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Name: Gothy/Heather/PiXy/Iscis
Age: 18
Location: hell
Birthday: April 20th 1983

Favorite Anime
1.) Sailor Moon
2.) Saber Marionette J
3.) Lain
4) Card Captor Sakura
5) Tenchi Muyo/Pretty Sammy

Favorite TV Shows
1.) Passionz
2). Dayz of our livez
3.) That 70z show
4.) Will N Grace
5.) Alias

Favorite Music Groups
1.) Garbage
2.) the Start
3.) Veruca Salt
4.)superchick
5.) No Doubt

Favorite Actors
1.) Erik Von Detten
2.) Jensen Acklez
3.) Ryan Phillippe
4.) Josh Hartnett
5.) Elijah Wood

Favorite Actresses
1.) Drew Barrymore
2.) Angelina Jolie
3.) Nicole Kiddman
4.) Reese Witherspoon
5.) Kate Winslett

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Sympathy

Burning down house Flames spinning me out of control Will you save my body wrapped up in this white chiffon towel Will you save my skin that's being stared down while Im wriggling on thiz wooden pole Will you repair all the damage that's incarnated in my soul? Just one dropped cigarette that didn't go out and my whole life the blazing mahn stole I knew I waz dead before the word waz spoke I knew I shouldn't have got up when the papaya made me choke And here I am on my kneez in the bak of a police car doing coc

Well beautiful dark stranger will you come to my rescue Your kiss sweeping me out of time is long overdue Love me now before its too late Im handing myself over to the mystery of fate I can't offer support except now you can take me right off your plate I was never anything but fish food a primitive bait A cheap whore in a sweet girls body to imitate Im nothing special so dont tell me I am because underneath the magic spell Im ugly enough to hate I dont need this I dont want this I just want to b unmade Because the past has given me no faith

Tied down to the train trackz Waiting for you to come undo the ropez Come on baby don't leave me charred and black And I want you to know You're what I used to dream of You're what I thought dreamz were made of Then you of course proved me wrong It didn't take long Oh just seven monthz Glad to have you gone Nao letz have lunch That'z all I am to you A coworker to talk to Just the little convenient store you can walk to

Chorus

Stupid troll Living under the monkeybarz Can't believe you're getting out on paroll Little demon czar Come on show me what you're made of I've had enough You may b strong, you may b powerful But you can't hurt me Becoz he your darling made me see THERE IZ NO SUCH THING AZ LOVE!!!

Chorus

Conehead log You want to go to prom Who are you taking Who are you shaking I'm not the one you're touching I'm not the one you're clutching Keep those gold touching fingerz To yourself Keep those booger fingerz Off the shelf We don't want to kiss you We don't want to miss you I just want to throw you I already touched him with my ten foot pole today To push him all the way away Get the hell away From me Stay the hell away From me You'll never save me You'll never escape me You sure az hell never did deserve me Atm card for sympathy Haz ran out

Censored

I used to die to touch you When you walked into the room Sizzled and stirred Nothing else mattered Shallow vanity soon shined through the mirror I stopped and I entered I saw that face staring bak at me With blue green eyez full of incongruity You didn't care to know me I soon forgot you When he Came along and played the part being someone new

Can't help but laugh At the fact You can't get any female To kiss you on the job I can easily get a female To kiss me without any prob Die to be me Die out of your jealousy Tiny little prig I don't give one strawberry fig That you're censored True colorz chauvinistic pig Gave you my heart gold enameled and centered You threw it away without even looking Now you're playing The one who can't get anything

Pricked my finger On your perfect white teeth Pressed my body hard against Your scrawny one hundred and thirty poundz Until you went Talking about That girlz a whore!! Nao nao don't look now!! Oh baby you're slipping more and more And I can't help but look now And smirk my lipz At the fact your at the bottom All your dignity ripped The whole schoolz talking About what a nasty kisser that boiy iz That boiyz you and you've lost the phrase of your drift!!

