Lilisin lost at Solitaire on Sunday, May 18, 2003at 03:52 p.m.
Life is good. ^O^ Friday night, I went to Mozarts with NM and Orie so that was a lot of fun. And K. and Josh N. were there meeting NM's friend so we all sat at the table together. Very interesting. So that was fun. Saturday was nice 'cause I had people over for swimming which was nice. I'm slowly working on my tan. *L* Me and her discovered you can play egyptian rat screw in water as long as you don't break the surface tension of water (chemistry at its finest!). So that was... interesting. I won. Of course. ^.-
That night we went to the Jazz Band concert which was so kickass. Afterwards I was running up and down the aisles finding the musicians to congratulate them and complement them. They were a little scared but yeah. I kept screaming Wedge's name and Jarvis. Twas fun. Badass concert though. Then we went to TCBYs afterwards and got the icecream me and Tomo were craving all day. Yum. Dutch chocolate with M&Ms. Yum. *o*
Today was chinese lunch with Mrs. Lo. Yeah! ^O^ Was nice. So yeah. Tonight I go to the orchestra banquet. ^^ So, much fun there. I'm kind of bored though so I'd like it to be 6 already. ^^;; Yeah. So, ciao now.
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Lilisin lost at Solitaire on Thursday, May 15, 2003at 05:12 p.m.
Oi. That did not go well whatsoever. >_< Saturday night at the party, I was giving my number to a really good friend of mine 'cause we always hang out but it turned out we didn't actually have each other's numbers. Well, Do. was around who has hung out with me and Asuka a few times but was more friends with Asuka than me. Well, then, he asked if he could have my number and although I didn't want to, I gave it to him since he was around a lot of people we knew and I didn't want to embarass him. But, I really didn't want him calling me. >_< Well, he called today. Ick ick to the nth degree. He asked if he could buy me a "beverage of my choice" and then I had to tell him the truth. I told him, without trying to be too rude, that I felt uncomfortable around him, for a reason I couldn't say 'cause I didn't know, and that it would feel awkward to be around him. He didn't take the news so well but who would? It was just weird. I've never had to do that to anyone and I really really hope it never happens again. But I felt bad and he was really kind of sad after that. He kept asking what the reason was for my being uncomfortable around him but I just couldn't answer. And then he was asking if I knew why Asuka was starting to shun him at the end before she left and I couldn't answer that either though 'cause I hadn't noticed and she hadn't told me anything. But he was thinking that I knew but just wasn't tell him. I think my reason for being uncomfortable around him was the age difference. But not the fact that he was 23. I think it was the fact that he ... graduated with and knew my brother which is just weird I think. I... I don't know. I just couldn't do anything with him. So yeah, that sucked ass. What's worse is that we're in the same Japanese class for summer school. >_< Ick ick to the nth degree. O_o
On another note, it's 5pm and I just woke up. I don't know why. I went to bed at 1am so I shouldn't have been getting up 16 hours later but... it sucks too 'cause now I've just wasted 6/8 of the day. And my sleeping schedule is definetly going to be worsened. Hmm... can't tell whether I'm feeling antisocial again or social. Bleh. That sucked. >_< Please, that I never have to do that again. _o_...
Geez. I'm starting to feel like I'm becoming that girl that so many people don't like. I can't describe who that girl is but whoever she is, I feel like her. This whole boy situation lately has really put my personality in perspective. I need to tone down on some stuff. Maybe that'll help me. Who knows? Whatever it is, I'd like to find it.
Hmm... I need to eat more. I've lost 4 pounds. O_o
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Lilisin lost at Solitaire on Wednesday, May 14, 2003at 10:49 p.m.
If I don't answer your IMs for a while, it's 'cause I'll be glued to the door waiting for the shipping guy to come. I just ordered my new spankin' Alpine CDM-9801 car cd player and he's going to install it for me. Hee. ***^O^*** Can't wait can't wait can't wait... ~does a little dance~
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Lilisin lost at Solitaire on Wednesday, May 14, 2003at 05:39 p.m.
Today was a good day. I spent the day tubing down the Guadelupe River. It was a lot of fun. And I didn't get massively burned. I learned quite a bit about sunburns after that South Padre orchestra trip. >_< But anyways, I have a little red hue on my arms but that'll turn into a tan tomorrow. And my face is nice and tanned with no red. ^O^ The only thing that really got burned was my chest even though I kept reapplying sunscreen there. Oh well. Other than that, I'll have a nice tan come two days from now. >D~~ And I realized today while driving past Austin High on my way back home that while I was tubing down the river, youguyswereall sitting in class. Ha ha. ~points and laughs~ Anyways, today was fun and it felt nice waking up at 7am again. I missed that actually. I don't really like waking up at 1pm 'cause then I lose the whole day and I get disoriented and very grumpy. So yeah... today is definetly a good social day. ^O^
Doyle was being all goofy again. When we went to Enchanted Rock, he was 'Cactus Doyle' and today he was "Turbo Doyle'. ^^;; It was funny seeing him try to race past us. And whenever he stopped he was "On Neutral Doyle". ^^;; Quite funny. The rapids were really fun too. We got stuck a few times but they were great. Very very nice. ^O^
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Lilisin lost at Solitaire on Tuesday, May 13, 2003at 09:52 p.m.
