Monday, November 4, 2002 11:31 p.m.
Heya! dont got much time to write, but alot to say, so okay here it goes, well Krista Left me a message in my guestbook a tad bit ago, and she told me to add her to msn, so i did, and we talked today, I was so scared, cuz well, im a shy little bugger, and im not sure what she would say about asshole. lol, his new nickname, haha, but she told me that the way i felt, is the way she felt, and i know im not alone, but he's dumb enough to play all us girls, and shes REALLY pretty too, so he obviously has SOME amount of taste. She lives in Waterloo though, so I donno, I think when she comes to St.Ratford next ill try n meet her, she seems like a kick ass chik, but shes prolly reading this so, HI KRISTA!! teehee, Yeah, she's awesome, but hmm my head hurts, and i have band in the morning, i missed the last practice due to food poisoning, and i havent slept lately, so it wont be new if i dont sleep, but oy, my head hurts! so yeah, but i have to put a link to KRistas page n shit on here, so ill talk to you later! Toodles!

Sunday, November 3, 2002 09:15 p.m
Hey, I thought I updated this today, silly me. Dana just left! We were talking to her sisters mom and Step Dad on mic, and I miss them ='(, Its all so depressing, but i have to try to be happy right? I just got one of those "twist on a horoscope" email, and it was so right. but I guess I shouldn't base my life on those. Im so nervous about Friday, Dana cant make it to be there for right at 7, so I might have to sing a song solo, so im a tad bit nervous, i know what song id sing though, and if i practice enough, then I should be good, right? I hope so. im so scared. Should I sing? I dont know! ah. I hate making decisions, especially since a bunch of people I know will be there, so ill be extremely nervous, but hopefully if i sing first, by myself, then barley any people will be there, right? yeah, thats what I'd like to think. If I do decide to sing by myself, i bet EVERYONE will be there, then I'll back out. which wont be good, not at all. so i dont know anymore! My voice is so shakey lately, i dont know if i could do it! so yeah, what should i do?! Any ideas?! gah! how are you gonna reply? Im so stupid, so im gonna leave... Toodles.

Saturday, November 2, 2002 11:29 p.m.
Right, I have nothing to say, but i guess I should update this, like I usually do, nothing new happened today, went to the youth centre, read, Liz threw cards at me, i now have another cut on my forehead, but i dont care, I know I shouldn't put things of importance in here, but for some reason, today, ive felt... different.. like, its weird, i feel so worthless, insignifigant, and so on. but I dont know, it's probably just my lonliness catching up with me, but oh well, ill live. I have a huge headache, so im gonna go, and i guess ill update tomorrow when im bored and lifeless and have more ramblings of nothingness to write about, so until then.. toodles.

Saturday, November 2, 2002 12:17 a.m.
Hey, Well Cullitons won, once again!! 6-0!!!! Against Kitchener! So im proud, since Kitchener is 2nd, but We're first =D! lol. But yeah, im so tired, it seems that everyone is trying to access my thoughts these days, are they really that important? I dont know. I agree with my 'online quiz' thing, Im Worthless yet Amusing! so true. damnit! im gonna fall asleep! oh well, Congrats Ryan On your 1st shut out of the year, though uhh, he wont see that, meh. And Caileigh! YOUR SEXY! lol, Not me. but anywho, im going to bed since im like, so tired, and i get to wake up tomorrow And think Oh shit! I have school! But nooo i wont, but thats how i am, so G'night all!

Thursday, October 31, 2002 10:01 p.m.
Happy Halloween! lol, well, happy isnt a good word! My feet hurt! lol, dont go trick or treating in heels!! Bah! it hurts!! But ill live. except my eyebrows are now BLACK! Damn being a goth! lol, oh well, our candy got stolen tho, but we got more stuff!! so im good! and guess what! i have my new glasses! teeheehee! their so awesome! Tee hee, im such a bitch! but its so fun! teehee, but im tired, so off to bed for Shanny-Boo! Nighty Night!

Wednesday, October 30, 2002 04:07p.m.
HAHAHAH I NEED A LIFE! Lmfao Alison and i are here at the library bored as hell, the guy infront of me keeps laughing, and its scaring me cuz i thought that the computer was talking! haha! Crazy shit eh?! Well The book ive wanted for a while... I now have! yay! Split Second-Alex Kava, It should be good! but im gonna go check my email again see if anyone has replied cuz I NEED A LIFE!! haha the comp says i have 11 mins left! but it can suck my left tit!!! hahaha lmao, but yeah, im gonna get my new glasses today! yay! hurraw! lets party! lol haha, anywho! toodleS!

Tuesday, October 29, 2002 07:01 p.m.
well the comp was down yesterday, so thats why there is no entry, oh, AND i was at the mall with Dana! we had those picture booth pics taken! lol they're so bad! but i didnt go to school today... I got food poisoning.. gah, stupid A&W! oh well, i dont care. im really cold though. I was up all night puking, ugh it hurt. but I think im good now, the school called tho, and it said "A student from your household in grade 10, missed periods 1, 2, and 5" Im wondering, how was i there pd 4? I wasnt at school at all today! Thats crazy. I just found it stupid as hell! but at least i stayed home rather went to school and got sick! but oh well, im fine now.. i think, meh, but im off, I shall talk to you later! °×°|_øñê§ð|v|°ë Þ®îñ©£§§°×°

Sunday, October 27, 2002 03:45 p.m.
Hiya Papya! lol dont ask! IM actually in a good mood! mommy did my hair n make-up, so I look perdy! lol teehee! I just got back from bein wif Smurf! It was awesome! We went bowling, i had 174 and 153, he had 128 and 102 lol, it was cute. then we went to Williams and Rob was there, it was so funny, Rob thinks he's SOooooooooooooooo hott! lol, i couldnt help but laugh. man, im hungry! lol i know, that came out of no where! and my nail is breaking, like hardcore, and it hurts! im listenin to a buncha music! yay! its fun! lol. Oh yeah! Theres a hockey game tonight!! =D!!!!! im So Excited! Lol I know, I like too many guys! a while 2 of them! lol! Yay! Its so fun though! We're going to Waterloo, and their arena is AMAZING! its so huge! Its a whole Complex! its got a swimming thing and everything! but im intrested in the boys! lol, I used to be intrested in the swimming stuff haha, i hope Bellhumer is there! i think i spelled his last name wrong, but Little Kyle! lol, the cool one! lol, yay! im mean! haha! Go me! but anywho, lol, i wanna go on the bus, but thats the thing- I can't! so ill just wait and see them there! But the arena is so huge, ill have to find a way to sit behind the bench, and be happy! yay! hurraw! lol, But yeah, i gotta fix my nail soon.and its another half hour till supper and im SOOOOOOOOOOOOO hungry!! Gah!! But oh well! ill eat a pudding! lol. But im gonna go, and find something to do, because im so bored and hungry so toodles!!