Chorus

Now let'z not frown Let'z just all grin Surrealism sound Any good You know you could have been Really good But you lost your ivory bonez flavor And I lost interest really quick I fell in love with a goth skater You never were dark were you? I wouldn't call you Xavier Sex me? You don't have the qualificationz Kiss me? You haven't caught me on the right occasion

Chorus

You know what they say Revenge iz sweet You deserve to pay You male tramp Could have made Out with me beneath the free style ramp You had it made For three yearz sayz your passport stamp She threw it all away Just to move on because you were never the champ Too bad I'm not the one your eyez laid Their first glance I would have never of tossed you away But that waz your first mistake Loving too many psycho whorez Never loving the sweet herbivore You behaved like you were at a pet store Being sold along with the fleaz Sniffing up all the wrong tree skirtz You want it now? Oh please!! Doggy doezn't know how to flirt The scentz what causez hiz dick to divert Itz attention from what itz poor little color blind Short minded mind Really wantz Don't beg Because it'll get you no where I'm no longer restless Don't whine that'll also get you no where I've settled On screwing love On the floor Sex iz rough And I'd rather b pierced more Than having you between my thighz

Pointless

I've been kicked out I've been thrown out I've been all about Down hill All over it Don't do it What ya going to do about it Won't do it Until you give me some of it

Resting on my shoulder sitz a demon Have you been fondling male boobiez again? Don't compete with me I suck I blow It'z pointless When I'm nothing don't you know You're wasting your time on a no win contest Let it go I don't want to Let me go I don't want you to Leave me or it thiz way Love me won't you? One last time for just a few minutez a day? You're going to hurt me again aren't you? Don't let me beat you of it I'm just another get on with it

Lying in my bed of an inferno Pull the coverz up tighter Eternal menu of dead soul To serve az my skin pressez neatly against the lighter Turn a cat into a toad My eyez grow brighter Jack hit the road I can feel the flamez explode Over inch by inch Of each of my limbz Please don't Please don't Take away my soul

Chorus

Kiss me With the chariotz breeze Push me under the blazing sheetz Dirty little sheep Falling over me Hanging on to me Taking me down with them Into them Out again Bak down the tunnel Dark shadowz funnel Burying me into their cart Swiveling down the aisle to the mouth that partz Swallow me whole Don't turn away now Not while I'm sentencing you to death row

Chorus

Lipz of agony Lipz of pity Contradicting little voice Say anything but me iz pretty Say anything but me iz going to die without a choice Take myself away My soul waz already gave So how did I end up here? Why did you abandon me my dear? Why do you keep coming? What iz it to me you're intent on bringing? What'z your master planning Why do insist on keeping? And holding Me out to the same boring thoughtz Of terror? And do you want me distraught? Because without the ringz You sentence my neck to my dark king I'm already torn between life and death So save your breath That keepz on mocking My pain For some real soul That knowz nothing Of your precious pain

Sugar daddy

Im going to b the whorific bitch tonite baby And youre going to want it But youre not going to get it And you want to fix me Well thatz just too fawkin bad Because if there'z a fragment in my system the roboticz department Really should b the onez to fix it Youre more of the chickz and wheelz department The part where you stuff their suitcasez into the luggage compartment Dont worry darling I lined your shortz with bengay ointment I laced your shoe stringz up with double mint And I put bleach in your hair gel

Im feeling just the tiniest bit strained Double loaded triple stacked and terrained Im tired of you bringing home for yourself only sugarcain What are you now the sweet sugar daddy? The sweet pimpin daddy? You probably think youre the master g Im sick of dealing Out your drugz On the streetz with headphonez for earplugz Youre too cheap to buy me new batteriez And all you do iz cheat when I wont let you fix me All you do iz whine when Im angry Then you bring in a two dollar hussy Telling me you need the experience

one more mistake just make one Im going to dump Your ass out in central park Im sick of having to show you my body totally naked When you just drive off in the car Not caring what I gave Not caring how much I prayed Night after night Unsexing myself to the demonz deprave I bet you're in her armz now laughing Stupid bitch what waz she thinking Did she actually think she waz getting It all with me? That she waz getting love with me?