Got a new pair of pants today. Half off too. They're really cool. Other than that, I'm feeling incredibly antisocial so I'm going to go to my room and do nothing. Tomorrow I'll be in New Braunfels tubing down the river. Heh. Fun stuff. >D Oo! Need to check to see if I still have sunscreen. ^^;
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Lilisin lost at Solitaire on Sunday, May 11, 2003at 12:32 p.m.
_o_... Stayed out till 5am last night and went to bed at 5:30. Heh. These late nights are killing me (and my clothing). I got 1/4 a bottle of tequila spilled on my jacket. It was dipped over and was slowly drenching my jacket without me noticing. >_< Heh. But now I have nothing to be responsible for so I can sleep sleep sleep. Nyah! It was nice to wake up to the site of my counter. 334 people came yesterday to my site. 334! I've never had that many people come to my site in one day with any of my other sites. Let alone that many people in one month. Or two or three. It's wow. *O*
I asked my good friend D. what K. meant when he said "That's my secret" and he said that it most likely meant he was interested but he just didn't want to do anything just yet. Let's hope he does though. *L* D. my friendly guy dating advisor. ~laugh~ Anyways, I'm going to take my dad to the airport and then... crash.
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Lilisin lost at Solitaire on Saturday, May 10, 2003at 05:35 p.m.
Well, finals are over. Hee! ^O^ Took my Japanese final today. Was easy. I studied 20 minutes for it (this morning). Ha! Silly silly me. The only thing I forgot was the word for pharmacy. Yakyo... ya... something like that. ^^;; Got an 86 on my chem final which was pretty difficult. I needed an 88 to make an A. So you need 810 points to make an A. I have 809 points. _o_... But he'll push it up to an A. I'm always like that. For chem I'm always like that. I'm always at that 90 point. ^^;; Yeah. Schools out!! Woot! I'm so glad I'm not taking the Bio final tonight. That would suck ass!
So, went to 101X Springfest last night with Kara, K. and Josh N. 'Twas much fun. I only caught the last part of Rubberhed but I got to hear their cover of Nirvana's "You Know You're Right" which was just kickass! Trapt was good too. Evanescence was great! I loved them so much. They are very good live. I like them better live than on cd. Heh. So, then it was the main feature, Godsmack. I'm not a big fan of theirs but it was fun to listen to them. The lead singer kept calling us Houston so we ended up chanting "Austin, Austin!" over and over again. Then he said "Houston, Austin, your face, your ass, it's all the same". But they were good. I really liked the "Voodoo" song. Was really good!
I got stuck at the edge of quite a few moshpits. It was great when at this one point this guy smashed into us, and Kara was so pissed that she grabbed his balls from behind, then punched him the crotch afterwards. *laugh* It was so badass. Funny stuff. Apparently, his friend told us, that the guy had to lay down on the side. Heh. 'Twas quite funny. We lost Josh at one point and all of a sudden we see him walking buy, his shirt ripped, his pants ripped, all tired and sweating. Apparently he mosh-pitted. *L* Funny stuff. K. kept saying he wanted to mosh but when I tried to send him in, he refused. *L* Damn, he's so cute and nice and grr... After the concert we all went to TCBYs and spend 3 hours in the bed of my truck playing Truth or Dare. I asked him if he would go out with me for his truth and he said, smiling, "that's my secret." What does that mean!? Someone tell me what that means. Is that good or bad? Grr... Damn him. I would love to date him. Anyways... I learned a lot about people's sex lives last night. And they learned about my lack of one. *laugh* Was interesting.
So yeah. It's summer and I'm waiting for it to be night to go to a party. Damn weather. It won't rain but it won't get all nice and sunny. Poohness.
Anyways, I shall end the post with this:
[Chibi Sharky]: Hyah! Kakashi!
[Chibi DCB]: Hyah! Cars!
[Chibi Zieram]: Hyah! Computers!
[Chibi Snake]: They're distracted. Run!
[Chibi Me]: Idiots. -.-....
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Lilisin lost at Solitaire on Wednesday, May 7, 2003at 11:17 a.m.
One final down, two more to go. I went in, took the stupid Spanish final left. And now, I'm done, finally! I have my minor. I've been in Spanish since elementary school and now I feel I've been anal enough in continuing with it so now I'm done. _o_... Yes!
Just chem and japanese to go now. I decided to go ahead and just accept a B in biology and not try to make a 97 on the final since that would be really hard to do and to just go to the 101X Springfest concert on Friday night. So, yes, I'm going. You can see me there. I'll arrive around 5:15 or so. >D~ And no. This year I will not get towed!
Anyways, these past few days have been pretty much been either me sleeping all day or studying chem all day. Nice nice, ne? ^.- The first few days I slept all day 'cause I was just so drowsy! Of course, now I can't fall asleep for the life of me. I think my sleep schedule got majorly screwed this weekend. Saturday I went to Cirque du Soleil -- which was marvelous, cute techies, hah! -- and then I went to Kara's afterprom party. Was much fun. Saw Sharky there. >D~~ Liked your dress a lot! ^O^ Stayed up till 7am playing video games (got to kill Patrick in Dead or Alive) and flirting. Heh. You could guess who with. *L* He's just so cool! But yeah, that was much fun.