Saturday, October 26, 2002 11:32 p.m.
Hey!! That Dance was awesome!! I felt so cool! It was amazing! teehee, I saw a buncha my friends there, that i havent seen in a while -they were in jail- and yeah, its cooL! and I met some peoples too! so Im good!! mmm Pita! tteehee! Im eating a grilled chicken pita, its so yummy! And of course, its from dun dun dun dun PITA VILLE!!!!! hurrah! lol im a tad bit hypeeerrrr! lol yay! haha. I just had to take off the many layers of make-up i had on, lol, i was a prom queen-from the 70's, so i had the huge make up, and my hair is poofy and curly, it looks awesome!! teehee! But im soooooooooo tired!! lol, so im gonna go, eat my pita, talk to the few people im talking to, then go to bed!! Love yah all! =)

Saturday, October 26, 2002 03:44 p.m.
Hey, ugh Im so tired and I hurt so much!! I just woke up about half an hour ago.. and my shoulder is still sore as hell! Well I'll give you the story, last night i went to the hockey game, had fun there, went on the ice, shot the puck for the winning thing-lost, but i dont care, then I went to the dance... oh boy. Well, I had somewhat fun, Kristen got caught drinking, so i gave her a lecture, and Mrs.Trechel said I have alot of wisdom for a grade 10, and then i went into the dance with Caitlin, and WE were dancing away until SMASH, My friend Kim runs past and hits my shoulder really hard at a bad angle, well, there goes my shoulder, it popped out, so we put it back in, it still hurts!! But on the positive side, smurf and I have been talking ALOT lately, which i dont mind. I think its great, but he wants to know EVERYTHING thats wrong with me, because im so upset lately, so i have to tell him, well, i dont have to, but i will. and I have another dance to attend tonight, only this one im actually dressing up for, and im being a prom queen. i still dont like the dress, but ill live with it. MSN isnt working, which is frustrating me! but i'll live with it, oh! it worked! Score! lol, now im talking to smurf, so ill talk to you all later! toodles!

Thursday, October 24, 2002, 10:41pm.
Yeah, Me too, once again. answer me this, if you answer me anything, answer me this ONE question.... Why do I always fall for guys I have no chance with in the world?! Like fuck. Im never gonna find a guy, so why dont I just give up now? like seriously! errg. i dont know anymore. I guess I will just give up! But anywho, i have to get new glasses, stronger ones, thats not cool. but i have awesome frames, I just hope they look good, Or i'll cry! but whatever. I dont know anymore. everything is fucked up. My hair.. i dont know, its just, i dont know! everyone likes it! But do i? Im not sure. I do, but i dont know. im so confused about everything. one of the guys i like always flirts with me, and another one just, he's so sweet, but I have a feeling he's like that with all girls.. so really, I dont know, and the other one, I RARELY talk to, because im too fucking chicken! and no, its not Kyle, im sorry, that was... last month.. and I guess didn't really mean anything.. Im guessing kyle might read this, so Kyle, whats up with us? are we still friends or what? im confused, so please tell me soon. but your choice is your choice, I cant change it. kinda like with Dana. I hate the choice she's making, but it'll be better for her, so I have to let her go, as much as I'll be miserable, and as much as I'll miss her. but yeah, I guess I dont have much more to say, because im tired, and im going to go to bed.. so i guess ill talk to you another time, and sorry i haven't been updating this as often as i should be.. i guess ive just been busy spending time with dana before she leaves... °×°|_øñê§ð|v|°ë Åñgè|_°×°

Wednesday, October 23, 2002 05:05 p.m.
Yup, me too, gah! im cold, and my head huts! but oh well, I have an eye appntmnt tomorrow after school! sounds fun eh? I get my eyes dialated, woo fricken hoo! but anyways, yup, i got my hair cut, its like, really short, but everyone told me it looks good, so i think its good. lol but I need a prom dress for Saturday! But I can't seem to find one! so growl! do you have one? That could fit me? size 3 or 5!! tee hee. wait, i got one, lol , i just ran down the street, bad thing is, its a peachy pink colour!! So if anyone wants to see me in a peachy pink coloured dress, come to the dance @ the youth centre Saturday at 7pm ! hah! but yeah, anywho, i like tea! lol , its yummy in my tummy lol, but its supper time, so toodle oo my dear friend!

ahh! Shortness!
AHHHHHHH Okay i have like, seconds to write this! BUt I got my hair cut! its SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO short!! teehee! I love it! its perrrdty! teeheehee! But yeah!!! Faye is coming to pick me up for youth group @ Memorial!! It'll be awesome!! I cant wait! and my hair dresser styled my hair too! its back in cornrolls and spiked! hah Its awesome! I cant wait till tomorrow to show it off! its so cute! tee hee! its amazing! Know whats funny?! Mommy got her ears pierced again!! lol teehee! its her second hole! im so proud! hehehe! Yay! Go Mommie! Im so in a rushy rush mood! lol im hyper too! WOOOOOOOOO! go me! i need gum! yup! teehee! yay! lol haha! im crazy, but before you all think im bloody insane [which we all know is TRUE!@!! hehehahahhhooh] Im gonna go! Toodle Oodle Oo's! hehe ~SHANANNON Hahaha!