Chorus

You want to sit and believe That you're the king of the forty thievez Ali Baba in disguise Oh please You're just an overgrown teen You're never special believe me Until you turn off the lightz At ten o'clock Because itz past your bed time Mismatched sockz Iz that the latest fashion? I wouldn't know since I had to pick up my apartment from your latest trashing You're too young to b getting a womanz ration Too immature for the ratio So retarded and drunk you kissed Heratio

Chorus

Come on You really think you get me turned on? With your wanna b outlook and dandruff? Looking at magazine with girlz who have their braz stuffed And I wonder how much tonite you've snuffed Come to bed with me and I'll give you an animal stuffed With cotton Hugz and kissez No longer do it for you mister spoiled rotten Two cherry red lipz Are what your body missez Mine to b exact coz you can't get them to french Without paying interest You never call You never write And I wrack my skull For why I care at all Some nitez Some timez I don't understand the concept behind it at all And into the glovebox I just want to fall So I can already b turned off

Window Shopping

I secretly still love you But don't you dare Expect to Get to know because two can play your game Of not following the rulez Get used to Having the door slammed in your face With one brief look of confusion Yourz or my place Iz what I die to say Thiz time I won't b the one to give in

Counterfeit Romeo Wanna be Prince Charming Imposter Giorgio I waz your lady in waiting Duck ready for the carving Feed me to your scruplez that are starving Why do I do these thingz? Such az for you falling You're not worth it Hell'z worth more than you are What waz in it for me? Except gilded prison barz? Except looking through windowz Never purchasing the fine jewelry or clothez Don't expect to get my recomending vote

Don't expect to hear me say hello Just listen for the sound of good bye Tell you to leave and go Want you because you're the dangerous type I can't quit and I never know When to tell you nao Iz it because I want you Iz it because I imagine myself in love with you Pushing the beggar Out the door When I want to b the pauper Pulling you bak for more Don't come up for air When I give it to you bare

Chorus

Don't look bak Don't think of your old hag Look at me Sweep me up off my feet Nao you looked straight past me Leave me center stage crumbling to groundz feet Don't lie I know where you're going all to well Don't even try To write it off by saying I saw you with another male Don't focus on the x and y Just talking iz that the latest alibi? Don't buy me the metal ring to think it'll b all right

Chorus

Forge my name on her card Unwrap the box I'm the one who slowly will end up In the discard pile Stretch the truth out a million milez Coat it with sprinklez To make it appear totally adolescent Can't ever keep yourself celibate Throw me down Two dayz later pick me up Too many cigarettez every day to count Never iz not enough You think if you pout Just like the little boiy you are You can wrap me around your finger and keep being so proud Proud that you left me for a loss of wordz? Or proud that you can screw anyone who learnz That you're conceited That on everyone who loved you, you cheated!! Male whore just can't b beaten In your house no need For a please wait for seating No appointment for beautyz in need You welcome walk inz Out the doorz the only place I'll ever again Continue walking Going out again For more window shopping

Impertinence

Insolence your teeth swallow my name with insolence Sword cutting into the stone pain immense You never listen Close the curtain You speak of owning independence Don't lie woman You've alwayz been kept by men Don't tell me to live Not when I can't see your face at all Don't tell me to remain

I won't use your stupid cane Fucked up my membranez Monoxide here have a taste What? What? you're afraid??? Do you now understand Why I'm so scared when I think of it Do you now undestand Why I don't want to open it Why I some dayz don't want to shut my eyez Because I'm frightened Ill awake without their sight You don't feel my thoughtz You wouldn't want to know my thoughtz They'd pierce you into silence And I wish I could shove a knife into that gaping little mouth When I pour my heart out Masculine little crowd Staring down At my statue of gothic impalious state Impertinence left me to drown