The weekend before that was a calm, normal night where I went to Mozarts with Orie, then met some blacks (they are not African-Americans!) who were from Cote D'Ivoire and were speaking in African-French which was fun. Hard to understand that accent when talking about government so I had to lead the conversation so that I would know what they were talking about. Bleh. >_< Then met up with Doyle at a party. He had been party hopping b/c that neighborhood had 20-25 parties going on at once. Parking was hell. But I got to see the Ultimate Women's Jello Wrestling Championship! ^^;; Basically two chicks fighting in nasty jello for 200 dollars. Heh. (How many pron links will I get now to my site? *L*) Then I started a spitting palooza from the third floor where I spat and it landed in some drunk girl's hair (what!? she was covered with jello, what does a little spit matter!?). Then the rest of the balcony started doing the same. *laugh* I'm so evil. Heh heh. Ah... memories. Hmm... I think I said that that night was a normal weekend night.
Now I'm terrorizing nexy's IM.
Lilisin: Hello.
Lilisin: I'm going to make a joke since you're not there.
Lilisin: Knock knock.
Lilisin: Who's there?
Lilisin: Lilisin.
Lilisin: Lilisin who?
Lilisin: Lilisin who is making silly jokes while you're not there.
Lilisin: Silly silly me. >D~~~
Riii~~ght. Back to studying. Toodles!
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Lilisin lost at Solitaire on Friday, May 2, 2003at 09:10 p.m.
It's so sad. I hadn't even thought about it till now. Yes, I'm excited b/c I just have one week left and I'm free. But, so many of my friends are going to leave me. All my friends who are exchange students are leaving so soon afterwards. My last final is Saturday night and Asuka leaves Sunday morning. And Yuka leaves on the 16th. 'Tis so sad. ;___; I'm going to miss them.
But I guess it'll be okay since we'll all be in Japan at the same time. Oo! It's kind of cool. Asuka got an internship in Japan in the music business (which is what she wanted, yay!) and she'll be handling which bands go to SxSW for Japan Nite. Isn't that cool? So she'll be here for SxSW next year. I think that's cool. >D~ Anyways, 'tis sad. Hmm... think tonight I'm staying in. ^^;;
Oo! Today was the last day of Spanish. (Thank god!) Now, all I have to do is take my final and be done with it. I'll have my minor and I shall rejoice. I hated that class b/c of the teacher. Oh, today was teacher evaluation day in Spanish and oh, once she left, the whole class butchered her on the evaluation. Then we all took a field trip to the tables outside UGL where students can make commentaries about teachers for students thinking about taking them and we all wrote what we didn't like. Was fun. Real bonding experience. *L* But oh the massacre. Mwa ha ha.
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Lilisin lost at Solitaire on Thursday, May 1, 2003at 12:44 p.m.
Today was not one of my better days. Two tests, one in chemistry, one in government. Both really important. First chemistry. Seeing as if I didn't make a good grade on it, I could drop it, made me work harder on government. So bla bla... I was having a bit of trouble and so went to the teacher's office hours and yay. Got help. Now, took the test today. Let's just say that it was a test about titrations and I flat out forgot how to do titration calculations. ^^;; I basically had to reteach myself how to do them on the test. Not meaning they were correct. This is the first time that I have the chemistry conceptual ideas down cold and the calculations well... hot I guess seeing as that is the opposite of cold. ^^;; But I did manage to get a 78 which I guess is good considering the situation I was in. And actually, I didn't miss any of those calculations. Heh heh. I was just stressing myself out too much and therefore preventing myself from thinking. Blah.
Ah... government now. Heh. Heh. _o_... Basically, last night I realized that the chapters the sheet I had said I had to read weren't matching with my book. So I looked at the titles and the lecture packet to figure out what I was supposed to be reading. So I had to read all 250 pages last night from my textbook. I tell this to my TA today and apparently(!), apparently(!), I've had the wrong edition of the textbook this whole semester. _o_... So, the B I have in gov. right now is because of me having the wrong edition. Ah, the pain, the pain. So a special tip to all those entering the university next year or those currently in college: Make sure you have the RIGHT edition of the book!
Yesterday was pretty bad too. I got in this huge fight with my spanish teacher after class and at the end I started getting louder and louder and starting going off on a tangent. Tangent = Digging one's own grave. >_< Oh well. I'll have a B for the class and I'll be done with it. Just two more days. Blah. Grr...
This morning was rather delightful though. I was walking to Japanese class and my Japanese teacher calls out my name to catch up with me. I was like, uh oh. This can only be bad news. But then she asks if I got the email from the Asian Studies Department. I said no and she explained that each teacher was to nominate three students and she nominated me as the best student in the JPN 507 class! **^O^** I was so freakin' honored. I've never been nominated for anything that didn't involve physical pain before so this was awesome. Apparently there was a banquet yesterday for those students and a lot of them didn't come 'cause they never got an email. But yeah. I got nominated as the best student in JPN 507 out of 6 classes! ~gleems~ Fun fun stuff.
Maybe that's a sign that I should stick with Japanese as my major. *L* ~smacks self upside the head~
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Lilisin lost at Solitaire on Tuesday, April 29, 2003at 09:34 p.m.
I parked next to the Ultimate Band Nerd's car. License plate: 'UT TUBA'. Apparently it's the car of the tuba professor at UT. (Nerd!) Heh heh. Back to chemistry now.
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Lilisin lost at Solitaire on Wednesday, April 23, 2003at 08:32 p.m.