mm School
Well im a loser! lol! Im at school in the comm room talking to Dana and Caitlin on MSN, thought they are right beside me! teehee! Go me!! my head hurts! but im good. yeah last night was harsh, I cried myself to sleep... im losing my best friend!! Dana is moving to Australia to be with her mom, so im quite upset about that. I really don't know what to do, so its hard for me.. but im trying my hardest to be happy, just so im not "depressing" as Kyle puts it. But meh, I guess things like this are supposed to happen, sO I have to live with it. I have a meeting at the youth centre tonight, so i wont be home till like 5ish, but its all good!! Cuz I get to plan out my coffee house more, and figure out some shizzit! Im listenin to Krutch, its awesome!! yay krutch! i havent eaten lunch though, so it sux!! But i guess ill live! teehee! Yeah, Im not sure what to write, but my lack of sleep last night is getting to me, because im starting to be tired! but im fine i guess! I still have Bradleys sweater! Its a TFK one, It rules! Cuz Krutch is THE best! I hafta go to youth group on uhh Tuesday! yeah, thats it! lol, everyone is tellin me to, so I guess I will, it should be fun, im just really nervous, but then again, i always am about these types of things! so I quit, but I guess I'm gonna go email someone to tell them haha i need to talk to them, dont ask ab0out the haha, i was just being a retard, but ya! toodles! ~shay

uhh uhh page name!
well well, I seem to be here again, I just finished my english project, its quite strong, and I like it. so yeah, im proud of it. but anywho. i have absolutely nothing to write about that is of importance. as I heard the boys lost last night, so im mad, and i HAVE to go to the hockey game on friday so i can bitch at them for losing!! crazy fools! But yeah, im so bored, im going to die! lol, yay! hurrah! moo! ah Y/c meeting tomorrow! Which means im gonna have to find out more info and tell Will about it on Tues, so we can figure out if they will play for us on the 30th of Nov. They being Disoriented youth. But yeah, I hate having Dry skin! gah! its SO annoying! Dude! I need a book to read in english class! i finished the book i was reading, it was really stupid too! but yeah, im gonna go look for a book now, okay? ToodleS!

Little By Little the wheels of your life are slowly falling off!
Heya heya heya! lol dont ask! im not sure if i wrote in this tonight, but yeah, i think i did so you know about Disoriented Youth and how much they rule already lol! well im in a good mood, lol, tired and sore, but great! other then im mad @ dana because she told me we'd get our hair done together, but she already went and didnt even think of taking me also. so im not that happy with her! But hey, It's all good! I dont have alot to say today, so yeah! Tomorrow is Stu's bday! so Happy Early B day Stu!! im hungry! So im going to go eat!! Okay?1 TOodles!!!

Yay Disoriented Youth!!
Heya!! I just got back from the y/c not that long ago, it was Coffee House tonight, There were some awesome people playing! Disoriented Youth is amazing! Its a local band, And They are a punk type band, I know the one guy in the band-Will Petker, he's crazy, but he can play awesome, and he's good at singing too! Theres also Steve Mathewson in the band, i dont know him though, and I met Brent Meidinger! He's cool, and so amazing on the guitar!! Wow, I was watching him all night, he's absolutely amazing! Wish I could play the guitar.. Krista has an acoustic, but she's not letting me use it yet. so im gnona bug her until she does! teehee, im an angel yes i am.. lol, Yay! I Love The y/c, And there is another coffee house on the 8th, and 30th [November], The one on the 30th im organizing, and Im Getting Disoriented youth, Nerve Pitch and 87 pages, Nerve pitch is a kind of slipknotish band, and 87 pages is ska, they're also a local band, And they're cool! But yeah, i have a meeting on monday to figure out more things!! But im tired, so im gonna skidaddle! K? Toodles!!

Hurrahhhhh! lol Cookies!!
Howdee! how are ya?! Im good! EAting a cookie! yay! tis quite a good cookie! We won again last night, 5-3!! yay! I was quite happy. It was an awesome game too! Dana Brianna [3 y/o melissa was babysittin] were dancin pretty much the whole time, it was funny, cuz the one time, Brianna put the seat up, and i went to sit down and if i didnt have my feet there i woulda fell on my ass, but point is, i missed the seat, made the boys laugh though, and it was even funnier cuz nearing the end Hoffy got hurt[that wasnt funny] and i had Brianna on my lap, and she was dancing on my lap, and dana and i were dancing, and he turned around and looked at us and just started laughin, It was so fun! And dana and i went to sids after to play pool, and she ordered crazy fries, and they ended up coming back with 2 of them, so we got one on the house, then after that i went and slept over at her house, was that ever fun! teehee! We're insane together! The craziest thing is... we ACTUALLY Got sleep! Theres a hockey game in Guelph today, but daddy hasta work @ the youth centre, so we can't go, and its coffee house tonight, so im goin wif ma dad. ill meet a buncha friends there, Dana can't come though cuz she's stuck at work ='(! damn work, but we're getting our hair done tomorrow! Laurie is gonna perm and cut her hair, and cut mine, i might get it braided! it'll be so awesome! tee hee! I can't wait! but im quite tired, and still in pjs, lol, i did have a shower tho, and my hair is still in a towel, so i should take it out soon! I so badly wanna go to Guelph, but I can't, so ill live. They dont have a game other than friday again this week, and there's a dance then, but im not going to the dance, though you get to dress up, i think i can miss it, its not a big deal, id rather go watch the boys anyways! its more fun! teehee, but yeah, i think im gonna go and do my hair now, since im leaving in like 2 hours... so toodle oo my dear!

Oh my freaking Gawd!
Fucking people!! they all fucking suck! Danas dad was supposed to fuckin pick us up at fuckin 11:00, he wasnt there, its nearing 12 and we still dont know where he is. Well great, he fucking forgot! I hate him so fucking much! ugh! me and Dana went to the y.c then to madam t's, at madam ts we talked to some old guy, named John, he was cool, cuz i dunno, he made me think. I cant stand how her dad just leaves her, its bullshit!!! Like fuck! If my dad did that to me, id fucking spaz! im already gonna spaz on her dad! she deserves better than this fucking shit! She's my best friend! Seeing her like this tears me apart, thats why im taking her as many places i can, cuz we have fun together =)! its amazing, we're like twins.. in our own little ways! But like, fuck, we know when eachother are upset, so we can figure shit out, ugh, i wanaa kill someone, so before i absofuckinglutely snap, im gonna go.. Toodle fucking doo!