I want to tear out the whole package Walk into my bedroom late at nite for quality schmackage Transform me bak into armitage Little warrior Little archer Hack it Go ahead and kill her Love'z lipz are starving her Devotion'z handz are pushing her away farther Smack her Grope her Crack her Only a kiss from the Rose bride can save her

Chorus

Push her under I'm losing her You're not helping her Your attempt yes your majesty your attemptz! Are only destroying her The lightz have become darker I'm no longer her I'm now the vampyrez daughter Or am I hiz lover? Wouldn't you like to know mother hoverd Broken doll piecez Kiss me before the fangz are released I'm lying on your floor I've become bitten Did I drink your blood? Iz that why I'm now your victim?

Chorus

I can't remember When did I start to resemble Thiz unmistaken speciez When did I start to want to play the game Of satiring human beingz iz thiz my coffin or iz thiz my grave Interlocked in hell and I no longer am seeing The blood stainz on my handz Devious planz That take me to steal Away my heart and start to unpeel My skin Haunted in The mouth of the devil The mouth of the queen I can't sit in I don't want to stand in I don't want you let me live I don't want your life of eternal blood thirst Sauntering in to snatch from the babiez crib Blood craving like milk Stop forcing me to kiss the demonz with the bloody mouthz seeping Pouring me away until I'm weeping Nightz laying low and creeping To get away from you My worst enemy

FINALLY!!!
eih finally my pitaz account iz working again so that I can write about all my excess craziness ;p eih time to go for the last three dayz of shit ;p first we'll start with a nice Monday which waz a shittay day we had to go get the bratz and i just felt like shit and the library couldnt get my book the Vampire Lestat eih I started reading Vittorio some time or another I've nearly finished it I'm on the second half of the fifth tape just one more tape after thiz so I'll probably finish by tomorrow ;p eih anyayz my mom waz all mean coz she couldnt get her friggin medicine az of alwayz and just started fawkin with me and i found out that may b going to melissaz even more edged a lil more closely to it uhm dont really remember thiz day very well? lmfao eih I think thiz might have been the day Mel told me my freaky stalker waz tryin to send me more shit too shrugZ Tuesday even more worse we first off went to the Fayette mall but guess where I didnt get to go into? my favorite store Gadzookz we had to get a credit card in my name for my mom to get an additional fifteen percent off of everything and then we basically went and looked at shit for her Sherry Cameron Becky Amber we alwayz think of EVERYONE but Heather eih Im so used to it now that I dont even think of myself becoz every time i bring myself up i just get excused so fawk it shrugZ uhm and then where i made her feel kinda bad coz i about started cryin coz she waz being such a fawkin bitch az of alwayz and so we went lookin for my anne rice bookz which i found the one i wanted but it waz like eight dollarz and i didnt want to make her pay THAT much so i figured we could find it somewhere else for cheaper but of course not maybe i can bribe her into going and getting that tomorrow ;p uhm letz see then like one that day we had to go to thiz meeting with thiz lady for the dept of the blind and i got to look incredibly retarded in front of her yay! mmm my mom alwayz makez me look retarded in front of ppl the way she sayz that i never want to do anything, all i do iz eat sleep and get on the compuker uhm then i had my mother tell her that i fell getting off the train at dc where it waz late i waz tired and not expecting for the drop off to b so low i mean i had like a huge twenty pound bag on my shoulder wtf doez she want out of me? hello and so then i had that lady start asking me have you ever used a cane? or thought about it? i awz like NAO HELL NAO NEVER HELL NAO!!!! and it really upset me coz it waz more thought of when im going to go blind and i dont want to think of that at all and my mom just made me so mad and i wanted melissa really bad right then yet of course couldnt have her and i waz just so angry at the way my momz alwayz sometimez she doeznt mind me living other timez she just wantz to b rid of me and it hurtz me it really hurtz me the way she treatz me and then itz like later on Tuesday nite my mom tellz me ya know Heather i hope you never go blind and if i could id give you my own eyez i wish i could i wish i could b the one going blind and it just makez me want to cry becoz i am at a never eding contradiction of wanting to hate her but i just cant and it hurtz me and then letz see what else what else uhm talked to Will Tuesday nite i think i told him about nothin about me but eih he told me he waz at a competition with my writing lmfao ohhh yah it kinda scared me the way my mother also complimented what a great writer i waz that shocked the hell out of me!! uhm letz see what else yesterday i think my demon came to pay me another visit again i went to sleep around 12:30-1 and like i woke up around 3 to like a blazing inferno and having those same scary thoughtz again and like wondering if it waz that it scarez me eih i just pray to gawd and tell it go away but i wonder why it keepz coming to me ;/ eih Tascha showed me a pic of Lain the other day either Mon-Tues lol letz see Melissa told me like my stalker wantz to come kidnap me either yesterday or Tuesday ohh mahn yah Ronz making me b good lately with hiz sexxay changing puppy dog eyez Ron stop it I dont want to behave you're not allowed to die when Heather doez and we need to kill her lmfao Gaia stole my strawberry gashez song ohhh wellz ive liked JOJ for over a year now she also recruited a lollipop whore crew lmfao crazy Gaia ;p letz see my sister Sherry iz dilated to at least three centimeterz now i think dilated to three whatever it iz lmfao eih so her babyz comin soon poor thingz gonna have a gay name no matter what for her guyz name itz Andrew Scott and the girlz name will b Kelsey somethin GAGZZ!!! lmfao uhm i guess thatz about it for now