Brain. Hurts. Thinking. About. Future. X_x It involves double majors, a lot of chemistry, more summer school, courses by correspondance, etc... Basically, if I *just* do Japanese major, I can graduate when I'm 19. ^^;; (Yes, grad school at 19 years old. Heh.) But! If I do double major of Japanese and Chemistry, I would have a whole lot of work and possibly an extra semester or year at UT. That doesn't bother me as much seeing as I'm pretty young and ahead of the gang as I am right now. But it's this whole chemistry thing. I like science. I'm pretty good at science. But do I like it enough to go all out and major in it!? That's what I'm unsure about. I'm really interested to be a medical examiner. Or criminal forensics. But for that, after this semester is over, I'm going to stop by the police department and see if I can't follow some forensists for a day and find out just what they did to get there. That'll definetly help me figure out just what I'm supposed to do to get there. But it's just so confusing. Of course, I can always stop taking all the chemistry if I ever decide to not major in chem. It's not like I have to definetly stick with it. I can always change my mind. Blah. So hard.
This is why I hate registration time... Hmm. I should go do my chemistry homework. ^.-
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Lilisin lost at Solitaire on Monday, April 21, 2003at 10:16 p.m.
Biology is going to. Kick. My. Ass.
If I don't talk in three weeks... don't worry. I'll just be slaving over my books as I finish my last exams and then my finals. Ciao for now. ^o^
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Lilisin lost at Solitaire on Thursday, April 17, 2003at 07:52 p.m.
I'm ready for sex now. *L* Ha. I went to the stress relief thing they do at UT every year where they give you free massages and acupuncture and stress relief and... condoms. Apparently it's necessary to relieve any sexual stress you have. *L* So now I have a nice pink condom that's in a key chain plus three regular ones and lubricant for the condoms. ^^;; I am most definetly prepared. ~laugh~
I'm registered for my summer Japanese class. It's a 5 week class and it's going to be so hectic. I have a written and oral exam at the end of each week, and two to three quizzes a day. _o_... Kyaa~~.
My thing about the whole being friends with guys first before dating goes like this. Many times, I approach a guy after talking him a bit and start to be attracted to him. So I go into the relationship looking for well, a relationship. But then, it ends up being such a great friendship that even if he wanted to do something, I would say no 'cause I wouldn't want anything to be ruined. That's how it goes for me many times. Of course, I've never gotten to the part where the guy actually wants a relationship with me but this is the answer I would most likely give, I think. Oh, and by the way. I watch American Idol too every once in a while. I really like Ruben and Clay(the red head, forget his name). Nice voices. *o*
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Lilisin lost at Solitaire on Tuesday, April 15, 2003at 09:07 p.m.
Here's my advice seeing as I was in your situation. Even though I had done the four years of tutoring with Mrs. Lo I still took first semester, first year Japanese and I think it was a good thing to do. First of all, it will be your very first semester of college and it's nice to have something you're already familiar with so that you're not overloaded with surprises. Second of all, with Mrs. Lo, we focused mostly on reading and grammar and recognizing grammar. But you'll be surprised at how much writing you'll do and that you need to have good writing skills which you'll heavily practice in that class. Plus, you work on conversational skills and it's better to start speaking like a kindergardener first than to go straight to speaking like a middle school student. Another thing is that it's better to get used to the system in which they teach than to just get hounded into it.
So, there's my four cents. That's what I experiences and I don't regret going back to the very beginning with my Japanese. I got to learn so much vocabulary I didn't know. My writing skills are great. My handwriting in Japanese is like my handwriting in English now. Ha. ^O^ My conversational skills have drastically improved (although I still won't talk to Orie) and I just feel really good about it all. And like you said, everything builds up and many times, if you haven't mastered the basics, you can't do the real advanced stuff. Like in my class, I really feel bad for those who still have trouble making adjs. and verbs into plain form and plain past and plain past negative and all that stuff. So there you go. Take your time in thinking about it. ^o^ Good luck with your decision!
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Lilisin lost at Solitaire on Monday, April 14, 2003at 10:16 p.m.
I'm not in the least bit surprised. It was so obvious the chemistry b/w you two. I was just waiting for it to be official. ~snicker~ It's fun being the third person. You always know stuff before the ones who are actually in the situation >D
Went to a frat party on Saturday night. 'Twas fun. It's really strange how I get drunk just seeing people drunk. I don't need alcohol to act drunk. I just end up doing it. You loosen up b/c you see other people like it. >D So it was fun. It was a private frat party with invitation only so you had to have a wristband on. The guard gave me one 'cause I was entertaining him by talking to him. *L* Saw some people I didn't expect to see including Doyle. That was fun seeing him there since I was trying to get him to go but I was unable to reach him. Then I met this french girl so it was nice to talk to someone in french who was my own age. She was nice. We're going to hang out so that'll be nice.
Now I'm just slacking off a bit. Three more weeks of school then three days of finals and I'm done! Woot. Summer registration on Wednesday and Fall registration next week. Woot!
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Lilisin lost at Solitaire on Friday, April 11, 2003at 07:28 p.m.