Yup
okay Okay! im Sorry! I didnt update for a day! Calm down!! I was busy working on my poster! =P! So yeah, whats up with me? Im finding things for my communications project! yay! and im Talking to some really awesome guy from Michigan! He's so cool! he's just like me! yay! AND Im Giving Laura tips on singing, though i cant sing lol! hah! go me! hmm what to say?! Uhh i cant wait to go to toronto With Communications class! Im going on my birthday! How cool is that?! So ya gotta watch okay?! It'll be funn! Lol, 15 in 1 mnth 5 days! hurrah! Lets have a party! wait, i am! hehe! but danas here now so toodles

Happy Turkey day
hey, 10 mins to write, but hey, i can do it! ive been working non stop on my cullitons poster! ive worked on it a total of 8 hours! im just on my dinner break at at 7 im gonna start working on it again. i dont have to have it done until friday, but id rather get it done now. so yeah, its gonna be 5ft by 2 ft! Quite large. I've been going absolutley insane! BUt ill finish it eventually!! tee hee. im so tired. i went to bed at 4:30 last night, woke up at 2, and started working. Ofcourse last night i was working from 12-4:30, so blah. ive been getting new ideas minute after minute! Chances are, this'll take well over 10 hours in total work time to finish! but ill live. ive got my music! So yeah. School tomorrow... dont wanna go. but hey, i have no choice! Oh yeah, Happy Turkey Day! Its not a big deal to me. but okay. *yawn* Im wayy too tired. But yeah, I swear I put too much effort into things for the cullitons! only, if this one is like, totally amazing, then im going to use it for the playoffs, but i need a saying, so i'll figure one out. It'll more then likely just be "Go Cullitons Go" For poster night, but i'll figure something more original out for the playoffs. Gah 6 mins to finish writing. told you i could do it! oh yeah, i added music today. of course.. its my music teehee. I might find some Box car racer to put on, if i can find some. but yeah, im gonna do that now, so toodles! ~shay~

Oh Life Goes On!
"Oh life goes on And it's only gonna make me strong It's a fact, once you get on board Say good-bye cause you can't go back Oh it's a fight, and I really wanna get it right Where I'm at, is my life before me And this feelin' that I can go back" Know how much sense that makes right now?! Alot. but yeah, just got back from the hockey game, score was 5-3. for us of course. I read this song today, and oh how it made sense! sorry, im gonna be goin back and forth on subjects just cuz thats the mood im in! I went to Joe's today, it was pretty fun. im not even close to losing my voice tonight, but i guess thats what sunday games do to ya, barely anyone there.. so yeah. *falls asleep* im so tired, and I have to make a poster for Friday.. gah. Its gunna be so NOT fun. Actually i guess it'll be fun, cuz i get to make a poster of the boys! its Poster night Friday.. so yeah. Im still wondering when the 'Meet the players' Night is.. brb gotta pee. okay, im back. but yeah, im SO bbored, its like 10;30, and im home. thats sad. Very very sad. I wanna find someone to come to sids wif me. blah. theres nobody to go, fucking shit. dad might go, ooh ooh! I hope he does, cuz im SO going with him then! I love this song, so im gonna go to sing it... tay?! Toodles! °×°±£|v|Þ+îñg |=å±ê°×°

Dum biddy bum bum!
Dont ask about the subject... it has no point. lol, but yeah, today is.. well.. cold. There's a hockey game tonight, which of course, im going to, but Im supposed to go to Joe's today.. though he's not on, and i suppose i should phone him, but im too lazy too, lol. I talked to my Uncle Shawn today!! He's up in Oshawa, and in a couple of weeks he's gonna come see us! im so Excited! He's the best! him and my uncle Trent! So yeah! They're in my mommys family, The O'neills!! I like them better, but dont tell anyone! lol, but yeah, im wearing my grade 6 sweater! hehe, i feel so... young again! 1 month 8 days!! yay! Gah, so far away. oh well, I prolly wont be as excited when it comes, im just in a good mood today cuz i talked to uncle shawn! Wow, I never liked this band before, but now they're like awesome! Go Matchbox 20! lol, yeah, im screwed up. and my lips are chapped, growl, this is bothering me!! But yeah, i think ima go call Joe now, see whats goin on, so Toodles!! °×°±£|v|Þ+îñg |=å±ê°×°

ah! okay, Last time i go to one of those. Krista stayed with jeffery the whole time, and i was off in my own little world, like come on, my dad even had the dogs. how pathetic?! So I decided to go upstairs and sit in the spare room (at their house) and stare out the window and think... next thing i know i wake up with tear stained cheeks and 2 little cousins sleeping on me. I wish i knew what happened, I dont remember crying, or falling asleep, so i dont know, i had some sparkling cider, but no alcohol, so i dunno. but its all good! im so cold, and SOOOOOOOOOO tired, go figure, its only 10 to 11.[10:50] ill prolly end up going to bed early. but hey, its all good. 13 days till i get told i need new glasses. then ill be happy because then i get my new glasses =D!!!! I so can't wait! their so awesome! lol yes im saying so alot... SO what! and exactly 1 month and 9 days until my birthday!! Know whats sad?! All I really want for my birthday is like, 10 cds. thats like it. I could use money too, but mostly cds: Avril Lavigne, Mest, NFG, *BOX CAR RACER*, Dashboard, Good Charlotte, Not By Choice, SOAD [System Of a Down], Atticus and The Ataris. Thats it! but hey, i guess i dont deserve anything, and if people get me something, they have problems! hmm I know 3 people that could be reading this, so Hey Joe!!!! Hey Cail!! I LOVE YOU! CHEER UP HON!!! And hi Kyle! so yeah. just felt like doing that. know what? my hands are cold. know what else? im going to bed. Goodnight! °×°±£|v|Þ+îñg |=å±ê°×° {Tempting Fate}

oh how fun.. *cough choke gag die*
Great... family thanksgiving today.. hur fricken raw. kill me now! i hate going to family things.. im always like.. off to the side, you getting slowly butchered by my cousin Alyssa! Dont get me wrong, i love that girl to death, but when she doesnt leave ya alone, it gets quite annoying. mind you she's only what.. 6 now? So yeah. i gotta get used to it. im so freaking tired though, but listening to box car racer, so im good, we're more then likely leaving soon, so i cant write much.. but yeah. mmm english muffin, tasty. im so cold, then again im wearing my pants rolled up so meh, its all good. ill live. yeah, mom wanted me to make myself look "nice" for the family thing.. im like Psht! screw that! ill wear normal clothes! If they dont like it, they can suck it up. I think we're waiting for my sister n jeff to get here, but i dont know. im thirsty, so im gonna go get adrink, then get my writing shit ready to go, k? Toodles ~Little Bit~