laterZ

torture


People were hung in various positions from you, sometimes with weights, stretching and dislocating limbs. Sometimes they were left to starve or succumb to the elements. All in all, you're a pretty forgiving person, provided they don't -really- get you angry.

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Take

Tattle Tale

Heart of Ice Heart of Calous Heart stone dried Heart of malice Heart that iz not mine Yet it still keepz us both confined Prisoner to the crystal palace Living inside your blouse Vacating chalice And I wear the talisman Like a chain that holdz me ounce for ounce

Don't say you love me Don't whisper to the ground surrounding me Don't give me your company You only confront me Criticizing me Again and Again I can't bear to b in Your place of bondage Your place of entrance I want to say nao I really need to say nao But your lipz silence my protest But you have no lipz to place on mine When I utter my allegiance of defiance Throw me to the devil Satanz tongue iz more civil I've been turned down by you for a tattle tale

Drive me to the stake Put it in harder COME ON I SAID HARDER Not medium not warmer Equalify me with your timer Ten secondz to melt down Come on whore tie me down To the metallic substance Don't stop for one instance Cold little heart You're so frigid Walk all over my heart White it out with paper liquid Name erased on your family tree I found it

Chorus

Come here my pretty Seduce me Suck me in Throw me out Bind my wristz and anklez Feed me the drugz make me tranquil Sit down by the witch Feed me to her cackle No feed me to the flamez crackle Don't let the holy water lose itz sparkle Don't forget to crack the masterz smile Ear to chin Lick your way until I cringe Agony in my eyez Agony in my sidez Az you slowly decide

Chorus

Try and make me obedient Hit me Strike me Spurn me Neglect me Disown me Disrespect me You aren't calling me your baby White girl gone Asian Stick the blade in You won't get it You'll never find it You aren't going to screw me Not going to screw me over Introverted do you know her? Don't you dare touch her You child molestor

Five feet bak Tic tac toe Drank me black Poison Ivy on hold Waiting for you to pick up So you can go to the alley to make up Such a fuck up Such a tramp to want it

Creature

Sardonic little liar Didn't think clearly enough so my heelz trampled on fire Fire from deceited lipz Burned me down into cinderz And there I stand pressed closely against a stained dimension Nothing left but a statue Stonez forming my mouth I'm no longer a fallic creature He couldn't save me You can not save me The difference between you and him He tried to change me from diabolic demoness to swan lake princess Nao tho letz all just give up

