week was my super fun Science Centre interview! It was SO much fun!! And I made two friends at the interview!! And exercised my silly imagination with the spider web critic question! But it's long to explain...so I'll go..do something else.
Tuesday, April 20, 2004-03:15 p.m.
So pretty out!
The weather has been absolutely great.
Yesterday, after driving home with mother from Luke, as soon as we got out of the car, it started raining. Massive raindrops and a shining sun. It was SUCH a dancing in the rain moment. So I did. I dropped my stuff and ran around like a child with my tongue sticking out and my arms spread out. By the time I can inside, I was quite wet. It was a good time. =)
And today, it was so sunshiny and warm! And a Leafs Civies Day! And I have a Leafs temporary tattoo. Like Eve's pawprint. Anyways, I'm gonna go take Tootsie for a walk and sit outside. =)
Sunday, April 18, 2004-06:52 p.m.
=(
Yesterday, I was cleaning my room, when I realized that I've lost the envelope with the notes that Lise, Tara, Mike, and Rob wrote me five years ago. So insignificant and silly, but the notes were so important to me. So I sat on my bedroom floor and cried for a while, and then I looked for them for maybe an hour, still sobbing, before I realized that the situation was hopeless. I have no idea where they are. I knew exactly where they were for five years, and now they're gone. I can't believe I've lost them..
Friday, April 16, 2004-12:07 a.m.
SteeeeRIKE!
Kero didn't come today. I was sort of happy...it made me anxious to know he was coming. Don't really know why. Well, I do, but I can't put it into words. But on the other hand, I was disappointed. It's all good, though...
I can't wait until the first thunderstorm of the year. It's kinda silly, but I can't get the idea out of my head. I can't wait until I hear it outside my window when I wake up in the middle of the night, have the sound of it put me back to sleep. I want to sit on my front steps and watch it exhaust itself, and listen to the angels go bowling. =)
Wednesday, April 14, 2004-03:18 p.m.
Every detail of my weekend.
Alrighty, so it's been a little while since I last entry-ed. Let's recap.
Easter was cool. I went to my dad's, but my dad wasn't there at first. So my aunt, cousin, grandmother, and I hung out and did Easter-y things. We waited out the Good Friday fast together, ate yummy dairy-and-meat-less things at three o'clock, went chocolate shopping, went to the ever so much fun Good Friday mass at the Greek Orthodox church, went to the ever so early Holy Saturday mass at the same church at seven in the morning, baked a cake, coloured eggs...then went to pick up my dad. He came bearing gifts, which was a good move on his part. I got a pretty poster/print/picture of a ballerina, and everyone else got poster/print/picture things too. He brought home one of a cat that looks exactly like our own kitty, Anissa. We showed her the picture and she went nuts...purring, hyperventilating, dilated pupils. It was crazy! Then after that we went to my other aunt's house for dinner. Then we went to church again for the midnight mass that was really at 10:30, though dad was too jet-lagged to come. Then the next day we drove my aunts to the airport so that they might fly to Florida for spring dragonboat training and dad and I went to eat whatever the meal is that you eat at two in the afternoon with family friends. Then we came home and watched Kill Bill: Vol. 1. Awesome movie! Then I came back home...and today I gave blood! Yay! And that was an in-depth recap of my weekend. Hope everyone's was super!
Blooding was fun...it confirmed that Matt in my French class is super cool. So cool! And Lillian's not all that bad either.
I've gotten all my mid-term marks, and they're...stupid. They don't make sense at all. Anthro/Psych/Socio - 99%, French - 98%, Bio - 84%, English - 81%. Like dude! I speak English! I really don't think I'm that bad at writing essays and reading books. Camman. Hinkson? Calling herself a generous marker? I think not. It still leaves me with a pretty decent average, but it could have been like WHOA higher had my English mark been un-demented. My bio mark isn't what I'd like to have, but it's expected with Sullivan and his STUPID marking-with-levels-ness. Why would you use percents and averages, when you can use four levels, medians, and modes?! Stupid...
Kero's supposed to be coming tomorrow to visit me. I don't get it...the guy's only seen a picture of me, met me once in person (and presented me with flowers), and talked to me a few times online. I mean, it's nice and all to have someone that fond of me, and he's a really nice guy, but I kinda don't trust this...
I hope he realizes that I'm not going to skip class for him.
Thursday, April 8, 2004-06:04 p.m.
Holy Thursday!!
Michael Jackson makes everything better. I mean, other than the whole molestation thing, Michael is the one and only universal remedy. This week was horrible...I was tired all the time, felt crappy, not especially happy about anything, and just plain blah the whole time. And now, look at me. I'm dancing like an idiot all around my kitchen as "The Way You Make Me Feel" blares from my speakers. The man is a genius.
But yeah, this week wasn't much worth talking about. So let's look to the future...tonight, I got me some ballet and then I have to pack to go to my dad's. Tomorrow morning, mother and I are driving to Montréal and I'm spending Easter there. My dad's not even gonna be there until Saturday, silly man. But he's in Paris, and I get souvenirs, so it is allllll good.
And I like strawberries. So tough. And Happy Easter!
Thursday, April 1, 2004-04:41 p.m.
Look at the new prettiness!
Would ya look at this?! Isn't it just loverly? I'm loving it. *breaks into McDonald's theme song...which is really a JT song* Many thanks to Joan for making it for me! I'm so happy!! Now maybe I'll actually blog since I like the way it looks. And I love the Beatles. So yeah. Everything's great with this thing! So now for the blogging part.
It's amazing how little my life changes from day to day. There are insignificant, but noteworthy, things that happen at school, at dance, at home, but when I go to sleep, nearly nothing's changed. I'm twenty-four hours older, my hair's a little longer, I've gathered a little more experience. But that's it. I don't expect my world to change each and every day, nor do I want it to, but just to think of the consistency of my life...it's interesting.
Anyways, all is good these days. This week is relaxing, enjoyable. I'm happy, the people around me are happy. I'm a little lonely, but meh...whatever. I've been really analytical of the things that happen to me lately, and I'm enjoying people-watching. My goodness...that is one fun activity. I realized over the March Break that my family is especially interesting...but then I remember that I share lots of their qualities, and I freak out because what I've been criticising may exist in me. Prolly does! =) But anyways, it's still fun.
I'm waiting for something to change.