Once again... *sigh*
Hey... Im tired, bitchy, depressed and sore. How shouldnt i be surprised?! well Cullitons won tonight, 8-3! thats good. And I saw Joe too, thats also good! im gonna be going over 2 his house sunday afternoon! so that'll be cool, but tomrrow im going to a family thanksgiving [shoot me now!] But I guess my mom will sick all the little kids on me, so i wont be able to sit in my own little corner and read or something. Bowling now officially blows! because I can't bowl worth a shit!! so i quit... actually, i might. but hey. thats me. And my feet are absofuckinglutely killing me! I was walking in 4.3 inch heels today, quite painful. but yeah, i no longer like instrumental music class, 2 of the guys [One being an ex of mine] keep bothering me, cuz i play the trumpet, and so do they, and they keep making moves on me, and the one keeps rubbing it up my leg, which bothers me, so yeah, but im quite tired, so im going to bed, night. ~Little Bit~

Shaybee's sick.
Hey, i feel like shit!! I came home from second period because im that sick!!! It sucks! im like all shakey and crap, so mommy came and picked me up. so i slept all day. I miss Joe! =( I wanna talk to him, but he's at work, so blah. ill live i think. I feel like shit still though. and im talking to justyn on the phone. Im also listening to Box Car Racer...Duh! Im listening to "there is" tis the best song! Its quite a good song, i feel alot like what it says, then again, its the same with pretty much every box car racer song! they're like, My band! lol! My fave band at least. but yeah, im not typing much, so i think im gonna go back to sleep, so toodles! ~Sick lil Shaybee~

AHH!
AHH! I Got my school pics back today! they are HORRRRRRRRRRRIBLE! gah! Oh well. i have a nice gouge in my hand too, it stings like a mother fucker. so yeah, and im sick, and tired, and COLD!!!!! I adopted My Useless Blob today! hehe! yay! He's my Friend.... My Only Friend *sniff* Im a sad sad individual. But hey, its all good. "Life Is a mystery, everyone must stand alone, I hear you call my name, and it feels like........ home" Yay! Madonna! lol. Guess who is the SWEETEST Guy in the world!! JOE! omg! He is just so sweet! im so glad i have him as my friend! i love him so much! He actually sees the good in me, and he keeps trying to help me thing positive of my self, though i really cant, but im trying to. I wish i could see him right now, I could use a nice big hug! Thats Better! Punk version of Like a Prayer! I can actually have fun with this song! brb i need a sweater! okay, im good. But as i was saying, yeah, i miss joe! he's so overly sweet! hehe but i feel SO sick, so im gonna go ly down tay tay? toodles!! ~Shay nay~

*faint*
Woohoo! I SO lost my voice again. lol, well it sounds REALLY raspy, and weird, lol. Hockey hockey hockey!!! lol! yay! 6-1 Stratford! We Rule! Kyle (B) and I were making up nicknames for some of the players and we now call Mark OH, cuz i was like, I see a hottie, His name is Mark, Hes Right there OH! lol it was so funny! teehee! And He is SO hott! Tra la la! Daddy says i should ask him if he'd teach me how to play golf! He's an excellent golf player, so i would learn from the best! lol! hurrah! hehe, i wish I had enough nerve to ask him! but i think it would be funny if he didnt know how to play pool, cuz then, i could teach him how to play pool, and he could teach me how to golf! yay! lmao, sorry, off in dream land! heehee! But man, I was yelling so much, i sound diseased now. haha go me! Alison and i have now worked shit out. So its all good. my head is itchy though lol. haha, its 11:11 make a wish! *wishes* hehe yay! i think im going to bed soooooooon. lol, like now. lol, i enjoy my time to dream about Mark, hehe, and i have to email Eric, see how he's doing. so Toodles! ~shay~

Uh Oh
Well My privacy is now gone... Kyle found out about my page.. and now, im regretting everything ive said in here, but oh well. I guess im just a terrible person, ive said cruel things, and i guess i should just take ray up on that offer [I said kill me to no one in particular and he said okay] But i dont know, im not even sure if people would notice if i was gone for about a week. then maybe when i start rotting, and they smell it, they'll find me, throw me in a box and shove me 6 feet in the ground. but whatever. i dont know. I dont know what i can say in here anymore, cuz with my luck, he'll check it every day to see what i say about him.. but on a different note.. a more positive one.. Im going to Listowel tomorrow and ill see a buncha Friends from summer school! I miss them so much! it'll be fun, Go figure, its at a hockey game, lol, when am i not at hockey?! But I miss Mark too, so ill keep my eye on him for sure! im gonna get him to teach me how to play golf, well, rather my mom is gonna get him to teach me! lol, i swear she'd trying to set us up, but i dont mind, the only thing is, whats with me and 18 y/o's?! Jeebus Crikeys! thats one of my sayings! lol along with Hardcore! oh man! it was sweet today! Chris (walshy) Told me to do something to alison, cuz shes been buggin him (He's hardcore to good for her) so dana and i were walking down the stairs and we saw alison, i gave her a dirty look and im like Hey dana! and i whispered nothing and then dana looked at her, and we burst out laughing and she ran down the stairs it was funny, i just hope she fell, lmao, but anywho, i gotta finish my dinner! Toodles! °×°Gûí|_±¥ Þ|_ëå§ü®£§°×°

Yeah, Me too.
Hey... confusion is great isnt it?! thought so. But yeah, thats my life, i should get used to it sometime or another! and im getting sick of talking to kyle. all he seems to talk about right now, is weed, and drugs. So yeah, im getting sick of it, its gross. i feel sick, and its nasty. i feel like im gonna pass out, or puke. but oh well. shit happens. i dont know what to say to kyle anymore, he just, i dont know, isnt a person i want to talk to. he got all pissy with me last night about not talking to him on friday. but i dont care, not like he would have said anything worth listening to! So yeah, i have absolutely NOTHING to talk about. so i think im going to shower so i can be ready for when dana comes, and when daddy and i go to elmira to watch them get their asses kicked by the cullitons! yay! anywho, ToodleS! °×°ßð× çª® ®ã磮°×°

just another girl.. in this pettyless little world.
well dana has another boyfriend. and once again, im a 3rd wheel. she's going to try to set me up with some guy, i swear, but ya know what?! I DONT WANT ONE! im sick of guys! all they do is play you, use you, cheat on you, and break you. There is no sense on having a boyfriend, i enjoy just having guys that are friends, but no boyfriends! so yeah, this is odd, im listening to country.. and i like it! but then again everyone loves this song!! Sweet Home Alabama! but its not fully downloaded, so im listening to simple plan, and i REALLY want my cd back from kyle. i called him tonight to get it back but of course he wasnt home so yeah i dont care. I just want my cd, thats all i care about. He's just an asshole now, so i could care less about him. well, thats really actually what i wish happened, but noo, i have to have a heart. fucking thing. right about now i have ALOT on my mind! Im not sure if i actually like any guys right now, i mean, i know i like Mark, but thats the regular "Hockey guy crush" every girl gets one if they watch hockey.. i mean, hot sweaty men, who doesnt like that?! but yeah, at least joe made me smile, he said i looked really hott last night, which is cool, but i gotta go, its cold, so toodles! °×°ßð× çª® ®ã磮°×°