Murder me Little miss revolutionary Pour me down the wishing well Because I have no more dreamz to sell I look into anyonez eyez All I see iz temporary liez You made me into thiz When I waz hiz I waz perky and wreckless Now I've turned bak into the demon You'll taste my kiss Foolish mortal Only to hear under your earz My plan to take you down into the graveyard You'll pay your penance Keep your distance Transform only for you to beckon to my growling hiss

You're nothing You hear me? You honestly know nothing Answer me What you're unable to provide me With an answer but nothing? And you only like to hear your voice echoing Your laugh penetrating To hide your tearz that are surfacing My mood for you iz too depressing? Another whore with your eyez your undressing And once you're done fucking The monster in your grip won't matter You;ll once again b tearing at whatz missing

Chorus

Write me off to the nexus And only care about your gluteus maximus And I used to like to say Im a pacifist Now I want to crush your bonez into decaying dust You think I make great target practice Too goth to inhabit And let'z send her to the mortuary to live like a hermit Because she'z too empty to know it But shez dead inside So letz drown her in the river Thief stealing the hair off my hide And your law of happiness all the time I just can't abide Because I know sadness and disease That pinz me down on my kneez Learn to say please I know the way I slip through the treez And you don't hear me rise Demon taking you down by surprise Wait for it Wait for it Yes my little bitch

Numb it Will I will it? Don't count on it Mount it Down to hellz treacherous fingerz Your sympathy no longer pleasez her No longer the stranger Cause your hatred no longer drownz her

scaredy cat

And I thought you were mine Liar Liar Five to nine Sold your heart for a dime You didn't care You never cared Little boiy I died for you Did you ever feel me I look inside your head But my face iz no longer there

XTC doormahn Fuck mahn You used me? Whatz new? You used to want me? Did you? Or iz that just another slip of the tongue And you're gonna wish for someone Nailz through your skull iz the only item I can any longer plunge I don't believe in you Bastard to yourself you're number one What about love For your greedy lipz itz not enough? You don't know yourself

Sucker for love Pucker up My lipz are raw From the armor all Arm and leg Iz what I gave To try and get myself off thiz ledge But I can't bring myself to step bak You hurt me instead Now I want to jump and break my bak Because love meanz nothing and you taught me that

Chorus

I wanted you You stupid mother fucker Why don't you Take a number Little miss outsider Little Miss LoFitz You want to invite her To the brigade of dimness Cum and womahn bitz Intimidated you with my fistz What? No more naked picz?

Chorus

Love begone Loser boiy whoz a no one Sexuality bit you in the ass Thiz iz the line I won't let you get past Bak mutant bak Not getting past these doorz Snap crackle and pop Zombie sucked your brainz out Come bak for more? Zombie girlz not for sell Taste me mister You're soon going to miss her You're ditzy little lover I'm going to kill her You're next Wrote out in blood on my list You signed the pact Ack Ack Ack Whine all you want you scaredy cat Your soulz mine I'm going to have fun winding Up your stringz you little wind up toy You're going to wish you never messed with my heart Because your city of existence iz now mine to destroy