I have a hole in my arm. I decided to donate blood today (with permission from my parents yesterday) between my Japanese and Spanish class. First time ever. It was a very interesting experience. I go there, naively, innocently, to get prodded (with questions) by this one woman. She went so fast and she was mumbling so incredibly (much?) that I pretty much just heard this. (Oh, and the parenthesis are my answers):
Woman: bla bla bla blabity bla bla sex (NO) bla bla bla bla sex (NO) bla bla bla bla sex (NO) bla bla sex (NO) sex (NO) bla bla sex (NO) bla bla bla UK (NO) bla bla UK (NO) bla bla sex (NO) UK (NO) bla bla...
Seeing as I've never had sex and never been to the UK, I thought it was pretty much safe to say 'no' every time.
Then I went into the next room to get my finger poked, to get a swab under my tongue and my blood pressure taken. Then I went to the lazy chair to get my blood taken. They made me drink a sprite since all I had for breakfast was a granola bar. I was trembling from both the cold of the room/bus and from being so nervous. They stuck the needle thing in my left arm, I got to squeeze a ball until they got all the 500mL of blood they needed and then I was done. It didn't really hurt at all. The only thing I could say hurt was when they took the needle OUT. X_x Now, seeing as this was my first time to donate blood they made me stay for quite a while afterwards to make sure I was okay. I ate some snacks, grabbed a coke and then left for Spanish.
Now, between the donation bus and my class is a slight upwards hill with stairs. I made it to the building although I was feeling a little dizzy. I go inside and decide to take the elevator. It came eventually but instead of getting on I layed down because I was so dizzy. Elevator comes again with other people wanting to get on. I tell them to hold the elevator as I struggle to get up. I get in, put my head down and the last thing I remembered was looking up to see that they had push the button for the second floor.
Suddenly I was on the ground and this guy was telling me to lay down as he put the coke underneath my neck. I look up to see the guy and this girl from my spanish class. She says "oh, the color is back in her face, good!" Apparently I was really pale and faint. Later she told me that she had walked into the hallway to see a guy and this girl walking on the elevator with me in their arms. ^^;; The guy was really nice (and good looking -- yes, damsel in dress *L*) and just happened to be a ... a... philigapist... phola...phi..pist...philogapist... something like that. So he knew exactly what to do in these situations. So, he tells a girl to call campus police and has to leave but the girl in my spanish class stayed with me after he made sure I was okay.
I look to my left and the campus police are there saying that the EMS is coming. They take my pulse, I tell them I'm fine and I don't need the EMS but they come anyway. However, I didn't see them b/c the police told them they could leave, downstairs. So, the police eventually left and the girl in my Spanish class stayed with me as we shared fainting stories. She was happy she got to not go to that class. Of course, she did tell the teacher what happened. >D~~
So there's my story. And now, I have a memory and a hole in my arm. You know? They don't really portray fainting well in the movies. ^o^;;
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Lilisin lost at Solitaire on Thursday, April 3, 2003at 05:08 p.m.
The one problem with blogs is that you start getting a bit too comfortable with them. You start thinking that only your friends read it and so you're safe from other people discovering what you're thinking. But then you start realizing that other people are reading this and what freaks me out is if people find out who I am. A lot of my entries are really obvious and it's scary. Like that whole situation with my web mastering teacher. That was really close. Then sometimes I find myself using a real name and a last name for clarity and then find people coming to my site from a google search of that name. Ick ack ick! X_x So there's the dilemna of having people finding out who you are and criticizing you or complaining and then there's the fact that you don't want to write just superficial things and you don't want to lose the fact that this is supposed to be a journal. I like having this journal. I've never had one before and it's fun seeing how my mind develops over time. So... I guess I just need to watch myself. ^^;;
... the day my parents find this. ~scared~
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Lilisin lost at Solitaire on Tuesday, April 1, 2003at 08:55 p.m.
Peers up from out of her books...
Ah. It's still here. I'm still here too. >D~~ Been a while hasn't it? I've just been so engulfed in my studies. _o_... Of course, it hasn't really been helping any. ~mutters~ Damn government... So, what have I been up to? Really, I don't think I could tell you. This past weekend was nice. I got to relax. Had a fun dinner on Friday with Asuka and then she took me to an Asian frat party. ^^;; It's very interesting seeing 600 drunk asians all in one area. O_o Crazy crazy stuff. The frat houses were trashed! It was so disgusting. Mud everywhere, unhinged doors, alcohol-soaked carpet... and one of them had a strange smell of pancakes. >_< Very interesting.
The weekend of the 22nd was fun. Got to see her again along with all the group to watch anime which I haven't seen in a while. >D I liked Princess Tutu, Ghost in the Shell tv series of course although I like Major better in the movie. Wolf's Rain was badass! Good good series. Uhm... got to kick some more ass in egyptian rat screw. I'm the king of the game. >D And then that night was a lot of fun 'cause I had my old spanish teacher over for dinner. So so much fun! She's great. She's so cool. ^O^ Fun fun stuff. Let's see... what else...?
My brother J came home (he's gone now) for spring break so that was really nice. I missed him. Had tears in my eyes when he left. ~sigh~ I do love my brother. It was nice. We watched the UT game together. It's so strange seeing Brad Buckman on tv. O_o
War wise... I have to comment on one thing I heard on the news. It was the first day that the US troops were getting threatened by suicide bombers. Well, the tv reporter said that that was so "criminal". And what? Dropping bonds at 10000 feet above an area where innocent people have no chance to survive ISN'T criminal?! So b/c US does it, it's not "criminal"?! How does that work? If anything is criminal it's the bomb dropping. At least the suicide bombers are sacrificing themselves for what they believe in. Even if I don't agree with it, I find that to be more honorable than what the US is doing.