Yup, Me Too.
Hey, Well I just got back from the hockey game.. well, Sids rather. but yeah, I taught dana how to play pool, and kris broke up with her, so shes quite upset. IM so sore right now, my neck hurts, my head hurts, my eyes hurt, my feet hurts and my throate hurts. but yeah, thats life. We lost tonight ='( but it was in overtime. so yeah. Mark Is still hott! I just wish i could have talked to him tonight! but Nooooo He Didnt show up at sids.oh well, some really nasty like 32 yr old guy got the waitress to tell me he thought i was "Pretty cute" So i was scared. I saw Joe at sids! And he's cool, still hott too! ;) lol, Yeah I got pics of us together, they're not great but they work, i got a pic of dana and i, and me too. so its all good. but i have an infection in my gums and it hurts like a bizitch. but i guess ill live. but im really really tired, so im gonna go to bed.. tay?! Oh yeah, kyle is prolly baked and drunk outta his mind right now! great eh? I fucking hate him! but okay, Toodles! °×°ßð× çª® ®ã磮°×°

Hmmm
well, is it bad when your head is bleeding? i thought so, lol. well Kyle and i are OVER, O-V-E-R!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! because i dont know, he just shuns me off, like he doesnt want anything to do with me! I can tell. but whatever, dana and i are going to pick up guys tomorroW! YAY! Im gonna pick up Mark Van Vliet! hes so sexy! lol but im on the phone so ill talk to ya later! °×°ßð× çª® ®ã磮°×°I Feel So Mad I Feel So Angry I Feel So Callous So Lost Confused Again I Feel So Cheap So Used Unfaithful*

Oy Vay
OH man, My head hurts SO much!! And Im Waiting for Dana to get here, then we're going out to the mall! it'll be fun! Kyles working, and im kinda wondering about him right now, because his name on msn is -KyLe- *why do i even bother anymore?* So yeah, im not sure what happened last night. Im cold too! and getting sick, so that sucks. But on the positive side of life, I have a Singing Elephant! he's adorable! lol! I enjoy him. so yeah! Anywho, if you talked back id ask you how you are.. but you dont, so pretty much La la la! Yeah, in History class i was showing a bunch of my freaky tricks, and Alex Eby told me im a freak, and i love it! hehe, its fun. At lunch Caitlin and i sat under the stairs talking to people and freaked em all out! Dana and I have been singing "She Fucking Hates Me... la la la la" all day. its a Muddle Of Pudd Song! (Puddle of Mudd)its fun, but anywho, im gonna go, i might write more later~! oh yeah. and i talked to kyle last night before his date! hehe yay! anywho Toodles! °×°ßð× çª® ®ã磮°×°I Feel So Mad I Feel So Angry I Feel So Callous So Lost Confused Again I Feel So Cheap So Used Unfaithful*

Box Car Racer!!! YAY!
Hey, Well, i saw kyle talked to him and blah blah blah. yeah, supposidly he isnt using me and what not, i saw him right before he went on his date. so yeah, i got a hug and what not, Im talking to caileigh on the phone, shes a sexy whoooore. lol. i miss Kyle right now, and he's prolly making out with his date. ='( And Im SO Mad at him! On Friday he promised me he'd come to the hockey game, but now, he's going to a party to get drunk and high because he is a fucking loser! im still working on my english which is about how he broke my heart.. sad aint it?! I thought so! mmm box car racer, well im off to talk Caileigh. Toodles! °×°ßð× çª® ®ã磮°×°I Feel So Mad I Feel So Angry I Feel So Callous So Lost Confused Again I Feel So Cheap So Used Unfaithful*

At school
Hey, well, im at school, talking to dana though shes right beside me, and listenin 2 Box car racer. I hate to admit it, but i miss kyle. i dont know why, i dont think i should, but i do, and its bugging me.i dont want to tell him though, because then he'll know he won. and thats SO not cool! Because i miss him so much! ='( I want to cry. but im not going to at school, ill just wait until i get home, itll be easier that way, because then nobody will know, and i can keep it to myself. but yeah, im talking to another guy thats in my class. its funny he says i got mad problems, but thats just me! yay for me! lol anywho, i think ill write more when i get home.. so toodles for now! ~I Feel so mad I feel so angry i feel so calloused so lost confused again i feel so cheap so used un faithful lets start over lets start over~

Arg,
Well, i gave him his necklace back. and we talked a bit. and ya know what?! I DONT CARE! I give up on him and he can bite my ass!!!!!!! muwahahhaha! im gonna kick some ass! muwahhaha! anywho toodles!

*sigh*
Hey.. Well once again, a terrible day.. nothing new there! i went to give kyle his necklace back today, since he usually drives up to the corner, but instead he went a diff way, and i didnt get to. So i still have it. but mom is taking me out to the mall tonight, and he's working so if i cant stand seeing him, im going to leave it in his car, but im going to go into the store first, and if i see him ill juts give it to him and leave because i know if i see him im gonna cry. i cant stand it anymore, it hurts too much, i can litterally feel how my heart is broken, but oh well. i have to write a thing in english and im writing about the whole kyle thing, and its already 4 pages long. Its so depressing, but mom is going to get cleaned up so we can go soon, so i have little time left. but yeah. i have a huge cut in my mouth, and it hurts, but usually cuts hurt, so yeah. umm, what else? I have a math test wed! but itll be easy. and i think thats it for now... so toodles! ~Shay

I Quit!
Im done! okay?! I Quit!! Fuck it. Im giving up on guys. I mean nothing to kyle, As much as he doesnt want to admit it, its true. SO i quit. Fuck it all! Fuck life! I DONT CARE ANYMORE! I Just want to crawl into a hole and die! i swear this day cant get any worse. Kyle's all happy dappy about a date he has on Wed, Prolly with a really hott chick too thats like 500 times better then me. I think im a push over. But im used to that. I cant take it anymore. All guys are there for is to hurt you. im giving kyle his necklace back tomorrow, and i swear i wont say a word to him. Im gonna tell him not to bother coming to the hockey game on Friday. I cant stand it anymore. nobody realizes it, but inside im dead. I swear. I cant take it anymore. I just want to snap. Dana isnt home, so i cant talk to her about it, and caitilns dad is on the net, and caileigh went to work. none of my friends are here to talk to! im gonna freak. but oh well, i guess kyle WAS too good to be true. but oh well, i guess i can move on, think of other things, maybe ill do what caitlin does and not fret over guys, i guess they arent really that big in life. so yeah, but im gonna go and cry now, because i can't see what im typing anymore. Toodles.