I am a retard!!
ohhh mahn yesterday waz one fawked up day first off didn't go to bed for a while so i sat up and listened to interview with the vampire and the first side of the whole book of Vitorrio the vampire very interesting stuff Anne Rice iz a good author the movie followz the book kinda well but doeznt explain everything quite az well eih letz see Ive been feeling like crap lately I talked to Christina last nite hell yah!!! i haven't talked to her in two monthz I got to tell her all about me being held a prisoner here and how my mom iz such a bitch I didnt think my mom waz going to bitch at me or say anything to me at all got up walked over to see her oh what bra are you wearing itz pretty im like uhm yourz? why the fawk are you wearing my braz bitch bitch dont do that!! az alwayz im a perpetrator ive been writing a lot lately can't remember what the last thing waz i posted on here i need to put the other shit ive wrote like yesterday. . .it waz really great to talk to Christina again tho I found out she got a compuker and even haz my aohell isp awesome shit ;p i get to talk to her more now yay yay yay uhm letz see must kill the ogre mister mahn for Melissa uhm I got yelled at by Hilo and Amy for not being happy enough and kind of depressing them and I think they were right itz prolly been really hard to b around me for some time i just really cant help it everything in my life alwayz seemz to b in shamblez and az an actress i tend to b overdramatic and even melodramatic and a lot of the timez it feelz so awful i wish i were dead and im really sorry to b such a burden to a lot of ppl ;/ eih I saw him last nite in the room I go talk in but guess what? I blew my chance to talk to him and acted like a total snob and a total fawkin retard first acting like ahhh and then uhm do i know you really? im so stupid at timez ;/ i just wanted to act like he haz to me tho coz itz really hurt shrugZ i should just let it go i decided that i waznt going to try any longer with him friday nite since he could care less about me i need to move on but love iznt going to find my doorstep again any time soon becoz i desperately hate it ;/ eih i havent talked to tascha for a couple dayz i miss her i talked to joykinz the last two dayz tho she alwayz makez me feel better the way she rulez and will read the shit i write ;p uhm letz see what else? i dunno really uhm friday anything happen friday? nah not really eih i guess maybe ill write somethin else about my life some time soon

laterZ

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Losing Myself

Stick me in the box without any air holez TIGHTER I SAID TIGHTER! Thiz discussionz closed Fire starter You're afraid to let me go If you don't give me one inch Neither of us will know If I can b remantled with the monkey wrench You know you wanna try You know you wanna give in You know you wanna at least say maybe

Scared of existing Without it costing Scared of facing The truth and reality That in the bak of my head itz all going To start missing Scared to know when My eyez won't b able to gaze into Yourz and outer space And all anyone ever thinkz of All I ever think of Are the petty remarkz And what happened yesterday I'm losing every single part Of myself

Shut me up Drop it Feel me up Stop it Hold me up Whipped cream to top it Lick it all up Stuff it Pushed me too much Now kiss it

Chorus

Drool skewl Shove me into the pool Naked But you wont play by the rulez Faked it Made it Just barely And you look at thingz narrowly I'm too stubborn And you're too interested in porn Too interested in scorn Same old outfit seven dayz worn

Chorus

Do you hear me? I know you aren't going to help me You know me You know me all to well But you won't acknowledge me Stole my towel You treat me so differently Staring at me like an owl Preying on a frightened field mouse Stomp it out Boingy Boingy Bounce Cheetah ready to pounce On pour little miss rabbit You know you gotta have it But you won't represent me No not ever fairly And you won't love me The way it should b You won't treat me properly The way you should treat me

Beat me I SAID BEAT ME!!! You know you want to You know you dream to Siren to throw rockz at Used to b so sweet to me Lost me You've really lost me Thiz time I can't fotgive you thiz time

Difference

Help me Save me Hide me Don't let him find me Won't let you decide for me Stop chasing me I don't want you embracing me Your obsession for me Scarez the hell out of me

How could you let him near me What are you crazy? You must be To let him have me To let him think about me When I don't feel the same way When I don't ever want to feel the same way When all I want iz to tell him to go away Stop stalking me day after day We're not the same I'm different, no I don't want you to stay Feel me just touch me No not physically Touch me spiritually You can't That'z the difference Between a woman and a mahn

I'm going so finish your story No don't you dare follow me You've followed me enough For one lifetime From heaven to hell Tired of being the one lonely Ending up drinking latee Again and again in New Yorkz finest cafe Having you come over to me and say I couldn't help but notice baby I think you're sexy Such a divine liar Trying to eat nutrasweet az a sweet talker

Chorus

You're like a bad case of the flu You just never know when to shut up and lay down I don't like you Can't you read my body'z language Leave at your own risk or you're going to get mangled I speak English not Spanish Don't even think about it I'm not a lamb to ravish Vixen? iz that the best you can manage? Evaporate into thin air and vanish!!