Another thing that is strange is people coming up to me praising me for being french. I mean, that's all fine and well but it's not like... I don't know. It's just strange. Although, one thing. If US is so anti-french, can we have the Statue of Liberty back?
Going back... my Spring Break was so awesome! I'm going to have to write an entry about it because I really want to have a written memory of it for myself in the future. I won't every forget it but it's just too badass. Got to see Core of Soul, made it into a 21 and up club (^o^;;), got to hang out with Orie a lot, got to see Amy and got to meet so many great new people. Oo. And I got to practice the hell out of my Japanese. ^o^
Speaking of Japanese. I've been talking to my study abroad advisor about Japan. I hope to go next spring on an exchange program to Sophia University. He said I have good chances of going! ^O^ So, to do so I'm taking Japanese this summer. A whole semester crammed in 5 weeks. Two and a half hours a day. O_O But it's nice. I'm going to get a job hopefully and start working on the financial part of the study abroad. So expensive. _o_...
Oo. I need to take defensive driving... ^^;;
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Lilisin lost at Solitaire on Tuesday, March 11, 2003at 08:01 p.m.
According to CNN, Capitol Hill cafeterias are removing the 'french' from 'french fries' and 'french toast' and are renaming them 'freedom fries' and 'freedom toast' due to France's opposition to U.S's position with Iraq. I think that has to be the stupidest thing I've ever heard. Do they really think that the French care? Especially when 'french fries' are actually from Belgium? The only reason they're not boycotting China is b/c there are too many things 'made in China'.
I hope no one actually thinks that I think aeronautics is my destiny. No no no. That involves calculus galore. >_< Ack ack ack. I'll let my brother do that. I just needed an example. ^^;;
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Lilisin lost at Solitaire on Sunday, March 9, 2003at 10:38 p.m.
The weekend is already over! O_O Good thing it's Spring Break right now. It's been interesting thus far. Spent Friday night with Orie and Saturday with Stefanie and today I slept for 16 hours. ^o^ Oo. And Saturday morning I ran an 8K race and I won third place in my age group! Of course, this was the first year they had this race so there were only 300 hundred people with only 7 people in my age group. >D But, third place! Got a nice gift certificate to RunTex. I ran 8 kilometers in 56 minutes. The damn race had awful hills and my shoes were killing my feet. >_< It went from the Paramount Theatre on Congress to Oltorf, then we turned right on Oltorf, turned right again, went up the bridge, then back up the street ajacent to Congress then turned right onto 8th street. It was very long and so boring. I hate running around with no purpose. Give me a soccer ball and I can run for hours but otherwise, running for the sake of running is just so boring.
On Tuesday I got an interesting prank call on my cell phone.
Me: Hello?
Girl: Hey.
Me: Who is this?
Girl: Your cousin.
Me: ~hangs up~
Since obviously my cousins can't speak english and well... they live in France! Dumbass.
Last weekend sucked though. The weather was awful. You just felt like staying home all day. And on Sunday morning I passed out! _o_... I was coming from the tv room to the kitchen to eat lunch and I couldn't see too well since the room was getting black. I was stumbling a bit but managed to get a little better. I served myself some spaghetti ready to put it in the microwave then dumped it back in the container saying to my mom that I wasn't eating. I was walked out of the kitchen still dizzy and just collapsed in the hallway. It's strange. I didn't get hurt. It just seemed in such slow motion as everything was black. I'd have to be a very talented writer to be able to explain how it felt. Suddenly my parents come rushing towards me to see what happend. So that day I missed a film showing, Stef's cello choir concert, Orie's concert, and Rene's party celebrating his film showing. Sucked. I missed so much. But yeah, that was interesting.
On Thursday after my last entry I broke out into tears. It was awful. I couldn't stop crying. I hate it. I get so emotional on the first day of my period. I just start crying about everything and it's no fun.
Orie is bringing me to go watch "How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days" tomorrow. ^^;; And on Tuesday we're going putt-putt golfing! I hope the place I chose is horribly tacky with dragons and windmills and stuff. >D~~
Call me if you and the rest of the group are going to hang out. I haven't hung out with you guys for a while. So tell me if you do! ^o^
I'm enjoying listening to X-Japan. I haven't listened to them in forever! "Standing Seeex!"
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Lilisin lost at Solitaire on Thursday, March 6, 2003at 08:59 p.m.
On another note, I declared my major today. I chose Japanese. I'm still taking the pre-med requirements for now seeing as I'm still deciding on what to do. I'm not bad in chemistry. I'm pretty good and when I study I'm *really* good but I always make those mistakes that cost so much. >_< It's strange.
It's so frustrating though. You're suppose to find your path right? Well, for me, it feels like I'm at a fork in the road and I'm being pulled by the arms to go both right and left. The person pulling my right arm is telling me to do the sciences. The person pulling my left arm is telling me to take Japanese. But all that is being accomplished is this futile struggle between the two as I become the middle person who agrees with both but can't make up her own mind. Grades-wise, I'm better at Japanese and I really like the language but I see no future with it except just knowing the language. With science, I see a future, but I see much stress and tears and dissapointment. But that's what growing up is all about, right? Pulling at your hair wondering if you'll ever get out of this stress and make it. And that's the part that makes life challenging yet interesting. It's just so intimidating.