= What to do?!
well, once again, im confused. im really upset right now, and i have nobody to talk to. Its moms bday, so happy Bday Mom! But Like, I wanna spend time with kyle and everything, im just scared to call him, cuz he's prolly sleeping. I wish he would just finally call me for once! But i doubt he will. Ive taken too much harrassment, and i cant stand it, i want to fucking die. but i guess thats not happening anytime soon. im trying to make this thing actually look cool, but i dont understand HTML that well, so its quite confusing, so i might get someone to help me with it sometime. but i guess im gonna end this and go call caitlin and complain to her about all my problems otay? *sigh* toodles.

='(
Well, Today Officially SUCKED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hate it! I Sucked at bowling, and then of course, kyle's work called and he had to go in and work when he was going to come to the dance with me. But im not aloud to be mad at him, because its not his fault. So yeah, but it hurt. I was so excited on him coming, and then it all got blown to pieces when he told me he couldnt come. When i got off the phone with him i slammed it down so hard and started bawling!! ahh I couldn't believe it. but at least he came to my house and saw me. I have his one necklace, and of course, im pretty much cherishing it. I miss him so much. I never knew i could care so much about one person. but i guess i can. cuz i do. I was happy when he came and saw me though, we just stood there and hugged. it was amazing. And ive got permenant marker ALL over me! ahh.oh well, im gonna end this here, cuz im tired, i miss kyle and im going to bed. so Night, toodles, and i shall talk to you another time! °×°§þøñg£ ßðß §qûª®ê þãñ±§°×°

I Miss Kyleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
I Miss Kyle!!!!!!!!!! ahh. lol. well eright about now ium on the phone with Caileigh because shes sexy! lol! and yeah kyle and i worked shit out, and i miss him cuz hes sexy and i want him! lol hes coming to the dance tomorrow, and ya, im quite excited, so excited ima soil myself@ lmao! One of Kyles Jokes:two cows were at the top of the hill.....the one cow said lets go get those heffers down the hill....the one cow said lets run down and get all of those heffers..the other cow said how about we walk down and get all of them!! muwahahha! hahah! lol go me! lol, but i gotta go talk to caileee and shaun toodler oo! °×°§þøñg£ ßðß §qûª®ê þãñ±§°×°

Guys Can Suck My Large Invisible PENIS!
Well, I've concluded something, GUYS SUCK!!!!!!!!![their own tiny microscopic penis']!!! haha. enjoyment. Well Kris Cheated on Dana[BIG mistake on his part] so i get to go on a killing spree, and im mad at kyle, yet im not but i am yet im not AH! i cant stand it, and i was so pissed at him today i 1.didnt call him, 2.broke my finger. Yes im stupid, i know, but i was mad, the locker was there, and it tempeted me to punch it, so i did, and la. but anywho, this will just be a buncha jibberish cuz im in a Facked ap mood, like, wanting to kill someone, and in pain and happy and hyper and pissed off SO bad.. so as you can tell, im pretty FUCKED UP at the momento. but anywho. I going to ignore kyle for quite some time.. it seems like a good idea, yet im prolly just fucking myself over, but hey, isnt that what i always do?! meh. but im tired, and i know this is incredibly short, but im going to BED now yes B-D-E the thing you sleeeep in, or is that B-E-D? meh s'all good! night!

I Cant Stand It Anymore!!
-sigh- I think im gonna stop calling kyle.. i call him and either he doesnt answer his cell phone, or he isnt home. He told me to call him when i got home from school today, which i did.. yet he never answered, and i called about an hour ago, and of course, he isnt home from work yet. I give up. today has been terrible. I dont know what to do. Theres not alot i have to be pissy about, but i cant find a reason to be happy. Dana didnt walk home with me today because she was with [of course] Kris. I have a feeling im gonna get left out of alot. For goodness sake, Kyle went to the fair without calling me on Sun, and so did Dana Kris and Graham. Caitlin was there too, but she had to work there so ya. but i dont know what im going to do anymore. Betty wrote me a note today, and it asked me if i was going out with Sean, which im not, whoever the hell keeps saying i am is wrong, and im not going out with kyle either. it doesnt matter. im not planning on having any more relationships, for gods sake, i should just give up on kyle now before he breaks my heart. for some reason i have a feeling he's just toying with me.. just cuz im another girl that likes him. But i guess that it doesnt matter. I should be used to being hurt now. im just giving up. but before i start spazzing, im gonna go and try to call caitlin again, cry to her, she'll understand. °×°§þøñg£ ßðß §qûª®ê þãñ±§°×°

omg! Im SO Mad At Kyle! Turns out today he aint in Goderich, he was at the fair eariler, caitlin saw him! Im so gonna kick his ass! oh and of COURSE! He has his cell off. grr. im so pissed right now. Caitlin is asking her parents if she can do something tonight cuz i REALLY gotta get outta the house, all ive been doing is moping around. i have nothing to do, im depressed! ahh! I shouldnt be, but oh well, shit happens, but ima bitch at people now about kyle, so ill talk to ya later. °×°§þøñg£ ßðß §qûª®ê þãñ±§°×°