Chorus

I've heard you plead all night long Turn around and b gone Get lost Creep go defrost On some other chick As you like to think That all I am iz a chick Nothing more nothing less I'm not gutless I know all those practiced linez Crack them on someone else'z heelz Don't you dare walk behind My legz or my feet B on your way hit the street Don't let me catch you looking at me Don't let me catch you thinking about me Most of all don't let me catch you talking to me I'll step on you creep

i'm Alive!!
LoL eih itz been kind of a long time since I've wrote in my little blog I am the gothy still tho ;p I guess I just haven't had that much interesting stuff to say or I just didn't feel up to writing I guess I haven't been takin too good care of myself ;/ eih I watched Interview with the Vampire Sunday nite gawd how I love that movie ;p I went and got the book on tape yesterday at the library along with a few other Anne Rice bookz and then I got Dracula too ;p eih I had my mom ask me why I waz getting those type of bookz lmfao I guess she just can't understand my fascination with vampyrez ;p hmm kayz other thingz that have been going on eih wellz sunday nite i think i made Mel mad at me lmfao and then i did it even more Monday nite and kinda went off on her coz she waz mad at me over taschaZ whom I love extremely much ;p eih anyayz i waz totally not myself lately coz i have not had my bc pillz ;/ eih ive met some pretty interesting ppl lately ;p letz see therez Ron whoz in love with Tina without a doubt, but a great person to have az a friend I wish that I could see hiz pic where it wont work ;/ eih then there'z thiz dude Micheal I met havent seen him since Sunday nite he seemed pretty kewl and then therez Trev who I met hez pretty kewl and kinda cute ;p and then i saw Keithz pic hez a hottie ;p then Tuesday I waz really bored during the commercialz of Passionz and Dayz so I called the private line thingy and met thiz dude Jake lmfao i got myself and some guy turned on by acting totally scary and eing totally weird lmfao that waz pretty kewl ;p eih he sounded hott hez six feet tall brown hair brown eyez atheltic build and he haz a tongue ring ive alwayz wanted to b with a guy who haz a tongue ring. Mahn for some reason I've alwayz wanted to kiss a guy with a tongue ring ;p eih then last nite I met thiz dude Jamez on there he seemed pretty kewl too maybe just maybe I've been a bit too horny lately which I think i definitely have and have just really wanted to b made out with and stuff i guess im even kinda desperate in that department damn the nymphomania of the gothy ;p uhm letz see yesterday where I waz turned down for disability me and my mom went to check on it and we found out that I SHOULD have received it and like the doctor they made me go see wrote down i couldn't walk, stand, sit, carry, lift for really any job and then the ppl who decided wrote I could do any job az long az it didnt require sight how fawked iz that? i've felt a bit left out again lately of the ppl of the AIM anime chatz life i feel like im not really included in the GREAT love circle since i never seem to b quoted when it comez to saying funny thingz and to b honest i think im pretty damned funny coz i love to act retarded i guess im just too wild for them az i used to feel ;/ eih letz see i actually got my mom to FINALLY consider letting me go spend the week at Melz while she and her husband go to thiz conference in NC the reason I got to go to Melz in the firsr place ;p kick ass tho im pretty excited coz i really miss Mel eih ohhh wellz. ohhh yah I've really been missing the bad mahn lately ;/ I really don't know why tho coz he could care less about me ;/ eih screw him I just can't stop thinking about him and I really wish I knew where thingz went wrong ;/ ohhh wellz i guess im gonna go now

laterZ

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DisorderRating
Paranoid:High
Schizoid:Moderate
Schizotypal:Moderate
Antisocial:Moderate
Borderline:Very High
Histrionic:Low
Narcissistic:Low
Avoidant:Moderate
Dependent:High
Obsessive-Compulsive:Moderate

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