And I think I'm scared of struggling. I'm scared of graduating with a degree in Japanese and having to struggle finding a job involving that. I don't want to have to struggle in life. I don't want an easy ride but I don't want to have to worry about where my next paycheck is coming from. But sciences is so many years of tough schooling and I don't know if I have the strength to go through that. If there's a reason why I'm never confident about my grades, it's because when I am confident, I get shot down. Like today with that test. But with a degree in sciences, I'm less worried about struggling through life.
And all this time I've only been thinking about either a science or a language. What if my true calling is something I've never even considered? That's also a scary thought. It's like the whole concept of a soulmate. I believe that everyone has a soulmate but I believe you'll pass them someday, smile, feel something and then it'll be just a memory. I don't believe you'll be with your soulmate. You can be with someone you truly love, but that person won't be your soulmate. You passed them one day, knew it, and now you're happy with your love. So, what if it's the same with your future. You see it, you know it, you pass it up for something else? That's a scary thought. What if you're destined for something and you scan right by it? Maybe my true calling is aeronautics, but how will I know if I don't try it? But you can't try everything.
I've been thinking that medicine isn't my calling. I would love it but I'm being turned away from it. The medical society is just too complex, too difficult right now. It's not about medicine anymore, it's only about money and not getting sued. I don't want to be in that environment. So I won't be continuing the family tradition. And you know what, maybe that's the pressure I've been feeling. I've never been told that I should do medicine by my family but the fact that they are doctors kind of makes me feel like I should also be one. But medicine I believe is not the path I should be taking.
I think I've gotten farther this time. I constantly think about this and I think I'm finally reaching somewhat of a conclusion. Medicine is not for me. I'm afraid of struggling through life. I need to be proud of what I accomplish and not dissapointed and what I mess up. Mistakes happen. That's good, right? I've gotten farther this time. I would just someday like to really find the answer. There are so many people around me who are closer to it than I am. I feel out of the loop. I feel like I'm missing something. How come other people are more sure about themselves than me? Did I miss an assembly in the FAF of Westlake that explained this? What's the secret?
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Lilisin lost at Solitaire on Thursday, March 6, 2003at 06:41 p.m.
I'm pissed now. I knew my chemistry! I went in there and the test was easy. I've never been so confident about a test in my life! I was stress-free, I knew how to do those problems! The girl next to me was stressing out, obviously having trouble and all. But not me! No no. Not me. That was an easy A. But no... I come home and find out I get a low B. That's a bunch of bullshit. That's not the grade I should have gotten. Bullshit. I'm so pissed now. That was an easy A that should have gone straight to my pocket. I've never deserved it so much as that. That's crap. Now I'll never get an A in that class. B.U.L.L.S.H.I.T!! -.- Pissed.
I'm going to go take a shower now. Grr...
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Lilisin lost at Solitaire on Tuesday, March 4, 2003at 09:14 p.m.
That wasn't meant to sound harsh and mean. More jokingly but I guess that now I reread it, it does sound that way. Sorry sorry. ~hugs~
Back to studying for my chem test on Thurs. If only it could be as easy as the Japanese test I took today. *L* Ah... that would be great.
I'm running out of rice crackers. ;______;
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Lilisin lost at Solitaire on Monday, March 3, 2003at 07:02 p.m.
The French judges were not "stupid" nor were they "mean". They were honest and they knew their stuff. Honestly, to compare French cuisine with Japanese cuisine? There's no contest. (I'm talking about the battle in France they had.) So, as I defend my fellow countrymen, I shall go back to chemistry.
I'll have a recap entry sometime at the end of the week most likely. ^^;;
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Lilisin lost at Solitaire on Wednesday, February 26, 2003at 03:58 p.m.
Another day off. UT started at 11am this morning but since my classes end at 11, I didn't have to go. >D Instead, I woke up at 11. Ha. ^o^ I'm just glad that I got an excuse to miss Spanish. Haven't managed to do anything productive today except for pig out and almost break the modem. Well, it was broken until I started jabbing my mechanical pencil into it. ^^;; Keeps connecting and disconnecting though. Heh. Uhm... I'm quite excited. Manga Project will reach 30000 hits in 30 hits. I've never had a site with that much success. It feels nice that people appreciate what I do. Hmm... if only I was doing something. >D I'm going to try to translate some for the 30000 point. ~crosses fingers~ Maybe that'll give you some incentive to HTML. *L* It's just so hard to go back to volume 3 and translate it when you're waiting for volume 13 to arrive so you can translate that one. Otherwise, I do have some chemistry to outline. That should be my top priority but I keep falling asleep while doing it. ^^;; We'll see what happens.
Lilisin lost at Solitaire on Tuesday, February 25, 2003at 08:28 p.m.
I love snow days. It gives you the chance to see your dog slip and slide over the ice. ^O^ Simple simple day. I actually wanted to write two conversations that stood out in these last three days. The first one was from the party on Saturday night.
Three Japanese guys approach Yuka.
Guys: Nihonjin desu ka?
Yuka: Chigaimasu yo.
Brad: Chuugokujin desu.
Yuka: Yeah. I'm Chinese.
Guys: Ah... sou sou...