err. Why is life so damn confusing!?
Hey again, Well i guess im just gonna vent my feelings because im so mixed up right now. Well Friday at bowling I told kyle how i felt about him and that andrea likes him also, and he said that im a pretty girl, im really nice and he likes me, but he doesnt want a relationship, which i can TOTALLY understand, and we went to the hockey game together, it was fun, we played elmira, and kyle [just to get on my nerves] cheered for Elmira, so any time he would clap, id grab his hands. but its all good. after the game we went to sids, and there was me, Kurtz, Graham, Dana, Kyle And Melissa, but Dave would only let me and melissa in [though id rather it be me n dana] so Graham said that we could all go to his house, so we did, and in the car when i called my mom on kyles cell, i didnt turn it off right, so she heard everything, thank god it wasnt that bad. and melissa said most of the shit. and we went to grahams house and sat in the backyard, i was so happy, i was just sittin wif kyle. and it was amazing. Dana and Andy broke up, now Dana is with Kurtz, they're so cute together! but anywho, the whole point of us going to grahams house was supposidly so graham could get wif me, but i dont like him. I like Kyle!! alot! And Graham just didnt ask me out because he thought i was with Kyle [wish i was] so he didnt, thank God! But last night i went to the fair with Dana, Graham and Kurtz. it sucked for some part though, and Dana Graham and Kurtz went to Grahams house, and wanted me to come, but i said no, because i told my parents that i'd be at the fair. so i stayed. Caitlin found me eventually, so we went on the scrambler 2ce and the tilt-a-whirl once. at about 9:30 Kyle showed up... it was obvious he was drinking but i knew he would, so it didnt matter all that much, its his choice anyways. but yeah, then i was sittin with him watching him lose his money when i decided to kick in and gamble also, i went from .00, to .00! and Kyle lost .00 so i laughed at him. But I was doing really good. I wish I could be with him today, but he went to Goderich, So im trying to get a hold of Caitlin, so we can do shit and have fun. It was so fun at the fair though, because when i was with Kyle, after he lost more money, and FINALLY quit, we went and sat on a picnic table, but i was lying on his lap looking at the stars. It was so fun. Then when him and Ray drove me home, we stood for like 10 mins in the driveway hugging. It was so fun. But I can't believe someone as good as him likes me, but i dont know. Im just scared that i might end up liking him alot, just to end up getting hurt. Thats the only thing im scared of, like, he's sweet, he cares, and he's gorgeous! Yet he's a teenager. so therefore, i dont know. I wanna call him, but im afraid to, i dont know where he is right now, for all i know, he could be in goderich fucking some chick, but i dont think he's like that, but if he is... then i dont know. My tummy hurts, but then again, i havent eaten for two days.. but thats okay, ive just been all worried and upset and what not. oh well, Dana and i are like, hardcore close friends, and i Saw Dani again!! For like the first time in over a year! she's so amazing! I love that girl to death. but anywho. I have to clear my head soon, its all cluttered with thoughts, and shit. The worst thing is, they're all weird and unhappy thoughts. Sean and i have drifted big time. Im not sure whats going on with us anymore. but oh well. Andrew.. that boy is weird, i swear he tried to kiss me the other day! but oh well i dont kare, i want my Kyle.. He Has an AMAZING Car(Kyle) and he just got a new muffler, it sounds so cool! and he has a black sunfire, so its amazing. but there are so many in stratford, but i know which one is his cuz it has headlight covers and "sunfire" printed in red on the side. so its all good. and i know his liscence plate # too, so yeah. And im NOT stalking him, lol, i miss him :(. but before i get too carried away with this blabbing about kyle this kyle that, ill end this here. I think this is enough to last me a week! lol ill prolly give you another update next time im with kyle. Have a good day! Toodles! °×°§þøñg£ ßðß §qûª®ê þãñ±§°×°

Oopsie
Hey! well I guess i forgot about this thang. well, Since my last entry, Uhh a fair bit has changed, ive started school now, its pretty fun, half the people i worried about, i barley even see, and Dana and i are REALLY close! So im happy about that! Chris(B) Is maybe gonna be friends wif me again, which is a HUGE plus, so its good there, yet Kyle(T), Who said (jokingly) to Chris while we were goin out that he was gonna take me away, the prob is, i actually like Kyle, Which is confusing because i also like Andrew Willis, who is a new kid at school that im teaching the trumpet. He's totally cute, and shy and just everything! But when i talk to kyle i get butterflys and im all shy around him, and i dont know. I still love Seany to death, he's my baby, but only, he now hates Sarah and Jenn, and its my fault because they started bullshit with me n calling me a Poser (WHICH IM NOT! ill get to it in a bit) and i showed him, so he flipped. but oh well, Back to Poser shit, People have been calling me it for a while, so what if i wear ties! Im not a punk/poser or trying to be like Avril lavigne, sure she's cool n shit, but i was wearing ties LAST year BEFORE she came out! So i dont know whats up with everyone, they prolly got sand in their pants! but anywho, laura just dumped Moe, which isnt cool, because they were so good together, but it was her choice, and i cant stand in the way but okay.. uhmm what else? Went to the fair yesterday, and theres a new hottie at Food Basics! lol!! why do i go for the grocery boys? lol, oh well, but Krista wants on the comp, Oh yeah! HOCKEY STARTED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAHOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im so happy! And Guess what?! [what] MARK VAN VLIET IS SO DAMN SEXY! eheh! He's so hott! ill try n show ya him sometime, but im off to bed, school in the morning! So ill talk to ya later!! Toodles!! °×°§þøñg£ ßðß §qûª®ê þãñ±§°×°

Yay
Tim Isnt mad at me anymore!! YAY! Im so happy. But Joe.. I havent talked to him. and For GOODNESS SAKE! I need my voice back! im going insane! I lost it :( It sucks. Sister came home @ 3, she's in big shit, and i laugh at her. Her excuse "we both fell asleep" MY ASS! lol, hehe, im in a much better mood than earlier. so its all good. The weather is clearin up a bit. still cloudy though. But as long as i get some sleep ill be good! teehee! anywho, im gonna talk to Tim now kk? Love y'alls! ~Shay

Finally, Somewhere to put my thoughts.
*sigh* Well, I finally have somewhere to put what I think... Is this good? well, we'll just have to see. It's been storming about 3 days now... and Tim is mad at me ='( I dont know what to do.. But I guess ill have to live with it.. Theres Been thunderstorm warnings and tornado watches all day, and the wind is blowing hardcore, so i dunno whats gonna happen. Its hella hot, and has been for a while. My baseball game tonight was cancelled ='( Some chicks mom on the other team died.. so they wont play, i feel sorry for the chick though. I really dont see why people care about me? Will someone tell me?!! its all confusing me. Joe is upset, Which is killing me. Joe is like amazing, he's prolly one of my closest friends, though we dont talk that much.. weird eh? thats just how i work. Ive been downloading punk songs like mad. so ya, i dont know what to write, and if this shit load of writing makes sense... ill be surprised. But whatever. I guess im gonna end todays muttering.. and if i get bored ill write more. k? bye.