It was so funny! Those guys were so dumb. I love how drunkenness can lead to stupidity. Of course Yuka wasn't too convincing. (Apparently she hates those guys so she pretends she's not Japanese when around them.)
But unfortunately stupidity can come even when you aren't drunk. This was a woman who called me during the day.
Woman: Congratulations! You've been entered into a sweepstakes where you could win 60000 dollars.
Me: Okay then. Call me back when I win.
Woman: Along with winning 60000 dollars, we'll send you a beautiful diamond bracelet which all the semifinalists are getting. Plus you'll get a magazine subscription to 'Sweepstakes Mag', 'Real Estate Mag', etc... and 4 to 8 months worth of Rolling Stones. One every week.
Me: Okay then...
Woman: Now, don't you want all of this for just 3.58 dollars?
Me: No, not really.
Woman: Really? Everyone else is getting it. Just 3.58.
Me: No thanks. I don't like magazines.
Woman: You don't?
Me: No, I read books.
Woman: So you're refusing our offer b/c you don't read magazines.
Me: Yep.
Woman: Is it the type of magazine we're sending? Just 3.58.
Me: No, I just don't like magazines.
Woman: So you're refusing b/c you like magazines.
Me: No, b/c I don't like magazines.
Woman: So you're refusing our offer?
Me: Yes.
Woman: No one's done that today.
Me: Sorry.
Woman: And this is b/c you don't like magazines.
Me: Right.
Woman: B/c you like magazines?
Me: No I don't.
Woman: Ah, so you like magazines but you don't read them.
Me: ~hangs up~
Otherwise, this has been the week for listening to old cds of mine like Jesus Christ Superstar. I love that cd. And right now I'm listening to the Romeo and Juliet movie soundtrack. I like that soundtrack. Especially the Butthole Surfers song, "Whatever". Anyways... I'm going to check my mail to see if we have school or not tomorrow. >D
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Lilisin lost at Solitaire on Monday, February 24, 2003at 05:40 p.m.
Woah! There is a lot of hail right now outside. After only 10 minutes the place is covered in ice. And I had to go outside to cover the plants and I got so much ice down my shirt. O_O It's crazy out there! Texas weather is so weird. Just yesterday it was sunny and beautiful and I was in shorts and a shirt. Now it's hailing pea size hail! O_O
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Lilisin lost at Solitaire on Monday, February 24, 2003at 02:24 p.m.
I finally got the party weekend I wanted although I didn't get to see Stomp because no one could go with me and it's not the same when you're alone. But it's allright. I've already seen it. ^^;; This will be another recap entry.
Friday: Went to Chilli's for Stef's birthday. It was fun. Erica and Orie were there along with some of Stef's other friends. It was great. I loved the present I got her and then the joint present me and Orie got for her. It was great. And most importantly she liked it too. >D After that Orie and I went to the Union to play pool but she ditched (^.-) me after 40 minutes to go to a music frat party. So I went home and then she came over around 1am and we talked till 3 or so. So that was fun. More fun conversation. >D Oo! Stef also gave me my belated birthday present: the new SOAD album. I love it. My favorite songs are Nuguns, A.D.D., Mr. Jack, Ego Brain and Streamline. Innervision is my least favorite but that's because I've heard it too many times on the radio. But it's a great cd. I love it. Roulette is a great song too. I'm listening to that one right now. *o*
_< And Doyle was encouraging them by giving them tips about what topics they could talk about with me. ^^;; Silly Doyle. But seriously, grow your hair out a bit and everything changes when it comes to guys! ^^;;
Sunday: Didn't watch the Grammy's except for the Coldplay performance which was incredible. Instead I watched X-Men. Not that great. >_< Oo. And I watched a bit of Joan River's preshow. (I hate that woman.) She talked to Avril Lavigne and Avril just seemed really arrogant and prissy but that was just my opinion. Who knows what she's really like? She was too busy working on her rebellion towards dressing nice for the Grammys. -.-
This should be a normal week. I'm expecting Shaman King volume 13 anytime now. ^o^ I suspect that my Spanish teacher doesn't like me that much just as I don't like her. This is the first teacher who has actually told me she had to use a magnifying glass for my handwriting. ^^;;
I hate daytime tv. I think I'll translate. Haven't done that in a month or so. ^^;; Oops.
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La Chute v.7
celebrating laziness in HTML
Currently:
-- Waiting for my Alpine CDM-9801. Hee. *^O^*
-- Waiting for volume 13 of Shaman King.
-- Too lazy to find a job.
-- Considering my future.
-- Excited about Miss Saigon.
-- Happy that I'm finally done with Spanish!
Info:
Age: 18
Nationality: French/American
School: University of Texas at Austin
College: College of Liberal Arts
Year: Freshman w/ junior status
Major: Japanese
Minor: Spanish
Extra Academics:
Considering chemistry major.
Should be studying abroad in Japan in the spring.
My New Title: Man Slayer
Something I'd prefer not to admit: Liking Justin Timberlake's "Cry me a River" song
Current status: Good student.
Fellow classmates: Really nice.
These classes are over: Chem 302, Bio 211, Span 350, Jap 507, Gov 310L
Dream job:
Photographer for the National Geographic.
Worst nightmare job:
Fast food. (followed by teacher)
If I had to do it all over again:
I wouldn't have fallen asleep while studying. >_<
Major flaw in me:
Cracking my knuckles. I need to stop. >_<